[tadpole]

oh. i forgot. i watched whatsitcalled again? tadpole today. stupid. i wanna box that guy's face. guess quite bad la. cos wasnt in the mood for that kinda movie. should have watched the other one. wats it called again? that one with the girl i like! and the guy. haha. ermmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. ermmmmmmmm. i forgot. some romantic comedy la. and i WANNA watch 8 miles. damnit. damnit. argh. sucks. oh. but tadpole's quite a good show la. hee. funny. esp all that french parts and the last and yada. lolx.

set adrift on 11:04 p.m. Thursday, January 30, 2003 . gbook .

[ache]

aint it always like that. dont they just leave when you never expect them to? they just. i dont know disappear or something. and it hurts. inside. everytime each one leaves. it hurts as much as a stab through you. i dont know why. but it somehow.. hurts? sigh.

feet are aching. are. is. are? aching. ouchie. oh. saw bonkie at robinsons today. argh. i wish i could hav gone chinatown to squeeze with the pple there and feel cny atmosphere eh? =) but feet hurt. damn late. and my bag's so bah heavy. blahhhhhhh. saw that whatsherface at robinson's too. hrm. k. realise all my clothes are red. red. so sian. why red. i like black. =) and i always make a mistake. too big or too small. blah. i wanna see my cousins tomorrow!!!!!! ok fine. im damn biased. but. but. nvm. hey. theyre nice k. i didnt see some of them during christmas due to i dunnowad shit. but they just werent there so anyhow nvm. tired. happy early cny. =)

set adrift on 10:33 p.m. Thursday, January 30, 2003 . gbook .

[>:O]

http://forums.hardwarezone.com/showthread.php?threadid=331395&highlight=diary nobody deserves to get slammed like that without reason. besides, you're just venting on whatever i dont know. sexist. there are many perspectives to everything, to each his/her own. if you dont like what you read/see, then fuck off.

set adrift on 10:30 p.m. Tuesday, January 28, 2003 . gbook .

[=)]

bah. he's crap. the guy talking on the tv news now. he IS crap. blahhhhh. rubbishing.

aint that something im too familiar about? that you dont have to remind me about? sigh. and itz as if i can do anything about it? sheesh. im crap.

haha. coldplay. everytime someone says that or i see that. i get reminded of the dentist back last yr, who kept talking while he was doing my teeth. sheesh. he did a bad job i think. but anyhow. he asked me if i listened to music, coldplay. lolx. coldplay's nice. =) ha. drawing lines? :)

oh i got my phone back. i dont know whether to be happy or sad? =)? =(? =\.

set adrift on 10:06 p.m. Monday, January 27, 2003 . gbook .

[declared:broke]

I declare myself super broke. bought slippers a SKIRT. muahahaha. read this: a skirt. s k i r t. lolx. anyway. whatever. ha. and erm rubbishes. oh socks. lol. anyhow. ya. whatever. i spent alot of marnie. im BROKE. i owe ella marnie miche money everyone marnie. haiiii. sad siaz. no money to pay phone bill liao. im dead. = blah. and i got locked outta the house, forgot to bring keys outs. sigh. totally screwed chem test today. kuo's gonna kill me. duh. and history test tmr. sigh. sigh sigh sigh. got worK thats due on wed. hav to piah tomorrow i think. werd. okay. better siam. =) haha. idrewaline, i drew a line for youuuuuuuuuuuuu. lolx. :)

set adrift on 09:38 p.m. Monday, January 27, 2003 . gbook .

[random-]

theressomethingwrongwithmeisweartheressomethingwrongwithmewhydeheck
amidoingwhatimdoingarghnonononoimnotlikethatidontcare.bah.theressomething
wrongwithme.=(

set adrift on 10:45 p.m. Sunday, January 26, 2003 . gbook .

[red-]

fucking hate them. for being just them which is a big problem. cos they dont even know anything? and its just my problem. my problem with them.

set adrift on 02:50 p.m. Sunday, January 26, 2003 . gbook .

[past-]

she's the only person i think ive ever hated so much. i think. and him. but then again, they're all but memories. all the past? and supposedly, it takes as much energy to hate someone as to love someone. so i guess it would be changed to dislike intensely yah? and she didnt even do anything. i guess? i guess i just dont know her yah. but i still dont like her anyway. and him. he's an ass. he died a long time ago. now, he's i dont know who. the face. its still the same. i guess? but. the person. no longer the same person. all the past. all in the p ast.

set adrift on 10:24 p.m. Saturday, January 25, 2003 . gbook .

[smile.]

was happy today. sigh. i should keep my word right? told myself i got over them. ha. sounds funny. but anyhow. they're happy. they're so idunnoanythingimnotthinkinganything happy. silly. thats why i love them. general. not specific. feels happy... and sad? im... envious? i dont know. comes to mind this phrase from a song i think "im found wanting..." i think? sigh. got hit on the head though. blah. nvm. 2 times. sigh. silly. oh. leadership training was utterly crap. but i did that nicenice border thing for grace. =) i think jade's cute!!!!! haha. really. and is sillyadorablecute? haha. maybe not so overdone. but anyhow. =) liddat << haha. k. this song very farnieeeee. haha. my father knows how to sing it? HAHAHAHAHA. LOL. im amused. =) haha. okie. tada. the end. blue suede - hooked on a feeling

set adrift on 10:16 p.m. Saturday, January 25, 2003 . gbook .

[persons-]

rem i wasnt happy on my past few birthdays. just wanted yours to be different. wanted you to be happy. euphony estatic happy. =) ha p py.

them:
- sam
- rina
- zx
- marian
- ella
- shu
- khin
- hs
- jy
- derek
- liz
- kenneth
- d
- ty
- daniel
- michefong

so iRRITATED!!!!!!!!!!!! I forgot abt mvpqingren. blahblahblahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. sigh. need sleep. good night...

current: « sam² » are y o u sad? idontcareanymore.idontwanttocareanymore.imtired.

set adrift on 11:46 p.m. Friday, January 24, 2003 . gbook .

[fridaynight]

the only gift i want from you is sincerity.

went to find rina after band today. =) did this preeeeetie candle thing with help from ella. haha. hey at least i thought of it myself! and started it myself! =) haha. im pleased with it yarh? thankuz ella for helping me. haha. u keep tellin me to do it myself though. sigh. ah. =) rina's got an accent! haha. she liked the cake corni though. lolx. happy. thought my gift like v. shitty liddat. khin liked her present!!!!!!! HAHAHAHA. =D lolx. is silly. :) dunno abt ella though. the milk started leaking out? werd. hai. dunno wad i did siaz. lol. until you're safe and sound... i love singapore. <3<3<3 =) its my home at least. hai. hrm. gotta chiong homework and study for tests liaox. am sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy. i wan to go to esplanade. hai. good night. =) got band marching tmr. i march like crap. sigh.

set adrift on 11:30 p.m. Friday, January 24, 2003 . gbook .

[nah-]

you dont practise what you preach.

nah. you dont.

but neither do i. i guess?

set adrift on 11:41 p.m. Wednesday, January 22, 2003 . gbook .

[stupidlittlegirl]

ha. ha ha ha. stupid little girl. stupid little naive girl. right? you should go bang your head against the wall. cos youre just a stupid little girl. then perhaps, just maybe you'd wake up. u're not going to be like that. you won't allow yourself to be like that. remember? remember everything? ya. xiao mei mei, ji de qing chu dian, bu yao xiang na yang, na yang de ben le. okay? good.

set adrift on 11:38 p.m. Wednesday, January 22, 2003 . gbook .

[=)]

watched white oleander (think the spelling is correct) today. =D nicenice. =) haiii. very haiii-y show? dunno. muz think. :) not braindeaded kind. hrm. yup. walking in the rain. not really by choice but nevermind. ish nice cept i have glasses so quite irritating. then this guy from india/russia came up to ask directions to little india then he damn farnie. he ask directions liao. then talk dunnowad. this that singapore night life. women/girls. school haha. and blah. then after that he say ok. hrm. why dont we walk around or sth la. then me ella AR??????? haha. cOz wanted to go spotlight. but couldnt get rid of him. not very nice kno? plus he tourist la i think. then damn werd lorh. then errr hehe. errrrrr hehe we gotta buy something la. then we siam. THEN v. pissifying can? stupid guy talktalktalk then spotlight close liao. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:O HUMPH. stupid man. stupid stupid man. sigh. oh i cant remember his name liao. but he gave me d creeps. a bit la. dunno. haha. maybe cos im not that friendli u kno? =P if it makes you happy it cant be that bad... if it makes you happy... then why the hell are you so sad. hai. at least siansian still manaGed to get a little bit of things done? =) hee. need to chiong homework now. sleeeeeeeeeeepy. oh. today played bball in sch, damn happy. haha. cOz stupid couldnt score then after that can. then the ball damn mei. =) hee. ok la. nvmmmmmmmmmm. =P haha. sigh. muz remind self to give ella her prez on friday i think? friday should be fine. =) haha. v.stupid the prez. so overdue liao. but ah well. make me feel bad. cOz mine cant measure up to hers. haiiiiiiiiiiii. hrmph. dunno la. haha. hs said. nvm look forward into the future. cannot be trapped in the past. hrm. trapped. in the past. hai. i wanna box that person's face. or sth. stupid guy. no not hs. sorry. =P erh. nvm. shuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!! get well soon k? if i could fall into the sky, do you think time would pass me by. cos you know i'd walk a thousand miles if i could just see you tonight. oh dearie. wrong song. nvm. it sounds too not with my mood. ha. nvm. =) everything so wrong living in your precious memory. ah well. kkkk. muz do work. =)

set adrift on 09:45 p.m. Monday, January 20, 2003 . gbook .

[quiz: element]


What element would you rein over? (For Girls)
brought to you by Quizilla

i dunno siaz.

set adrift on 09:36 p.m. Monday, January 20, 2003 . gbook .

[if-]

if one day i got knocked down by a car, would you come to my funeral?

maybe maybe not

wouldnt be able to accept that youre gone. that i will never be able to see you again or talk to you again, that you wont ever be there again. dont wanna believe that youre not around anymore. that it'd be the last time i see you without you seeing me. that i didnt tell you how much you meant to me as a friend; and that i'd never forget you no matter what.

set adrift on 04:39 p.m. Sunday, January 19, 2003 . gbook .

[mis-]

they were talking about the book of acts in church today. for some werd reason. i keep writing everything? i dont know. paper looked so empty. hai. and when is grunge punk? is grunge punk????????? i dunno. whatever. not meant to be. like duh. punk? sigh. and they were talking about baptism of the holy spirit and gifts? gifts given to people like oratory, empathy, compassionate heart etc. hai. some friend i am? too wrapped up in my own leetle insignificant small matters i didnt notice. i didnt know. but if i did... then? outta inspiration. i still lik all the things she said. oh. and the song in church we sang today. imlivinginthelifelifeofthelivinggodlivinginthewordwordofthelivingsonlivinginhiskingdomandimlivinginhispower ohoh. =) fast catchy. =) i like. and the people in church are conservative and they only sing songs they know well and i dunno? =( sigh. got homework. bro chasing me off the com though he plays and does dunnowad rubbish on it too. i guess? feeling bad cos i didnt get miche anything. and i think now. but i dunno wad to get anyhow? rina's birthday today. wonder where she is and how is she? still in sg or back in nz. sigh. realised yesterday i already gave up and bu ren ren le. ying wei ta men ye bu ren wo le. hai. everything seems to be a mistake. regretted.

set adrift on 02:55 p.m. Sunday, January 19, 2003 . gbook .

[outofmylife]

She’s out of my life
She’s out of my life
And I don’t know whether to laugh or cry
I don’t know whether to live or die
And it cuts like a knife
She’s out of my life

It’s out of my hands
It’s out of my hands
To think for two years she was here
And I took her for granted
I was so cavalier
Now the way that it stands
She’s out of my hands

So I’ve learned that love’s not possession
And I’ve learned that love won’t wait
Now I’ve learned that love needs expression
But I learned too late

And she’s out of my life
She’s out of my life
Damned indecision
And cursed pride
I kept my love for her
Locked deep inside
And it cuts like a knife
She’s out of my life

*She's Out Of My Life - By T. Bahler
havent heard the song yet. still receiving from jy. but i like the lyrics i guess? me thinks someone would like it too. but nvm. shrugs.

set adrift on 12:21 a.m. Sunday, January 19, 2003 . gbook .

[iwantedto]

i wanted to say. how are you? have you changed? i was sad you know? i was sad you went away. i was sad you didnt believe in frienships between guys and girls. and because of that. i guess we're strangers now are we? i wanted to say do you treat me as a stranger or a friend? or do you talk to me only cos you want something from me? is it some kind of obligation to link me? i wanted to ask you how were you? whats happening in your life? wanted to ask if you still remembered last time? wanted to ask if you were ever angry at me. if you were playing last time though i kno you were just rebounding. i wanted to ask if i meant anything to you. but i guess i dont. stupid question isnt it? when i already kno the answer. i wanted to tell you i missed you. though we were never very close. but i still miss you as a person. ...but i didnt. i didnt dare to. cos i already knew all the answers.

set adrift on 12:12 a.m. Sunday, January 19, 2003 . gbook .

[are you?]

mostly. sad people listen to sad songs. and etc.

are you sad?

set adrift on 11:47 p.m. Saturday, January 18, 2003 . gbook .

[=)]

oh the sso concert rocked. like totally? haha. quite draining. but is damn nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH. im so jealous. =( they play damn nice lo. k. that's so duh. but.!!!!!!!!!!!! hai. nvm. i wanna watch stravinsky's rite of spring ballet. haha. =) esplanade is preeeeeeeeetie. and thankuX ella n miche. i love my christmas v.v.v.v.belated gift. haha. very mei3. =)

set adrift on 11:43 p.m. Saturday, January 18, 2003 . gbook .

[bye]

sigh
dunno how many times ive said sorry today? sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry ty ella. =( sorry. sorry edwin julian ah loong.

i always liked third person more. i like the feeling it gives. =) oh. nice photo by jy? =D i like the way the sky and sea is seperated by just one line? kinda. got song to go along with it too. fits it perfectly. :)

guess everything ends with this doesnt it. i hate this feeling you know? it sure took me a long time eh? she kinda knew it. but she didnt want to believe in it? with each time, it slowly fades. until it's gone completely. just another memory of the past like all the others. every day. "sorry. bye." too many things remembered.
taka. illusion impulse air. hugO. xiao mei mei. meilinG. mvp qing ren. that song. that scary garbage song. is she crazy. the crutches. taxi. fun fair. orchard lights. xiao qi. angry liao ar? pokepokepoke yao kan ren tiao ma? huh qing ni he cha. mei shi. wen ni chi bao le mei. corny.
hai. dunno la. dun think. she doesnt know if shes holding them back. but does it matter? it doesnt. they've flown away. they've gotten up and walked away. they've died that day. right? cold. did she push them away? or did they leave by themselves? we are all innocent. our lady peace. cold. sigh. tired. isnt it ironic. alanis morisette byebye. im sorry. for everything i did. i dont know what i did. but i feel azif i did something wrong. :( sorry.
bye.

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set adrift on 11:16 p.m. Saturday, January 18, 2003 . gbook .