[plug : faith]
oh i saw this cat kitten on my way home after band. cos saw this ny girl on the bridge, she turned out to be renhui! heh. and she was with this kitten. very cute. :) i love kittens. not cats. only kittens. quite shit. dont like them anymore once they grow up. :S sigh. oh and the baldy bf didn't turn out to bad i guess. i varnished his head, to make it very shiny == bald == shiny bald head? :P heh. so silly.
plugging : faith because i forgot to do so earlier and i've been too lazy to change my links.
i detest saturdays. there are too hectic for me. OHCRAP its almost 11 soon. i forgot to practise my piano. shitty. how? gotta play tomorrow. damn. i have this naggy feeling that im going to end up failing this year. sigh. i do hope khin's safely back home. :S dont know where she is. her mom called me again. and ella smsed me to ask me if i knew where she was. sigh.
set adrift on 10:41 p.m. Friday, August 30, 2002 .
[talkinincircles]
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone.
*avril lavigne - losing grip
im starting to like this lady even more. :) very glad i went for band today. 'morning madness' is so cute!!! hiak. wanna go sleep. got so much to do. shouldnt have over-eaten during dinner. me == bloated pig. :S sigh. the hols are here. doesn't feel like hols though. i can't wait for the exams to be over. or maybe i'll be dead before then, will i, Lord?
current nick : « sam² » why are you being so nice
set adrift on 09:50 p.m. Friday, August 30, 2002 .
[winterinjuly]
Look around wonder why
we can live a life that's never satisfied
Lonely hearts troubled minds
looking for a way that we can never find
Many roads are ahead of us
with choices to be made
But life's just one of the
games we play
There is no special way
Make the best of what's given you
everything will come in time
why deny yourself
don't just let life pass you by
like winter in July
Future dreams can never last
when you find yourself still living in the past
Keep moving on to higher ground
looking for the way you thought could not be found
We may not know the reason why
we're born into this world
where a man only lives to die
his story left untold
Make the best of what's given you
everything will come in time
why deny yourself
don't just let life pass you by
like winter in July
*sarah brightman - winter in july
set adrift on 11:06 p.m. Thursday, August 29, 2002 .
[sleepy =|]
i hate my freaking comments. its either down or busy or something. shall change when i archive i think. if i can be bothered to.
crap. should i do my zuowen my crp and my art? or should i heck abt my zuowen, send my crp to my teacher tomorrow and just do my art? then i can sleep. :|
hope my grandfather will be fine. he's in hospital for an operation. :( didn't know NUH has changed to much.
went back to nyps today 'cos i have band tomorrow unless something happens and school. so there is no free time to go back. and i haven't been back forever. miss ny. :( saw mrs ee mrs yeo and zhou lao shi. only. sigh. the other teachers already went home i think. sigh. maybe i'll wake up sick tomorrow.
set adrift on 10:57 p.m. Thursday, August 29, 2002 .
[quiz : which avril lavigne song are you?]
Which Avril Lavigne Song Are You?
set adrift on 10:43 p.m. Thursday, August 29, 2002 .
[theface]
yuck. the mouth the mouth! :S oh no. my boyfriend's face has died. sigh. shall chuck him in the bin. oops. er. nevermind. ARGH. i should have done a girl. it would have been much easier. darn.
set adrift on 10:29 p.m. Wednesday, August 28, 2002 .
[randomsonglyrics]
Met you by surprise, I didn't realize
That my life would change forever
Saw you standing there, I didn't know I cared
There was something special in the air
Dreams are my reality
The only real kind of real fantasy
Illusion are a common thing
I try to live in dreams
It seems as if it's meant to be
*richard sanderson - reality
Wise men say only fools rush in
but I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
would it be a sin
If I can't help falling in love with you
Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life too
for I can't help falling in love with you
* ub40 - cant help falling in love with you
(richard marx - cant help falling in love)
set adrift on 11:27 p.m. Tuesday, August 27, 2002 .
[notetoself]
jon's nick : =o c h r e o u s i d = &imlost.
note to self: read edwin thumboo's island.
'a deep rich earth colour' & 'the dark primitive deepest desires' & 'and the act of being lost.'
set adrift on 11:24 p.m. Tuesday, August 27, 2002 .
[quiz : whats your superpower]
 |  |
I can bend. I can stretch. I can mold my finger to match a keyhole. I am resourceful and resilient. I take nothing seriously, as life's troubles just seem to "bounce off" me. I am far from softspoken. I'm also known to crack a joke or two... or twenty. Wouldn't you? After all, I am rubber, you are glue...
What's your superpower? |
really?
set adrift on 10:35 p.m. Monday, August 26, 2002 .
[goodmorning]
its late i need to sleep. screw the weekend. me == procrastinator. sigh. i didnt manage to get work done after all. still struggling. bleah. good morning.
set adrift on 01:47 a.m. Monday, August 26, 2002 .
[psychogeometricsystem]
im a circle?
so my mom says. lol.
set adrift on 04:00 p.m. Sunday, August 25, 2002 .
[ifyouwouldletus]
iknowimnotsupposedtofeellikethis
butshitifeelsobadforbeingnormal.
true. maybe we dont understand. maybe we cant understand. but its not because we dont want to. what if we dont want to be normal? we just wanna be a friend. but how can we do that if u would never think of us in that way. if your mind is so set, there's no way to give it a bit of space, to let us in? if you already have this mindset and theres nothing we can do or say or no matter how we try, its gonna be useless. if you wont let us in. everybodys different. everybody has their own different problems which take different priorities and require different things outta them. thats what makes everybody special. everybodys different. we cant help being who we are. we din ask to be born this way, to live this lives we're living. we cant help being who we are. you dint choose to be who u are, neither did we. everybodys different. no im not slamming. we just want to be your friend. it seems az if we keeping hitting a wall. but we just want to be a friend. if you would let us.
set adrift on 03:04 p.m. Sunday, August 25, 2002 .
[smalltalkwithastranger]
edit: oh here it is!
k thx bey.
bleah. i knew it.
nevermind. was a werd day. werd and tiring. overslept!!! ack. almost missed the history test. :S alarm clocks are useless on me. i set two alarm clocks, none managed to wake me up. passing down ceremony was... werd. :) and we din talk much. :( sad. sigh. A.R.T was fine i guess. alot of talkingandtalkingandtalking. grins. they talked and i felt thirsty just listening to them. ah well. better than going for theory though i still feel guilty cos theory + aural costs a bomb. went bumming in orchard. yummy. love crepes. :) hehe. went all the way to bishan to eat it. its not as nice as bugis' though! hermph. i have no money. must... save... i wanna buy alot of stuff. :) silly me. mistook 19.90 for 9.90 sob. now i'll have to wait till next year june again! from last year to this year to next year. blarh.
oh ya on the mrt home, me and ella were talkingtalkingtalking. then suddenly this guy sitting beside me was listening i think then he made this comment, "thats nice. that's very nice." in reference to ella talking abt this shop uncle whose shop they used to frequent and gave them 2 shirts for christmas. all of them. yup. freeaakkkyyyy. cos like suddenly commented. then :O? besides the fact he din look very 'normal' from the start. sorry, that's opinionated. shrugs. shouldnt say that. then was like... he kept staring and staring. ack. :S then he started writing in this book or something. when ella left. he was like writing and saying it aloud. then asked me a question. o.O turns out he thinks i look like his friend or dunnowad. so keep staring. but im older than him. hiakhiakhiak. made werd small talk. but he's harmless and nice enough i guess. :) heh. quite freaky. small talk with a stranger. lalalala :X the last time something werd like this happened was at the botanics gdn with this jap tourist. haiii~
tired. should go sleep soon. need to do some work though. only managed to get ite done today.
set adrift on 11:08 p.m. Saturday, August 24, 2002 .
[unimpt]
bleah. my entry disappeared. forgetit. i think i must have unknowingly closed the window. sigh.
set adrift on 10:59 p.m. Saturday, August 24, 2002 .
[notetoself]
feeling pleased. just finished 'filing' my shits. they're like stacked everywhere, squashed into every single possible empty space. there. :) it was long overdue. not even sure the drawer i occupy in school has any of these. i know it couldnt close the last time i checked. too many things and mrs yak was like, "so you own this drawer?" :X
this will be a productive week. this must be a productive week. do remind me to do my work. :) my agenda:
+ irs
+ home ec
>> tacking and i dunnowadderheck
>> online shopping assignment
+ sci overdue worksheet(s)
+ study for science test
+ chi overdue report
+ zhouji
+ eng filing? (filesinsch)
hm doesnt seem so much now. but irs a whole lot of heck by itself. bleah. im sick of my silly project. heck. muz be organised. must not slack. must start studying. must do work...
set adrift on 11:45 p.m. Friday, August 23, 2002 .
[xcountryday]
:: listen to the rhythm of the falling rain
mean people will always be mean people. 'nuff said.
im bored. b o r e d. came home after school today. there was zero persons online. first ever... well for a long time that is. didnt go for xcountry. :( i wish i was well. it would have been more fun than staying at home. in deepshit. arranged too many things for tomorrow. one big mess. history test at 7 plus i cant remember the exact time. but its v.v.v.early. sob. nvm. theres band. but i cant play. crap. i still wanna go though cos my sec4 seniors are supposedly gonna come back and talk and scold and pass the responsibility (?) to the sec3s or something? darno. i have theory + aural lesson after that. shit. exams' only 2 wks away. feel so unprepared. a first. its like nothing done. nothing 100% ready. bleah. have to miss aural lessons i think. got A.R.T and i cant get outta it cos its already been paid. sigh. if i knew it was saturday, i wouldnt have asked abt it. how am i supposed to explain to my parents now? feels... awkard.
maybe i really outta go study. seems the best way to use my time now. if not it'll juz fly by without me noticing and tada, it's gone. no more time left. -panics=
damn. i wish i could have gone for xcountry. poor yinkae, though.
set adrift on 09:41 p.m. Friday, August 23, 2002 .
[yuckypills]
argh. they increased again. 5 plus 2 panadol. i dont wanna take. bleah. 2 orange. 1 white sleepy one. 1 trachisan. 1 for throat infection i think. dontcare. my art composition looks werd. :S ... and creepy.
set adrift on 12:31 a.m. Friday, August 23, 2002 .
[moodswings]
its amazing how someone can affect my mood so much. sigh.
ah. steph was singing this in class today. and i heard it on radio. by a-teens but the old vs nicer. :)
cos wise men say
only fools rush in
but i cant help falling in love with you
nicenice. am sick. officially. :X went to see the doc. got an mc (surprisingly) for tmr. tmr's xcountry. ohwell. and siok says i passed the germs to her.
quote her:"i can see all the germs floating around you". sigh.
feels bad that i cant help. i dont know why. thats where i find my aim i guess. my aim of life? dont know. makes life seem less meaningless. not only for you but i guess im selfish too. its for me too. maybe? but the feeling after that... its... i dont know.
should be going to sleep. am sick am sick am sick. bleah. i juz thank God i can breathe properly now. muz do art. maybe i'll wake up with a fever tomorrow. then i can use my mc.
ella? which self protrait? :O
set adrift on 11:32 p.m. Thursday, August 22, 2002 .
[muznotwhinemuznotjustifymuzhaveselfcontrol]
shouldnt be here. dont have the will power, the self control. argh. i dont wanna fail again tmr. the last test was supposed to be easy and i JUST passed. freak. if that was easy and this is said to be very hard, im going to fail, like FAIL that bad. damnit. and its not as if i dont study for chinese lorhx. that's like the only subject i really bother to study? sigh. shouldnt whine. shouldnt make excuses for myself.
oh yes, im sorry. do i ... know you?
freak. hm. should i go run? it would help. but desperately trying to get outta xcountry now. with a valid reason of course. i AM sick. no faking it. sigh. and the seniors are coming back this sat. argharghargh. when i pon training yesterday, bm and icantremwho saw me? so unlucky. nevermind. i had a good reason. :X argh. must go offline. must not succumb to temptation. spelling? feels as if my grammer and vocab's getting worse. :S
muznowhinemuznotjustifymuzhaveselfcontrol.
set adrift on 03:52 p.m. Wednesday, August 21, 2002 .
[deadrant]
dead tired. i swear im going to breakdown one day. and whats wrong with the word 'tempt'. my dad burst into a rage when i used it. cos he was eating then he purposely came up to me and my brother. then i was like "you purposely bring here to tempt us you know. you know we shouldnt eat it." and blahblahblah. and he was like. like that >> :@ the msn face. "...TEMPT! im not satan you know! TEMPT. dont ever use such a word!!! ..." blahblahblah. dontknowwhat. is it really that serious? :X nevermind.
didn't go for band today. mouth had ulcers and my lip crack, started bleeding. plus i forgot to bring my mouth piece to school. sigh. :( dont wanna run this friday. had to run today - 4 rounds. usually it would be okay. but i haven't been running. wanna drop dead and fall to sleep. but that means i have to squeeze all my mugging to tomorrow. dont think i'll be able to remember anyway. must sleep earlier... must sleep earlier ... must...
set adrift on 09:24 p.m. Tuesday, August 20, 2002 .
[iwishihadthetalent]
i like this this (reminds me of pearl harbour) this (is creeped) and this. ok there's more. but heh. nevermind. its nice!!!! so realistic. and guess what? its freehand digital drawing. ouch. how the heck do they do it? bleah. she's good. really! see her gallery! :D:D:D lalala~
set adrift on 11:32 p.m. Monday, August 19, 2002 .
[rush]
cant slow down or everything will catch up with you.
set adrift on 10:12 p.m. Monday, August 19, 2002 .
[busybusyday]
grins. woke up at 945 plus it started raining. sob. left the house at about 11 reach city hall at 1135 waited for my very EARLY friends humph. saw sun wu kong. hehe. v.amusing. later saw him with his gf(?) grins. then his face v.black. wonder if he recog. me. ROFLMAO. we went to the soup spoon! heh. but walked in sat down. look at the food went out. grins. pizza is nice though. exp. -looks sadly at wallet- walked all the way to suntec coffee bean and hiak. did homework. :) till about 430 liz had to leave so we went back to the mrt me and ella went to taka, i needed to return lib books. :) marian went home. then we were bumming around. grins. i got no marnie!!! humph. muz save. then can spend. lalala. walked to heeren. went to buy my pencil case. yay. haha. its PEEENK. lol. ok la. not whole thing pink. eek. so erxin. but lol. nvm. grins. v.squishy. had to rush home. i was late. i stepped into the house and my silly bro said, "you're under arrest for coming back so late and for not going to school." -hobblehobblehobble= haii. nvm. eek. owell. i juz narrated but nvm. :) busybusyday. muz go save up then can go buy. :) yay. -adds stuff to shopping list= :D i want another holiday. :( -thinks of ways to psycho school admin=
set adrift on 09:20 p.m. Monday, August 19, 2002 .
[rant : missingthattime]
heeK. we dont have school tmr. uh. i mean today. muz do work. i miss rafflescity and citylink. :( shall drag myself up earlie tmr then wont waste my morning. muzdoworkmuzdowork. muz not waste time on com doing rubbish. if not eoy will die die die. :( feelin so slpy. like wanna drop dead but then got alot of energy too. bleah. contradicting. herm. no lar. more like ermm. trying to ren3. :) forcing myself to keep my eyes open and be all :D:D:D:D lalala-ish. which i have been anyhow since i came online at 10plus today. v. happy. finished my book. :D heh. john grisham - the runaway jury. dont know. jus read read read then finito. sigh. the exegesis book looked nice but content abit werddd. still like the bluuuuu nowhere. nicenice. siok said she wud get it for me for her bdae but i bet she wudnt cos if she bought it she wud be so tempted to keep it for herself. i shud also start talking properly. Like this> :). Caps, perfect sentencey. amazing how some people talk like that and its so werd while others do and its like normal or something. maybe jus me. sigh sigh. ok. shall stop blabbering.
muz do:
+ erp (notetoself: qn3/6/8, the giver)
+ crp (notetoself: qn2, old man and the sea)
+ overdue physics ws
+ art composition
+ brochure (grpwork)
+ study for chi
+ home econs assignment
+ home econs tacking/binding (bleah i dont know how to do, will someone teach me?)
oh no. it looks so much. die. :( sob. and i need to file everything. my life's in a mess. eek. muz get sleep too! lalalaa. i miss rafflescitycityhallcitylink. :(
resolves to do work. be awake in class. not mess and waste my life away. muz do well for eoy. :(
kevin kern is nice. jennifer paige too. ooh. gregorian. :) la~ P!^eP is v.silly. lol. but v. fun. :) silly crazee boy.
craving crepes. missing cityhall. darn where should i go tomorrow? muz do work muz do work! eeK. have to wake up at 9. oh dear. i hope ella wakes up. -doubts=
edit: oh no. i just realised when i type i think one thing but type something else. so contradicting. oh dear. :S
set adrift on 12: 59 a.m. Monday, August 19, 2002 .
[quiz : what adjective are you]
what adjective are you?
quiz by maikamariel
set adrift on 01:33 p.m. Sunday, August 18, 2002 .
[homealone]
home alone again. just popped by popular at bt plaza. quite pleased, dont know. now, even shopping at popular makes me happy? heh. dont have much money. mom paid for me. :D muz save!!! shouldn't waste... sigh. should be getting work done. listening to all those songs i downloaded last time. :) nice nice. chi songs : emil chau : xian zai cai shuo wo ai ni; zhe mo le. heh. i know how to burn cds! happy. lalala.
current nick : « sam² » they regretted
set adrift on 01:27 p.m. Sunday, August 18, 2002 .
[quiz : which era in time are you]
Which era in time are you?
set adrift on 01:26 p.m. Sunday, August 18, 2002 .
[iwillsurvive]
sam is surviving.
sam will survive.
right? :D
set adrift on 02:07 a.m. Sunday, August 18, 2002 .
[nostalgic.]
i reach wall no matter how i hit.
its useless.
i wish you were here.
why did you disappear when i wasnt looking.
and i didnt realise it till it was too late.
set adrift on 12:39 a.m. Sunday, August 18, 2002 .
[quiz : little miss]
which mr. men/little miss are you?
take the quiz & find out! :)
quiz made by jaded_dazey
set adrift on 11:07 p.m. Saturday, August 17, 2002 .
[hauntingme]
v creeped out by those werd dreams i keep getting. i prefer to have dreamless sleeps, cos its either that or nightmares. and its the SAME KIND of nightmare over and over again. sigh. mentioned it once in my chi zhou ji for school cos i din have anything to talk about. my teacher commented i should relax, not be so tensed and all? dont know. sigh. maybe its stress. just everything getting to me. i swear im going to have a breakdown one day. cant possible coop up everything foreva. sigh. it just takes the right person i guess. the person who can get it outta my system. sometimes im really glad that ella, for the fun of it, gave me kenneth's contact though it was really realli werd at first. hez nice. :D not jus like nice nice, but... i dont know. and yup, like khin said, he's so damn smart - i dont know. its difficult to lie to him, he seems az if to know whats going on, cant lie, cant hide.
set adrift on 10:39 p.m. Saturday, August 17, 2002 .
[used]
i absolutely detest people who make use of me.
okay maybe they dont.
but they must want something.
there's a motive to everything.
set adrift on 10:13 p.m. Friday, August 16, 2002 .
[quiz : which peanuts character are you]
Which Peanuts Character Are You Quiz
set adrift on 09:55 p.m. Friday, August 16, 2002 .
[quiz : what kind of soul are you]
I'm exceptionally artistic!
Find your soul type at kelly.moranweb.com.
i never ever thought i was artistic, especially NOT exceptionally artistic.
set adrift on 08:21 p.m. Friday, August 16, 2002 .
[=)]
feeling much happier :D
heh. im getting addicted to such songs, to help me feel better when im down.
"its a perfect day and nothing's standing in my way"
:) smile too, yeh? and yinkae? -huggles=
set adrift on 10:20 p.m. Thursday, August 15, 2002 .
[sneezemydayaway]
feel horrible.
wish i could go there. i dont know why. but somehow, i feel very werd staying at home. feels as if i should be there. but i cant. :( hope she's okay. :S i did talk to her on the phone. know she's been crying. but somehow, the impression seemed as if she was trying not to, was trying to be strong, to sound ok. :S ARGH. i want to get out of this house. but i know my parents will never understand. they never do. not for these kinda things. they dont like it when or if i place friends first on the list. for some reason. esp my dad. he gets on my aunt's case all the time. dont think she'll read this; but if you do, u know we all care for you ok? try to cheer up. if need be, cry and let it out. i do hope your parents will stop being so unreasonable.
i should stop procrastinating, do my homework. live some kinda life, be it a study all the way kind or something, and stop bumming and wasting it all away. and get sleep.
hoping tomorrow will be a brighter day. it'll be :) friday.
set adrift on 08:48 p.m. Thursday, August 15, 2002 .
[actors?]
its amazing how everybody hides under their own custom-made mask. how their feelings and what they seem to be at that moment is totally different. its scary too... who is real?
set adrift on 04:03 p.m. Thursday, August 15, 2002 .
[quiz : role playing]
Find your Role-Playing
Stereotype at mutedfaith.com.
[Angel.]
set adrift on 04:03 p.m. Thursday, August 15, 2002 .
[thegiver =)]
drained. went to the library earlier with khin and ella. grins. ella was like "why do you all want to go to the LIBRARY?" grins. heh. but nice. borrowed few books, none that i had wanted to, though. couldn't find them. this book titled "the giver" :D v.v.v.draining. dont know why. seems like too tou ru? bleah. chinese words. lately keep finding chinese words seem most appropriate to express that feeling but its not right. sigh.
worried. when you're not stable, you tend to go extremes - exceptionally happy then sad to the max. :S
oh nevermind. making this really short. well, shorter. :) need to go shower then get started on my work. eeK. the book's too tempting. bleah. me == bookworm.
edit: i wanted to say it reminded me of "a wrinkle in time" but i forgot. :)
set adrift on 09:49 p.m. Wednesday, August 14, 2002 .
[lalala.itsahappyday]
lol. :D:D:D >> happier. :) pple like jy crack me up. nevermind. its supposed to be taken positively. btw. not as an insult or anything.
better watch my words. :D
set adrift on 11:26 p.m. Tuesday, August 13, 2002 .
[test : personality disorder]
set adrift on 09:15 p.m. Tuesday, August 13, 2002 .
[itsallinthemind]
but then you came along to my surprise
and stole my heart before my very eyes
you took me right out of the blue
playing on the winamp now.
is there really no other way to go? why does it always have to be me? shit i need sleep. falling asleep and getting caught at that is really no way to go about doing things. not when its happened not once not twice i cant remember how many times. not when you work starts blurring up before your very eyes. your handwriting... you call that handwriting? looks like a line of dont know what words. wait, its not even a line. its spots on the paper outta nowhere.
theres so many things i wanna say but its all up there cant seem to get them out anymore. somehow, when you have too much time to think, and youre not really doing anything else, weird thoughts just pop outta your head. mood swings first. topic switches fast. from one to another.
ooh. chinese song now. werd. my whole winamp seems to only have these kinda songs. no more mass downloading anymore though. sick of it. no more bb. no nothing. ella how do u survive? so bottled up inside, chaos in the mind. like some raging war, its not even making sense. too mixed up. too many things. too complicating.
stop tormenting. argh. just go away.
they say the ability to think is a gift. those who cant those who dont know anything, dont get a chance to learn, those who are so innocent, its not as if they wanted to be like that, not as if they chose to be like that. you should appreciate everything, cherish everything. i guess
do people take everything as it is? literally? ooh. and i liked maths today. logic and paradox. wanted to ask you something, but i guess that's kinda impossible now, right? english compre too. should go take some time to go to the library. -makes note to get sissela bok ; the need for secrecy and joan didion ; on keep a notebook= hmm. this song again, that moulin rouge one, different singer, the one jy sent. will ice cream help? chocolate sure didnt. bleah. food binging is bad. is that how its spelt? 'binging'. binge? shrugs. whatever.
i wonder if He can hear everything. i know im not supposed to doubt or anything. but i always did wonder. that's the problem with all these i guess. i do do wonder if He knows everything. would He be able to help me? theres nobody else anyway. it seems do difficult to tell it to someone. to tell everything. to say everything. to have to tell a story? i dont know how i managed it last time. oh well, i guess youre good. you got it outta me. bottling everything isnt that good i guess. everythings fighting to get out. but nothing seems to take form. hm what song is this. oh. "it can happen to anyone of us. anyone you think of. anything can fall. anyonen hurt someone they love.hearts will break. cos i made a stupid mistake." so much time wasted. MOV rocks. i do wish i was good at lit though. it would make things so much easier.
i realised one thing about blogging is that is so open. anybody can read it. kinda scary. i never thought so. it never gave me that much trouble. most people dont understand half or what i write anyway. do they?
someone's nick: <:)>why is life so complicated. sighz. troubled.
shouldnt be feeling like this. muz be stable. stable is good. then at least you wont fall that hard, will you? if you dont go extremes, it cant hurt as bad right? it shouldnt.
dont wanna lose you.
i dont need your sympathy
theres nothing you can say or do for me
cos im strong enough to live without you
strong enough and i quit crying
long enough
theres no more to say
so save your breath and walk away
no matter what i hear you say
im strong enough
to know
you gotta go
so you feel misunderstood
baby have i got news for you
on being used, i could write a book
but you dont wanna hear about it
cos ive been losing sleep
you never see me cry
always did like this song. still do. ever since that time. when was it? seems as if it was only yesterday. oh ya, it was the june hols. havent been to that ice cream place for ages. i miss it. grins. i spend too much money on food. i wonder why. really really hope ice cream will help now though. argh. its not good to listen to all these songs. depressing. i dont want to remember. they only remind me of you. and it wasnt what i thought it would be. like maths. :) the paradox today; expect the unexpected. some werd guy or girl i cant remember came up with that. yay. nice maths.
set adrift on 08:54 p.m. Tuesday, August 13, 2002 .
[foryouarealiar]
how do you let something take form
yet not put it in black and white
nor left inside your mind
some things are better left unsaid
set adrift on 08:16 p.m. Tuesday, August 13, 2002 .
[suspicious]
"really?"
or is THAT your real motive.
set adrift on 11:42 p.m. Monday, August 12, 2002 .
[miracle pill]
sad. my miracle pill doesnt work anymore.
it seems to make me sad, compelled happy. :(
set adrift on 10:13 p.m. Monday, August 12, 2002 .
[reminiscence]
seems so wrong when spoken aloud
the original intention gets twisted
can only get worse when trying to justify
yet i cant reveal all.
sounds wrong. sam should learn from ella; learn to not care. only gets her to into trouble, all those trouble which she created, asked for - all sam's fault.
sam's been through this before hasnt she? she can get past all these cant she? ya right. sigh. gotta try somehow. it can only hurt that much.
current nick: « sam² » shitiknowwhatstheendinggoingtobelikeagain
set adrift on 09:56 p.m. Monday, August 12, 2002 .
[touchy²]
i especially detest those people who go "oh but you're in gep" and assume you're a smart ass, who knows everything, who cant go wrong. now, where did that come from huh? oh ya right, so smart. -rollseyes=
i end up talking to myself all the time now. just up there in my head, there's this whole conversation, some battle raging. back and forth, sam says he can tell. that's why i dont make sense? i dont know.
you so so get on my nerves. yet, pray tell, why do i still bother? they all tell me not to bother. bleah. me == silly fool. all in the name of 'fun'? emotionally draining, i dont know.
"those were the days my friend, we though they would never end. we sing and dance forever and again."
too bad. they're gone. gone forever. no matter how you wish try hope for, they'll never come back again.
and whoever said big girls dont cry. thats a lie.
set adrift on 08:39 p.m. Monday, August 12, 2002 .
[quiz : bumper sticker]
My bumper sticker reads:
In English: Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn.
Take the quiz.
set adrift on 08:36 p.m. Monday, August 12, 2002 .
[howamigoingtodieeh?]
take the death quiz.
and go to mewing.net. laura = great.
wow. how exciting. khin, where de heck do you get all these tests? :O
set adrift on 10:37 p.m. Sunday, August 11, 2002 .
[aimlessranting]
in ref to this comment:
i wanted to. sorely tempted to. but i was trying to restrain myself. because of some weird reason and thinking that i had. but still ended up telling some people anyway. people who wouldnt really ... i dont know. i waited until the daily hits became fewer until it reached 2 or 0 because even after hiatus, there were still visitors from idontknowwhere. just some question i was trying to answer but i didnt get any answer in the end anyway.
beethoven - sonata in c minor :D:D:D
set adrift on 06:16 p.m. Sunday, August 11, 2002 .
[drainedduck]
showering is highly stressful. its gives you too much time to think - just like when you're in the pool. very depressing too.
current nick : « sam² » is it me or is it you?
indeed. but i guess it has its positive side as well as its negative side.
argh. i've barely touched my work. :S oh and the digital piano rocks. really! :D
set adrift on 06:12 p.m. Sunday, August 11, 2002 .
[wakeupyoublockhead]
how ungrateful can you get? bleah. regrets. why did i even bother with that that person. bah. sometimes, i wonder. purely wishful thinking on my part i guess.
set adrift on 05:39 p.m. Sunday, August 11, 2002 .
[quiz : what kind of child were you]
I WAS A GIFTED CHILD
i had my niche.
intelligent. creative. or artistic.
what kind of child were you?
(brought you by april)
this is a conspiracy. there must be something wrong. bah. but neither was i happy nor sweet nor bully (?) nor weird? bah, whatever.
note:
was
set adrift on 05:22 p.m. Sunday, August 11, 2002 .
[detach]
hittheground&facereality.
sometimes i just have to remember that im not the only person in this world. how selfish i am. -bish= i think too much for myself, yet mock everyone who puts themselves as top priority. hypocrite. how right ella is. now, it seems so much easier to be detached. cant be dependent, its dangerous. you'll just get hurt, somehow.
set adrift on 04:46 p.m. Sunday, August 11, 2002 .
[quiz : element]
Intuition. Insight. Emotions. Feelings.
Take the quiz.
set adrift on 04:40 p.m. Sunday, August 11, 2002 .
[quiz : inner flower]
what's your inner flower?
[c] s u g a r d
e w
set adrift on 04:29 p.m. Sunday, August 11, 2002 .
[fan1]
idontknowidontknowidontknowIDONTKNOW! argh.
set adrift on 10:14 p.m. Saturday, August 10, 2002 .
[sign?]
oh and you know what? if you do read my blog or something, i would really really appreciate it if you could leave a comment sign the gbook or something. :) + its kinda creepy when you get visitors but dont know who they are. :x
set adrift on 01:46 a.m. Saturday, August 10, 2002 .
[obscureanimal?]
What Obscure Animal are you?
grins. ger got 'nun' and 'sugar glider' too. oh dear. geeZ :O ahahaha. ROFLMAO. im sorry. im amused.
set adrift on 01:32 a.m. Saturday, August 10, 2002 .
[imsorry]
imsorryididntmeantodoitonpurpose.
set adrift on 01:11 a.m. Saturday, August 10, 2002 .
[<3 Singapore!]
muahaha. i cant say i am very patriotic to singapore but i dont hate singapore either. its my home, there's no where else that you feel that you'll fit in. i asked myself that question many times, came with no other answer beside singapore. dont you think so? wont there definitely be bias or judgement in another country? our government may not be one of the best but its OUR government, made up of singaporeans themselves who would want the best out of singapore too right? :) there's no other place i can really feel as if its home.
happy birthday singapore!
set adrift on 10:12 p.m. Friday, August 9, 2002 .
[happy national day!]
bleah. there goes my holidays. have to do choc-testing tomorrow and home econs proj on sat, so WHAT holidays? not forgetting the homework. sigh.
on a happier note, today was a happy day. grins. national day celebrations was much more fun than expected. and gack. i cant believe she is HER cousin. o.O
went to cine after that. i hate cine!!! was the whole world there or something? saw the rgs people, following that my seniors, next up the acs people in one whole (yowch) group. its like... whoa. then the tchs people. i thought it was only derek. bleah. its the whole group of them. -runs away= then we saw ger and the sji people. sigh. i absolutely detest cine.
austin powers was as corny as expected, i like mini me! grins. he's cute. and i got to eat ice-cream. :D:D:D yay. hiak. my brother caught me sleeping on the bus, he saw me from the bus-stop. oops. :$ ah well. :)
and btw, just because im a pushover so does NOT mean that gives you the right to bully me. blarh.
listening to: mltr-25 minutes
set adrift on 10:28 p.m. Thursday, August 8, 2002 .
[thegrouch.]
i cant possibly be pmsing but im definitely being ultimately the grouch and super touchy. + pissing everybody off. shrugs. blame my low self-esteem. there must be something wrong with me, i have no idea what though.
set adrift on 09:14 p.m. Thursday, August 8, 2002 .
[procrastinate-not]
dang the school server refuses to work - i just realised my graphic has some problems. sigh. am trying not to procrastinate and finish all the links since the comments are done and the gbook's fine too. :)
having a four days holiday. woohoo! it feels so much like the no-more-sch period i cant be bothered to stay awake during class anymore. sigh. everybody seems to be mugging. help. its so stressful. now, that's what i call peer pressure.
set adrift on 10:56 p.m. Wednesday, August 7, 2002 .
[bf? PUI.]
grins. to add to that nun thingae. :P:P:P what can i say eh? its undisputable. ooh. and i forgot where i got it from. heh.
set adrift on 09:15 p.m. Wednesday, August 7, 2002 .
[4thdegree]
You are lonely and depressive. You feel as though you are missing out on something, or as though something was taken from you. You are angry and bitter because of this, and seek to put the blame on someone else. You can be manipulative and vengeful. You need to learn to let things go.
Your songs are: Goodnight Kiss and Disappear
Which degree of inner turbulence are you?
This quiz was made by Dionae
some test i did yesterday. taken from
ella.
set adrift on 09:13 p.m. Wednesday, August 7, 2002 .
[nun? ooh.]
What Was Your PastLife?
ahahaha. this is VERY VERY amusing. grins. from reverie.
set adrift on 09:13 p.m. Wednesday, August 7, 2002 .
[>:O]
ahahaha. ya right. sooo amusing. grrr >:O. whats with all you acsb people? sigh. so fun hor? humph.
set adrift on 10:25 p.m. Tuesday, August 6, 2002 .
[forshow]
oh yes, and all those numbers below there? they all don't workkkk. so no use clickin yeh? let's see how long i'll last w/o telling anybody. not very long i think. i dont have selfcontrol.
set adrift on 10:05 p.m. Tuesday, August 6, 2002 .
[&iwanttogetsohigh]
you know what, come to think of it, there's really not much reason to start blogging all over again. i do really so hate pitas. but ads sucks, so blogspot is out. no host, and im too lazy to go figure out all those mt blahblahblah shit anyway. i have no life. so blog what?
sigh.
im sick of this monotone life. argh. enough gray black and white. going out seems a bore when you go out too much, ice-cream and music only works for a short period of time. so how, now?
set adrift on 09:41 p.m. Tuesday, August 6, 2002 .
[stabme.]
nothing seems to make sense anymore. don't know what the heck is going on. its just some jumbled up jigsaw puzzle or something and it feels as if you're watching a movie, watching everybody go by, watching everybody live their lives while yours is stagnant, on the pause mode, somehow stuck here, for God knows reasons why.
people keep changing so much, you cant recognise them the next day. they change so much it hurts to bad 'cos you dont seem to know them anymore.
and you change too. you change inside outside you cant recognise yourself anymore either. its like parts of you disintegrating into thin air. just *poof* disappear. you dont know who you are anymore. nothing seems to matter. you're just a piece of rock, stone. hard cold piece of ice that cannot feel anything.
stabme.
where it hurts most.
set adrift on 10:45 p.m. Monday, August 5, 2002 .
[useless]
argh testing
set adrift on 09:33 p.m. Monday, August 5, 2002 .
[rhetoricalqn]
&everybodyputsthemselvesastoppriority.
right?
set adrift on 09:19 p.m. Monday, August 5, 2002 .
[screwed]
screwed. bleah. under construction. but any comments, that comment thingae below aint working, im not sure if my gbook is still working but can try. its here. if not, flame me here.
edit: gbook's here.
set adrift on 08:54 p.m. Monday, August 5, 2002 .
[iknowidoittoobut]
(hypocrite)
just because you're not feeling good doesnt give you the right to vent it on others. and you dont just do it once. its not once. its twothreefourfivetimes.
(/hypocrite)
set adrift on 07:47 p.m. Monday, August 5, 2002 .
