[mooncakes galore]
mooncake sampling at taka. :) hehe. i tried lavender mooncakes? not bad. they sell theirs more exp than ours. i regret not buying the durian paste!!!!! eek. i like it. bleahhhh. sigh. and alot of other stuffs la. :) hrm. and i tried green tea mooncake from another brand, it tastes like chewing gum. and seseme sead and orange and cheese mooncake! gosh. really tastes like cheese. o.O haha. and tried red wine mooncake. tastes nice. :) lol a bit like bubble gum? sweet. hrm. and exp. they din let us try the bird nest wan. :S LOL. obv not gonna waste the good stuff on us mere students eh? and tried urmmm choc mooncake!!!! from shangrila hotel. hehehe. not bad. :) LOL. really wasted about the whole lavender thing tho. the mixed nuts isnt too bad too. :) haha. im in a mooncakisH mood. took some brochures home. considering? :)
mentor hasnt replied. quite screwed considering i have to handup the report tomorrow. dont know how. prob do all the others and try to salvage the first hypothesis first. bleahhhhh. sigh. oh well. off to bed. :) gdnight. its der 31st in half hr or so. august is over soon. i think im happy? :)
set adrift on 11:33 p.m. Saturday, August 30, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : behaviour towards guys]
" www.pitas.com? "
Scared
What is your behaviour towards guys?
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when i saw this i was really ? thats why -look above- nvm u prob dont get it. really eh? LOL. farnie. :P
set adrift on 12:24 a.m. Saturday, August 30, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : behaviour towards guys]
" www.pitas.com? "
Scared
What is your behaviour towards guys?
brought to you by Quizilla
when i saw this i was really ? thats why -look above- nvm u prob dont get it. really eh? LOL. farnie. :P
set adrift on 12:24 a.m. Saturday, August 30, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : colour]
Red
What is your colour?
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and then? what's red ==? mybe there's a reason why ive suddenly taken a liking to wearing red clothes. o.O
set adrift on 12:01 a.m. Saturday, August 30, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : glass half -----?]
Is the glass half full or half empty?
have i done this quiz before? vaguely looks familiar. anyway the last question is are you an optimist/pessimist. funny how i put pessimist and the results immediately said : "YOU ARE AN OPTIMIST!" dots.
set adrift on 11:56 p.m. Friday, August 29, 2003 .
gbook .
[photos]
oh i forgot. teachers day celeb photos? courtesy of joanna. ack. i dont know whether to link her. nevermind. er ya. here. =)
set adrift on 11:50 p.m. Friday, August 29, 2003 .
gbook .
[mismatched thoughts]
I remember ella and I were thinking about getting yinkae fisheees once. for christmas. i think we didnt. :S and pumpkins and orange stuffs. :) that seemed like decades ago. ages. a long long time ago. makes me sad. :(
makes me sad how i dont seem to know you anymore. you-s. i wonder why. i wonder if it was cos of him. suddenly? or gradually? i think it was more of a gradual thing. and work. and hssrp. and irs. and everything? and that one two weeks. that seemed like the deciding blow i would like to call it. blow. der thing that hacKed at it and showed it for what it was truly. feel like crying. half. when they took the photo today. i suddenly realised it. i mean i had somehow always known. but it never seemed so clear so obvious with such a distinction in line. maybe its the class. es. maybe its jus time. maybe this is what its meant to be. nothing much to it. wonder how come last year it never came to this. maybe it did. at one point. but it somehow didnt end up like that. not really?
i cant tell if im actually really really bothered by it. i think ive changed. have i? i changed in my mindset. my perception. sure i think all the same. i think the way khin and xy says. think too much. think about all the stuff i used to and still do, but much lesser now. i wonder why. i miss coffee bean. i love the smell there? the feel. i like places like that. what exactly do you call that? i like places like millenia walk, city hall, marina, quiet mRts roads. not quiet haunting in that sense. but unpopulated. not crowded. not like the bustling orchard squeezed jam-pack with people. not like heeren. not like cine. it irritates me. taka is crowded but theres levels it aint crowded? taka is different, maybe cos of macs. maybe cos of kino maybe cos of the library. i dont like poseuR malls like cine. and heeren? seems dumb. dun slam me. i define poseur however i like it. how do you know i mean what you think i mean?
i think we've all changed. not drastically. jus in some sense or another. adapted to our environment, our surroundings, switched changed a little in perhaps how we express ourselves how much we think what we think whats top priorities whose our friends. i guess i'll still be able to talk to you but it'll be different. you wont come and find me if i dont find you. i dont seem to need to find you- theres no point. i feel like im disturbing you. i cant do anything about it and im not going to. sun4 zhe4 zi4 ran2 ba. sighs. it still makes me kinda sad tho.
things change, time goes by.
i hate going back to my psch. since sec1. i never liked it. them the crowD. the big group. us the little few minorities. us they ignore. us they dont give a shit we're invisible. i dont like how ive changed the teacher i went back to see who made the greatest kinda impact on me doesnt even remember my name. since sec1. every year. hi im xu liling. :) i hate it. makes me grumpy. of course, she has zillions of students its been 3 years hows she to remember? fine. i still dont like it. ive never been outstanding; im not super smart the teachers wun ever forget me. not so slack naughty until i fail everything and the teachers super pissed and she scolds me everyday. i dont talk much in class. im jus there. blended into the crowd the surroundings. not very remember-able. rather forgettable. i wouldnt want to stand out. i dont know why im feeling grumpy. why im complaining even. sigh.
things change, times goes by. people change. every time i think back, im reminded of you. and i hate remembering. cuts like a knife. i never knew how it just stopped one day. how we stopped talking. i know. but why that. why didnt you care? why didnt you ever bother? i know you didnt really care. experimental as much as it was for me. maybe you cared but you didnt care so much as to bother about it. everything else was more important. someone else ruled your life. i half hate you yet half- dont? i have no right. shit i should jus stop talking about this before i cry. you make me cry everytime i think about you. everytime i remember. and i dont know why. cos i know you dont care. it shouldnt matter.
i hope yinkae liked the rose. i wanted her to feel happy, to make her happy. their performance was good. the ending a bit abrupt. perhaps the audience didnt get it. they didnt notice the lyrics. it wasnt fitted to their taste? at that time their mood. but they were gd. she was gd. and good performances deserve roses. i only had one and it was really really hard to find that one. thanks chris. i really really really appreciate it.
yup. teachers day celebrations today. i havent blogged properly in ages till now? we had class party in the morning? after flag raising. quite cool. :) i like der drinking game! hehe. but its hard to ask really gd questions that will i dont know. prove the point of the whole game? hehe. i liked der acs qn. LOL. ;) kuo joined in. haha. he has all these really weird questions. he muz be dying to know. ok not dying. curious? from a teacher's point? to kno students? haha. we drank coke tho. quite sad. if it was alcohol it might've been more fun. ;) oh yah zx bought a bottle of peach tea today. i think the tea was not nice? she said it was sweet the bottle's nice tho. :) hrm. yah after that we had the concert kinda thingae. performances. :) reallie reallie good standard most of them? liked steph's class' item. the solo singer? she can sing!!!!! :D:D:D nort bad. dont like the yoyoyo-superlame yo girls. dots. = goosebumps. hrm overall quite gd. far better than any other before. :) i liked this year's style. usually its lessons then 2nd half of sch is celebrations? this year is gd. really. and when the teachers came into the hall for the performance, its like quite grand feel? der harrypotter opening music. :) and this kinda redcarpet feel to it? cos they were being welcomed on both sides by students and so on. dunno its jus the whole atmosphere. not as sian as past years and the performances' standards all went up. :) hope the teachers had a really really great teachers day celebration. memorable one. i didnt give anything. didnt know what no time to buy and jus . dont know. no inspiration? kinda. i cant even seem to think of presents anymore. nice presents. maybe i dont know people well enough anymore to think of stuff. maybe i never did. but i could think of ideas then. maybe theres no more. unimaginable untangible objects. :)
im not looking to make sense. my mind's in a disarray. i must improve my english grammer/vocab. my english really sucks. sigh. should start reading more again. borrowed wild swans. oo. mus remember to watch how to deal. :) thanks meli. oh and watched spykids3 (3d) today. it sucks. don't bother. a waste of 7.50. sigh. jus a very er tV see switch off no impression show. = DOTS. sigh. maybe i should have just waited till 5 to watch league of xtraordinary gentlemen. and pay an additional $1. sorry zx. i kinda forced her to watch spykids. she said dont watch at all. :S and the neocarDS! -grimace- haha. nvm. =P spent so much cash today. im broke. and in debt. negative 5. sigh. bought slippers again? thats the 3rd pair already. oops. $15.90 quite like it. :) arGH. im not going to ever buy handphone pouches? im so err careless and chorlor. (sp?) i spoilt mine within 1km away from the shop? one building away. DOTS. sigh. but zx saved it for me!!!!! hehe thanks. i think i like it this way more than the previous. o.O lol.
phys lect at 830am tomorrow. then band at 1030. handing over. seniors coming back. hehe. :) then after that going off again to study. bleah. i wonder when are they going to suspend cca. oh dear. then i'll start being outt aprac. mUZ practise!!!!!!!! if not die le. oh yah, band concert's 13dec this yr. if ure interested to come, please remember to make that day free? lol prob night. i cant remember if i said this before. memory's failing me.
sigh. this is a very weird entry. miXmatchMixmatch mismatched. oh west side story is nice! i think i said that before. i like der supposed 'romeo' quite sad tho. he dieD. i hate watching tragedies. not hate hate. but sad la. better write an email to my mentor then sleep. :) tired. gdnight. its 12am soon? 30aug.
set adrift on 11:13 p.m. Friday, August 29, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : stressed?]
Are you easily stressed?
i realised that when i change one answer. what do u want to be known for in school or sth liddat from slacker to straight As student i get this: =P
Are you easily stressed?
i conclude pitas is going a bit mad. the server i think. time to change soon. if only i wasnt so lazy. hai. it said error in updating then blogged the same entry 3x and one blank for me? nuts.
set adrift on 10:59 p.m. Friday, August 29, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : need?]
Do you need a boy/girl friend now?
-_- neeD? i will survive. hehe.
set adrift on 10:52 p.m. Friday, August 29, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : what kinda girl are u]
hilarious: you are as funny as the cheekiest guys
in class and know everything thats happening on
TV and all the hot places to chill. you aren't
a typical bubblegum princess, you pride
yourself on your musical picks and your
attitude. sometimes you get carried away and
often get scolded for that, but otherwise if
people want to have fun then you're the person
they'll come to! you can be as girlie as
britney when you're in the mood and as hard
assed as pink when you want. your mates love
you for being so; fun, interesting and
unpredictable, you go girl!
what kind of girl are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
set adrift on 09:45 p.m. Wednesday, August 27, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : what are u]
Queen Bee : you admire the finer things in life and
would happily life the celeb lifestyle. you're
fashionable and enjoy shopping sprees and being
a girle girl! boys love you for your good looks
although sometimes you may come across as
shallow. who cares? you're a sweetie and that's
why people love ya!
ladies: what are you?
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????????????? girlie girl? okie. :) gd looks? HA. shrugs. wadeva.
set adrift on 09:39 p.m. Wednesday, August 27, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : what are u]
Queen Bee : you admire the finer things in life and
would happily life the celeb lifestyle. you're
fashionable and enjoy shopping sprees and being
a girle girl! boys love you for your good looks
although sometimes you may come across as
shallow. who cares? you're a sweetie and that's
why people love ya!
ladies: what are you?
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????????????? girlie girl? okie. :) gd looks? HA. shrugs. wadeva.
set adrift on 09:39 p.m. Wednesday, August 27, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : colour of your heart]
Your Heart is Blue
What Color is Your Heart?
brought to you by Quizilla
i think i did this before and got.... blaCK? i cant rem =
set adrift on 09:30 p.m. Wednesday, August 27, 2003 .
gbook .
[illegal file sharing]
hrm. aud? this is for you. if you read this la. :P cos i couldnt find a tag/gbook at your site. so yup.
all about illegal filesharing P2P? u wanted to kno more right? haha. yah.
set adrift on 08:24 p.m. Wednesday, August 27, 2003 .
gbook .
[grr]
i hate my blog it ate up my entry.
set adrift on 11:57 p.m. Tuesday, August 26, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : spongebob squarepants character?]
You're Gary! You're really not a major influence in
anything in life but you are wicked awesome!
You're very quiet and keep to yourself. Mrow!
What Spongebob Squarepants Character are you
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set adrift on 11:29 p.m. Monday, August 25, 2003 .
gbook .
[ladidum]
ok. im v. sick of selling mooncakes le. o.O guess how many i sold? hehehehe. thank you all you nicenicenice people. =) benedict was -_- said we were deSp. grr. nothing nice to say, shadup. neva buy le still make such comments. humph. grins. do hw now. lalala. v. slpy. i wannna sleeeeeep. slept in the mrt. quite embarressing due to dunno la. andddd went to my grandfathers house sleep again. -_- muz be cos yez slpt at 230am? went to watch down with love today. quite a cute show? shu said it was lame!!!!!!!!!!!! :S spent too much marnie today le. sigh. shu if u dun return me the money its fine la. bdae prez? :) i owe u one anyhow. grins. i like the plot as in the ending sorta thing. NOT that expected i guess or maybe i never thought of it. wanna watch my tutor my friend, some korean show andddddddddd league of extraordinary gentleman? and home run a bit sian leh. see how i still have the 6tabs? and turnleftturnright when it comes out!!! hehehe. :) byebye. i hate making phonecalls that become oh-so-akward. sighs.
set adrift on 10:32 p.m. Monday, August 25, 2003 .
gbook .
[what women want]
i want to watch what women want. :( and i havent watched meli's how to deal. sigh.
for meli and kax:
I Feel Pretty
Marni Nixon
(West Side Story)
MARIA
I feel pretty,
Oh, so pretty,
I feel pretty and witty and bright!
And I pity
Any girl who isn't me tonight.
I feel charming,
Oh, so charming
It's alarming how charming I feel!
And so pretty
That I hardly can believe I'm real.
See the pretty girl in that mirror there:
Who can that attractive girl be?
Such a pretty face,
Such a pretty dress,
Such a pretty smile,
Such a pretty me!
I feel stunning
And entrancing,
Feel like running and dancing for joy,
For I'm loved
By a pretty wonderful boy!
GIRLS
Have you met my good friend Maria,
The craziest girl on the block?
You'll know her the minute you see her,
She's the one who is in an advanced state of shock.
She thinks she's in love.
She thinks she's in Spain.
She isn't in love,
She's merely insane.
It must be the heat
Or some rare disease,
Or too much to eat
Or maybe it's fleas.
Keep away from her,
Send for Chino!
This is not the
Maria we know!
Modest and pure,
Polite and refined,
Well-bred and mature
And out of her mind!
MARIA
I feel pretty,
Oh, so pretty
That the city should give me its key.
A committee
Should be organized to honor me.
GIRLS
La la la la . . .
MARIA
I feel dizzy,
I feel sunny,
I feel fizzy and funny and fine,
And so pretty,
Miss America can just resign!
GIRLS
La la la la . . .
MARIA
See the pretty girl in that mirror there:
GIRLS
What mirror where?
MARIA
Who can that attractive girl be?
GIRLS
Which? What? Where? Whom?
MARIA
Such a pretty face,
Such a pretty dress,
Such a pretty smile,
Such a pretty me!
GIRLS
Such a pretty me!
ALL
I feel stunning
And entrancing,
Feel like running and dancing for joy,
For I'm loved
By a pretty wonderful boy!
oh! its in west side story? kax is that the show we're watching? lol. and i honezli cant remember who told me it was i feel pretty and witty and gayyyyy. LOL. nvm. i think the movie was liddat leh. o.O haha. edit: yah. the movie changed the words. ehehe.
set adrift on 07:49 p.m. Sunday, August 24, 2003 .
gbook .
[gundown]
should be shot for being such a mean brat.
what am you expecting you fool.
set adrift on 07:22 p.m. Sunday, August 24, 2003 .
gbook .
[>:O]
of all people, my bro has learnt to become like me. like my dad. he should be shot.
dont mind me. so frustrated so pissed i feel like screaming boxing kicking a hard object. i should be shot. im sorry. you really dont deserve it. just go away and leave me alone.
set adrift on 07:16 p.m. Sunday, August 24, 2003 .
gbook .
[Zzz]
i feel so horrible. ty's disgustingly good at writing essays. OR rewriting my essays. I see the way he rewrote me. shit it makes so much more sense? it sounds so so so much better? but i kno i wont use it i cant use it i wont change it to be that cos every time i see it i'll kno i didnt write that. it doesnt sound like i wrote that. left 2 more. i'll leave that tomorrow. half each. all feminism. i dont have info on feminism? dont kno what to write. i was going to reflect then i realised i didnt know how to write it cos i didnt know the content about it. bleah. and its due tmr? at most i'll email it to her. i printed all the first 3 tho. took me 5 tries to install the dumb printer drive? ty says my style is that i tend to rant. i kno that too. sigh. how to improve my writing? i wanna change my style. maybe not talking speaking wise. but jus change the essay writing. to something more passable.
oh my fair lady yesterday was nice? i like on the street where she lives. hehe. familiar song. audrey hepburn? is pretty looks a bit like julia robertS? hrm. think ella would like the show. marian might too! hehe. was nice. looking forward to next week's west side story? i think? hrm. should be gd too. garytang was supp to come in yesterday tho. to do rap and jazz whatnots? he postponed it to week 10. bleahy. i havent finished my hssrp btw. BLAH. this is so dumb. gdnight i feel like dying.
set adrift on 12:35 a.m. Friday, August 22, 2003 .
gbook .
[ack]
shitified. i went to nap at about 615 hoping to wake up by 645. but i didnt hear my bro calling me up? he said he did. bleah and the next thing i knew its was 830 plus plus. and i woke up got a shock thought it was next morning and died on the spot. i was thinking something like shit i didnt do english at all. walked out of the rm cos i didnt have any new uniform? then eh? the sky is dark my mom and bro watching tv? "what time is it" "840" OOps. hehe. okay. shit. i dont know how to do english. sigh.
i think i was really tired. = bleahy. tmr got maths quiz? i suck at circle wadeva i forgot.
set adrift on 09:41 p.m. Wednesday, August 20, 2003 .
gbook .
[oops]
Oops. I just finished the Strawberry Haagan Dazs in the fridge and left 1/4 of the choc? Of course, they were about half or less to begin with. Oops. =S
yinkae? cheer up? Get well soon -hugs- it sucks being sick.
set adrift on 07:34 p.m. Tuesday, August 19, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : steorotypical]
You're the super-slacker!!
Homework?
What's that? Studying? Not in your vocabulary.
You hardly study and almost never do your work
and yet, by some divine intervention, you're
still surviving. And you come to school so un-
often, your teachers have pratically forgotten
that you even exist. Go, you slacker, you!!
Which Stereotypical Singaporean Student Are You?
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set adrift on 07:33 p.m. Tuesday, August 19, 2003 .
gbook .
[retribution]
Oh I believe in retribution.
She deserves it, having asked for it.
set adrift on 10:36 p.m. Sunday, August 17, 2003 .
gbook .
[=)]
Boo hoo. I like PM Goh Chok Tong. He's going to retire soon. ='( Sigh. Sadded. Bleah. And hehe, err Education minister gonna move to defense minister soon? I only watched like the Eng mid- to end part of the National Day Rally though. Hehe. KHIN!!!!!!! Did you watch? LOL. It's not that boring la. Lalalala. But he was busy convincing people about the CPF changes and did not mention any changes yet. o.O hRm. k. I'm fine now. Thought about alot just now. But heh, the rally cheered me up? PM's quite funny. getting flowery in his language? LOL. nvm. do work. k bye.
NB: Change in mindset yarh? Anybody going to do reverse bungee jumping when it comes out? LOL.
set adrift on 10:21 p.m. Sunday, August 17, 2003 .
gbook .
[Err.]
My bro's cooking dinner. =S
set adrift on 04:57 p.m. Sunday, August 17, 2003 .
gbook .
[=S]
I'm depressed. I wanna pig out like crazy.
What's wrong?
set adrift on 04:52 p.m. Sunday, August 17, 2003 .
gbook .
[Yays]
Yays. I finally got my Haagen Dazs (Spelling?) icecream. :D Strawberry. Haha. Been desiring :P for that since.............. national day? Or before I think. Bleah. Pig. Nvm. Nobody wanted to share with me!!!!!! Horrible people. LOL. Lalala~ Ice cream. :)
Haven't done Eng essays. HELP!!! Where's ty? = LOL. Chiong HSSRP and chinese first. People, please please please bring your surveys tomorrow. Completed of course and don't be like them. Bah.
Went for CDC Big walk in the morning. 4km supposedly, seriously doubt it though. Heck, not going to exercise anymore today. Cos...cos..."muz do work marh" :P
Went for band yesterday, thank God I went. Haha. Had main band. Muz practice harder, bleah. Went there freaked out cos alot of people went for Flag day? And I couldn't remember whether mine was this week or next week. =S
Wanna watch How to deal, League of extraordinary gentlemen?or men. iforgot, Down with love, Tomb raider (maybe) and Home Run. Home Run's like losing its appeal, don't know why- the reviews ain't great and somehow--- I don't know. Nevermind, must use those Green Tea tabs!!! LOL. If not drink like siao for nothing. K Chinese Bye.
Anyone wanna watch Case of the missing bodies? Zx? Forbidden City?
set adrift on 04:35 p.m. Sunday, August 17, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : ultimate personality?]
Seer
The ULTIMATE personality test
brought to you by Quizilla
set adrift on 03:48 p.m. Sunday, August 17, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : what zodiac sign are you attracted to]
You should be dating a Pisces.
19 February - 20 March
Your mate is loving and caring, trusting and
hospitable, and romantic. Though he/she can be
self-pitying, temperamental or dependent, the
fishes are quite romantic in bed.
What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
brought to you by Quizilla
dot.
set adrift on 08:17 p.m. Tuesday, August 12, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : kiss]
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.
What kind of kiss are you?
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this too. -_- but i cant find any other result beside this? bleah. i did it twice. o.O
set adrift on 08:08 p.m. Tuesday, August 12, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : sign of affection]
footsie - you like to goof around and laugh with
the people you care about.
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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dug this up from so long agO. i forgot what I got already. = I think this. and innocent kiss? haha. dunno. -_-
set adrift on 08:00 p.m. Tuesday, August 12, 2003 .
gbook .
[=)]
esplanade performance today. quiTe. i dont know how u call it? after all and all that, it wasnt too bad yarh? :) we didnt mix that badli together i guess. cos i have crazy seniors who helped liven up the whole thinG :) hehe. i love them. seriousli sorely gonna miss them like crazy when they're gone. bands gonna be lik quite :| sigh.
lol. didnt get anyone's contact. didnt really talked to anyone fantasticalli well or whatnots anyway. the guy in perc who wore oakley speCs reminds me of my exclassmate and yining said the tall guy haOtian izit? in tpets reminded her of sam. lol. the saMe kinda attitude or dunnowad. hrm. mi2 on now. jy, thanks for the nice card. haha. my jnr got me a rose! hee. prettie. :) and i didnt get to see the fireworks. darn. my feet hurt. gdnight. :) gonna chiong d rest of my wkend now SIGH.
oh ya, i almost forgot, happy national day. :) hehe. happi birthday singapore!!! =D
set adrift on 11:41 p.m. Saturday, August 9, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : personality disorder]
think it basically fluctuates with moods and feelings and yada so on. hrm.
set adrift on 11:33 p.m. Tuesday, August 5, 2003 .
gbook .
[archived]
oyah. habit. archives here. i think im ok le. :) should be doing bio. v. lazy sigh. people like jessica and shuping make me feel guilty.
set adrift on 11:26 p.m. Tuesday, August 5, 2003 .
gbook .
[playlist]
current playlist:
1. Tori Amos - Crucify
2. System of a Down - Chop Suey
3. Radiohead - Creep
4. Unknown symbol thingae. Nice though.
5. Coldplay - Yellow
6. Expose - I'll never get over you getting over me
7. Kate Winslet - What if
8. Sheryl Crow - Safe and sound
9. Suede - Obsessions
10. 5566 - wo nan guo (instrumental)
11. Creed - One last breath
12. Sharon Au - Shu Guang
13. Three Doors Down - Kryptonite
14. Coldplay - The scientist
15. Adiemus - Adiemus
16. Sheryl Crow - If it makes you happy
17. BeeGees - Alone
18. Remy Zero - Save me
19. (FFX)Rikki - Suteki da ne
20. Charlene - I've never been to me
set adrift on 11:12 p.m. Tuesday, August 5, 2003 .
gbook .
[radiohead-creep]
When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control(?)
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
I don't belong here
She's running out again
She's running out
She runs runs runs
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
***
radiohead - creep
set adrift on 10:42 p.m. Tuesday, August 5, 2003 .
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I figured, I must be pms-ing.
Why dont you trust in my self righteous suicide- I cry when angels deserve to die.
Hm. Bio script. Sigh. I better not get started- on my crap. again.
Fall into my hands. Why have you forsaken me. In your eyes forsaken me. In your thoughts forsaken me. In your heart forsaken me. Trust in my self-righteous suicide. I cry when angels deserve to die...
Hm. Song. I like No. 152- 16_-
set adrift on 10:32 p.m. Tuesday, August 5, 2003 .
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[closehereyes]
Do I look okay to you? Seriously, do I?
I don't know. I've stopped thinking- thinking too much. stopped thinking in the toilets, now all I think about, everytime the image would be this half, semi minesweeper map thingae. Like some part of the puzzle I'm trying to figure out. I don't know why I'm so fascinated / addicted to it. But whatever it is, that's the image I see. Everytime.
I've stopped being angsty if you called that. Stopped blogging. Not really. Blogging about things, and not complaining about homework. I'm unhappy. I'm losing control over my own emotions. I can't stop myself from feeling like crying anymore. And those instances become more oft. I don't know why. Can you tell me why?
How am I? I'm okay. smiley face. =).
Sigh. I stopped being unhappy surface level because I find it hard to cope with you asking me what's wrong. Am I okay? and neh me. Don't neh me please?
I don't like being where I am. Why? It's okay. feels like (IforgotwhatIwantedtosay). I don't like being ignored. I don't like feeling left out. Not totally. Just-. Not feeling like I fit in. Is it 'cos of gep? Maybe, don't think so. but just maybe. I don't like her; the way she looks at me as if she knows something about me that I can't fake her about. And she doesn't think much of me, and just watches. Seemingly mocking. Maybe I'm just paranoid.
Feeling left out. Cca? Class? Class' fine. There's work to do. My place is okay, I guess. She just unerves me at times.
It's her. For now anyway. I didn't like this so-called job anyway. I never asked for it. I never thought I could do it. Since you think I can, fine. I'll try. Don't mock me when you look at me with your that facial expression please. It doesn't help I share something in common with you. I can't decide what to do. Can't tell people what to do. Not meant to. Not 'purposely'. Not something unfamiliar? So lost.
Didn't feel like playing for Esplanade yesterday. It's a long story. Semi-ok now. I guess. Don't care. Just like what she said, it could be something better, since it isn't. Just wait for it to be over.
Still don't know don't understand why I lost it during Physics. What am I trying to do? What are you trying to do?
Think it's my own fault anyway. Lack of practise. Too slack, too lazy. You asked for it. Shouldn't be complaining since you deserved it. Not complaining. I don't know, is it complaining? Frustrating. Feel like telling them I don't want it. Want out, want quit. Out. of everything. Too tiring. Too tiring to keep pretending everything doesn't matter. Too tiring to look at them and see them and wonder why I am even here. Wonder what's wrong with me. Wonder why do I seem different. From them. Wonder why do they seem to treat me differently.
Just unhappy. relatively. Kindof. Just like that. Nothing much. Don't neh me about it. I kno you care- but don't ask. Shh.
It's August. Finally. I can't tell if that's a good thing or not. I don't want tomorrow to come. Neither do I want to stay here. Don't want to be anywhere.
set adrift on 09:53 p.m. Tuesday, August 5, 2003 .
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