________prettylittleflower_________

[randomnicesongs]

songs stuck in my head today

dont say that later will be better cos you're stuck in a moment and you can't get out of it. you are such a fool to worry like you do. you getta get yourself together cos youre stuck in a moment and you cant get outta it.

cranberries-zombie

i love you i want you....these are the things that keep us together. black box recorder - these are the things that keep us together.

its your love just does something to me. sends a shock right through me. cant get enough if you wonder about the spell im under. its your love.

some random lyrics from hp folder. :) nice songs.

set adrift on 11:52 p.m. Monday, April 28, 2003 . gbook .

[sorry]

i cant remember who i was supposed to tell, promised to tell if i came back as in put my blog back. so if i was supp to and you happen to stumble here sorry i forgot. =S

set adrift on 11:51 p.m. Monday, April 28, 2003 . gbook .

[=)]

hee. nice layout? LOL. well i kinda DID it. but not really. i koped the pic from webshots. my desktop picture foreva until the size changed and i kinda din like it that much anymore. but ANYWAY. yah. i'll do the err other pages next time when i feel like it. = cant be bothered. i just felt like getting my blog up. hee. thanks sam for giving me der space i forgot about. lol. dun mind all der werd colours. der werd alignment. der boxes that u might happen to click on which are nothing? this layout pretty much screwed. cant be bothered. tOOOOOOO lazy. thats why i koped a picture. hee. nvm. =\ at least i gave recognition right? and not claim its mine! haha.

today was pretty weird. just suddenli exploded? and lateli been feeling like i cant control my emos. sigh. felt like crying? how weird. yah. bleah. nevermind. went to watch anger management after that. no pun intended. :) hee. then khin was being quite a silly psycho today. lol. AHHHH nice song. :) black box recorder- the things that keep us together. and quite happie. :) hee. alot of people i neva expected to rem wished me happie birthday even tho not even my bdae yet la. :P lol. alaric? ha :D:D:D:D and he asked amy to wish me happie bdae. lol. and joel! he sent me some picture sms. lol. v. surprising. and got alot of other people. and zx treated me to sushi that day!!! and swensens icecream plus fries. haha. khin said u kno why people always treat me to go eat? cos im a piggy. :$ hee. nvm. im happy. =) and d sent me sth he said. lol. muz be feeling err guilt cOs i gave him alot of things. heyyyyyyyyyy not meant liddat k. :) lol. anywayyyy. jy's nice!!!!!!! hee. deeeeeeedum. got chi retest tmr. chem nsw supposedli and essay test. LOL. and band. = nevermind. :) ladidum. muz be happy. marian is a nice girl. :) lol. and lizzie too!!! she tried to make me laugh!!!!!!! haha nvm. and shu's horrible. :P dun wan to tell me anything. humph.

ladidum. do maddz. go sleep soon. need sleep if not == tired == grumpy == verbalabusing+fakepmsing.

oh ya. that reminds me. i havent put up my blog since foreva? and thus no counter. but i have hits? like 3/day. 1 is like ridiculous alreadi lorh. and my gbook got signed by gdness knows WHO? =O haha. nvm.

adding on, i figured if i dont expect anything, i wont be disappted right? :) in fact, if theres anything, i'll be more surprised and happie!!!!!! hee. so nevermind. im used to it anyway. and ella? 2x leh!!!!! deja vu ar :P. lol. okie nvm. it doesnt matter la. :)

set adrift on 11:22 p.m. Monday, April 28, 2003 . gbook .

[verbalabuse]

i never really feel the need to do blogging these days. i wonder why. dont know. ah well. when i feel the URGE. grin. ok nvm. that was quite lame. -_-. sigh.

somehow ended up crying yesterday. how stupid. i neva cry. not in front of people. well beside my family? thats like. sigh. dont kno why. and its so long ago too? so so so freaking long ago. i guess its something i never ever resolved cos i neva eva got an answer to a question i cant even remember now. but just cry. at the thought. of past? ya was were had dieded. past tense.

wondering if i should jus put up my blog w/o a layout for now. sigh. and i remember that day? suddenli everyone seems to be wishing me happy birthday in advance and reminding me my bdae is coming. two days they say. and so on. i dont foresee a happy day. ella, please rescue me. please save me. please protect me. im scared. ya. of him. very scared. he scares me. ok thats the same thing round about. and honezli i dont care anymore. i refuse to think about that. nono. jus no more. i'll jus screw things up i always do. why bother. things are left betta unsaid. is that correct? since you werent meant to kno anyway. just forget everything?

and oft i think is it for the comfort the touch the feel the i dont know lust? gdness. that sounds bad u kno. very. or is it tru? is this for real? am i not lying to you? am i not lying to myself? i honezli have no idea.

and i recall wanting you to pay. dearly. for making me the person i now am. not that i particularli dislike now me. but i just want you to cry x10000000millionbillion times and hurt until you cant ever recover. so you'll kno. cos you know what? i dont think you ever did like me. i feel as if. i just gave so much i dont recall taking. thats quite unbalanced isnt it? and you werent ever there. you fucking werent ever there were you? please correct me if im wrong. and thats what i hate you for. sadli. not hate. i dont know. thats what i cry for. maybe? ~~past~~ and i wanted you to feel guilty for something. feel indebted to me forever. so you'll never eva be able to forget. or recover.

quite evil. i dont think i actually want that. but intention is intention. sigh. thought is something. says something doesnt it? i want to wash everything, make the board clean again. not all these dirty marks i now see. want a clean clear screen to start all over again. without those traces. sigh. all impossible. just gotta carry on routineli? carry on. what if i do tomorrow? no more thoughts no more emos. oh im logos. =) i think. are u logos pathos or ethos? :) aha. do my work now.

sorryfortheverbalabuseyoualwaysseemtoget.

set adrift on 09:42 p.m. Sunday, April 27, 2003 . gbook .

[friday-]

im irritated i keep losing stuff. keep falling asleep. keep screwing everything up. realli i mean EVERYTHING? this whole week's been horrible. honezli. sucked. the worst ever since goodness knows when. of course i guess. today was not too bad? =) its nice talking to people you used to kno. and now maybe know again? its nice to know they're still human still existing still doing fine. i lost my protractor the 3214th dunno whatth? sigh. got work to do. need to return nus book. got retest on mon. i screwed my chi exam. my wake up call i need it. sigh. waking up at 7 tomorrow.

tired. i wanna die tomorrow

set adrift on 11:18 p.m. Friday, April 25, 2003 . gbook .

[youre]

u kno what? i think all i realli want is for you to just disappear. just GO AWAY. and poof disappear forever? i dont want remember i still owe you anything. that youre still there. that i OWE you something. some string attached i just wanna break it cut it throw it away? so just disappear? please? not forever perhaps. just leave me alone for a little while cos i realli dont want you to be here. and honezli. i dont think you want to be here too. just grow out of it? wont u? please? please see clearly. please wake up. please grow out of it. i kno it isnt your fault. but please see. please?

set adrift on 11:15 p.m. Friday, April 25, 2003 . gbook .

[jolt]

this week is super super screwed. sigh hope tomorrow will be betta. need sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep sigh. need wake up calls need reminders need a jolt back to reality. gdnight.

set adrift on 12:08 a.m. Friday, April 25, 2003 . gbook .

[songlyrics]

Tori Amos - Crucify lyrics

Every finger in the room
is pointing at me
I wanna spit in their faces
Then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach
I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell our now
I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets
looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands
Drive another nail in
Just what God needs
One more victim

[Chorus:]
Why do we
Crucify ourselves
Every day
I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
Every day
And my heart is sick of being in chains

Got a kick for a dog
Beggin' for Love
I gotta have my suffering
So that I can have my cross
I know a cat named Easter
He says will you ever learn
You're just an empty cage girl
If you kill the bird
I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets
looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands
Drive another nail in
Got enough guilt to start
my own religion
Please be
Save me
I cry

[Chorus:]
Why do we
Crucify ourselves
Every day
I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
Every day
And my heart is sick of being in chains

nice song? :)

set adrift on 06:43 p.m. Thursday, April 24, 2003 . gbook .

[mondayblues]

todays such a supa screwed day. dad called us up wrongli at 440 saying it was 6+ alreadi. went back to slp woke up saw this hUGEEEEEEEEEEEEe cockroach in the toilet freaked out. went to sch had band couldnt play anything. didnt do my zuowen erP. recess rushed like mad woman. neva pay class fund stuff. der woman is damn pissed. din do my hssrp. after sch like went to eat la. and eat and eat and eat sushi. well. i was slacking. and now im paying for slacking? gah. just finished my erp. tomorrow got chem test / assg well. kuo's a killer anyway. i wanna do well for chem? and chi test i havent studied and due erp zuowen dueD today. sigh. and i dunnowad else i forgot. but its onE BIG MESS and im dying dying. and khin dearie? i din ramble. = and liZ get well soon! hahaha. not lik u'll see this anyway. oh gail came back to sch. =) yays. okok. betta go study. oh yah. hee. click. oh monday blues.

set adrift on 10:55 p.m. Monday, April 21, 2003 . gbook .

[water]

somehow anything with water gives me a conducive < sp? environment (?) to think. dots.

one whole big mess of thoughts. no time to arrange. gotta go out to eat. sigh.

i somehow think i was wasting your time jus now? not that i dont think i made sense. but it was just saying. not asking not answering? so what exactli is it?

like. unstable. amazing. openess.

continued

dont know exactli about liking someone. but if u realli like someone i feel that you will definitely want the person to be happy thats one. and you will wait for the person no matter what hisher decision is tho you might think that you might be waiting in vain. waiting for nothing. hoping for nothing and it hurts. but if you can get over it that it doesnt matter at all in the first place. dont like unstable liking. dont like being unstable. its selfish. its unfair to everyone? yourself. other person? i dont know. i wish i had some script written out. like is like dislike is dislike. so clear cut like that. isnt that good then?

met the most amazing person yesterday. most amazing person ive met so far. well as far as i can remember. i barely kno him. i just talked on the phone asking about a mere small thing. yet this person. he can open up to a total stranger? ive never met him nor really talked to him. but he practically told me about his whole life. just like that. well, that's not the amazing part la. he IS amazing. by himself. v.v.v.v.brilliant imO. i have a lot of respect for him? sigh. =)

its now 0021. 21st april. monday. back to school in about 6+ hours. feeling not depressed not sad not happy. more towards =( but just not =( but well. down. ya maybe thats it. sam why are you hurting? whats hurting you? what have you changed so much or seemingli so? sigh.

this sam is confused and angry at herself. for being so 'fickle' in some sense. for being unstable. for being well. unsure uncertain. whats all this about? just the physical touch? or is there more to it? what exactli is it? why cant she figure it out?

why is everyone breaking down. why does everyone seem to be breaking down and falling apart into million thousand pieces. shattered broken hurting cutting. sigh. i want my blog back up. i dont kno exactly why. i just want it up. not for you or you or you to read it. but. just seeing it. i dont know. sigh. seems more. greymatter.

set adrift on 07:24 p.m. Sunday, April 20, 2003 . gbook .

[quiz: x jap ballad]

What Is Your X Japan Ballad?

i dunno about the results i just do them quizzes. i lik der music :)

set adrift on 02:53 p.m. Sunday, April 20, 2003 . gbook .

[song]

i want you to blog. =

do you kno that i love you?it still sounds like a song leh. maybe the tune.

set adrift on 12:13 a.m. Thursday, April 17, 2003 . gbook .

[dontthink.]

i think todays just a realli realli bad day. and i realli realli want friday to come so i can finally get sleep. desperateli need it. i forgot to study for history. gdnight.

set adrift on 12:02 a.m. Thursday, April 17, 2003 . gbook .

[quiz: tori amos song]

Crucify
-Crucify- You're "Crucify" from both the
"Crucify" and "Little
Earthquakes" albums. You're probably
really fed up with not being able to stand up
for yourself. You wonder why everything gets
messed up, and actually, you make a lot of
sense.

Which Tori Amos Song Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

hrm its a nice song? tori amos songs are nice. :)

set adrift on 11:53 p.m. Wednesday, April 16, 2003 . gbook .

[braindead]

dunnowad am i saying dunno wad am i thinking. feel like asking wen ni wen shui dou ke yi. gou shu ren? anyone. but feels weird. and i dunno wad to ask anyway nor wad to say nor anything. i dont know. bleah this feels wrong. to say? but say alreadi seems i dunnnoooooooo. do chinese correctn. its braindeaDdded.

set adrift on 11:38 p.m. Wednesday, April 16, 2003 . gbook .

[woozy]

khin said sam is commitment phobic. o.O

anyway. dot. feeling whoooooooooozy today. like semi awake liddat. not tired just distracted. very. cant concentrate on anything at all? not even to talking to people. i guess if im distracted by you. i prob cant concentrate talking to u right? sigh. i dunno............... whoooooooooooooooozy feeling .haha. feels liKe half drunk or whatnots. why does jy have so many pple? 294. humph. and dAt zhiwei dunnohu. and miche too! gah. i feel small. nvm.. muz do maths cant seem to do it tho. and this and that and i dunowAd. my aunt liked the cake. haha. =) din realli kno wad to get for siok. der onli thing that comes to mind is realli just FOOD. lol. i mean books i dun even kno which one she has or not?????? sigh. right? bleah. and i bought a huGe toblerone for her. haha ok fine it aint that big. but its quite big? hee. =) and some smalsmall choc cake. thingae. cos we alreadi bought her a huGe cake last yr. o.O den this yr der same a beeeeeet boring right? haha. next yr buy her those pokepokeher kind of caKe. :P hee. =) siok is cute.

commmmmmmmmitment phobIc khinnnnnn reali? lol. i dun realli care. i need my spaCe. so maybe this is all realli realli just a wrong . a mistake? feels sO -__- i guess. afTer 2 days plus? or maybe its just me. hypersensitivE i shld say. muahahaha. i dont think sO. do i actualli care? as in. does it realli affect me dAt much? dot. wwwwwwwooooooooooozy feeling. hieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee hehehehehehe. khin rem i said we go buy vodkA and drinkkkkkk:) muahaha. i cant wait for friday. i want my sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. :)

set adrift on 10:13 p.m. Wednesday, April 16, 2003 . gbook .

[semi--awake]

for reasons i knO, i shall write what i want. =)

think im still kinda lost not realli settled in some senSe settled yet. khin says sam is settled. :| feels uncertain somehow. not uncertain. some i dunnowad. deres gotta be an ending somewhere i cant see it i cant find it. it irritates me? not irritates. i dunno. unerves me?

scaRed feelin that too much of something. leads to 'resistance'. then it doesnt make a difference anymore. and he shouldnt even do it. it doesnt even matter. why cant he jus wake up and STOP IT. = he's jus some swimming in his mud thingae. i dunno. ella says some pple cant understand? understand wad i dunno. but theres something wrong with that picture anyway. dont want to be no feeling. dont wan resistance. dont want no- i dont know. sigh. nvm. sleep. ya sleep. =)

set adrift on 11:23 p.m. Tuesday, April 15, 2003 . gbook .

[tuesdayblues]

feels weird today. for no particular reason whatsoever. just semi-awake conscious state. dont know what exactli am i talking thinking saying doing so on. = sigh. i think sleeP is realireallireallirealli imptant. :| band sucKed. ok it din suck. my playing sucked. the lack of practise or PROPER practise realli hurts hard. but. it sounds like shit? ok fine. syf's in july. i have time to buck up. now everything's screwed in one period of time. june un conference july syf aug-sept hssrp. and my mentor hasnt even replied. somehow have this visual image of him being super pissed off or sth. or i dunno heckcare anymore? GAH. im confused. blardi hell. dunno which topic to choose dontk now wad to dO. sioks bdae on thurs. wan to get her foooooooooooooooooooooood. hee der cake last yr was nice. auntie's bdae tmr. haha. april got alot of bdaes. inc mine. :P:P:P ok fine. i shant hint until liddat. = my dad said sars - stand and resist satan. = and saRdam. oh mrs ng said he looked lik stalin. der rest of them too. in hist class today. hrm. stupid khin keeps laughing at me. she said she wanted to pinch my cheeKS??????????????????????? o.O i swear she muz be going crazy. ok la. fine. it IS amusing. im amused myself. but still. humph. =S nvm. haha. gdnight.

do you knO that i love you?
think theres some song that goes something like that... no actualli maybe not. i cant recall exactli.

as for u, i realli cant care less? sigh. so be it your way. your business is urs. i dunno anything. and ricky so fierce. CAPS everything. = WHO ARE YOU. o.O sorrie lor. i send to wrong person. bleah.

set adrift on 11:16 p.m. Tuesday, April 15, 2003 . gbook .

[monday]

bLeAH. my bro attacked me? and you know what he said? AND HIS face when he said that? he said err hehe sam. i attacked you today. just try only la. oh shadup. i help you? and you attack me. and u still hehe. what kinda bro are you? and then he became angry? and he said i'll hack into the dunnowad shit. blah. why is he 13 and still like that? ok fine. 12? and he attacked me? what kinda bro is he man. :|

nvm. khin is prob thinkin im like super silly or wadeVa and laughing at me!!!!!!!!! hahahahhaa. nvm. :| oh dOt. my answer was quite erH amusing anyway. im amused myself? bleah.

sch today. stomach acHe der whole damn day. cant eat alot of things!!!! so saD. LOL. i shld go shower. all dEr germs and bacteria everywhereeeeeeeeeeeeeee. hehehehehehe. nvm. dOt. ladidum. i feel so silly. how? :| ah well. lol. nvM. shld dO work. i HATE doing bk reports etc. writing stuff blahblah? i forgot what else i wanted to say aLreadiiii. nvm. :) i need a layout. LOL. i still owe my kor one. KOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D::D:D hi kor? :) hehe. how are you? :) hope u're fine. =) lol. kk. bye. i go shower.

set adrift on 09:40 p.m. Sunday, April 13, 2003 . gbook .

[lyrics.]

i like der song :) no particular meaning tho. well not for me.

System of a down - Chop suey

Wake up (wake up)
Grab a brush and put a little makeup
Hide the scars to fade away the shake up
(Hide the scars to fade away the shake )
Why'd you leave the keys up on the table?
Here you go create another fable

(You wanted to)
Grab a brush and put on a little makeup
(You wanted to)
Hide the scars to fade away the shake up
(You wanted to)
Why'd you leave the keys up on the table?
(You wanted to)

I don't think you trust, in, my,
Self-righteous suicide,
I, cry, when angels deserve to die

Wake up (wake up)
Grab a brush and put a little makeup
Hide the scars to fade away the shake up
Why'd you leave the keys up on the table?
Here you go create another fable

(You wanted to)
Grab a brush and put on a little makeup
(You wanted to)
Hide the scars to fade away the shake up
(You wanted to)
Why'd you leave the keys up on the table?
(You wanted to)

I don't think you trust in my
Self-righteous suicide,
I cry, when angels deserve to die
In my self-righteous suicide,
I cry, when angels deserve to die

Father (father)
Father (father)
Father (father)
Father (aaahh)
Father into your hands, I commend my spirit
Father into your hands, why have you forsaken me?
In your eyes, forsaken me
In your thoughts, forsaken me
In your heart, forsaken me

Oh, trust in my, self-righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die
In my self-righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die

set adrift on 05:38 p.m. Saturday, April 12, 2003 . gbook .

[sleep]

i want to do layouts. but i cant seem to remember how anymore? i got all these visuals in my head. but i cant get it done. how? sigh. simple plain will do fine. but. them visuals. i want them done. shit. sigh. ah well. maybe later? i dun knO. should go sleep.

set adrift on 12:52 a.m. Friday, April 11, 2003 . gbook .

[midi]

click damn nice. :D:D:D:D. argh. i love it. hai. how to save it? :S good night. :)

set adrift on 12:49 a.m. Friday, April 11, 2003 . gbook .

[quiz : diva]

You are Violetta from Verdi's "La
Traviata"! You're no innocent schoolgirl, but you're
definitely kind, charming, and personable.
Your past history with men has caused you to
become a bit jaded about romance, but don't
discount it completely--you have a great
capacity for love.

Which DIVA are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

set adrift on 09:41 p.m. Wednesday, April 9, 2003 . gbook .

[wrinklenose]

muahahaha. next time remind me that lux is not supposed to smell like ~~urine~~ ammonia de next time i play with the shampoo and soAP in the bath. EWWWWWWWWWWWw. and no matter how many times kuO asks us to take a deEEp breath we muz recOgnise ammonia. yah. i never forget it alreadI. oh dear. and i was wondering. wad de hell. WHY DOES MY Lux smell like ammonia. EWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. pantene has ALOT of ammonia in its ingredients list. eww. neva gonna buy pantene animore. stinky. =S haha. nevermind. :)

set adrift on 08:57 p.m. Monday, April 7, 2003 . gbook .

[colorgenics tests]

lol. i'll have 10 relationships and 3 true loves. hahaha. how stupid. colorgenics fantasy dunnowad test. lol.

psychological analysis test:
Your Mood: You are probably feeling overwhelmed at the moment. It is as if you have too much on your plate and need time out. Perhaps you need a rest so that you can recharge your batteries; at the moment do not feel ready to take on more challenges. You feel more determined than usual and are not prepared to put up with unnecessary delay or restriction. Not in the mood to be told what to do you resent anyone trying to control your behavior. You do not want to be held back at this time.

Your Present Situation: You really need to take time out at the moment, your life is proving tiring and you seem to need to be on the lookout at all times. There is a real danger of wasting your energy, seek out someone who can help you to calm down and relax. You could do worse than take a romantic weekend break to help you revitalize yourself.You prefer peace and harmony to confrontation. While this is normal, you avoid any type of confrontation and this is leading you to build up negative feelings about various people and situations. Though you realize you should confront these issues, you feel it isnt worth rocking the boat.

Your Conflicts: You have no conflicts at the present time

ladidum. true or not i dont know. =) dont want to think so much. ladidum. i won 2 games of pool!!!! lol. ok nvm.

archtype (partial results):

The Sunset

Always searching for a fleeting image of a true experience, the Sunset personality is living in the world as it exists, but also in a perpetual quest to find the new, the exciting, the cusp of a changing day.

Emotionally volatile, this personality is known for sudden changes of opinion, of appreciation, and behavior. Following rules and established methods is difficult for this type of personality and the difficulties of higher education are usually quite daunting. Experience is the watchword for the Sunset. Knowledge is best gained through an intimate association with the matter at hand. Because of this, these personalities make excellent musicians or athletes.

set adrift on 09:34 p.m. Sunday, April 6, 2003 . gbook .

[funny]

how funny this picture looks. i decided i dont want to kill you anymore. i guess? =) haha. im in a gooooooood mood today. ladidum~

but yet, how funny this picture dOes look. how funny im reduced to this sad state. how ironically funny.

oh the sadists.

i decided on ideas for layouts le. =)

set adrift on 11:10 p.m. Saturday, April 5, 2003 . gbook .

[quiz : fruit]

Strawberry: 40/100 Pear: 0/100 Banana: 40/100 Tomato: 30/100 Lemon: 5/100

Take the What Fruit Are You? test by Ellen and Aaron!

set adrift on 10:17 p.m. Saturday, April 5, 2003 . gbook .

[stupid]

aha. i just realised how stupid i am. ive been sending email to aud at a wrong address? lol. gummibear@hotmail.com hahaha. the person must be wondering who de hell am i. = sigh. so stupid.

Ptolemy is rubbish. horoscope is rubbish. lol. ladidum. =)

school's extended. now i have time to study. lol. if i stop procrastinating la. =)

set adrift on 06:01 p.m. Saturday, April 5, 2003 . gbook .

[sucks.]

today suckssucksucksucksucksSUCKS. its a friday.

=|

do you like cheese cake?

how much does a bike cost?

lol. random questions.

set adrift on 02:21 a.m. Saturday, April 5, 2003 . gbook .

[therewasonce]

once upon a time. you didnt know what was hiatus. were you the one who asked me what it was? what it meant? and i gave you a really stupid answer? im sorry i cant help. i sorry even after listening. i dont know how to help. your problems. your queries. i dont know how to help you solve them. or even tell you anything? i dont know. im sorry if i might have pissed you off. or done anything that wasnt of 100% of me. whatever it may be. take a good break? -hugs=. i love you. take care.

set adrift on 09:39 p.m. Friday, April 4, 2003 . gbook .

[change]

i havent changed. your perception of me has changed. and even if i have changed, people change subconciously with its surroundings.

do i sound like im making excuses for myself?

set adrift on 04:15 p.m. Thursday, April 3, 2003 . gbook .

[bye]

hit my head so hard it hurts.

dont know why im so cheesed off. dont know why when i was made the decision myself. right? so why the hell am i so pissed. gah. block delete. you're gone. forever. if you're this kinda person, it's better not knowing you. yah.
block.
delete.
bye bye. =)

edit: fine. i think im overreacting. must be pmsing. i deserve it anyway. i did the same thing. oops.

set adrift on 02:11 p.m. Thursday, April 3, 2003 . gbook .

[dreamt]

haha. dreamt ex classmate was getting marriEd. lol. guy. ha. dont know why? funny. no dont xiang wai. there's nothing to it. nightmarE? lol. just a v. oH. neutral kinda feeling to it. it was funny. it doesnt even make sense? very very funny. ha. decided not to put the name. just in case la. =) ha. amusing. evanesencE is nice. =) dad's home today. feels restricted. slightly. ah well.

set adrift on 01:35 p.m. Thursday, April 3, 2003 . gbook .

[stupid]

being christmas sounds horrible. sounds pity sounds charity. sounds. commercial scam. sounds ridiculous. oh speak the truth.
dont do that. im not that nice. yah. wake up. you. all. please see not one part only. please see all. im only human. im not that nice. im just the same as you are.
this is senselessli stupid.
feels need to cAre yet dont care as much as i used to. feel guilt yeT its not extreMe. feels trying to be niCe. yet. i dont want to be nice anymore. feels-
i dont know. i dont care. whatever. i feel nothing.
just stoned cold hard rock. that's so much better isnt it?
not some christmas. not some random nice person. not someone's christmAs. not. i dont know not what.
how stupid. how senselessli stupid.
senselessly. < is there such a word?

set adrift on 01:23 a.m. Thursday, April 3, 2003 . gbook .

[wonder]

is it better to wonder then getting playeD?
is it better to take away hope then giving hope that's hopeless? that's useless?
i wonder.

set adrift on 01:15 a.m. Thursday, April 3, 2003 . gbook .

[plug!]

plug! i realli realli realli realli like the layout a whole damn lot. :)

set adrift on 01:09 a.m. Thursday, April 3, 2003 . gbook .

[think]

i think people this agE generalli think they like someone but they dont actually like/love whatever it is someone that much la. feel free to slam me. its just a personal unjustifieD opinion. not meant specifically on anything. just came intO my heaD. i dunno la. just nice people? maybe. or certain types of people. ah well. i have no right to speAk.

set adrift on 12:55 a.m. Thursday, April 3, 2003 . gbook .

[why]

suddenli feel ultimate cheap. why are they all like that? why do i have to make people feel like that? i mean. what's wrong with being normal and all that. normal is gd wad. no? sigh. something wrong with today. definitely wrong. elllllllaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa wHere are youuuuuuuuuuuuuu. aha. ure online. :) yays. help me! haix. stupid kenna ban. >:O ah well. bleah.

set adrift on 11:38 p.m. Wednesday, April 2, 2003 . gbook .

[sams]

haha. do you have Severe Attitude Misalignment Syndrome (SAMS)? my virus... dotdotdot.... haix. every night why so grumpy and irritated. weird. khin. i wanna go out. go anywhere also caN! sian. :| wanna watch vcds do SOMETHING. just get outta here. or else, everyone can die. now. please? just stop it. war also mian tan le. isnt that gd?

set adrift on 11:34 p.m. Tuesday, April 1, 2003 . gbook .

[hah]

computer's resolution a bit werd. = haha. stupid hQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! send me that sms give me heart attack. actually quite bad. use this kinda thing april fools. oops :$ haha. ah well. sian. gotta start doing work le.

set adrift on 03:34 p.m. Tuesday, April 1, 2003 . gbook .

[aprilfools]

stupid ass. jy u betrayed my trust! haha. happy april fools everyone. SIGH. = i cant believe i got tricked. grr... >:O new month new begining right? =) tomorrow's i mean later in the morning after i wake up. its gonna be a better day. :)

edit: d dont give me that shat. :P you asked me to tell you abt it. =P haha. lalalala~ happy april fools day.

set adrift on 12:23 a.m. Tuesday, April 1, 2003 . gbook .