[gum flavour]

delusion on 04:48 p.m. Monday, April 1, 2002 .

[april fools]

skipped third lang with the excuse that i have to learn my class song for the lifeskills camp which is kinda true but still... third lang's supp to come first. :X sigh. so irritated at that ***** fine. person. grr. irritating.

sucky day. i guess im really very irresponsible and well forgetful. sigh. oh ya, happy april fools day!!! its april. rejoyce grin. i like april. :) our 'trick' kinda failed. kuo wasnt very sporting... :S lol. i guess it was stupid too but well, c'mon at least it's something??? :P

lalala~ its going to rain again. me <3 the rain. :) hmm. have to do sungei buloh. im writing all this crap that i am absolutely sure nobody would have interest in. but then again, thinking about it. i should blog or write for myself and not for some audience. :D so heck you. :P

/me decides to try to use less damn... cos of wad lois said? :)

delusion on 04:26 p.m. Monday, April 1, 2002 .

[]

i feel so bad. go give yinkae some love. bcos... we slacked and slacked so much yesterday i think she's going to chop off our heads on monday. :S she always seems so sad and negative... :(

delusion on 10:34 a.m. Saturday, March 30, 2002 .

[peeg]

crap. i overslept again sigh. and i did wanted to go for band. feel so outta touch. think that there's something on on tues that means no band again. argh. >:O -whacks myself= sigh. sleeping at 1230am does not help when you're trying to wake yourself and put 3 alarms but still oversleep anyway. grr...

delusion on 10:31 a.m. Saturday, March 30, 2002 .

[drunk]


What kind of drunk are you?

delusion on 11:15 p.m. Friday, March 29, 2002 .

[teen label]

Take the The "What Teen Label Do You Fit Into Most?" Quiz!
by antiperfect

delusion on 10:29 p.m. Thursday, March 28, 2002 .

[which sex and the city player are you?]


Which Sex and the City Player Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

delusion on 08:43 p.m. Thursday, March 28, 2002 .

[enneagram]

take free enneagram test

i didnt think so so i tried redoing, but i got the same thing. ah. it aint accurate. but i do like the barcode anyway. :)

delusion on 11:55 p.m. Wednesday, March 27, 2002 .

[farked up life]

i dun give a damn. this stupid meaningless life which i cant seem to make any head or tail out of. its just routine. and where do u end up? ultimately, ashes. and dun tell me to relax and not be so ji dong, u know its bull shit. backlogs piss the crap outta me. and i hate the feelin of sinkin into this never ending mess i made. ya fark me.

yes, this coming from me. the person who said "if you think life sux, it will." the person whose some hypocrite and doesnt practise what she preaches and only knows how to whine. yes. me

delusion on 10:12 p.m. Wednesday, March 27, 2002 .

[javascript]

updated some links. been meaning to do it for ages. but it's halfway done cos i realised i have homework. and i just rem that this page always has javascript errors. ack. im too lazy to fig it out. anybody?? please?

edit: or more like i cant do javascript for nuts?

delusion on 10:55 p.m. Tuesday, March 26, 2002 .

[eyesore]

are u sick of this layout? im not. but i feel this need to change. argh. and i always get inspiration in the shower. lolx. i wonder why. heck.

delusion on 10:14 p.m. Tuesday, March 26, 2002 .

[artsy? err...]

...and which lesser Harry Potter character are you?

delusion on 06:19 p.m. Tuesday, March 26, 2002 .

[wine?]

If I were a wine I would be...
This quiz was created by Krazy K. Take it here!

delusion on 05:56 p.m. Tuesday, March 26, 2002 .

[ultimate slacker]

Take the What Kind of Slacker are you? Quiz

delusion on 05:56 p.m. Tuesday, March 26, 2002 .

[icq status]

Take the ICQuiz!

delusion on 12:07 a.m. Saturday, March 23, 2002 .

[sometimes i wonder]

sometimes i wonder how i can tolerate myself. all bullshit. talk. talk. and again. more talk. excuses excuses. defensive. where's the action? i dun see anything. utterly disgusting! then agn, what am i doing about this? nothing. why? i can think of half a million excuses. do they actually matter? nope. u're still you. proud of the horrible person you've become. what's the aim of this? i have no idea. go reflect on yourself. save some breath. do more thinking. and action please.

delusion on 10:08 p.m. Monday, March 18, 2002 .

[samantha]

Your name of Samantha has made you versatile and creative. There is hardly anything you cannot do if you put your mind to it, but a driving urge leads you to one experience after another, seldom finishing what you start. You cannot find peace of mind or lasting contentment in anything you do. As soon as a challenge is met, boredom sets in, and you yearn for another experience. This restlessness makes it difficult for you to assume responsibility and to establish stable, progressive conditions in your life. You could do well in sales work or in meeting the public where quickness of mind and expression are all important. You have many friends, but lose interest in people very quickly. Your intense mental activity spoils system and concentration, and plays havoc with relaxation and sleep. Out of your quick thinking has been borne hasty speech. Acting on impulse instead of with forethought has led to many disappointments and bitter experiences. Your whole nervous system could be affected by the intense emotional influence of this name.


***
versatile and creative? my ass. :X some of it seems a beet true though... a bit. bleaurgh.

delusion on 10:06 p.m. Monday, March 18, 2002 .

[break?]

oh yes. school starts tomorrow. -groan= so less updating. yupz. and oh i'll be moving soon. leave the url here when im done.

delusion on 10:05 p.m. Sunday, March 17, 2002 .

[philosophy]

A Nice Philosophy

I believe- that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I believe- that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I believe- that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.

I believe- that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I believe- that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I believe- that we are responsible for our actions, no matter how we justify it.

I believe- that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I believe- that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I believe- that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I believe- that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I believe- that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I believe- that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I believe- that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I believe- that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

***

its emails like this that make checkin ur mail and seeing junk more worthwhile. :)

delusion on 09:57 p.m. Sunday, March 17, 2002 .

[what flavour are u?]

Cor blimey, I taste like Tea. I am a subtle flavour, quiet and polite, gentle, almost ambient. My presence in crowds will often go unnoticed. Best not to spill me on your clothes though, I can leave a nasty stain. What Flavour Are You?

delusion on 11:53 a.m. Saturday, March 16, 2002 .

[sucky com]

went to watch ice age. cute show. the effects rox!

bleah. having problems accessing so many urls. like pitas sites gbooks and the like. sickening. is it my computer or wad? blarh. /me gives com a kick.

delusion on 12:04 a.m. Saturday, March 16, 2002 .

[aggression]

i totally totally agree with this.

delusion on 12:45 p.m. Friday, March 15, 2002 .

[hit obsessed weblogger?]

20 points
TYPE C (HIT-CURIOUS). You do the weblog thing for yourself instead of for an audience, but you are aware that you do have an audience, small as it might be. You are often curious as to what other people find so interesting about your weblog. You check your weblog referrers every now and then just to satisfy your curiosity.

take the quiz.

delusion on 12:17 p.m. Friday, March 15, 2002 .

[caught in the middle]

You said that love was just a state of mind
A puzzle made of pieces you can't find
And for me you never really had the time
I was blind.

Things are so different now you're gone
I thought it'd be easy i was wrong

delusion on 11:45 p.m. Thursday, March 14, 2002 .

[get out]

get outta my mind. i will only hurt you. dont you realise?
my words so evil. heart so cold.
only pain only sorrow will you feel.
so just go. get out. go.forever.

delusion on 10:27 p.m. Thursday, March 14, 2002 .

[i am sam]

=) very very nice show. go watch it! ah. i wanna watch so many shows. at this rate, i'll neva get any homework done. bleah.

delusion on 09:09 p.m. Wednesday, March 13, 2002 .

[yowch!!!]

plug PLUG! very very awesome effects and i totally love the colours. another new layout by toni. and she just came out with one like when? argh. -jealous= grins. =P

delusion on 11:34 p.m. Tuesday, March 12, 2002 .

[fine]

lol. i like this >>

(words women use)
FINE
This is the word we use at the end of any argument that we feel we are right about but need to shut you up. NEVER use fine to describe how a woman looks. This will cause you to have one of those arguments.

lol. another email again. :) sungei buloh today was a waste of time. luckily the mosquitos (sp?) decided to give me a break and stop sucking my blood. aint that nice of them? :) hehe. dead tired. slpt at 2 this morning woke up at 7. no biggie but im still tired. o.O

delusion on 10:53 p.m. Tuesday, March 12, 2002 .

[narcissism]

the result of looking through my photo albums and inspiration for an almost-new layout. :X

(ego) hehe. look. cute? grin. (/ego)
dun laugh! or... i'll smack you! hmf.

ah. but on a sad note, i look like ergh now. :X

p.s. shu: if you're reading this. do NOT go and doodle on this... please? :( u already doodled on me so many times!!!! :X

delusion on 11:56 p.m. Monday, March 11, 2002 .

[html - tag]

You're the HREF tag- you need someone to lean on and take care of you. You can be shy but you shine in difficult situations.

delusion on 10:21 p.m. Monday, March 11, 2002 .

[crossroads]

oh yes, reminds me. i caught crossroads today due to the fact that ice age was sold out. grins. last minute thing. ella was LATE!!! (as usual) but anyway, it totally suxxxx. :X bleh. i liked kit though. grin. the burned out one. in the end, ended up walking out of the show cos it was soooo predictable. argh. there goes $6.50 . -sob=

p.s. just in case you get offended, this is purely my own opinion, yes?

delusion on 10:16 p.m. Monday, March 11, 2002 .

[resignation]

RESIGNATION

I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year-old again.

I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant.

I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks.

I want to think M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them.

I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer's day.

I want to return to a time when life was simple; When all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes, but that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care.

All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset.

I want to think the world is fair. That everyone is honest and good.

I want to believe that anything is possible. I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life and be overly excited by the little things again.

I want to live simple again. I don't want my day to consist of computer crashes, mountains of paperwork, depressing news, how to survive more days in the month than there is money in the bank, doctor bills, gossip, illness, and loss of loved ones.

I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth, justice, peace, dreams, the imagination, mankind, and making angels in the snow.

So . . . here's my checkbook and my car-keys, my credit card bills and my 401K statements. I am officially resigning from adulthood.

And if you want to discuss this further, you'll have to catch me first, cause........ ......"Tag! You're it."

----------------------------------------------------------

something i got in my mail. :) ok. fine. so i'm not an adult yet but im def. not an 8 year old kid right? ah. to be a kid again. that blissful ignorance and innocence.


p.s. yinkae got a new blog at a new url. grins. very cute baby!!!

p.p.s. woot. germaine's back! yayyyy! with a nice new enya-ish layout. lalalaa~

delusion on 09:53 p.m. Monday, March 11, 2002 .

[syt]

look at this. hmm. what do you think?

delusion on 10:58 a.m. Monday, March 11, 2002 .

[letter 'c']

So which letter of the alphabet matches YOUR personality, huh?

delusion on 10:38 a.m. Monday, March 11, 2002 .

[happier =)]

lalala~ feeling much happier now. dunno why. just see all those smiley faces in the photos. -grins=

oh ya, went swimming today. realised im soooo outta shape. blah. sux. =( and i cant stand those inconsiderate people who smoke in the toilets and near the pool. its like you come up to take a breath... a smoky breath. choke violently and go back down under water agn. eesh. =X

delusion on 11:35 p.m. Sunday, March 10, 2002 .

[pmsish?]

sigh. dunno why i've been feeling down these days? and i can never tell when im having pms anyway. who cares? bleh. hehe. im going through all my baby photos, ogling at all those cute kids. the people i know now who look totally different, well sorta. -depressed= i was cuter then. now? ergh. like totally. /feels narcissitic (spelling?)

delusion on 11:01 p.m. Sunday, March 10, 2002 .

[gone]

you're gone. outta my life. just go, won't you?

delusion on 04:06 p.m. Sunday, March 10, 2002 .

[ducky]

Aw, cheer up little ducky. Why so glum?
Find your inner rubber ducky.

delusion on 04:05 p.m. Sunday, March 10, 2002 .

[net slang]

You're "lol". You're so common it's scary.

What internet slang are YOU? | by brit

delusion on 01:43 p.m. Sunday, March 10, 2002 .

[ooh]

ooh. look what i got in the mail? thankuz chris! -grins=

delusion on 01:16 p.m. Sunday, March 10, 2002 .

[...]

i will never forget you

delusion on 10:12 p.m. Saturday, March 9, 2002 .

[updated]

ladidum~ the two links above are finally done and uploaded. grins. whole load of crap and waffling if you ask me. but oh well, nicer than 404 error pages? :)

delusion on 07:09 p.m. Saturday, March 9, 2002 .

[plug!!!]

yowch. i totally totally love this. cos (heh) i cant do those kinda graphics no matter how hard i try. very very nice. go visit her!

delusion on 12:01 a.m. Saturday, March 9, 2002 .

[jia]

the theatre club production by my school which i watched just now was okay. i loved the lighting effects! the best part of it i think. :D but the audience was ... ergh. especially this person sitting at the back who was being very -ahem= extra. (ok. im being really bitchy and all here. but what the heck?) clapping at all the wrong times being totally .... eeeeeeesh. oh well. =X

got theory exam tomorrow. kinda freaking out a little. wonderin if i can pass? argh!

delusion on 11:45 p.m. Friday, March 8, 2002 .

[rojak]

i feel like some rojak. =( kinda somewhere along the lines of not thin not fat, not tall not short, not mean but not nice either, not real not fake, not ego not un-ego (?), you kinda get my point, don't you? sigh.

hate the stupid haze. my throat's killing me. the mcflurry didn't help. :P

delusion on 07:47 p.m. Thursday, March 7, 2002 .

[hiatus]

ack. so many people seem to be busy and kinda going on semi-hiatus mode? argh. :(

delusion on 07:41 p.m. Thursday, March 7, 2002 .

[zibei]

ack. i feel so... ergh. sigh. look at this! nice right? heh. she got a new layout. and its as nice as the last. actually slightly nicer but the last one didnt seem to have used manipulation of photos but maybe im wrong. haish~ see? zi4 bei1

edit: but then again, that's her. im me. so, ah... this is me. :)

delusion on 08:53 p.m. Wednesday, March 6, 2002 .

[bleah]

sigh. i think the haze is coming back. stupid sorethroat. cant talk properly? bleah :(

oh ya. we finally got a holiday! woohoo! :) lalalalaa~ finally... even though its only a half day and i still have third lang after that... =X yay! =)

delusion on 10:47 p.m. Tuesday, March 5, 2002 .

[domain attack!]

wow. hmmm. reverie got a domain! nice name... eternise... -muses= go visit her! i like her new layout :P plus the one at her weblog. heh. refreshing sight.

delusion on 09:10 p.m. Monday, March 4, 2002 .

[fake]

what if you feel so fake? like everything that you're doing saying or thinking is just because it seems more 'right' just nice to be thinking hm. intellectual thoughts and in that way and so on? and you're being so selfish, mostly thinking about yourself? that you dunno what's the real you and who is the real you? should you change? but you can't change. its difficult its funny. you just dunno how.

to you, it wouldnt make so much of a difference. you're more heck-care attitude? its more about yourself? you dun really care?

sigh. i dunno what im talking about. i don't even think i make much sense most of the time. no wonder ella says i like to ramble on and on, crap abt nothing at all.

sigh im one nutcase. one gone-case nutcase.

delusion on 09:02 p.m. Monday, March 4, 2002 .

[freakin out]

ack. there's hcl test tmr. die... i haven't studied. in fact, i've just finished doing my homework... i think? err. ya. eesh. ooh yes. this is a new layout (duh). so, gimme your comments on it won't you? i think im deproving... if you saw the ones before. :( book's here... ;)

plug!! :P
oh and before i forget, jo and germaine have new layouts! :P germaine's the layout monster...... to be...

oh. and hm. before i go, one question:
why do you have a blog for?
as in purpose... and just why?

me wonders if that made sense

delusion on 10:25 p.m. Sunday, March 3, 2002 .

[undone]

ooh. and by the way, the links above? well, they don't work yet. you'll just get an error page if you try. except for the 2nd last one i think. bleh. no time to get it done. have 4 tests this week. argh. hol's one wk away. cant wait.

delusion on 05:03 p.m. Sunday, March 3, 2002 .

[weekend blues]

have i ever mentioned how much i love the weekends? when i have a little teeny weeny bit more time to sleep and slack. :) bleh. but it goes so fast. friday's band sat's another busy day and sunday's homework day. then its back to school. depressing~

delusion on 04:59 p.m. Sunday, March 3, 2002 .

[happiness?]

What is your meaning of life?

delusion on 05:42 p.m. Saturday, March 2, 2002 .

[chinese]

"why do we learn chinese?" - a question to think about. before you start blabbering on and on the usual stuff about how it is part of our roots and we should therefore learn it, let me tell you my part.

my chi teacher said something really v.meaningful yesterday. she said that being chinese, we have the RIGHT to speak chinese. it is our 'zi ge'. look at the french for eg. they love french, france and would only speak their national language. it is something of their own, a part of their identity. if you go to france and speak english to them, they wouldn't bother about you. only if you speak french... if you, being a chinese, go overseas to perhaps, england, and you do not know how to speak chinese, the english would look down on you. yes, you may know how to speak english, but they also know how to speak english and it IS their language anyway, but not yours! lol. im starting to sound a bit like a nutcase but oh heck. chinese is something of your own, something that belongs to all chinese. only you have the right to speak it actually. even japanese originated from chinese and even so, the japanese are proud of their language. why can't we be proud of ours? something for you to think about.

delusion on 07:41 p.m. Friday, March 1, 2002 .

[ack]

ack. so much work. im gonna scream. and im gettin so distracted. anyway, this page is uncompleted. wad de heck. the ny server is slow. either that or my grphic is prob too big. darn. ack. wadeva. bleh. bye.

delusion on 10:14 p.m. Tuesday, February 26, 2002 .

[huh?]

ergh. lemme see. chey. i thought can ftp blogger to this. grins. i just don't like spastic ads. oh well. hello blogging...again. i dont think i'll be using you v.often... its too egoistic. and my ego is just abt bursting... =X

delusion on 11:14 p.m. Monday, February 25, 2002 .