[GRR]
slpi. WAYYYYYYYYYY too slpi. im gonna die tmr. i jus know it. sigh. feel it in my bones. should have been slping by 1030 today. think dad's pissed agn. bleah. i didnt watch the pianist!!!!! GRR. i should have passed to the others first or sth? they din watch either. oh dear. nvm. lend from someone else next time or vcd shop i guess. at least i chiong my hist review and chi bk reviewS? and hist poster half done need to print in sch com lab tmr my printer suX. kk. stupid ivle aint sendinG. arGH. SLEEEEEEEP where are youuuuuuuuuuuu. i hate going back to school. >:O where's one more week of hols gone to? welcome back to normal hated life. sigh.
set adrift on 12:54 a.m. Monday, June 30, 2003 .
gbook .
[reminder]
let's see wheres my hw entry. :|
to do:
1. Maths circle e-learning module
2. Eng newspaper publication ?
3. Bio journal
4. Study Bio- all topics
5. Revision : Indices + Logarithms (IVLE)
6. Revision : Graphs (IVLE)
7. Chinese : 2 Book reviews
8. Chinese : Reading Review Competition (Grp)
9. Chemistry common test Practise.
10. Memorise list of cations/anions
11. Harmony Assignment 7
12. Declarations forms
13. Geog Mapping worksheet 1
14. 1995 Compre (opt?)
15. Chinese : Shui bi 7
16. Chemistry Practical
17. History : Designing poster
18. History : Book/movie review
19. Study History tests (Clauses of WW2 + War in Pacific and WW2 in Europe)
20. RMUN?
21. History structured.
22. History assg 4.
23. HSSRP
24. Band Fund.
25. Bio File
Events/Lookingforwardto-*:
1. Band practices
2. RMUN 2nd briefing/presentations
3. Lessons?
4. 13/06 - "Little Toys"
5. 15/06 - "Meridith Monk (Mercy)"
6. 16/06 - Moot Parliment
7. 20/06 - Sentosa chalet thingAE. :)
8. 21/06 - Joanna's Bdae
9. 26/06 - ECP BBQ?
10. 28/06 - Meli's Bdae.
11. 05/07 - Ms Ng's Wedding
12. How to lose a guy in 10 days
13. Finding Nemo
14. The In-Laws
15. Bruce Almighty
16. Shopping? :P Window-
17. Watch My Sassy Girl / rent vcds
18. Go out with zx =P eat sushi? I owe her a bdae present.
OH WELL. -_- nevermind. left with less than 12 hours to gO? bleahhhhh. kindOf. sighs. to dO history now. hist test on tues. :| lucki not on monday wait i cant tell if its good or bad means first day of sch, i hav to mug hist like siaO. grr. i give up on indices. forgot everything. and chi!!!!!! EEKS. and @#$@!#$# HSSRP. sighs.
set adrift on 06:01 p.m. Sunday, June 29, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : toilet :)]
You are a REGULAR TOILET, you're probably a woman,
you are sweet person who everybody loves.
What kind of toilet are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
set adrift on 04:47 p.m. Thursday, June 26, 2003 .
gbook .
[Quiz : emotion]
You are Peace.
You are at peace with your self and the world
around you. You have balance in your life and
exude tranquility from every pore of your body.
People are constantly asking you "what is
your secret?"
What Emotion Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
set adrift on 01:26 a.m. Thursday, June 26, 2003 .
gbook .
[Quiz : emotion]
You are Peace.
You are at peace with your self and the world
around you. You have balance in your life and
exude tranquility from every pore of your body.
People are constantly asking you "what is
your secret?"
What Emotion Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
set adrift on 01:26 a.m. Thursday, June 26, 2003 .
gbook .
[whatif-]
very scared. think of werd warp things. like what if i broke my leG. or bone twisted outta place or SOMETHING. mom said if u had those, u cant even walk. well i can walk. okay.
that im anyhow doign dunno wad to it i dont even kno if its correct, and what if it just rots, lan diao. and and and cant recover. I CANT BENd my leg. its irritating me!!!!!!!!!!!! #@%#$@^$%^&4 i want to move. it's gonna take forever to recover if it does. 1 month? or how long i dont know. :( wanna cry. feel like crying. this is so shitty. regrETs. ha. but too late. its over.
throats starting to hurt. muz be the over-intake of choc and rubbish after 'getting well'. shit.
set adrift on 10:38 p.m. Tuesday, June 24, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : chinese symbOl?]
ICE is your chinese symbol!
What Chinese Symbol Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
set adrift on 10:58 p.m. Sunday, June 22, 2003 .
gbook .
[sigh]
realised i more oft than not pretend to be strong try to be strong in front of other people then go home and take it out on my family or those pple closest / closer to me. and generalli make alot of noise. all my fault. and feel horribly guilty after that. sigh. zx says maybe its cos we know that they'll forgive us.? dunno.
set adrift on 12:18 a.m. Sunday, June 22, 2003 .
gbook .
[tear?]
lol. werd. tear ( noun ) tears cry those tears. and tear ( verb ) tear tore. hee. nevermind. :)
set adrift on 11:44 p.m. Saturday, June 21, 2003 .
gbook .
[thankfulthen?]
i know its my fault. fine. it is. my fault i din bother to learn last time. so now i go sentosa and i learn cycling. my fault i fall down like sO shit. my fault i wanted to learn the hard way. of course my fault. i know that too.
"shadup la. stop crying"
"cry for wad. nobody die" - mei ren shi ni ku she mo
ke yi. wo shi ni ye bu hui ku de. i kno that u all sureli say i deserve it. yanyun dey all say will your parents make noise we did this to u dunnowad sth liddat. i said you kidding? they sure say huo gai. since i knew it. so why do i feel so hurt now. i know they wun give a shit. they rather watch their show. its no big deal anyway. not like i break any bones or whatever. its jus skin based tear bleed? right? not even as bad as my bros deep cut. just werd. so werd. my friends give more shit care more than my own family. ok so maybe they think im independent enough to handle it. just let me cry can anot? i din cry at all. when i fell when whatever. im crying now cos i dont trust your medic skills when u say u want to put the detol like that. when its supp to be damn strong u say. and u even said come here theres der yellow medicine, u put yourself. ok. i put myself. FINE. im supp to be independent. right. :) of course. dont care about me la. its ok. just let me cry in peace can? whats wrong with crying? relieve my stress cannot? just like to cry for fun cannot? im still a kid kno. dont worry its mutual. i kno u can handle everything yourselves too. i dont have to worry dont have to care. its none of business. im alone remembeR? i can do everything myself. right. :)
dont mind me. im just wallowing in self pity feeling sorry for me being unreasonable being pissed anyhow screaming yup. dont mind me. just leave me alone. JUST LET ME Cry CAN? not as if it'll cost u a fortune. if not, i can always go somewhere u cant hear me to cry. :) i like crying you got a problem? blardi leg cramping up.
when i fell, the guy said ah lucky no bones broken onli pi wai shang sth liddat. yup. thank God. he didnt let me break any bones. i'll recover. this is der howmanyetH fall anyway. :) haha. yup. should be thankful for that. shall go sleep earli. then can wake up earlier to prac violin. gotta chiong homework now. last week le. so shitty. newspaper stuff due on tues? i forgot which stuffs im doing. bleaaaaaaah. shitty i ate so much junk after being -off= them for 2 weeks? and now haha. square 1 i think. coughcoughcough. snifffffff. lol. nvm. sam is just being spastic. bleah. k. oh the northeast line damn nice. haha. :) yanyun is v. cute. :P
set adrift on 11:28 p.m. Saturday, June 21, 2003 .
gbook .
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set adrift on 11:20 p.m. Saturday, June 21, 2003 .
gbook .
[=D]
haha. i passed my theory. WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehehehehehehehehehehehehehe. grins. :) lol. my dad cheat me! he said 85, den i screamed into der phone. den he say errrrrrr. 77. :| bleahhhh. LOL. but nvm. im very happy le. grins. cos i stopped theory for dunno how long but still hengheng can pass. hiakshiaks. and din do as badly as the year before? muahahahaha. ladidum~~~~~~ :) yays. lol. im going to sentosa and i have nooooo marnie. haha. aud's back from m'sia? Grins. :) and i left yx's seventeen mag in the history room!!!! ARGH. how? its $5 i cant afford to buy another one back for her. LOL. shit i hope no one took it. bleahhhh. EVERYONE muz be honest pple k? grins. :) hiaks. lalalalalala. i passed my theory. heeeee. :) sorrie. haha. grins. i love khin. :)
set adrift on 11:13 a.m. Friday, June 20, 2003 .
gbook .
[self-reference]
SPENT sooooooo much marnie. where has all my money gone to? boohoo.
(thurs) movie-agentcodybanks: $15.00
(sat) nydc : $11.00 (abt)
(mon) pastamania : $ 9.20
(tues) movie-phonebooth : $ 6.50
octopusballs : $ 2.00
burgerking : $ 2.00
(wed) sushi : $12.20
misC =)(presents/..): $27.10
(thurs) crepes : $ 3.00
food. :| : $ 1.30
clothes :) : $14.90
present : $10.00
(others) transport : $20.00
loan :-$50.00
loan :-$22.45
owed : $ 9.00
phone bill : $50.44
suscription :-$17.50
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total : $103.69
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shitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshit. im broke now. shitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshit.
set adrift on 11:35 p.m. Thursday, June 19, 2003 .
gbook .
[=(]
i want khin to come back from hiatus. :(
cant stand it when they do that. fault oR not. sigh. bye then.
i told you i was moodswinging. oh dear.
set adrift on 11:46 p.m. Wednesday, June 18, 2003 .
gbook .
[=D]
THIS IS SO EMBARRESSING. i thought daniel was yihua. and talked to him / her? for 30 mins plusplus thinking he was yihua. and SHIT. shit shit shit shit shit shit. aRGH. :$ oh no. hs said i should bury my head in sand. no sand. im not an ostrich. grr. >:O
lol. jenny iZ sO "totally awesome dudeeeeeeeeee" =| haha. funny day. they're horrible. see me neva say hi. horrible. utterly. gRr. >:O that is so unfair la. bleah.
i think i need medication or something. tonight. not very normal. -_- maybe still suffering after effects or yesterday. hiaKs. derek is funny. yesterday was hilarious. LOL. no fair. they're eating crepes and ice cream at half a dozen zillion places tomorrow. i wANNA EAT. dun care dun care. humph. i see my self control flying away. sighs. i dont think u wanna know abt yesterday la. but hee. neva laugh so much. :) happy happy day. hiaks. okie den. nitE :) everyone should laugh a lot smile and be happie. oh ya, zx thanks for der living laRge cd. BUTTTTTTTT i cant find der extra stuffs. boohoo.
set adrift on 11:14 p.m. Wednesday, June 18, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : true zodiac]
You should be a Scorpio, your Passionate,
emotional, and determined, but you can be
obsessive, unforgiving, and a little arrogant
~*What is your TRUE Zodica sign?*~
brought to you by Quizilla
feeling ive done this before. BUT i think i got a diff result this time? half way thro i thought shit ive done this. forget it. anyhowwwwwwwwwww. ?
set adrift on 10:32 a.m. Tuesday, June 17, 2003 .
gbook .
[piggy]
m: dat day nydc
m: yesterday pastamania
zx: haha
zx: ok..
zx: so shuang arhz
m: lol
m: EXP AR
m: den i got no marnie to go shop
zx: aww
m: bleah
m: i see ella shop
m: i v. jeaLOUS
m: argh
zx: haha
zx: cos ella dun eat
zx: u cant run away form it..
zx: ur like me
zx: piggy over shopping
zx: :P
m: gAHhhhhhhhhhhhh
zx: hehe
zx: its ur nature
zx: :P
zx: ella is shopping over food
BLEAHHH. i still wanna go shopping. >:O and khin? im not pissed la. :| lol. where did u decipher that from? bLEAH. sighs. gonna make iC later. derekwherehaveudiedto. =| hrm. raining. oh loveliloveli rain. :) hee. wanna ZzZ der whole day onli...
set adrift on 10:28 a.m. Tuesday, June 17, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : nemO]
What Finding Nemo Character are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
set adrift on 10:25 a.m. Tuesday, June 17, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : smilieeeeeee]
which smilie are you?
set adrift on 10:24 a.m. Tuesday, June 17, 2003 .
gbook .
[nah]
no no no
they're all like that.
its deja vu.
all like that.
arent they?
shit you.
whats wrong?
are you okay?
yah yah.
just leave me alone.
no unkind intentions.
SOP.
what's wrong?
no idea.
yurp. just bye.
'bye'
forget it.
it doesnt matter. right?
sounds familiar.
dislike detest hate glare
glare.
i need to think again.
i cant stant this.
set adrift on 03:34 p.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003 .
gbook .
[why-]
Every finger in the room is pointing at me,
I wanna spit in their faces,
Then I get afraid of what that could bring.
I got a boling ball in my stomach,
I got a desert in my mouth.
Figures that my courage
would choose to sell out now.
I've been looking for a saviour in these dirty streets,
Looking for a saviour beneath these dirty sheets,
I've been raising up my hands drive another nail in
Just what God needs one more victim .
Why do we crucify ourselves
Everyday I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you
I crucify myself
Everyday I crucify myself.
And my heart is sick of being,
I said my heart is sick of being in chains.
Got a kick for a dog beggin' for love
I gotta have my suffering so that I can have my cross
I know a cat named Easter he says "Will you ever learn"
You're just an empty cage girl if you kill the bird.
I've been looking for a saviour in these dirty streets,
Looking for a saviour beneath these dirty sheets,
I've been raising up my hands drive another nail in
Got enough guilt to start my own religion.
Why do we crucify ourselves
Everyday I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you
I crucify myself
Everyday I crucify myself.
And my heart is sick of being,
I said my heart is sick of being in chains.
Please be
Save me
I cry.
tori amos - crucify
set adrift on 03:29 p.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003 .
gbook .
[randomsong]
Since you been gone
I been hangin' around here lately
With my mind messed up
Jumped in my car tried to clear my mind
Didn't help me
I guess I'm all messed up now baby
Soon as I jumped into my ride
Those memories start to play
A song comes on the radio
And there U are baby once again
It's just another sad love song
Rackin' my brain like crazy
Guess I'm all torn up
Be it fast or slow
It doesn't let go
Or shake me
And it's all because of you
Since you been gone
I keep thinkin' about you baby
Gets me all choked up
This heart of mine keeps
Dreamin' of you and it's crazy
You'd think I'd had enough
As soon as I get you out my head
I'm in your car again
Just one request from the radio
I'm back in love sugar once again
It's just another sad love song
Rackin' my brain like crazy
Guess I'm all torn up
Be it fast or slow
It doesn't let go
Or shake me
And it's all because of you
Here comes the strings
Then somebody sings
Only takes a beat
And then it starts killin' me darlin'
Only takes one note, I tell ya,
From that radio
It's just
Another
Lonely
Love Song
from archives. toni braxton - another sad love song. :) nice nice.
set adrift on 03:26 p.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : movie genres]
Which [Movie Genres] are you?
set adrift on 03:16 p.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : usual mood.]
What's your usual [mood]?
=P
set adrift on 03:15 p.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : finding nemo]
Which [Finding Nemo] characters are you?
LOL. i knew it :| finding nemO is soooooo cute. i wanna go watch agn. hee. butttttttttttt nvm. :) maybe i shall find der vcd. heh.
set adrift on 03:13 p.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : facial expression.]
Big Grin; :-D applaud my award-winning smile
This quiz was made by Sara (www.saradover.com)
What facial expression are you?
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bleah. how der heck did my answers give me this result? -dontgetit= glare. :|
set adrift on 03:12 p.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : inner fast food.]
Find your inner fast food! by Emily
werd. is there a&w? i like a&w. hee.
set adrift on 03:07 p.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : inner turbulance]
You are...
You are discontent with life and with yourself. You wish it would all go away. In order to prevent spiraling down into a deep pit of despair, you have learned to become apathetic, letting the world go by as though you are not even a part of it. You need to learn to seek yourself and not dwell on all that is wrong with the world.
Your song is: Losing Time
from last time.
set adrift on 02:54 p.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : personality disorder test]
constantli changing?
set adrift on 02:50 p.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003 .
gbook .
[colorgenics]
You are trying to establish yourself and make an impact despite the fact that everything around you seems to be against you - putting up barriers, but don't be unduly concerned: you have the right ideas and come what may, they will soon be manifested and appreciated.
You are looking for excitement and stimulation and you are ready to try anything - but be careful not to take too many risks.
The way things are at this time it is necessary to 'go slow'. All the pleasures that you have anticipated should be left in abeyance until some future date, but all is not lost, you are able to derive and achieve considerable gratification from someone quite close to you.
Your stress and anxiety are a result of an emotional disappointment. It could well be that the emotional relationship is no longer running smoothly and you have come to the end of your tether. On the one hand you would like to free yourself from this relationship altogether, yet on the other hand, you don't want to lose anything nor risk the uncertainty of throwing away something - something that's precious, something that could be the 'Real Thing'. Perhaps for the first time in your life you really don't know which way to go and it is these contradictory emotions that are causing you the untold stress. You are pretending to the world that you don't care but even this air of pretence is causing you much heartache.
You are presently worried about your future and you feel that whatever you do will go wrong. At this time you are your own worst enemy. All the disappointment that you have experienced, coupled with the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals, have led to anxiety. You would like recognition and a position of trust but you are concerned that these hopes and dreams may not be realized. You are very argumentative and insistent that you are right - maybe you are - but you are pushing too hard. Take it easy, let go, and smile. Smiling and agreeing with people works wonders - try it and see.
set adrift on 02:40 p.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003 .
gbook .
[colorgenics]
You are tired of the various 'ups' and 'downs' of life at this time. If only you could win a lottery - or better still, be the heir to a large inheritance which would allow you to afford a life of absolute luxury. This day dreaming will shortly pass and whether you like it or not, sooner or later you will have to face reality.
You are a leader and possibly at this time in a position of authority, but you are experiencing problems. You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation.
Your involvements seldom measure up to your high emotional expectations and your 'needs' to be 'loved' and 'cared for' have in the past often led to extreme disappointment. But a change is in the wind - make a firm decision to start anew. Just 'think' it..and it will happen.
Matters have not gone well for you. You are experiencing severe stress trying to guard yourself from further disappointments. It would seem that all of your hopes and dreams have not been realised and you are now beginning to doubt yourself. You no longer wish to be further advised by anyone and you insist on going it alone - to control your own destiny. Even though deep down you doubt whether things will get better in the future you have one consolation - and that is that they couldn't possibly get worse. Unwilling to give up anything that you possess, you are looking for some sort of security as a protection against any further setback or loss of position and prestige. You are so negative that you tend to exaggerate your problems and refuse to accept any advice from so called well-meaning friends.
Sometimes one fears that its not worth formulating new ideas and projects because whatever you seem to have done in the past has never worked out and you are tired of, as they say, banging your head against a brick wall. No one seems to care. So now you are trying to get away from it all by withdrawing into a 'fantasy land' but unfortunately 'fantasy land' is just that and sooner or later you will have to return to reality so why delay the inevitable? When you do return, you will find that the situation is not as tough as perhaps you thought it was.
set adrift on 02:35 p.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003 .
gbook .
[random]
i want a change.
i cant express myself.
i miss myself.
i am feeling weird.
i want to go alone.
i need a break.
i want to rewind time.
random
strange foreign beauty. i never know whats in your heart.
life in mono in so. last time. feeling?
the stranger sang a theme. from someone else's dream. the leaves began to fall. and no one spoke at all. but i cant seem to recall...
***
The stranger sang a theme
From someone else's dream
The leaves began to fall
And no one spoke at all
But I can't seem to recall
When you came along
Ingenue
Ingenue
I just don't know what to do
The tree-lined avenue
Begins to fade from view
Drowning past regrets
In tea and cigarettes
But I can't seem to forget
When you came along
Ingenue
Ingenue
| I just don't know what to do | X4
Ingenue
***
Packing up the dreams
God planted
In the fertile soil of you
I Can't believe the hopes He's granted
Means a chapter in your life is through
But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong
(CHORUS)
And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say "never"
Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long to live as friends.
With the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you'll live in
Is the strength that now you show
But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong
(CHORUS)
***
if you fall i will catch you i'll be waiting. time after time.
right. if i can.
***
I'm lying in my bed
Hear the clock tickin
I think of you
Caught up in circles
Confusion, there's nothing new
Flashback, warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories
Time after...
Sometimes you'll picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me
I can't hear what you say
And you say, go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds
CHORUS:
If you're lost, you can look
And you will find me
Time after time
If you fall, I will catch you
I will be waiting
Time after time
(repeat)
After my picture fades
And darkness has turned to gray
Watching through windows
You're wondering if I'm okay
Secret stolen
All from deep inside
The 808's on time
(CHORUS)
And you say, go slow
I fall behind
The 808's on time
(CHORUS)
(repeat)
Time after time...
(until fades)
***
nevermind.
dont ask any questions.
set adrift on 02:16 p.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003 .
gbook .
[fridayfive late.]
pretty much have no mood to blog these days. i think too little. is that good or bad? nvm. comparitiveli lesser.
1. What's one thing you've always wanted to do, but never have?
be moRe standout take initiative? go for debates represent sOMETHING and feel like im worth something. go up talk to people like der guys are able to? so -_-
2. When someone asks your opinion about a new haircut/outfit/etc, are you always honest?
to a certain extent. see underlying reasons. generalli am. what cant kill them. :)
3. Have you ever found out something about a friend and then wished you hadn't? What happened?
too many too many. sometimes its just better to remain ignorant and live in peaceful bliss? im envious of them. u kno i am. so happy. just like that. think nothing
4. If you could live in any fictional world (from a book/movie/game/etc.) which would it be and why?
fantasy. cos logic wouldnt rule. some magIc world and whatnots kind? lol. not a particular specific one but the genre's there.
5. What's one talent/skill you don't have but always wanted?
same thing as top? hav more charisma? lol. erh. like ailene can just talk LIKE THAT. u kno what i mean? or sth la. or more sporty or something. dunno. nvm. should be content with ur lot.
went for little toys yesterday. quite nice. but it was amusing? "Are u from chung cheng high?" "nah im not. sorry." lol the guy looked v. err. amusing la. nvm. and the war parts? everyone died the girl broke down and went crazy... k so -_- nvm. but it was nice. :) hee. and dEr pple outside? the outdoor theatre or whatever u call it. she's SOooooooooooooooooooo yowch. play flute trmpet saX? and can sing? and der rest too. nicemusic. :) haha. going for the mercy tmr. er today. should go slp. should be nice. stupid khin backed out last min. bleah. nvm. moot on monday havent checked der websitE. gah. nvm. if angelyn wants to be clerk, she can i guess. dun care le la. rmun was dumb. so social fest? "flirt fest" someone said. sighs. gotta do work for it too. gah. nvm. shall stop complaining. zZz.
oh nydc was nice. lol. :) feel like a pig. eat slp eat slp. haha. my cousin's cuTEe :) kk.
set adrift on 12:21 a.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : black zodiac]
The Torn Prince
What sign of the Black Zodiac are you?
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?? slipshodli done. haLf read half did. nvm.
set adrift on 11:56 p.m. Wednesday, June 11, 2003 .
gbook .
[3weeks]
to do:
1. Maths circle e-learning module
2. Eng newspaper publication
3. Bio journal
4. Study Bio- all topics
5. Revision : Indices + Logarithms (IVLE)
6. Revision : Graphs (IVLE)
7. Chinese : 2 Book reviews
8. Chinese : Reading Review Competition (Grp)
9. Chemistry common test Practise.
10. Memorise list of cations/anions
11. Harmony Assignment 7
12. Declarations forms
13. Geog Mapping worksheet 1
14. 1995 Compre (opt?)
15. Chinese : Shui bi 7
16. Chemistry Practical
17. History : Designing poster
18. History : Book/movie review
19. Study History tests (Clauses of WW2 + War in Pacific and WW2 in Europe)
20. RMUN?
21. History structured.
22. History assg 4.
23. HSSRP
24. Band Fund.
Events/Lookingforwardto-*:
1. Band practices
2. RMUN 2nd briefing/presentations
3. Lessons?
4. 13/06 - "Little Toys"
5. 15/06 - "Meridith Monk (Mercy)"
6. 16/06 - Moot Parliment
7. 20/06 - Sentosa chalet thingAE. :)
8. 21/06 - Joanna's Bdae
9. 26/06 - ECP BBQ?
10. 28/06 - Meli's Bdae.
11. 05/07 - Ms Ng's Wedding
12. How to lose a guy in 10 days
13. Finding Nemo
14. The In-Laws
15. Bruce Almighty
16. Shopping? :P Window-
17. Watch My Sassy Girl / rent vcds
18. Go out with zx =P eat sushi? I owe her a bdae present.
gah. only 3 weeks? =( need to (re) organise my thoughts yada. sighs.
set adrift on 11:02 p.m. Wednesday, June 11, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : saint exupery's the little prince]
You are the drawing.
Saint Exupery's 'The Little Prince' Quiz.
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set adrift on 11:01 p.m. Wednesday, June 11, 2003 .
gbook .
[edge]
feels like im teteering teetering ? on the edge and im about to fall off soon. i just dont know when. v. touchy easily irritable. grumpy and sO on der works. sigh. thanks khin for the -hug- outta nowhEre yesterday. =) made me feel happy. and loved. hee. thaNks. sigh. i wanna watch my sassy girL. eat sushi after nxt tues. eat junk after next tues. but not fall sick agn of course. rmun doesnt seem that bad anymore. feels like i actually kno what im doing and what im talking about.....maybe? =) yays. michE! go and do ur media censorship!!!!!!!!!!! :P feels like a bleahy day. i rem i wanted to do fridayfive last week, buT cOs my answers to the qns were v. -_- so i gave up. miss band. sighs. feeling of plaYing in der band...
set adrift on 10:37 p.m. Wednesday, June 11, 2003 .
gbook .
[difference?]
thing that irritates me was that i was right. after it all. ya. not so much or a gd/bad thing. but. fact is reality. yuP? i think that i could hav done w/o that experience tho. what makes it different from everything else? so similar. yet sup to be diff?
set adrift on 11:38 p.m. Monday, June 9, 2003 .
gbook .
[grumpy]
great. the perfect way to start the hols proper of course. by getting sick. @#!@$@!$$^$#^#$ and whoever who took my plastic bag and dumped my books out. grr. whats uR blardi problem??????? nvm. got throat infectn think i caught flu from ty. this sucks. hope i'll get ok soon. ARGH. this is my holiday. nOt some time to get sick? = hurts to talk swallow eat anything. and theres rmun this saT. and whatnots. sigh. yah, this sucks. nvm. betta get started on rmun. supposed to do it today but feeling quiTe -_- so went home. sorrie wuims. sighs. wake up tomorrow den chiong my work. nightnight.
set adrift on 10:25 p.m. Monday, June 9, 2003 .
gbook .
[=)]
went out with ty to watch his darling amanda bynes today. sorrie not sure abt der spelling. nvm. it wasnt too bad la i guess. hee. and wasted alottttt of time in times bkshop den went to watch how to lose a guy in 10 day.s nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahh. =) hee. it was amusing cos at der bkshop earlier on we saw this bk same title la then lik eh? den read through it then during the show its like OMGdness. haha. so similar? lol. then rushed home.
sneezes. shucks. maybe i caught a cold from him. boohoo. = and my throat hurts lik hell. throat infectn to be i think? lip started bleeding during church today. so werd. then i was like :O when suzanne told me. sigh. water doesnt seem to help. still gotta go to sch tomorrow. just let me grumble and whine wont u? sniff. ok maths. bye.
set adrift on 10:58 p.m. Sunday, June 8, 2003 .
gbook .
[sanity]
i think the best way to keep myself sane is to delete your existence from my knowledge. bye. oh dear. its sunday. God bless everyone. sigh.
current: « sam ² » hey. i miss(ed) you. [thankGodforyourexistence]
set adrift on 12:12 a.m. Sunday, June 8, 2003 .
gbook .
[sanity]
i think the best way to keep myself sane is to delete your existence from my knowledge. bye. oh dear. its sunday. God bless everyone. sigh.
current: « sam ² » hey. i miss(ed) you. [thankGodforyourexistence]
set adrift on 12:12 a.m. Sunday, June 8, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz : blood sweat tears]
tears
Blood, Sweat, and Tears
brought to you by Quizilla
set adrift on 11:50 p.m. Saturday, June 7, 2003 .
gbook .
[random]
these days, just feel high. just do silly things speak stuffs i dont really really think about. just comes out of my mouth gibberish whatnots. laugh at myself. laugh at people let people laugh at me. feel euphoria in a sense? who knows.
who knows.?
hcjc lionheart thing quite nice. wouldnt missed it for anything elsE. just feeling silly happy laughing like a mAd woman. i swear it muz have been the bubblegum icecream. =| lol. dont eat it else u become like me. specimen #555. sigh. = nvm. i dont think you get it. but it was nice. and amusing yah? the guy who did the flash is gd. what music was that? i like it. hrm. saw derek! mr nice guy. no whatever intended. hee. feels lik last time. sorry for all der pokes whatnotS. dunno what i was doing. juSt yah. just that moment. those moments. darn. im feeling nostalgiC. sigh. nvm. i didnt prac my violin, der mozArt minor sonata? is nice. =) i like minor key music. i like zhoujielun. =)
set adrift on 11:11 p.m. Saturday, June 7, 2003 .
gbook .
[stoned]
i sound drunk?
stoned. out of it.
aud says. =| alice said so in der afternoon too. sigh. i feel stoned. nothing im studying is going in. whatever. chiong geog morning phys recess maths after sch. he shld have jus given it on wed. theres was nothing on wed. tomorrows such a depressing last day of sch. blardi com is super laggy and slow. bro keeps d/ling games or whatnots. night. = i wish you were here.
set adrift on 11:29 p.m. Thursday, June 5, 2003 .
gbook .
[whine]
khin? i think you would like der book "the blue nowhere" by jeffery deaver. haha. i once rec. it to jy. he neva read it. bleaH. nvm. hMx. on social engineering. hee. =) okok.
dunno whats wrong with me. losing motivation. screwed up today's history test i think. barely studied. my own fault. night of the long knives ? became knight of the silver sword. wad deRr =| and SA SS mix up. and im not even sure about the conclusion i used. so mo hu. err. blurry. cant rem if its actually something i read or something i made up myself. sighs.
dont feel like studying for tests tomorrow. theres physics maths quiz and geog test. feels like hols soon so whatever. just want to get over with it. no more of a hol anyway. outta 3 weeks, i get 5 weekdays off school? make it 6. history 2nd week got cancelled. i think. sigh. plus band? the confirmed schedule for june isnt really out yet. SIGH. what kinda holiday is that? plus we have tons and TONS and tons of homework already. like finishing a whole chapter or so of maths ourselves? self learning or whatever they call it. and i hATE war shows. feel like puking. schindler's list fine ive watched it before. but still. sigh. saD. some holiday.
whats wrong? somethings wrong. i dont know whats wrong. bleah. can you tell me whats wrong? sigh. keep sighing. ya, sigh. oh well. study now. dont want to screw up tomorrow. going for debates finals after band. like chionging all der way? sigh. something related to rmun close la. oh well. kuo would say what do you expect? frankly, i dont see much of a holiday or wadevA free time until end of next year. =| i think i took on too much this year. to make up for never doing anything all the other years. whatever. jus excuse my whining or whatever. need to complain make noise get everything ouT. not good enough tho.
set adrift on 09:39 p.m. Thursday, June 5, 2003 .
gbook .
[ny art fest]
oh ya.
" Nanyang Girls' High School Festival of Arts 19th July. 230 (Matinee) or 730 pm $10! Performances by band, choir, co, string ensemble etc "
hee. like elise said, go alreadi muz buy flowers for me ar! lol. kidding dun need. 2 songs onli. but if youre free. go? hee. shld be quite nice i think. i like our opening!!!!!! ahh. hiaks.
set adrift on 10:38 p.m. Wednesday, June 4, 2003 .
gbook .
[lightofthanks]
click! =)
set adrift on 10:23 p.m. Wednesday, June 4, 2003 .
gbook .
[-_-]
got friendli feelings for that test. ok so fine. it really isnt that accurate. but. :( whats that supposed to mean? feeling horrible. sigh. im sorry. im just too. how do u call that? shy i guess. yah. maybe. thats a nice way of saying it. a horrible way would be. er. dunno. feeling sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy. zZz. gotta study for music test. sigh.
set adrift on 10:58 p.m. Monday, June 2, 2003 .
gbook .
[-_-]
got friendli feelings for that test. ok so fine. it really isnt that accurate. but. :( whats that supposed to mean? feeling horrible. sigh. im sorry. im just too. how do u call that? shy i guess. yah. maybe. thats a nice way of saying it. a horrible way would be. er. dunno. feeling sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy. zZz. gotta study for music test. sigh.
set adrift on 10:55 p.m. Monday, June 2, 2003 .
gbook .
[-_-]
got friendli feelings for that test. ok so fine. it really isnt that accurate. but. :( whats that supposed to mean? feeling horrible. sigh. im sorry. im just too. how do u call that? shy i guess. yah. maybe. thats a nice way of saying it. a horrible way would be. er. dunno. feeling sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy. zZz. gotta study for music test. sigh.
set adrift on 10:55 p.m. Monday, June 2, 2003 .
gbook .
[quiz: sign of affection]
hm. remember doing this before.
footsie - you like to goof around and laugh with
the people you care about.
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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werd. retook it.
hand holding - you like to be in constant physical
contact with your special someone but you don't
want to take things too quickly.
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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haha. i rem last time i gOt innocent kiss. :P i think. lol.
set adrift on 11:39 p.m. Sunday, June 1, 2003 .
gbook .
[weirdthoughts]
feeling weird today. having weiiiiiiird thoughts. haha. dont want to talk about it. it's :$ anyway. sims is pretty...i dunno. lol. well its kinda old outdated blahblah. now's all der expansion packs whatnots. i cant help it if i juz suddenli generate interest now right? :| hiaKs. hrmmmmmmmm. iz dat der song? dont tell me coz it hurts. dont speak you know just ...... sth. jy says its no doubt-dont speaK. hrm. dont have it. bleahhhhhhhhhh. its june. :) stupid sars. if not we'll be having hols now. GRR. what a sickening thought.
set adrift on 08:58 p.m. Sunday, June 1, 2003 .
gbook .
