[Untitled.]

They all pao qi wo. =( Humph. Stupid Shu. =( LOL. Okay nevermind. Ah. Come band concert okay? The repertoire is nice. =) Grins. I still don't know how to do the snores. Bleah. Or the gurgling. So silly. Bridge rocks okay? =D LOL. School's over anyhow. Got silly choral night practices and etc plus band though. Slacking time. =)

Yar. Ella, you look much guai-er now. =P I know you hate cutting your hair off, but ah well, less kiam pa face right? =P The other gerbera died by the time I came home. =( Sob. I don't know what I did to it. Sigh. Can't dry gerberas. =(

It's good to keep your walls up again. Really. Things don't affect you that easily then? And it's more difficult to get hurt too. That's the main point, ain't it? Then you start not caring, then after awhile you become a block of ice? Ya. Period. Sigh.

Yinkae, I wanted to give you this bottle today. But I forgot to. Sorry. And I still owe Alice a present. Sigh. Cheer up yah, dear girl? Don't get so affected by things. Chris, you too. Hope you two have fun during your hols, don't study too hard. If you want, play hard too. Ren? =D Tolerance yah? And Gab? Though I can't say I know you very well, don't get depressed? I remember what we spoke about that time during mugging period in the library. If you wanna talk rant chill out, =) and you can't find anyone, I'll be here yah?

Alot of classes were crying today. We weren't really affected. We meaning the three classes? I don't know. Well, at least my class wasn't? We don't get hit that hard, we had streaming last year and already changed class. This year, well, sure it was kinda a class, but you can't see much of that class spirit I guess? Not even in lifeskills camp at the begining. Not really. The song I guess was okay? But there were always the different cliches of groups. And everyone was too 1/11 1/12 and 1/13? Kinda. Sigh. That's why it's not affecting me? And after all, you get used to it. Change class again- it's just the same thing. Sigh. And it's not as if changing classes affected friendships that much? Not really. I guess I'll always feel more 1/12 than 2/11. It's the bonds there? The whole emotion thing. Bleah. That's bad. Nevermind. You gotta learn how to adapt. Otherwise, society will kill you sooner or later, at one point in your life. That's the way life is. Now.

set adrift on 08:32 p.m. Friday, November 1, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: How would you commit suicide?]


how would you commit suicide?

YOU WOULD ASPHYXIATE YOURSELF.
you're smart enough to realize that death isn't something to be toyed with, but you still have the occasional suicidal impluse or desire. you are extremely cautious where it comes to self-mutilation, self-abuse, and substance abuse. if you were going to commit suicide, you'd want it to be as painless as possible.

So if one day I die, you know.

set adrift on 07:38 p.m. Friday, November 1, 2002 . gbook .

['dreamguy'?]

What Ragnarok Character Should You Be?
Quiz by Angelhalo

Hm. Funny. I got theif in school, and now mage? Hm. Didn't know how to answer the questions anyhow. Silly Marian. :P

set adrift on 07:27 p.m. Friday, November 1, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: What Ragnarok Character Should You Be?]

What Ragnarok Character Should You Be?
Quiz by Angelhalo

What's Ragnarok? :O Nevermind.

set adrift on 10:53 p.m. Thursday, October 31, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: What pair of panties are you?]

set adrift on 10:49 p.m. Thursday, October 31, 2002 . gbook .

[slipofthemind]

Kinda slipped my mind and I forgot who was the one who sent my the Forrest Gump Suite. Hm. Don't know. Can't seem to recall. I realise I don't have anything to say when I'm stable, and that's why I end up doing lots and lots of quizzes. Sigh. Like a maniac. Stoning is bad for you, you know? Waste of time. Halloween today. I've got nothing to say. Last week's sermon's still in my mind. About Halloween I mean. Sigh. There's something wrong with the computer.

set adrift on 10:39 p.m. Thursday, October 31, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: What kind of lady are you]


What kind of lady are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

set adrift on 10:00 p.m. Thursday, October 31, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: What kinda fairy are you]


wad kinda fairy are u?
brought to you by Quizilla

set adrift on 09:56 p.m. Thursday, October 31, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: Which bra are you?]

set adrift on 09:54 p.m. Thursday, October 31, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: Find your element.]

find your element at mutedfaith.com. <º>

set adrift on 09:36 p.m. Thursday, October 31, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: What silly quote are you?]

set adrift on 09:28 p.m. Thursday, October 31, 2002 . gbook .

[Rant]

Fine. K, if you dont wanna seem so sentimental, you're not yah? Just misleading words. You're so right can? It's very wasted. I feel very mean. I feel like hypocrite. Everytime. I get reminded how wasted it was. I get reminded of what people can be like. I get reminded of that cheated feeling. But it's not just that. I don't know. I try to be nice. I'm trying. I really am. But because of that, I feel like a hypocrite. Cos inside, I feel really mean. Its difficult. I feel very... I don't know how to put it in words. Not so much of regret. But I don't know why I did what I did in the past. So much so that now, I think I psychoed myself. Regret in that way? Perhaps. It's difficult. Even more say. Not making it any easier for me. Not now. Its too near, too close. I don't like that feeling. I'm trying to be nice. Is that right? It's fake, but negative? Or positive? Good morning. Sigh.

set adrift on 12:23 a.m. Thursday, October 31, 2002 . gbook .

[LOL]

I realised I'm not addicted to the net. I'm addicted to the chat program which is connected to the net. Bleah. That's bad right? Okay. Fine. It's still being addicted to the net. Bleah.

I was supposed to study. That's why I went offline. I studied 6 kes? Pathetic. And started reminscing about primary school. =P Cos I was looking through old christmas cards. Then started getting depressed? BLARH. I'm not such a softie! I never knew I was so... ergh. =\

LOL. Kenneth, no I did not recently heart break and I think only time will heal a broken heart? Grins. Indecent Obsession- Fixing a broken heart. Look at song lyrics perhaps yah? =P Time and yourself. Your own will. =)

set adrift on 11:28 p.m. Wednesday, October 30, 2002 . gbook .

[Rubbish]

Renhui is so correct. I'm sorry Renhui. I dont know if you allow me to read your blog. If you don't want me to, just tell me yah? I respect your privacy. She said geppers grow up too fast. Ya, I so agree with you. It's sad. I don't know. Is that supposed to be good or bad? But, it really seems as if everyone's lost their innocence, well most anyway, I can't say all, I'm not sure, but most, ya. And that's what make us who we are? Are we actually different from all of you? I don't think so. But I do so want my childhood and innocence back again. In some sense, yes, but no too. Is knowledge supposed to be good? Or bad? Innocence, yes is bliss. But, to be ignorant, that's different? Sigh. But, I guess it doesn't mean we're never truly happy either? It's just moments of high? That fade away with time. But they were moments. =) I miss childhood. I miss being a kid. I always did. I still do.BR>
Shame on you if you fool me once. Shame on me if you fool me twice. That's that song I like. =) Ya, shame on me if you fool me twice, thrice, four times. Shame on you too. But most of all, me. I'm the fool. yourenothingbutafoolandyouknowit

Still pissed about losing $5 due to my carelessness today. Carelessness? Such a word? = Ah well. It's 30th October. Soon November. Soon... It scares me. The idea of just thinking myself to be sec 3. The whole idea. Sec 3? Sounds so far away. So... non-existant. So unfamiliar, strange. Weird. We talked about it. Miche too. Sec 3, then sec 4, then JC, then...Uni..If we get there of course, or poly? .Then adults, have children? Children going to school? Very scary. Very very scary. It's too far away. I keep thinking. But ha. It's never too far away. Time passes too quickly, then you'll regret and miss it forever & ever, to no avail.

set adrift on 08:58 p.m. Wednesday, October 30, 2002 . gbook .

[Boring]

Saw this little boy downstairs on my way home just now. He's very cute. LOL. He got like this few other kids, amusingly all girls, to stand like in a squarishy 'circle'(?) with him, then he started singing. LOL. Very cute. =) Bleah. Anymore about this, it'll be called kiddie-porn? o.O Nevermind. Silly quiz.

Slack day. =) Got job evaluation next thursday at Macs. Heh. =) Went job scouting after school when Ella and Marian went for interview. They're quite efficient and unslack about it. Strict, is that the word? Don't know. I spoke crap. Hm. = Don't know about Burger King though. The woman was quite...depressing to talk to. Shrug. I'm hogging the com again. There's 10kes and 75 chengyus test tomorrow. Very screwed. Shall go study later... if I don't procrastinate. Sigh. I forgot all I wanted to say. Nevermind. This is boring. Bye.

set adrift on 07:48 p.m. Wednesday, October 30, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: What type of nerd are you?]


What Type Of Nerd Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

set adrift on 07:44 p.m. Wednesday, October 30, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: jeans quiz.]

take the jeans quiz. gus made it!
and go to mewing.net. because laura and gus collectively own over 30 pairs of jeans.

set adrift on 07:38 p.m. Wednesday, October 30, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: Taboo.]

take the taboo quiz.
and go to mewing.net. nothing is taboo there.



take the taboo quiz.
and go to mewing.net. nothing is taboo there.

set adrift on 07:28 p.m. Wednesday, October 30, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: What kind of cone are you?]


Take the "What kind of cone are you?" Test
created by sami

Ice cream cone, anyone? =)

set adrift on 07:22 p.m. Wednesday, October 30, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: Which Disney villian are you?]


Which Disney villain are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Grin. I got Jafar from Aladdin the first time round. I'm bored. -yawn=

set adrift on 07:19 p.m. Wednesday, October 30, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: Online Purity Test.]

I am 46% online pure. OOPS. That's bad. =P I am a net addict. Negative effects. Period.

set adrift on 07:13 p.m. Wednesday, October 30, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: Find your inner lesbian.]


Find your inner lesbian
brought to you by Quizilla

What? Sigh. I guess it's quite obvious I'm bored right? All taken from khin. Thanks dear.

set adrift on 11:12 p.m. Tuesday, October 29, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: Do you need a straight jacket?]


!!!!!!!!!Do U need a straight jacket?!!!!!!!!!!!!!
brought to you by Quizilla

I'm sorry if you have a problem with that.

set adrift on 11:10 p.m. Tuesday, October 29, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: Are you depressed?]


areyoudepressed
brought to you by Quizilla

Like. Whatever.

set adrift on 11:09 p.m. Tuesday, October 29, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: Girls-Who should you date?]


Girls: Who should you date?
brought to you by Quizilla

Er. Huh? Er. Okay... =

set adrift on 11:07 p.m. Tuesday, October 29, 2002 . gbook .

[brainlessrant]

Okay. Nevermind. Feel perfect sentence-y. I conclude that money IS the root of all evil. I hate it. Well, I can't. But I hate its existence. Without it, if human didn't have the vices they had, imagine how beautiful this world could be? Okay. Too much dreaming is no good for you. Gotta hit reality before it hits you when you don't expect it. And ouch. That'll hurt. I need a job. See? Need. Not want. I need to study too. =( At least, I think my chinese would improve next year. We got (looking) good teachers. I like them anyhow. Shrug. Nevermind.

Blouse supposedly stained blue by my horrible jeans. I don't see the blue though. Sigh. All the other clothes too. I feel bad. =( Shouldn't be so absent minded.

You're all right. I'm just tired today. Seeing Kampong Glam again plus touring Malay Village ain't my idea of much fun ya know. I'd much rather zoo or something, so long as its free 'n easy. Not some guided tour. Then you have a choice of what to do. Most guided tours end up with you not being able to hear anything. Trying to catch up with the group. All not your choices. And I still want to eat that. Bleah. Silly cravings.

Sleepy. Sleep is good. I know I sound like a broken tape recorder. I need to study chinese. Blah. And I'm insulting Beethoven. My piano playing sucks. Argh. I'm tired of games. No more games. Tired people need to rest.

set adrift on 11:02 p.m. Tuesday, October 29, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: are you over him?]


Are you over him?
brought to you by Quizilla

i figured i like this quiz. and perfect sentence is too tiring. so im giving it up again, till later. :)

set adrift on 10:36 p.m. Tuesday, October 29, 2002 . gbook .

[RubbishedRant]

Are blisters supposed to be itchy? Bleah. Whatever that is, I hope it disappears, fast. Grr. Azlyn is back!!! =D Lucky girl got to go overseas to Korea. =) -huggles=

Oh. Is being stable supposed to be good? Ya, I know it is good and all that. But I have nothing to say now. I feel too... bleahy I call it. Just no high no low. Too stable? Is there such a thing? Grin. Maybe I should go watch "Scrubs" whatever it is. I didn't study for chinese!!!!!!!! =( Nevermind. Good luck to everyone taking physics practicals tomorrow. TY? Chill man. And study! Don't slack and regret later. Grins. I don't like science. I need tuition for science. Derek, help!!!!!! =P

I guess stable is good after all. No high no low, but stable. No extremes. I forgot that "poem" I made. Whatever it was. Heh. Doesn't matter. I shall go look for yellow pages, I need to find numbers to call, for chalet/BBQ. Anyone up for it? BBQ I mean. =) I know you people won't do anything, till everything's over. Then, you'll like "We should have had that!" or something. Nevermind. Come band concert okay? Got nice jazz music. =) And funny music too!!!!!!! Pieces are cute. It's $6. Not that expensive either. And bring flowers. =P LOL. Ok lah. Your choice. =P Shan't be so thick-skin. Oh and Marian? Congrats darlin. =) It's tiring to talk perfect sentences. I need to improve my everything. Next year not going to fail everything and screw my own life up. No distractions yah. And Khin? Act cute or not, from my own personal view as acquaintance/friend, she's nice. =P Okay fine, I told you I'm not bi. =P I won't ... do anything. =P Grin. Jk.

set adrift on 11:01 p.m. Monday, October 28, 2002 . gbook .

[Insanity Quiz]

LOL. I'm 36.36363636363637% insane. Is that supposed to be good? Heck. It's all in the head.

set adrift on 09:18 p.m. Monday, October 28, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: What kind of virgin are you?]


What Kind of Virgin Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

set adrift on 09:05 p.m. Monday, October 28, 2002 . gbook .

[Quiz: Are you Bisexual?]

LOL. =P Ha. For some reason, I find this amusing yah? Grin.

set adrift on 11:20 p.m. Sunday, October 27, 2002 . gbook .

[perfectenglishyah?]

Grins. See a different side to him now, yah? LOL. He's sweet too. Heh. It's cute. Quite. :) Haha.

Yeh. Amelia rocks. She's cute too. I'm talking about a different kind of cute here. LOL. She really is!!! Heh. =P No Khin. I won't fight with you. I'm straight. I'm not going to go crook/bi and like her, cancerian or not. :) Hehe.

I'm a bad girl. :( Was supposed to study my chinese today. But slacked, went jurong point, kinda wasted time... oh well, I err... excercised my feet? LOL. Amelia is really really really cute!!! Like beaver. = Hehe. =D I should go study. It's almost 11. Whole 2A and 75 chengyus due on thursday. Sigh. Want to watch Mr Deeds tomorrow, until I realised I had band meeting. SIGH. Dot.

set adrift on 10:57 p.m. Sunday, October 27, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: how do you kiss]

set adrift on 07:27 p.m. Sunday, October 27, 2002 . gbook .

[plug!]

SO NICE!!!!!!!!!! i love love LOVE yinkae's new layout! so preeeety green bottle. plug plug! here SO PRETTYYYYYYY. i like it. love bottle. nice bottle. <3

set adrift on 12:09 a.m. Sunday, October 27, 2002 . gbook .

[happy]

grin. im very happy now! watched this silly korean show on channel u, now still showing... the girl is so sweet!!!!!!! the short hair girl. you zhen i think. :) sO sweet!!!! i like her!!!!!!!!! =D i feel so hyper and happy now. lalallalaa~ so nice!!!!!!!!!!!!! derek u're vain. humph. my mom told me to shut up. haha. im very happy. the girl's so sweet!!! =)

set adrift on 11:49 p.m. Saturday, October 26, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: what name should u have been called]


What Name SHOULD You Have Been Called?
brought to you by Quizilla

boring lil sam. =)


What Name SHOULD You Have Been Called?
brought to you by Quizilla

eh? amazing how one colour change makes you a bitch yah? i still like my name, common as it may be. =P

set adrift on 11:35 p.m. Saturday, October 26, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: which sappy love song are you]


@-->-- Which Sappy Love Song Are You? --<--@
brought to you by Quizilla

silly. grin. sappy ish right. omAN. so corny.

set adrift on 11:34 p.m. Saturday, October 26, 2002 . gbook .

[saturdaynight]

grin. my bro's such a PEEEEEEEG. he'll prob end up getting diabetes (sp?) like marian said he would. hrumph. that's bad actually. ah well. lit sem today. the main speech/lecture thingae was kinda QUITE boring. i was trying my best not to fall asleep, but the place, well aircon nice seats etc, shrug. to no avail yah? sigh. the first talk was SO different from the second one can? its like, ouch. totally different attitudes when presenting and all. sigh. such a sad vast difference yah? reminds me of ourselves. =( not supposed to be positive. and i like cher li's topic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D so nice can? its like... o.O omG. =D ilike. grin. i thought he was supposed to be this small guy, well i dont know him la. just had this impression, wrong guy i guess. lol. but ish nice. existentialism and pre-millenial rock music. =) depressing and nice. lalalala~ life is absurd. grin.

oman. im fake happy. try la. fake enthu. =| so bleahy. too much sleep is bad for you siaz. really. should start studying... gives life some meaning? oh wait that mtv today said, its like people trying to give life some meaning but its useless. =) was that the mtv? not sure. hrm. radiohead... =) argh. wadeva.

should i get a job? but working at macs feels funny u know? khinellamarian? hrm. burger king! lol. bleahy. im bored. give me something fun to do? monday's free day again. i need to find an oven damnit. and i hate that guy.

i really hate him. i hope he gets his retribution or something. okay not retribution. i dont know. i just hope he suffers. i hope he pays for whatever he's doing? i just dont like him. its difficult to answer him. i dont like the way he questions me. i dont like the way he demands. its a dictorianship here. but its no excuse. dictatorship? dontknow. sounds funny. heck. i dont like him. i wish i wasnt so careless, so chu xin. so... absent minded. i'll kill him the next time i have to listen to him. =) what a happy thought. he reminds me of how broken i am actually. its not that sad a state. but its no usual? i dont like running and hiding. and especially not from something that i didnt even do. some accusation i dont even know if its true. its not as if its my fault? dont make any mistake. you cant make up for it. it'll kill you. i wonder what he'll do. i wonder how far he'll go. the extent of it? and he's so small too. just a small guy making threats. but are they real? i dont know. he just some uncertainty. makes me afraid in some way. cos i dont like uncertainty. its not stable. its no confirmation. its too unexpected and full of surprises, negative surprises, shocks. sigh. wadeva. tonight's not one to brood over such things. fake it or not, being depressed aint on the list. still need to get so high. omy. i spend 1/2 hour on this entry? i dont think so. hrm. heck. i just get distracted.

set adrift on 10:38 p.m. Saturday, October 26, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: which element represents you]

hm.

set adrift on 10:37 p.m. Saturday, October 26, 2002 . gbook .

[toomuch]

one thing about this place is i know there are people reading it i know some of the people who read it. the rest i have no idea. some things i cant say. i feel as if im saying too much. of course what i say cant always be taken seriously. i lie too you know? im only human. and perspectives can be warped. hrm. nice song. err sidetrack. yup. so what you see may not be what it really is. and sometimes. i feel like disappearing totally. accounts for the few times. i feel like too open. too easy to read. too many ba bing and weaknesses that can be picked up and manipulated to one's use. shrug. heck. write like nobody's seeing. sing like nobody's listening. act like nobody's watching.

set adrift on 11:22 p.m. Thursday, October 24, 2002 . gbook .

[huo cai tian tang]

oops. sorry kor. =P

mei chi dian ran huo cai wei wei guang mang kan dao xi wang kan dao meng xiang kan jian tian sheng de ma ma shuo hua. ta shuo ni yao yong gan ni yao jian qiang bu yao hai pa bu yao huang zhang cong ci bu bi zai liu lang. ma ma qian zhe ni de shuo hui jia shui zai wen nuan hua kai de tian tang....
*panda xiong - huo cai tian tang

blahblahblah. some wrong la. towards the end. i wanted to write down the front lyrics but err alot of chinese. =$ p5 chi teacher told us about this song. =D

set adrift on 11:07 p.m. Thursday, October 24, 2002 . gbook .

[warped]

okay. few things. fine. i just came out of the shower. too many confusing conflicting thoughts.

at first, was quite hurt. still am. but i got over it. that was what ella meant when she said giving an unconditional shit about other didnt she? expecting nothing in return. sure i cared, but i was expecting to be appreciated? not really in that sense, but i dont know how else to describe it. how bout the other way? i felt used? felt... i dont know. felt like i cared for nothing. it was unappreciated mocked at laughed at. i was pissed. it aint the first time, there were too many others i forgave, i never forgot. still remember what zhixuan said that day i went online she went "forgive and forget" you'll forgive but you'll never forget. you just cant. you'll never be able to. no matter how hard you try. it'll always make up some part of you. i really wanted to try. giving an unconditional shit about people and not expecting something in return. i respect and admire those people who can do that. its virtually ALMOST impossible in my eyes. those people, they are the damn wei da ones. i cant do that i know i cant. but i can refuse to be selfish. im not worth giving a shit about. why should i care so much about myself? life is just as meaningless as it is already. so mentally fa xie and i'll get over it. but i'll never be able to forget. from the very first comment you made till now. i cant forget. but i can try not being so selfish. i want to. =)

oh ya, that reminds me. if you want to bitch/mitch and make some statment, yadayadayada, its fine. go ahead. just please make sure i dont ever ever hear it. if not, please say it to my face instead. it'll hurt. but its better than behind my back. i'll be equally pissed but that option's still better. if not, please go ahead and i just dont want to know about it ever. please think about what would u feel if you were me? please consider other people's feelings too. im talking generally. i know i bitch too. i know im quite hypocrite for saying all these. sigh. shouldnt bitch. it'll hurt. and somehow or another, the person WILL end up knowing about it anyway, behind her/his back or not.

everyday ends up being horrible no matter how nicely it starts out. today's not an exception. ah well. nevermind. i will survive. =D oh and khin. amelia is nice! =D she's very kid. =)

ella sent me werd sms then never reply liao. hrm. w e i r d. shrug.

i got over you that day you said that. i rest my case. really. okay fine. all along ive been trying to. but that day, my walls came back up, seemingly not strong enough though. i forgot about the other people who could hurt equally bad. now? ha. now is nothing but a joke cos im nothing but a fool. but it doesnt affect that much anymore. you dont. its bad to be dependent you know?

shut your doors be a stone but still care & give a shit. bu yao zheng tian wei zhi ji zhao xiang, yao wei bei ren zhao xiang. bu yao wei le xiang you li yi er zhuo zhe xie shi. =) i like it better when its in chinese. just dont let people have the ability to hurt you yah. cos when you care unconditionally, you're not expecting anything in return, you're just giving. if they dont appreciate it, backstab you, take advantage, just gotta take everything in. you aint super but you wanted to give a shit. you made that decision. i know it wont last though. im too selfish. i care too much about not getting hurt. though i'd rather i die then you die. i'd rather i not get hurt or affected in any possible negative way that will weaken me. remember the titans, is that what it's called? yah. its nice. =)

set adrift on 10:15 p.m. Thursday, October 24, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: which tragic shakespearean heroin are you]


* Which Tragic Shakespearean Heroin are You? *
brought to you by Quizilla

im pissed. turning red with anger. i hope they all die. hypocrites. :@ grr. no, death's too easy for them. i hope they're near death but cannot die, suffering. hA. serves them right. suan wo kan zhuo le ren. i have only myself to blame. wasted effort that'll never be again. oh khin? im lady macbeth. :P

set adrift on 09:39 p.m. Thursday, October 24, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: what strange type of person are u]


A different quiz, what strange type of person are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

set adrift on 09:19 p.m. Thursday, October 24, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: which vanessa carlton song are you]



uh?. dot. better retake siaz.



that's better, much. :)

set adrift on 09:11 p.m. Thursday, October 24, 2002 . gbook .

[sorry]

oh ya. chris? sorry i asked u to disappear today. when we were talking to laoshi. sorry. i know you werent feeling that good yourself. couldnt find you after assembly. just feeling really f*cked up about chinese and all that shitty stuff. sigh. didnt want people to be around listening. i dont know. just v. shitty. sorry woman.

anyhow. advertisment time.

nanyang band concert : appasionata VI
date: 13 december, friday
time: 7.30pm
venue: nanyang girls high audi.
price to be confirmed soon.

come yah? im not forcing you or anything. but band music rocks!!! really. :)

and shu rocks. :) <3

set adrift on 10:41 p.m. Wednesday, October 23, 2002 . gbook .

[tai tian zhen le ba]

am i naive? am i? sigh. ni tai tian zhen le ba. i decided i like our principal after all. hrm.

current: « sam² » yourenothingbutafoolandyouknowit [bandconcert13decCOME?]

shoot me. im dead.

set adrift on 10:38 p.m. Wednesday, October 23, 2002 . gbook .

[d e a d]

i feel old. feel dead. sigh. mrs dee said last year that 10 years down the line, i'll still look the same. no change yah. sigh. bored. =| gonna retake chinese during end nov. SIGH. have to re study everything. better make sure i do well this time. stupid ****** teacher keeps pushing us to drop hcl. its like damn werd. most teachers tell you, yah study harder im sure you can do it blahblahblahetc. but this one says, are u sure, consider, if you need help talking to your parents, i'll talk. "no i want to continue taking hcl" are you sure. chi... SIGH. its almost forcing us to drop. should i? or should i not? sigh.

is my chinese really that lan4? sigh. i foresee a horrible holiday... sense of foreboding yah? =X ah well.

its better to keep no hopes up. its better for you, cos if your hopes are dashed, they wont hurt that much, yah? right. khin, how? i feel dead. =\ ice cream didnt help. sigh. wanna get so high.

set adrift on 10:04 p.m. Wednesday, October 23, 2002 . gbook .

[werd]

its werd. really. its very very werd. you and all that. yah. all suddenly... shrug. maybe its this blog that's affecting it all. or maybe it's just me yah.

hm. ok lah. for everyone who complained half a dozen million times though i did try to change the font a tad bigger... i guess it wasnt big enough. left side is a song, top is some rubbish words below that is the dedication? just about there... nothing really much. squint your eyes yah, if you wanna really know. :)

a big hug to toni. i dont know how to help her, i dont know what to say, but woman, i know you're strong yah. im sorry.

gonna study for hols. yah. you heard me right. study. =| next year aint gonna be the same thing again. i refuse. :( i hated it. i dont wanna screw up everything like i did last year and this year. im gonna get rid of this addiction. argh. and study science and study chinese... just hope i wont have to retake? cos it prob aint gonna be counted and i already forgot everything. and i hope i pass for overall. i got 59.875 they supp round up. argh. sigh. my ma aint even making that much noise about results. they never do. sigh.

set adrift on 10:29 p.m. Tuesday, October 22, 2002 . gbook .

[shiate]

shiate its that guy again. shit. shit shit shit shit shit. my dad's so going to kill me. argh.

and sigh. youre being nice. too nice. i feel guilty. :( really. sigh.

damn that guy. what's his problem. cant he get lost? argh. he reminds me of all that. ='( i wish i didnt pick up that phone call. he reminds me...

i dont want to remember. it's fine. i have it there. but i dont want it to be so close, so real. argh. shit.

set adrift on 11:32 p.m. Monday, October 21, 2002 . gbook .

[yawn]

its denied. i cant do a shit about it. i cant help it if you dont believe me right? :P i told you i dont lie. sorry. i know youre reading this. i dont know what to think.

« sam² » yourenothingbutafoolandyouknowit

char took whisky got a headache now. herm.

im the fool here, you see that? k said turtle. break shell liao. hai. no. im hiding in my shell. i repaired it. i got a new one. whatever suits me fine. :)

wishing tomorrow would be better. i hope it will. i should already be glad my mom aint that worked up about my results. she kinda gave up after i entered nyps in p4. grin. my grades usually kinda suck. never fail. but ah well, close yah. i know i disappoint though. sigh. sometimes, i dont know if thats good or bad, she doesnt scold me like hell and give me no rest, but it makes me feel kinda bad too. i dont know. bleah.

el says why am i getting to jidong/excited (iforgotdeexactword) about this. i have no idea. lol. im bored. im bored and desperate for things to do. will that do?

that silly shampoo dont know what thing smelt like -wrinkle nose= mayo. =|

set adrift on 11:19 p.m. Monday, October 21, 2002 . gbook .

[screwed]

hi. its me again. derek? guess what. i failed my chinese. 95/200. i screwed my paper 1. fuck. i dont care much about results usually. but damnit. i studied for this paper. it was the only damn thing i studied. and i screwed my paper one. i failed the whole thing. zuowen yingyongwen. wadeva. i failed it. shit. i never failed them before. it hurts can. when you did hell, mug for it study like siao for it. and guess what. ha ha ha. you failed. aint that happy? :) oh what a wonderful world. i dont want to take chinese in jc, forced.

of course it didnt help that the first paper i got back. i passed by a mere 0.5 marks. and it was another damned paper i studied for. less prepared, but i mugged like siao. thankyou derek. for coming down all the way that night to teach us. i hate to think what my results would have been like if i didnt study for it. fail everything? yah sure.

im probably studying it the wrong way. but i really tried not to get distracted. sure i slacked. but i did study damnit. i know i did. not like those slacker study i do for tests, but for the main thing. and it was just those damn paper one that killed me. screwed me up.

marks dont matter that much to me. i just need to pass. but they matter to those people who matter to me. maybe not all. but yah. the main people. i disappoint them. time and time again. in everything i do. i know i was never one for studies. i never did well in anything. i was just an average scrape through everything 'lucky' person. hell. i dont give a shit about grades. i just need to pass. that's all i care. sigh.

at least i passed my eng and lit. those two worry me. cos they go with moods, and if you guess it wrongly, ha. you got it wrong. too bad for you. deja vu?

and i told khin and liz i wanted to get drunk. whats the feeling of getting so high hrm? the after effects aint that grade, but for that moment? yah.

set adrift on 09:37 p.m. Monday, October 21, 2002 . gbook .

[wouldyou]

would you help me or would you run away & ignore me?
would you be an individual, or be just like them, the rest?

set adrift on 10:18 p.m. Sunday, October 20, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz : which buff girl are you]


Which Buff Girl Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

set adrift on 10:17 p.m. Sunday, October 20, 2002 . gbook .

[saygoodbye]

u all hear what gummibear said? dont cut. if you want to, go all the way, kill yourself... eeK. actually thats quite scary. if you do, its not my fault. :| ok. jk. :( dont die. choose the other way. there are so many roads open. the choice is up to you. if you die, you're being selfish. you're hurting no one else but the people around you. they'll cry. but you wont give a shit cos you'll be dead. no more. get that? sigh.

sam, really. stay in there. no im not talking about myself. im talking about you. -huggles=. youre strong too right? you're sam too. you can hold on. please, dont break down. even if you do, survive. rem? like the cactus? it'll survive no matter what. you can do that too. you will. i believe in you...

ya, i know i dont have a chance. derek's very right. i knew that right from the start. and im not going to go about deluding myself. or being in self denial yeh. im not going to let it affect me. i refuse to. ive got a resolution to stick to. itd better work. i dont have self control. but i can try yeh. it'll prob be better this way. dont even imagine it otherwise. it's impossible. nothing but ... not even a dream. it'll be a nightmare. like that one i had. that was the first one i ever had, and yah. it scared the hell outta me. i never dreamt of something so clear as that. of course, its quite forgotten now. but it doesnt matter does it. herm. in some way, its some denial. but its better than the other way. i know its impossible. :) it never would be possible. they all arent possible. thats why they fade away. and then you know it was all just infatuation yeh. :) this is quite similar yah.

better fly. to ikea before shu kills me. :) khin do come too. :) right. its better than sitting in front of the com at home stoning your life away and depressing yourself. friday aint gonna deja vu again. no more yah. hoping tomorrow... i wont screw my finals. ca was fine. i got almost all b3s cept chinese, which missed by one. still better than the first ca. which was like 50+ everything. and i failed damnit. so finals betta be better. sigh. i hope so. this is very silly. blarh. bye.

set adrift on 12:20 p.m. Sunday, October 20, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: how immature are you]


Take the "How immature are you?" Test
created by sami

sigh. i wanna be five, you hear me? f i v e. :( im not sixteen damn you. nor 20 50 . okay that's a bit overdone. im only 14. f o u r t e e n. :( or five. sigh.

set adrift on 10:41 p.m. Saturday, October 19, 2002 . gbook .

[happyNOT]

i know they wont allow you to be happy for very long. ya. it lasted 4 days though. not too bad. nevermind. it just takes time getting used to it. oh ya, i failed my piano too. 96. sigh. have to redo it again. prob. gotta run. bye.

set adrift on 07:33 p.m. Saturday, October 19, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz : what nine inch nails song are you]


What Nine Inch Nails song are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

...


What Nine Inch Nails song are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

i cheated. i like this more...... :(

set adrift on 06:15 p.m. Saturday, October 19, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: which april are you]


Which April are YOU?
brought to you by Quizilla

im not always like that k. bleah. i dont cut. no no no no no no no. i refuse to. it'll become an addiction.

set adrift on 06:05 p.m. Saturday, October 19, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz : what kind of clothes should i be wearing]

hm. the same as khin? are u sure??? :O :P

set adrift on 06:01 p.m. Saturday, October 19, 2002 . gbook .

[=)]

they were wrong... somewhat. it was only okay in the morning. then reality hit back again. and it still isnt okay. nah. it never is. sam's not fine. but sam can fake it. the quiz said so. :) sam can make herself happy. :) because nobody else will give a shit and nobody else would try nor can do it. so theres only one way. :) no choices.

set adrift on 05:45 p.m. Saturday, October 19, 2002 . gbook .

[past]

wo bu xi huan ren jia lai gen wo zhuo dui. bleah. that's past. shouldnt dwell on the past. right? told too many people, cheer up, look ahead, dont be so grumpy and gloomy. its doesnt work anymore. its too typical.

i == pig. slept gosh 12 hours. if my eyebags dont disappear, maybe i've been hallucinating, THINKING i slept alot. heck. whatever. very bleah-ish. oh. i like my old layout... :) got reminded of it cos of khin. my fave i think. even though jj did look abit like a ghost... hai. sam how much space can i take up? oh. and how long do brownies last? ive got one left. if its gonna die anytime soon, then better eat it up. its too sweet for my liking.

set adrift on 12:01 p.m. Saturday, October 19, 2002 . gbook .

[dontthink]

its not good theres so much time. when you have too much time. you think too much. thinking too much is bad. you know it as much as i do.

set adrift on 11:15 p.m. Friday, October 18, 2002 . gbook .

[broken]

i wish someone would drop down from the sky above. someone who would and could tell me what to do. not just merely what to do, but it would sound logical and it would be in the end, the right choice? sounds too much like a dream. i should drop back to earth. sigh. i dont know what to think. i dont know what to do. am i supposed to do anything at all in the first place. it'll fade wont it. they'll all fade anyhow. they dont matter. it doesnt matter. it shouldnt matter. im in denial. bleah. im always in denial. heck. what am i supposed to do. it'll haunt me forever. it already is. i cant get rid of it. he was right. another he. ya, he was right. but they told me too late. too damned late. it got me before they told me. why were they too late. why didnt they tell me earlier. i knew, kinda. but i didnt really know. shit. why. why did i have to be who i am.

i wanna run away from it all. run far far far far away. hide there and never come back again. i dont want to be samantha. i dont want to be her. i wanna run away, fly away. just disappear. -poof= like that. its impossible.

hoobastank - running away. there'll be nobody. there never was and never is going to be. you just gotta learn how to survive right? thats the only way. cant run away no matter how you try. sam, im sorry i couldnt cheer you up. im sorry. run away cos there's nothing else i can do. run away like the coward i am. i was always too scared. run away from it all. hardened people eh? theres no excuse. they dont matter anyhow. it'll be okay tomorrow.

sam just needs to break for awhile. she's not that strong. but tomorrow it'll be okay again. of course it will be, right? just go to sleep, jy said. it'll be forgotten tomorrow. hopefully.

set adrift on 11:04 p.m. Friday, October 18, 2002 . gbook .

[fridaynight]

im sorry. im a sucker for quizzes when im bored. its friday night. a lousy friday night at that. a very lousy friday night. sam you had better not die... dont. its still a lousy friday.

set adrift on 10:57 p.m. Friday, October 18, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: what type of book are you]


what type of book are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

set adrift on 10:56 p.m. Friday, October 18, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: are you in love]


*Are You in Love?*
brought to you by Quizilla

set adrift on 10:55 p.m. Friday, October 18, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: what sign of affection are you]


What Sign of Affection Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

set adrift on 10:50 p.m. Friday, October 18, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: whats my fault]

take the "what's my fault" quiz.
(and then browse around mewing.net. because laura is cool.)

oh. im fake too.

set adrift on 10:42 p.m. Friday, October 18, 2002 . gbook .

[debt]

im disgusted at you. yes, you. you were warned. you knew that it was wrong. yet you went ahead. i know i shouldnt judge you. im not supposed to judge. i dont have the right to judge. now you can only face the consequences. they say ignorance is bliss. you should have listened to them. too bad for you i guess. i never liked smart people anyway. too smart people. they know too much. its dangerous in some sense. make one mistake, and pay for it with your life.

set adrift on 10:18 p.m. Friday, October 18, 2002 . gbook .

[sorryisnothing]

shit. it has never felt that bad. but it IS that bad. like bloody hell. its sick. why would anyone want to do something like that? and they're all people too. human beings too. sorry is nothing. but sorry it'll have to be time and time again. because theres nothing more that you can do. shoot it. its dead.

set adrift on 10:09 p.m. Friday, October 18, 2002 . gbook .

[monotone]

i can fake it. fake nothing happened. :) of course i can. im bored. bleah. its monotonous. im sorry.

set adrift on 09:33 p.m. Friday, October 18, 2002 . gbook .

[intoxication]

sweet intoxication. :) music.

everything's nothing but a reminder of the past. everything's nothing but a reminder of you. its so difficult to get rid of it. its like a stain that you cant wash off.

set adrift on 08:03 p.m. Friday, October 18, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: what kind of goth would you be]


What kind of Goth would you be?
brought to you by Quizilla

ya sure....

set adrift on 06:18 p.m. Friday, October 18, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: which personality disorder do you have?]


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
brought to you by Quizilla

borderline and paranoid sounds close too.

set adrift on 06:05 p.m. Friday, October 18, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: which prettie movie are you]

you're the virgin suicides. you're sad but pretty, and very, very dreamy.
take the which prettie movie are you? quiz, a product of the slinkstercool community.

im dreamy? no im not dreamy. im down to earth rem? and practical....


you're american beauty. you're full of hope and appreciate the beautiful things in life.
take the which prettie movie are you? quiz, a product of the slinkstercool community.

set adrift on 05:42 p.m. Friday, October 18, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: which francesca lia block girl]


which francesca lia block girl are you?
(quiz created by shelle)

set adrift on 10:50 a.m. Friday, October 18, 2002 . gbook .

[st op]

you know its when you feel pathetic, that's when you stop that. stop it immediately. nothing similar's going to happen again. no thank you.

set adrift on 10:49 p.m. Thursday, October 17, 2002 . gbook .

[new layout]

new layout. did it yesterday. got chased off the com. so could only finish it today. bleah. the font's small cos i wanted to make it 800 x 600 resolution friendly too. so, yup. everything you see is copyrighted. links not totally done yet. its still based on the old layout. give me your comments and suggestions? :D ooh. and sign the gbook... cmon. i know you're nice. :P

set adrift on 10:08 p.m. Thursday, October 17, 2002 . gbook .

[resolution]

do more people have 1024 x 768 resolution or 800 x 600?

set adrift on 12:32 p.m. Thursday, October 17, 2002 . gbook .

[permissiondenied]

he doesnt allow me to do it now. now when ive got the ideas. when i can do it. only now when i can finally get down to it. he doesnt allow me.

i know he isnt being unreasonable. i know he has his reasons. but still. its as if. i dont know.

set adrift on 11:46 p.m. Wednesday, October 16, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: what drink are you]

What Drink Are You?

what? rubbish. i dont even know why i bother putting this in here. sigh.

set adrift on 10:43 p.m. Wednesday, October 16, 2002 . gbook .

[raining]

its raining. i wanna go out to the balcony and get wet. but i know i cant. my mom will scream. sigh. i love the rain. :) these few days it keeps raining. we got caught in a lot of showers. :P but we still didnt get to take our wet photos in the end. ah well. it seems to have stopped being so heavy. sigh. what was that "gentle into thy night" thing that mrs d taught us again? that poem? do not go gentle into thy gd night? sounds werd. ah shrug. nevermind.

set adrift on 10:31 p.m. Wednesday, October 16, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz : final fantasy x personality test]


Take the Final Fantasy X personality test here! by

got this twice, 2nd and 3rd time. this the first time


Take the Final Fantasy X personality test here! by

shrug. i have nothing to say??

set adrift on 10:24 p.m. Wednesday, October 16, 2002 . gbook .

[free day: 2]

went out for coffee today. :P at sam's req. lol. din know tiong bahru had a bowling alley. anyhow, my hand's quite dead now. cant type properly. sigh. 6 games == one dead hand + broke sam. SIGH. oh. fiesta's nice. thanks ian. :) and esplanade still rox yah. heh. i got home before 9 man. :D im a good girl. ooh and the brownies had good response. hiak. i still think they were too sweet though. anyhow. shrug. i want a working wired oven damnit. then i can bake other stuff. :) is fun. and nice to give people too. :)

everybody thinks its damn corny when i ask them; if you think of kindness and compassion, what is the first thing that comes to mind? sigh. i've got moms, mother teresa, sex (???) err. bambi, msn icons : ({)(}), singapore campaign? sigh. ah well. argh. how now?

set adrift on 10:03 p.m. Wednesday, October 16, 2002 . gbook .

[scared?]

darn. its the same question again. but with a different mood this time anyhow. im happy so there. and im not going to let anything take that away from me. :D grin. happy everyday since exams over la. :) quite good. destressing yeh? heh. whats life going to be like next year eh? i think i'll be able to stop going online by then. really. hai. oh well...... thats how life is i guess. nothing i can do about it, can i? same question again and again and again. i cant say im not scared. but then again, whats there to be scared about? :)

set adrift on 12:24 a.m. Wednesday, October 16, 2002 . gbook .

[laughter]

LOL. he's another one!!! hahahahahahahahaha. ROFLMAO. sorry. grin. im going hysterical with laughter. very amused. a m u s e d. HA. LOL. grin. i think im driving everyone nuts with all my laughter but no explanation. muahahahahahahaha. faRNie. ok la. a biT corny. i == silly. HAHAhahahAHahahAHAhaAHA . :P:P:P:P:P hehe so amusing. -bursts into laughter= LOL. oops. excuse me. :D

set adrift on 11:42 p.m. Tuesday, October 15, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: what part of the body are you]


**************What Part of the body are U?*************
brought to you by Quizilla

LOL. i got the tongue. hehe. :PPPPP to you.

set adrift on 09:54 p.m. Tuesday, October 15, 2002 . gbook .

[brownies]

hehe. we baked brownies today. me liZ khin ella & mariaNnnn :D hiaK. ROFLMAO. funny... nevermind. grin. :) ish nice k. and EDIBLE mind you. :P very edible. hehe. its v. sweet though. LOL. :) nicenicenice. i like to bake for people than for myself though, so shall give most of it away. :) lalalala~ derek said it was nice. heh. everybody exam over liao, no fun, cannot niao people. haha. im dead. havent practised my trumpet for a longlonglonglonglong time. i wonder if i can still play it siaz. quite crap. ish fun. do you like brownies? :)

set adrift on 09:48 p.m. Tuesday, October 15, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: final fantasy 8]

You are Headmaster Cid! A true leader, you are mature and usually have matters well in hand. You are seasoned, wise, and level-headed, handling many responsibilities. In matters of love, you may be shy at first, but you're a very passionate person. Take the Final Fantasy 8 Test here!

set adrift on 09:47 p.m. Tuesday, October 15, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz : are you nasty or nice]


Are you NASTY or NICE?
Quiz made by Angela

nah. im not THAT nice. im just in a good mood. :P

set adrift on 11:33 p.m. Monday, October 14, 2002 . gbook .

[hallelujah > sp? =D]

muAHahahahahahahaha. :P hee. exams are OVER. woohoo. grins. -thoughts of results flung to the back of my head= maths was shit can? the paper was a whole lot of bullshit. like kao. :| heh. heck. im not complaining. i made mistakes already though. crap it. hahahaha. :P:P:P >> :D:D:D:D:D lol. 6 days of holidays, is that good or what? :) hee.

watched the walk home today. then we took photos. lOl. silly photos. marian, yes dear i know you want them, but wait a sec ok? i just got home. :P umm. :D hee. i know some people find what we do BORING. but hecK. :) lA~~~ oh and i realised my brother talks to himself too. okay. i knew that a longggggg time ago. shrug. nevermind. at least he can find ways to amuse himself & make friends. :) heh. grin. if you're still taking exams oR still have exams, ar... sorry. :P i keep niaoing. :) lol. good luck yeh? mUg now, then when you get to play later, you wont find that before exams during exams and after exams all the same >> so sian. :)

set adrift on 08:51 p.m. Monday, October 14, 2002 . gbook .

[happy. =D]

less than 12 hours time i'll be frEe to go crazeeeeeeee :D hee. the downside is that 2 hours plus before that i'll have to take my maths paper. i think its a total of 2 hours 15 min la. heCK. im so going to wasTe my life away after that. muahahaha. im happy. :D ure boring. shoo. lAaaa ~ :D yes khin. i was talking abt u. mY. u guessed? :P:P:P. ger? chill dear. silly for me to be the one saying it. i have no right. but good luck yeh? :) if u do read this la.

set adrift on 11:02 p.m. Sunday, October 13, 2002 . gbook .

[colorgenics]

Your Mood:
At the moment your sensual and emotional needs are not being met. Perhaps you are finding life more than a little harsh at present. Being unable to relax is making you tired and taking the edge off your enthusiasm. You feel more determined than usual and are not prepared to put up with unnecessary delay or restriction. Not in the mood to be told what to do you resent anyone trying to control your behavior. You do not want to be held back at this time. . . .

Your Present Situation:
You really need to take time out at the moment, your life is proving tiring and you seem to need to be on the lookout at all times. There is a real danger of wasting your energy, seek out someone who can help you to calm down and relax. You could do worse than take a romantic weekend break to help you revitalize yourself.Your current situation is causing you a great deal of angst. Somehow you have become over-involved in something that is leading to feelings of stress and doubt. You are at risk of feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. . . .

Your Conflicts:
You have no conflicts at the present time . . .

hm. dont know if this is accurate la. again colorgenics. except this seems to be a longer test with shorter answers? hm.

set adrift on 10:26 p.m. Sunday, October 13, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: which sunset are you]


-~Which SUNSET are you? (v.2)~-
brought to you by Quizilla

You are not a sunset. You can't remember the last time you saw the sun. The sun is evil. You relate with the moon on a deeply profound level. That, or you're just a text-book hermit. You're self concious- but you needn't be. You are actually strikingly attractive. You would never even want to be a sunset anyway, and you don't know why you took this test in the first place. Sunsets might be overrated, but at least you can feel good by the fact that you're constant. A sunset is so flippant and noncommital. You are an individual, and proud of it.

heY. rubbish. bleah. i like sunsets too....

set adrift on 10:25 p.m. Sunday, October 13, 2002 . gbook .

[socialengineering]

for case studies, you take what's been said, you disect it. and you dont believe it entirely. at most, you believe in it up till a max of half.

i'd call it social engineering. results from _________ ? fill in the blank yourself. -phonecall= hm. werd.

set adrift on 07:33 p.m. Sunday, October 13, 2002 . gbook .

[werd]

werd. my entry disappeared. anyhow, i was plugging sarah/sam and wenyi. but hey where did is disappear to? shrugs. damned. its gone. i cant remember anymore anyhow. doesnt matter i guess.

set adrift on 04:52 p.m. Sunday, October 13, 2002 . gbook .

[trance]

they're right. you become numb. and then that's all to it? is that it? the end? i hope so. i dont wanna continue playinG those games anymore. they're silly.

i cant figure out people like you. and it unnerves (sp?) me. its always this same type. ya, moSt of the time anyhow.

current: « sam² » and she couldnt find how to push through

i know im fine. not sure if its for real. but it doesnt disturb me? somehow. is that supposed to be good? maybe cos i think i know the truth. i should do maths instead.

i forgot about this song till that day it come on 91.3. :) moonlight shadOw.

set adrift on 12:39 p.m. Sunday, October 13, 2002 . gbook .

[darn]

jy:
Naega Utgo sipeul Ttaemada Neon Nareul Ureobeorige Mandeunikka
Eoneugeot Hanado Naui Tteutdaero Neon Halsu Eopge Mandeuneun geol
Niga Bogo sipeul Ttaemada Nan Ireoke Muneojyeobeorigo Manikka
Amuri Ijeuryeogo Aereul Sseodo Ijeul Su Eopge Hanikka
***
Every time I want to smile, you let me cry
You make my everything go wrong
Every time I think of you, all my defences gave way
Tried hard to forget you, but I just can't

its from a korean mtv i thinK.

set adrift on 01:24 a.m. Sunday, October 13, 2002 . gbook .

[=D]

i know youre never gonna call me back. but its okay. i understand. its just you.

silly me. :) sats a nice day. i feel like its already the holidays. damn. i have a maths paper i have to chiong on monday. anyhow, in a good mood cos i slept 11/12 hours today. :D to make up for all the lost sleeping hours throughout the whole week. :) i dont think im going to fall sick on monday. drat. :P

hee. i neeD to study maths. bleah. not study. practise. :P and answer all those silly questions. SIGH. they should have started one day earlier. damnED. :( im going to go on about this forever and ever and ever. sigh. ah well. bear with me wont ya? :D

set adrift on 10:19 p.m. Saturday, October 12, 2002 . gbook .

[amused]

lol. my dad's estatic im going to go exercise with them. LOL. haha. their reactions are so funny.

losing my phone has its perks too? grins. i love my 8210. but now ive got a nokia 6510. ha. but drat it, my phone book's gone. this phone is darn exp, so i HAVE to be careful, really. this accident prone lady's gotta be more xiao xin.

havent started studying for maths. shrug. should get started tonight. :P its saturday. giving an apple to someone for their bdae gets a funny reaction. :P

set adrift on 05:48 p.m. Saturday, October 12, 2002 . gbook .

[onthedefensive]

april 06 2002 :

(from colorgenics)
You seem to be always on the defensive and that is because you have failed to establish yourself in a manner consistent with your own high opinion of yourself. You are trying to prove yourself with inadequate resources and this has resulted in considerable stress. You are trying to escape from these excessive demands on your reserves by adopting a defensive attitude in which you refuse to be committed or to be involved in further unpleasantness.

defensive me.

how do you find chinese lyrics?

set adrift on 11:36 p.m. Friday, October 11, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: what is your true aura colour]


What Is Your True Aura Colour?
brought to you by Quizilla

intangible ideas.

tenacious

adj 1: stubbornly unyielding; "dogged persistence"; "dour determination"; "the most vocal and pertinacious of all the critics"; "a mind not gifted to discover truth but tenacious to hold it"- T.S.Eliot; "men tenacious of opinion" [syn: bulldog, dogged, dour, pertinacious, unyielding] 2: (of memory) having greater than average range; "a long memory especially for insults"; "a tenacious memory" [syn: long] 3: sticking together; "two coherent sheets"; "tenacious burrs" [syn: coherent] Source: WordNet ® 1.6, © 1997 Princeton University

word's from the quiz.

set adrift on 11:03 p.m. Friday, October 11, 2002 . gbook .

[threethoughtsfromashower]

would you still talk to me when im sec 3 and you're a year older? will you still remember who i am? would things remain the same somehow yet different? will i now seem immature in thoughts and speech? would it be deja vu all over again? i wonder.

was just now. are we weird? different? in esplanade just now, when people walk in, what's their impression? it seems so amusing on one hand: its like one stoning, one like maddie, one depressed, one... almost as if sets on a stage? hm. what do other people do then? we sit around talk crap, stone do the hmmm mood thingae. people dont do that. what do they do? though their opinions dont and shouldnt matter so much, im curious.

one shouldnt care too much about what others think. about other people opinions. not in that way, but in the other way. it shouldnt affect you so much, it's weakness i see. or is it not? how can i change that?

maybe it's over. maybe i dont care so much anymore. this is too contradictory. shouldnt bitch about one so much. i have no right to speak about the other person in that way. i have no right to say anything, cos i'll just be a hypocrite. i do the same thing. thinking too much is bad for you. sleep is better, much better. im tired of it all

set adrift on 10:54 p.m. Friday, October 11, 2002 . gbook .

[dazed]

im not too sure about anything anymore. dont know what im going on about. maybe its just the lack of sleep, right?

set adrift on 10:27 p.m. Friday, October 11, 2002 . gbook .

[isthatbad?]

there. :) sci sucked. but it's over so heck with it. not that i can go back and redo it right? not as if i want to. i dont actually. just hope i can pass damnit. it's impt to pass when you NEED that pass.

it was just a silly mood swing. too tired to think. should get sleep. else i might fall sick on monday. and that wouldnt do if i have no idea how much i got for maths ca. it's really dumb. they should have started one day earlier then we'd be done by today. sigh.

i dont know what to think. really. silly. esplanade is nice. heh. that's like the dunnowad time i keep saying it. and we walked along the highway today. no flower. so plucked the leaf thingae. stalk i think. and started doing that lovemelovemenot thingae. so silly. but it was so nice. so so so nice. too bad khin and liz already went off. along the highway was so damn nice can? wind + the sea. walked off to the merlion there, could just fall aslp there. :) i wish i stayed near the sea.

shant think too much. there's nothing to think about actually. just cowards. insecurity. shrugs. need to get my defences all up. i dont want to get hurt, that's all. is that bad? lighthouse family is nice.

set adrift on 09:22 p.m. Friday, October 11, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: what type of artist are you]


What type of artist are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

urh. what's that supposed to mean? anyhow, khin. here's one other kiss? lol.

set adrift on 09:08 p.m. Friday, October 11, 2002 . gbook .

[sillysam]

sillysam should go and study her history. :) i feel nicer. :P ella? :P:P:P

set adrift on 11:31 p.m. Wednesday, October 9, 2002 . gbook .

[confused]

im confused. c o n f u s e d. am i that brain dead or blur or something? was i supposed to get something? what am i supposed to think? somebody tell me? bleah. this is silly. slacked too much. history's tomorrow. history's important. eng paper 2 i guess. but history's more important. sigh. lit paper 2 sux. i didnt know what dramatic irony was. sigh. ah well. must study.

still very c o n f u s e d.

set adrift on 10:23 p.m. Wednesday, October 9, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz : how emotional are you]


How Emotional Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

shit. emotional is dangerous. very. :(

set adrift on 10:17 p.m. Wednesday, October 9, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz : what's your power song (female vocalists)]


What's Your Power Song? (Female Vocalists)
brought to you by Quizilla

set adrift on 07:28 p.m. Wednesday, October 9, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: which eye are you]


which eye are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

hey i din fake that k. i tried every other answer for that single qn i couldnt decide. all cept journal then i got sad. shrug. either sad or this liao.

set adrift on 07:23 p.m. Wednesday, October 9, 2002 . gbook .

[quiz: what kind of fruit are you]


What Kind of Fruit Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

set adrift on 07:20 p.m. Wednesday, October 9, 2002 . gbook .

[unforgotten]

marian says. to err is human. to forgive is divine.

sure forgiven not forgotten. even though forgive and forget. but i dont believe you'll ever be able to forget no matter what. even if it's forgiven.

yes zx. i learnt that from you. maybe the minor things MAYBE but i doubt it. im not like that. im me. its bad isnt it. maybe i'll learn to forgive and forget. the least i can do is to try.

now crap. STUDY. damnit. i didnt even do anything.

set adrift on 10:54 p.m. Tuesday, October 8, 2002 . gbook .

[goaway]

this is not good. i am right. it's going to be that way. ya, as i foresee. indeed. sometimes i hate having my name. just because it's not only my name.

goawayihopeyou'rehappyimhappyijustneedtostudy.

set adrift on 10:46 p.m. Tuesday, October 8, 2002 . gbook .

[dictdef.]

dude Pronunciation Key (dd, dyd)n.
Informal. An Easterner or city person who vacations on a ranch in the West.
Informal. A man who is very fancy or sharp in dress and demeanor.
Slang.
A man; a fellow.
dudes Persons of either sex.

im slacking how how how how? bleah. fine. it supposed to be self control on my own part. shrugs. a teens - firefly is nice. :)

current : « sam² » you ought to know the freaky games we play

set adrift on 09:49 p.m. Tuesday, October 8, 2002 . gbook .

[ranted]

have you ever had that horrible feeling when you called someone by the wrong name? or spelt it wrongly for that matter. :( and the person's not somebody new you've just known.

i realised i have the weirdest thoughts when i have too much time to think. i end up talking to myself. or something.

so what do you do after that? nothing? cowardice. ya. cowards. exam stress gets to me perhaps? i cant stand you much either. nah. not when you do that. bleah.

say, how do you study for lit, again?

set adrift on 08:24 p.m. Tuesday, October 8, 2002 . gbook .

[santamonica]

can i say im disgusted? im sorry. you didnt do anything, ya. bleah. bleahhh. eww. :X sigh. nvm. i guess you're just you. shouldn't get on your case. you didn't do anything.

But on the telephone line I am anyone,
I am anything I want to be
I could be a super model or Norman Mailer
And you wouldn't know the difference
On the telephone line I am any height,
I am any age I want to be
I could be a caped crusader, or space invader
And you wouldn't know the difference
Or would you?

Or would you?

*savage garden - santa monica. nice. :)

set adrift on 07:26 p.m. Tuesday, October 8, 2002 . gbook .

[asiansquat]

hehe.

how to do the asian squat

from lele.

set adrift on 07:16 p.m. Tuesday, October 8, 2002 . gbook .

[=)]

i wonder... did i call you on that sunday night?

some people looks really nice sincere and sweet, all that when they smile. real smile i mean. not that fakey 'oh-haha-i-think-i-better-smile-' smile. a real smile. :) i used to tell myself as a trial, i'll smile at everybody i see and see who smiles back. doesnt work with everybody though. you smile. they frown. grimace. look away. =/ sigh. real smile == happy :)

hehe. chinese is over. :P stupid jy. hahahz me. :| grins. ah well. lallaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ chinese is over. i feel like it's the end of finals. not that i ever felt it was finals week anyway. :| shrugs. too slack liao. chinese was the only thing i studied. how?! tmr's lit. 4 more to go... im scared for science. :( the bio stuff and the physics and the chem. hecK. chinese is over chineseisoverchineseisoverchineseisover. wasted all my time can? almost everything i studied or didnt study anyway didnt come out. i knew all those even if i didnt study well kinda. sigh. hope my summary is ok. and compre and cloze. very important. i must pass. after all that wasted efforts. :P

set adrift on 06:34 p.m. Tuesday, October 8, 2002 . gbook .

[freaked]

oh that reminds me. on the bus home. it was what, 9 +? almost 10. i jsut got home. less than 1/2 hour ago. :X saw this guy who freaked me out. really. he looks damn decent (i think) quite la. budden right, he's like dont know do what can? keep making funny actions, moving his head suddenly. very very FREAKY. and his expression. :| eeeeeeeeek. :X nvm. i shouldnt talk bad about people. :X but it makes me think abt something someone said, about people who look the most decent are usually the ones you can't read and will surprise you? grins. im reading too much into this. SIGH. i need to studyyy. :( lit notes shower then study. :(

set adrift on 10:22 p.m. Monday, October 7, 2002 . gbook .

[R.I.P]

very sad. :( my phone is dead. with all my phone numbers gone with it. bleah. the switchboard is spoilt. and even if i try to repair it, it'll cost me more than $80 plus i wont even be able to recover my numbers. ARGH. i want my phone book can? :( it was stored inside the phone not the sim card. damn. >:O plus i like that phone. nokia 8210. old though, but there's sentimental value you know?????? :( bleah.

went to library@esplanade today again. marian pao qi wo men!!! again. :( ah well, should get used to it by now. herm. seemed like her sis made her wait like hell. so ah well. :) poor girl. 2 hours is like :|. >:O << ? today's a lousy day. :( my grandfather cooked my fave soup but i didnt go. hope wun kenna gastrics. tomorrow's chinese finals. so shit. i left 1/2 ke plus 250 chengyu. HOW? i only managed to finish 10 ke today plus 1 1/2 in the bus. sigh. diediediedie. :( shouldnt even be online now cept i need sparknotes for lit on wed. thought it was on thurs. sigh. v. mixed up. :(

it doesnt even feel like the finals damnit. it just feels like a normal day. sigh. 1 down. 5 + 2 more days to go.

set adrift on 10:08 p.m. Monday, October 7, 2002 . gbook .

[rant (2)]

i guess that's it? guessed correctly. is that supposed to be good or bad? i dont know. i dont know what to say or what to feel or what to show. i know nothing. it just has to be like that. life still goes on anyway. right? :)

you know you worry me dont you. i told you. yah. you still do.

shucks break 2 hour plus. im so screwed. there goes the 15 kes. i realised i forgot to archive. tomorrow i guess. it was supposed to be a month to month archive. oh wait. might as well do it now. you know where the archives are.

today's the 061002.

set adrift on 09:25 p.m. Sunday, October 6, 2002 . gbook .