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Sunday, May 25, 2003 A little updateLau melted away at 03:22 p.m. Wednesday, May 21, 2003 x_X
I made new pictures ^_^ Weeeee..Lookie!
Meep. Gotta go make lunch for my hunnie now ^_^;;
Ja!
Lau melted away at 02:13 p.m. Monday, May 19, 2003 Prom PicturesLau melted away at 10:29 p.m. Monday, May 19, 2003 x_X
I lost a bet.
O_o;;
Ha! Didn't think I was kinky, eh?
And screw you all, that's all I'm taking. That site is seriously disturbing. Excuse me as I go gouge my eyeballs out with a toothpick.
Lau melted away at 08:58 p.m. Friday, May 16, 2003 Wee!
Ah, Lacy said that she's cute and a sexy bitch, and now I'm all smiles and happy ^_^ Weeee! Lacy babe, you're wonderful and I lovers you! And next week, we're gonna have our After-prom orgy >_> Yes yes. I'm holding you too it. Aha!
I can't wait till prom! Ahhhhhhh!
I slept until quarter after 3 today >_> But I didn't go to sleep 'till like...6 o_o
ANYWAYS, I have Prom Preview Practice .o0(trying saying that 5 times fast o_O) tonite, and I'm not really looking forward to it, but it's alright, because I get to see my hunnie so that makes it all better.
1 year tomorrow, can you believe it? I LOVE LOWELL SO MUCH!
Ah, I'm dizzy. Only ate two things yesterday and haven't eaten at all today and it's 5:11pm. That's bad.
MEH! Dad's making me get off >_> Meeeeeeeeeeeepers. JA!
Lau melted away at 05:09 p.m. Thursday, May 15, 2003 This machine is obsolete..
Fuck.
A duck.
TOD isn't working x_x And I have graphics that I have to give people.
I'm not even updating on the subject in my last entry. Just..don't ask. All I can say, is I'm not trusting anybody else..ever again. Fuck it. Not if this is what's gonna happen.
JEESUS LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!
God. Inconsiderate bitch. She's bitching at me because I actually care what my friends think, and how I actually care that I've lost someone I care about. UGH!
She'll never understand. Ever. But maybe she's right. Maybe I'm a stupid inconsiderate bitch. Maybe I'm an idiot. Maybe I only go out to hurt people.
Maybe I'm a horrible friend. Maybe I just blame things on everybody else.
SHIT
I was just starting to get rid of this shit.
I have to go. Parents are making me eat. Woo fuckin hoo.
Lau melted away at 08:18 p.m. Thursday, May 15, 2003 -laughs-
Ah, one of these days, people will figure out that I'm not stupid.
To clarify, this is addressed to the person who left me the nasty comment. Unsigned of course. I must say, Derek that it's very cowardly on your part.
And don't try to tell me, that it isn't you. You see, I got your IP Address off of the comments box, and then I traced it, and found your exact address and what you use to connect to the internet. Then, I went to my inbox, and find your IP in an e-mail you had sent me quite some time ago. It was off a bit, but I traced it, and it led me to the same address! Hm. Interesting, huh?
Now, let's have a little fun, shall we?
You see, sweetheart, if you don't like it, then don't read it. I never gave you the address anyways. Which means, I didn't really care for you to see it. Why? Because I knew you'd be a close-minded dick, like you have been. Am I good, or am I good?
And I hate to burst your little pink bubble honey, but not everybody has the perfect little life that you do. My mother fuckin abused me, if you're too stupid to see that that's wrong, then I guess I'm not the one with the problems here.
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Now, feel free to leave me more hate notes, if you'd like. But this time, atleast have the decency to leave your name. You know, be a man for once.
And don't try to back out of this. I have your address, I have your IP, I'm not an idiot.
Fuck You
And have a nice day.
Lau melted away at 02:35 a.m. Thursday, May 15, 2003 o_OI swear I just saw the word sperm. Lau melted away at 02:10 a.m. Sunday, May 11, 2003 Hm.
Suicide is bad.
Bad bad.
Bad bad bad.
Especially when you think of it every 2.5 seconds. That's more than most people think about sex. Damn.
I'm accepting new brain donations -rings her little bell-
Lau melted away at 12:37 a.m. Friday, May 9, 2003 [Untitled]
I died today
Lau melted away at 10:29 p.m. Friday, May 9, 2003 -evil grin-
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell! Lau melted away at 09:00 p.m. Friday, May 9, 2003 Dammit.
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Well, I couldn't handle it. I didn't S&I though. Just Ice burned. It's been awhile since I've done that. God. How long have I been doing this? Hell, 2 years I think. But I haven't done it in a good few months. Ah well. It didn't leave a burn, I just did it enough to shock myself. Then I started digging into my skin with my nails. Then I started drawing on my wrist. It didn't help. So I dug my nails into my wrist again. Then I took 4 Advil. Why? I dunno. I had a headache.
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Anyways, I'm heading to Lowell's today. So I have to get going.
Oh! And by the way, I have a second diary on TOD, so I can keep up with my girls. I can't grab the link right now because TOD is down, but when it's up, just go here and type in Nemesis and you'll find me. Yep.
But yes, must go. Dewa mata.
After note: On a happy note, I didn't put the iron on my arm. >_>
Lau melted away at 09:57 a.m. Thursday, May 8, 2003 Shit
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Jesus. I actually had myself convinced that I kicked this self-injury bull shit. Of course, it's only been 2 weeks, but I was actually feeling confident for once. And then urges hit me. And amazingly, it wasn't the urge to cut. It was the urge to burn. I want to S&I so fuckin bad. Which isn't smart, because it's a form of frostbite. Then I was wondering what it'd be like to stick a heated iron on my arm. Hmm..Nice, eh? Ugh. I hate this. Good thing I have school soon..I guess..But last time I had urges and was trapped doing homework..I carved DIE into my arm with a broken paperclip and a safety pin. Ya know, that's one thing that 4 Winds taught me. Anything can be a weapon. While I was there, I even considered trying to hang myself with a hair dryer. Then I considered electrocuting myself. Then I remember Lowell.
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I've got school in about 5 minutes..so I gotta go. Ja.
Lau melted away at 05:07 p.m. Wednesday, May 7, 2003 >_>Lau melted away at 10:21 a.m. Tuesday, May 6, 2003 Ugh!
Oh my god, I'm so sick of my fuckin mother. She's getting all pissy because I'm not dressed like "her little girl" to go to her Honor Society inductions. Well you know what, it doesn't matter what I wear, I'm not the fuckin one going on stage now, am I? I'm wearing a long black skirt, and my black velvet spaghetti string top. She doesn't like how it looks, because I actually have some cleavage to show. She's the one that bought me the damn shirt! Yet, she gets bitchy everytime I wear it. But if I didn't wear it, she'd get even bitchier. Uuggghh! She's also mad, because I have my sweatshirt over it. She said it looks sloppy. Do I give a shit? No. I'm cold as hell. I don't give a shit. Then she said it'd be fine if I put my white shirt over it, and then my sweatshirt. Yet she didn't like the sweatshirt, but it's fine if I wear the other shirt. Which is dirty, but she wanted me to wear it anyways. Once I finally start to give in, then she starts being childish and saying, "NO, Nevermind, it doesn't matter anyways", trying to make me feel guilty, as always. But it only pisses me off.
I have to go. Fuck.
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So much for me having some sort of "control" over my life. I was having a really hard time this morning with just...everything. Got kinda..overwhelmed (what else is new, eh?) So what do I turn to? Pills. Suicide. Yeah, wonderful, ne? I wrote a suicide note to Lowell, and got my pills, and I was just gonna do it, but I had to call him. I called him, broke down, and asked him to come over. So he did, and found me curled up in a blanket with an empty bottle of pills infront of me. Fortunatley (I suppose) they were all in my hand except for one, that I had taken. I hadn't managed to get any more down, I was just too lost. But I was about to take another, when he came in the door. I tried to keep the note from him, but he took it from me and read it, and I cried, and he cried, and now I'm okay..for the most part anyways. I just don't know how long I can keep dealing with this stupid shit. He's so wonderful though, going through this with me..I love him so much..
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Besides all of that, I got three tests done for U.S. History today. I have a Dr.'s appt tomorrow, as well as flute lessons, and I have to go to mom's Honor Society Induction. Wooo...excitement. -falls over- And..let's see...what else...Lowell is skipping school Wednesday to go with me to Broadway from 9-3:30. Should be pretty fun. All except for the hour that I have to spend with my mom for lunch. -kicks a wall- Ah well. Oh, and I got paid. $20. w00t.
That's about it.
Lau melted away at 04:05 p.m. Monday, May 5, 2003 Meh
Find out what anime girl you are.  from Koznik's Inferno (a flash animation). Find out what secondary animated character you are.  cold.. or are you? Find out what bishonen you are.  Find out if you are gay, bi, or str8. Lau melted away at 11:51 a.m. Sunday, May 4, 2003 Shower Survey I stole from Josi Osi
1.Do you start the water and then get in or get in and start the water? Start the water, wait a few minutes, then get in.
2.Do you read the labels on your shampoo bottle? All the time. I see how many of the ingredients I can actually pronounce.
3.Do you moan like the people on the Herbal Essence commercials? hehe...Nooo. No orgasms in the shower for me.
4.Have you ever showered with someone of the opposite sex? Errm...-twitch- hehe...Yes.
5. Have you ever been forced to shower with one of your siblings? No, but me and my best friend used to take baths together when we were reallllllllly little. I have been forced to shower with a member of my family though...but that's another story...yeah...moving on!
6. Have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower? Nope, or as Maebs would say, Nup! ^_^
7.Have you ever dropped your soap on your foot? Dammit, yes! I drop it..and then I pick it up, and drop it on the other foot and it's just one god damn viscious cycle x_x
8.How OLD do you look while wet and when a towel is the only thing on your body? Hm. That's a strange question. I look about my age, maybe a little older. Until my hair starts to dry, because then I get these cute lil ringlets like I used to have when I was a baby ^_^;;
9.How old do you act?
When I'm wet and wearing nothing but a towel? Very young. -_- I throw the towel around me, curl up in a little ball and shiver. o_O
10.What’s the last song you sang in the shower? Bring me to Life - Evanescence
11. What kind of soap do you use? Dove
12. What color is your shower? White XP
13. What color is your towel?I gots lots a different towels. I have a Mickey Mouse one! But it's really tiny v_V
14. Do you shave in the shower? Sometimes.
15. Does your shower have a seat in it? Nopers
16. Have you ever been walked in on while you were showering? Not a topic I'd like to touch on right now..
17. Do you have the anti-slip sticky pads on the floor of your shower? Nope. I have a really weird, kinda oldy-like shower.
18. Do you wear a robe around the house after your shower? Nu, I usually walk around in boxers and a bra >_>
19. What kind of shampoo do you use? Whatever's in the shower. But I love Suave Apple with Strawberry conditioner ^_^
20. Have you ever ate in the shower? Hmmm..can't say I have. o_o;;
21. What is the first thing you think about when you get into the shower? Usually about my current weight, how much I hate my shower, how there could be a spider up in the corner, or how much I hate the feeling of the shower floor.
Lau melted away at 07:56 p.m. Sunday, May 4, 2003 Dimmu Borgir kicks some major Gothic Metal ass.
Hey, I'm alive. Look at that shit. Don't mind me and my little moods. So I want to kill myself. What else is knew? Like I said, it's not going to end for quite awhile. Everyone's probably gotten used to my bitching by now.
Anyways.
I gave up on homework. Decided to come online and haunt the few boards that I post on. -shrug-
Feeding off others is harder than I thought it would be. Well...it's easy for me to feed off those who are angry, or scared, or frustrated. But it's really difficult to feed off a crowd of people with random emotions. It's hard to gather them all and then turn all different types of emotions into raw emotion. Gets a bit confusing, but it's worth it.
I had a nightmare last night that my best friend died. I cried so hard. I woke up at 6:30 from it and haven't slept since. I found an e-mail from her in my mailbox a few mins ago though, so I feel better.
Anyways, LOwell just called me, so I'm gonna go. Ja.
Lau melted away at 03:13 p.m. Sunday, May 4, 2003 I'm so tired of being here .. suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
Have you ever looked into your future and saw...nothing? Just...black. Black with splashes of red. And nothing else? Have you ever felt so much..death...that you swear you'd just become immune..but each time, it just hurts even more? I have such a promising relationship..such a promising future. And sometimes..most of the time, I look into my future and see everything just..perfect..but in moments like this..I just don't know. Look at me. I mean..am I really gonna make it? Is it really worth going through every day like this? God. Everyone who reads this must get sick of me always saying this, but the thing is, you don't really see what's going on. You don't really feel what I feel. Do you know how hard it is, having to go through every day, living with someone you both hate and fear? To have to hug her, and be close to her, and just want to scream. You know how hard it is, to suppress my uncontrollable shaking, and make it look like everything is fine? I always have to make it look like everything is fine. All of my friends, the ones that I actually see anyways, I either have to act for, because they don't understand, or I have to be strong for, because I don't want them to hurt. And in my own house, I have to act more than ever, and even then I get questioned with every move that I make. I have to do everything as close to perfect as I can. Because if I don't, she'll..hurt me. I can't disagree, I can't express my opinion, hell, now I can't even relax. I can't listen to music that I relate to, unless nobody's around to hear. I can't express my feelings, because she says that I'm just trying to make her feel bad. That I'm a horrible daughter. That I cut, cry, that I hurt just to hurt her. That I live to hurt her. And I don't. I just hurt. And it's because of her. But I can't do a thing. I have to go through every day, pretending that I don't hate her. That I don't fear her. That I don't shake uncontrollably everytime I'm near her. Just so I won't get hurt. And just so I can see the one person that makes all of this worth it. She uses Lowell against me. I normally, can only see him if I do something for her. And if I disagree with her, or try to express my opinion or how I feel, she takes away my chances to see him. Or atleast threatens to. I can't go without seeing him. He's all I'm living for. So I go through everyday pretending. And everyday it hurts a little more. Everyday another piece of my dies. I just hope that by the time this is all over, I'll still be alive. I'll still be able to live. I'll be able to think, to breathe, to have a future, to have the one I love. But what if I can't make it? That's what I'm so afraid of. All of my pain, all the pain in the world, I'm willing to deal with, for Lowell. But the problem is..what if I can't? What if I'm not strong enough to do it? What if one of these times I just break down and...die? Nobody could imagine how close I've been. But everytime, he pulls be back from the edge. What if one of these times, I'm just pushed to far. What happens then? What if I don't survive? I feel like since I've stopped cutting, I've gotten closer to suicide. I mean, instead of dragging the blade across my wrist just to make sure I'm alive, I'd rather just dig it into my wrist and rip out my veins. I don't know how to feel alive. I don't know how to be alive. Hell, I don't even know if I am alive. What if this is all a dream? What if all my dreams are reality, and all of my reality is a dream? What if I'm not meant to survive? What if I don't survive? What if I hurt the one I love? What if I lose the one I love? But I still can't get past..what if this is all a dream? It's so hard to tell..because even in my dreams, I can't escape this..hell. The only escape I have, is being in Lowell's arms. And so many times, she takes that away from me. I need him...but the times I need him the most..she won't let me near him. Maybe she wants me to die. Maybe she never loved me.
-sigh- I don't know what to think. I don't know what to do. I don't even know why I say that, because there's nothing I can do. I have no choice. I have to keep living through this, all of this pain. I have to keep living in fear. I have to keep hurting, and I have to keep living on the edge of suicide. Only 6 more years..that's all. Only 6 more years. I really don't think I can survive. I don't think I can do it. The future I have planned out in my mind is just too good to be true. I don't think I can do it. I don't think I can make it.
So here I am. As always. Sitting here, watching the clock, cherishing the moments that I get to be alone. Without her. But still, even now, I contemplate suicide. I think that right now, I should just end all of my hurt and just be happy. Be happy and free.
And before anyone asks..No. I'm not okay. And I'm sorry, but No. I'm not going to be. Not any time soon.
But I'll survive. I always do. That's actually pretty funny. Because I don't believe it. I have no faith in that statement at all. I just think that maybe, it'll make others feel better. So they won't hurt because of me.
Maybe I'll be free..
Lau melted away at 08:59 a.m. Friday, May 2, 2003 Fuck fuck fuck
I need a hobby.
My fuckin comments are working again. SquawkBox has worse PMS than I do. And that pretty bad.
Speaking of PMS. I'm in a really pissy mood today. Mom said that I was lazy, and that I need to stop relaxing. Of course, she's the one that told me that I need to take more time to myself. So I do this, and she bitches about it. She said that if I expect to get $5 for the tournie every week, I'm going to have to start doing shit around the house. So I get bitchy, and do shit. I clean up the kitchen. Now, in the kitchen, I find one counter stacked up with cobalt blue vases and glass candy dishes that she'll never use that have been sitting there for about a month. I also find the coffee pot, which still has cold disguisting coffee in it from early this morning, and also still has the filter with the coffee grounds in it. Then I look on the counter and find bread crumbs that weren't wiped up and a spoon used to stir the coffee which could have been tossed in the sink, but I'm guessing it was just to difficult. There's also a thing of coffee filters sitting out that could have been put in the cupboard just above where they were sitting. The sink is full of about two loads of dishes, and mom's tea cup from a few nights before, still has the tea bag in it. Now, I could go on, but you get the picture. Now in said kitchen, the only thing that I left out, is a small box of peeps.
And I'm the one that doesn't do anything? Bull. Fuckin. Shizzle.
So, Anyways, I cleaned up the whole kitchen. I put away a bunch of her vases, which is suicide, but hey, I had nothing to do tonite anyways. Last time that this all happened (Mom bitched about me not doing anything around the house, so she took off to go hang out with friends, leaving me to clean the house, and as pissed as I was, I did so), Mom came home, to a sparkling clean house, and got bitchy, said I didn't do it right, took everything back out, screamed at me, and grounded me for a week.
But that's okay, if she tries to kill me, I'll get to her first. I'm just good like that.
SPIDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lau melted away at 06:11 p.m. Thursday, May 1, 2003 O_O!!Pineapple! PINEAPPLE! AHAAHAHAHAAAAAA! Lau melted away at 09:38 p.m. Wednesday, April 30, 2003 Hm.
I've become more knowledgeable in the area of pranic energy and feeding. I haven't Psy-fed (or gone Elemental for that matter) in years. Fear closed it all off. Fear closed alot off. No wonder I felt so trapped. But I've gained it back. I fed last night for the first time in..quite awhile, and I was amazed at the results. I didn't think I would be able to pull it off so well. I turn anger and hatred into raw energy and feed off that. So who did I feed off of? I'll give you one guess. My mother of course. I quizzed her a bit afterwards. Asked her why she felt so tired all of the sudden, and she said she didn't know. That she felt like she hadn't slept in weeks. Amusing.
Anyways, I labelled myself once again. Figured out who I am. I'm a Sanguinarian Haematophic Elemental Psychic Vampire. And also a studying Empath. Jeezuz Krist. How is being an Empath different from being a Psi-feeder, you ask? Well, it's basically the same thing. But besides the whole feeding part, I'm learning to read emotions, and draw certain emotions from a crowd, on which I feed on.
I've gained such control on my life. I love it. I actually woke up starving this morning. I wanted something fresh, but had to settle for Froot Loops. We didn't have anything really fresh. Except for that Pineapple on the stove that I've been craving, but I have to wait until it's cut up. If I do it myself, my parents will probably murder me.
Hey! I don't have school for the rest of the week. Sweet. Andrea, my tutor, is on vacation, so I get a break. Which is only fair, since I had three or four days of school over Vaca. Ah, gotta love it.
I had a horrible reaction of some kind yesterday. Did I already write about this? I'm not sure. If I did, well, I'm going to again. On the way home from the doctor's office (turns out my appointment is next week -grumbles-), I got a horrible itching on my upper thighs. By the time we got back to Lowell's house I was going insane. I ripped off my pants and threw on a pair of his boxers and was itching like crazy. My legs broke out and there's these strange bruise like things and bumps on them. It spread to mostly my whole body (The itching, that the bruisy thing). I tried a million things, but it only slightly worked. I'm much better this morning though. Thank the goddess. My legs still look horrible though. Ah well.
In about two seconds I'm just gonna go take a bite out of that pineapple. Peel and all.
Lau melted away at 02:00 p.m. Tuesday, April 29, 2003 Some useful knowledgehttp://www.sanguinarius.org/terminology.shtml Lau melted away at 07:23 p.m. Tuesday, April 29, 2003 [ A r c h i v e d ] WARNING - - Do NOT read if you don't have an open mind.
I feel kind of....good, right now. And kind of strange. Hm.
You see, I've found people like me. Of course, I didn't know that there was these so called 'People Like Me' out there, but...yeah. Wow. Hm.
Where to start? Hm. I was on the internet, looking for a place to find some blood. Sounds crazy, yes. But I figured I'd give it a shot. It's been forever since I've had a taste, and I swear, I'm dying. I feel like it anyways. It got to its peak today, when Lowell and I were fooling around. I could truly call it a Bloodlust. Anyways, where was I? Ah yes. I stumbled across a support site for Real Vampires, and being the self-proclaimed vampire and blood fetishist that I am, I had to look. Well, I've been on the site for about an hour, and in that hour, discovered alot about myself. It appears, that Elemental and Psychic Vampires actually do exist. Now before your imagination runs away with you, let me explain that a bid. An Elemental Vampire is one who draws energy from certain elements, and can feel the power within them. Some are pure Elemental Vamps, who don't feed off blood, only energy. Others are Elemental as well as other, Vamps, who use the power of the Elements to fill their blood craving when they can't find a donor. A Psychic Vampire, is one who feeds off the energy of others. This is actually quite cruel to do to one single person, as it can give them headaches, make them feel tired, etc. But is very possible. I also found fellow blood fetishists, as well as those who crave it not only for sexual pleasure, but just to fill their normal thirst.
Now, like I said, I've discovered alot about myself. Cloaking is possible, but you don't have to be a Vampire to do it, it simply takes some serious concentration, and is near impossible to do around those who know you well. We don't jump tall buildings in a single bound, we don't get burned by sunlight (however it's not my favorite element, let me tell you. I'll explain more later), we don't have fangs that we can grow and retract at will, and we don't have immortality. However, when we don't have blood, we seem to go through..withdrawl symptoms. Headaches, dizzy'ness, etc. (That would explain why I'm always so dizzy..)
And yes. I said We. Since I was a little girl, I've drawn energy from the elements. Also, when I was angry one day, I discovered that I could give my mother a very severe migraine by pure concentration. Coincidence? Maybe.
I also have a very severe craving for blood when I don't have it after awhile. When I do have it, I feel more..alive. More awake. Energized. Happy.
As for the sunlight issue. I found, that most people in the community, don't particularly care for it either. I, myself, hate the sunlight. It's too bright and it bothers the fuck out of me. It doesn't kill me, doesn't burn me (Well...not more than it does any other person. Except for on the rare occasion that I fall asleep in the sun, and end up turning into a small pile of ash. Yeah, it happens every once in awhile. But only every other millenia or so.) and I don't hide all day to avoid it. Most of the time.
Anyways, to put all of this into a nutshell (and a very large one, at that) I believe that I'm a modern-day "Vampire". And before you start laughing your ass off, think about what I've said. Does it really sound that unreasonable? Do some research. You'll find that many people crave blood. Many draw energy from crowds, other people, elements, etc. It's not really that strange.
The term "Vampire" however, bothers me. My ex-boyfriend thought he was a vampire, but he was simply full of bull shit.
I don't think I'm a fairy-tale vampire, just a girl who drives sexual pleasure, and happiness, from the ingestion of blood and draining of energy. Not all that strange, is it?
I really was amazed at all the things that I had in common with people. My love of night, my insomnia, my frequent blood cravings, my withdrawl symptoms, my love of rain, my hate of sunlight, my love of chocolate, my ability to sense when something or someone is nearby, my ability to see and expand auras, my sensing of things that are in the room, but can't be seen...and the list goes on. I also found a helpful list of foods that help calm the craving.
Which I think I'm going to go try now, before freak out and start kicking things. Meh.
After finding out all of this..I feel amazingly rejuvenated. Sort of..reborn..relieved. I feel like I can handle things now. Now that I have a hold on who I am. And once I expand my abilites (drawing energy from others' anger *cough*mom*cough*), I think I'll be a much happier woman.
Oh, and for anyone who's reading this..If you think I'm completely out of my mind, and are going to try and now drive a stake through my heart, I have two words: Fuck You.
Have a Nice Day.
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