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Thursday, March 4, 2004 [ ]
Well, since my parents are going away this weekend, and my Grandma's coming over, I'm not going to be online much (if at all). I can't go anywhere or see anybody, so I'll be back around on Monday ^_^I still haven't returned phone calls. I hate talking on the phone, lol. But I will! I promise. I've been so tired that when I'm not working my ass off, I'm sleeping. I blame it on PMS *nod*
Tuesday, March 2, 2004 [ ]
I am very very tired. I will reply to e-mails, notes, comments, posts, requests, phone calls and other stalkage tomorrow. Promise.Graaargh. v_v
Tuesday, March 2, 2004 [ ]
Hm, my graphics are definatley improving. I made a new layout for my guild on Neopets (See it here), and I made a few avatars which I'm abnormal proud of:Fweeeee...
Monday, March 1, 2004 [ ]
I finally ordered the 3 DVD Box set of Chobits (the entire series) off of ebay. It was , not bad at all. But it's coming from Hong Kong, so it's not exactly gonna be here over night. But we'll be able to have our all-day Chobits marathon soon enough. *bounces* Fwee!Sunday, February 29, 2004 [ ]
Argh.Okay, like I said in an earlier post. I understand feeling suicidal. I understand the feeling of not wanting anyone to care, so you can go kill yourself. I understand isolating yourself, feeling like the world hates you, not seeing anything good in your life, etc. I understand it all, I've been there.
But if I hear ONE more person tell me "I'm gonna kill myself, and there's nothing you can do about it." I'm gonna flip my lid.
I've been nice, because I love all these people to death, and I'd never do or say anything to hurt them, but this is taking it way to far.
I don't care how fuckin upset you are, you don't HURT people like that.
Okay, I have experience in this stuff. If you're seriously gonna kill yourself, and you're serious about it, you're not gonna fuckin advertise the fact.
If you're feeling suicidal, but don't want it to happen entirely, then you want to talk to someone.
Well, I have friends who will come to me, just to tell me that they're gonna kill themselves, and there's nothing they can do about it. And they will sit there, and say this to me, for hours on end. They will fuckin SIT there and tell me that they're slitting their wrists, or popping pills, or about to hang themselves. They'll explain the whole thing. And tell me how they're doing it, right then, how it feels, etc. I'll sit there, pouring my heart out to them, telling them how much I care, sometimes for almost 12 FUCKIN HOURS I will sit there with them, and all they do, is get pissed at me, tell me that they don't want me to care, that I'm being selfish, that I'm to stubborn, that I shouldn't being talking to them, that I'm gonna hate them, and that I don't need them, etc.
If they don't want me to talk them out of it, or talk to them in general..THEN DON'T FUCKIN STALK ME TO TELL ME YOU'RE GONNA KILL YOURSELF!
I sit there, all night with these people, crying my fuckin eyes out, being scared half to death, and all they can say is "Sorry hun, you can't do anything about it, I'm gonna kill myself." or "I'm slitting my wrists right now, and I'm not gonna stop."
Just rip my fuckin heart out why don't you. And then, by the end of the night, I don't even get a thank you. I get a "Yeah, you're lucky I'm alive." or "You're selfish" or "I just won't fuckin tell you next time."
Yeah, you're welcome for staying up all fuckin night to stop you from fuckin KILLING YOURSELF.
I mean, I had my moments, but I always kept how the other person felt in mind. You don't DO that to someone. I don't care how fuckin depressed you are, That's just being a BITCH. And this shit about trying to convince me they're dead? Not fuckin cool.
I just don't understand how someone can do that to someone. I mean, I want them to be open with me, but there's a difference between being Open, and just being an outright bitch.
This shit is really wearing on me. And it's about fuckin time, because I just let everyone treat me like shit for years, and now, ..no. Not anymore.
This is all getting so ridiculous. I've been so scared, and so worried, that my paranoia has gotten worse again, so I can't sleep. I'm starting to stay up for 40 hour intervals, then sleep for 12, then stay up for 40 hours, sleep for 12. Because I'm so scared to sleep. That, and I just CAN'T sleep. My insomnia is back AGAIN.
But I mean, every night someone else does this. I used to have friends. Now all I have is people who come to me, tell me they're gonna hurt themselves in some way, and I can't do a damn thing about it. And then continue to insult me. And after it's all over, I don't even get a thank you.
On a good note. I threw my blades away today. I don't have anything. And I haven't used them in FOREVER. But I was fine, because I knew they were there. Now, I'm going threw really bad withdrawls. Scary shit. So if I'm extremely bitchy, I'm sorry. But this is the first time I've been without anything in..about 6 years. Yeah.
Friday, February 27, 2004 [ ]
Wanna hear something crazy? I'm excited for college..o0(This coming from the girl who stays up until 5am reading Shakespeare)
God I'm such a dork ^_^;;
Thursday, February 26, 2004 [ ]
After looking at 27 pages of pixel fonts, they all start to look the same. @_@Wednesday, February 25, 2004 [ ]
errrrrrgggggghhhhhhhhMeh. I don't understand myself. Monday and Tuesday I was working on re-arranging and re-doing and organizing my room pretty much alllll day. Which involved lots of dust. Which made me all sick-like (I'm allergic to dust mites v_v), and made me very tired. So I went to bed at 10:30'ish last night, exhausted, and fell right asleep...and then woke up at 1:30. Three freakin' hours of sleep. I've been up ever since. GRAH! I'm so tired, to. Oh well.
And I'm so bitchy, lol. As if it wasn't obvious ^_^;;
But I came downstairs at about 7'ish and played Metroid until about quarter after 9. It felt odd. I've had Metroid (Prime, that is) since I've had my Gamecube, which is quite awhile, and I still haven't gotten through it. Actually, I just started it about 2 weeks ago. And I'm still not that far into it. I just got my bombs and my Varia Suit. If I had it my way, I'd be playing the game non-stop. But normally, I can't play for more than 10 minutes at a time, because it's hooked up to the downstairs TV, and I'm very rarely allowed to use that TV. But of course, I can't take it upstairs. I wasn't allowed to have game systems in my room until like...5 months ago. And then, I was only allowed to bring my Super Nintendo up. ERGH.
I've had the strangest urge to play Donkey Kong on Atari lately. o_O;; I haven't seen my Atari in years.
Meh, I think I'm gonna go try and lay down. And maybe even sleep (*snort*). Maybe then I won't be so abnormally and annoyingly bitchy. Hell, I'm even annoying myself. That's pretty bad o_O;;
Monday, February 23, 2004 [ ]
Okay, what do you do, when you're surrounded by friends who are like family to you, and you care for them more than anything, and they're all trying to kill themselves, and won't listen to you?I'm losing my mind over here. I can handle things like this usually, but it's just getting so hard, lately. Everytime I come online, I find out that I'm about to lose another part of my life. Another person that I can't live without. And I don't know how to stop them. Because they're in that part..where they're trying to deny everything everyone says, and isolate themselves from everyone that helps them, and surround them by people who've hurt them.
I've been there, I know how it feels. But when someone talked to me, I listened. Because I care so much for them, that I don't want to hurt them. But they won't listen. It's so hard.
You know what I don't understand? How someone can taunt others (especially those they care about) with suicide. I mean, I want all of my friends to be honest with me, but I have a feeling they're not being completely honest. (And when I say feeling..some of you know more than others what I'm talking about.) They want to kill themselves, yes. But there's a big part of them, that isn't up to it yet. But they want someone to talk them out of it. And I'm all up for it, but jeezuz, just give me some clue!
Okay, two and a half years ago, I tried to kill myself 3 times. Before each attempt, I didn't go looking for people. I didn't tell anybody I was going to do it. I didn't do anything like that. One reason being that I knew they would try and talk me out of it, and another being that I know it would hurt them to do so. (Yes, I know, killing myself would hurt them to.) I went to them afterwards, once I'd realized what I'd done (I wasn't fully "with it" when I attempted), but it was hard enough to do it then.
I just don't understand it. It's one thing, to feel suicidal, and go to someone for help. I WANT my friends to do that. But it's another, to want help, but to go to someone who deeply cares for you and go "I'm gonna kill myself AND YOU CAN'T STOP ME!". Don't they realize that that hurts?! Yeah, it might get them to give you attention, but you can get the same damn attention and help, just by telling them how you feel. Not by hurting them to get it.
I understand needing attention. I mean, it's normal to want someone to love you. But it's hard when someone goes about it like that.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not pissed at anybody, just frustrated, and hurt, and having a hell of a time trying to keep myself together.
Ever since that night, I've really started feeling alot better. I've started really going up. But also since then, life has been throwing everything it can at me. And I'm so fuckin close to giving up on this "happiness" thing. I mean, I'm not going to, but I'm close. The whole thing is just so...shitty.
Pah. I know that I was, and still am hard to deal with. But the thing is, when someone came to talk to me, I truly listened. I didn't tell them I was gonna do it anyways, and they couldn't stop me. And I really tried to stop, for years. Yeah, so I didn't try hard enough for some people. But screw them, I tried my best. I didn't give up on them, because I cared for them so much. I don't know. I hope things get better, with everybody. Because this shit is just going way to far. I mean, I understand that when you start you go up, life's gonna throw alot of shit just to make sure you can handle it. But taking away everything I love and cherish IS A LITTLE TO MUCH!
Friday, February 20, 2004 [ ]
Meep?Thursday, February 19, 2004 [ ]
Wednesday, February 18, 2004 [ ]
Me: And show up at your house late at night demanding sex.Tuesday, February 17, 2004 [ ]
Wow, I get bitchy when I'm tired. o_OMonday, February 16, 2004 [ ]
Oh, this is real nice. I am constantly at home. I only go to Lowell's about 3 (very rarely 4) times a week. The rest of the time I'm at home, and I'm being bitched at for running to much. This week, I wanted to go places Monday-Friday while they were in work, because it's vacation, and I have people that I want to see, and it's pretty much the only time I can see them, but I can't. Because it's too much running. THEY WON'T EVEN BE HOME! I'm only asking her to bring me somewhere twice this week, that's all. But it's too much for her.Oh, and I don't clean enough around the house. Even though I pick up this room, and the living room, and the kitchen all the time after them. But I don't do enough. She said that I have to try harder. I'm not her personal fuckin maid! It's not fair. Now that I'm out of high school, I'm not allowed to have a life.
And right now, I really need to see Lowell, after everything that happened right now. I was almost 100% sure that I could come down, and then this shit gets pulled. I should have listened to him, I should've given up like he did, and just not get my hopes up anymore, and just give up my fuckin social life all together.
God, I wish I was 18. If I was 18, I'd be moved out of this fuckin house by now. But no, I have to stay here, and I have to even be fuckin nice to her, or else I'll get hurt in some fuckin way.
Ugh, this isn't fair. I think I'm just gonna see if he can come down here for the day, and get a ride home. Fuck her.
When are they gonna fuckin learn that HE'S MY FIANCE?! I'm GOING to want to see him, and I'm going to want to spend more than 3 or 4 hours with him. ESPECIALLY ON VALENTINE'S DAY! But they didn't seem to understand that. Jeesus, what are they gonna do when we're married? UGH!
She even got pissed that I wanted to go places 4 out of the 7 days out of this week. I mentioned THREE and she started getting pissed. GOD FORBID I HAVE FRIENDS!
I need a license and a car. But of course, I'm too fuckin scared, because I'm afraid I'll do something wrong, and hurt her precious truck, and she'll take it out on me. Wonder-fuckin-full.
I think I'll call Lowell at 7:30, as soon as she leaves, and see if he'll come down. I know it's early, but I really want him here.
I think from now on, I'm just going to clean up my room, and the computer room. I'm not gonna bother being nice to them, playing games with them, making dinner for them, anything. If they can't show me some FUCKIN respect, then they're not gettin a damn thing out of me.
I CANNOT handle this. Lowell and I had a wonderful time Saturday, even though my parents wouldn't let me get there until fuckin 6:30pm. But still, we had a wonderful time. For once, we let all of our fears go, and had some fun. We were just..carefree. We were happier than ever. I've never felt that before, it felt really good. I was on a happiness-high for the longest time. And then Sunday, my mother just seemed to do everything she could to shoot it down. And then this morning, my dad's doing everything he can to make sure I don't go anywhere, and mom's just out-right being a bitch about the whole situation. FUCK. THEM. Ugh.
I've become such a bitch lately, and what's funny, is that I don't care. There's so many things that I've told people I'd make or do for them, and I haven't done them yet, but I don't give a shit. Because I'm sick of people only talking to me when they want something. Stick it up your ass. Ugh.
I've had an abnormal tolerance for pain lately. The other day, at Lowell's, I was cooking soup, and it was boiling like crazy, so I went to pour it, and dumped it all over my hand. Didn't phase me, didn't feel it. Nothing. And earlier, I punched something as hard as I could. Hurt lightly for about 20 seconds, and then nothing. Doesn't even hurt now. And I can like..pound on my knee and it doesn't hurt. (For those who I haven't shown it off to, I have a huge-ass bruise on it from ice skating last week.)
God, I stayed up all night, so that I could go over there today, and so she wouldn't bitch, and this is what she does? Ugh. Homicidal tendancies are BAD.
Just kidding. Don't one of you go flipping out and report me like I know some of you little dick heads like to do.
Anyways, I'm off. I'm gonna go down a couple cups of coffee and wait for Mom to leave.
Monday, February 16, 2004 [ ]
Screw this.Wednesday, February 11, 2004 [ ]
Me: Dad..what are you doing?Monday, February 9, 2004 [ ]
Lowell: But I still love youo_O God I love him and his randomness. In other news, I have a huge-ass bruise on my knee. And I love it. =^_^= Battle wounds from Ice skating today. ^________^
Thursday, February 5, 2004 [ ]
Well, I got alot straightened out in my head today, so I decided to take the password protection off my blog, for now. It might go back every now and then, depending on how things go, but it's off for now.So, let's see. I ate today, had spaghetti. And earlier I had some chips. Yeah, I know it's not much. But looking at everything that's been going on lately, and just at me in general, that's pretty damn good, lol.
I broke my "record" of 3 or so months, but it's all good. And I think my mom found my collection of sharps, and took them. Which is stupid, because I don't even use them anymore. It's just a "security blanket" sort of thing. *shrugs*
Vampire tomorrow *wide grin* I'm excited. That is, as long as the weather doesn't put it off. Because if it's all icy, then I can't go to my appointment, meaning I have no way into town, which means no Vampire. x_x;; Speaking of RP, Lowell and I are branching off into our own D&D group. Should be interesting. I'm gonna be a Faerie. Weeee...
OH! Lowell rented a game for me today ^_^ 1080 Avalanche for Gamecube. I'm gonna play it once my parents go to bed. Yaay. I tried to play Metroid Prime today, but just got pissed off. I'm really terrible with games lately. *shrug* Ah well!
So yeah, besides everything that's going on in my life that I'm completely ignoring, I'm alright for the moment. And besides the fact that my arm feels like it's falling off for no apparent reason, and that I'm freezing. It's all good.
I think someone put something in my spaghetti. Peh. >_>
Thursday, February 5, 2004 [ ]
Well, alot has changed tonite. So, well, now I have a password protected blog. Lowell's the only one that knows the password right now, but I might give it out later. Not quite sure. I'll give it to my girls though, of course.Wednesday, February 4, 2004 [ ]
In all my days of coding, I've never done an external style sheet. Hm. Odd.Wednesday, February 4, 2004 [ ]
Well, this is peachy. I've eaten 2 meals in the past 4 days, and about 5 very small snacks. I can't sleep for more than 45 minutes at a time (if that). I'm hallucinating like crazy, and I'm terribly dizzy and disoriented. And I jump at everything. Fuckin peachy.Ever since what happened Sunday, everything's just been going downhill. Pfft. I would explain, but I'm exhausted. That, and it's still all a blur.
So, yeah. Forgot what I was gonna say. Damn.
Tuesday, February 3, 2004 [ ]
New layout.Sunday, February 1, 2004 [ ]
Okay, so it turns out everything's fine. Well..it seems like everything's fine. Until next time they get in a fight (I'd give it...3 hours. 5, max). So either Mom wanted attention from me (which is probably the case. Who's the adult here?) or they're actually seriously considering it. Or both. Since they've been fighting like crazy, and it just keeps getting worse. *shrug* I guess we'll see. If it does happen, I'm going out of my own the minute I turn 18. That just makes things easier.Peh.
Saturday, January 31, 2004 [ ]
Ohhh no no no. You know, I'm a tough girl. I can handle alot. I have handled alot, and I thought I could handle anything, but noooo no no no I can't handle this. I definatley cannot handle this. Not right now. Right now, the last thing I can handle is a fuckin divorce. I cannot handle the guilt trips over it, I can't handle being involved in it, I can't handle her trying to make me tell her whether she should or not, I can't handle my family splitting apart. I don't care if it wasn't a family in the beginning, I just can't handle it. I can't handle leaving, moving, losing everything, I can't handle it. No fuckin way. Definatley cannot handle this.And if ANY of you breath word of this to ANYONE, I'll rip you're fuckin throat out. Don't FUCKIN tempt me. This means your friends, your mothers, anything. I don't want anybody besides those who read this blog, to know about this. NOBODY.
Saturday, January 31, 2004 [ ]
Yeah, fuck that. I wanna be accepted into a very prestigious, and extremely hard to get into house. A very high, serious sect of the community, and I can't even hold myself together. There's no fuckin way they'll let me in. I mean, yeah, I've got a few years. Like..10. Maybe 5. How the fuck am I gonna get sponsored by someone from the Inner Circle? I'm not even close to that good.God, it's 5-10 years away, and I'm already stressing. Why am I even stressing over it? I mean, yeah, I finally found my place in something, and I think I can do well in their community but..eeeh. I just don't know if I can make it such a presitigous circle.
I don't even know what I'm saying. It's 3am. Yeah, that's my excuse. Peh.
Friday, January 30, 2004 [ ]
Wow, for once, I feel like my life is going somewhere. Lowell and I straightened alot out today, and I think I just found my dream...community. And within 5 or 10 years, maybe I'll have a shot at being accepted. I really think I could contribute alot. But I still have alot to learn. Around here though, there aren't many that are knowledgable enough in the whole thing, much less become a mentor.But wow. Still...wow. I feel awakened all over again.
(Rambling again, even if you think you know what I'm talking about, you probably don't. But don't worry *odd grin* Eeee...!)
Friday, January 30, 2004 [ ]
(Random babbling - Probably won't make sense to anyone but me, so just disregard it *sticks out her tongue*)You know, I've really gotta get off my ass. I've been shrugging off thsi whole thing for the longest time, like it's something "small". And it's not. I mean, I just read the Black Veil, for god sakes. There's so much I need to learn.
Anybody got some motivation that I can borrow? >_>
Thursday, January 29, 2004 [ ]
Quizzes o_O Blame Mandy, I found them on HER blog. *sticks out her tongue* (Well, most of them anyways.)
You are a LONER. Tho u like being with other
people, it's nice to have some time for
yourself too. And sometimes people are
annoying...so it's better to be alone and do
whatever you like. So yeah...go away!
Yet another personality test ^-^ (nice anime pics!)
brought to you by Quizilla
.o0(Yay. I love Chii ^______^)
Sad... You use the darkness to hide yourself from
the world. Something has really hurted you,
which made you turn dark. Darkness makes you
feel save and that is why you stay there.
What kind of dark person are you?
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.o0(Hurted? Riiight. o_O)
Congratulations!! You're a shot of some good old
hard liquor!
What Drink Are You?
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.o0(*snort* Hehehe)
Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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.o0(That just makes me want to give myself a hug. o_O)
SELENE: You are selene!
Beautiful, vivacious,
fierce and seductive, Selene vowed she would
destroy Lycans after her family was murdered by
the werewolves. So ruthless is she that selene
is a member of the Death Dealers. This elite
Vampire warrior class's mission is to make the
Lycans extinct.
Ever wish you could be a
vampire?
Which UNDERWORLD character are you?
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.o0(Ooohh..Orgasmic.)
Wednesday, January 28, 2004 [ ]
I HATE being a woman. Why does it have to be WOMEN who have PMS? Why can't it be MEN? Or why can't I BE A MAN?*steams*
Wednesday, January 28, 2004 [ ]
My Senior Pictures - One, Two, Three.Don't laugh to hard.
Tuesday, January 27, 2004 [ ]
Two new signatures I made:
I like them. And YES, those are my eyes.
Sunday, January 25, 2004 [ ]
New layout. I'm in love with it. It's actually the first animated one I've done. It's really kinda...unlike my layouts. Crowded, and such. Really large graphic, and no title image. But I don't know..I like it. And that's all that matters, I 'spose.By the way, go here and take a look at the sample business layout that I made. I'm pretty damn proud. Especially since I used javascript. Yeah, learned it in 10 minutes. I'm so fuckin good sometimes.
Saturday, January 24, 2004 [ ]
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth/Seventh/Eighth Level of Hell!| Level | Score |
|---|---|
| Purgatory (Repenting Believers) | Very Low |
| Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) | Very Low |
| Level 2 (Lustful) | Moderate |
| Level 3 (Gluttonous) | High |
| Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) | Very High |
| Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) | Extreme |
| Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) | Very High |
| Level 7 (Violent) | Extreme |
| Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) | Extreme |
| Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) | High |
Saturday, January 24, 2004 [ ]
"im sorry laurachan but you suck big time dick your entries are dumb ur a f*********retard you are stupid and a geek loser"God, these people need to find a hobby. -_-;;
Saturday, January 24, 2004 [ ]
New blog layout tomorrow. It's actually done now, but I'm too lazy to put it up. So it'll be up tomorrow. It's abnormally simple, but I like it. Actually, I think it's the first animated one I've done. It's not animated alot, but it's animated none-the-less.Friday, January 23, 2004 [ ]
1 minute and 52 seconds until I have 3Ds max 6.Orgasmic.
EDIT: Alright, so it doesn't work on my computer, and DC won't work either. Fuck you. Just fuuuuck you.
Friday, January 23, 2004 [ ]
It's just not even worth it.Thursday, January 22, 2004 [ ]
So she's right. I'm a slut, and a moron and a whore.Good to know that everything I was starting to think I was is wrong. Everyone do me a favor, don't lie to me. If I'm fuckin stupid, if I'm a slut, if I'm a moron, don't lie to me. Don't tell me I'm not.
I don't want to hear the "you're beautiful" and "you're wonderful" lies anymore. It hurts to much when I find out the truth.
Thursday, January 22, 2004 [ ]
You know what I realized about myself? I can't handle other people's emotions very well. When I come across someone who's pissed off, I panic. And when all of my friends and my girls seem to be falling like crazy, all at once, I panic. Too much panicking for my comfort. Maybe I'll feel better after today, when I'm finally out of high school.Peh. Speaking of, I'm an emotional wreck. I mean, high school's been hell for me. But yet, it's all I've known for 12 and a half years. So ... what do ya do? It's just...weird. I dunno. I wasn't emotional until I got my english folder b ack that has everything from Kindergarden up in it. I almost cried. And now, I'm scared. Because Chrissy said something about "giving up" and I know what she means by that. I don't want her attempting again. Last time, it didn't work. But it could have, I know that. And that's what scares me. I can't lose that girl. And so many of my girls are starving themselves to death. And slicing themselves all to ribbons. I'm scared it's going to go too far.
Okay, so I'm a hypocrite, but I'm conscious of what I'm doing, and I'm working on it. Little by little. On good days. I swear.
Meh, it's snowing. And I'm in a short skirt, sleeveless top and cape. I'm gonna freeze my ass off walking down to Lowell's today. >_<
Tuesday, January 20, 2004 [ ]
I just got an e-mail from Bill Schauss o_O (For those who aren't around here - he's the computer guy at our school). He faxed my resume to the webmaster of the school website, and they're going to call me in one to two weeks with information on a part time job (and full time job in the future) in their company. I just have to send him some examples of my work so that he can pass them on. Woo!Anyways, I'm stalling, I've really gotta go. Tonite I'm gonna be up until prolly 4 or so making graphics. And coding. Still. Peh. Oh, and writing my essay. And making me scrapbook. Woo..
Anyways, if D&D's happenin' Friday, somebody please let me know ASAP, so I can let my parents know what's goin' on ^_^
Monday, January 19, 2004 [ ]
If I seeI'm pulling an all-nighter coding a stupid layout and building a big graphics website for Computer. Talk about procrastination. So if I'm a little out of it tomorrow, don't be surprised. 6,7,10 hours of coding can really screw ya up @_@
Sunday, January 18, 2004 [ ]
Poke the PenguinSaturday, January 17, 2004 [ ]
Saturday, January 17, 2004 [ ]
Archived. And a new layout too. Whaddya think? Different than my normal, but I like it. And I wanted to show off my first character doll. I'm so damn proud.Click on the little links on the side, they're cool. I surrendered and used IFRAMES. Woo. Linkage isn't up yet, though. Because I screwed up the image map, and don't feel like figuring out what I did wrong. So..peh.
Kon'ni'chi wa
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