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| How I Failed |
Friday, July 25, 2003 |
I failed my driving test today.
I only had two chances left before my permit expired.. so today was my first chance. I took it at the Pomona DMV, and I waited TWO FREAKIN' HOURS. Goshness... it was an appointment at 1:00. I got the filipino dude.. which was said to be hard and mean. He was strict and hard, but nice. He failed me.. why? Okay.. I was driving really well at first.. remembering to do my signal lights and keeping a low speed limit. I even did the park at the curb thing and I backed up in a nice straight line. Then we reached an intersection where it had unrestricted left turns. So when the light turned green, I drove to the middle of the intersection and stopped to wait for the incoming traffic to stop. Little did I know that a big trailer would come up on the other side to make a left turn. He couldn't make a left turn because I was blocking his way or something.
My examiner got all flustered and said I made a BIG HUGE MISTAKE by driving too far up the intersection. That bastard. He kept repeating what I did was a severe traffic violation and all that shit. Just because I drove up to the middle of the intersection like you're supposed to. He said that I should've only driven like a few feet instead. PSCHHH. What is he, a policeman or a DMV examiner? So just cuz of that damn trailer and my bad luck of meeting it, I failed and now I only have one chance left.
Posted by Goolia at 07:15 p.m.
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| Tempers, Tempers |
Sunday, July 20, 2003 |
i really have zero tolerance for people who can't control their tempers. i mean, yes, we all have varying degrees of anger and stress mixed in, and that is totally acceptable. but what is not acceptable is people who can't control their tempers. in other words, we were all born with good or bad tempers, but what counts is our ability to control them.
i especially can't stand those that throw things around, bang things on the table, and slam the door shut not in frustration.. but to show other that they're angry. not only is that immature, it shows that you can't control your own temper and it shows that you can't act reasonably, and that instead, you have let your temper take over. i have no respect for those kind of people. i really don't.
yes, we all have our times where we have done that before, and i'm not condoning every single person who has had thrown a tantrum before, or something to that effect. what im saying is that those who continuously are unable to control their tempers really need to do something about it. not only does it prevent them from having lasting friendships, it prevents them from success in the workplace. people do not admire nor respect those that cannot control their tempers.
so to those out there with such volatile tempers that cannot be controlled: relax. cool down before making any hasty decisions. listen to your reason, and not your current emotions. instead, at the peak of your anger, stop talking, retorting, and steaming back at whoever or the thing that you're angry at. instead, cool down, and keep a poker face on... do not scowl. simply put on an unemotional mask and also do not have any body actions of hostility, for example, do not cross your arms. just look neutral. in addition, before making any decisions on giving the person/object you angry at a "different treatment" due to your anger, think about what you're doing. give yourself several days at best to think over what exactly happened. if you are so confused over exactly who was right after thinking it through, then it probably isnt worth your time. relax, and cool down.
if you also encounter the person/object that made you angry a few hours or days later, don't act like you want to vent back at them or state why you were right. just think.. "i don't care about what they think.. they are not worth my time" and if they talk to you, keep on a neutral face and cooly respond in a cold matter, yet not one that shows you are hostile and ready to burst any second.
learn to control your temper.
it helps to control a temper, especially if you have a volatile one. it will pay off in the end.
Posted by Goolia at 07:06 p.m.
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| Sunday.. which are better now |
Sunday, July 20, 2003 |
Nothing much happening with me these days.. just stress from SAT.. since I'm like studying INDEPENDENTLY.. I should've taken a class. Then I have my DMV test this week.. and then there's physics, which is better than before. Optical physics is really interesting.. especially about planar, convex, and concave mirrors. Lab work is really fun.
So.. I woke up this morning at around 8:30.. went driving to Pomona DMV for practice there.. then I came home, did some hw, then cooked dumplings for myself. In between, I was practicing the field show routine for color guard and trying to do backbends. Lol. Btw, I hate the satellite company my mom got. It's called Dish Network. Never get them. I mean, they installed it all nice, but it happens to be that whenever I use it.. it goes all screwy and now it wont' work again. NEver happens with my dad, though. Pisses me off. I spent an hour yesterday trying to fix it. Was I successful? Hell no.
Today.. just gotta finish up studying for physics, then I'll go do some SAT practice if I have time. Bye!
Posted by Goolia at 03:00 p.m.
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| Good Day... |
Thursday, July 17, 2003 |
I don't know if I mentioned this before.. but I'm planning on becoming an astrophysics major. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's when you study the skies and cosmos using physics to figure out problems. But I'm not sure if it will LAST.. I mean, in elementary school, I wanted to be an architect for several years, then I decided I wanted to be a judge, astronomer, then a writer, then a lawyer, then a chemical engineer, then a physics major, then an aerospace engineer, and now? An astrophysicist. It's a hard major, so I've heard from my physics teacher, Mr. Goossens, but a worthwhile one. Out of all of the branches of physics, it has the most math in it. Great, the subject that I'm not so fond of. But I am fond of doing math that involves something I can see and apply to things. I mean in math class.. I don't see the point in doing all these problems when I don't have some use for it. But in physics, I can see what I'm solving.
I talked to Mr. Goossens yesterday for quite awhile.. he gave me some pointers, and so far, Princeton, Berkeley, Caltech, and UCSC are the best astrophysics schools. I'm trying to get into Princeton hopefully.. but I heard there's only FIVE undergraduates students there. Dang. Hahaha, the professors and I will probably will on first-name terms then. But the problem is getting in, of course. Sigh. Well, right now I need to concentrate on SAT I.. and I'm taking my driving test next week! ahhh! Wish me luck.
Posted by Goolia at 07:31 p.m.
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| More AP Updates |
Tuesday, July 15, 2003 |
AP scores are coming in one by one:
Caroline Park and Jessica Pharar got 5s.. *gasp*! And Sandy and Stephanie Soegiarto both got 4s.
Now back to my life.. today I took another test in physics (test every other day) I know I at least got 4 problems wrong because I thought the spring constant did NOT have a unit.. turns out I was wrong. oh yay. Next week I'm going to go to the DMV ... get my license hopefully! Because I only have 2 chances to do so before my permit expires. Ack.
Posted by Goolia at 07:24 p.m.
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| EURO AP |
Monday, July 14, 2003 |
I finally got my score report today!! Hahaha, I got a 4!! Yay.. this means I get an A first semester and second semester in euro.. woohoo.. better than a 3, lower than a 5. Anyway, here's an update on who got what so far:
5s: Michael Tung, Nancy Zhang
4s: ME!, Christa Culver, Mandy, Iris Lim, Paula Limchaiyawat
3s: Julia Chu, Henry Tseng
I'll keep posting updates to this later.
Posted by Goolia at 06:00 p.m.
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| quiz.. |
Friday, July 11, 2003 |
I took a quiz from Iween's Blog.. about what type of azn girl I am. I don't think it's too accurate though.. hehe. I'm NOT into anime and I dye my hair sometimes.. but I'm not those "omg so azn" types.
PUNK ROCK : Like a revived species of nearly extinct salamander, Punk Rock Asian Girls are a rare type, but slowly climbing up to existence again. Your passions are mainly music and anime and you've probably dyed your hair some odd color of the rainbrow. And if you haven't, you probably will. You often feel like you are misunderstood, but don't worry. Just think about thongs. Very funny.
What Asian Girl Are You?
VISIT HTTP://JEALOUSY.TK
Posted by Goolia at 11:15 p.m.
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| wow i'm so cheerful today |
Friday, July 11, 2003 |
I woke up at around.. 5:40-ish. Why? Color Guard practice. Yes, the evil Mrs. Schultz cancelled practice for the last 3 days due to "lizard disease"... she was pulling weeds in her backyard and got some disease on her hands, which made her really sick and now her hands look like "Godzilla". She was so happy and in SUCH a good mood today.. I actually enjoyed our practice very much today. It explains a lot for my cheerfulness.
I also enjoyed practice because we spent like an HOUR just trying on our new pants that is going to be part of our uniform.. it's baby blue and it's so cute! And warm, too. We discussed how this year's banquet would be at Speedzone!! Tight. No more nasty BJ's. There's even gonna be a swim party at Schultz's house on Aug. 1st.. but I'm gonna be gone to the east coast!! WAHHH!!!! Oh well. Jessica and Anna, the two loudest and most obnoxious people in guard, were absent today and I felt the atmosphere was "friendlier" without them two prancing around like they owned the place and without them two doing immature "dance" moves.
Mrs. Schultz was watching me do the splits, and she said that I was doing much better now.. etc. Then when we were supposed to do the backbend, she was all like, "Julia! Can you do the backbend now?" I was thinking.. *groans* definitely not. So she made Tiffany and several other girls help me get in the position for the backbend, and it was FUNNY. Hilarious. I'm not sure why, but we kept laughing and laughing because I couldn't do a perfect backbend. Finally they got me in the right position, and I was able to hold myself up. I felt proud. Then I practiced at home.. and after like 10 tries, I did a backbend.. then I tried some more and couldn't do it. I'll practice some more later. Teeheez.
Right now I should go study for SAT I so I won't get slapped by Alfred.
P.S. : AP SCORES STILL HAVE NOT ARRIVED.
Posted by Goolia at 03:08 p.m.
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| Haven't been here for awhile! |
Thursday, July 10, 2003 |
Wow.. this is one of the longest periods of non-blogging I've ever had.. I guess it's because I just didn't have any incentive to blog and nothing that INTERESTING to talk about. Let's see.. well first, off.. I decided that I like astrophysics. It just suddenly popped into my head that for my major in college, I might be a physics major or an aerospace engineering major. I've suddenly become interested in rockets and space.. it's really quite appealing. Go blame Mr. Goossens.
I'm still waiting for my AP scores.. the suspense! I heard IB scores came already though, pooh them. In physics.. first semester ended already considering it's SUMMA SKOOL.. and I got an A- in physics.. more like 90.8%. Close. I had an A before the final, but I got a B on the final, so it dropped to an A-. I should be glad it's not a B+. But Wednesday was a good day.. yesterday I mean, because I totally didn't study for a test ( in summer school, it's like a chapter a day, test every other day), so I looked at a chapter for the first time ever, read it for 15 minutes, and that was it. I got a 83/84.. and the one point I got docked on was cuz I didn't put a negative on one of the numbers. Hah. On my catapult project.. I got a 170/180!! Yay! It was pretty good compared to the groups (report, at least) so I'm happy. Right now I'm hooked onto some more TRNs (trashy romance novels) on fanfiction and fictionpress.. so I'll write more some other day!
Oh wait.. some more things to say. Mrs. Schultz claimed to be sick and did not come to practice on Tuesday, Wednesday, and today (Thursday) the note was still on the door, so Stephanie and I assumed there was no practice. However, around 3-ish today, Tiffany Ko called me to say that there WAS practice tomorrow.. on a FRIDAY!! No school.. and practice from 7-10!! ARGH!!! The woman is taking revenge upon us for HER sickness.
I heard from my mom and Jack that some azn freshie got beaten up while come to WHS to play tennis. Scary.. and he got beaten up by three "big" guys.. supposedly those bullies were white, and wanted to pick on an azn kid. WRONG. They didn't catch the guys yet.. and this happened on the 2nd day of summer school. Pretty bad impression for a freshie.
Posted by Goolia at 07:55 p.m.
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| Emotional Turmoils |
Friday, July 4, 2003 |
Where do I belong?
I think I have addressed this question here before.. but sometimes I still feel divided.. between my birthplace, New York, and where I grew up, California. I always felt or thought I hated California, and I've always wanted to go to a college or university in the east coast, where I felt I belonged. But sometimes now I even question THAT.. where do I belong? Where is the place that I should entrust my loyalty to? My cousin and aunt visited my family and I this week... from New York, and somehow I felt a sort of pride that I was a Californian and that they were pitiful New Yorkers. It sort of.. shocked me too.
Anyway, Happy Independence Day! And Happy Birthday to Frances! Hahaha, tomorrow I'm going to the mall with Irene!! I haven't seen her for so long, I miss her. I hope we have a fabulous time. Movies that we want to watch but will probably not watch all of it: Alex and Emma, Legally Blonde II, Bruce Almighty, and Dumb and Dumberer. It's gonna be fun. ^_^
Meanwhile, the aunt and cousin that I have been so isolated from for all my life have visited. There has been sort of a rather LARGE emotional distance between my mom and my aunt.. hate, selfishness, dishonesty, sneakiness, and much more between them. They talked a LOT while my aunt stayed here.. and I hope things mend up a bit. Meanwhile, my cousin Tony visited with my aunt, and he looks JUST LIKE JON, my other friend. It's quite scary.. their resemblance. And Tony looks just like a monkey! hahaha, that's partially why he reminds me of Jon.
Every human being either HAS monkey-like characteristics or DOESN'T have monkey-like features. My aunt also said that her first daughter, Grace was gonna be married on April 5 of next year, to an Irish dude. Kool! I think my family's children (who are in my generation) have always gone out with white men or had a thing for white guys/girls.
Omgness, I have so much to do this weekend.. I dont' think I will sleep tonight. Instead, I'll be stuffing myself full with SAT crap and Physics stuff.
Posted by Goolia at 10:22 p.m.
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| Some Analysis on Some People |
Wednesday, July 2, 2003 |
If you want to lie to me, make your lies consistent with each other.
I haven't been blogging every day again because, quite frankly, I haven't much to say except for a boring little plot summary of what happens every day. But today.. I actually HAVE something I really want to write about: 3 people and their little habits. And also one little interesting tidbit.
Let's go for the tidbit first: Joe. Yes, a guy I met in 6th grade, named Joe. Last name shall be omitted. I sat next to him in Science class I believe.. and he was really nice and sweet. I started to like him.. it was a silly little crush.. and I didn't know he also liked me. I didn't know until 7th grade. We were mad at each other .. I forgot WHY.. but one day at p.e. when we played hockey, he told me how he hated me, how he didn't vote for me (I ran for 7th grade VP), and how he didn't like me anymore. That came as a shock.. the part about how he didn't like me anymore. I was thinking.. YOU LIKED ME BEFORE?? But I had already stopped liking him quite awhile ago, so I just shrugged all this off and didn't care. We didn't talk in 7th grade nor 8th grade anymore, and by freshman year of high school, I had already forgotten about him. Until now.
My friend, Jessica, informed me today in Physics that she knew him, and that he's actually CUTE right now. HARDY HAR HAR. Joe? Cute? Funny. He has a gf too, somebody named Wendy. Wow.. anyway, it was quite bothering to hear about him again, but interesting nonetheless. It's been on my mind all day. Now another subject.. one of my friends has been lying to me about something VERY stupid.. I don't even want to mention it anymore. I just think that if someone wants to lie, PLEASE KEEP YOUR LIES CONSISTENT with each other so that you won't look like a fool later because your lie was exposed. What's even stupider is when you don't even know that your lie was exposed, so you look like an idiot.
Another person. A guy I will call "D". "D" is kool sometimes, but sometimes he just PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH. I mean, he has this interesting attribute that I just like so much in guys.. a part of their personality: the fact that they know all the weirdest and interesting facts. I find that highly attractice for some odd reason, hahaha, and I like to sit and just listen to them for hours. It's so entertaining. He's like that. Except for the way he treats ME. Only ME, out of everybody else I see him interact with, he ignores me half the time or mumbles under his breath and he talks to me SLOWLY.. like as if I was some 5-year-old. He makes me feel inferior in every way.. today I just wanted to strangle him. Of course I didn't actually DO THAT.. but it's nice to think about.
Last person to talk about: my color guard teacher. She has great ideas sometimes and knows how to manage things with more experience under her belt, but I think that she should treat the new members nicer. I felt the same way these new members are feeling last year when I was new too. When they don't do something right, she has this look on her face that spells "ugh". I mean.. dude, be nice! Feel sorry for these newbies! They don't exactly know wtf they're doing and dont' give them that ugly face! Do you think they'll be ENCOURAGEd to do BETTER if you constantly show a disgusted look? OF COURSE NOT. She needs to fix her attitude, seriously.
Now I got loads of hw to do.. so bye bye blog!
Posted by Goolia at 07:48 p.m.
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| Relay for Life |
Sunday, June 29, 2003 |
Yesterday at 9 am I went to school to go to our Relay for Life.. a cancer walk to support cancer patients. It was very well organized, and I had a FABULOUS TIME. Thanks mucho to Jinfae to letting Frances and I use her tent. It was great.. and I think I'll go next year again.
I recorded the activity in my CAS book, and I took a bunch of cool pics of me and Frances. heheheh. Today's sunday.. and I gotta go work on studying for my physics test tomorrow!! ahhhh!
Posted by Goolia at 02:51 p.m.
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| Relay for Life |
Sunday, June 29, 2003 |
Yesterday at 9 am I went to school to go to our Relay for Life.. a cancer walk to support cancer patients. It was very well organized, and I had a FABULOUS TIME. Thanks mucho to Jinfae to letting Frances and I use her tent. It was great.. and I think I'll go next year again.
I recorded the activity in my CAS book, and I took a bunch of cool pics of me and Frances. heheheh. Today's sunday.. and I gotta go work on studying for my physics test tomorrow!! ahhhh!
Posted by Goolia at 02:51 p.m.
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| my monotonous life |
Friday, June 27, 2003 |
Life is okay.
No finals to worry about. No SAT IIs. But a ton of other things I have to catch up this summer.. like summer reading, piano, writing, SAT I, and ARGH A LOT MORE.. like IB CAS hours. This saturday I have to go to Relay for Life.. a relay running/walking cancer walk where I stay for fully 24 hours, including sleeping there. And I have a ton of things to do this weekend.. they all have to be postponed because of THIS.
Right now I want to catch up on reading Harry Potter #5.
Posted by Goolia at 02:32 p.m.
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| It's nice here in my new house |
Wednesday, June 25, 2003 |
I changed my alarm clock to the radio mode, so when it wakes me up, it turns on the radio and not the "beep beep beep" sound.. which is horribly annoying, to say the least. My mom just called me less than 30 minutes ago.. saying the telephone company was not sure if there was DSL access where I lived.. something about how our city does not have many dsl "ports" or whatever. *sniffle* I've been waiting so long too.
Physics was okay today, bunch of speed and acceleration crap that I didn't understand.. I'll try to read the chapter tonight to understand it. Next time I should preview each chapter, or else I'll be behind. Me, Jessica, Sarah, and Dennis did our lab together, some electronic timing stuff. Jack and I were looking for "Kanik" or however you spell her name before school and during the 30-min break.. but we could not find her. I even asked students in the class and Ms. Lin herself.. to no avail. At least I tried, unlike Jinfull.. that uncaring ex-neighbor of mine.
After school, I had to go to a "Relay for Life" meeting.. Pre-umpt or whatever his name is that runs the WHS Team for the cancer walk is SOO unorganized.. I can't stand unorganized people. He gave us each some chips and a drink, and then I told him I had to leave early so I gave him my donation and Paula's donation. My dad took me to McDonald's to get a late lunch, and then we went back to our new home. The city finally gave us our three trash cans (green waste, gray recycleables (sp?), and black trash) and two asian workers in our house were installing our new granite countertops in the kitchen. Looks nice.
Now I'm chilling in my new room.. and later I have some physics homework to do. Peace out..
Posted by Goolia at 03:00 p.m.
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