Thursday, February 28, 2002
02:33 p.m.
- Is that not one cool Symbol ? It's my whole last name in japanese *_*;.. Schway for me that my name is so damn stupid XD . Anyways Today is bad. it's VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY COLD.. I sat down on the toilet today well.. to use it and all.. and it was like sitting on an ice cube . And again the god damn postal bitch has dissapointed AGAIN... She's going to hell. I Added some new cliques today and I altered the format of the page a little, and that's ok.. I guess *sighs*
I'm so bored, but I finished my eva kit today.. it took a LONG time and my fingers hurt so much TT;; but it's very cool .
Quote For the cold ;"Lets make like winnie the pooh so I can get my nose stuck in your honey jar "
Wednesday, February 27, 2002
06:38 a.m.
Today's been pretty crappy so far, chat .. I actually went there and I saw people I hate. people I want to die and suffer.. that whole shabang . Will ruined my morning by saying my name was wrong.. I was so happy about it too~_~; . He then also told me that I'd end up in the hospital if I drove a motor cycle.. it was so insulting, I'm so hurt .
My lip is swollen and I feel sick still.. why am I always sick ? I think I'm depressed . I'm always moody and doing nothing.. I don't even want to do things I enjoy any more.. ~_~ I regret the plans I made for the weekend and I question my relationship with Pete. I can't say what I feel here either .. .
Anyways.. I'm hoping that my japanese magazine or sushi candy , or even my love hina manga volume 2 arrives today .
Quote for my misserable existance;"Zutto isshoni itai"
Tuesday, February 26, 2002
01:55 p.m.
Grr.. postal bitch must die..
Today's been great.. I got to talk to muh buddy whom shall remain nameless but I'm calling him later today. and speaking of calls, Pete did today... didn't really say much.. bitched about women's logic and maybe he's comming here in august
I worked on my perfect grde eva today.. and it's really starting to look ferocious I might use it as a night light. and Ooooh My Dad got me a lambaretta ! HOW COOL IS THAT !?! IMA BE THE BEST COSPLAY HARUHARA HARUKO EVEEEER * Dances around the blog*
Quote for uhh. TODAY!; Sorry Russia, your masking drugs aren't working today.
Monday, February 25, 2002
02:08 p.m.
Have I EVER mentioned that I HATE my god damn postal worker ? she's a real lazy bitch and she never comes on time. *Sighs* She never brings the things I'm expecting on the right day either.. I hope she gets hurt by a small dog to the ass.
But moving on today's been pretty good . I got to talk to Pete and I went totally bubbly .. it was hilarious for no reason ! Pete's so good at putting up with me I LOVE HIM ^^.
I also Added to the art book today .. JOE THATS FOR YOU!!!.. Lol You'll love it and for any one else reading this the newest picture is at the bottom of the page .
Quote;"Every one is entitled to my opinion ^_^"
Sunday, February 24, 2002
02:14 p.m.
Ooook. I'm really angry now Jeremiah was here and that little fucker didn't even come inside after allt he work I did to make this house fucking sparkle and then the shmuck tells me that to think of it as cleaning for myself. I DONT CARE HOW MY HOUSE LOOKS FOR ME.. company matters not family.
I don't think I could be more angry than I am now.. I'm seriously going to kill him one day.. and it'll be worth it .
on the bright side atleast I'm getting to spend more time with Pete, the relationship seems to be perking a bit.
I'm kinda of out of things to say now.. but erm.. here a quote
Quote for the end of the day especially to Pete ; * Tosses a coin * Heads, I get tail. Tails, I get head.
Sunday, February 24, 2002
12:47 a.m.
Today.. I woke up at 7pm something.. and I was in horrible pain.. cramping is the most terrible thing ever. Bleh, then I went back to sleep for 5 more hours.. still cramping when I woke up, but today I am particuarly angry at Jeremiah. I thought he was comming on saturday but it turns ou tthat he is comming on sunday.. I PUT SHEETS NO MY BED FOR HIM I DONT DO THAT FOR ANY ONE!!! * hisses and spasms* I'm going to murder that little bastard, oh and not only that he fucking forgot my # I've given it to him a billion times... ~_~;.. .
Atleast I got to talk to Pete.. and that's a big plus.. I Love Pete TT;; I'm so glad he can't see me like this though.. *sighs*
Quote; A Wolf in sheeps clothing is STILL a wolf
Saturday, February 23, 2002
05:56 a.m.
Wow. For the first time in days I feel like myself Woo.. where have I been . But anyways, moving on today's been damn good so far, I got to talk to Pete and so far it's been pretty damn good .
*Growls at t.v.* FUCK YOU BIBBLE SONG BASTARDS.. Jesus hates you for using his name to make money * sits back all jew like ^_~ * Yatta.
I saw the end of FLCL today.. I laughed my ass off, don't get me wrong though it was a really good series it was perfectly done too ^_^ I reccomend it highly to any one who likes damn good animation styles bombarding them at a split seconds notice and a completely confusing plot line that actually does work YAY GAINAX I LOVE YOU O_O!
*sneezes* I'm expecting Jeremiah later on today.. that shoul be.. err.. well it'll be and that's all I can say on it for now.
HEY..YOU.. yeah YOU. I added a new section * points to the art book * Ya ? look .. it's there.. yay >_>; .
Quote for the day; She'll win his heart, Even if it kills him
Friday, February 22, 2002
03:58 a.m.
Er... I'm crying now.. I feel really bad and sort of nostalgic it's looming over me like a bad dream ~_~; . I hate looking bck over my old art books and remembering the feelings that I had when I did certain things. I'm lonely for something I can't express Some one kiss me.. kiss me tenderly, and mean it . I want to be loved, to be caressed and to feel complete. Lately I've been lacking myself and I just can't over come my depression *sniffs* maybe it's why I'm sick all the time too god damn this existance to hell ~_~;.. . When I look at my new art book I feel empty, like so many of it's pages. I'm out of my prime and I can't express myself through my drawings any more. Maybe I jsut don't know who I am *weeps more so* . I can't frikkin' even hold a decent conversation on chat any more . I look at the people there and I just see words.. like it's not even alive.. maybe I'm not alive either but alteast I know what I want, even if I can't say it here for the people who read this to see,.. it's private and all . But still I can't take this chat crap any more.. even if I am drawn to it.. it's bad for me.. like poison. I should get out more to see my real friends... people who seem to care about me, even if they don't call.
Before this gets to depressing for me to even look at any more.. I'll leave you a quote.
quote for the depression; " Every time I was sad, you were always there for me. Every time I was down, You had a helping hand for me. But why, Why were you always there ? And Why, Why did I never care ? And Why, Why do I feel so sad now that I feel your eyes on me..."
Friday, February 22, 2002
01:07 a.m.
Wee.. Today's booring.. I hate it.. X_X;... -sighs- I added a new goal ^_~.. Ha ha. And warning to all .. next week the blood rain begins.. I HATE P.M.S.. really I do *lash flutter**lash flutter* Hrm.. I should talk to Pete we haven't spoken in a while. but I wish he'd come more often in the morning to see me.. when I'm awake to see him T_T;..
-sighs- I wish I had something to do.. and I wish my Dad would pay to get the sewing machine fixed because i wanna sew cosplay costumes and stuff make some money!!.. that'd be cool right ? right!
Quote for the day; " SARA GET THE FUCK OFF MY LAWN "
Wednesday, February 20, 2002
10:33 p.m.
Burr ! .. cold and wet.. just got out of the shower and I'm feeling really refreshed , Last night had to be one of the best nights of my life for reasons that I simply can not put into view for ya'll ^_~.. IT's a secret!.. there are only about 3 people I can talk to about it anyways. *swooooooons* and Miki, Has been Re-added to my friends list for reasons that She and I know *chuckles* NO NOT LIKE THAT .. perverts.. >_>
Wow.. I feel so good.. I just can't evenput the words together to share with you people.. it's like.. SCREW CLOUD 9 I'M ON CLOUD 90! .. * giggles all bubbleishly * I think I'll stay here for a while * drools over a couple of pictures * I don't even care that my marker isn't here uyet for my damned model kit.. wee.... Some one kiss me ! a man please >_>;.. .
blah blah blah I'll just keep talking out loud until I pass out from happiness ^_^;
OH YEAH I forgot I learned something new about myself last night.. I'm a stubble freak I LOVE STUBBLE.. in an unhealthy way if you have stubble I wanna rub you .. but only face stubble *_*;.. * MOAAAANS * !~
Wednesday, February 20, 2002
04:00 a.m.
It's 4 am and I'm still pretty happy, been talking with Joe for hours and I spoke to Alexi's Mommy too. poor Alexi is really sick >_<;.. why must all my friends be in pain ?.. damn that. But anyways now for the special reason I was making a second post. I scanned an old ipcture from an art book and touched it up a little in adobe elements. but fair warnings, this isn't exactly for the little ones, there's nudity but it isn't DIRTY.. there aren't nipples and other erogenous zones in view , they are neatly hidden! So enjoy ^_~ One Tasty Treat Grr it's invisible but I asure you if your wave your mouse over it you'll find the link
Wednesday, February 20, 2002
12:40 a.m.
Alright, For the first time in days I was happy today. I talked to a lot of people, Even Pete whom complained about nto being mentioned WELL HERE'S YOUR MENTION PETE O_O!!! Anyways moving on . I really laughed and had a godo time , hung out on web cam being beautiful for Nick, Mike, Rezz and Joe.
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