But I really don't think Will is to blame for this one. If anyone is responsible, it's the parent's, for not pointing out that you can't have everything, because then what's left for you to treasure? I'm sure his parent's are to blame for alot of things. . . but I'm not going to go farther on that matter. . . maybe another day.

I know you probably caught me calling people hypocritical in the side notes , but it's because it's true! I've seen Karen, saying bad things about everyone, including her own family. She probably talks about us behind our own backs. . . and that's very hypocritical. You might call me a hypocrit for writing this. . . so I am. I've tried to be as unbiased as I could be, and still voice my opinions . And it also doesn't hurt if it's the truth, either.

By writing this, I'm not trying to bad mouth anyone, that's what the artical's purpose is . . . I want people to understand why only, neglected, children act like this . My only purpose is to inform, and understand. . . so please don't think I'm trying to spread rumors or anything.

Hmm, but then again, I probably should, seeing as how that ass stole my Excel Saga vol 2 DVD >____< . . . just for the note, I'm NOT giving him back his FF7 Game if I don't get back my Excel Saga DVD. . . I will have revenge!! XD

On a further note. I solemly swear to kick his ass if he once again says I'm bad at RPGs! Okay, so I'm not great at them, and have only completed 3 out of my entire collection, but you have to remember that I AM a highschool student, that's busy sorting out her own problems, reading, writing, and working on a education . My life isn't exactly peaches and cream. I have to deal with incompetent parents . I'm sorry, but this is alot of stress for a person my age to be in . . . I clearly don't like this problem, and would like to avoid it, but sooner or later, its going to catch up and try to kick my ass. . . and I really don't want that to happen. Once again, we're getting into unspeakable problems, that I would rather not get into, for personal reasons of course!

Where was I?? Anyway, I am a very busy person . . and I don't think its fair to be called bad at something, when I haven't really have a long enough period to do it in . . . the first time Will said that. . . I was about to slap him, but my good side got the better of me, and I ended up just glaring

Anyway, I think I'm done ranting . . . maybe I'll have more tomorrow, or something, because I seriously feel like writing! So I'm going to go . . . Ja!!

I'm B A C K ! ! ! !

Date: June 29 03

Like the title says. . . I am BACK home!! And I'm so happy that our house was never broken into (like some of the nightmares/daymares/daydreams I had ^_^;;)

Anyway. . . I was so anxious to get home to my computer. . . I missed it sooo very much ::glomps:: And I had a TON of emails waiting for me!! ~____~ . . . but that's the joy of being away for about 10 days!!

Anyway, my Harry Potter book came in the mail . . . and I still haven't picked it up to read. . . . what the hell is wrong with me??

Anyway, I guess that's because I'm on a video game kick. . . I swear. . . all I have been doing for my whole vacation is playing video games, and getting pretty damn far in them. . .

We were suppose to be home yesterday, but James (my step-father), bribed me, and got me the second [DOT]Hack// game!! But of course, I never did tell him that I haven't really completed any of the games I own . . . ^__^;; hehe, but I am working on it!

I guess I should write down what happened on the trip . . . well basically, we went out to eat alot, I went to the beach like twice, while everyone else went about 3 times a day ~_~ . . . did I mention that I ABHOR the beach??

I read manga. . . Battle Angel Alita vol 1-3, Ranma 1/2 vol 1-7, Fuushi Yuuhgi (sp?) vol 1, Maison Ikkuki vol 1-2, Clover, X vol 1, Oh My Goddess, Nadesco, and a tons more. Watched anime . . . Oh My Goddess, X/1999, The Lupin Movie, FAKE (WOOT), Monoke-hime, Grave of the Fireflys (very confuzzling), and some others. I played a bunch of his (Wills') video games, Tales of Destiny 2, Lunar SSS, Arc the Lad (I still think the anime sucks :P), and a couple others. I was quite suprised that my cousin had Saiyuki . . . but it was a shame that the characters weren't the same as the ones in the Saiyuki anime, even though they had the same names. . . damn the different apperances X__X

Heh, I also got this really neat dream book and astrology book. We tried to go looking for manga in the bookstore, but the employees said that they didn't "do" comic books (manga). I swear I looked at them like they grew a second head. What kind of a bookstore doesn't do comic books/manga??

Well, we also went to eat out at this really cool JAPANESE place!! I swear, I was the only one not being a giant brat about the whole thing! I got the Oyako Don, which is this really good chicken, eggs, and vegatbles over rice, in this delicious sauce! I also drank green tea, so I was pretty content. I don't think that Karen, Will, Joe, or Jeffory (Will's cousin) knew how to eat with chopsticks. . . well, Jeffory was a fast learner, and pretty cool, even though he only ordered the Chicken Terryaki, along with everyone else with the exception of my mother.

We also had delicious Miso soup. . . yet nobody ate it. I swear, all Karen, Joe, and Will are is sticks in the mudd. . . ::is mad::

Will thinks he's all that cause he knows Tai-Quan-Do (Sp), and he thinks he knows all about Japanese stuff. I'm like sheesh, you think you know all about Japan and stuff like that, yet you don't know how to eat with chopsticks, you know no history, and you don't even eat Miso soup. I was very dissapointed in him. The boy talks big, but when it comes down to facts, about everything he knows is based on anime and video games. Sheesh, even I'm more cultured than that. . . and hes been to twice the amout of places I have, yet he knows nothing. . . I guess that's what happens when you're an only child (who happens to be neglected).

There's another thing about Will that I DO NOT like. He can't control his emotions one bit, yet he still takes Tai-Quan-Do (sp). I don't get it. . . isn't the martial arts about controling your anger, and self defense, cause if it is, I really don't think a kid like that should be in that class. I know he just turned 13 this year an all, but shit, even I was more mature than that, at that age.

And that leads to another thing. . . that boy hurt my sister. I don't know if it was on accident (and I seriously doubt that it was, cause it happened more than once), but she ended up with bruises and tears. His parents just sat there and let it happen, while my mother (who is currently in my good graces. . . we have had less fights, and almost all tension is gone ^__^) tried to get him off of her. If my mother haden't realized that I was about to go over there and throw him out the window, she would have never got Karen to get the little ass off of her!

I would have literally picked the damned boy out, and threw him over the balcony, not giving a damn about the consiquences (I'm a Leo. . . don't mess with me). Seriously, the boy is taking martial arts . . . it's sad, I know he's practically neglected (and so am I at times), but that's no reason to take it out on the brat (boy, I should really practice what I preach >_>).

Oh well, his family is a bunch of damned hipocrits anyway. His mother (Karen) talks bad about everybody. . . even her own family! Yet, she doesn't even give a damn about how her son is hurting my sister. One day, I'm going to slap the shit out of her, and tell her to stop doing that. If there's on thing I can't stand (besides close-mindedness), its hipocritical people who do exactly what they don't like. . .

Oh yes, and Jeffory. Well, he's a very nice boy, and if I wasn't related to him (by Will), I think I might have gone-a-pant's chasin' (You know, skirt chasing, only done by girls/women). ^__^ He was very nice, muscular, I think he plays on a football team, or something. He's also nicely tanned ::is drooling::

Anyway we also ate at this resraunt called the Weeping Radish. It's a German place, and is very very good!! I definitly enjoyed the Saurbraughten. And the pretzel bread was very good as well!!

Anyway, we ate there on Friday, on the way to Wilmington, to stay with James's uncle, John. His son's, Jackson and Justin, had matured alot since the last time I had seen them, so I could stand to be near them for longer than 5 seconds (mostly because I think Justin discovered girls. . . don't ask). We only stayed there because mom had to go take this test at the local collage, so . . .

We were suppose to leave that day, but we stayed one extra, just for the sake of it, and now we are home.

That's basically out trip in a nutshell, with a bunch of things left out, like how we ate at Dirty Dicks (Damn you Joe), and how James really wanted to eat at Owen's Restraunt, but Joe and his bitch wife Karen were sticks in the mud, and how we went to the Wrights Memorial, and Kitty Hawk, and the Aquarium, but those were very uneventful.

Woah, I just looked at the clock, and it says 12.12, and I started writing this around 11.30 . . . wow, anyway, I'm pretty tired, so I'll be on tommorrow! JA!

BEACH!!

Date: June 21 03

^____________^

After a horribly long 7 to 8 hour car trip, and many arguments, we made it to the beach house! It's sooo cool here. . .

Anyway, its above the ground, which means thousands of stairs. . . ~____~, but its all good!!

The first floor has 1 bedroom (which is yellow themed X__X), the washer and drier, and the door to the beach path. It's quite nice. Me and my sister wanted that bedroom, because there was a bath attached, but we were way too hasty with our choice!

Anyway, the middle floor has 1 master bedroom, and 2 other bedrooms (one is green themed, one is blue with bunkbeds and the other was Oriental themed!!> a bathroom, a balcony with a hot tub!!, anf stairs leading to the last floor!

The last floor is the second master bedroom, bathroom, kitchen, living room, and dining room!!

All in all, I am quite pleased with what we got! I just can't wait till our cousins get here on Monday, then the real fun begins!! ^___^

Hmm, now that we are all unpacked, and I'm on the net with the laptop . . . all is good! So I'm gonna go browse some fanfic sites. . . Ja!

Bite me. . . I'm pathetic

Date: June 20 03 (yes. . . 4 times, bite me!)

Well, 4th time. . . god I have nothing better to do with my time.

Well, I just wanted you to know I caved. . . I'm still going. . . how pathetic. I can't even refuse anyone anymore, perfect!

Anyway, my packing is all done. . . hurah

::kicks Zip drive:: Damned piece of junk . . . it keeps freezing my computer. . . grr ~___~

Oh well, that's life for ya. . . how depressing. Well, I'm gonna stay up until 12 then hit the sack, night all . . .

:P Damn all the adults in the world !!

Date: June 20 03 // Song: "Rome"

Yes, bite me, I wrote in my blog 3 times today. . . I AM BORED!! I'm also pissed. . . stupid parents. . . I swear, they just want me to die or something. . .

All I had for dinner was a horrible small pack of sushi, 6 pieces. . . and my parents are eating a chicken dinner with fixings!! I want to kill them . . . >__< . . . I am sooo annoyed!

I have finally come to a decision about this trip. The next time they come to bother me, I'm going to tell them I'm not going, then I'm going to ask for the phone, and call my Grandma to see if I can stay there.

I really don't know why I can't stay home alone for a week. I'm very mature for my age. . . and I'm not stupid (due to popular belief), and nothing's gonna happen to me, cause our car is here. . . and we have neighbors! The worst thing that happens is that I starve. . . but I've been going without food for days on and off. . . so I don't see why it matters!! It's not like I eat much. I skip breafast (cause I sleep in too late), and I don't eat lunch either. . . and I can live on frozen pizza's for dinner. . .

X___X . . . this is seriously bugging me. . . need food ::tummy grumbles::

Ah, oh well . . . it's not like it matters. . . I'll be starving as soon as my parents start on this stupid diet that I KNOW is not going to work . . . but what the fuck do I know?? I'm just a "kid".

::kicks everyone who reffers to teens as kids:: I AM NOT A KID . . . no matter who says it. I'm practically an adult (well, someone in my family has to be), and I'm treated like a freaking 5 year old. ::fumes::

If I don't think about it. . . it won't matter. . . anyway, I decided to do that name thing with all my names, so here it is:

GOOGURU SHOUJO

googuru shoujo Magic Number 14 Job Celebrity Nobody Personality Multiple Temperament Unflappable Sexual Just Say No Likely To Win A Nobel Prize Me - In A Word Subtle Colour Brought to you by MemeJack

BLACK LIGHTNING WOLF

black lightning wolf Magic Number 24 Job Most Hated Person - Ever Personality Focussed And Driven Temperament All Bark, No Bite Sexual Just Say No Likely To Win The Wrath Of My Peers Me - In A Word Dull Colour Brought to you by MemeJack

GOGGLE GIRL

goggle girl Magic Number 11 Job Serial Killer Personality Procrastinator (If The Apathy Doesn't Kill Me) Temperament All Bark, No Bite Sexual Gay Likely To Win The World Cup Me - In A Word Startling Colour Brought to you by MemeJack

AOI YUKI

aoi yuki Magic Number 21 Job Singer Personality Focussed And Driven Temperament Nervous Sexual Gay Likely To Win The Booker Prize Me - In A Word Belligerent Colour Brought to you by MemeJack

LIGHTNING WOLF

lightning wolf Magic Number 14 Job Most Hated Person - Ever Personality Slacker Temperament Best Not To Ask Sexual Whatever, Whenever, Whoever Likely To Win A Free Coke Me - In A Word Belligerent Colour Brought to you by MemeJack

BLACK BANDIT

black bandit Magic Number 15 Job Most Hated Person - Ever Personality Focussed And Driven Temperament All Bark, No Bite Sexual Just Say No Likely To Win The Wrath Of My Peers Me - In A Word Compassionate Colour Brought to you by MemeJack

BLACK THUNDER WOLF

black thunder wolf Magic Number 20 Job Singer Personality Procrastinator (If The Apathy Doesn't Kill Me) Temperament Check My Pulse Sexual Just Say No Likely To Win A Free Coke Me - In A Word Devious Colour Brought to you by MemeJack

THUNDER WOLF

thunder wolf Magic Number 10 Job Leader of the Free World Personality Focussed And Driven Temperament Pussy Cat Sexual Straight Likely To Win The Respect Of My Colleagues Me - In A Word Startling Colour Brought to you by MemeJack

FOX

fox Magic Number 9 Job Porn Star Personality Drifter Temperament Pussy Cat Sexual Gay Likely To Win The Booker Prize Me - In A Word Genius Colour Brought to you by MemeJack

Eh, some of these are true. . . like . . .

Personality: Multiple (Googuru Shoujo), Focussed And Driven (Black Lightning Wolf), Procrastinator (Goggle Girl), Focussed And Driven (Aoi Yuki), Focussed And Driven (Black Bandit), Procrastinator (Black Thunder Wolf), Focussed And Driven (Thunder Wolf)
Temperament: Unflappable (Googuru Shoujo), Best Not To Ask (Lightning Wolf), Check My Pulse (Black Thunder Wolf), Sexual: Just Say No (Googuru Shoujo), Just Say No (Black Lightning Wolf), Just Say No (Black Bandit), Just Say No (Black Thunder Wolf)
Likly To Win: A Free Coke (Lightning Wolf), A Free Coke (Black Thunder Wolf)
Me - In A Word: Subtle (Googuru Shoujo), Dull (Black Lightning Wolf), Compassionate (Black Bandit), Genius (Fox)
Color: Black (Googuru Shoujo), Blue (Black Thunder Wolf), Red (Thunder Wolf)

It's really not suprising that I got certain answers . . . this thing was fairly accurate, but not exactly true. . . oh well, this thing was created for fun, ne??

Changes

Date: June 20 03 // Song: "Kind and Generous"

Uh, hey again . . . I got a new layout! ^__^

Isn't it purdy?? It features Cleao, Majic, and Orphen for Majustushi Orphen! Cool huh? Anyway, you should all check out that anime . . . its really cool! ^__^

quiz here, quiz there, quizzes EVERYWHERE!!

Date: June 20 03 // Song: "Little Red Corvet"

Well, whens the last time I did some quizzes?? . . . MUST BE QUIZED!! XD

Human? What the heck!? You're no cat! Get away and
go play with your dog XP You're just stalking
the fan service!

How Catlike Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Cool!! I'm HUMAN!! XD

You're the lovelorn soul. You might be boy crazy,
or maybe you just can't find "the
one" due to either too many or not enough
options.

Which Funky Nell Mental State Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

. . . . . . . ::has nothing to say::

googuru shoujo Magic Number 14 Job Celebrity Nobody Personality Multiple Temperament Unflappable Sexual Just Say No Likely To Win A Nobel Prize Me - In A Word Subtle Colour Brought to you by MemeJack

I don't have an LJ . . . but it looked fun, so bite me!! And this is soo very true. . . ::is not kidding::

What Is Your X Japan Ballad?

Hn, aren't I pathetic??

What Anime Bad Boy Are You? Quiz 2

I guess so . . .

Black Dragon

Who is your dragon spirit guide?
brought to you by Quizilla

Cool . . . ^__^

A block of ice can sometimes appear to be more
emotional than you. Try tearing down that wall
every now and again; you might be surprised
with the results.

How do people see you?
brought to you by Quizilla

. . .

You're Vash/Knives. You disagree on everything.
From the small things like the best way to save
butterflies, to the big things like whether all
humans should be killed in order to save the
planet from their pox. But you were cute little
girls. Erm, I mean... boys.

What Twincest Pairing are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Whoa. . . coolies!! ^_______^

Which Saiyuki boy are you?
Take the Saiyuki Quiz at anime-doll.com

Sanzo?? Why am I not suprised?? . . .

Congratulations! You're 100% YAOI Hentai!

How much of a YAOI Hentai are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

YIPPIE!!

SchuxAnyPersonFromWeiss: YOU'RE ONE TWISTED
BASTARD. Enough said. I mean... come on! You
like the thought of Schulig raping a poor
innocent Weiss-er... I bet you get off on the
thought of Omi writhing beneath you! . . .
Okay, so a lot of people do. But still!
/Blood/?

Your Weiss Kreuz Yaoi Pairing Is...
brought to you by Quizilla

ehehehehe. . . now I wanna go read some Weiss Ficcies!!

Well, that's it. . . too bad!! Gotta go, ja!!

Parents and their shit

Date: June 18 03 // Song: One of my mixed anime cds

Ah, like the title says. . . this is a rant about my parents. . . not exactly a topic you ever want to talk to me about . . . but hey, I need to get this out.

Really, sometimes I think my mother had mental problems. I seriously wouldn't be suprised at all if she did. . . it actually would make more sense.

I say this because my mother can't seem to comprehened that I pay for almost everything I own (except for the clothes I wear, and the food I eat, which isn't much at all)! I pay for almost everything, or I do chores for what I can't pay for. I might as well have a job already. Someone knows that I've probably already put in over a 1000 hours of work time. . .

But alas, that's my horrible sucky life, and I am EAGERLY awaiting the day when I move the hell out of this shit hole!!

::sighs:: . . . it really wouldn't kill my parents to buy me something new once in awhile. . . seriously, even my real father forgot my birthday (last year, and I still don't give shit about that, I just mentioned it to get pity. . . yes, I am a cruel, cruel person, bite me). . . and my step father probably won't even be here for my birthday. . . but that doesn't really matter. . . because as soon as I leave home, they are going to try and bring me back . . . I know this because this is how my parents work. They love to control everything, and throw giant hissyfits if they don't get their way.

That's very ignorant, arrogant, and mean to say, I know, but I'm not going to lie for their sakes. . . they just don't deserve it, and I hate having to put up with all this crap. . . . it not only drives me up the wall, but it gives me migranes, which one day, will put me in the hosiptal (don't argue with me, I know that it'll happen sooner or later, and I've got a feeling that when I'm older, it'll happen soon. . .).

I also decided not to go with them to the beach . . . sorry, but they are already giving me shit, and annoying the fuck out of me, so I'm just going to not deal with it. I'm going to stay with my grandma for a week and a couple days, and I'll be fine!! I'll end up doing the same things I plan on doing at the rented house, at her house. . . and more, because my dogs live with her!

I think it'll actually be better this way, because I won't have to deal with my parents yelling and bugging me, and the arguing and the whining (yes, this will probably end up happening somewhere along the line. . . I know, we've done stupid trips like this before!!).

If I can just avoid all of it. . . I'll be good, and I won't snap. I'm on wits end here, people. . . . I don't think I'll be able with having the deal with everyones crap. Oh, I can deal with my Grandma just fine, she's the person I feel closest too . . . I think that's because we are very alike, yet different too.

I don't know, but I really miss seeing her (even though she lives on the other side of town, we moved back because of her), that shows how much my idiot mother and my wonderful grandma get along! None at all. . . and I can see why my grandma does certain things. . . but then again, my mother is slow and stupid . . . and doesn't understand everything right away. I guess I should be really fortunate that I don't have any problems like that.

Hmm, I'm in an angsty mood, and the mood to write, so I'm gonna go. Ja

A mindless conversation with a friend, ICQ, and sucky AOL, plus PS2.5, DOWNLOADING, and some rants

Date: June 17 03 // Song: "Whole in the World" TRAIN

Well, I guess I'll start out by telling you about my mindless conversation with my friend . . . from my old middle school!!

SuperSayinSammy [11:02 PM]: Hey
PostItPaL17 [11:02 PM]: omg!
PostItPaL17 [11:02 PM]: lol u wrote me!
PostItPaL17 [11:02 PM]: hey wutz up?
SuperSayinSammy [11:02 PM]: Yea, I tried to email you, but it keeps saying that ur email address isn't there
PostItPaL17 [11:02 PM]: my email is csampson1@nc.rr.com
PostItPaL17 [11:03 PM]: that wut u email me @?
SuperSayinSammy [11:03 PM]: anyway, I'm going on a trip on Friday, so I'll be incommunicondo

And yea, I did use that email address, says it won't work. I think its an AOL internal problem!

Get ICQ, we'll be able to talk more
PostItPaL17 [11:04 PM]: ICQ?
SuperSayinSammy [11:04 PM]: * in other words I can't be reached
PostItPaL17 [11:04 PM]: field trip....where agin?
PostItPaL17 [11:04 PM]: ohhh
PostItPaL17 [11:04 PM]: ok
PostItPaL17 [11:04 PM]: im goin 2 the ashboro zoo friday
PostItPaL17 [11:04 PM]: against my will
SuperSayinSammy [11:04 PM]: yea, ICQ . . . its a really cool instant messaging system
PostItPaL17 [11:04 PM]: lol
PostItPaL17 [11:04 PM]: its for volunteer service @ fts
PostItPaL17 [11:05 PM]: ohhhh
SuperSayinSammy [11:05 PM]: hehe, and I'm going to the beach for a week against my will!
SuperSayinSammy [11:05 PM]: all my parents fault!!
PostItPaL17 [11:05 PM]: lol fun!
PostItPaL17 [11:05 PM]: parents!
PostItPaL17 [11:05 PM]: grrr
SuperSayinSammy [11:05 PM]: not really, I hate the beach, way to much sand!!
PostItPaL17 [11:05 PM]: but wut r u doin 4 ur --th grade yr?
PostItPaL17 [11:05 PM]: home skol?
PostItPaL17 [11:05 PM]: skool*
PostItPaL17 [11:05 PM]: lol i like the beach
PostItPaL17 [11:05 PM]: i like the sand
PostItPaL17 [11:05 PM]: lol
SuperSayinSammy [11:06 PM]: Well I'm going to be doing this program that athletes that compete use. They send you a disk of everything for a period of time, then you email everything back to them! It cost like 300 a month ^__^;;; ~___~
PostItPaL17 [11:07 PM]: woah!
PostItPaL17 [11:07 PM]: how cum u just wont go 2 fts?
PostItPaL17 [11:07 PM]: imma b in band next year........u still play flute?
SuperSayinSammy [11:08 PM]: because I'm not a people person, and I would rather be stuck in front of my internet clad computer than talk to people in real life (I love downloading!!)

Nope. . . I stopped. I hate the damned thing ::kills flute and stomps on it::

I want to learn piano, but that's not going to well. . . I need a book!! ; ____ ;
PostItPaL17 [11:09 PM]: lol i play piano.......but i HATE 2 practice
SuperSayinSammy [11:10 PM]: its not too bad. . . I would rather cramp my hands then hurt my arms by holding a flute up for like 30 min!!
PostItPaL17 [11:11 PM]: hehe true!
PostItPaL17 [11:11 PM]: u shud see my band music!
PostItPaL17 [11:11 PM]: its SO hard
PostItPaL17 [11:11 PM]: its 4 next yr
SuperSayinSammy [11:11 PM]: yiss yiss

ooh, is it bad. . . crap . . . I'm suprised!!
PostItPaL17 [11:11 PM]: and i have 2 memorize it all~its like 3 pieces and i cant even play 'em yet
PostItPaL17 [11:11 PM]: and we gotta go 2 marching band for 2 weeks b4 skool starts to
PostItPaL17 [11:11 PM]: grrr
PostItPaL17 [11:12 PM]: by the way......we got our yearbooks and ur pics in it
SuperSayinSammy [11:12 PM]: ooh, that sucks!! I'm so glad I don't have to take band any more!! ^___^

Crap, too bad!! Now I have more time to learn a foreign language, like German, Japanes, and Chinese (its what I'm teaching myself now!! ^___^)

really . . . it was horrible right??
SuperSayinSammy [11:13 PM]: * Japanese
PostItPaL17 [11:13 PM]: yes!
SuperSayinSammy [11:13 PM]: oh, writing and drawing too!
PostItPaL17 [11:13 PM]: we havent started the band camp yet but there alwayz yellin' like we're sum kinda soilders
PostItPaL17 [11:13 PM]: but i gtg
SuperSayinSammy [11:13 PM]: So much time. . .and I have to start school earlier than you!! When do you go August 11, that's my bday!!
SuperSayinSammy [11:14 PM]: Wow, crap, too bad. . . I couldn't stand all that yelling, well by then!
PostItPaL17 [11:14 PM]: oh really?!
PostItPaL17 [11:14 PM]: lol ur lucky?!
SuperSayinSammy [11:14 PM]: yup, sucks huh! Not really
PostItPaL17 [11:14 PM]: iid b mad if i had 2 go 2 skool on the day of my bday
PostItPaL17 [11:14 PM]: hehe byebye lylas lata
SuperSayinSammy [11:14 PM]: yea, but I start earlier!! SuperSayinSammy [11:14 PM]: BYE!!!

See that whole conversation was pointless, except for the fact thatwe talked in a really long time!! This goes to show you, the only thing I talk about is anime and video games, and that I am very anti-social!! But that's not my fault. People tend to piss me off, especially people who have big egos and think they know all!

Which brings me to my rant!!

I was on the message board. . . Anime Yak.org of course (duh). And of course, I was lurking in the Pokemon/Digimon section. . . anyway, the topic was Pokemon vs. Digimon. If course, Digimon is the better choice (WATCH the sub, and don't argue with me, I know alot about Digimon!!). These dubbies (its not bad to be a dubbie, but if your a dubbie with a big mouth. . . and haven't seen the subbed version, I WILL BITE!) say that there are both bad and crap. . . I swear, if I see another person diss Digimon, with out even bothering to watch the sub, I will go after them.

It's not that I don't like dubbies, I do really, because I like to convert people (::snickers:: I'm a priest everyone! I CONVERT people!! ehehe), but when they start bad mouthing things they don't understand. . . I get VERY defensive.

But the point of this rant is, why must you all be ignorant people?? Really! If you don't understand something, go redo or experience whatever you don't understand over and over until you DO!

I normally don't speak up unless I'm really confident that I'm right, or I KNOW (keyword: know) the whole thing in and out. Like Digimon (and Orphen). I know it inside and out. . . and I probably could write a book on what I know (or at least resite the whole script of Tamers 03. . . believe me, I have seen rerun after rerun, and I know the dubbed script pretty much by heart!!).

Anyway, I just ask this. If you every get into an argument with me, over something I know really really well. You had better had LEGIMATE websites, and sources to back you up, because I'll probably end up being right if you don't. And they must be LEGIMATE, not fan or anything like that. NO BAIS!

Hehe, now that that's done, I'll move onto my next rant. . . PS 2.5??

Yes, some time this year they are suppose to release the PS 2.5. . . stupid, yes I know. It's basically a computer for gods sake, and that's a total waste of money!!

I mean, I know it would be much much cheaper to buy a new hard drive and install it into the second slot (for hard drives) in the back of my computer! And I could also buy a DVD Writeable as well, with all the money I'll probably end up saving!!

Seriously, I only just bought my PS2 alittle less than 2 years ago . . . so why buy a new one so soon? Which leads us to the next part of my rant, the X-box!

The X-box is another computer. . . sheesh. If it wasn't Microsoft, no one would freaking buy it! And not many people buy it now, the controlers are way too big, and they don't have any good games for it!!

Anyway, if you want to play it, download an EMULATOR for your computer, and download some emulator games!! Sheesh, its plain common sense. I don't think we humans ever take the time to think, now-a-days. We are always in a rush and crap. And we don't bother to plan ahead. . .

::rolls eyes:: Whatever. . . I'm not gonna continue. I know I'll probably get flamed for this, for all you X-Box lovers!! ::sighs:: whatever. . . all I'm gonna say is buy a freaking PC, its basically what the X-Box is anyway, oh, and much cheaper too!!

Anyway, I am on a huge downloading spree, and I happen to be downloading the rest of Serial Experiments Lain. It's kind of confusing, if you don't pay close attention, you'll miss out! You wouldn't understand if your not a big intellect. . . so avoid the series if you don't like thinking!!

Anyway, I also got ICQ and winamp . . . so that's good additions to my computer. Hopefully some people will add me to there ICQ buddies list. . . I really want someone to talk too!!

That's it though. I have nothing more to rant on, and I'm getting cramps. Also, Android Kikaider is on, and I really should pay attention to it. Ja Ja!!

Bored to death, so listen to my words

Date: June 16 03 // Listing: To My Mixed Anime CD's

Meh. . . I'm on a HUGE downloading spree. . . Meh. What I'm downloading?? Well, Serial Experiments Lain, [DOT] Hack//DUSK, and the YST OAV. I really really want the OAV. . . and the rest of the series!! Gotta love my YST Mashos!! Go Anubesei!!

Anyway, it's like 5 days until we leave on this huge beach trip . . . I'm neverous, but I can't wait to go either. . . I'm still waiting for something to go wrong . . . Sheesh, I'm way to pessimistic sometimes. . . ah, but that is too much in my nature.

Anyway, my (step) father's uncle and his family will be there as well (we are sharing a beach house, and Will is bringing his cousin along. . . the 3 Otakus! This should be quite fun . . .). And Will (he's my Otaku cousin, a couple times removed, or something like that) is going to bring his thousands of manga and videogames. . . and all that good stuff! All of that includes a Nintendo, X-Box, Game-Cube, and alot more!! And I'm bringing all my stuff, including my manga, DVD's, video's, PS2 and games, my computer, all my CD's, and probably more. . . heh, I doubt we'll ever leave the house!! XD

Ah, now on a different note. . . I feel, well, I feel like crap. Guess you can say I am in an angst mood. . . I guess I should lay off the angst ficclets for awhile. . . ~__~;;

I seriously want to shoot someone. . . I am THAT bored. I'm in so many slumps. . . it's not funny! I'm in a video game, drawing, and writing slump. I think the best thing I have been able to do is make wallpaper, but now that's even getting bad.

I am seriously in the mood for some Weiss Kruez ficcies. Wait. . . I want to download the whole series, so I know what the hell these fanfic writers are talking about. . . Shit. Meh, I am seriously bored!!

For the past few days, all it has been doing was raining. . . rain here, rain there, rain everywhere. . . I like the rain, but seriously, go the hell away!! (Whoa, that rhymed! ^_^). About a month ago, we had a bad storm, and lighting had struck something across town, well the next day, we went to visit my grandma (who lives on the other side of town), told us that the tree we saw (that had fell down), happened to be struck by lightning. And the ironic thing about that is that the tree was located in a preachers yard. . . strange, ne??

Anyway, back to me (~__~;; god that was conceited), I feel so freaking bad. And look pretty bad as well. I have very large baggs under my eyes. . . and I look like Saito, the freaking pysco cop on Rurouni Kenshin, except for the fact that I don't have a mantis head. . . ~__~() . . . oh well . . .

Seriously, this summer is starting out badly. I've got nothing to DO!! I'm practically ripping my hair out . . .

Okay, okay, I'll stop whining. . .

Yeah, another thing. The evil SOAB that calls himself my dad called. I really don't care if it was fathers day or not. . . it doesn't mean I forgave him, which will probably never happen. He knows what he did (in other words, that's a VERY painful subject that I DO NOT like talking about. . . so don't push it.)

But James (step father) liked what mom picked out to give him, from us (Kajuu (bratty sister, its her new nickname) and me). It was a 100 dollars for Dick's Sporting Goods. . . he was quite please with that!

::sighs:: On Saturday night, I watched the last episode of [DOT]Hack//SIGN . . . and to tell the truth, I didn't like the ending. . . WHAT THE HELL HAPPENS TO TSUKASA!! I must find this legendary 27th episode. . . I already know what happens later on, he becomse Skeith's Stuff, and Sora becomes Skeith (or something like that). Argh, it's just so confusing!! This is why I must download the whole [DOT]Hack// series and buy the 4 games (I already have the first one, yet I can't complete it. . . -___-;;). Yes, I am obsessed with it!! Which is why I am on a downloading spree!! I'll never have the complete set though, It'll take forever to find the novel [DOT]Hack//AI BUSTER. . . which is the Pro-Prolouge to the games, and the Prolouge to the series. . . here's a chart.

[DOT]Hack//AI BUTSER (a couple years before)
[DOT]Hack//SIGN (a year before the games)
The games and [DOT]Hack//LIMINALITY
[DOT]Hack//DUSK
I'm not sure about the Legend of Twilight's Bracelet though . . . I'll find out though. But for those who don't know about the series. It's about a boy named Tsukasa, who gets trapped in this game called the World. He, and his companions, Bear and Mimiru, as well as Tsubaru, try to help him find away out. All in all, its pretty confusing if you miss an episode, and its more intellectual than anything else. But most of you won't like the ending, and will go crazy if you don't see the next seasons. . . like me!

meh, but a big up about the series is the music!! It's really really good. . . and it fits the series quite well. . . and it's kinda freaky! Meh, but freaky is good!

SPOILERS

Okay, this is for all that know and have seen the last episode of the series. . .

Did you guys freak out when you saw Aura's eyes open. . . I kinda jumped and looked behind me, to make sure no one was there. . . Don't make fun of me, she was really creepy. I also thought Tsukasa was going to die. . . god, that episode where he got hurt made me leak some (tears that is, but only a couple). God, I think I'm obsessed, next, I'll have huge Sora and Mimuru posters in my room . . .

Meh, now I'm just rambling. . . oh well. I feel like it, so there ::sticks out tounge:: I'm just talking . . . err, writing for the sake of writing.

Anyway, time to post/archive my anime collection

.hack//sign
.hack//Liminality
0079: Mobile Suit Gundam
0080: War in Pocket
0083: Stardust Memories
Akira
AD Police Files OAV
Arc: The Lad
Android Kikaider
Big O
Beyblade
Blue Sub #6
Cowboy Bebop
CardCaptors
Char's Counter Attack
DragonBall
DragonBall Z
DBZ: The Worlds Strongest
DBZ: Dead Zone
DBZ: Tree of Might
Dai-Guard
Digimon Adventures 01
Digimon Adventures 02
Digimon Tamers 03
Digimon Frontiers 04
Digimon: The Movie
Devil Hunter Yohko
Excel Saga
Evangelion
Escaflowne the movie
Flint the Time Detective
Fighting Foodons
Gundam Wing
Gundam Wing: Endless Waltz
Hamtaro
Inuyasha
I, My, Me! Strawberry Eggs
Kiki's Delivery Service
Laputa Castle in the Sky
Lupin The 3rd
Medabots
Mon Colle Knights
Mobile Fighter G Gundam
Monster Rancher
Megami Kouhousei (Pilot Candidate)
Metropolis
Megaman NT Warrior
Ninja Cadets
Ninja Scroll
Noir
Nadesco
Outlaw Star
Pokemon Kanto
Pokemon Orange Islands
Pokemon Johto
Pokemon Adavanced Generation
Pokemon 2000
Pokemon the first movie
Pokemon 3: Spell of the Unknown
Pokemon: Mewtwo strikes back
Rah Xephon
Rurouni Kenshin: Samurai X
Rurouni Kenshin
Real-bout High School
Robo-tech
Saiyuki
Serial Experiments Lain
Sourcerous Stabber Orphen
Sailor Moon
Sailor Moon R
Sailor Moon S
Sailor Moon SuperS
Sailor Moon R the Movie
Sailor Moon S the Movie
Sailor Moon SuperS the Movie
Shinzo
Spirited Away
Spriggan
Soul Hunter: Taikoubou's Mission
Steel Angel Kurumi
Trigun
Tokyo Pig
Tenchi Muyo
Tenchi Universe
Tenchi in Tokyo
Tenchi Muyo! In Love
Tenchi Muyo! Daughter of Darkness
Totoro
Uresei Yatsura: Lum Forever
Vision of Escaflowne
Weiss Kruez
Wrath of the Ninja: The Yotoden Movie
Yoroiden Samurai Troopers
Yuu Yuu Hakusho
Yu Yu Hakusho: Polterguise Report
Yu-Gi-Oh
Zoids New Century Zero
Zoids Guardian Force
Zoids Chaotic Century

As you can see, I have seen tons of anime . . . I have some manga, but not much X___X. . . and I own very few of the titles listed. . . most have been seen dubbed. . . oh well. I'll work on downloading most of them later. . .

Don't be fooled. Just because I've seen so many of them, doesn't mean they are all good (or for kiddies. . . be VERY careful)!

Anyway, now I am bored, and have cramped hands. . . and I'm hungry. . . so I'm gonna go. . . Ja!

Date: June 13 03 // Song: "Free Falling"

Well, I just woke up about 10 minutes ago . . . which means the time right now is 10.32 . . . wow, I slept in real late. . . >.>

Oh well, but I just realized that its Friday the 13th . . . my lucky day!! ^__^ Meh, shall everything go my way today (like usual), or bust. . . we'll just have to see!

Ah, you should have been in my head last night. . . I did something very unusual! I actually dreamt. Yes, very strange, and the dreams were as equally strange!!

Anyway, the first dream was that I lived in a dojo, with a bunch of other random people. . . all my friends. Some how, the Kenshin-gumi get there (>__< yes, that is weird) and end up living there with us.

Anyway, the weird part is that I'm a Spirit Ookami yoko (Spirit Wolf demon . . . which meant I could transform into a wolf or human, at will), and some how Sanosuke got me pregnat, or something, and I end up having pups. . . >.>

Stop looking at me like that, I said it was strange. . . sheesh ::sweatdrops:: and the next dream:

Well, the next dream was that I went off at my parents and god parents. Well, I'm pretty sure that one of my cousins ate my dinner. . . and I got upset because I was on some sort of diet (thanks alot mom, now you've made ME weight concious!), and because of all my supressed anger, I slapped her, and the parents rushed in. Then I started yelling/talking loudly and telling them how their (the god parents) kids have no manners. . . and that they are no better themselves! Then I go off on my parents for letting them come over (and about the food). I storm out of the room and leave, or something.

Then it flashes to my sister telling them that I'm right (wow. . .) that they should be ashamed, and then she leaves. Then thats where the dream ends.

I think that this is a sign that if I don't start showing my emotions. . . I'm going to end up yelling at them. And I'm really wishing that I would find enough anger to yell at them, because that dream is actually how I feel in real life. I getting fucking tired of how my aunt and uncle (the god parents) let their children get away with so much. To tell the truth, their kids don't have a single lick of any type of manners! And frankly, in the future, I'm kinda hoping that I do get to slap my cousin. . . she really deserves it!

Wow, that was the most complex dream I have ever had!!

There were a couple more dreams. . . but I don't really don't remember the other ones. . . so you'll have to excuse me.

I've failed to mention this earlier, but I'm working on a fanfic for a contest (fucked in the head), and it's pretty hard, so if you can, please don't bother me (by trying to IM me), at this time, until noted otherwise.

I've also made wallpaper, so. . . you can go to my message board to see them. [ Click Here ]

Also, my sisters having a slumber party today. . . damn it, I have to deal with three half pints. (My two cousins, from the dream, and her friend is coming over). I swear, I'll probably yell at them sometime today, for giving me a head ache or making too much noise. The walls of this house are too thin, bite me!

That's it. . . nothing else! Ja

Date: June 12 03 // Song: "My Tourniquet" by Evanescence

Shit, I really knew I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up . . . damn. You know, I really resent my parents. Boy am I feeling very destructive. . . literally, I just ripped this Klenex in half. . .

Well, after telling my mother it was impossible to lose 15 lbs in one week and a half. . . she declared (well, it was implied) that our deal was off. I nearly slapped her. She really is the stupidest bitch I have ever met! I seriously don't care if I'm younger than her or not! Doesn't mean she knows more than me. . . ::grumbles and bitches::

Well, being the good person I try to be, I walked away, and nearly killed my pillow. . . Holding in anger really doesn't happen to be a good thing.

Not hitting matches, not screaming at each other. . . no blood. . . nothing. I was strangly docile, probably because I KNEW this would happen. . . I KNEW it and I was an idiot about it. Well, I do suppose that this IS my fault after all . . . I shouldn't have agreed to her terms in the first place. I am a FIRST CLASS IDIOT!

::sighs:: I still feel like shit, even though I actually wrote it down before getting all pissy. . . oh well, I best go on and write something before I lose my anger. . . Ja!

June 06 03 // "Bring Me To Life" Evancense

Well. . . I'm bored. . . so I took Dante's Inferno test again, and got some different results!

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Date: June 05 03 // Song: ""

Ah, damn it! I feel like shit again! Something I ate is not going down right! I feel so damned uncomfortable. . . shit!

Well, I kinda feel bad because I forgot it was my "parents" anniversery. . . ::has nothing to say:: seriously. . . I kinda feel like shit (or is that the food talking. . . )

Ah, anyway, I just came from a fancily cooked dinner with my parents, and . . . oh god. . . it's just not my month(s). And I just started my period for the month too . . . >_______________________________________<

I LITERALLY feel like shit. . . pain . . . cramps. . . and acid reflect. . . god. . . I kinda want to die right now, so don't mind me. . . I'm off to go wallow in pain! Ja.

Date: June 1, 03 // Song: "When I'm Gone"

I am seriously getting fed up with this. . . all my parents seem to do now adays, is take pleasure in yelling at me about school!

I seriously don't give a shit, if I make it through another year of homeschool, or go to a public school, because I for one am getting annoyed, and I'm actually starting to think I should move in with my grandmother!

Not that it would be bad there. . . she's not a big anime fan, so there is a downside, but then again. . . I could bring all my stuff over there and set up in her basement. . . which really isn't a bad idea, if you think about!!

Ah, its just so annoying!! ::is pulling hair out of head:: . . . I seriously want to scream! It's like we are on two different pages! I'm on the page that doesn't give a damn, and doesn't like to worry, so I end up not caring; and they. . . well, they are stuck on REPEAT!! That's all they do. Basically everything they say is a repeat of everything they said before. . . its getting to the point of where, I would gladly welcome some change that would get all attention off of me!

Ugh!! Its pissing me off!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I guess that can't be helped. . . I get pissed off easily, I've always had anger problems. . . sue me, humanity sucks crap!

Well, that felt good. . . I no longer feel like killing anyone! Excuse my laps of sanity and/or minutes of blood lust! ^__^;;

Anyway, the contract for the domain name was written down. . . and its coming along well, I have to do this excersie thing with my mother for a few more days. . . then I get my PAID website!!

I already figured out everything for it already, now all I have to do is make a cheap layout (I have no cool paint programs . . . just MS Paint! But I'll make it work!!), so I won't have to use any freeware! :P

Anyway, I plan on calling it Lightning Wolf [DOT] Net. . . cool huh?? Anyway, I have a rather good plan picced out as well. . . it has just enough, and extra's are always avalible!!

The layout will be wolf like (that I scanned and drew, of course), so be on the look out. . . it'll be alot different from the websites up now (which will all close, unless I get emails stating otherwise). Hmm. . . I am soo excited!! ^_________________^

Date: June 02, 03

::is beaming:: WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Yes, if you can't tell, I'm really really happy!!

Why, well. . . my parents and I made a deal. . . if I help my mother do an excersie program. . . my mother will pay for a domain name for me!! ^_________^

If you don't know what that means. . . then I pity you, but I'm super happy cause I'm gonna own a WEBSITE!!!!!!!!! WHHEEE!

Well. . . I must go and start my work!! Ja!! ^________^

Date: June 1 2003 //

Damn, I should have known asking my mother for anything was stupid. . . I seriously don't know why I bother sometimes. She always some how brings my anti-social "Problem" into the conversation.

I read somewhere that anti-social is a mental problem. . . well, if I'm a mental problem, then I am one very SANE mental problem! I tend to avoid most human contact unless nessacery, which is why I can freely write here about my life. I don't know you, I don't see you, and I don't give shit about alot of you (there are a few people who are really awsome, BT, and Yamato-san!! ^__-). Don't take it personally, most of you are probably nice, but I really don't like to have to go through all of the trouble of impressing you for no reason!

And that's probably the problem with public schools! All the kids go into stupid little groups. . . and make fun of each other, yell at each other, and make themselves jump through flaming hoops so that they show everyone that they are the best! And that really gets me. . . why in hell would you want to go through all the trouble of spliting everyone up, which eventually leads to some sort of violence.

Sorry, I'm feeling mighty pissed off. . . so you'll have to excuse my dreary outlook on humanity's stupidity. Yes, it's stupididty. I seriously think that we would have never made it if certain resources weren't already on this planet!

And I'm not going to go into religion, just for the sake of saving everyone from my horrendously long rant on why its just plain stupid, and why I don't believe there is a god!

I felt the need to spare you from all my own angst! Now heres a bit of some good stuff, that'll make ya feel better. . .

I UPDATED my website!! [Click Here ] Well, this has a new layout, and it has more pictures and crap. Go check it out!

I've been working really hard on it too!

Anyway, here's some more good news!! I'm going to start a doujinshi for my fic, "I'll Help You"! I'll probably end up re-writing all of it. . . but, well . . . it'll take a while, so keep a look out for it!!

Ah, now I'm done, unless you want me to rant on? No? I thought so, well, ja!

Date: May 29 // Song: Ironic (Alanis Morrisette)

Hey. . . well, I haven't updated here in a long while. . . really because nothing much has been happening (besides the fact that I got food poisoning. . . but who wants to hear about that!)

Anyway, I updated theSlash Gallery the other day, now it has some slashy pics from Yami No Matsuei, curtesy of Sakura Crisis! Arigato!!

Anyway, I put up a new layout for OOTAS (my home page) today. It's of Jounnouchi from Yu-Gi-Oh, and did I mention its popup?? Well, go check it out!! ^__^

Well, that's about it, except for the fact that I found out my FF8 has a glitch!! Fucking hell. . . I replayed that one part of 10 times, trying to figure out what the hell was wrong with it, and I haven't even played the game but twice! And the number to call didn't even fucking work. . . really pisses me off!

And then I go to the squaresoft website. . . and couldn't find a thing, it was way too damned confusing! And when I found an email address, the person asked me to contact sony. . . and its not the PS2 that's the problem!!

Anyway, I want to know if any of you who play FF8 had a very bad glitch when you are at the Missle Base, with Selphie's Team (on Disk 2) and as the CG graphics of the missles launching, just freezes the game?? If you have, and have an answer, please contact me, Googuru Shoujo and tell me what you did?

I can't get the warrenty back, so don't ask me to try, the game is old, and even though its unused . . . I don't seriously think they'll take it back. And don't say it's my PS 2 system, cause I played it on my fathers PS 2 (a newer one, since I had mine a few years, and that one was from last Christmas), and it even messed up there. I'm going to try to play it tommorrow, because I'm thinking I've been playing the game too long, and running the system to long, so if that seems to be the case (like I am hoping), I'll let ya know!!

JA
Googuru Shoujo