[i am happier than a pea.... in a pod! | Friday, October 25, 2002]
I just had the most fantastic Thursday night. So many good things happened, and I just want to get it all down on paper... errr, screen, before I forget it all. Which I probably won't. :) I went to the Gaslighter show to see Keeping Ellis, A Burning Water, and Olympic Year who were all just so much more than excellent. The Gaslighter was not however; it was highly g-hetto. The stupid staff there doesn't let people stand out in front anymore and forces everyone out to stand in the crowded back parking lot... a pretty dumb concept. And they're highly strict about bringing drinks in, etc..... just overall dumb rules to make them seem superior. Nonetheless, this was a really good show that was actually worth my measly , so what the hey....
A Burning Water was beautiful. Exquisite. And I talked to some members, which made my evening more than joyful. Actual conversations too... it seems that I finally came out of my shell. =P Heh heh.... one silly boy thought that I had gone away to school..... hee hee.... and I saw a resurfacing of another old neighbor/ghost of my past.... except with much more hair... haha...
I chilled with Emma for a bit, which was fun too, since she's a fun gal with a license... yay! (Also my stalker...) Heh.... I got Sam to fall in love with Keeping Ellis.... actually, I didn't make her, but they blew me and her away.... more so for her, since it was her first time actually watching them, and she fell in love on the spot. It was great.... she loves them so much now... I'm so glad I was able to spread my joy to her... Here, at this point, I also talked to another friendly fellow who later cared enough to say good-bye to me and to wish me a good night. =D Everyone was just in such a good mood..... even though Sam was tired.... but still.. amazing nonetheless.
Good karma is just flowing all around. I wish you could all feel as happy as I am feeling at this moment. :)
Oh dang... today was such an interesting but fun day. Nothing out of the norm, just good clean family fun that's making me feel all bubbly and queasy inside, since I always eat too much when I go out with my parents... mmmm..... food.... Anyway, we went to San Franciso for the day, but we REALLY went out, which is what made it so fun. We chilled at the Metreon for a little and saw The Ring, which was actually really good, much to my surprise. There's a certain feeling of content knowing you've seen two good movies in one weekend. (Saturday I saw Igby Goes Down.)
I thought The Ring was gonna be sort of silly, about like I don't know.... an actual ring. The name sort of threw me off.... but even though this movie ripped off another older Japanese horror film in the exact same way, it was still all good. It made me miss my old film class where we could talk about funky camera techniques, and I could feel all good because I knew exactly why certain shots were used, and what effects they would have on an audience.... I don't know.... I just notice these things.
Then we went to the Hyatt and rode the elevators up and down. There wasn't much purpose to it; we were gonna eat up at the Equinox, but then we decided it wasn't worth it to pay like, for steak. So we just went up and down 18 floors.... but hey.... it was still a blast.. and we had Japanese food instead.... yum!! Sushi tops any evening... and when I got home, I had four messages. I felt so special. And I finally got my backpack back.... it was waiting for me on my doorstep when I got home. I love Sundays.... if I'm not in bliss right now, then well.... at least my tummy sort of is... =D
11:27 p.m. | abused by maggie*! [e-mail foo][aim wut wut] [gbook fo sho] [if you really love me]
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[i'm not better... just different. | Saturday, October 19, 2002]
[i try so hard to be rational | Saturday, October 19, 2002]
Some people can just be so difficult, that I have claimed more than 3 times yesterday evening, that I wanted to put bullets through the hearts of those who irritated me most. For the most part, I am a nice and easy person to work with... and for the most part, I am not a bitch... but seriously... some people can be so fucking obnoxious and so disrespectful that it makes me want to rip all the hair from my skull to make it look as though I had leukemia, which is probably even better than having to work with difficult people from high school....
Okay, maybe it wasn't that bad. Maybe I am being over-judgmental. But still... there is a big rip to the chest when you hear a very sweet and nice, but dumb as a brick girl say "'I Love Rock and Roll' is by Joan Jett....? I could've sworn it was Janis Joplin!!" Okay, you don't have to know every single thing about music to be cool in my book, but you should at least give fucking credit where it is fucking due.... Aaagh....
So get this. God knows why I am even working on the fucking homecoming float and skit, maybe it's an idea called "if I voice my ideas, maybe my opinions will be heard?". Hmm, well I guess that in the realms of high school, this theory doesn't apply. These things that are meant to be the democratic decisions of all students are shoved away by elitist skinny girls, the "cool" of the "cool" crowd. So what if I don't wear a size 0.... so what if I don't whore myself... I try to have respect for these people, but honestly, it just isn't working. There is every just reason for me to say, "I think that we should incorporate Jimi Hendrix, because you know.... that's rock. There is no denying that." ...However, that is immediately turned away and I get bitched out because "...We need songs that have the word ROCK in it... so people get the message. You know, like Elvis, and Bob Seger, and songs like Rock Around the Clock...." All that 50's shizzazz, my ass. So I say "Well, you know in real rock and roll, music speaks for itself. You don't need someone saying "I Love Rock and Roll" to know that what you are listening to is fucking ROCK." And I get bitched out... more... and more. Simply because my opinions are of a different standard. I mean, for fucking Christ's and all his disciples' sakes.... any top 5 rock list should not disclude at least Jimi Hendrix, the Beatles, and the Rolling Stones. I feel like fucking High Fidelity now....
I know I shouldn't be so bitter.... this happened more than 7 hours ago... but frankly.... I'm just so sick of people who have to pretend to be something they're not. Especially when their actions don't justify their opinions.
[i am invincible... damn john mayer song... >.< | Wednesday, October 16, 2002]
Wow.... I really haven't been writing much, eh? Well, I guess I wrote more in the summer cause I had more time and such.... now it's just work, work, work. I've stopped watching TV, I only go online to check my mail, and I guess now what most of my time is contributed to is to reading... and more reading. Whether it is textbooks, novels, or just crap magazines, I sure spend a lot of time using my eyes... and noticing odd things... For instance, today it just hit me at how stupid the garbage system around here works. The trash bins are smaller than the recycling bins. Seriously, I doubt that the majority of the American population has more recyclables than trash. ...if they're trying to promote a good cause, then hey... more power to them. But frankly, there's just not enough bin for all that trash..... fucking garbage man got like half our trash in the street... >.< Anyway, besides that, I've been on really good terms with people, and this makes me happy. I feel solid. Maybe it's a good thing to be deprived of infatuation at this moment....
11:44 p.m. | abused by maggie*! [e-mail foo][aim wut wut] [gbook fo sho] [if you really love me]
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[i'm a busy girl, aye? | Sunday, October 13, 2002]
Man, my weekend has been so packed full of good times. Now is the time for me to recall what I have done, so I can look back on good memories with a smile. On Friday, I stayed after school for the football game.... which was dumb, but I took pictures for yearbook with the really cool 35 mm camera with the freakin' heavy telephoto lens. It was pretty amusing though, just because I was in the company of good people. :) Then we drove to Red Lobster for more good times, where almost everyone was raped by horny bastard Ryan. .... =D Then I did the stupidest thing and went to see Keeping Ellis, Fighting Jacks, and others at the Portable, way out from where I live. It was a great show, and I finally got to meet a guy that I've been dying to meet for a while. Rides didn't work out so well, but hey.... it was mostly worth it.
Man, now I have to skeedaddle soon and run off to San Francisco for the day, and hopefully make it back in time to see dredg at Rasputin. And then write a dumb essay about Alexander Hamilton and do a stupid lab for biology.... Man.... these days are sure packed. ^_^
09:25 a.m. | abused by maggie*! [e-mail foo][aim wut wut] [gbook fo sho] [if you really love me]
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[look at the stars... look how they shine for you | Wednesday, October 9, 2002]
I seem to have forgotten that it is a violation to look in the trash of others.... I'm just breaking the law all over the place, aren't I? =D Heh.... I didn't really do it.... I just sometimes forget what is legal and what is not....
[something that is detestable | Sunday, October 6, 2002]
You know what I really can't stand... is public toilets with splotches of water on the toilet seat. Say you go to the John, and on your toilet seat, there are always little water splotches on the seat, and you think gross... it looks like someone fucking sprayed their urine on the seat. Nasty. But then when you realize the color of the fluid isn't yellow, then you start to put blame on the damn toilet and its automatic flush that sends water up the hizzy.... and it gets the toilet seat all wet and spotted. Well, I suppose that's why we really need toilet seat covers... not to protect ourselves from everyone else's butt germs, but to just keep ourselves clean from fucking dirty toilet water... I don't know... just a little observation that happened to pass my way...
09:32 a.m. | abused by maggie*! [e-mail foo][aim wut wut] [gbook fo sho] [if you really love me]
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[down on skid row.... (well not really, more like suburbs of san jose) | Wednesday, October 2, 2002]
So forget what I said maybe a week ago about my being on.... today is a totally off day in all ways, shapes, and sizes. It's just one of those really blah sort of days..... everyone is gone and I feel highly lonely and today is the day where I honestly sort of feel like a loser and see my life sort of going nowhere in particular. If I had to draw a path, it would just be straight, just sort of going down this neverending road of nothing.... I guess this feeling is also called emptiness. I don't know why, I'm not depressed, but everything just seriously goes in circles. I'm ready for some really radical change, even if others may not be prepared for it.... but at this point, life is so boring, that it's just like let's bring the motherfucker on.... I feel like my brain capacity is growing smaller and smaller day by day. This makes it harder for me to absorb things, and when I do, I feel like they are constantly being wrung out of my head like a sponge. I'm really feeling Catcher in the Rye-ish right about now.... and so close to just grabbing that pile of money and just making a run for it... anywhere to get out of here.
07:24 p.m. | abused by maggie*! [e-mail foo][aim wut wut] [gbook fo sho] [if you really love me]
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