Oh... my... goodness. The insomnia attacks have seriously struck me hard today/tonight. I can't remember being this wide awake at this time of night for the longest time... it feels a little funny, but I know that all I have to do is flip on the telly and watch like, 10 minutes of infomercials before I am as dead as a donkey's rump. Or not. But really, infomercials or homework would put me to bed straightaway, but doing homework on a weekend? Now that's just illogical. I don't care if I have school Monday, but a break's a break, and thus, no homework or any sense of accomplishment for me. I've just been wasting all my time going to shows and such... although, in my opinion, shows are not a waste of time... but others may beg to differ.
Surprisingly, I had an enjoyable time Friday and yet again, I had another surprisingly fun day today as well (supposing that I am referring to Saturday.) Stupid as it may sound, the best moment of Sat. was the chance coincidence of driving around San Francisco, and seeing Beck and Todd of Glassjaw just walking down the streets... I don't know why, but I just started to eagerly panic and overtly spaz a bit... but hey, if you saw your heroes from another coast on your home turf, I think that you would spaz too. I tried to get out of the car so I could at least tell them how much I wanted them to play a good show that night (which I hope they did), but alas, I was too late, and barely caught Beck walking into the venue. Nonetheless, I could still see them doing their soundcheck from the door, so it was pretty cool. I guess it pays, since driving around one-way San Francisco streets is a major pain in the arse. How often do I get to see people from my favorite band though? I mean really. Today was just my lucky day, I guess...
The evening brought even more fun. Just some good chill time with a personal friend, whom I haven't had good chill time with in a while. (And no, the Ozma show does not count.) I saw a bunch of local bands that I miss, and remembered why and how much I appreciate the South Bay local music scene. It was a night filled with mop tops and look-alikes, providing for much entertainment and personal ridicule. But hey... who doesn't enjoy a good laugh?
Anyway, sleep is starting to catch up on me. Away I go to the land of Nod.
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::college of choice:: Sunday, February 23, 2003
At this hour in the morning, all that I can really think about is this: the only real reason to go to UC Berkeley is because of the movie theater across the street that has midnight showings of Donnie Darko. Now that is genius. San Jose is way too lame for that. I also need to go to Berkeley because it has the coolest two-story Starbucks across the street, as well as a Rasputin AND Amoeba record store, all within a two-mile radius.
Donnie Darko, Starbucks, and music. These are the things that are getting me through high school. Certainly, I will need them to get through college... Cal Berkeley is my savior. I know that I am more than a year away from actually going to college, but really, if I can't get into Berkeley, then I am going to throw one mean hissy fit. And then I'll probably end up going to school in SoCal, which will just really suck. I shouldn't be thinking about this, but I am... it's 3 AM, I think my mind is allowed to wander... oh yeah, yesterday's entry..... uh... I can get back to that whenever I am in the mood... I suppose. >.<
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::sort of confused:: Saturday, February 22, 2003
Times are getting a little difficult because I feel that lately, I have been making little impact on people. Maybe this doesn't sound very significant to you, but the way I affect people is pretty important to me. I mean, I'm not out to fully motivate or inspire others, but lately, I am just not getting the satisfaction that I am really making much of a difference in others' lives, no matter how big or how small. Just little things, how like, all my advice or help seems to be rejected or ignored. My humor is dwindling... I don't know. I just don't really feel appreciated anymore. And I don't know why.
Before, I never really analyzed the way I acted around other people. Now, I guess that I'm just more observant. I used to be able to feel this certain vibe around people, especially new acquaintances or strangers. Everything felt more welcome, less barriers, less judgments. Now it's just sort of gone, and I am finding it really hard to make any type of impression on anyone... it's come to a point where I can hardly be accountable for my own actions.
None of this really makes sense. I'll continue this train of thought when my mind has a clearer conscience.
maggie* said something irrelevant at 01:34 a.m.
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::my breath smells like cereal...:: Thursday, February 20, 2003
...but it's a really nice night, it really is.
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::recap... *puts cap on*:: Saturday, February 15, 2003
This week has been insanely crazy... I've felt such strong emotions at one point or another, but I suppose that right now, I'm feeling a bit more mellow and calm, which is good, since I have not remembered what relaxation felt like...
I guess it started Thursday where I spent the whole day feeling anal as fuck because I just virtually messed up everything I had to do that day. I was late to every appointment, irresponsible, and worst of all, had to pretend to be someone I'm not - overly eager and optimistic, when I could honestly give a fuck about making people think such "positive thoughts." Maybe I am only a peer mediator for the self-improvement, and figure that I could become a better person or something. Ehh.... well, I don't think it's working.
Yesterday was a bit better, more or less, just a good feeling of appreciation all around. Valentine's Day is always debatable, but yesterday, I'll admit, was pretty fun. Everyone's getting well acquainted with people they want to get acquainted with, and although I won't say that love is in the air, I will mention that good karma flows all around... anyway, happy Saturday to the rest of you in Internet land. Off to enjoy some quality cable...
maggie* said something irrelevant at 10:26 a.m.
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::holy shit yes!:: Sunday, February 9, 2003
This year's Vans Warped Tour bands:
Rancid, AFI, The Used, The Distillers, Face to Face, Glassjaw, Less Than Jake, Poison the Well, Western Waste, the Ataris, Taking Back Sunday, Pennywise (July 4-15, July 30 - Aug 10), Dropkick Murphys, Mest, Suicide Machines, Andrew W.K., Atmosphere, the Unseen, S.T.U.N., From Autumn to Ashes, Tsunami Bomb, Thrice, The Starting Line, Simple Plan, 7th Standard, One Man Army, Brand New, Vaux, Pepper...
Also, on select dates:
Authority Zero, Vendetta Red, Count the Stars, Finch, Places to Park, Avenged Sevenfold, Plain White T's, Coheed and Cambria, Arkham, theLINE, New Transit Direction, Avoid One Thing, Ill Kid, Me First and the Gimme Gimmes, Story of the Year, Yellow Card, Mad Caddies, Rufio, Slick Shoes, All American Rejects...
Crap, I am so stoked... this isn't even going to happen until July, but I am so ready... this makes me a bit happier, since I just found out I could go to Snocore, but also just found out that the Saturday show was sold out.... grrrr... well, if anyone wants to come with me Sunday, then hit me up... heh.
And what is up with this? Ape Dos Mil on the radio? That's crazy.... it's a Glassjaw-filled day for sure... =D
maggie* said something irrelevant at 08:34 p.m.
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::drinks, desserts, and... just us!:: Saturday, February 8, 2003
I drink too much. Fuckin' iced caramel macchiato, strawberry milkshake, and hot chocolate all in one day.... mmmm.... how my body is warm and full from drinking fluids all day... anyway, back to more important matters other than the beverages I cherish.
Today was a pretty enthusing day... actually, a pretty enthusing weekend, to say the least. Friday I went to a friend's soccer game (lost =( ), and saw the school play, A Midsummer's Night Dream, which was actually very good and highly entertaining. Then out for some rousing chocolate cake and a night drive around town..... good times leaving signs in people's front yards... Today I did something worthwile, and kicked it at a facilitator's conference for school for a good couple of hours this morning. Visited some friends trying to conquer the world, and later saw Ozma, who were pretty delightful and enjoyable all the same. The venue they were at was packed; I was so surprised to see so many people crammed into such a tiny space. It was beautiful though, except I got tired, and now I am not, due to the hot hot chocolate that woke me up.
Well, so far, I've had a good weekend. May your Sunday be just as wonderful as well.
maggie* said something irrelevant at 11:58 p.m.
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::pause and reflect:: Tuesday, February 4, 2003
Today was a completely easy day, seeing as I had no chores or homework to do, so I didn't feel guilty at all about slacking off so much, being the bum I am. I guess I did do my sister (sister #3) a favor though, by accompanying her to watch Sweet Home Alabama, which I don't think I would typically watch on my lonesome. She's been really sick lately, and although I do not know exactly what is wrong with her, I know it has to be something bad, since she has gone to the emergency room twice and skipped work and school for the past two days. She spends like, half the day trapped in bed, too weak to move. It's really very freaky because I cannot ever recall a time where she seemed so fragile. It's all quite creepy, but I hope she feels okay soon.
I'm pretty frustrated with the stupid big careers project I have to do... the writing isn't too bad, since I've got most of that out of the way, but it's the product I'm supposed to create that's bothering me. My topic is film production, so there are a number of things I could do: direct a film, create storyboards, write a short screenplay, etc., but oddly enough, my inspiration is lacking - I have no central plot, theme, or idea I would want to focus on. I want to make a movie, but what to make a movie on? I suppose at this rate, I could do something silly like adapt a scene from a book, but then it gets harder because I would have to choose a book I really like that has not gotten made into a movie already (which every book has.) All this talk about careers and future planning is starting to psych me out... I feel like the stupid counselors are breathing down my neck, and that at any moment, I am going to make the wrong move, and my whole life is going to collapse. Okay, maybe a little overdramatic, but hey, that's what the typical high school life is like anyway, right?
I am solving someone else's problem tomorrow. Wish me luck.
maggie* said something irrelevant at 10:47 p.m.
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::who ever heard of humor at school?:: Monday, February 3, 2003
While perusing the school bulletin, I found a rather amusing announcement that reads as follows:
Dress Code: Students not complying with the Branham Dress Code are subject to disciplinary action by the deans. If you are wondering if a particular outfit is appropriate for school, it probably isn't.
For once, our administrators are being clever. Quite shocking, it really is.
maggie* said something irrelevant at 03:24 p.m.
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::maybe this counts as an accomplishment:: Sunday, February 2, 2003
Hooray, hurrah... I don't exactly know how useful or productive this was, but I spent most of my day reading 400+ pages from Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire...and I finished! I am on a roll.... quick! I need more reading matter to engulf! And silly magazines won't satisfy... I suppose i should continue where I left off on page 27 of Huck Finn, but ahh yes.... how wonderful it does feel to be absorbed in text. Seriously, I really did nothing today but read like a maniac.... I know I'm a nerd, but really, it was quite nice. =)
maggie* said something irrelevant at 09:19 p.m.
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::the day after chinese new year's:: Sunday, February 2, 2003
Yet again, it is quite customary of me to say "I wish you a broken heart and a happy new year"... although, this time, I don't think I quite mean it as much, since I've been in a pretty good mood lately. Normally, I am pretty bitter, so that phrase usually applies more... but nah... I wish the best for everyone in their endeavors, and hope that everyone is feeling lovely with themselves... the sky is blue, the sun is bright, and I am about to go see some lovely people I thankfully only see like, thrice a year... going to fill my empty little pockets with more red envelopes containing society's favorite scam, the dollar bill.
By the time I get back, I am going to be a rich-ass muthafucka.... whee....
maggie* said something irrelevant at 10:33 a.m.
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::a little bit about me::
People know me as Maggie, the little Asian girl. I am now 16 years of age, and sadly, still a junior in high school.
I live in California, and even though it's not quite that sunny, I wouldn't trade it for the world.
I have high ambitions and hopes, but for now, I'll just stick with the identity of the nerd I am.
::pastimes and preoccupations::
As of late, my main fascination has been the art of film and cinema.
Of course, music still also plays a huge role in my life, and I have a really bad addiction of buying
new music or going to rad shows. Writing is also a major influence. It keeps me sane.
I don't like to be bored, so if I am not online wasting time, then I am usually oot and aboot.
Sushi is my best friend.
::current intrigues:: ::watch:: the life of david gale - alan parker ::listen:: "track 6" - sigur ros, "the red bedroom" - no knife ::read:: the awakening - kate chopin, the sound and the fury - william faulkner
