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name must you really know? dob 1/5/82 age look above and calculate... nickname fulawar...not telling the rest...took me long enough to have people stop calling me them...don't wanna start it now... sex someplace private...unless I'm feeling kinky... location a tiny speck on the map...if it's even that big... personality vicious..don't come too close..I bite... hobbies drawing, singing, writing, finding new ways to waste time, and adding guys to my slave list which consist of... JaeDuc, Fany, HyeSung, JaeWon, JinHwan, SuWon ...i'd add junjin but...*looks over at chibi*...six will do...(Now collection has now decreased to five. I have decided to return SuWon to his original owner. Pokey...enjoy. Don't torture him too much.) quote "smile, it's the second best thing you can do with your lips." (but from what I hear...it's the third...) contact fulawar@hotmail.com aim fulawar |
For around an hour, I have been trying to blog. I write something only to end up erasing it. I just don't know what to write. I feel people have this image of me, and I feel so scare sometimes to ruin it. I don't mind sometimes being hidden behind a mask. As long as people can only see that, I can't be hurt. But then why do I feel like crying?
Here's something you haven't heard before, I'm bored. hehe...j/k Well I decided to entertain myself by taking more of those test things. I took the sex test right now. *drops head* Yeah...remember I said bored. They said I'll have sex with 2 people (told you, I'm a hermit.) and be in love with 1 of em. But the thing that really got to me was that part about losing it at a hotel room at age 19. *drops head* Sorry...but that just cracks me up. Oh wait...even funnier...I have a 71% chance of dying during sex.
Well then...time for me to take the death test. It says I'll live till the age of 85 (I guess if I did have sex at this age that thing about dying during it makes sense). And on the list of what I;d die from, sex wasn't on their. Caner is 32%, homicide is 11%, heart attack is 10%, alien abduction is 6%, horrible accident is 6%, and last confusion is 6%(only?).
Well now that I have tramatized you people, let me show you guys some pics. They very cute pics of shinhwa...hehe...
DongWan
MinWoo (his hand...*clears throat*)
Andy
Eric
JunJin
HyeSung
Eusha Eusha
T.O.P.
Hey! Come On
Before I go now...last pic. I know I'm being mean...but...their hair looks so funny.
Jini Fashion Show
RicJin Fasion Show (not a couple pic)
Well then...bye bye...for now...
No. I'm not getting married. Like that would ever happen. But...my friend is. I just got the invitation today. Shockingly, the letter wasn't open, guess I got to be before my parents for once. Well she's getting married in like a month. She's only 19, I guess she must really love the guy. I don't know...I just don't think I would be able to get married and tied down so young. I haven't tried out enough men yet(I just made them sound like ice cream flavors). My dad looked at the picture of the two, and was like, who's the old guy. I'm like that's who she's gonna marry. He's all like, she's gonna married that old person? I'm all, he's only 19. He's like, then why is he going bald. hehe...his family loses their hair fast. So like I heard by 20, he'll be bald. I feel bad. Cause like, your so young, yet you'll look so old. I don't know...I'm not losing my hair(knock on wood), I guess so I don't know.
I was bored today...again. Big shocker right? I need to get my ass to a bigger town. Well anyways. I was bored, so I watched music bank video again. I was getting all hyper cause shinhwa's on it. Well, I was watching them start Hey! Come On. MinWoo was doing his thing, and the backdancers where dancing. Then shinhwa comes up, and I was watching it and noticed hyesung seemed to be getting up. I didn't notice it before, cause he was on the far corner of the screen. It was weird, cause they were suppose to be standing up and dancing. So I rewinded it, and watched it again and noticed something. I saw hyesung fall on his butt and I cracked up so bad. I know I'm mean, but damn it was funny. He all falls, and gets up with that, hope nobody saw expression. I bet he was embarrassed, but still...I love him.
I really need to get over this bug problem. I had my leg proped up on the desk, and I looked down to see this red flying thing crawing on my dress(I actually wore a dress today. told you I was bored). I jumped, which thankfully got the stupid bugger off me. Then it was crawing on my shoe. *shivers* So I got my newfound weapon, a fly swatter, and smashed the living hell out of it. I don't think my dad appricated it when I stupid the dead thing that was stuck on the swatter in my dad's face. Oh well...When I was trying to get back on the chair, I tried to jump up, and almost fell off. That would of been a sight, yeah with my dress flying up and everything.
I found my cds. I'm so happy. Turns out my brother did give my mom the cds. I was thinking like her. I thought, if I was my mom, where would I put the cds. So I went in her room, and opened up the suppose to be empty cd cases. And there they are. So I went out to the livingroom, cdes in hand. I asked my mom again, you sure he didn't give you the cds? She goes no, he probably sold it. Still trying to figure why the hell he would sell them? They not even new. And then I brought the cds out, they were behind my back, and showed them to her. She's all like...oh so there they are. --;;; Old age sure does a number on the brain doesn't it. Well...still happy I got em back though. But stupid bastard of a brother scratched em up. UN cd keeps skipping.
Oh I forgot. I saw shinhwa's comback performace on music bank. They looked so cute. I loved the wild eye performace. They looked good dancing with the stool (what it looked like). I think I liked the wildeye dance more then hey come on. They had on see through black shirts on the wild eyes, and their hey come on outfit for well of course hey come on. I don't know how to discribe their outfit for that. How's this...somewhat ugly. Cause not all is ugly...just some. And I think the cordinator is like on the seethrough fetish or something. They need to get over it quick. Hoonie was on it too. He sang live, he sounded way nice. I think he improved so much from jekki days. I so proud of his success. I hope he gets to the number 1 spot soon. hehe...well then...I'll stop my babble. bye for now then.
I feel like a goody goody now. I took a bitch test I got from pokey's blog. I'm 7% bitch. 7%! Hell the average is like 38%, and I got 7%. Out of all the people who took the test, only 2% is less bitchy then me. I don't consider myself that nice. Everyone can be a bitch, and so can I, I guess I'm just not good at this bitch thing like the rest of the world.
I also took the slut test. I got higher on this. I don't know if I should be proud of that. Well...I only got 11% out of average of 46%(lots of sluts in this world). Sad...feel like some hermit. I think I need to go out and get me some or something.
Took another test...so I'm reall bored. Sue me... This time I took the gay test. *drops head* I was bored I told you. I got the highest on this. Should I be scared? They say I'm 22%. I don't know what the average is, cause the stupid site is messed up and won't tell. Well I just thought that was interesting. I'm easily amused. You should know that by now.
Well...still bored. I guess I'll just find something to else to amuse myself now...
I finally got to see the Hey! Come On mv. They looked so cute. I liked the mv. It was the usual sing and dance kind of mv, but...I liked it. It had a science fiction type of thing. With the outer space image. I liked the tunnel they are in now and then. They seem to of used a lot of computer graphics stuff too. Minwoo did a lot of flips, along with junjin. I think they focus a lot of minwoo...or it just felt that way. They were dancing on what it looked like water, like in top. Maybe I saw it wrong...but it seemed like they were trying to make it seem like that. The dance to the song was pretty good...I really wanted to see it. hehe...but I have a little problem with one of the dance moves. The one they do while singing the chorus line. They look like they trying to impersonate a duck. Sorry...but it does.
Well...I just wanted to share that...well then...I'll be going...
I read the funniest thing. They were talking about how shinhwa was on this gay site. I think jekki's on it too. maybe I'm wrong. I didn't go there so I don't know. But from what I read, shinhwa and jekki fans seem to be writing the boy lots of complain letters and stuff. He's a 22 year old who lives in sidney. They say people even sent him virus and tried to hack into his site. This is come funny shit, well I think it is. I don't get it though. Korean girls make all those posters of them all huggy, and looking like they are dating eachother, besides the fact that they write fics like that, why are they so defensive about them being in a gay site? I guess it's the korean culture thing? They are okay with the fiction stuff, but once it becomes somewhat real, they all run away. Well the guy who owned the web site didn't even know who they were. He just surfed the site one day and found there pics. And thought they were cute. I hear he wrote that they are not gay on the page too. All that it says it asian hot boys(or something like that). Well I think that's something interesting. Wonder what site this is? Acutally wanna read the mails the shinhwa and jekki fans sent to him more then the site. I bet it was hilarious.
This one guy came to stay here yesterday. He was like this mountain bike rider? I have no idea what they are. Well anyways...he and his teammate I'm guess gotten a room. I was listening to some music, so I guess that's how he figured I was korean. He smiled a bit, asking if I was. Of course I said. yes. A bit later, he comes in, with three cans in his hand. Found out they were canada beer? He said when they went to canada they gave them some. And the guy offered me one. My question is, do I look that old? I'm confused. My mom tells me I look too young. And the guy thinks I'm old? No one really ever thought I was older then my age. Wait..there was this one byuntae. *shivers* The guy was surprised when I said I wasn't of age to drink. I don't want people to think I'm old and have icky old men hit on me (sadly it happened before). I don't want them to think I'm too young either and have this 15 year old boy giving me the eye. I guess I just have bad luck with guys. Well the guy I met yesterday wasn't bad though. A little on the short side...but what can you do?
Well then...I best be going before my parents get pissed at me...bye bye...
I've been slacking off again, haven't I? Sorry bout that. I guess no matter how I try, can't get the that darn lazy bug out of me. hehe...well...lets see. Anything fun happen to me? Nope... Well then...
Oh that reminds me. I'm so pissed at my brother. The shit better never ask to borrow my cds again. But I'm probably stupid enough to lend it to him. He lost like three of my cds. That SOB...damn it. I want my cds damn it. *pouts*
I don't know why, but I feel icky...I don't know. I don't wanna do anything. Just stay still, have no one bother me. *sigh* Maybe I'm really losing it or something? I guess I just need some change in my life or something. Oh well...everything will be okay. It always becomes okay.
Well...till my sanity returns to me...look at this cute pic of minwoo and dongwan...WooDong...and this is why they are my fave shinhwa couple...hehe...well then...bye for now....
I think I'm pyscho or something. This morning, okay...earlier then that, at about 3, I went to sleep. At around 7 in the morning I woke up. Okay...that's 4 hours of sleep. Yes I did walk around like a walking zombie. Well, I wanted to listen to dongwan's radio show for a while now, and for the first time, I was actually up to hear it. So I went and listened. But what kind of weird ass topic did they have? I think that today there topic was about guys wanting to become girls. O_o Well...anyways. At the ending of the show, they played like three american songs. I can't remember the title, but that song by jennifer lopez, Play? Well anyways...that's one of the songs they played. And I was listening, and you know how there's this one part she cusses in? Well you know how here they all blank that out, (like no one will know) well, I was expecting that. And I was listen and the part comes up and well there it was. No beep, or blanked out or anything. I had my eyes about to pop out of my socket. I thought korean people were so conservitive, but they let you have the f word on the radio? My question then is, if they allow jennifer lopez to say fuck on the radio, why won't they let minwoo say the word orgasm on television?
Well anyways, I just dled un's new ablum. I can't believe they already came out with a new ablum. I guess when then said they'll come back soon, they weren't kidding. The ablum is okay I think. But personally, they songs all seems similar. I wonder if the same person wrote all the songs?
One more thing, I didn't know ses came out with a 4.5 ablum. Maybe I'm just slow? kkumerl moahsuh isn't that bad. It's the only song I listened off the ablum so far...so I don't know about the rest of the songs.
Well then...I best let you all go...see ya...
Look at my new blog...isn't it pretty. hehe...thanks chibi...
Well I went to esca's blog and I saw this personality disorder test thingie...so decided to take it. here's my results.
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low
I'm high on histronic [People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. They also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.]. O_o if this is true...man...I must be one major bitch. I wonder how people even like me. Maybe they don't...and they lie... *shrugs* As long as I don't know...I guess I'm fine with that...hehe...
Well I best go now...I think I "seeked attention" here long enough...well then...till next time...
hey unni, it's chibi... umz yah.. you can delete this post the next time u blog... if i didn't put something here, the whole table kept messnig up... >_<; sorry for putting this on yur blog! anyway.. hi everyone.. i love jin..
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