Yeah my mommy bought me a ring. It's a pretty with a purple gem in the middle...I like it. *gives big stupid grin* So...I'm easily amused. Nothing wrong with that...right? Only problem with being easily amused is that you lose interest just as fast. Maybe that's just me...

And that would be the end of my pointless babble. Hey, at least I'm blogging. My one paragraph of stupid nonesense is better then nothing at all...isn't it?



Wednesday, May 8, 2002

Last night when I should of been sleeping, I just suddenly decided to listen to some music. And there I was at 2 am singing along to old jekki songs and my mind wondered back to the good old days. The days that seem so long ago now. And I was reminded once again why I had liked jekki so much and it made me sad to realize that they are actually gone. *sigh*



Monday, May 6, 2002

It seems the more time passes, the less I write in here. I honestly don't think I have that much to write. I'll admit it, I have a very dull uneventful life. And in a way, I don't mind it at all. I don't think I would be able to take it if I had the stress pile up on me. I just don't feel ready to tackle anything. I liked it when I had no problems. When the biggest thing I had to figure out was trying to figure out which shoe went on which feet. It just made me realize how good I have it sometimes when I talk to my friends. I just feel so young and little, living under my parents wings, doing as they say living as they want and being to scare to break away from it. I'm not prepared for the "real world". I'm afriad, I'll get lost and drown on my way there.

Well anyways, school's over. Wow...yeah...*throws up confetti with emotionless expression*. I've been home for two days and all I can think about is maybe I should go to summer school. Maybe I should. Why not. Right? Only going to school for two more months. Nothing wrong with that. Besides, what am I going to be doing at home for all that time? Sleep, and get yelled at for sleeping in so late? Why oh why did school have to end...



Monday, April 22, 2002

Look...I'm alive. Who would of thought, right? Well I shouldn't be blogging right now...but oh well. See the thing is I have a test tomorrow. Two in fact, and here I am blogging. Something I apparently rarely do. And when I should be studying. So like me isn't it? And then I'll probably stay up all night and complain about having to stay up and study when I could of done it now and be able to sleep too. I'm so ashamed of myself. *tsk tsk* What a student I am. This week is so hectic. Finials next week. Let me just start by saying...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

It feels weird, like I slept through everything. I can't believe it;'s the forth week of the month already. Did I miss something, like the other three weeks. Where did they go? It's so weird to realize how fast time flys, espacially when I complain of being bored all the time.

Well anyways, hoonie came out with a new ablum. hehe...isn't it wonderful. I love his title song, it's so way cute. A song definately for him. Makes you wanna all sing out loud while jumping all around dancing to it. Oh wait...I did do that. *hides face* hehe...

I best go back to work I guess. I was only taking a small break from homework and somehow that small break turned into 30 minutes. If I delay it anylonger, it'll be 3 hours like I did last time. And yes, I did stay up all night that night studying. So as not to make the same mistake twice, which I probably will, bye for now. I'll write again...next month. soon enough...right?



Wednesday, March 27, 2002

I hate spring. ARG!! I was outside, and this bug landed on my shirt. eww...you know about me and my bug problem. Well anyways, I was trying to swat it away, but I used the wrong had, okay I'm stupid, I was trying to raise my right hand but lifted my left hand instead, and it went up and my nail scratched against my upper lip. Now there is this red sratch mark there. It hurts. *pouts* Ouch...that hurts too. Stupid bug. Stupid spring. Stupid fulawar...*looks away ashamed*

I finally got that icky looking bug that was up in the lights. That was so disgusting to look at for 3 months. But I finally got that glass thing off. Let me just say it looks even worse up close with it's legs all sticking up. *shivers* What's with me and bugs today. Damn those little critters.



Wednesday, March 27, 2002

All day I have been listening to Utada Hikaru's First Love. And it's so weird, cause I don't know what the hell she's saying except for the english lyrics, but I still really like this song. It's so nice. She has a really nice voice. I have like the first verse memorized. Now if only I could figure out what the hell I sang, it would be so nice.

I saw this really cute top at this one store (can't spell name of store so it's gonna be called this one store). Was this yellow tommy top. In all honesty it didn't look all that cute on the rack, but I just wanna to buy a spring shirt to wear, but it looked way cute when you wear it. But I think it's a little to much, considering the fact that it doesn't take THAT much fabric to make it. Greedy money grubbing people...shish. So I didn't buy it, and now I really want to buy it. Why is it that I want it after I decided not to? It's just so weird. But first I need to buy me a bra to wear with it...okay too much info for you guys. Anyways...I wanna get a pair of used pants and rip it all up. ...and this is the kind of nonsense that comes out when you have nothing to write about. *drops head*



Sunday, March 24, 2002

*pops head inside* Doesn't it seem like I just came back from the dead? How long has it been since I blogged? Long enough...right? I guess to say it simply, I forgot about my blog. Nice...no? Well...I haven;t been up to much. Have nothing interesting to say. Lets see...I can sum up what I did with this, I slept I ate and I went to school. All done. That should hold you guys for a month. hehe...

J-Walk. *screams* I'm still hyper about that. I still can't believe those two came back. SuWon and my Dukkie together. *sigh* They make a very nice duo. Even though it would be so nice if it had all six members. But, I can't kidnap them and make them stay as six...or can I? *gets evil glem in eyes* Anyone wanna help me? *plays with rope* Now if one of the jekki members ever read this, I wonder how scared they'd be to know they have such a psycho fan.

One more week then I can go home. In all honesty, I think I'm more excited about the fact that I get to leave school then I am then of going home. It's just...I don't know. I'm sick of school, but I could live with not going home. Now I sound like an awful daughter who doesn't even miss her parents. *drops head* How proud they'd be of me. --;;;



Friday, March 8, 2002

Today, I got my test back, that I took wednesday. When I first saw it I thought I did awful. It looked like a c and I was pissed at myself for goofing off the night before doing everything but what I should of done. And then I found out that I didn't get a c but I actually had gotten a b. Which only made me more anger to know if I just studied more I could of done better. Greedy little sucker aren't I?

Well my mom was curious on how I did on my test and I told her I had gotten a b. And it mde her happy to know I had done okay on it. And that little prasie made me feel good. Sometimes I feel that I'm not really doing all this for myself but for my parents. For the praise, to know that they are proud of me. I never feel as if they feel remotely proud of what i do. Yet they seem to pile on this weight of how good I should be doing. How I have to succeed and make something of myself, when they don't acknowledge it when I try. Only when I fail are they there to point there finger at me and tell me how disappointed they are of me. How they expected so much out of me, and now they have to lower that expectation. And this only makes me feel lower then scum as all I wanna do is give up all together. Why are they relying on me in the first place? Im not the only child. Can't they point there finger at my brother, can't they expect more out of him? They always give him all the praise and point the finger at me. It's just not fair. I'm just tired of all this. Of having the weight of my parents eyes on me, at everything I do. But for those times, for those moment I actually hear that I made them proud is what keeps me going as there hand puppet and I'll probably continue till I fall apart.



Thursday, March 7, 2002

This is what you do when your bored. Run around naked and scream bloody murder. Okay okay so that's not exactly it. But it would sure be a thing to watch. hehe...okay so I'm losing it. Hey I jsut had another test today, cut me some slack.

I'm hungry so I'm having me some ramen at 10 at night. *drops head* and I wonder why I'm getting all FAT!! Look at this. *grabs a hold of mid section* ewww...I'm fat. Need to go on diet...but I won't since I know I'll only end up quiting after a couple days. Oh well...

You are Duo Maxwell. You strive on kicking serious ass, anytime, anywhere. However, you aren't always out to kill, even though you consider yourself "God of Death (Shinigami)". You have a kind, warm heart and an open personality, you are always willing to lend a hand to a friend in need and try something new.

I am so beat. I think I could drop dead now. Hate mid terms. I hate em I hate em I hate em. Barely got any sleep yesterday , but that's mostly my falut for goofing off so much. I hope I did okay on the test today. I tried to study really I did...it just didn't work out that way. Got another test tomorrow. Damn. And it's a math test too. Dammit. *hits head against wall* Damn...that didn't hlep with my headache. *sigh*



Saturday, March 2, 2002

Ahh...I hope you happy now. Pokey you better send me your pic now...if you don't...I will hunt you down. *shows I mean business face* I just want you to know that you are probably the second...I think...person I showed my pic to. Oh and your the first person I showed my wall to. hehe...hey it's late and I'm in need of sleep. And you should know how psycho I get sometimes. Even more then usual I mean.

I don't even know why the hell I'm blogging. What am I gonna write. Well today after getting 5 hours of sleep I got up and went to class. The class talked about eating disorder and then the class went into there usual discussion, trying to prove that there theory is more right then other's. See that is no fun. Would you really want me to write something like that? Just so you can read a blog? I didn't think so. I truely don't have things to blog about, which is in most case the reason I don't usually blog. Unless you don't mind me making stuff up and turning this blog into a little fairy tale made up by my own sick twisted mind. A place where I RULE THE WORLD!!! MUHAHAHAHA...*cough cough*...*looks innocently at the people and smiles* um...nite?



Saturday, February 23, 2002

Haven't blog in a while. Just wanted to say I'm still alive and breathing. I realized how much I've been straying from the whole...I don't know...the internet scene? It seems like I haven't talked to people in ages. I miss the old days. When I'd be up talking till 3 am. Complaining about me sleeping late. Now it just seems like everything else has been over lapping. I guess it's not a bad thing to put school up before goofing off. Right? But still... I wonder, one day when I do disappear...if anyone will notice. Or would anyone care. It's only one person gone from the millions and billions of other people around. right? What should one person being gone matter to anyone. Now I sound depressing. *dropshead*

I was bored, so I cut some bangs on me. Weird thing to do when bored...no? Anyways...I keep looking in the mirror and I feel like a 15 year old is staring back at me. I already knew I didn't look that old in the first place cause I have those chubby faces...but this...arg. Mom said I look 12. --;;; *sigh* Oh well...hair always grows back. Unless I'm going bald.

For two days I had been listening to this one song. It's on repeat right now. I feel like a old lady now. It's kissing a fool and it's such a nice song. I know it's an oldie and all but hey...they had some really good songs back then. And you can actually understand what they're saying. Can't really say that to all the songs they have now...can we? Well I have been listening to some other songs. Yup...so I don't feel old all the time.

I saw this mv that someone made for irrisistable by jessica simpson(my bad if I got it wrong) using the anime gravitation. It was the cutest thing. I love the guys on it. They so cute. Now if only I could remember their names. Well..one has pink hair and the other has yellow hair. That works right? I really want to watch that anime. I think it'd be really cute. besides the pink haired one is kawaii. hehe

Well...time for me to go back into hybernation mode. Disappear for a while and come back all of a sudden. Till then...



Tuesday, February 12, 2002

So tried. I wanna go to bed, but I can;'t cause I have a test tomorrow to study for. *drops head*. Had one today too. I didn't study and I did so awful. So now, I MUST study. I just wish the damn book wasn't so...graphic. Like I wanna see a guy's thing staring me in the face when I turn a page. Damn. I hate this. Someone...please...please help me. Someone be nice and take the test for me. PLEASE???

Oh...have you guys heard of a guy name rich? He's a solo singer, use to be in eagel five. Well anyways...I was watching his mv. All of his mv. Can you believe the guy has 4 different versions for one song? Shish. Well anyways. It kind of has a girl waiting at a train station, and then it cuts to a church, man walking up the ail. The train his coming, and the bride is walking up the ail. Them the train stops and the door opens and it shows the grooms face, and when the train is pulling out, she all of a sudden breaks out in a run. And she's running and runs by some...um...boxer? or somebody and passes him. And he's all like what the...and runs harder trying to pass her and they do this back and forth and the girl looks down at his shoes and it shows the wedding again and the prist is talking. The next scene you see the boxer guy is on the ground and someone is dragging him away and next time you see the girl, she has the guys shoes on. Shows wedding and the guy is indecisive. You see the girl is running and she runs pass one of those outside markets. And like the fish market guy looks at her run by and looks at his watch and then just ignoring the costumer runs off. From here is where they are different. The first one, the girl runs to the church opened the door to find the place empty. The second one, the groom runs out of the church and he meets with the girl at some street. They smile at each other and the girl tried to cross to get to the guy but as she steps on street a car passes by. They both look at each other and kind of go phew. And she tried again and then she gets hit like a rag doll. How grewsome. No? In the third one, the girl leaves instead of the guy when the guy doesn't answer. She's running and the fish guy is running and they both stop at this like circle place. They look at each other and they both smile. He reaches out a hand and they hold hands while the sun is setting in the back. Okay now...the fourth one. I was like...What the...my eyes were popping out on that one. Well...it's just like the second one, where the guy runs out of his wedding. Just the briode doesn't mind. And he runs and the girl is running and the fish guy is running. And the groom stops at around the cicular place but the girl passes him by. And you'd probably be like...what the...but...the fish guy comes by and he stops in front of him. They both glare at each other and walk closer. The fish guy lifts a hand up and places it at the back of the groom's head and all of a sudden they were kissing. My jaw dropped so bad. I was so shocked. Who would of thought that you'd see something like that in a korean mv? right? It was the best. I literally dropped. People outside must of thought I was being attack, or at least going crazy in here. *sigh* what a day. Now I best get back to study. Now that I'm done blabing about nothing.



Friday, February 8, 2002

It's a friday night and here I am. In front of the computer...blogging. *drops head* Now if that isn't the saddest thing I ever heard. Oh well...I don't have a car. So what can I do? right?

Saw the olympic opening on tv today. Was nice. It looked so cold though. But I liked how the fire wsad lit on the bottom, and then it went up onto the top. That was nice. In a way it's strange, as if I still can't believe that the olympic is going on. Well...I know it's not the first and definatly won't be the last one, but to know that it's so close by. That if I driving...three hours away...the olmpic is going on. I could pratically be there. Almost...if I had the money that is. It's just..amazing in a way. I don't know. Maybe I'm so bored, I just find everything amusing. Like the security. How they limit on what you can bring in and everything. I heard they pat down your blanket and scan it and everything. They pat the person down too...scan em...now isn't that everyone's dream. To be felt up by a security guard. *sigh* Now I starting to talk nonsense. I don't even need to blog. I already did today. Wow...two in one day. I'm getting good at this. And by tommorrow...I'll forget about this place all over again...



Friday, February 8, 2002

I don't know about this...hmmm...what do you guys think? Hey...at least I finally changed the layout. How long did I have the last one anyways? It was long...wasn't it? I was debating on which one to do. I had three kpop ones...and 2 anime ones. Why I decided on this is very simple. It was the one I was tinkering with when I decided to change my layout. As simple as that...hehe... It's not too crappy is it? School has been really doing a number on my crativity. So...this is what came out. This is how all of them came out. Just with different pics on them. Sad...no?

Well..I just started looking into anime yesterday. And I found this character. Cute isn't he? And yes...it is a he. Doesn't he look like a girl in drawing on the side? But no...he's a boy. A shinigami...I think. I forgot. My brain can't process things for long. Oh well. I was thinking about doing the other one...but this one was so much easier. Maybe next time. It looked pretty much the same. Actually it is the same. Except for one difference...the character. --;;; Watch out people...from now on, all my layouts will look exactly alike. Why waste the energy in coming up with new ideas anyways. It's probably just one person, bored out of there mind, coming in to read my bullshit anyways.