While We're On the Topic...
List time!
Song(s) to make love to: Crash or Crush-DMB, You Look So Fine-Garbage,
Song(s) to have sex to: Whole Lotta Love-Led Zeppelin
Song(s) to fuck to: Closer-Nine Inch Nails ;)
Song(s) to make love/have sex to on a hot, sweaty summer night: Since I've Been Loving You-Led Zeppelin
Song(s) to play to impress the pants off anybody: Bron-y-Aur Stomp-Led Zeppelin, White Cliffs of Dover-Eric Johnson

Homework is Overrated :)~
Many thanks to Caitlin for this:
Answer the following questions using only song titles from one band:
*ahem*Led Zeppelin
1.)are you male or female? a girl with love in her eyes and flowers in her hair (going to california)
2.)describe yourself: plays guitar, and cries (well, not really :)) and sings (going to california)
3.)how do some other people see you? it makes me wonder (stairway to heaven)
4.)how do you feel about yourself? my spirit is crying for reason (stairway to heaven)
5.)describe your love interest: come on baby just light my fire (boogie with stu)/there's a funny feeling going on (four sticks)
6.)where would you rather be? i'm packing my bags for the misty mountains (misty mountain hop)
7.)what do you wanna be? i really don't know (misty mountain hop)(well, i do, but there's no zep lyric/song about archaeology :)~ )
8.)how do you live? i gotta roll, can't stand still(black dog)
9.)how do you love? got a flaming heart can't get my fill (black dog)
10.)some words of wisom: there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run there's still time to change the road you're on(stairway to heaven)

Arg!!
Thurs. May 8
Damn this Geology paper to hell!!!
Soundtrack: Garbage-Version 2.0

Random Pre-Bed Thoughts
Still Wed.
Is anyone else watching Eco-Challenge? I love that show! But why oh why is David Duchovny narrating it? It's so distracting! Hayden's racing (ha) which is rather amusing. I love watching the Playgirls get hopelessly lost in whichever jungle the race is through :). What I don't like is how this race has many more celebrities and many less actual racers. It's a bit angering, since I remember the good old days when it was all hard-core athletes racing. This race does present a very good message to the public: Don't wander through Figi jungles!! I think around 1/2 of the racers are violently ill with some weird 'jungle virus'. Sucks for them :(. Yeah, I'm done now.

I'm Only Sleeping
Wed. May 7
Well, at least I was until my mom woke me up and told me to set the table. For some reason(possibly due to the massive amounts of stream of consciousness stuff in English) I was absolutely drained so I came home, looked through the mail, and then went to sleep. It was nice, and I'm probably going to resume sleeping sometime very soon. French was evil today, although the test was kinda easy, english was fun and crazy, and art was filled with violent blobs :). The pimp blob really does look like a lost member of the Spanish Inquisition troupe! Also, I've discovered the vast wealth of Buffy merchandise available to EVERYWHERE except for the US. And with that, I'm off to go do...something...
Soundtrack: Sarah McLachlan-Surfacing

She Alone Will Stand Against the Vampires...and Nathan Fillion
Tues. May 6
Oh my god Buffy was so cool!!! First off, it was just cool plot wise. Then, James was right! He said that Buffy and Spike's relationship would be resolved in a very beautiful and painful way. It was so sweet! Why can't I have a Spike in my life? Oh, and then it was also orgy night (5 couples I believe), although poor Andrew didn't get to join in the orgy :(. Poor babe, but Kimi and I can help him out there ;). Spike's hot. But we know that already. And finally, the crowning moment of absolute coolness in Buffy: Buffy finds Fray's weapon!!! Ok, for all you non-dorks out there, in the Fray comic(which is by Joss Whedon and about a slayer in the future) she gets this awesome thing that's a combination of an axe and a pike(but in a cool futuristic way, of course) and proceeds to kick extreme ass with it. It's an actual thing!! I'm not sure I can properly convey the amount of coolness that my evening has just been, but yeah, happiness! Did I mention that Spike is hot? And Andrew is adorable, as usual. School was meh, the gov test was entertaining, IRC is a nice diversion, and art was unproductive as usual :)~. Ok, off to go be a dork and find all my Fray comics :)
Soundtrack: Matrix...until I get the new one. 2 discs of pure Matrix joy!

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Monday with a Vengeance
Mon. May 5(Drinko de Mayo!)
Death and destruction to Mondays! You know it's Monday when:
1. You feel the urge to tear your ovaries out (preferably with a melon-baller) and toss them in the nearest garbage can 5 minutes into 1st period
2. French. Need I say more?
3. Ok, 3rd was actually kinda fun. I played what was possibly the most entertaining game of Uno ever.
4. English was cool with all the idioms, although the words were way too long :)
5. Geology. Ugh. A video on weather/global warming and a sub. Nap time!
6. Art! I finally asked Allen! More on that as it develops...
So yeah. There's my day. I just finished burning a cd with all my Hindi pop on it :) and now I'm going to go enjoy the tapes that the good folks at Comedy Central sent my mom. It's that magical time of year when all the 'For Your Consideration' tapes for all the shows get sent out so people can watch them and Emmys can be awarded accordingly. Today was some specials & tv movies from HBO(yawn) and some quality programming from Comedy Central (Daily Show, Chapelle's Show, and Primetime Glick). I'm off to go bask in the warming glowing warming glow of the magical talking picture box.
Soundtrack: some fairly decent techno on 103.1

:(
No Troika tonight. Much sadnesss. But I suppose it's all ok because I've been feeling really tired all day and I didn't really feel like driving anywhere. So...I communed with my couch and watched a lot of trashy mtv and the home improvement 'reunion'. It wasn't much of a reunion so to speak since they were missing patricia richardson(the mom), all 3 of the boys (hehe...ask me about this later), and the neighbor dude guy. Grr...frustrated single girl mood. I'm not gonna elaborate because it's the same thing as it always is and I'm sure you've all seen it multiple times on multiple blogs so I'll spare you guys the more 'interesting' thoughts of my evening.
Soundtrack: Queen of the Damned soundtrack. Hehe silly vampire music :)~

How Do I Love Thee, Leather Pants?
Sun. May 4
Ok, weekend recap since I was too lazy to update on Friday or Saturday. Friday night I saw X2 with people at Paseo. In the rain. From a purely cinematic point of view, the movie was awesome. I'm not a big X-men fan or anything, but I found the movie to be very cool and fun to watch. The whole opening thing with Nightcrawler was possibly one of the coolest things I've seen in a long while. And then there's Hugh Jackman. *sigh* :). That man is so unbelievable sexy. Whoever was in charge of his wardrobe needs a hug, or an award, or both because he has the best pair of jeans ever worn by a man EVER!. And his leather getup wasn't so bad either ;). And there was the guy, Iceman I think, who's character was named Bobby and he looked like Bobby Flay. So yes, much happiness and merriment at the movies. After that, we migrated to Higleys which was enjoyable as always. It was nice having an evening that left me hyper/horny/happy in general. Which then brings me to Saturday. Um, lets see...I got off work early, which was awesome and then proceeded to hang out with the crew folk next door. They were a bunch of really nice, cool people and I helped with the sorting and organizing of all the crap that the Browns own. They interviewed me for a short bit, so I'm going to be on TV! woo! (I'm gonna be a celebrity! hehe :)~ ) Later that same day, I went to Fuddruckers for Erins birthday dinner. I hate driving in the rain! And I hate Burbank! Evil city. grrr....It took me 10 goddamn minutes to find the freeway and then Shaun and I almost died when my car started to hydroplane on the onramp turn. Everyone went back to Erin's house where we ate food, including too many of the apples with the caramel(pronounced car-mel, thank you) dip, played Jenga, lost the darts to Erin's new nerf gun, and watched Almost Famous. I left a little earlier than planned because I was about to pass out on Erin's couch. And now it's Sunday. Nothing's happened yet, but I'll put up something later that'll include the inticing details of the Troika gathering (note sarcasm) :)~

Live From La Canada!
Thurs. May 1
Holy crap it's May already! And with this being May 1st, it means the beginning of filming next door. The Browns volunteered to have some rooms in their house cleaned up and organized for a new show that's going to be on E! or something later this year. And the best part? I just got offered a job! My mum's friend Raimi is one of the creators/producers and she said I could be a PA and earn some extra cash. How sweet is that? :). School was meh today, and I was ready to leave about 5 minutes after getting there. Got home, read through the new EGM, which was entertaining as always. I love how they called that new Iraq Combat whatever-it-was a homeless man's SOCOM. :)~ I still can't believe they have a new Castlevania out already...it's craziness! I haven't even gotten halfway through the last one! And speaking of Castlevania, those who have looked through the last 2 or 3 EGM's will notice that all the characters in the new Castlevania look like women. I mean, nothing speaks manly adventurer/slayer of evil things like long, flowing white hair, feminine features(including freakishly long eyelashes), a stylish white duster, and BELLBOTTOMS!!! I guess there's a reason anime is on my list of things I don't get. Oh well. My next task is making the ever-difficult decision of what to make for dinner since I'm all by my lonesome tonight. Weee! I have the house all to myself!! Oh, everyone who owns a guitar should go out and get Elixirs. Your guitar will thank you for it :)
Soundtrack: Silverchair-Without You

Have a Magazine...or 60
Wed. April 30
I'm taking a break from sifting and sorting through the piles of magazines in my room. Anybody want some? Today was interesting I suppose. I ditched 2nd with Jenny and Sarah and we went to In-n-Out (2nd period is overrated). It was so bizarre having 5th period first thing in the late morning. Mr. Traeger was shocked to see the entire class *gasp!* working! I think it was because we were all too tired or braindead to really care about much :). And as for a final word on the matter of prom, I think there's hope. I'm going to be hearing back from Dan withing the next 2 days and if he ends up doing something else prom-wise or heading off to Palm Springs, I'll ask Allen on Saturday. Hmm...random thought of the day: I just picked up my Mythology book that's been buried under a pile of magazines and noticed that Icarus looks frighteningly feminine. Come to think of it, many of those classically painted Greek/Roman dudes look a little too soft around the edges. It's like the painter took a woman's body and stuck a penis on it or something. Yeesh. And with that, I'm off to sort through more magazines.
Soundtrack: my Son of Random Music mix

*Ahem*
They're making a new Buffy game!!! And it'll be for Gamecube too!!! *happy dance* Oh, and did I mention I bought a Led Zeppelin shirt? :) Ok, I'm done now.

While I'm Waiting...
Tues. still
Another day of sleeping in! I went to breakfast this morning with (in order around the table) Russell, Kimi, Erin, Emma, Felicia, Nicole and Saurabh. Food was eaten, and the waitress hated us :)~. I have no idea how the AMT test went, since I practically ran to class (as was still late) and went on autopilot after that. The day was uneventful otherwise, and later I'm joining Kimi and Shaun for pizza and watchings of Buffy and more X-Files episodes. Ah, sweet escape!
Soundtrack: The Cure-Greatest Hits

The Hardest Part is Waiting
Tues. April 29
Well, I made the call. Now all I can do is wait and hope that things sway in my favor. For the love of god, all I want is a prom date!

Seven Deadly Sins/Virtues Survey
Seven Deadly Sins
ANGER
1. Who did you last get angry with? laurel angelica. grrrrrr
2. What is your weapon of choice? i'd have to say stake first, but an enchanted elephant gun makes everything happy :)~ (don't get me started on eternal darkness or i'll be jabbering away until the sun comes up!)
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? hehe of course
4. How about of the same sex? i'd have to be extraordinarily angry and unable to control myself
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? probably my parents...but on more of a disappointment level
6. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? i usually get over things pretty quickly
SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? homework :)
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? 1:30ish pm
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: justin, my hot friend in CO
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? i was dead at the time!
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)? lord no
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? ha! well, i was lifting 60 pound sandbags in saturday
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? i actually don't use the snooze button...i'm usually too lazy to even move :)
GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? starbucks (please don't hurt me!)
2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat? either works
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? hmmm....however much is in a mojito methinks. although i can't really compete with dan's 5 screwdrivers :)~
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? nope.
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? nope...i eat what i want, don't exercise, and sit around playing video games all day
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? again, all are good
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "LUNCH"? um, no
LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? well, if ewan doesn't count, none :(
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? none
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? it happens :)~ usually when the other person is fairly attractive i'll gravitate towards one spot...or several
4. Have you "done it"? sadly, no. one of these days!
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? mouth. definitely mouth...and eyes
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? nope...but i have been besieged by gypsies!
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? nope.
GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own? none
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? hmm...either urban outfitters or sephora
3. If you had million, what would you do with it? buy a guitar and amp, a car, and then save the rest
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? rich...but by default would end up being moderately famous
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? would i end up in an office all day?
6. Have you ever stolen anything? a picture out of an in-flight magazine (yeah, i'm a rebel)
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? a lot
PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? my gold award. booyah!
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? me getting into/going to lmu
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? be loved and be successful
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? depends what it is
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? hehe does smash bros. count? i'm just kidding :). the answer is no
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? gov/econ tests :)~
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? today? i did my homework!
ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? *shrugs*
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? kimi...the room would be truly awesome
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? kiera knightly...she gets to make out with orlando bloom and be in the same vicinity as johnny depp...all in one movie!!
4. Have you ever been cheated on? nope :)
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? you know that third arm i'm always talking about? how bout one of those!
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? maybe the ability to be a bit more outgoing
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? nah...it'd take too much time
8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? gluttony. food is good :)
Seven Heavenly Virtues
FAITH
1. What religion do you follow? me
2. What religion were you raised as? well, i started out presbyterian...but look where that went :)~
3. Do you believe that forgiveness is a religious property, or a human property? human property
4. Do you believe in magic? a bit
5. What was the last promise you broke? i tried to get to the gym...really!
6. Have you ever said the words to a prayer and not meant it? probably...maybe during the days at cfc when they made us recite stuff and i just said it mechanically
7. Do you believe that anyone could be perfect? define perfect (muhuhaha ;) )
HOPE
1. Did you get everything you wanted over the last holiday season? most of it, yeah
2. Regarding your future, what is the best thing you could hope for? happiness, love and a job that i love
3. Do you let yourself get your hopes up for something even if you know that there is a large chance of failure? oh yeah. all the bloody time
4. Do you believe in magic? wait...
5. Have you ever bought a lottery ticket? nope
6. Do you gamble? only for poker chips
7. Have you ever had something called off on account of bad weather, but then gone ahead and done it anyway? um...a soccer game?
CHARITY
1. What causes do you support? ARCE, EEO-SC, AIA, Best Friends Animal Sanctuary, Sierra Club(for my rents), RFI
2. What causes have you given money or time to? see above except for sierra club
3. Have you ever worked in a soup kitchen or done another kind of outreach for the homeless? yup
4. Would you ever consider joining the Peace Corps, Amnesty International, or another travel-inherent worldwide charity group? maybe the peace corps...i've seen some pretty interesting stuff from that
5. Do you give money to the homeless on the street? no
6. Have you ever helped out a friend with basic needs, like rent or food? ya
7. What's the greatest extent you've gone to help a friend in need? recently, chipping in for a certain leather trenchcoat
FORTITUDE
1. What are you most afraid of? dead people, being left behind,
2. What did you do today that was really brave? um...i re-strung my guitar? hey, those strings are all sharp and pokey and shit...it's dangerous!
3. Who is your favorite superhero, and why? buffy!!!!
4. Would you put your life in danger to rescue someone? yeah...probably
5. If you were to face the Wizard, would you want more courage, more brains, or more heart? brains
6. Have you ever gotten stage fright? pre-show jitters, but not stage fright
7. Do you consider yourself to be a leader or a follower? depends on the situation, altho i usually end up leading
JUSTICE
1. Have you ever been summoned for jury duty? not yet (eek!)
2. If they reinstituted the draft (for both genders), would you go, or would find some way out of it? *sigh* probably. i'd feel weird saying i'm a c.o.
3. Do you support capital punishment (the death penalty)? uh...
4. Do you believe that Dubya is rightfully President of the USA? sadly yes. the numbers have spoken
5. What was your favorite media circus trial? ugh. none. they're so bloody annoying
6. Have you ever written a letter to a politician? nope
TEMPERANCE
1. What do you have the hardest time moderating yourself on? procrastination
2. Do you collect anything? yep
3. Are you addicted to anything? video games. gotta have 'em. go crazy without 'em.
4. Have you ever put anything on layaway or used an installment plan? nope
5. What's your preferred method of paying for things? cash. i really dislike using my check card unless its absolutely necessary (i.e. no cash)
6. Tell us one thing you wish you hadn't let yourself do: oh lordy where do i start!
7. Do you feel that you obsess over things? yeah...perfectionism strikes
PRUDENCE
1. Who is the wisest person you know? my magic 8 ball (j/k...my mom by far)
2. Have you ever participated in a vigil? do those christmas eve thingies count?
3. Do you take advice when it's given? it usually goes into the consideration bin
4. What area are you wisest in? ancient mythology. go ahead, try me :)~
5. Do you drive defensively? sometimes
6. Have you ever had unprotected sex outside of marriage? nope
7. What did you learn today? that i'm missing something in my life. i think i know what it is, but i'm not 100% sure
And of course, what is your favorite heavenly virtue? hope i suppose

Restless
Mon. April 28~I'm not sure why I'm feeling so weird right now. I can't seem to get comfortable anywhere. It feels like something is a little off today. I'm not sure what, but I know there's something missing in me. It's just one of those days, you know? I can't quite put a finger on what's wrong, but I do know that something is just a little out of sync. This morning was cool, though. Sleeping in was fantastic, and I even had enough time to get a little Windwaker in before school. I found about the mayhem that happened after I left Kathryn's. Now that is what I classify as madness. :). Yeah, I'm going to go re-string my guitar now.

It's Hot! Get Out!!
Sun. April 27~ Ok, quick summary of yesterday evening: I sprinted down to Imports after Erin told me people where there. I caught Shaun, Kathryn, Caitlyn and Ryan there and we went back to mi casa and ate pizza. I dropped Darin off at the movies and then we all herded over to Kathryn's for the party thingy. We played poker while waiting for people to show, but they never did. Migration to the carnival to see Devore, but they didn't come on till 9 or something, so back to Kathryn's. More poker, and the beginning of The Ring when Darin called and I had to go pick him up. End of evening. Today was cool as well. I got back from work and slept until 11ish and fooled myself into thinking I slept in :)~. I met up with Erin, Kimi, and Nicole around 3 and we proceeded to get our shop on. Nicole found a really pretty dress at Jessica McClintock and we were joined by Shaun who was in need of a tux. Erin and I helped him pick out the tux parts (it's gonna look pretty hot!) and more shopping ensued. There was even a sighting of the strange little man with the rolly backpack/suitcase! Dinner was eaten at home, and then I went over to Kimi's to watch Dan's X-Files dvd's with Shaun and Kimi. We watched the pilot episode, which was really cool. It all makes sense now!! And Billy is explained too!! I can't wait to watch all the others and fill in the gaps of my X-Files knowledge :). Wish me luck tomorrow, because I'm going to do it. Quick prayer to the goddess of high school dances, and here goes nothing!

I Just Gotta Get Out of This Prison Cell
Sat. April 26~ 9:30 on a Saturday night and what am I doing? Sitting in my fucking house!! I'm so tired of being the good, responsible child/daughter/sister. That's why I loved Paris so much! I was on my own, making decisions for myself and not having to worry about parental permission or any of that crap. I was able to go out to bars, get drunk, stay up as long as I wanted, go where I wanted, and hell, had I had the opportunity, I probably would have *gasp* slept over with a BOY! I'm so tired of this. I know I'll be able to do all that in college, but the point is I want to be able to do it now. I have all these opportunities to do stuff but I can't because I have to be the good child and come home at an agreed time, and heaven forbid I even consider drinking or being some place alone with a member of the opposite sex. I know it's part of the whole 'my parents care about me and are looking out for me' bit, but this is getting old. I'm 18, I can pretty much take care of myself, I'm reasonably level-headed when it comes to making decisions, I've been a bloody little angel curfew-wise for the past oh, 5 years! Ok, I'm stopping here before anything happens.

Night Pandas!!
Sat. April 26~Ah, sweet, sweet Saturday! Even more so since I got off work early. (Bless all the people who DIDN'T come to Andersen's today) Yesterday was filled with madness and mayhem. I went shopping after school with Kimi, Sarah, and Shaun, which was really fun. Kimi got a very sexy prom dress, a gift for her dad, and some makeup, I got a necklace to go with my dress, the Bend it Like Beckham soundtrack (Hindi pop!!!), and makeup, Shaun got the Evanescence cd (it really is christian rock ;) ), and Sarah got underwear! Kimi and I got our makeup done and I think we both left the mall feeling a bit sexier ;). Shaun, Sarah and I discovered that it is indeed possible to reach Narnia through the dresses at Jessica McClintock. :)~ We picked up Darin and went to Higley's/Panda/Georgee's and ended up at my casa with John and Ryan. I wanted to get Dan in on the madness, but he was at a movie or something. Anyhoo, we watched Jackass (thanks Sarah!) which is possibly one of the funniest/most disgusting movies I've ever seen. It was so great having everyone cracking up and then screaming and hiding behind people or objects. Good times, good times :). And now I get to re-string my guitar! I decided I owed it to my guitar to get some decent strings so I now own Elixirs. Hopefully there will be some sort of gathering tonight...I need to get out of my house!! And as for the prom madness, it just got a bit more interesting ;). Jenny knows. Actually Sarah knows too.
Soundtrack: HINDI POP!!!! (yeah, yeah, I'm a freak...of nature! :)~)

We Help The Hopeless
Thurs. April 24~I think today was one of those days that seems to drag on for at least 5 eternities. Erin, Sarah and I eagerly awaited the fire drill during 1st(AMT...evil!) only to find it was 45 minutes long. We tried to leave and chat with people, but Mr. Weld was keeping guard hawk-style and wouldn't let anyone leave...even though the cheerleaders in our class mysteriously vanished upon reaching the field. Hmmm...3rd was boring as all hell. I really dislike that movie we watched. 5th was fun, because it started with me inhaling a grilled cheese sandwich in about 5 seconds flat. I hung out with Dan, Craig, and Max in the IRC and was able to finish my assignment thing by the time the crazy lady finished talking. She was supposed to be helping us learn how to take notes because we, as seniors and juniors, have never had to research anything apparently. We even got to practice taking notes! My entertainment for the period came from Emode and watching Dan try to (unsuccessfully) tear a dollar bill in just the right place so that it gets spit out by a machine, but still gives you money/food. That Anarchist's Cookbook is pretty wild! I had to stay after school for Showcase for Rainforest, which turned out to be fun. I spent about an hour or so chatting with Kathryn and Sirina, which was cool. KC dropped by too and was amused by our high school dramas. Our presentation went smoothly, which was a surprise considering I was supposed to MC the thing with Matt Langdyke and I had only been told of Showcase on Monday. Anyhoo, that's all over and done with and as of about 5:25:54pm today, my prom prospects don't seem as bleak as they were earlier. They're still bleak, just not AS bleak and now more of a bleak with a tiny glimmer of hope way, way, way away.(nebali!!...sorry) There may be hope yet! Speaking of prom, Sarah, Kimi and I are going shopping tomorrow...because we can. Who wants to come?
Soundtrack: Tori Amos-From the Choirgirl Hotel(I felt the sudden urge for tori amos...je ne sais porquoi)

Zoo
Wed. April 23~Happy Birthday Erin! I'm happy to say that I contributed a plastic koala to the birthday loot. The koala came from the zoo, which is where I went with the art folks today. I don't think I've ever seen so many pregnant women in one place! It was fun though, even with the hordes upon hordes of tiny children everywhere. I've decided that I identify with the kookabura...because it's cool. It's so round and fluffy! After all that fun, I got to make my monthly journey to the hell hole known as Westwood to visit the doctor. The drive reaffirmed my love for Jamiroquai and Led Zeppelin, as well as my hatred for the Sepulveda pass. It is evil in asphalt form. I went to Morp too, which was, on a scale from meh to fan-fucking-tastic, about an eh. As Brad so artfully put it, "Sophmores are in the house". I hung with Ajay, and proceeded to get down with my bad self to some rather strange music. I guess that's what happens when you listen to cd's most of the time...Oh yeah! Prom theme is 'Music of the Night' (hehe...Phantom of the Opera!), location is the Biltmore, and song is some mid-90's ballad thingy. For some reason I was feeling really sexy today and now I'm getting some dessert from the red hot kitchen. Ah, well, such is life when one is a single female desperately in need of a prom date. :)~. I found out today that Natalie is going to Otis, which is a whole 2 minutes from LMU. She asked if I would want to share an apartment, since Otis doesn't have dorms, but I've already sent in my housing stuff. Maybe next year! As for LMU, the club has expanded. I just hope I have Mark in my building. And with that, I am done for the evening :)

It's Good To Be 18
I seriously think one of the best things I did in Paris was try a Mojito. I highly recommend trying one...or several. Paris is all about dessert ;) *knowing wink to Alan and Dan*

Today's Theme is Archaeology
Tues. April 22~Oh yeah, sitting in my room with all the lights off and basking in the glow of the monitor is quite fun :)~. Something's screwy with the power at my house once again and all the lights flicker, which gets really annoying after about oh, 2 minutes. As for the theme of today, it's true! It started this morning with the article on 'The Passion' in the Times. It had some words from Father William J. Fulco, who's a teacher at LMU...and a really cool guy. It's so weird to think of him being my teacher in a matter of months. He's the guy who taught the cast of the movie Aramaic and Latin, which must have been really interesting seeing as almost no one(except for John's mom apparently) outside the classical academic world speaks Aramaic. I'm actually really curious about the movie itself, simply for the fact that all the dialogue is in Latin and Aramaic without subtitles. The only thing I'm a bit edgy about is the extreme religious nature of it, since most of that stuff goes a bit over my head. Oh well, I'll just have to wait for Into to the Old Testament. The theme continued with my new Archaeology mag (yay!). Yeah, yeah, all of you be quiet :). All was going well in magazine land until I was brutally ambushed by a 3 page thing on the mummies of Palermo. Note to self: NEVER go to Palermo. Ever. See, I'm fine with dead things and all (well, it actually depends how far along it is. Bones are fine. Although mass quantities get a tad creepy.*ahem* Like in the catacombs, for ejemplo. A wee bit on the freaky side. I didn't like having row upon row of skulls watching me as I walked by.)but if the dead thing still has the ability to look back at me, it's just way too freaky. That and when mummies distort over time and do that screaming thing. Ick. Those Italians and their mummies. It's just massive amounts of ew. They have all the mummies of various people (ranging from clergy members to children) all on display on the walls of this one church. All the mummies are still in their clothing and most still have skin in various degrees and some have eyes. They're all just hanging out on the walls(like you do) and they just stay there until their families stop giving money for their upkeep/display. And people pay to see this!! I'll stick to bones, thank you.(All of which are, in fact, similar). Did I mention that I can still do that mummy noise? ha...I wonder if other people can still perform their inane talents. (i.e. Erin's Tasty Wheat monologue :)~ ). Right. I'm still rocking the mushy/liquid diet, which is going to be very interesting at the zoo tomorrow. I'm sure there's something I need to be doing, but I can't remember what. I'm sure I'll remember it sooner or later...
Soundtrack: Jamiroquai-A Funk Odyssey

My World Is Pain
Mon. April 21~I hate braces. I would say that I hate the orthodonist as well, but it's more of a love-hate relationship. I hate going and having braces, but without them, I would look like a freak. Really! I have pictures to prove it but those pictures will never again see the light of day. The advil should be kicking in any time now, and then things should be a bit better. Mondays are evil, chains suck ass, and I still need to replace the broken G string on my guitar. I'll get around to it...eventually :)~. Ooh! One good thing: We have a sub tomorrow in Gov...on a test day!! Let the mayhem begin!
Soundtrack: Rage

Just To Be Clear
Look, I'm sorry if I hurt anyone. I really am. My thoughts were based on initial reactions and since this is something of a journal, I put them into writing. I had no intention of being malicious or cruel. I hope this will act as something and we can just move on.

Spring Fertility Festivals!
Sun. April 20~Well, last night was cool. I went with Kimi, Emma, Ryan, John, Mel, and May to go see Bend It Like Beckham, which was very good. mmmm....John Rhys Myers :). Very attractive when not getting in touch with his inner coke addict. I've decided that I despise Colorado Blvd. It is the flat, asphalt incarnation of Satan. Work was uneventful this morning, except for the fact that now everything is sparkly clean. I was over next door at the Brown's Easter shindig, but now I'm here because its boring. People are either blathering on about nothing in particular or staring mindlessly at the TV. Methinks I'll pop back over for dessert in a bit. Pay no attention to the weirdness in the message box. I don't know who/where it came from and I don't feel like getting all sleuthy and figuring out who did it. meh. I just noticed that most of my room is still very much a tribute to all things Matrix, even though its been how many years? I'm getting all hyped for Reloaded, and it kind of feels like I'm getting in touch with my past self. (Was it 8th grade when The Matrix came out?) Anyhoo, I get to go keep reading. The Awakening just isn't doing it for me. Maybe there's a chapter coming up where what's-her-face has hot, steamy monkey sex with that Robert dude. We can only hope ;)~. And with that I take my leave.
Soundtrack: Queens of the Stone Age-No One Knows

YAY!!
Everyone MUST go see A Mighty Wind!! This means you!

And I'm Spent *tosses camera*
Still Sat.~I think I'm going to add a Paris gallery here VERY soon...so you all can see the merriment and frivolity that was my trip to Paris ;)

The Theme For Today is Small and Furry
Sat. April 19~Ahh...no more work. Well, at least until tomorrow morning. Last night was very amusing. I went with Kimi to Higley's to go see Devore and lo and behold...EVERYONE was there! Along with their respective exes I might add. We even had the entire(well, minus 1) Russell's ex-girlfriend club! Ricky was also there, which was a bit of a shock. I was amazed to see Dan there, as he had his wisdom teeth pulled earlier. I suppose 2 vicodin helped...The music was ok, not exactly my cup of tea, but ok. The best part was the jam at the end. Good quality stuff. After the music ended, a good majority of us went to PCY to go play capture the flag. Dan found the roof, a janitor was spotted, and many, many more people showed up. Shaun and I decided it might be wise to leave before anything happened (*ahem* the po) and so Kimi, Shaun, Dan and I made a stealthy getaway with Brynn and another girl whose name I just forgot (sorry!). We headed to chez Kimi and chilled for a bit. I had to leave at 11...*sigh* I miss Paris. Why do I have to have work on Saturdays? Why are my parents so anal about curfews? *shakes fist at sky* Curse you legal drinking age! hehe :)~. Now I get to go sort through 0 worth of pictures!! I finally got them!! woo! Ahh, memories :) Methinks I'll join my rents in seeing A Mighty Wind in a short bit, and hopefully people will be doing stuff later.
Soundtrack: Halo...from Darin's room

You Can Like The Life You're Living
Fri. April 18~Thank all things holy and great it's Friday! Ok, so I've managed to pretty much recover from the anger/frustration/disappointment of last night. I'd just like to thank Shaun because, probably unbeknownst to him, he made me feel better simply by being entertaining. So yes, thank you! I went to Jim's for lunch with him and Felicia to drown my sorrow and misery in fried food (hehe) and was entertained in art by Shin Ren's video from Paris. It seems she discovered a mirror effect on her tiny camera and there was at least 20 minutes of people doing wacky things with the mirror (i.e. Joe making out with himself). I've declared Monday to be picture sharing day, so people are bringing all their pictures to 6th so we can all ooh and aah and swap pictures. As for tonight, I think I might pop in to Higley's and see the Devores and the people who are going to watch. I really don't have much else to do, so hopefully someone(s) will want to do something.
Soundtrack: Chicago!

*Warning* Bitching To Follow
Thurs.~ Goddammit!!! What's a girl have to do to get noticed?! Ok, the corset worked, but still! Is it the braces? Is it me? Arg!!! How do you let someone know how you feel without being the pushy queen of slut town? Bloody hell. I know I'm not the most outgoing person in the world, but I really think I've sent out enough signals for something to get noticed...or maybe not! Oh well. I guess I'll have to return to being friendly or some shit like that. Sorry I'm being pissy right now...I'm just frustrated and tired and so goddamn sick of being alone. Maybe I was trying too hard...or trying for the wrong thing. I'm running out of time and guys, and I'm starting to get scared. Is there no one at this god-forsaken school who sees me as more than a friend? Sleep is sounding better and better, since I can go disappear into my little fantasy world where things work out and people are happy.

P.S.
Thurs. still~In regards to the prom thing, I have no issues with play. In fact, I'd be more than happy to partake in some ;) Yeah, very much the red hot kitchen right now. Ok, I'm going to stop talking :)

Lavender Tea
Thurs. April 17~My shitloads of homework can wait for a short bit. I'm still feeling a little weird to day...A holdover from Paris methinks. I'm not sure exactly what it is I'm feeling (in addition to cramps as of right now) but I do know that it's not quite normal. Also, the prom madness continues. Nicole, Kimi, and I had a depression-fest during ssr today, reflecting on how all 3 of us are hopelessly single and desperately in want/need of a sweet guy to ask each of us to prom. I have a certain guy in mind who I would like to ask me, but him being a seperate being from myself, doesn't know this yet. I guess now the word's out, so maybe something might happen. Maybe. Hopefully...*sigh*. I guess it's also official that I'm head over heels. Arg! Loss of logical reasoning is bad! I'm supposed to be the logical, clear-headed one of the bunch! Annelise the Logical, remember?! But it feels so good...

Australian Folk Rock Bar Music
Wed. April 16~I'm all for Russell Crowe's band. Really! If you want to go start a bar band, then all the power to you! Hell, I even bought their last CD. It was all in support of my Australian, mind you. It's not the best stuff on the planet, but it's rather amusing :). And then there's this bit of noise that's passing as an MP3 from god knows what. If they're planning on doing more of this for a CD, then perhaps we can begin to think that celebrity-dom is getting to a certain Mr. Crowe.

Hamlet reference of the day
Still Wed.~To spill the beans, or not to spill the beans. That is the question. Whether it's better to tell people and get everything out in the open, or to simply keep it to myself and, by doing so, never know what the other person is thinking about me. But quite honestly, I'm absolutely petrified. I don't know what to do. Maybe tomorrow there'll be a hint of something. But I can only take so many hints before I start asking around to find out the deeper meaning of the hints. God, I'm so confused. Apologies for the vagueness.

There and Back Again
Wed. April 16~Ok, apologies for not updating while I was in Paris. We did find Cyber Cafes, but they were always filled with French dudes playing Warcraft and Counterstrike for HOURS on end. Bastards. That said, I will first say that Paris was not just awesome, but fucking awesome. It was such an incredible experience and right now I'm feeling a little weird being back here at home, returning to what I suppose is 'the norm'. It's all very strange. It's really impossible to say everything that I was feeling while in PAris, but it was touched on a bit today during 6th when I had a great discussion with Jordan and Natalie (the only other Paris people who were in art today). We all agreed that there was something weird and unsaid throughout the trip between everyone and it was just something that was hanging in the back of everyone's minds, but no one said anything about it. The social situation was very interesting because, for me at least, I was completely out of my element. None of my close friends were on the trip, so I bonded with new people. I got to know so many people on this trip and Natalie pointed out that the perception of people she thought she knew has completely changed. Just the way people were acting during the trip was, well, interesting and I wanted to say something about it, but I was afraid to. I didn't know if anyone felt the same way (turns out at least 2 people did) and also I was sharing a room with Melanie and Claire Callister, so deep meaningful conversations were out. As for that (the rooming situation), I can only describe it as a cross between babysitting and camping with Girl Scouts. Ryan pointed out that in one room there was a blonde, a brunette and a redhead, to which I responded with the following: A blonde, a brunette, and a redhead stay in the same hotel room. The blonde says, "Oh my god! This room is too fucking small! We'll never fit all of us and our luggage into a room the size of a fucking closet!" The redhead says, "Oh my god! This room is so small! And there's only one bathroom!" The brunette says, "Unpack your shit, be happy you have a hotel room at all, and shut the hell up and go to sleep." -pretty brilliant, huh? :) Right, back to what I was saying. All in all, the social situation among friends and strangers made the trip very interesting. And then there was the romance. Ooh man. Yeah yeah, Paris is all romantic and shit, but I really got to know people...you know how. Seeing as I spent nearly every waking moment with Dan and Alan, stuff began to spread ever so slowly through the ranks and by the end of the trip...well, all I'll say is, I know what's going on in my head, but I really have no idea what's going on in the other camp. Ok, I have a teensy nearly microscopic inkling...maybe, but that's it. All insight/input is greatly appreciated. Any questions or comments, please feel free to ask me. I'm not sure I want to put it all up here on my blog because I'm afraid of what might happen, good or bad. I just don't want to chance anything right now since it's all iffy. So yeah, life is pretty fantastic right now. I feel very tired, but oddly happy and fulfilled. I had a chat with Mark about LMU and housing, and we've agreed to hang out more should either of us end up with a hot roommate ;). And since I took the liberty of reading other people's blogs to catch up on the goings on of Spring Break, I was reminded of that thing we call prom. I need a date. Really, I'm all dressed up with nowhere to go and no one to go with. Poo. I have someone in mind...but I really can't tell at this moment if anything's going to happen. I just want a guy that I like to ask me in a really cool way and not mind dancing. *sigh* And now I leave to go pick up Darin from track.

Au Revoir!
Fri. April 4~Well, it's finally here. It's finally Spring Break!! It's about bloody time, too. I leave for Paris tomorrow around 1:30(ok, that's just the time we have to be at school) and I am so ready! I hope you all have a fabulous Spring Break and I'll see you all in 11 days! P.S. I'll try to update from Paris, so yeah...*ahem* ok, shameless plug is finished now :)

Oooh man...
Thurs. April 3~Windwaker came yesterday!!! So guess what I've been doing with my every moment when I'm not at school? If you guessed playing Windwaker, you're damn right! :) That game is so cool it's almost too good to be true. The game itself, the graphics, everything!! It even has Disco Stu! Zelda always makes me happy, and so does thinking that I'm leaving on Saturday!! I really like the little things, especially right now, since everyone is going through some really tough times and some rough patches emotionally and socially. In regards to that, I've heard what everyone has to say about various issues, and I've decided that I'm not taking any sides. My reasoning being, I agree with each side but I also disagree on certain points, and since I'm not really in the mood to lose friends right now, I'm content to stay neutral. I'll offer advice where I can, listen to anyone who wants to talk/rant, and try to help figure stuff out, but that's it. Until all this gets sorted out, I will faithfully remain Switzerland. I really hope this gets over and done with quickly because I'm really worried about everyone. A lot of what's going on right now seems to be from miscommunications and misunderstandings, and maybe if we all just sat down and talked it all out in a calm fashion (emphasis on calm here people) things might get sorted out. But I kind of doubt anyone wants to really do that (since ranting and bitching at people is oh so much more fun) and this will probably last a while. *sigh* Have I mentioned how much I dislike soap operas lately? Oh well. Back to Windwaker :)~ P.S. Erin! I understand!! I really do!!

Adventures in Baking
Tues. April 1~I like the months with short names. *ahem* Today was rather uneventful school-wise, but the real fun started when school ended. I played taxi today and took Erin and Ryan home, in addition to Mel. We had a very interesting discussion about religion (I forgot how it got started) and it ended with a very comical look at today's Religion of the Day, Mormonism. After that, I went home and got right to baking a cake for me mum, who's birthday is tomorrow. Hold on to your socks, cause you ain't heard nothin yet ;). Okay, so I got out the cake mix and all the stuff for it (3 eggs, butter, water). I put the mix and the water in the bowl, and when I cracked the first egg, the yolk was stuck to the bottom of the egg by a membrane or something. Tossed that one. Second egg was fine, so I thought I'd just have to grab another one from the fridge. Third egg, I cracked and as I did, I noticed it was a bit more liquid than usual and some spilled into the bowl. As I was pulling the egg away from the bowl, I saw a nice rainbow of gray, green, and yellow and something weird looking inside the egg. And then the smell hit. I swear there was a fucking embryo in that egg!!! So I tossed the eggs and the mix and got the trash outside as fast as I could. I then washed out the bowl (sterilized, I'd say) and drove to Ralph's to get a new box of mix, new eggs (WITHOUT embryos), frosting, and a tube of icing. Got back, mixed all the stuff, but it in the oven, and as I was getting all the decorating stuff out, I discovered that we only had orange and brown icing. So, back to Ralphs. 2 tubes of icing cost me 8 fucking dollars!!! And as if all that wasn't bad enough, one of the cakes (I had them in 2 9 in. pans) decided it wanted to stick to the bottom of the pan and come out in pieces. Happy ending: I fixed it all with frosting and my mom loved it :). Buffy was a repeat! What's up with that?! But Spike was naked, so I was happy. And the epic packing adventure continues...

Je suis Canadienne
Mon. March 31~Woo! We're still going to Paris!! We had the final meeting tonight and, as usual, there was an abundance of stupid parents. I really feel sorry for some of those people! The trip is going to be so unbelievable cool though! Je suis tres excited. This is going to be brief, since I'm really really tired. I feel so helpless with all the drama going on around me. I really don't know what to say to help Nicole or Ryan, or the people who are getting rejected from all of their top choice colleges. I mean, all I can really do is listen and try to sympathize, but I really have no idea what I can do to help and it's the worst feeling. Speaking of the joy that college has brought us all (note sarcasm), I got the Financial Aid stuff from LMU and, quite frankly, I'm screwed. I can't pay for it. I figured it out with my dad that I'm going to have to pay 00 a month for 4 years. I mean, unless I start dealing cocaine with a prostitution job on the side, I am financially fucked. Why can't we all just go back to bartering cows or something? Oh wait. Even then it wouldn't work because we probably wouldn't have enough cows for my dowry. Yeah, agreeing with Kimi on this one: Fuck this, I'm going to bed.

Mmmm...Ewan
If you ever feel the urge to relive the fabulous glittery spectacle that is Velvet Goldmine (or at least Ewan's first performace) you're gonna wanna click here, here, and here. Sorry, I couldn't find any of his penis :( (btw, the last one's my favorite)

James!!
Sun. March 30~Oh, so many things! Ok. First off...I just got back from that little sci-fi convention thingy. My feet are killing me, my head hurts like none other, but James Marsters remembered me!!! Wooo!!! And then there's my new best buddy Manu :). He was one of the 'Celebrity Signers' and so, out of curiosity, I walked in to be greeted with random people, Brian Thompson (aka the judge), and a rather attractive young man sitting next to him, looking rather bored. Well, over the next 2, 2.5 hours I kept walking back in there and chatting with Manu. And he has a strange resemblance to that Clay dude. I didn't get any pictures of him, because 1) you had to pay for them and 2) I felt really weird asking to take a picture of him. But yeah, he was hot. And apparently on the last 2 years of Star Trek Voyager. (yay?). James. My #2 sex god. He has the nicest smile and the softest hands of anyone I've met! And then there's the hottness factor. Speaking of hotness, Ewan McGregor!!! And Christian Bale, and Eddie Izzard...all in the same movie! And the first 2 getting naked!! A lot!! Lord almighty when Ewan was doing his first song...with the water...and the nailpolish...and the leather pants...I, along with many other people present at the time, would have given him the fuck of his life right then :)~. Which brings us to the next point. Our lovely girls' night in at Kimi's house, in honor of Nicole. It was really cool just sitting around and talking, since we really don't do that anymore/at all. Although, I was a little iffy during the 'i hate boys/past relationships/why are boys so dumb?' part since I realized that I really have nothing to contribute. I mean, I am completely over and done with the stupidity that was my relationship with Russell. I've figured out what was right, what was wrong, what was just plain idiotic, and have since moved on. Very, very far on. I didn't really feel, well, for lack of a better word (words aren't really coming right now) comfortable dredging up all the bad memories and the fucked up emotions that were circulating at the end...but that's a whole different entry! :). In any case, Nicole, I hope you start feeling a little better. You can make it through Monday! I know you can!. And I'm spent. Soundtrack: Physical Graffiti-Led Zeppelin

Maybe I Should Make My Bed...
Sat. March 29~Decisions, decisions. To make the bed, or not to make the bed. That is the question. Nah...Work was cool today, as it is baby animal week. There were baby hamsters(2 kinds), baby rats, baby mice(millions!), new bunnies, baby guinea pigs(yay!!), new kittens...and fish. It's so fun playing with the pigs, especially the ones in the aviary cause I've trained them to stand up for food :). That, and the cute little runt pig is just too adorable. I suppose the highlight of my day so far has been 1) realizing that the con is tomorrow and 2) having this really hot skater guy come in Andersens. He was hot. I was happy. And then I noticed that he had a whole posse of hot skater friends across the street at Black Cow. :). Yesterday was so stressful. I decided to leave during 2nd because I had to go get stuff for RFI that I didn't have time to get earlier in the week. I got home and had a whole 5 minutes before I needed to leave for Jen's dinner, which was a bit frazzling. On my way there, I kept thinking, 'Shit! I need to get her cd!! Where can I go?! Wherehouse? (I saw the STORE CLOSING sign right then, and kept driving) Target? But will I pass Target if I'm on Colorado?! aaahhh!!!' Well, I found Target, got the cd, and ran into Jen and Sarah as I was paying, which was fun. I then proceeded to get really, really, ridiculously lost on the way to the restaurant. Not fun. Once we were there, however, it was really fun. It was nice talking to Emma again, and I think everyone had a good time. The one thing I'll take from the dinner: Don't eat the salt on the margarita glass. It's kinda like sticking a fork in the toaster or something. You do it once, and NEVER do it again. I was really tired, so I came home and fell asleep watching Dress to Kill. God I love Eddie Izzard. I don't know why but I find him really sexy. Paris is one week away!!! Yay!!! Until then, I hope people do something tonight... Soundtrack: Rage! woo!

Are You Lonesome Tonight?
Thurs. March 27~I need to attach myself to someone right now. It's cold, I'm lonely, and I just want someone to curl up next to. The relationship chat I had with Mel today probably didn't help either...Nothing like dredging up memories, eh?

Kittens!
Suddenly, England seems like a much stranger place. I guess all the bad weather gives the people there a lot of free time...

Bored Bored Bored
Thurs. March 27~Welcome, gentle readers! I'm bored. Can you tell? If you, gentle reader, happen to be overcome by ennui as well, then by all means go here! Anyhoo, I've made up my mind to go to the sci-fi convention on Sunday to go say hey to James Marsters. It should be very interesting...I'm bringing my camera! Companion(s) would be appreciated, but if people can't/don't feel like it, it's all cool! I'll make sure to bring back pictures of Trekkies for everyone :)~. Ha. Trekkies. Expect links to random things very soon...