Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Rawr, yes. I just had supper (dinner) in the cafeteria.. Gosh, I haven't used these public PCs in ages, considering that I've gotten internet in my room illegally... Bless you, wireless technologies.
I have loads of work to do now... More like reading assignments, and papers to be written... Or typed. ^^ Most teachers here want us to type out our work.. They have a lab, the library, and public PCs, so.. Yay! xD The funness of it all. =D
Boredom has also pushed me to install RO into my laptop.. where I play on a private server from time to time. My mouse has been acting up lately.. The ball's a bit sticky. I wonder what got it that way. =/
Ahh, well. Nothing much nowadays...
My audition for the Dessert theater production, "Honk!" will be tomorrow, 7.30pm. That will be Friday, 5.30am in Malaysia, so you dearlings, please wish me good luck. xD
I'm lazy to type, and well... I gotta be going. I'm gonna play teacher to a friend later; he need help with some english work we got. Ta, my lovelies.

A thousand blossoms erupted at 05:33 p.m., filling her garden.

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Sunday, September 12, 2004

One bad thing about living in dorms on holidays and weekends is that there's not much to do. I could go hang out in the lounge and sleep, but that just sounds sad. Plus, all these is to do is watch a basketball game. -_-;; Not like I'm a greatfan of sports.
My roommate, Vicky, went and left me alone. xD So, yeah, I'm stuck with the internet and doing nothing. I could do my home work, but I feel lazy. I also could do new layouts. Or I could waste my time and try get a website with a .jp extension. I tried unsuccessfully; couldnt even find the signup pages. *dies* The names are so nice! something.jadore.jp, something.bohemian.ne.jp... Wow. I only our english hosting servisces had nice names like that. Oh well. I'm bored... Going to read some things and TRY to do my homework. -_- Bye.

A thousand blossoms erupted at 03:43 a.m., filling her garden.

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Thursday, September 9, 2004

Yes, I'm in Canada. It's a crazy place and stuffs, but.. yeah. Can't write much now, I'm deliriously happy because there's suddenly internet in the dorms. Going to make full use of it.

A thousand blossoms erupted at 08:24 a.m., filling her garden.

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Friday, August 27, 2004

Today is the last time I'll ever bathe, sit, drink, eat, sleep, and shit in my house for the next 10 months. I can't believe I'm actually leaving to Canada tonight. I guess I've always tried to postpone it by refusing to clean and remove my presence from the house.
The four suitcases are packed. My hand luggage is half-packed.
I'm now setting up the email groups for future.
I feel like.. whoa. I'm going. This sucks and rules.

A thousand blossoms erupted at 06:37 p.m., filling her garden.

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Friday, August 20, 2004

Yes, it was the last day of school today for me. I'll never be schooling in Malaysia ever again, for the high school level, that is. My friends threw me party at the end of school - it was hilarious! xD I didn't know they were going to have one, but it became painfully obvious when they intercepted me after Bio and prevented me from returning to class. =3
Apparently they also called mum and asked her for help. She brought the camera, yay. xD After everything was ready, they blindfolded me (more like covered my eyes), and brought me into class.
The bought cake, buns, pizza, nuggets... Whoa. I almost cried, but they stopped me and made me so happy! We ate, drank soft drinks, and sang along loudly to songs playing on the radio. I tell you, I'm going to remember all these songs forever: Hoobastank - The Reason & Avril Lavigne - My Happy Ending.
I brought an extra shirt, and they all got down to signing on it. And also, they splashed me with water as a final "bath" that I'd ever have in my school.
I never knew they loved me so much... Heh. I guess things like this never show themselves until you're going, or something drastic happens. But I really love them. Really, really.
I'm going to miss everyone like crazy.

A thousand blossoms erupted at 07:18 p.m., filling her garden.

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Tuesday, August 17, 2004

Yeah, spent a while making my travel lists. I've been trying to put it off for quite some time, because I want to languish at home in the diminishing time I have left here.
Made lists for stationary, personal luffables, and toiletries. All my clothes are quite taken-care-of. I just have to sort out what I'm actually bringing, etcetera. Stuff the suitcases and weigh them.
Rae baby set up the account for the group blog. S'all up to me to do the layout and formatting. Yayzers. xD Brokendolls.
I talked to my Babee today online, he's as naughty and sweet at usual. Then, as his usual piggy self, he went back to sleep when I went to pack stuff. <3
You know, I really hate the way people strike out at Christianity like anything. I mean, to go into a religion is choice, and just because this select group of people choose it, doesn't mean you condemn them for being "weak-minded" or.. or... Graaaargh. >.< I've been feeling very, very pissed the past few days over this. It's very immature the way they say "I hate Christians" or "Fuck Christianity." I mean, give it break, willya? Give some respect, and maybe you'll get some back your way too.
I love my religion, I love everything about it too. People judge just because of first impressions. Unavoidable, isn't it? What's to be done? Try to change an age-old mindframe? I wish it could be done. That way, everyone would be so much nicer and the world would be at peace.
Aaah, thinking about this reminds me of that bitch... Sooooo makes my blood boil. She complained to my mum about me swearing like crazy in my (old) blog, when I only used it in one entry? Bitching about me joining Malaysian Idol, me liking guys (durrr, I'm female)... Hell, she's not my mother!! Even my own mum doesn't do this, so who are you to?
Sucks. But well, life isn't perfect. It's our training ground. =3 I have to run and bathe now, I'll scribble again another day. Aah, I can count the days before I leave on my fingers now...

A thousand blossoms erupted at 07:35 p.m., filling her garden.

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Sunday, August 15, 2004

No, haha, I'm not going to get all melodramatic. Anyway, let's go through my day nice and slow.
Morning: Breakfast with Auntie Set Fong, Auntie Saw Sim, and the other kids ministry helpers. Cake, cake, cake. xP It was nice, since I got to speak with them, etc. They gave me a yellow patrick.
Afternoon: The lunch thing mum organized, which was attended by family, church friends, and just a few other friends. It was very, very fun. We played "The Cosmic Number", and "Mafia." Then we sang songs, and, erm, cut the cake. Rae, Su-Lyn & Chris came as well.
Night: "Dinner" with mon cher. We were both actually stuffed, so we went to, erm, try shesha. It was an interesting experience, but I'm notsokeen on it. It burns my throat, sorta, but makes me feel nicely lightheaded. Arrrh.
Ah, um, later in his car, he gave me a "kissing lesson". I also got my first love bite... It's now become this red mark on the back of my neck. Hee, my friends in school will freak if they see it... Which they most probably will when I tie up my hair. Oh well, let them.
He says he really loves me, and I hope it's true. I really, honestly hope he will never lie to me. He seemed really sincere when he said it, and all that... I hope with all my heart. He gave me his ring; a precious ring, according to him. He has yet to tell me why, but I'll keep it close.
Since he did shesha, when he kissed me and all, there was this sweet, musky taste all over his mouth.
I love you, mon cher... For as long as time permits me to.
Oh, and 1979 x 1988.

A thousand blossoms erupted at 09:47 p.m., filling her garden.

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Friday, August 13, 2004

I'm sooo tired, demo, aishiteru, anata. Koshka means "beloved" in Russian, apparently. Had a full day... *sighs* But, interesting date, no? I'm seeing Chris tomorrow. :heart:

A thousand blossoms erupted at 07:59 p.m., filling her garden.

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Friday, August 13, 2004

YEEEEEEERSSSS BABY!!!!!! I ROCK!
Camwhore time.

A thousand blossoms erupted at 12:47 a.m., filling her garden.

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Monday, August 9, 2004

...Everytime I listen to this song, Chrissy comes to mind. Damn him for making me addicted to its beat and build! Rawr, rawr, mrrrrawr. And, yeah, he's the only 25-year-old guy I know. He's the most unique, the most interesting... >_< Gah! If I go on, this'll never end. It's different with him.
I got my hair straightened today. It was a lengthy, 2 & a half hour process, where my poor hair got washed 3 times, and rubbed vigorously. Now, I have artifically straightened hair which I have to keep unwashed until Thursday... Stinky? Maybe. Oh well. =3
It's obsessive; he's on my mind all the time. In a good way, in a bad way. In a niiiiiice way. >_<;; It's not good, it's not.. ARGH. If only all guys were like him. If only I were, let's say... A couple of years older? >.< Not like we care, but it's society. Yes, it's always society and their barriers.
Rant, rant, rant. I feel so random, so Insane. It was the best birthday present/surprise when everything tumbled out yesterday in a haphazard way. We talked until 5am. Then went to sleep simultaneously. He has an ability to sense things, I'm psychic. It kinda works out.
OH MY EFFING~ >_<;; I would like to gush and say I'm in love, but it's not that.. It's not gushy. It's not mushy either. Neither is it giggly. It's just.. Nice. Really nice. Contenting-ish. Sastisfying. I would attach the screenshot of a statement he made just now, lol. "Cuz when you're 20, you're all mine!!!"
Like, whoa. And boy, am I happy. ^^ And like, Whoa. I'm perfect. Lordy, all of today's quiz results are so true. xxD

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means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
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placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
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Innocent

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My inner child is six years old!

Look what I can do! I can walk, I can run, I can
read! I like to do stuff, and there's a whole
big world out there to do it in. Just so long
as I can take my blankie and my Mommy and my
three best friends with me, of course.

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A thousand blossoms erupted at 07:34 p.m., filling her garden.

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Sunday, August 8, 2004

Mm, I am finally 16, baby! *heart* The legal age for sex. O.o
Didn't do much today; basically languished around the house, lying in bed, on the phone. Relaaxed. ^^
Chris = insane.
Eric = mmeeeeean. xD
Me = bored, miffed, sleepy, happy, little bit hyper, high.
w00teningZ. I love all of you people.
Oh, and thanks to the built-in camera on my laptop, I've become a hopeless camwhore. X_x CHECK OUT TEH BLUEGREY COLORED LENSES!!!

A thousand blossoms erupted at 01:02 a.m., filling her garden.

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Saturday, August 7, 2004

Ah, yesterday I celebrated my birthday. It was insane; we played twister, danced, ate, sang. ^^ Then I ended it with a fun, yet silly chat with Cristopher.
I'm so tired, really, the reality of me going to Canada is now sinking in.

A thousand blossoms erupted at 04:42 p.m., filling her garden.

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Tuesday, August 3, 2004

Yes, I'm typing on a laptop. I'm finally using/getting-used to the laptop my dad got me for my usage while in Canada. It's not bad, really; has a nice sound output, and looks good. It's got a built-in camera too.
The only thing I detest about laptops are their screens & keyboards. Colors getfaded, and it's bloody hard to actually type fast & used familiar shortcuts on an unfamiliar keyboard. I probably made a million typoes tonight, and had to painstakingly delete and backspace. Ah well. No pains, no gains.
Oh, I also decided to get a guestbook; signmyguestbook.com is making people pay now, ugh. I went back to alxnet.com, which is still free, and still hosting the guestbooks I made 4years ago. However, they have cut down on the customizability. It don't look l33t anymore. *sigh* Nothing's free nowadays.
Today was spentat home, and it was cuz my parents asked me to skip school. xD Preparations... I got my teeth scaled & polished, yay. No more dark stains that mysteriously make me look like a smoker when I detest smoking.

A thousand blossoms erupted at 02:10 a.m., filling her garden.

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Sunday, August 1, 2004

I... Omg.. I... Masaka!! I still can't believe I got to watch MOON CHILD, the movie Gackt & hyde acted in. OH MY GOD!!! *starts crying & laughing hysterically* I'm SO serious!!! I'm actually doing that right now.. Oh God... the keyboard musn't get wet.. Oh...
Suteki, suteki... Totemo suteki... *lets out a breath of air* I watched MOON CHILD... After months and months of waiting!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
Gakuto-sama!! *falls down crying* Omg.. I cannot believe... Hontou ka... Hontou ka?!? It was a beautiful movie, even though I was grasping at straws for the meanings. Comprehending Mandarin was okay for me, I struggled minimally with Japanese... But.. OMFG I WATCHED IT!!!
yuugure ni kimi to mita / orenji no taiyou
nakisou na kao o shite / eien no sayonara...
The ending was beautiful. Beautiful. Suteki, hontou ni suteki da yo!! And the song; oh, the SONG! Orenji no Taiyou is beautiful. really beautiful. You cannot appreciate its meaning until you watch the movie. Gackt-sama & hyde sound divine in the song; utterly beautiful and intertwined.
*whispers softly* Daisuki... Gakuto no koto wa daisuki desyou. Itsumo de~! Oyasumi ne, minna-san. Aishiteru.

A thousand blossoms erupted at 11:26 p.m., filling her garden.

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Saturday, July 31, 2004

I finished the story I wrote for the MPH Young Writers' Search. It's based on one concept; I liken myself and my entire life to a rose, and all that is thrown at me to the storms and predators faced by the rose. And finally, I quote directly: "I may be one blossom, one bloom, but I am unique, singular, and beautiful. For all my imperfections, I am still utterly, absolutely me. I am a rose."
I finished it at approx 1.30am last night. Staggered to bed, and collapsed there. I sent copies to Moo, Rae, De, Matthew, Kong Qian, Kong Yew, and Christopher. Of the few responses I received, it's quite okay. Let Eric read it too; he said it's all right.
Oh, and I met Christopher tonight for dinner at RLC. He's quite an okay guy, interesting too. He does "shisha", whatever that may be, and it apparently gets him high. "Colored smoke", he says. He sent me back, and it was funny. You know my awful sense of direction. He allegedly has it too. But, well, looks like he was right. Two negatives DO make a positive.. *sigh*
Well, I've been obsessed with this Vampire game of late. If anyone's interested, just click here and sign up: Get bitten by Sylkis!
Not to worry, I don't bite... that hard. It's text-based; no annoying flash thingamajigs.
It's late, honies, I gotta run to bed now. Love you. *kiss*

A thousand blossoms erupted at 01:14 a.m., filling her garden.

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Wednesday, July 28, 2004

I'm entering the MPH Young Writers' Search. They asked for a "story of your life", and it's proving to be an extremely difficult topic to ramble on about. *sigh*
School was normal today. Bernard said he wants me to be vocalist for Avril Lavigne's My Happy Ending song. The tune is a bit strange, it'll take some getting-used to.

A thousand blossoms erupted at 05:37 p.m., filling her garden.

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Sunday, July 25, 2004

Got back from Gentings yesterday, but only posted today because I was dead tired yesterday. =P It was a really fun trip, got to be with Mooch & Rae. Of course, they got pictures of my sleeping, where I look bloated and kiddy. *sigh*
They have a Snow House & a Ghost house now... The Snow house is fun! I got bullied and my hair was packed full of snow by the guys (brrr), and my whole face turned red and cold. >.0 But it was fun.
The Ghost house was amusing; me being scared of the dark, I grabbed onto Kae Shiuh and dragged him around the entire way, like a second skin. I also grabbed onto the guy in front of me and sandwiched myself between. = The ghosts were really freaky because they popped outta nowhere and grabbed you. The exhibits were disturbing, lol. One "ghost" grabbed my ankle, making me scream. xD
After both of the "houses", the three of us went to the arcade along with the others. There was a Parapara machine, and we played until our arms hurt. =P Wasted about RM10+ there, but it was fun. ^^
Then later at night, Rae, Mooch & I stayed up a while playing monopoly and chor dai di. Muahaha, Mooch lost RM1.30 to me in chor dai di; we played 10 sen per card. Not very big, but fun enough.
Slept at around either 3 or 4am. Tee Yoong was insane; he stayed up to watch the sun rise and only slept at around 7am.
Genting's theme park is getting tired and sad. It has okay and so-so rides, but they all look so decrepit and unkempt. Rust, peeling paint, chipped sides... *sigh* I felt like I was walking in a time warp into the past. Everything is exactly the same, and not very many thrilling rides. The ones that were "rollercoasters" weren't long enough. But it was okay. It was okay.
I slept all the way in the bus on the way down without realizing it. Woke up exactly as were were turning into the school road. Went for dinner with mum and dad later.
All in all, it was a really good trip, because I spent time with my best friends. Activities were okay, but I liekd the atmosphere. If only it was longer. ;)
Love ya, sweeties. Thanks for being such faithful readers of my blog; I really didn't know so many of you used to frequent Sardonyx. Hope Freesia stays safe.. for now.

A thousand blossoms erupted at 08:15 p.m., filling her garden.

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Friday, July 23, 2004

In exactly an hour, I will be leaving for Genting Highlands with my Rae, Mooch, and a whole bunch of my school friends. Rocks! ^^ We'll be staying for just one night, but that's fun enough. Heh.
Went for some kind of research thing last night, and earned RM60 for giving opinions and talking. It was quite fun, though.
Sunday I might be going out with Ashvin, Rasyad & Co to watch King Arthur. Wheeha! *runs about* SCHOOL OF ROCK BABY!! "Rock got no reason / Rock got to rhyme / You betta get me to school on time!"

A thousand blossoms erupted at 12:53 p.m., filling her garden.

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Sunday, July 18, 2004

A thousand blossoms erupted at 12:19 p.m., filling her garden.

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Friday, July 16, 2004

All thanks to Adrian, whom I met online. He's a chef-to-be, and very interesting, and sweet too. *sigh* All the nice people are never in my school. xD I mean, yeah, there are nice people in my school, but not, you know, nice in that kinda way.
I'm going for the Bon Odori tomorrow with Rae! We're both wearing out yukatas! *runs around happily* Wheee!! I can't wait for it! ^^ Might meet Adrian as well; mum will be there.
GaiaOnline is down, and I'm left with nothing to doooo. *whistles* Maybe I'll go do up all my roleplays, or hope that the FFMO people post faster. *sigh* Alternatively, I could go hunt for my muse and hope she inspires me to finish my 4-year-old FF8 Fanfic. -_-
Life is nice so far. I will leave for Canada to study on the 28th of August. Today was my prefect board's annoversary. *smiles indulgently* Chocolate caaake.

A thousand blossoms erupted at 08:50 p.m., filling her garden.

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Sunday, July 11, 2004

Don't we all wish we could play piano like Maksim, and look good too? *sigh* I've downloaded quite a few of his songs, and I really love his playing. Apart from that, I also adore Gackt's piano playing. Ummmm~ *drool*
Felt sick in the morning, so I didn't go to church. All they're having is the band The Avenue from America playing some songs. According to my brother, they're really good, though~ Too tired.
Besides, I have to redesign the school magazine cover. To something dark, and simple. Gluh, how boring. Everybody's got black, why not orange? But nooo, the headmistress doesn't like it.
I went to my old Primary school with Rae and De yesterday. Then they came over. We giggled, took photos in bed (noo, we had clothes on, you sick perv), played dancemat, and watched De amaze us with her fantastic playing of Liberi Fatali from FFVIII on the piano. She is just amazing. Maksim II, maybe? I'll be her drummer. xD
I am wasting my life away on Gaia Online. Die, you devil incarnate.
I met a really nice guy through friendster. He's called Adrian. He's going to become a chef. =D

A thousand blossoms erupted at 04:59 p.m., filling her garden.

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Friday, July 9, 2004

Nee, Jon's birthday is today! Happy 16th, Jon-boy! His party is tonight, 5pm-11pm. I feel bad because I was supposed to collect Happy Birthday signatures in school today, but didn't.. bleh. *sticks tongue out*
Had an Ed board meeting today, and Irving told me how to do a new cover for the school magazine. They also might have a "makan" on the 21st of August, just a week before I leave for Canada! Woohoo, what nice timing.
CF had more interviews today. I feel so awkward when they tell me to sit in because I don't know what to ask the candidates... I rather leave it all to Ming Ching & Co.
J'adore the drooping cat hairband in RO! Mooch is re-setting-up the server, I think.
Oh, and my quiz results, the kiss one, I got "Child's kiss" the first time round. Now.. it's entrancing, LOL.

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A thousand blossoms erupted at 02:04 p.m., filling her garden.

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Thursday, July 8, 2004

Yeah, school has been okay so far. My studies are drifting down the river, floating far away from me... = Oh, I went for a science quiz today. Interesting stuff was asked.
Gaia Online is obsessive... Adore my avatar, Sylkis! xD

A thousand blossoms erupted at 04:46 p.m., filling her garden.

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Wednesday, June 30, 2004

Yeah, I just finished my grade 8 piano practical exam today. I'll probably fail... *sigh* I screwed up my first and second pieces, and then the 3rd piece survived. My scales were... awful. And my sight reading was... well, it hasn't changed much over the past few years. My aural was survivable, i think.
"Worrying doesn't drain tomorrow of its troubles, it only drains today of its strength."
Tonight I've got my Japanese class, yay! =D *jumps for joy* I can immerse myself into my lovely world of Japanese stuff and culture. I'll get to see my beloved cousin and aunty again. And maybe, get dinnah. ^_^ *slurp*
Hmm, getting suspended from school is actually quite enjoyable. I should do more bad things, LOL. 3 days of *extra* holidays, and I managed to jump to disc 3 of FF8. Yeah, I'm replaying it for the umpteenth time. =D I rawk~ My chars are all invincible~ ^_^ And Squall is my little Death Angel~ Huhuhu.
Well, nothing much really happened today, just that I had this fantastic dream where I was being stalked. xD

A thousand blossoms erupted at 01:12 p.m., filling her garden.

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Saturday, June 26, 2004

Today was fairly okay, eventhough now I'm penning this entry about halfway through the day. Nothing much is really happening, just that tonight I'm going for a father-daughter dinner, themed "Bright and Beautiful."
I am also now listening to Gackt whispering sweet words and asking me to wake up.. *blushes and giggles* Wake up, wake up... Quickly... It's Gackt.. What are you looking at? Wake up, quickly... - WAAAAI!! =^^=
I have the whole day to myself... *sigh* Fun fun? Computer & FFVIII & practice for my grade 8 piano examination, which will be on Wednesday.
I'm going to settle the dress I'm wearing tonight. It's a salmon-pink affair, a little strappy but I'll get a shawl or wrap for it.

EDIT: Came back from the dinner sometime ago, it was fun! The food sucked, but the activities were fun. My dad & I won 10 eggs (yes, eggs) and a RM100 Jusco voucher.

A thousand blossoms erupted at 01:35 p.m., filling her garden.

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Friday, June 25, 2004

Finally. Freesia is ready, and once again I have a place to hide, curled up, and whisper my fears and feelings. Love the layout? I did, but well, it is Gackt after all, and I love him like crazy.
Freesia is a reborn version of Sardonyx, which was put to sleep after certain issues cropped up. If I were to mention why, here, I'd sound petty, and I don't want to sound petty now.
I really wonder what joy some people get out of others' misfortunes, or rather, suffering. It is true after all, too, that one blemish on a white surface marrs it forever. I hate being secretive; it's not me at all. But if I wasn't the same mistake would happen again. I have no doubt someday, Freesia too will be uncovered, but til then, I have no choice to lay low.
I've always hated total strangers who poke their noses into other people's business. All they do is upturn and overturn lives, throwing everything into a state of total chaos. I had to erase my memories, my expressions, my feelings, my quirks. Did I mention I love being melodramatic?
All I wanted was a place to express myself freely, and even that they want to deny me. Well, c'est la vie, as most people are so fond of saying. I suppose I can still express myself here, but again, with caution. Oh, how I detest boundaries and barriers.
Conservativity and reserve should be thrown out the window and burnt, letting their ashes blow away. Where would creativity be if those two existed deeply in society? Creativity would be controlled, held back, and it wouldn't be creativity at all. To stretch our limits would be to cross the line, and play with danger. Risk injects adrenaline into us.
I can't wait to not depend on anyone at all for my future. Then I need not worry about slighting "important" people who deserve it anyway. Double standards are rampant. So these are our proud "Asian Values". Inequality. Shut-up-and-listen-cuz-I'm-older mentality. It all makes me sick.
...I've ranted enough, unloading my black mood here as it is, and in my first entry too. I pray to God that I'll calm down and get rid of all this resentment.

A thousand blossoms erupted at 11:31 p.m., filling her garden.

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[ This is our Exodus ' ]

+singer » Gackt Camui, J-rock prince
+song » Yue Qing Ge
+current song » Exodus '04 [Utada]
+PV » miss you [m-flo]
+animé » SaiKano
+animé song » Tsubasa [S.Prin]
+manga » Alichino
+status » taken & owned
+movie » The Prince & Me
+book » The Oath [Frank Peretti]
+game» FF8, DDR, Ez2Dancer, Para²
+color » black, silver, blue, blood
+flower » scattered white lilies
+feeling » serenity, love, nostalgia

+network » .angelique
+msn & email » rinoa_of_angel_wing@hotmail.com

+exodus » Rae ; Dé ; Eug ; Nizza ; Raijinn ; Akutenshi ; Kanitha ; Ritsuko ; Xandra ; ChibiHaruka ; Joey ; Michelle ; Kiera ; Sanity ; Beano ; Clafikra ; Lucky Pixy ; Angelina ; Mel
(email me if you want to be added)
+joined » Fetish ‡ ‡ Gackt's voice ; kawaii shinzo

+version» 02 - Exodus '04
+features» Moi et mes amis
+time» 2+ hours
+program» Adobe Photoshop CS
+brushes» relique.net/brushy
+drive» Utada - Exodus '04
+inspiration» Listening to Utada's new song, I fell in love with the lyrics. And it sorta related to how my situation was now, so I decided to make a layout based on now/then. The top picture is me now, in Canada, and the other picture is me & my friends, at my farewell on the last day of school. Apt, no? Je t'aime.

Link to Freesia? Use below. No direct linking, please.