Welcome to my blog! I am an 18-year-old female from Malaysia, currently studying in Canada. My online nickname is Rin or Sylkis. <3 I was born on the 8th of August, 1988, and my measurements are... Just kidding. xD
I believe in the one true God, Jesus. I'm 100% Chinese, 5th-generation Malaysian, and speak English, Malay & Cantonese fluently. I can understand smatterings of Japanese & French, and am currently learning Latin.
I'd like to rule the world, but I'll settle for being a singer & dermatologist. ^_^ I like to sing, write, read, play MMORPGs, play with Photoshop, post in forums, and write emails! (hinthint) Recently, I've fallen in love with Jazz. I hope to get more into it. I also like small, hard, unreadable text. =D
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Tommy february6 Current song: Keep Tryin' [Utada Hikaru] PV: Kiss One More Time [Tommy february6] Anime: Ouran High School Host Club Manga: Blood Hound Status: in <3 with Michael Movies: Narnia, Moon Child, Phantom of the Opera, Memoirs of a Geisha, Dirty
Dancing 2 Books: Redeeming Love, Blue Like Jazz, The Athenian Murders, Till We Have Faces, Captivating Games: FF8, RO, DDR, Ez2Dancer, Para-para Colors: black, silver, blue, pink, white Flowers: peony, lily, rose Food: Mooncake, dark chocolate, rice, noodles, mushroom, squid, sushi,
soba, shisamo, spinach, cheesecake, white grapes, crab, lobster, fruit jelly
Version: 04 - silk flowers Image credit: Moi. <3 Time: 5-6 hours Programs: Adobe Photoshop CS2, Macromedia Dreamweaver MX 2004 Brushes: Photoshop defaults. Drive: Utada Hikaru's BLUE Inspiration: So, winter approaches, and everything turns to white. This dream of darkness encapsulating the white as well as the haunting melody of BLUE by Hikki inspired this layout. Silk flowers are a symbol of the empty, fake, beauty I have achieved in my life; no matter how much have strived, they are but fake, never to become real. They are my treasures alone, for no one else can grasp their subtleties.
Friday, October 13, 2006
Mood: Peaceful Background Music: Mika Nakashima - Glamorous Sky
I got to talk to Michael today. I really missed him because I didn't get to talk to him yesterday, and I've been feeling stressed recently, what with midterms, lab reports, draft proposals, essays... It's been a hectic week getting back into the groove after Thanksgiving threw me off. But, it was a really fun conversation, and made me happy. I love him so much, and I honestly couldn't imagine the rest of my life without him. He expressed the same sentiment. Christmas is either going to be amazing and wonderful or just suck because it fails both our expectations. Regardless, it is still a celebration of Jesus's coming, and we'll also get to be with each other! I'll use my camera lots. <33
I also have to call Air Canada about my Aeroplan account, because it's being a bitch. It won't let me make a booking online, and it's all fussy-like. Tomorrow I'll be going to this Violin concert at the Winspear Hall with Marah, Betty, and maybe Laura and Ben, too. I don't want to go to see the house because I'll try to live in apartments. Also, I need to finish my lab report for Bio. Wendy said I could hand it in Monday, but I'll try my best to finish it...
I only have my biology midterm on my mind now, but after talking to Michael and sort of talking to God (my usual singing in the shower), I feel a bit calmer and at peace. Not so anxious. If I don't get a 4.0 GPA, my life isn't going to suck. It just won't be as easy to get into medicine. But I will try my best.
I miss mum and dad a lot... They're both so wonderful, and I guess me and Twink being away from them gives them time to discover each other more as Christians, and bond in love. They've changed so much since they decided to send me overseas, and God has done so much in our family, especially in dad. It makes me want to cry out of joy sometimes. Crying is kind of nice, because it washes away that horrid feeling and gives you a sense of peace and solitude, or serenity and a closeness to my essence.
It's at times like this that I wish Michael was beside me so he could hold me close and encourage me, and be with me as I cry. But I'll be strong, and I'll be strong for Rae and Ran, who are back home and ploughing through life. I love all of you so much; my heart wouldn't be the same without your memories embedded in it. You're like my integral membrance proteins, and who I am is like the membrane...
'Kay, I've had it up to HERE with the recent influx of scientific analogies popping into my head. >.> First the echoes of "reductionism" never failed to dance around like ghostly butterflies, and now I'm constantly reflecting on the marvel of aquaporins, porphyrins, and... Why do the both end in "rin"? Hell, I'M Rin.
...Er. Good night and have a nice day! I have to confine this madness.
Inscribed at 01:44 p.m., while pondering my existence.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Mood: Exhausted Background Music: m-flo loves Yoshika - Let Go
I'm fuxxing tired.
I need a break.
Like NOW. >>;;
I have a biology midterm on Friday, and I just finished my IS paper. Ugh ugh ugh. I'm tired and I just want to sleep all day, maybe be fed grapes and be given a massage.
I did go out for Vietnamese food today, and my friends paid for me... It was good. Oh, and in a minor, amusing discussion, they asked me how I could stand not being with Michael, how I could stand the distance. Iunno, I think 2 years makes you not mind waiting longer... And I really love him. They were saying how they couldn't take the distance and would break up with their boy/girlfriends if they had to endure the distance for so long.
They keep asking if Michael's going to visit. I say it depends on his job.
I like beds.
Inscribed at 03:33 p.m., while pondering my existence.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Mood: Tears of Joy Background Music: Last Alliance - Shissou
Ohh... ;_; I just watched the last episode of Ouran High School Host Club. It made me cry, laugh, weep... smile... It's the best ending, most beautiful ending, most loved ending of any anime I have ever seen. It gives such a wonderful sense of completion, and you just don't want it to end... I almost considered stopping the episode partway just because I didn't want Ouran to end. SOB! ;_;
If there's any anime you should watch, it's Ouran. Oh my gosh. Ouran ouran ouran ouran OURAN! -cries some more- I can't believe it's over... It was beautiful while it lasted, and I'll carry these memories forever! Thank you, Hatori Bisco for this beautiful time!
And now... Listen to this beautiful song and experience the video. Passion, by Utada Hikaru.
Inscribed at 09:56 a.m., while pondering my existence.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Mood: Calm Background Music: Reira ft. Yuna Ito (Trapnest) - Endless Story
So Dustin left today, and he left me this really heartwarming letter. Of course, I had to squint at some of the words (xDD handwriting!), but I'm just... I don't know. Grateful at how God works through people. That why, I guess, humans just can't be islands, alone. We build each other up. Like Karl Jaspers says in chapter 2 of his book, "Way to Wisdom", the "will to authentic communication" is vital. We share experiences and build each other up with them, not compete and compare.
Mum and dad are so wonderful... They're sending me more money after I bought replacement stuff for things I lost. And after grocery shopping. I hope that at the end of the year, it works out that the whole deal is cheaper. I think it will be, though, because I don't spend much on food! It's better for me to buy snacks + food, rather than have food paid for, and I buy more food and snacks on top of that. <3
The weekend has been interesting, and enjoyable. I've decided I don't like my basement mate dude. Last night, because "It's Thanksgiving!" he got pretty inebriated on beer last night, and smoked weed, and was pretty... gross. Poor Dustin got harrassed by him. Thank God for protection, because the most he did to me was just talk a lot. I can't wait to move out...
K-box is really fun. I wish it'd load faster though. I'm happy I joined their "star search" thing because I got to meet a lot of people I wouldn't have otherwise. And last night I talked to Davidtcf about Catholicism and Protestanism... It ws a really good conversation.
I should go do homework and cook now, get ready for classes tomorrow, which are easy breezy~ I cleaned up amazingly after Dustin left, and I feel good about a clean room. >>;; This is abnormal, I swear. I normally live in a pigsty and have stuff strewn everywhere. Anyways. I'll sign off for now with a quiz:
Am I mess because I'm half-n-half? DDD:
You Are 50% Left Brained, 50% Right Brained
The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.
The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.
You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.
While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.
Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.
You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.
Inscribed at 06:29 a.m., while pondering my existence.
Sunday, October 8, 2006
Mood: Cantankerous; bloody-minded Background Music: Rin - Permission from Above
Went to the West Edmonton Mall with Dustin today. Spent . I have to start controlling myself more; I only have 20 bux left in my account. However, I got a new manga (shounen-ai) called Hybrid Child. It's very sweet. Watched Nana with Dustin later, after we got back, after food and camwhoration. I want to be a rockstar, like Nana. I want to realize my dreams... But now, enjoy our narcissism.
Dustin: "SO, ahh, I'm pretty~"
Dustin: "And, uh, your penguin likes me."
Dustin: "Now, adore my dead-face with emotionless eyes."
Me: *distracted distracted, pose pose*
Me: "Ahh, let's go for the plain, natural-ish pose."
Me: *thinks: but I like my chains! D:*
Me: "Mmm, not only do chains look good, they also taste good..."
Me: "I'm getting sleepy after all that Nana romance. I'll be romanced by the Phantom, maybe."
Me: "And now, it's time to sleep..."
;O I'm done, sweethearts. Have a wonderful day!
Tapi, aku tak tahulah. Kawanku ini sangat aneh. Kadangkala aku suka berbual dengannya, kadangkala aku langsung tak mahu melihat dia. Ini pun salahku kerana mengajak dia datang ke tempatku. Bagaimana nak halau orang pergi? Dahpun beli tiket bas, dahpun turun ke sini... Bencinya. D: Jika dia boleh rileks dan tidak begitu aneh, bolehlah. Tetapi dia asyik bercakap tentang topik-topik yang luarbiasa and reaksinya selalu macam nak "show off" dirinya. Kurasa macam dia tidak jujur denganku, dan oleh sebab itu aku tak suka. BENCI! DD: AMAT BENCI! Kumahu Michael di tepiku, bukan rakan-rakan yang aku menjemput. Kumahu Michael, Rae, Ran, and ibu bapaku dan adikku. Yang lain tak mahu. Langsung tak mahu. Tetap tak mahu. Ku teramat benci orang yang tak boleh jujur dan "terbuka" dengan personalitinya.
I'm finished my rant. If you don't know this language, there's a reason why I used it, and please don't look it up. Respect me a little; there's only so much of me I can share with you. I have to have something small to call mine.
Inscribed at 06:00 p.m., while pondering my existence.
Saturday, October 7, 2006
Mood: Tranquil Background Music: Bryan Adams & Melanie C - When You're Gone
Mmm, Dustin came today! He was kind of silly, because Simeon & I were driving around the whole time looking for the greyhound station (Simeon: I know it's somewhere around here...). LOL! It was a very fun experience though. Now, let me backtrack.
My day began with Simeon picking me up to go to my Calculus midterm (because I had no bus pass, boo @ thief). Calculus went... extraordinarily smoothly, thank you God! It was way easier than the labs were (mini-quizzes), and I finished with some extra time, where I went to print off my essay.
My prof returned my philosophy midterm today; I did fairly well, better than I expected. About 90% on it, and my essay question was a 9.5/10, which I was really amazed at! Biology was good, and that's the only midterm I have left; next Friday I am officially done! I just need to study lots for this one...
Lastly, we had English, then Simeon took me out to shop/relax/have icecream because I lost my wallet yesterday, which was really nice of him. <3 I got mint chocolate chip ice cream, and bought myself sixthingswhichIdidn'treallyneedbutliked. ;O I also got a new lock for my locker.
We watched Ouran, me and Dustin. And I am now sleepy. Tomorrow we go to the West Edmonton Mall! I found out the girl who lives upstairs on only 17... So Laura is the oldest female, LOL! Night loves, and thank you for the sweet messages on my tagboard.
Now, anyone want a kiss? ;3
You're an Passionate Kisser
For you, kissing is about all about following your urges
If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story
You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses
A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble
Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.
You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.
A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.
But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.
Inscribed at 04:26 p.m., while pondering my existence.
Friday, October 6, 2006
Mood: Easy breezy~ Background Music: Emma Bunton - Take My Breath Away
Okay. So there's some merit in the saying "Waking up on the wrong/right side of bed." Today was a great day, not because of what happened, but because of my outlook and attitude. Quite honestly, I surprised myself with my reaction to whatever happened today, and I might surprise you too. It's just... unexplainable! I'm happy right now; perfectly at ease. More at ease than I would ever have been in the past! (Have I got you curious enough to beg yet? I sort of feel like the narrator in Poe's The Tell-Tale Heart in my eager attempts to convince you of my mindset and attitude, except I'm not unstable... or maybe I am? Ohohoho.)
Now, see. This morning I rolled out of bed happy because of yesterday's events, which were good. I.. don't quite know why they were good, but I think it's God's fault. <3 Not that I'm complaining, of course. It's a good thing. Okay. Day started with Simeon giving me a ride to school again (THANKYOUTHANKYOU! <3 ), meaning I didn't have to take the bus. I had stayed up late last night studying for Chemistry, and I just reviewed a bit more and reviewed my Biology lab, which was my first class.
Biology lab ran smoothly, and I even got to see cytoplasmic streaming! It was so amazing!! (YES, I'm a nerd, if you haven't guessed by now.) If you ever get the chance to look at the Elodea leaf under a microscope, DO IT. It's just that cool. ;O The lab instructor said it was the best streaming they'd seen in this week's lab, so I was pretty happy and excited we got to see that phenomenon.
I decided to take an hour off the lab so I could go review Chemistry, Praise God! The Hoffman book, the one for my course? The question on the exam for it was the exact chapter that I studied RIGHT BEFORE THE MIDTERM! The Chemistry midterm itself was... Unique. It was a very fair exam, but long. I was exhausted and relieved after I finished it; I didn't even leave any thought to worry.
So here's where the trouble began. I left the Chem classroom, and put my stuff in my locker. My backpack too, which had my wallet (FORESHADOWING!). See, I'd done this before when I go to my other labs, and nothing's happened. So I bring my biology text with me to finish up my lab. Went upstairs to the lab, started my work, and maybe 15-20 minutes mater, a friend comes up to ask me if he can borrow a literature textbook for his essay. I volunteer, and we go downstairs so I can get my literature text from my locker.
We reach my locker, and I grab at the nonexistant lock to flip the numbers to the right combination. My thoughts at this point: Heyy, that's weird. Where's my lock? Did I forget to lock it and bring the lock up with me? Open the locker. My backpack and everything's there, BUT all the zipper pockets are open and stuff is a little messied-up. My wallet is gone. I kind of stick my hand in, and my eyes widen. I feel around for the wallet even though it's a really small space and the bulge is not there. My next thought: Shit shit shit shit MY iPOD! (I kid you not, I really worried about my music. =x) So I check that compartment, and my eyes widen again, but this time in amazement. My iPod nano is still intact, and so's my 1GB USB flash memory disk.
It is now that I take out my literature book, hug it close, look at my friend, and say in a high-pitched voice, "Someone broke into my locker and stole my wallet!" His reply was that he thinks his bookbag got stolen too. We head over to the reception/front desk and the first thing I say to the lady is, "Hello. Someone broke into my locker and stole my wallet." The look on her face is priceless, and she wordlessly goes to the phone. I give her my name, a little description of the wallet, and then I leave, but not before handing my friend the literature text.
I cleared out my locker and took ALL my I go back to the biology lab, talk to my partner a little (who was really nice about it, thank you <3), and then lose all will to want to study/help people with calculus. I had to leave a message for a friend I was to meet at 4pm to cancel the help session. Going straight to Erin's apartment, I tell her about it, call the bank to cancel my debit card, and then talk to her and Catherine and the other girls there about it. We decide today I was to skip choir and go get stuff done; so Catherine was amazing, lovely, and wonderful. She drove me around to get a new debit card, buy groceries, lodge a police report... And she even bought me an icecap. <3 Yay, thank you!
After all that, we went back to the apartment and I spent like 3 hours just plain socializing and enjoying myself with them. I gave some massages, got to eat chocolate icecream and frozen strawberries, watched some cute videos on youtube (Search: TREADMILL DANCE!). I got my Biology lab report done, though, which was really nice! I haven't exactly studied for my Calculus misterm tomorrow yet, but I... well... How DO you study math? >< I've never figured that one out. It's a matter of whether or not you can understand and apply the concepts of number manipulation.
At 11pm, Catherine drove me home, and Erin came too. It was great! We girltalked about boys and the funny things they do. I really really am thankful to God for giving me these new friends. They're awesome, and I'm going to sleepover with them sometime. ^^ Soyeah. I'm home now, and blogged this as soon as I got back. Everything's still pretty fresh in my mind.
So there you have it! In a nutshell, I lost my wallet, and had an interesting day. I'm not upset about the wallet and its contents, though, strangely. I mean, there's sentimental stuff in there that I'd like to have back, like Rae's gift she drew for Best Friends, out picture, Daddy's namecard that he wrote a sweet message on before I left for Canada, Azat's namecard ("The IT Guy", LOL)... Yeah. My Tokyo Disneyland passes from April 2004. The list goes on. <3
Simeon's giving me another ride tomorrow, since I don't have a bus pass... Thank you again! <3 And thank you to all my new friends, who were absolutely wonderful and supportive, loving and caring, and just absolutely amazing in being there to help me out when my wallet went missing. And thank you, God, most of all, for doing this for me. You are great and awesome and mighty and wonderful. I love you. I really do.
Inscribed at 01:41 p.m., while pondering my existence.
Thursday, October 5, 2006
Mood: Pleased as Punch Background Music: Sixpence None The Richer - Don't Dream It's Over
PRAISE GOD! <3 He is AWESOME AND WONDERFUL!
So many things worked out great today and set my heart at ease. Well, last night, I talked to my parents on the phone! I was feeling really homesick, and they were online, so they called me and I got to hear both of them. I also straightened out things with my rent and living place. I'll be moving soon, I think? Idk. Mummy told me to pray, and I did... The landlords were willing to let us break the lease! Praise God again!
Studied my Chemistry with Erin today; we had 6.4 chapters to study, and we got through 4.5 chapters! Catherine then was so amazing and drove me back "home". <3 Yaaay. I just have to read the Roald Hoffman book, The Same and Not the Same. I really like his writing style; it isn't overly snobby and full of chemistry-oriented language. His ideas are clearly and concisely presented, and with fitting examples. However, the only downside is that the book was costly. Maybe I can sell it off next term? Hmm.
Now, I should go and study the remaining chapters. We even looked through a midterm from last year. I feel somewhat prepared? Guh. Oh, and I got an email from a blog reader today. He complimented Freesia. Thank you, you know who you are! It's really encouraging. <3
Right, I'm done here, and enjoy the following quizzes. ;O It's not really quiz day today, because I had more substance than just the quizzes. Ha...ha...
Would you eat me if I was this yummy, yummy donut?
You Are a Sprinkled Donut
Flamboyant and flashy, you're easily distracted by shiny things.
You're definitely a snazzy number, and you usually catch everyone's eye in the room.
And you've got the goods to back it up your colorful image.
(Though too much of you gives people a stomach ache!)
Ta, my lovelies. I'm off to study. Thank you for your prayers and love.
Inscribed at 12:08 p.m., while pondering my existence.
Wednesday, October 4, 2006
Mood: Bland Background Music: Carpenters - Close To You
Today is QUIZ DAY! But only after I tell you a little about my day. It was alright, and I got a lot of work done today, for my Chemistry lab. I have a Chem midterm on Thursday. My Math lab was alright, I think. Yeah. Also, I have my essay done. Woohoo. Just have to focus on MAKING CHEMISTRY NOTES. D: Dustin's coming Friday! I cooked noodles; enough to last a week, hahaha. NOW ENJOY THE QUIZZES!
I'm so happy I'm my favourite kind of chocolate!
You are Dark Chocolate
You live your life with intensity, always going full force.
You push yourself (and others) to the limit... you want more than you can handle.
An extreme person, you challenge and inspire the world!
Then, you know, I kind of like this "Silver Digger" deal. ;O
Let's Call You a Silver Digger
You don't weigh a man's appeal only on his income
But you've never been known to turn down a free dinner
Does this make you sleezy? Not at all!
Just make sure not to miss out on your dream guy...
Income brackets can change :-)
Which then brings me to this, which I find quite true.
Men See You As Choosy
Men notice you light years before you notice them
You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky
You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter
It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait
Whether you live in the city or not, you've got the heart of a city girl.
You're up on the latest trends - what's hot in music, food, and fashion.
And you love to be on the go. Your perfect day is filled with tons of fun.
Your perfect guy is a city guy, so head to LA, NYC, Sydney, or London to find him!
That's all for the quizzes. Also, I want hair like my Gaia avatar:
Inscribed at 12:29 p.m., while pondering my existence.
Monday, October 2, 2006
Mood: Tranced Background Music: Kill Hannah - Race the Dream
DUNDUNDUN! The continuation of the DUSTINATION: Dustin: XD. who do I protect? The cute asian girl or the cute asian girl?
NEITHER
-beats up both-
xDDDD. So, I actually made myself study Philosophy today, but I didn't go to church because I was up late last night doing my English essay rough draft. I refined the thesis and points, and now just have to straighten things up and get the proofs for each one. A big thanks to Michael, Dustin & Nick for helping me organize my thoughts!
I wish I had a scanner, though. I could do so much more stuff with it. D: I have this really nice drawing on my folder that I've wanted to put up for ages, but can't. On Kbox, I joined this idol thing. xD I hope Rae joins too!
Oh, I took a quiz. Also, I want to be a hip hop artist, or R&B singer. Something to do with music... Michael said my style is punk goth. Is this true? @.@ I personally don't really think so; I think I'm more elegant gothic lolita, but meh. I like dressing smartly with lace.
You Are More Mild Than Wild
You're confident, and you really aren't concerned with how "hot" you are.
Other people's ideas of what's sexy don't concern you. And this is exactly what makes you attractive.
Inscribed at 09:46 a.m., while pondering my existence.
Sunday, October 1, 2006
Mood: Tickled Background Music: Breaking Benjamin - Diary of Jane
;D Dustin gets a mention in my blog. He made me smile today on msn! See~ here's our conversation~ Rin: random question! is it true whenever anyone sees something smaller than them and cute, they want to love and protect it? Dustin:No. If a small cute asian girl is beating up a small cute asian girl
WHO DO I PROTECT?
xDD FUXXING FUNNY! But remember, if you see anyone beating me up... YOU KNOW WHO TO SAVE> D:
Yes. I also am beginning my outline/roughdraft of my essay...
Inscribed at 12:39 p.m., while pondering my existence.
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Mood: Jazzy Background Music: Mandy Moore - If You Believe
Today.. was... interesting. Simeon came to pick me up for class so I didn't have to get up uber-early for the bus! It was pleasant. Thank you, Simeon! <3
'kay. Then I handed in my Chemistry ASA. SO far, my chemistry labs haven't been exactly perfect, but I'm not doing too badly either. -crosses fingers- Thank you, God... With all this procrastination I'm still doing fine.
I studied stuff with Erin today, and it was pleasant. She's really, really nice, and so are her housemates! ^_^ Then I took the bus back... And SPLURGED (ish) at Claire's. I got myself these adorable pink/white earmuffs that will keep me toasty warm!
I also camwhor'd, as you can see. ;D PEEKABOO!
And last of all, tomorrow is te Chamber choir retreat. Mmm, Chinese food. And I must do my essay + study for Philosophy over the weekend. Now watch as I fade away in cuteness;
Love you. Always.
Inscribed at 01:32 p.m., while pondering my existence.
Friday, September 29, 2006
Mood: Neutral Background Music: Craig David - Fill Me In
Yesterday wasn't such a good day, I think. Today was slightly better... I met a girl in choir who was also under Lisa Fielder/Ward before! We might start a Jazz Choir. <3 Oh yeah.
Homework is... alright, I guess. Yeah. =/ -sigh-
The singing in choir was beautiful today. Soaring notes...
And I also have another video to share. The beat is damn cool. I like it, YOU BETTER LIKE IT, 'KAY? Enjoy m-flo loves Emyli & YOSHIKA - Loop in My Heart.
Inscribed at 11:11 a.m., while pondering my existence.
Thursday, September 28, 2006
Mood: Disorientated Background Music: John Mayer - No Such Thing
I'm fucking lonely.
A girl needs romance in her life. I look for it in choir, friends, academics... And come up with nothing. It's all empty, meaningless, swept away by time. Life trashes your trophies, it really does.
I hate long distance relationships. I want to be with Michael so badly. To be near him again, to exist with him.
Dear God, I know I should turn to you instead of looking for human means to satisfy me. Why won't I ever learn? It's horrid. I'm horrid. But you love me. It's so hard to understand...
Love. It's... difficult.
Inscribed at 02:08 p.m., while pondering my existence.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Mood: Thoughtful Background Music: Rajaton - Butterfly
If you neglect my heart, I will fall into ruin.
Mark my words, for I am Love;
And mayhaps, I have found my Dream.
Inscribed at 03:48 p.m., while pondering my existence.
Monday, September 25, 2006
Mood: Glowing ;DDD Background Music: m-flo loves Hinouchi Emi & Ryohei Yamamoto - Summer Time Love
When I checked my mailbox for my chemistry assignments today, I was happy. =D I did good on my first lab! I got full marks. And my ASA? I forgot to cite my sources, but apart from that got it correct. Last of all was the question assignment, which I did pretty good on. Yay for nerds. Having my first chemistry quiz tomorrow, I must go back and study Oxidation-Reduction reactions; chapters 3-5 plague me, for I have neglected to make notes. Should go do that before choir, but noooooo, what am I doing? Blogging. ;3
Twink wrote today, yay! He's doing well and selling food, ahaha. Oh, enterprising Malaysians overseas... I'm thinking of getting a job myself, but that means I have to go through all the hassle of applying, getting a SIN, then travelling back and forth from campus by bus... Boo. D: I should, though. Help to cover some expenses, and might even earn enough to cover my textbooks, which were horribly expensive. They are really good wealths of knowledge, though. I suppose I'll have to end up selling them off...
Philosophy isn't getting any easier. I made an appointment with the prof so he could help me straighten things out in my head before the midterm (OHNOES. EVIL WORD) on Monday. Next week is like MIDTERM WEEK. D: Study, study, study. But then it's thanksgiving, and I have a 3 (or 4) day weekend! Dustin is coming to visit. =DDD Bless his heart.
I think I will cart my arse off to the library now, and force myself to make those damn Chemistry notes. For all you know, I won't have them done like... ever. ><;; Buhbaaai.
Also, I GOTSA NEW OBSESSION! xD It's funny when he uses the girls' bums for turntables...
Inscribed at 03:31 p.m., while pondering my existence.
Monday, September 25, 2006
Mood: Lighthearted <3 Background Music: Hikaru Utada - Keep Tryin'
I finished my biology work today; and also read The Tell-Tale Heart for English. I'm beginning to like Edgar Allan Poe's work a lot; Annabel Lee is another of my favourite. I must find more.
I skipped out on church today because it was going to be held at some park, and I really don't like the outdoors too much when it's cold like this. Besides, I had work, and was distracted last night....
I have a new necklace, with a hematite cross. ;D I really miss the old one, though, with the small wooden cross... =/ It broke because I wore it too much in the shower and stuffs, and my hair kept getting tangled in the clasp and loosening it.
My recent obsession is this song by Hikki, called "Keep Tryin'"! <3 Enjoy, dear hearts! "I don't care about anything~" Sing and be lighthearted!
Inscribed at 10:05 a.m., while pondering my existence.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Mood: Dreamy Background Music: Hedwig & the Angry Inch - Wicked Little Town
I just know I'm going to get myself into trouble. But I can't help it... (I CAN help it, I just don't want to). =(
It's crazy. I'm crazy. Everything's crazy.
I swear I'll get more stress zits from this. Or, maybe not, considering the nature of my concern.
I'm so confused. I shouldn't. I really shouldn't. But I'm dying to know, I really am. D:
Oh Rin, you are silly, silly girl. You really don't have the mind of an 18-year-old. But in some ways, that's good. Because Rin doesn't ever want to lose her vivacity and spontaneity. Ever.
Inscribed at 07:19 p.m., while pondering my existence.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Mood: Satiated Background Music: LISA ft. Koda Kumi & Heartsdales - Switch
I made pau today! <3 Mm yeah, 13 pau. Of course, there's 11 left, because I couldn't resist having two. Took me about... 3 and a half hours. @_@ I blame the pork, lol. And also, my limited understanding of the "defrost" option on microwaves. I have made myself lunch/dinner for 5 days, now! <3 I prolly won't eat more than two a day.
Laura took me to a Farmer's Market today, and I got myself plums. <3 Ohyes, I am such a fruit lover. (that sounds wrong) I spent about today on food. =/ Gruu.
;D I defy all myths & misconceptions about college life! I don't lose/gain weight, I stay the same. Aaand, I have no problem with the transition! *glowglow* Of course, self praise is no praise at all. D:
Dustin's coming for thanksgivinggg. <3 We will hang out and eat and get fat!
You know, I really want to have a music video of my own, and an album. Or a single, at least. I'd be geeky and sweet, strange and cute, nerdy and loud... EVERYTHING! I want to express my love for music to all the peoples. And show them my inability to dance, which will become FREAKIN' COOL. SO if I ever release something like that, would anyone buy, I wonder. I have a cover and title in mind. And a stage name.
Besides this, I really want to write a book. A book so spectacular and heartrending that people cry like babies when reading it, and it never really goes away from their memory.
At the end of it all, I think I just really want to leave my mark on this world. I don't want to live my life and die, having just been "another person". I want the world to be changed by something I do, by what I believe.. Like clay, you know. I can squeeze it and the mark will stay forever.
You can tell I'm pretty power-hungry. I'd like to hold that power as the figurehead, though. Someone else can do all the planning, but I'll sit pretty and rule.
I wonder what God has in store for me.
Inscribed at 10:07 a.m., while pondering my existence.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Mood: Thrilled! Background Music: L'arc~en~Ciel - Lost Heaven
For the first time in my life, I believe I was actually looking forward to the weekend. o___o Fux. I guess I've been really tired from the IS conference, and also tired from.. my.. own.. staying up... late...
YEAH SLEEPING IN ON SATURDAY!
So yes, let me welcome you to the BRAND SPANKIN' NEW 4th LAYOUT of Freesia! -confetti- If you want to know my drive and inspiration for this design/theme, look at the last section on the column to the left. Also, I will ignore the glitch in this column, where after each post there will be a black space on the text box, and pretend it was an intended design. >( So there!
Friday, today, was a good-ish day. I handed in my Chemistry ASA (Advance study assignment) for the aluminium can recycling lab, which I get to do next Tuesday. I managed to write many emails and reply long overdue ones today between classes at King's.
I want to show off my camwhoring.
[sarcasm]Homg, I'm so goth! Like, let me bleed from my eyes too.[/sarcam] <3 Fux, I love it if all my clothes were like this.
Gaia is also being very fun now. I love my guild a lot. Forever.
I miss going out and spending time with Rae & Ran, and Michael. Also, I miss being at home with my parents and broter. I'm growing up, and I really don't want to. I'll be nineteen next year.
FUX.
Am I swearing a lot? <3 Tell me what you think of the new layout in the taggeh. Love you.
Inscribed at 10:27 a.m., while pondering my existence.
Welcome to my blog! I am an 18-year-old female from Malaysia, currently studying in Canada. My online nickname is Rin or Sylkis. <3 I was born on the 8th of August, 1988, and my measurements are... Just kidding. xD 
