PEOPLE KILLING,PEOPLE DYING. CHILDREN HURT AND U HEAR THEM CRYING. CAN U PRACTISE WAT U PREACH? AND WLD U TURN THE OTHER CHEEK. FATHER, FATHER, FATHER HELP US, SEND US SOME GUIDANCE FROM ABOVE CAUSE PEOPLE GOT ME GOT ME QUESTIONIN WHERE IS THE LOVE

Monday, June 30, 2003

You are Beast! You are brilliant and extremely clever. You can
handle almost any problem swiftly and
efficiently. You are devoted to philosophy and
are always up for a good discussion.
Sometimes, though, your anger gets the best of
you and you upset those whom you care about.

Which X-Men character are you most like?
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You are Lamentations.

Which book of the Bible are you?
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Old. You'll have a long (happy?) life and you'll
die at a very elderly age. Like 80 or
something. Nothing to roll your eyes at, eh?
Probably from a disease or something. You
wanted to die young, because you're a bit of a
slug and don't have many goals, but you never
get what you want.

At what age will you die?
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Monday, June 30, 2003
i'm in sch!!juz finish my econ paper *phew* sighs of relief man..ha..i'm having GP ltr at two..*groans*
i checked my answer for the econ mcq and i got...*drumrolls* three.....mistakes!!!!ha..damn happy man..but well,it wun do me any good esp when i screwed up section one and two..damn..
i dunno why but i dun feel scared tt i din study..everyone in sch tis morning was lyk burying themselves under tons of notes but i'm still sitting ard slacking..ha..i'm weird..definitely
maybe st nicks made me become so..the heck care attitude?ha..we st nicks dun give a damn abt tests or mid yrs..tt's us..ha..
alrite,there's 14more days to my bday...cant wait...yeppie!!

I WANNA BE YOUR ANSWER,ALL THE TIME. WHEN U SEE HOW I PUT UR LIFE BEFORE MINE,WITH NO QUESTION*

Saturday, June 28, 2003

What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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FIRE is your chinese symbol!

What Chinese Symbol Are You?
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YOU EAT PEOPLE!!!

what's YOUR deepest secret?
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narcissistic

Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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Saturday, June 28, 2003
so long since i stepped in here!ha..looks lyk everyone's still studying hard eh?well,i gave up..i mean i started so late so no matter how hard i studied,i'm still not gonna do as well..so mite as well forget it..work hard for the promos..ha..
sch's gonna start soon..dread it..sigh..so many things to face..lyk the common test..ha..my dear old sis crapped me out man...make me sound as tho i can fly..sheesh..she told me she bet i'm still gonna do well..lyk please..i'm not god..i din even studied and she expect me to do well?lyk yeah,in my dreams..ha..
i wonder how's all my old friens doing..dun stress urself out kae?i noe u guys are the damn hardworking kind..i noe u guys for two whole yrs yeah?ha..dun doubt my judgement..yep..
alright,i'm crapping here man..sigh..when i still have lyk half of the econs notes to go..five more chapters of maths and chem..and bio..hmmm..i read a few here and there..but i dun feel lyk going on..damn..
wat's life lyk after my student years..i wonder...
sherry,the gal hu's thinkin deep into the future

*YOU DIDNT SAY YOU'RE SORRY, I DONT UNDERSTAND.YOU DUN CARE TT U HURT ME AND NOW I'M HALF THE MAN THAT I USED TO BE WHEN IT WAS YOU AND ME. YOU DIDNT LOVE ME ENOUGH,MY HEART MAY NEVER MEND AND YOU'LL NEVER GET TO LOVE ME...AGAIN*

Wednesday, June 25, 2003
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
i'm screwed la...five more days and i haven even started on my chem...haven finished any yet..i'm dead...

GOD SAVE ME!!!!!!!

Sunday, June 22, 2003
Woah,juz came back from the chalet...super tired sia..ha...i slept at 4am tis morning..den woke up at ard 8am..ha..i'm not planning to sleep ltr..my sisters and mom are sleepin..ha..tooo tired i guess...well,but i'm still going on strong here...
sigh...one week's passed and i've not studied anything..sure die sia..dun feel lyk studying chem at all lei..sianz...one more week...seven more days to doomsday...BUT two more weeks..actually,12 more days to freedom...muz buck up..
my bday's coming soon!!!!
14JULY2003!!!!!!!
ha..better rem...my sis gonna get me justin timberlake's CD..yeppie..but jay chou album coming out during july too...towards the end,tt is..oh well..get someone to buy for me...ha...hmmmm...i still need a bag,a wallet...blah blah blah...so tis is a hint to all those out there eh?ha...

*SHOW ME THE MEANING OF BEING LONELY,IS THIS THE FEELING I NEED TO WALK WITH.TELL ME WHY,I CANT BE THERE WHERE YOU ARE.THERE'S SMTH MISSING IN MY HEART*

Wednesday, June 18, 2003
heya, -justin in the background- juz realise his album's not bad..mayb i'll buy it..strongly recommend the song 'Never Again'..damn freaky nice..ha..

i din study again..sigh..
I"M DEAD!!

oh well wateva..at least i packed my table!my mom forced us to pack our study room..it looks lyk pig sty..but i'm wondering y i haf so much friens telling me my hse's freakin neat and clean..oh well,muz be some communication error somewhere..

three more days and counting to my chalet!!woohoo..and no,i'm not gonna count the no of days to my Common Test!!no..alrite,wateva..11 more days..
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DAMN!!!!
ha..sigh..i dun feel panicky at all..not when i noe i've got one more week..i hate my character..so..erm..so..how do u call it?..erm..so 'i'm-not-afraid-til-the-fire's-burning-my-eyebrow' yeah,tt's it..ha..i'm loony..i noe tt..sher The Loony..sounds good..

*I'VE BEEN TAKING INTO CRATES EVER SINCE I WAS LIVING IN SPACE, BEFORE THE RATRACE, BEFORE MONKEYS HAD HUMAN TRAITS. MASTERED NUMEROLOGY AND BIGBANG THEOLOGY, PERFORMED LOBOTOMIES WITH TELEKINETIC PSYCHOLOGY*

Monday, June 16, 2003

You Have the Power to Turn Things to Stone!

What's Your Magic Power?
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Monday, June 16, 2003

You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You
display a perfect fusion of heroism and
compassion.

What Matrix Persona Are You?
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Monday, June 16, 2003

Mall Goth

What Kind of Goth Are You?
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Monday, June 16, 2003
yawn yawn.. -stretching myself- was supposed to start studying today but i cldnt resist the temptation of....TV!!!sigh..i read thru econs first few pages..ha..tt's all..hey,at least i did smth..ha..
bn playing 'Dai Di' every night wif me mom..taught her how to play..ha..bad gal i am..sigh,i mite not be able to go online as frequent as i am doing now cux my family's broke...really broke...sigh..
i juz made a new frien on IRC..communicating thru email now..she's a butch..20..yep..ha..juz know her two days ago..she sounds nice..ha..

stupid swee chee freaked me out wif the story of the gal in our sch hu can see things..sigh..so terrifed of going sch..cux i'm always there so early and i'll be in the canteen...the place where tt gal's pop saw alot of.. -shivers-
i juz read MD's blog..ha..checking up on her life..sher the stalker.. -beams-

*YOU WERE MY SUN,YOU WERE MY EARTH. BUT YOU DIDNT KNOW ALL THE WAYS I LOVED YOU SO YOU TOOK A CHANCE AND MADE OTHER PLANS BUT I BET YOU DIDNT THINK THAT THEY WOULD COME CRASHING DOWN*
Nihilist Bear

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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Saturday, June 14, 2003
at home now..50cent playin in the background..so damn sian..ha..tt's my catch phrase eh?i haven start studyin yet..yeah,yeah,i noe..i'm a goner..but well,juz dun feel lyk studying?ha..finally finish almost all of the hols lesson..woohoo..left econ tut..and PW..

my mom and dad having some big cold war now..dunno hu's in the wrong..my mom's telling me everything bad abt me dad..how he doesnt care forthe family and stuff..yeah,i noe tt..outta 10 guys,oni one care for family..but i cant really fully trust her..it's kinda unfair isn't it?lyk all i did was listen to her side of the story?sigh..but yeah,it's kinda of a obvious fact tt my dad doesnt really tok to us..but tt doesnt really mean tt he doesnt care,does it?sigh..all i can do is try to cheer me mom up..a few yrs back,they wanted to divorce..i din see my dad for a few days..then everytime he calls my mom'll be lyk when u free?go dwn to the lawyer's place and stuff..i was really pretty freaked out..yeah..but a week and a half ltr,things were ok..thank god for His grace..now my mom's not at home..(Yep,Home Alone Isnt It?)upstairs playong mahjong..figured she needs it so i let her go..where's my dad?beats me..muz be somewhere wif his friend..dun give a damn..

*WOULD YOU LOVE ME IF I WAS DOWN AND OUT,WOULD YOU STILL HAVE LOVE FOR ME?*

Thursday, June 12, 2003
yawns..i'm at swee chee's hse now..ha..supposed to be in sch but they say no chem tutorial so i go over to her hse..ha..i'm using her laptop now..hee..

i wonder how's kitty..my whole mind's abt kitty..she so adorable..sigh..i tink of givng her the name 'NEMO'..ha..noe it's lame..com'on, give me some suggestions anyone?my brain cells dying..speakin of brain cells,<-by the way swee chee's yellin hi in the background-> tt stupid yi kai and toby..one lost my puzzle, the other dun wanna return me..idiot!!!!!!!ha...

me and swee now discussing the topic HOMOSEXUALITY..ha...anyone interested to join in?dunno wat's wif the world..wats it wif the anti-les and gay thing?damn..they're humans too ya noe..its not right to deprive them of a normal life..its not lyk they wanted it this way since they were born..they juz haf too much hormones of the opp sex..and i tell u a butch has all the desirable qualities of a guy juz tt they dun haf that thing..
if all the butches were to become real guys,all the men in the world can juz go to hell..butches are understanding towards gals need which obviously the men juz dun get it..and they are protective,sweet,caring and much much more devoted cum faithful..ha..guys are losers..so hard to find a perfect guy ya noe?someone shld shoot a movie abt a perfectguy not friend (u noe the new movie MAY?)

sheesh,i'm not planning to get married--1)no one wld want me,i admit to tt...2)cux outta a million guys,999,999.99999999guys are shit..ha..yeah,i'm a FCP or wateva u call it..so wat?there's so many guys out there who are MCP too..ha..
life in tis society,tis country,tis world,tis planet..tis...

UNIVERSE SUCKS BIG TIME!!!!

*DONT STAY,FORGET THE MEMORIES FORGET THE POSSIBILITIES,WAT U WERE CHANGING ME INTO,JUST GIVE ME MYSELF BACK AND DUN STAY!!!!*

Tuesday, June 10, 2003
URGHHHHH!!!!!!!!1i want tt kitty..sound lyk a spoilt brat dun i?sigh...
i found a kitten outside sch yesterday..it was only one week old..it looked so weak so i brought it to sch..den we tried giving it milk but it wouldnt drink

..sad..

den after sch,i asked alot of pple if they wan a cat but everyone said no..sigh..den i asked chris but he say he got a dog at home so kinda hard and den i begged kai hung to bring it home and he agreed!!!yeah!!i was so happy..
we found a box for kitty..and we walked outta sch..chris bought another brand of mlik but it still wouldnt drink so we-Me,Chris,Kai Hung,Jeroin,MingHui and Yi Kai decided to bring it to a vet...we spent quite alot on it..
finally,i tink chris fell in love wif the kitty and so he brought it home...but i feel damn bad...he nv go watch movie wif king and nancy cux of this..den i tink king they all quite pissed wif him..-I'M SORRY!!!!- it's all my fault..
the doc say the kitty's fine and lucky it nv drink the milk we gave it or it'll haf diarreoha(dunno how to spell)but the doc say the kitty appeared to haf bn fed..tink by its mom..sigh..i tink my action of picking the kitty up sorta separated it and its mom..i feel so guilty..imagine its mom searching for it now and meowing for the kitty to come home..
i'm gonna search for the mom tmr..i've decided..muz find the mom and let them haf a reunion..wish me luck!!

*IT'S ALRIGHT,I'M OKAY I TINK GOD CAN EXPLAIN. I BELIEVE I'M THE SAME,I GET CARRIED AWAY*

Sunday, June 8, 2003
i went to the zoo today..my stupid sis's darn project...sheesh..see all those red arse bamboon locked in captivity..reckon it to my life somehow..how i wish i can fly away and escape from all tis bars locking me entire God damned life in..sigh..i'm having the 'dark period' again..havin enuff probs of my own so pls keep away..i dun haf the freaking time to entertain u anymore...i cant stand facing u wif a fake smile...i dun haf the energy to do tt anymore and still put up wif all ur complains..my life sux too but who's to listen to mine? u dun understand a single thing so keep ur comments to urself..i dun wanna hear them..censor it all away!!!!all these noises are juz coming to me frm every side...all lockin me in..formin the stupid bars..got no where to turn to..surrounded by all tis shit..i cant juz turn away u noe..damn,see,i noe u wun understand..dun expect me to explain it to you..i dun haf the freakin time and i cant be bothered..u haf to experience it to feel it..i dun wanna be labeled a spoit,attention-seeking gal or anything..juz wish everything wld leave me alone..i'm so numbed til i cant feel a thing..read thru all my blogs..spot the dif?i'm so dif now..i dunno how i got tis way..i noe it isn't right..but i cant do anything..i noe it's my life here..but i'm juz a puppet..someone or smth runs my life frm somewhere but i juz dunno hu and how and why and where..sigh..i go thru tis everytime..so y am i still unable to get used to it?i dunno if tis is depression as tose jack-arsed psychologist phrased it..i juz...dunno...

*I'M TIRED OF BEING WHAT YOU WANT ME TO BE,FEELING SO FAITHLESS,LOST UNDER THE SURFACE.DONT KNOW WHAT YOU'RE EXPECTING OF ME,PUT UNDER THE PRESSURE OF WALKING IN YOUR SHOES*

Saturday, June 7, 2003
i'm supposed to be in sch, sopposed to be at east coast but wat do u noe

..i'm at home..

freakin flu's getting serious..nearly died in my sleep tis morning...mayb i shld haf..i'm getting paranoid..i'm losing it..totally..there's so much things in my head..and they're all screaming to catch my attention, screaming for me to let loose..i noe i'm snapping but i'm struggling to keep control of my thoughts..the world's spinning under my feet..but i dun feel it..mayb i'm dead,hu noes..mayb it'll do everyone good..sick and tired of tis guessing and questioning game..when will it all halt,i dunno..i'm the emcee,i'm the host but i'm waiting for a sign from heaven telling me wat to do..physical scars i've created may be erased by time but not the emotional ones...i dunno how i got tis way,i'll nv be alright..it's sickening...everything..i hate my life the way it is...going thru the crowd..searching for anyone hu's willing to trade theirs for mine...

*I AM A LITTLE BIT OF LONELINESS, A LITTLE BIT OF DISREGARD,HANDFUL OF COMPLAINS BUT I CANT HELP THE FACT THAT EVERYBODY CAN SEE THESE SCARS*

Friday, June 6, 2003
yesterday,i went wif my WIFE, xiuqi to east coast..ha..tot it was fair i go wif her to east coast too since i went wif swee chee..muz spend equal time wif my wives..ha..
the wind was damn strong but cooling..ha..love it..there wasn't any crows too..not lyk the first time i went there..ha...
we tok abt alot of stuff..yeah..and we picked sea shells and gave each other as our love token?ha..those shells are nice..hee..
sigh..bn makin so many enemies lor..sigh..tink i piss yi qian off..she was looking at our grp proposal den i took it away cux lyk supposed to be confidential?ya..den i tink she quite irritated..she was lyk 'wat?chey..'..sorry la..but our ideas got stole away by some one in class..-shall not disclose her identity- and i quite scared..some more i grp leader lei..ya..sorry,hope u understand..
newae,i screw myself again..not tt i wan to..life juz sux now..it gets too tiring for me to live on..hope i can die in my slp or smth..dread going to sch..everything in my life stinks..i dunno wat went wrong in the 1st place..is it juz me or is it that the world has smth against me?i hate my life the way it is now..it sure shows no symptons of turning for the good..how apt it is to say tt life is nothing but a pile of shit..

-life's a bitch!!!-

my life is juz lyk a vacuum cleaner, it sux!..sigh..

-SpEcIaL mEsSaGe-
i'm not gonna say much..facts get distorted along the way and it isn't fair for anyone to see things in my point of view..i juz hope everything will blow over..but it's hard to get that piece of thorn out frm my heart..it's killing me,the pain..

*TRY TO GIVE YOU WARNING BUT EVERYONE IGNORES ME(TOLD YOU EVERYTHING LOUD AND CLEAR) BUT NOBODY'S LISTENING*

Wednesday, June 4, 2003
phew,finally got time to log on..after wat seem lyk ages..ha..i din get to go sentosa!after quarreling wif my mom..wasted..damn..but i watched bruce almighty...damn funny..i strongly recommend tt show -and tt's how the cookies crumble- ha..hope they'll organise a trip in the june hols..will be damn bz but no matter wat,i'll go!ha..i jogged to EAST COAST on tue..yes..east coast..the trip there was piece of cake -rolls eyes- budden we had to do some spastic star jump..we look lyk idiot lor..den the trip back....I DIED!!!!!!!ha...now my thighs damn pain...cant sit dwn...stupid...ha...den today go EAST Coast wif swee chee....tis time walk there so not so bad...ha...was damn coolin there...and windy too...i love the salty smell! -breath deep- ha...i'm gonna go there more often...hee..today DEREK (i'm not afraid to admit i like him liao...) was on stage...some GP talk at audi..then he foreign student...ha...my eyes nv left him...hee..he was juz too charming!sigh...but muz try to forget him...but it's so HARD!!!his accent real nice..ha...juz now,swee chee ask me hu i wanted to see most at tt time and i said three persons' name...derek,md and jay...ha...guess i still like MD?sigh...den joanna ask if im str8...dunno how to ans her question...i dun like gal gals,get my pt?ha...i oso dunno...but so far only derek caught my attention...no other guys come near...but i'm not exactly in love wif him...juz admire?ya...he's smart and gd looking...mayb the day i get attached will be the day i can ans joanna's question...ha...*I DUNNO WAT'S WORTH FIGHTING FOR OR WHY I HAVE TO SCREAM.I DUNNO WHY I INSTIGATE AND SAY WAT I DUN MEAN.I DUNNO HOW I GOT THIS WAY,I KNOW IT'S NOT ALRIGHT.SO I'M BREAKING MY HABIT,I'M BREAKING THE HABIT TONIGHT*

Friday, May 30, 2003
freakin sneezy lor...keep sneezin...wateva...ha...muz be either someone's missing me or the dirt pollution is ultra high in my room...the latter is impossible cux in case u guys dunno,my mom's a serious hygiene FREAK!!!ha...so i guess it's someone's missing me...hope it's my darling XiuQi...ha...(hey,darlz,here's a kiss!*muacks*)ha...i tink i sneeze abt 1000times aredi?nose falling off..lucky i'm not michael if not *choo* and my nose's gonna fly...today was a very erm unpleasant day tho i dun show it,my heart was raining?sigh....i hate tt stupid ASSHOLE!!!!!!!i juz hate it...i started out my life on the entire wrong foot!!!i chose the wrong path and everything...so many restrictions tying me dwn... i cant breath..suffocatin me til i die...i hate her...y she so lydat?can she juz freak off my back?kao...wat's her damn prob...i'm so mad..i dunno abt wat...i'm juz damn fucked up...the whole world's lyk turning against me..here i am going against gravity and everything..sigh...y does she tink the whole world revolves ard her?it's oni her and her...nothing else matters does it?freak it...i'm lyk tryin damn hard to relax...to chill out but i cant...sigh...juz trying to forget everything...if things dun turn for the better,tt's it...i'm leaving everything behind...u get it bitch?isn't tt wat u always wanted? i juz hope tmr's sentosa trip's gonna cheer me up a lil...i'm lookin forward to it...*YOU CANT HURT ME (NO) YOU CANT STOP ME (no) YOU CANT BEAT ME (NO) YOU CANT BRING ME DOWN*

Monday, May 26, 2003
ahhhh,i was so close to him today!!!him as in *beep* *beep*...ha..we came up the same staircase and i was juz standing beside him...lyk he look at me,i look at him?he sorta help me hold the LT1 door...den the whole day i keep seeing him...juz when i decided to forget abt him,tis kinda thing happen..lyk sparked off my emotions again?gee...i msg him yesterday..ha..he din noe hu i was but i juz have his number..i was hoping he would reply smth lyk "huh?hu's tis?" but he NEVER!!!sigh...i msg him some christian cum chain letter stuff la..hope i wun see him tmr if not i'll like him again!!!AHHHHHHH....*MY LOVE IS ALL I HAVE TO GIVE.WITHOUT YOU I DUN THINK I CAN LIVE*

Tuesday, May 27, 2003
urgh!!!!freak it lor..tis morning i got caught pon-ing PE!!!den ltr after econ make-up lect (which ends at 7PM!!!) i haf to go for make up PE!!!i am so dead!!!so suay lor..lydat oso get caught..lousy ass..we were hiding in the squash toilet(which is BLOODY HOT!!!) den when the bell rang,we walked out of the toilet and there the teacher came in!lyk wateva lor..kao..i really started out on the 'left foot' lor (cux i din start out on the right foot?)sigh..den i fail my chem class and lect test and chem assignment..and my bio lect test was DiSgUsTiNg!!bad day it is today!!!shitified...ltr still got make up PE!!!urgh,i dun wanna live liao..*CUX I AM WATEVA YOU SAY I AM,IF I WASN'T THEN WHY DO I SAY I AM?*

Saturday, May 24, 2003
today was supposed to have leo but there wasn't cux the yr 2s were havin college clean up day...*give the sch a scrub man!*...ha..and try getting rid of the green will ya?ha..i'm havin a blasted flu now..*sniffle*...sigh...such a beautiful day and i'm stuck at home doing Project Work...ha..but it's ok,i guess..the damn weather's getting very hot..*it's getting hot in here,so take off all ur clothes*..oh,i need to clarify that i'm not cutting myself anymore..it was all in the past my dear friends!! :) very glad for all ya concern!! *muacks* i'll take care of myself..hee..sigh,i got a major bio and chem and chinese test coming up..and wat in the world am i doing here?ha..beats me..hee..my Project Work needs attention too..it's one of my pass to a 'BrIgHt FuTuRe'..ha..dumb.. *YOU CRY I WIPE AWAY ALL OF YOUR TEARS, YOU SCREAM I FIGHT AWAY ALL OF YOUR FEARS. I HOLD YOUR HAND THROUGH ALL OF THESE YEARS. YOU STILL HAVE ONLY ME*

Wednesday, May 21, 2003
woo!i now at com lab 3..2nd time i'm here today..the 1st time was for chem lesson den after tt we went ard the whole damn sch to find out where the IT workshop was at..ha..den we realise it was at com lab3!!!!!stupid..haf to climb up again...ha...super sian..yesterday me and chung yan went to visit joyce..she vomitted and stuff...damn sick?ha..den tt stupid chung yan say wat dun wan to go den in the end she was in Yishun...ha..saying no when her heart meant yes?ha..den they had pillow fight while me the innocent gal sit by the side watching them...ha..den we went home at 7plus..can tell chung yan din wanna go home la..ha...den all the way to the ground floor,they keep screaming and playing and i keep singing "Sing Hosannah"..ha..lame lor...if got pple outside the lift,they sure think very weird..lyk got someone screaming den got someone singing some holy song..ha..freaking..ha...oh,here's a lil code for u to decipher: "TEA+head of apple+topless R+flip3+sea+ARE+OFf+3/4X+15th letter+inverted n +letter b4 s+selfish-ish"......the answer is Take Care Of Yourself!!!ha...cool right?ha..by the way,if u watch the matrix..the computer tt keanu reeves et al. uses keep flashing green words or numbers rite?the words are in varying shades of green,going vertically dwn the screen..if u notice,u can see words in black..if anyone can see wat those words stand for,please tell me...ya...ha...*GIVE ME OIL IN MY LAMP,KEEP ME BURNING...*

Saturday, May 17, 2003
i'm in sch now..pretty ignorant to the surround sound..was wif lynn yesterday...bn a long time since i last saw her..miss her alot..haiz..she still cutting herself though...*sad*..abt a month ago,i cut myself too..really,there's no physical pain when ur heart was bleeding..i din feel a single slight of pain..i was juz so dazed..sigh..but i got pretty freak out the nxt day tho..when the wound started to sting..was then i realise wat the hell haf i done?sigh..but really,when things make a down turn to hell and u feel as tho no one's there,u're feel as tho cutting's the oni way out..tt's how i felt..hai..i din get into leo's BOC..i'm not sad or anything..sorta expected it?ya..no,i'm not gonna cut myself over such stupid things..xiuqi's grandma died yesterday...1st time i see her cry..i noe how she felt..my grandma died the same way as hers..and i had not seen her for lyk 2 months?sigh..so my msg to all ya pple out there;tReAsUrE uR gRaNdPaReNtS,tHeY'rE nOt GoInG tO bE tHeRe FoReVeR yA nOe...haix..i'm alone in sch now..waiting for xiuqi..going to accompany her to her grandma's wake...hope she's feeling better...*I'M THERE FOR YOU,NO MATTER WAT.I'M THERE FOR YOU,NEVER GIVING UP.YOU KNOW IT'S TRUE,U WERE THERE FOR ME AND I WAS THERE FOR YOU*

Wednesday, May 14, 2003
tmr's VESAK DAY!!!aka a HOLIDAY!!!!!woo hoo!!!!my leg aching lyk hell...lucky tmr no PE cux of VESAK DAY..(thank you god)..ha...today i went to the airport...so dead there lor...ha...dun worry,i wun get infected juz cux i went there (sheesh)ha..and guess hu i met?my lil chio bu,denise, and her cute boyfriend!!ha...it's bn a long time since i last saw her..she's so pretty now!!!ha..and she can actually recognise me..i mean wif my new hairdo?ha..i din even see her..too small size liao...ha..she yelled to me first and den she asked..'ur hair!!'ha..ok ok ok..(relax man)..ha..we chatted for a while but den i,being nice,decided tt she needed to spent time wif her BF,not me,so we parted after chatting for a while..ha..but her BF sure damn gentleman..he din mind me talking to denise for quite long..shows how much he care and likes her eh?ha..not bad not bad..denise!muz treasure him!!!ha...newae,i was the bulb today...obviously between grace and joyce la...nxt time i muz drag them out when i go dating wif xiuqi...ha...teach them a lesson...whole day treat me lyk bulb..lousy la...ha...*it's true,the way i feel..was promised by ur face,the sound of ur voice painted on my memories,even if u're not wif me,i'm wif u...*

Monday, May 12, 2003
i cut my hair!!!woohoo..and it suck..nope,i'm not upset or anything..it juz sucks..tink i going mad or smth..sian..tmr still got chem test..haven start studying yet...damn freaking sian..ha..everyone's lyk laughing at my hair?bao xin asked wat i did to my hair..i look funny..damn..lyk wateva..ha..i hope by the time we have faith gathering,my hair grow back liao..if not i'm DEAD!!!ha..i haf to like my hair cux i spent 24.95 on it..at Kimage..ya..i spent one and a half hour on it lor..cux no one dared to cut for me..my mom's fierce,tt's wat they told me..lyk i dunno lydat..ha...*i'm hanging by a moment here wif u*

Saturday, May 10, 2003
tis morning i had my leo hustlings..altho it sucks but boy am i glad it's all over!!ha..when we were writing the vote,i heard someone say "who's sherrina?she running for pres..is she here?nv see her...." ha..ok,so i did screwed up..ya noe why?i left after answering oni 1 question(and i actually 4got to say my name and grp) at 10.30 cux i got test(which sux!but tt's another story)...den i came back at 12++ and frm then til 1.30, i answer another one question(at least tis time i REMEMBERED to say my name and stuff) ha..oh well..ha..i got backache now lor--from sitting up too STRAIGHT..ha..the present president of leo(hu is jiaxi's cousin) kept telling us to sit str8..den i very scared he was referring to me so i kept sitting up so STR8 til my back was gonna break..in the end,i couldn't even tell/feel if i was sitting up str8 cux my back was NUMB..corny rite?ha...but i'm just so damn glad it's over!!! :) my listening compre sux..it's so tough..sigh..but at least everything is over! and i learn how to 'chu1' power in lil fighter2(some comp game)..tobias taught me..ha..THANK YOU!!but i'm not gonna b eternally grateful or anything..ha..everything's over!!woohoo..but wait!there's still maths and chem lect test on mon and tue!URGH!!!!! *I'M HAPPY,I'M FEELING GLAD.I'VE GOT SUNSHINE IN A BED.I'M USELESS BUT NOT FOR LONG,THE FUTURE IS COMING ON...*

Friday, May 9, 2003
woke up wif a bad start man i.e. i woke up late..kao,and i cause king man to be late..(I'M SORRY!!!!!!) ha...den everything pass in a bliss,i guess..(i find BLISS in ignorance)..oh,i got back my econ test...guess how much i got....guess guess?ok,i'll giv a hint:i failed..ha..lyk how big is tt clue?ha..ok ok..i got..*drumroll* 10/25!!!! woohoo!!!ha..newae, econ lect sux..saw *beep**beep* keep toking to tt same gal!!!wonder hu tt gal is..i'll KILL her!!!ha..no la..i'll juz..let's say..disfigure her? hahahahah..oh,and i found out tt bung's name..find her absolute gorgeous looking...but MD's still the best i've seen so far..ha..den during Pw talk,my friends yelled out to me when he walk past me..and tt's lyk so obvious!?!sigh...i'm screwed man..ha..tmr i got loe hustings..(if tt's how u spelled it)..wish me luck man..hope i dun screw up é whole damn thing or i'm dead!sigh..still got listening compre test..i hate Chinese!it suck..f**k it man..sigh..*wake me up inside,wake me up inside.call my name and save me FROM UNDONE*

Thursday, May 8, 2003
yawn..super tired sia...i juz came back frm yjc,celebrating my sis bday..ha..she cried cux she got a surprise..you see,it was a surprise party*lyk duh*..ha..newae,we ate some cakes and laughed and tok..wif her friends of course..so envy her..her friends go to such extend lor..ha..and she got alot of things she want..her tis friend shirley is mad..gave my sis 10 gifts..yes..TEN..got bag,burned cds,test tube wif her name inside(wif cranes attached),chocolates and alot other stuff..ha..i rushed to yjc right after my PE lor..i always rot and stone in sch for 2hrs b4 moving my ass but today i had to rush..sian..and i got a pain in my ass!!!strain my butt muscle..ha..damn pain lor..couldnt move for 10minutes..ha..my younger sis bday tmr den she cried cux she oni received one gift while my elder sis received lyk a thousand?ha..kids..wateva lor..ha..today was overall fun..and tiring(cux i ran 2.4km) and painful(cux of the pain in my ass!!!)*life is a road that i wanna keep walking, love is a river that i wanna keep flowing...*

Tuesday, May 6, 2003
wooo..super tired...and painful!!!i fell dwn today..kao..right in front of me female classmates and a bunch of tjc guys..my friends said they din see but i dunno abt the tjc guys..maluated sia..ha...tis morning i sopposedly ran 5rounds..ha...but they mad pple sia...ask us SPRINT and then stop..funny pple...ha..i nv see *beep**beep* today...*sad*..ha..my sis bday tis thur..ha..haven bot her gift yet...bleahz..xiuqi now bside me..we going double dating wif yan yan and joyce...wooohooo *i am BeAuTiful no Matter WaT they SaY, Words cant bring me Dwn*

Monday, May 5, 2003
super sian man.juz finish some chem stuff...dunno how to do lor..sigh...gonna fail my A levels..ha..now my hand got alotta blue and red and orange ink..yawn..i'm still in sch..ya..today i saw HIM alot of times but i keep seeing him wif his female classmate and they sure look lyk they're havin a good time...sigh..so jealous of tt gal lor..get to sit bside and tok and joke wif him...*sob*...but frankly wat's on my mind now is MD...miss her alot lor...i noe she's in Temasek Poly but tt's all..sigh..so near yet so far eh? i miss those days in st nick when i always get to see her and oso get 1st hand info on her..ha..lucky my beloved godsis(LyNn) told me her blogspot add..ha..now i get to noe her 'movements' and stuff..and no, i'm not stalking her or anything..ha..sighh...*I TRY TO DISCOVER A LIL SMTH TO MAKE ME SWEETER..*

Sunday, May 4, 2003
sigh,today's sunday and i cant seem to get enuff of it..*jay chou playing in background*..super sian lor..i jus went wif me mom to sun plaza to get some thermometer..freak it wif tis SARS thing man..tt chung yan AKA yan yan AKA grace AKA butch AKA chun yan (yes, she has tis many names..dun look surprised) asked me y i nv mentioned abt her in my block so here it is...CHUNG YAN,U ARE THE ULTIMATE LAMER!!!!ha...wif artificial legs...and i'm sitting up str8,not lying...ha...she taught me all these..she INFLUENCED me...ahhhhhhhh!!!!! lame (-_-)'''' ha.. *oni time can heal the wounds that u've caused but 4eva scarred i will be wif memories of u and me*

Saturday, May 3, 2003
woohoo,tis is my first entry man!ha!i guess it kinda suck?ha!well,it's my first time after all and i really SUCK at HTML tis kinda stuff.today i was supposed to have my listening compre test but i COULDN'T go cux i had a high temp and they scared i get SARS..lyk wateva..*rolls eyes*..ha...i'm damn sure there was a big prob wif their thermometer..newae,today's juz ordinary..yep.. *wateva tmr brings, i'll be there*