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Name: Caleb, Shixiong
Age: 23, Male
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Wednesday, April 30, 2003 12:39 a.m. ___________________________________________


Hmmm, I am quite proud of myself today, that I went out the entire evening with Dan, Ken and Lio and not spend a single cent at all. Talk about being a cheapo but in such hard times, it pays to be prudent in your spending. You never know when the rainy days will come.

Anyway, the topic of ppl's expectations came into the conversation on the way back home with Ken. Whether it was right for ppl to expect and be expected, and in what cases are such expectations good and appropriate. Yah, having expectations can hurt you too. Esp when it's not your own monkey to carry and there's only so much you can do and help. But guess sometimes, it can't be help...


Sunday, April 27, 2003 02:53 a.m. ___________________________________________


I had a great time today. After the emotional coaster roller ride past few days, thought I will burst out.

But thanks be to God for restoring the joy in my heart as I worship in service and the fellowship in cell group after that.

Then, it's a midnight movie with dan, ken, lio and gang at plaza sing. Caught the 1215 "Anger Management", which turned out to be one of the best comedy movies I ever watched. Lots of twist and turns in the end with a silly yet unexpected plot. One of those movies that left me feeling good.

=)


Saturday, April 26, 2003 12:33 a.m. ___________________________________________


That's it. No more lengthy emails from me from now onwards. Will post my views and thots here, at least one can't question what I write here. Or can they?


Thursday, April 24, 2003 11:47 p.m. ___________________________________________


I thought the 2 hours at BH practice just now showed me the tremendous amount of what I lack and sadly, the past 3 months of self-practice has not helped and could be due to wrong techniques or pure inefficiency.

My Jie2 Pai1 Qi1 shall be my good friend from now onwards.


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Thursday, April 24, 2003 11:47 p.m. ___________________________________________


I thought the 2 hours at BH practice just now showed me the tremendous amount of what I lack and sadly, the past 3 hours of self-practice has not helped.

My Jie2 Pai1 Qi1 shall be my good friend from now onwards.


Wednesday, April 23, 2003 07:56 p.m. ___________________________________________


I personally think that the fear factor will kill alot more people than sars. Yes, we should take precautions and that include improving and taking note of our own personal hygiene. But the things that I find the people around me are doing are bordering near paranoidism,

People stare at you when you cough or sneeze in public like you are a freaking alien. No more handshakings and highfives. Now students have an extra reason to skip school..that's so easily abused.

Rather be on the cautious' side than err? I advocate living as per normal with as few disruptions as you can afford to make.


Sunday, April 20, 2003 09:19 p.m. ___________________________________________


Come tomorrow, I will elect my FYP. Have to select 5 choices and hope for the best during the balloting. Actually, I didn't chose any project that I like...I chose the supervisors that I like...

Amazed? What matters is not the project title but the supervisor's name. So sad.


Sunday, April 20, 2003 02:16 a.m. ___________________________________________


The tiger lurked ever cautiously towards his intended prey. Using the tall grass and vegetation as cover, he inched towards his target. It's been a long time since he had his last meal and hopes that this hunting trip would be a success.

He focused his sharp eyes onto a particular lamb grazing peacefully with the herd. Waiting patiently for the chance to strike, he laid down to wait.

The unsuspecting lamb moved farther and farther away from the herd to graze at the sweeter grass over the fench. His ears and eyes flinched as he spotted the golden moment. The lamb had moved quite a distance away from the herd and was vulnerable. The time had come.

The tiger's heart pounded away as he moved closer and closer. Soon, he was within striking distance. A few seconds and it will be all over. He knew he can do it, confidence oozed out from his every part of his body.

The lamb sensed danger and looked up. Not wanting to waste the chance, the tiger leapt forward with all his might...and...

said, "Hi there." :P


Sunday, April 20, 2003 12:10 a.m. ___________________________________________


I had a really great time today at service and during DG. Celebrated Dan's birthday with a fruit cake and a pair of boxer shorts, wrapped in a photoframe! Hahaha! Plus all the fun with the phototaking and Valiant, the owner of the house, was really at his funniest. Heh, never saw that side of him before. :)

Talked about being courageous the last week..and guess what, I actually pluck up the courage to do the "near-impossible". But I was rewarded and now I got to carefully plan what I am going to do next. :P


Friday, April 18, 2003 10:38 a.m. ___________________________________________


Ephesians 2:1~9

1 And you were dead in your trespasses and sins,

2 in which you formerly walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, of the spirit that is now working in the sons of disobedience.

3 Among them we too all formerly lived in the lusts of our flesh, indulging the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, even as the rest.

4 But God, being rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us,

5 even when we were dead in our transgressions, made us alive together in Christ (by grace you have been saved)

6 and raised us up with Him, and seated us with Him in the heavenly places, in Christ Jesus,

7 in order that in the ages to come He might show His surpassing riches of His grace in kindness towards us in Christ Jesus.

8 For by grace you have been saved through faith; and not that of yourselves, it is a gift of God;

9 not as a result of works, that no one should boast.

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Happy Good Friday! May my friends experience the overpowering love of God. Amen.


Wednesday, April 16, 2003 08:01 p.m. ___________________________________________


It's wednesday night again. Thursday tomorrow is something to look forward to. BH pracs resume and friday is Good Friday. =) Very good indeed!

One of the engineer in my IA company has been giving me crash courses in computer programming with C++, java and visual basic. My brain is just bursting near the seams there with all the info and logic. Hahaha, I even caught myself nodding off when the engineer went into "cruise" mode as he talked about objects, properties of a function, how to call a function, algorithm...

But I am grateful that I am learning alot this past 3 weeks. My report on acoustic failures (Hah, wouldn't bother explaining what it's about here, but if you want, you can ask a copy of my report. =P ) is almost done. So there's a good sense of achievement there.


Tuesday, April 15, 2003 11:00 p.m. ___________________________________________


What is Man?

Man is dust.

Man is a being created in the image of God; in His likeliness.

Man is the breathe of God.

Ecclesistes 12:13 - The conclusion, when all has been heard, is: fear God and keep His commandments, because this applies to every person (man).


Monday, April 14, 2003 07:42 p.m. ___________________________________________


I just realised to my dismay that I had missed a golden opportunity on Saturday. A true chance there, I fumbled with words and missed it. Hah, because of that, I want to kick myself real hard the whole of today. Wonder why it took so long for me to notice my inaction.

I don't know when the next chance will come. But rest assured, when the chance comes again, I will grab it with all my C-O-U-R-A-G-E. -I hope-. Hahaha...sigh.


Sunday, April 13, 2003 11:50 a.m. ___________________________________________


No soccer session - everyone is having exams.

No BH practice - everyone is having exams

No erhu lesson - teacher cancelled it.

For a long long time I was actually at home on a sunday..Haha.


Saturday, April 12, 2003 03:41 p.m. ___________________________________________


I am very please to announce that my 3 uclers have totally, completely healed; vanish without a trace. *whee!* That's for those who wish to know lar..HahAhaHa!

Highfive.


Thursday, April 10, 2003 10:17 p.m. ___________________________________________


Maybe my friend is right, there is such thing as "over-practicing"...becos right now, my arms and hands are cramping and I somehow don't feel a sense of acomplishment.

I should try get myself to enjoy more of the music I am playing..irregardless of what my dad and cousin think of my "atrocious" playing..haha. Oh well.


Wednesday, April 9, 2003 06:56 p.m. ___________________________________________


Information is power, that I learned today. How much current useful information a person has and is able to provide. With information, you can impress people, look to get your things done or simply overwhelm a person in an argument. A life's lesson on office politics.


Tuesday, April 8, 2003 11:07 p.m. ___________________________________________


I can drop onto my bed and sleep right now..IF not for my wet hair. Actually, today isn't a hectic day, so can't really explain the tiredness.

But today's weather has been good, if that's 1 thing to be thankfully for...cool and nice. =)

Dan wants a tuesday weekly "MAN-ONLY" meeting to discuss "MAN ISSUES" with all leaders in our dg. Hahahaha, it's lonh overdue. =p


Monday, April 7, 2003 08:09 p.m. ___________________________________________


A friend told me today that the reason why I'm having uclers is that my immune system is weakening, and therefore should take extra caution. I don't know how true is that but ain't taking chances now. Couple that with the recent outbreak of sars, I begin to take a bit more notice about my own health.

So off I went around today to search for health products. In the end, I bought a bottle of multi-mineral multi-vitamin pill, a capasule of dissolvable vit C pill and medication for my uclers. Hmm, the orange flavoured pill taste quite good. I may consider taking it long term if my overall health improves.


Sunday, April 6, 2003 10:02 p.m. ___________________________________________


Argh, I counted at least 2 new uclers, making a total of 3 uclers now. I can't eat properly; can't drink properly; can't speak properly. And I'm desperate enough to actually go out and buy myself a big packet of salt to put on the wounds.

But till now, I haven't got the guts to do that yet..hahaha. The most I did was to rinse my mouth with salt water..even that HURTS like mad. But who knows, I may decide out of impulse later..

Talking about dreams and visions last night, I used to have a boyhood dream to either be a vet or a musician. Guess the former is quite impossible to achieve now. Haha, but I may give musician a far, long shot. Depends on what God has installed for me.

If HE's for me, who can be against me? =) Amen.


Saturday, April 5, 2003 11:43 p.m. ___________________________________________


Amazing how Jesus restored Peter's heart and reminded him again of his calling as fishers of man. Even though Peter denied Jesus 3 times, 3 times Jesus asked Peter to tend his sheep. (From last chapter of John)

This is a timely reminder for me regarding my dreams and visions that I once had. That God can restore back onto me what He has planned for. What I am cut out to be.


Saturday, April 5, 2003 12:40 a.m. ___________________________________________


Just feel tired. Very tired.


Thursday, April 3, 2003 09:18 p.m. ___________________________________________


BH prac is cancelled again, as a precaution to the sars outbreak. =(

Had dinner with a church buddy; a good time of sharing essentially. Hehehe, think we both got alot in common, even some things we are facing in life are similar.


Tuesday, April 1, 2003 10:16 p.m. ___________________________________________


I got this little ucler on my upper lip and it's giving me loads of pain... *Ouch* It hurts whenever I eat, drink or talk...argh. Anyway, considering that I saw Ken's one a long time ago, which happens to be on the tongue *GASP*, guess it makes the pain more bearable. I shall endure the wait for the wound to heal.