Surprise! Surprise! I find myself blogging away again in front of the computer. Seems like I've finally rediscovered my writing skills and I am thoroughly enjoying myself seeing my fingers run effortlessly over the keyboard like how it used to be when I was working at the New Straits Times as a stringer for YouthQuake. I don't even need to look at the keyboard because I've got almost every bit memorised.

      Am going to meet some old school friends that I have not seen probably for the past 2 to 3 years?! We were best mates in Form 6 when we were all 19 and reckless. We made a lot of mistakes, saw triumphs together and spent hours at KLCC chatting over a cup of tea of our futures and how we would commit to meet every now and then after graduating from high school... hahaha...can't say I kept that promise because after I entered college...church and cell group became my main friend already.

      But you know what...despite not meeting up for so long. We never gave up on each other. Once in a while we would randomly call each other. We could still talk up a storm despite being out of each other's lives...ah, I guess that's real friendship then:-)

      But I read a statement today what real friendship is about...I finally found the definition of a Best Friend...

...a best friend is someone who brings the best out of you.

      Cool? I think so. It makes my relationship with God something to be proud of...Because I know God brings out the best in me. Without Him, I would not be the person I am today. Lost, but found. Dead, now made alive.

      God, one day I wanna see You on Your throne. And before You can shake my hand, I'm gonna just give You a big bear hug for being my Best Friend.

      Jesus, You're the reason I live.

      Ho-hum...I'm yawning uncontrollably and yet I refuse to rest for tomorrow. I am actually very tired after coming back from the Worship Retreat that had ended since 5pm today...stubborn people will get punished sooner or later..heheh

      Having gone through last year's worship retreat which by the way is a pilot project sown in faith...this year's retreat has definitely grown more. Instead of grappling with what to do, this round I had able helpers... I had Bernice [which I owe tons and billions of helps] as well to release me from some things I needed to look into. Hence when I was on my way back, I did not black out as I talked with Mr. Fan =)

      Another area to give thanks is the amount of people who came for the retreat.Last year there was about 12 people if not mistaken. This year it reached the 20 mark!!! Praise God! The students said they want to see 50 or 100 people join the retreat next year!

      Of course I can never not give credit to those who have been the reason for being able to keep my sanity during the retreat... I would like to give my deepest thanks to...*drumroll please*

Justin Ooi - - -> He's the helpful one, the polite one, and the sensitive one. He's probably the one who notices that you're down, or you have a hidden need within you. I didn't tell him this (I hope you read this, Justin), but I was fairly pleased to hear him say my playing was ok for the guitar. For someone like me to get a compliment from such an experienced musician, it was just too cool =)

Darren - - -> He and Justin are just inseparable. They really should have come out of the factory at the same time when they were produced! Wacky, sincere, random and intelligent, witty and cynical... Darren surprises you much because he might talk and talk...underneath is another sensitive soul who is willing to hear you out and generous enough to bless people when he knows there's a need. Darren, when you're famous... I'm gonna sell those photos I have of you from the retreat and split half of the profit with you ;)

Bernice - - -> The cool, calm and composed madam of coolness. She is the part of me that I think I lost or forgot to buy from Carrefour...everytime I lose my bearings...she's there to pull me back on course again. I respect her patience to deal with such an unorganised person like me. her planner is meticulously planned...I should commit to use my planner consistently!

Uncle Kevin - - -> Uncle Kevin rocks!!! I've never seen someone who could capture the attention of youths so easily and have them following his instructions although sometimes they have to sacrifice something of themselves in the process. He was also always there for security purposes, the very presence of him just sitting there was enough to keep the restless ones walm.

      A lot of things have happened at the retreat this year - - the point where we all went on our knees to worship God, the commitments made, the spiritual proclamatians into the spiritual realm...to see the gentle ones moved quietly to tears as the songs ministered to their hearts softly...watching the kiddies grow up and take responsibility..seeing the support they give each other...so much. Of course my own personal encounters with God...the adding on of spiritual gifts that scare me still at this moment.

      God is just totally awesome. I can never forget how He has really turned my life around. There was a desire in my heart to see the children be touched by God personally, that chains would be broken and breakthrough would come...and it came...who would know how intimate God could get with them. And in the course, that openness has made me more aware of God working around me as well. My breakthrough will come, I know it will. This is just the beginning for me.

      God I know I will still cry whenever I remember the past or look at my present challenges...life isn't perfect because of sin. Sometimes I worry how will I achieve Your will...will I know what direction to take..I do worry that if I fail You, will You find someone else to serve You? Will Your forgive me? These past few days...the desire to find a secret place to cry it all out...is literally impossible. I can only cry within...but I need to let it out.

      I might just crack or I might not. Thank God I have friends I can count on - - ->
JESUS
Monica
Bernice
Charissa
Edwin
Hosanna
Aunty Lillian, Uncle Kevin
My GRC-PJ kiddies especially Grace who has been a source of comfort as I am facing challenges at this moment
Roanne
World Harvest Church
..........

      So many others have helped. I just pray that God will bless all this lovely people that He sees in my life...let the blessings i have gotten flow into the lives of others.

      God, thank You for revealing Yourself and taking me to a new level of anointing...I will serve You with whatever you have given me!!!