YES! Today is an offday! Yes! I can finally blog about the past week.

      Well, the past week has been not so stressful partly because I just finished my translation on some super angsty and disgruntled material and the current ones I'm doing is pretty relaxing, in fact almost finished the lot in 2-3 days. Now just need to work on that glossary of mandarin terms I don't know! Yikes! But praise God because He gave me a lot of wisdom to recall things I haven't been thinking or using in mandarin for a looooooong time! His strength has really helped in my work and I'm beginning to see how a Christian at work can be blessed by God when all human wisdom fails :)

      Going to have a youth gathering soon at 4.30pm. God, please keep the weather nice and cool but don't rain! But if it does rain... provide us with a place to have fun and get to know one another without any disturbances! Amen!

      One awesome night of a cell group for me! We prayed in tongues individually at different places in monica's apartment. I grabbed the guitar and retreated to the balcony and played, worshipped, sang and prayed in tongues... it was a special time with God as I sought the Holy Spirit. At one point I shed some tears as His love overwhelmed me, assured me and encouraged me. God, I am called! I am called to You!

      I received verses from God. I remember the most from Jeremiah 33:3, one of my favourite verses. Who can grasp God's infinite wisdom? Living by faith indeed tires one after a while, I am indeed thankful for that time of refreshing before God just now. Thanks be to the God I love and adore!

      It's the second day since I haven't talked to him. I feel bad as a friend and yet I have to obey God for his good. Romans 8:28, "...and we all know things work out for the good of those who love God..." sometimes, we forget that the "good" things God might not necessarily mean literally good. It could mean that God allows you to go through pain and separation to experience a greater anointing. He could allow challenges come your way because that is a "good" way to grow up and face the world.

      I've realise many truths lately... I am called into ministry. It is a high price to pay. One day, I need to tell my mother that I am serving in church full-time. God... may Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. I want to serve you fast... but I know I am far from ready. So mould me and break me, God. I have not been called to the wisdom of this world, but to a God that's calling out to me. God, that means friendship from the world, even good friend cannot be compared to Your call in my life.

      LORD, abba Father, I need Your strength and grace everyday. Jesus, please don't pass me by. Amen

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      I spent my night awake yesterday until the wee hours of 2am over something that I never thought would happen to me. Or rather, something that I thought I would never deserve is more like it.

      I have never in my life been accused of bad-mouthing a friend behind his back and for what its worth, I don't deserve it. I even offered last night to apologise if I really did let slip anything wrong in my conversations. However, after settling it today in the early evening, I realise that I've wasted my time, energy and love on a person who doesn't even know the basics of friendship. The moment he feels threatened and is afraid of his own secret sins, he lashes out and calls friends all sorts of names and accuses them of things they never did or thought of doing. In the end, I finally join that list of people he hates.

My friend,

      I've tried all my best to understand what you go through and to empathise that you have been through a lot in life. I've tried to be that friend you claim you couldn't find on this earth. For your weirdness, your quirkiness, I never hated it, nor was I ever repulsed by it. In fact, it caused me to love you even more because everyone seemed to hate you for it.

      But when last night you decided to draw the line between us. When you decided to tell me so outrightly that I harboured bad intentions, when you chose to neglect the past few years of friendship and the sacrifices and promises between us, when you chose to deem that my outward actions of love and friendship weren't enough to convince you of my sincerity....

      ... my heart went cold.

      I still love you as a brother in Christ, but you have shown that we are still far away true fellowship let alone friendship. It hurts me to cut myself from our friendship but really I need time to recover and you need time to discover the fact that you're past doesn't need to hold you back anymore. If not, your relationships will suffer forever and I don't wish that upon you. Yet, you need to learn at some point that trusting a friend also takes faith.

      I'm not cruel with you. I hope you'll understand that I never and will never ever hate you for what you have said or done. But at the same time, I want you to mature and grow. Don't let my tears be shed in vain. God bless you.

      Love,

Mei Ling

      Working life is indeed busy and to drown out the voice of the world, God must be put above everything else... I cherish those quiet moments when I crawl out of my bed at 6.30am and curl up at the balcony with my guitar. As I stare down at the early morning of Kuala Lumpur... its a sight to behold, a moment of solitude with my Abba Father.

      I just joined LiveJournal... find me at john3sixteen. I can't guarantee it's going to be a Christian LJ and I have a feeling it's going to be slightly crude than this pitas blog. But well, Christians need to be real with the world when necessary and apply faith at the right areas in life. But God, please bless my LJ because I'm loving it already. I want it to glorify You and at the same time live up to its name - A place where I am brutally honest about everything!