a tour de force of self absorption
reaching within


Well, I done fricked up my first entry already. Nobody look at it.

I think I remember having a roommate, but as I have barely seen her in the past few days, one starts to wonder. Young love.

I'd be happy for her, except that it's bittersweet because the guy she's dating seems to be an alcoholic. Yesterday he got fired from his job as a bartender because he stole liquor from the private party that his restaurant was throwing. Supposedly, his manager had told him it was okay- I think he failed to clarify that it wasn't the best idea to get completely hammered while actually working. Then he proceeded to go to the restaurant where he works(and where my roommate works, too) and stumble around drunkenly, yelling obnoxious things. So, yes, he got fired the next day. He is 28 years old.

The thing is, my roommate finds this all rather amusing. She has just gotten out of a 5 year relationship and moved smoothly into a new one with this guy. He's very different from her ex-boyfriend. To a certain degree I can see the attraction in the differences. Yet, his life has seemed to revolve around alcohol and pot in the short time that I've known him.

When I was younger, this wouldn't have mattered. But I think as you get older, you start to think about if this would be someone good for the long term. It's her relationship, and her choice though.

My roommate and I talked the other night about whether we think we could date someone who did not or could not drink alcohol. This was before the incident with the lush boyfriend occured. Now, I enjoy drinking alcohol. I love good beer and red wine and vodka. But while I used to overindulge to the point of getting sick when I was younger, I have grown beyond that stage, for the most part. I am much more easily able to have fun but not get completely shitfaced. And I like it that way...I don't miss those nights of kissing (or even more, to be honest) boys I would never have found attractive or even interesting sober and then dealing with the repercussions later. And the stupid things you say and do. Ick, I'm glad I've learned. I'm not saying I don't get tipsy now and then, but I generally control myself and still have fun. But...would I want to be with someone who didn't drink at all?

Well, if I had a choice, no. Maybe I think of it as a bonding experience to get a little tipsy together. The shared stories of drunken nights can be amusing. People who can't let loose a little aren't that attractive to me. That's not a very convincing arguement- let's just leave it at personal preference.

When I think about it, my feelings still hold true when I think about someone who has given up alcohol because he's an alcoholic. That would be hard for me to deal with. Perhaps the real issue is that I have known many who have tried to give up drinking many times, yet have failed. It would be too frustrating for me.

Of course, love changes everything, so I can't really predict what I would do.



02:14 a.m.        Tuesday, December 10, 2002


We don't have much time, she said, so I'll just tell you about me.
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01:07 a.m.        Tuesday, December 10, 2002

C'est moi