Know what we learned in math class?  Laughter and smiles are drugs.  I'm so very addicted.  And during Java?  "High" level language class?  I almost clicked on DrugStore.com.  Me such a bad li'l student.
i spiral into oblivion on Monday, October 28, 2002, at 12:49 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

After reading enigmaopoeia's Song Lyrics guide, found on GameFAQs.com, I have a confession to make... this is going to sound terrible, but... I actually like the English version of this song better.  I mean it.  I've used the provided lyrics to follow along with both versions of the song, and I think that the English version does a better job of making the vocals match the beat of the song.  Of course, there's a lot at fault with the English version, say... um... *thinks*...  Oh yeah, the lyrics sound really stupid at times.  Of course, they don't really match the translation that well, but it just sounds better when I'm watching the video.  Then there's the inherent bias in that I understand English, and I do not understand Japanese (why some people think I do, I will never know...).

Okay.  Just needed to get that out.  Now for a li'l ripping apart of my Song of the Moment, in my two most common moods / personalities...

Idealistic, Optimistic, Cheerful, Happy:

You're giving me too many things
Lately you're all I need

Lessons of Time Management... (and, I guess, life in general)

Lesson 1: When signing online to "blog", do not sign on AIM except to check for the most important people in your life.  Do not read others' blogs; they are relatively unimportant in your 16-hour per day existence.  If reading others' pages is necessary at all, be awake more than 16 hours a day.

*ugh*

Y'know, I have been really slacking off in just about every area of self-improvement.  And to top it off, I haven't even been having much fun.  Know what?  Excluding doing my homework, today proved a nice contrast to the past two weeks.

Today, I woke up at 8 am or so, thanks to my nicely annoying buzzer alarm clock.  After spending just short of 40 minutes rubbing my eyes and orienting myself, since 8 hours of sleep is something to be abhored on a weekend-night, I woke up... read comics / The Bourne Identity / The Washington Post's Style section / The Washington Post's Outlook section / other random sections of the Post.  Ate breakfast and all that boring stuff.  Then I ran down to D.C. (all on three, now: no more shootings!  It's safe to go out!!) and watched, at NBC 4 (y'know, that station with the peacock feathers logo... and as in MSNBC, the shiny and professional lookin' cable news channel) the taping of It's Academic!  Yayyyy.  This particular episode will be aired around... Thanksgiving?  I think the weekend before Thanksgiving.  Regardless, the taping was fun because it's like going to a practice, except all bright-like... and I'm not expected to participate!  YES!!  I was encouraged to go shake hands with Mac or congratulate RM's team, but... you know me.  Fearing the whole smarmy greetings-with-people-I-don't-really-know thing, I high-tailed it out of there...  For those who care to know, RM ended with 635 points, B-CC with 465 points, and Centreville with 400 points.  RM and B-CC are from Montgomery County, MD; Centreville is from Fairfax County, VA.  As for national importance, well... they're the site of the recent sniper incidents!  What else do you need to know??  And um, there were only 6 cheerleaders there, all from B-CC.  What's that?  Two white and four black?  Infinitely more diverse-lookin' than RM's, that's for sure.  But I digress.  As old as Mac is startin' to look, he has his wonderful announcer voice perfectly intact.  B-CC's team (whose names I'll recall in a moment -_-) did okay, and so did Centreville.  But holy happy hamsters, RM is amazing.  They're obviously more used to attending taped tv tournaments... and maybe more used to winning?  No doubt!  Two seniors and a junior, I think they must know, between the three of them (and.. I'm forgetting those two alternates, but they are very brilliant as well) know pretty much anything worth knowing in high school academia.  I currently idolize them almost as much as I idolize Peter Pan, but it's really hard when I see them in school as perfectly normal people, rather than those adorable, precocious kids in the li'l suits and ties on tv, answering all those difficult questions.

For all of their genius and general fact retention / recall, I worked out every math question before any of them did, with perfect accuracy.  Yeah... that's why I'm not on any It's Ac team at all.  (I should mention at this point that these are probably Algebra I questions, and are difficult because they must be done within seconds, using only mental math.)  That's also why I'm feeling very, very interested in Math Team at the moment.  Well, comparatively.

I should be in Boston.  I should be in Boston.  I should be in Boston.  I should be in Boston.  I should be in Boston.

Min's from Boston??
i spiral into oblivion on Saturday, October 26, 2002, at 09:57 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

As good smooth as today went, I still felt sick today, but I can't seem to make myself go to bed before 11 pm or so.  I can't seem to do anything right.  Absolutely nothing was finished on time and without stress since last Monday...... October 14, 2002.  Nothing's going right.  Nothing.

I spent too much of today contemplating the reason I did not get to go to Boston this weekend.  I absolutely hate it, I hate it, I hate it... it's not fair...
i spiral into oblivion on Friday, October 25, 2002, at 10:35 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

It's the Friday Five, Halloween week!

1. What is your favorite scary movie?

Alice in Wonderland terrified me to no end.

Woo hoo... another issue of Game Informer.  Let's see, what's new... The Sims on PS2?  Fantastic!  You know, I won't buy it, but I'm always happy to hear about such things, somehow.  And anyway, since I've been doing a lot of scribbling on paper during school while I'm stressed, why don't we copy down some of it into this page?

• Dictatorship is the best form of government
• AIM interaction is better than real life interaction
• Humans are inherently selfish and heartless
• Religion is a scary thing
• Anarchy would be frightening.. yet amusing
• We wouldn't know when we die, 'cause we lose conciousness
• I'm not very successful, but those around me... they're even worse off
• Humans aren't meant to like or love their families, only tolerate them
• Violence is inacceptable... unless everyone does it
• Money, rather than health, should be taught as a deterrent to drugs

I feel vaguely guilty for dominating all recent conversations I've had with certain person(s).  I feel that... all I've done is complain about my own grievances; while they feel urgently stressful at the time, they are small problems in the long run.  I wish I hadn't been doing this, and I wish I'd been able to realize or perhaps admit this sooner.  I'm very sorry for doing so; I got carried away with hearing myself talk.  I would much rather hear what you have to say, if you'll still say it.

Thanks for listening.

I'll say this face-to-face, or as close to that as can be... just give me a day or so... or more... well, someday...

On an unrelated note, do me a small favor and enter this dark alleyway...
i spiral into oblivion on Thursday, October 24, 2002, at 06:42 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

I learned some time ago that there are some people not worth arguing with (or maybe even talking to).  These are the people whose views are so stubbornly rooted in their minds that, whether they are actually "right" or "wrong", they pretty much cannot be convinced by mere human logic.  This is the sort of person that I would normally recommend smacking upside the head and never seeing or talking to again.  However, problems arise when this person is a teacher, or some other sort of authority figure.  Abuse of power may occur... in the case of students, the person has every right to do many of various things... there is nothing one can do about such small injustices, as infuriating as they may seem at the time.  Grades and criticisms will fade with time, and as painful as they can be, they aren't final... nothing is.

A swift spatula upside your head if you can't figure out who I'm referring to.

I have mixed feelings about this apparent capture of the sniper(s)... it was a lot more interesting when everyone was afraid.  I guess I derived some twisted, morbid amusement from it.

Only walked ½ mile today!  As we all know by now, that's not nearly enough, but I specifically scheduled today completely free so that I could mentally relax.  Mentally relax I shall, and I've forgiven myself for slacking off on the treadmill; it takes surprisingly little effort to get back on track after skipping a few days here and there.  And... well... after being talked down from my stress over my math grade (by a few different people who are all very good at it... thank you), I feel almost ready to talk to Head of the Math Department about getting some points or at least talking to Ostrowski.  I mean, I'm still terrified of administria whom I do not know, but I've convinced myself that this is necessary.
i spiral into oblivion on Thursday, October 24, 2002, at 06:06 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

Aw crap.  X_x  I got a 21/40 on my IB problems packet.  Stupid me for not attaching the work for the last problem (hidden away on the back page) and stupid teacher for refusing to accept the work now for partial credit.  Does he think it will do any good to me to get a failing grade on a huge assignment?  That's not teaching me to attach papers more carefully, that's teaching me to resent teachers.  And umm, isn't the point of the IB to encourage higher thinking, rather than intimidate students with grade penalties and stapling lessons?

I hate that guy, just because he can get away with these things at RM doesn't mean he should be doing them.  Arrgh.  What am I going to do?!  My grade just dropped from 96% to 86% with the addition of this grade (and two other quiz grades)... at least, that's what I've estimated.  I can't get a B in this class!  I'm probably going to screw up on the PreCal exam!

*worry, worry, worry*
i spiral into oblivion on Thursday, October 24, 2002, at 12:58 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

Blink 182 - I Won't Be Home For Christmas
(slightly / oddly modified by me)

Outside the carolers start to sing
I can't describe the joy they bring
'Cause joy is something they don't bring me

My boyfriend is by my side
From the roof are hanging sickles of ice
Their whiny voices get irritating
It's Christmas time again

So I stand with a dead smile on my face
Wondering how much of my time they'll waste
Oh God, I hate these Satan's helpers

And then I guess I must have snapped
Because I grabbed the baseball bat
And made them all run for shelter

It's Christmas time, again
It's time to be nice to the people you can't stand, all year
I'm growing tired of all this Christmas cheer

You people scare me
Please stay away from my home
If you don't wanna get beat down
Just leave the presents and then leave me alone

Well, I guess it's not cool to freak on Christmas Eve
'Cause the cops came and arrested me
They had an unfair advantage

And even though the jail didn't have a tree
Christmas came a night early
'Cause a guy named Bubba unwrapped my package

It's Christmas time, again
It's time to be nice to the people you can't stand, all year
Im growing tired of all this Christmas cheer

You people scare me
Please stay away from my home
If you don't wanna get beat down
Just leave the presents and then leave me alone

I won't be home, I won't be home for Christmas
x6

LetsSingIt.com

Last year I spent Christmas Day watching Not Another Teen Movie and wandering the deserted streets of Rockville, MD.  Please don't let me ever do something that stupid again.  Er... watch a movie that stupid, I mean; wandering is good, although maybe not if the sniper is still loose by then (can you even fathom that?).
i spiral into oblivion on Wednesday, October 23, 2002, at 09:53 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

Not only do I live right nearby the Montgomery County shootings, I was at Seven Corners in VA the day before that shooting.  And I was in Bellingham a year ago, which they're investigating now (for something that happened... oh, a year ago?).  Very interesting.  Veeeery interesting.
i spiral into oblivion on Wednesday, October 23, 2002, at 09:45 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

I'm a failure.  I'm a failure.  I'm a failure.

I didn't finish my textnotes yesterday, and they were due today.  I'm supposedly turning them in tomorrow with a 10% late penalty, but I still haven't done the 16 I'm supposed to do today, and it's 6:40.  And there's the 45 question Chem review, and the Math test, and the French orals.  *wants to strangle her computer*  (Strangling one's computer?  Don't ever let it be said that my... writing / speaking style... is not unique)

I would not be this worried if it weren't for suddenly discovering in 10th grade that yes, even in a "special" program for "smart" kids, I can get grades that are better than simply "decent"... that I can get better than my nearly straight B's and that I can get A's higher than 90.1%... well, you get the idea, right?  After this recent revelation, I desperately do not want to drift back into last year's grades and habits.  But wait, what really is changed?  My teachers, my classes... not my study habits.  Hmm?  Don't be confused.  We can't both be.  And be patient, I can get myself back on track.  I simply don't have mental breakdowns.

See you tomorrow in school, completely sleep deprived!!
i spiral into oblivion on Wednesday, October 23, 2002, at 06:40 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

I need to do some thinking.  Y'know, be more honest with myself, and all that junk.  I don't mean in a personal way; oh goodness no.  I could never do that methodically.  I just need to re-evaluate all my activities, since we're now nearing the end of 1st quarter... which am I doing for myself, and which am I doing for others?  Which ones am I doing for absolutely no reason?  And most importantly, do I feel that my sanity and sense of relaxation can handle doing all three types?

Monday: Nuclear Disarmament Club was a one-time deal, as far as I can tell.  I don't think I was under an obligation to return immediately, though I probably will (in the absence of D&D or overwhelming classwork to catch up on) at some point.  Afterschool, there's Set Dec crew for Drama Club.  Ahh, Drama Club... why did I ever join?  Or furthermore, why did I even join two years in a row, knowing I'd want to quit within a week or two?  I have next to none interest in drama in general, and even less in giving myself hallucinations by volunteering to paint the auditorium walls two afternoons a week.  I guess both times, I joined to keep someone or other company, or to fulfill a half-promise.  Well, I'm now excusing myself, I don't belong here and I'm not comfortable with it at all.

Tuesday: There's OGF during lunch, which is really an obligation to Nick rather than a real interest right now.  Um... (if you're reading this...) not necessarily that it's bad, just that... uh... well, I'm not interested in very much right now.  No offense.  Anyway, after school there's It's Academic!... this would be an obligation to myself, more than anything else.  I want to do it, I like it... but considering my track record, I must be one of the worst people there, and I haven't yet figured out whether it means I just shouldn't go, or I should ask someone other than myself how to get better at it.  I really don't know.  Today's the second meeting in a row that I've missed.  I could stop now and there would be less complaint, maybe... well, I don't think so.  Ergh.  We'll see...

Wednesday: There's Debate Team during lunch, and Fine Lines / Math Team after school.  I don't know... I went to the first Debate Meet and all, and I enjoyed watching, but it doesn't seem like something I want to do myself.  If I don't want to do it myself, should I altogether stop attending the meetings, or should I keep going with no intention of ever debating?  I wish there were some arbitrary support role I could take on, to stay involved without having to argue anything.  Math Team afterschool... I've only gone twice so far, but it's been a lot of fun.  Guess who got 4/6 questions correct?  Yippie!  Now here's something I might actually be able to do!

*says darkly*  I loathe any site that mysteriously deletes my long, introspective, thoughtful journal entries.  May Pitas.com burn in some uncomfortably warm place for quite a time.  But of course, it can be blamed on me-- who am I to fiddle with the Date and Time for this entry I'm editing?  Bah.  Pitas.com wasted a good 10 minutes of my life, 10 minutes which could have been spent dwelling over my newfound (but probably very temporary) perfectionism.  But still!  All that stuff I typed about my extracurriculars!  It's damn important stuff, at least to me.  Eeerghh.

I got a 23/25 on my most recent math quiz?  I lost both of those points on a simple error, stemming from my poor recall of 8th grade Geometry?  Oh, just fail me now...
i spiral into oblivion on Tuesday, October 22, 2002, at 08:47 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

This is really stupid.  I can't access the site I need because it's blocked by the school's web censoring device.  Grr.  I would never want to do my Java homework at school during class, of course not.  How dare I!

I wasted about half of lunch class today, but I'm done with TopDownMerlinTheMathWizard.  Now I still need to finish IglatinPay and start TopDownCalculatorFor1040EZ.  But I need to do my textnotes tonight!  And prepare for the French "exam" tonight / tomorrow night!  And study for the math test / catch up on other miscellaneous work tomorrow night!  And cram for the Chem test Thursday night!

*collapses*

I wish I could stick around and talk about how much I idolize Peter Pan, both the Disney version and the original J.M. Barrie book's version, but the bell just rang... x_x;;
i spiral into oblivion on Tuesday, October 22, 2002, at 12:58 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

So anyway, I spent last night playing about 1 or 2 hours of Kingdom Hearts (my very own file of progress).  Most of that time was spent being seriously whupped by Riku, thanks to my bad initial decisions of a Defense stat of 1... -_-;  Well... I lost to him about 10 or 15 times in a row... my brother tells me I'm rather good at fighting in that game, that I'm better than he is, but I still cannot beat that grey-haired punk.  Grr.  Amidst the repeated failure, I accidentally leaped into a tree while fighting him... and, err.... climbed up the tree.  Last night, I dreamt I climbed trees.  Really tall trees.  And Phyllis was there!  It was rather fun, and I didn't fall at all.

Earlier last night, I managed to start FF7 and actually figure out that I'd changed the controls the last time I attempted the game.  The game very frustratingly froze on me, so I gave up for the night.  This morning, I tried again, and actually completed around 31 minutes of play time total.  Cloud's okay, Tifa's okay, I don't like Barret that much but that's largely because I gave him a rather bad voice when I read the lines out loud.  Hmph.  I want voice tracks for every game I buy from now on.  FF7 is just fine, I don't hate it or love it right now, but how can anyone tell from half an hour of play?  I'm going to continue it when I get around to it.  I've heard FF6 was really good, and somewhat similar to FF5 and FF7... I wanted to like that game, but I got so horribly lost and disoriented every time I picked it up that I've given up for now.  Bleah.

Think I should get started on my homework for the weekend?  It is Sunday...
i spiral into oblivion on Sunday, October 20, 2002, at 03:47 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

Wow.  Just... wow.  I love watching Kingdom Hearts!!  Sure, I'd hate actually playing it, as it's a platformer by Squaresoft (and I suck at platforming)... but still!  Those cutscenes... they don't carry the strangely heavy emotional weight that FFX held for me, but they're simply amusing, and I like that.  I enjoyed Disney voice acting (shh!) and I enjoyed FFX's voice acting, imperfect as it was.  So I very highly anticipated Kingdom Hearts.  My brother has played for about 18 hours now, and as much as I am surprised by Haley Joel Osmont's performance as Sora, I'm dreading Sephiroth with the voice of Lance Bass... Mandy Moore is Aerith and does a half-decent job, as in "I didn't like Aerith in the first place but my ears aren't bleeding, so it's alright"; Yuffie (now pronounced "yuu-fee") is played by Christy Carlson Romano, who does much better than she does in Disney's horrible attempt at a tough girl animated series, "Kim Possible"; I also absolutely adore Cloud's voice, whose actor I've temporarily forgotten; I think he'd do well as Squall (who calls himself "Leon", even though Yuffie called him Squall)'s voice, but maybe he's good as Cloud, I don't know the story of FF7.  Squall's voice actor, whose name I have also forgotten, is decent.  Neither ear-splitting nor awe-inspiring.  Riku's voice actor, who I think is David Gallagher (or he might be Squall's voice actor... I need that little informational booklet!!), does a good job.

Maleficent: Why?  Because I care about you!  You're like a son to me!
Riku: I seriously doubt that.

Hamtaro Ending Theme - Hamtaro.com

Snoozer, Penelope, Panda, Howdy, Oxnard, Bijou & Boss let’s go!
Zersnoo, Pepenelo, Sobs, Dapan, Dehow Nardox Joubi & Hamtaro!

Hamster, Ham-Ham, Ticky Ticky, Kushi Kushi
Sunflower, Khrrmp Khrrmp, Hamtaro!

Ya, Ya, Ya, Ya, Ya ooh, la la la
Ya, Ya, Ya, Ya ooh, la la

Ya, Ya, Ya, Ya, Ya ooh la la la
Ya, Ya, Ya, Ya ooh, la, la ya

Let’s make a wish ooh, ooh
Make it come true
Singing along with us is all you do!

Come on and do your very best, ooh, ooh
Get a hundred on your test

All of your dreams will come true
Come on and . . .

Sing this secret spell it's just for you
Think of all the luck we’ll bring

Hamtaro will know just what to do
This will be our song, come on and sing . . .

Snoozer, Penelope, Panda, Howdy, Oxnard Bijou & Boss let’s go!
Zersnoo, Pepenelo, Sobs, Dapan, Dehow Nardox Joubi & Hamtaro!

Little Hamsters, Big Adventures
Ham-Ham, Hamtaro!
i spiral into oblivion on Saturday, October 19, 2002, at 07:55 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

Go to AcronymFinder.com and enter your intials.  Who says you can't have fun with research tools on the internet?
i spiral into oblivion on Saturday, October 19, 2002, at 07:23 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

I want you all to know that I'm playing Hamtaro games online at CartoonNetwork.com as I type this, so I'll be losing and typing crap at the same time.  See, I'm just so efficient like that.  (My current high score for the leftmost game is 970.  Pathetic.)

I went to RM today from 1 to 3 pm.  Supposedly I was there to... watch the only person I knew of who would be there?  Nick played for Chinese Club, but it turned out Mike (?  That's what he called himself but I thought his name was something else, I think I met him... once or twice last year... oh well), Shengji, ET (that is a real nickname, presumably for some name beginning with yi-t... um... right...), Jake, and some other people I vaguely recognized also played for that team.  They lost rather spectacularly, and with the elimination rounds format today, they didn't play long at all... one Chinese Club team lost to one Asian American Club team, and the other Chinese Club team lost to one Jewish Club team.  Each club had two teams.  ET said today, "Chinese people can't play basketball."  I think Chinese Club played alright today, just not during the real games... they were more entertaining when playing out back behind the school.  Anyway... Alex V played for Jewish Club!  Didn't know that, but doesn't seem too surprising.  The games and stuff were badly organized, sorry to say.  They really should have had the teams playing nonstop all day, in some sort of rotation, rather than with elimination rounds; a lot of people don't like sticking around and watching the people who just beat them up.

I had a good time at RM, in the sense that it was better than sitting at home by myself for two hours, I didn't injure myself, I didn't get physically sick, and it was amusing at least part of the time.  I didn't get to try any of the food there because I hadn't brought any money to donate.  There were some boring points in the day, where I was tempted to just call my mom from my cell phone and run off to Regal with a few other bored people, but I resisted because we didn't really have any money with us, and I didn't feel like borrowing from my mom or paying for all my friends.  I'm not sure if I could even afford that.  All in all... that was a tiring two hours.  I don't really have much to say about it... but that's all I did today, other than watch my brother play Kingdom Hearts.  How... exciting.  But my goodness, Cloud has a nice voice...

Updated from above, my Hamtaro bouncing-a-hamster-across-a-yard score is now 1230.  Oh yeah, you know I'm horrible at these Flash games...
i spiral into oblivion on Friday, October 18, 2002, at 07:54 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

I keep taking these surveys without linking to whomever I took them from, I almost feel bad...

1. Favorite Animal: Wolf
2. Favorite Sport: ....
3. Favorite Color(s): Red and black
4. Favorite Friend(s): You want me to choose?!?
5. Favorite Friend(s) Online: A bit more specific this time, but still... no.
6. Favorite Song(s): Wellll.. I'm currently listening to that Kingdom Hearts theme song (in my mind), if that counts...
7. Favorite Movie Quote: "Holy rusted metal, Batman!" "What?" "The metal... it's rusted... and full of holes..." "Oh." --Batman and Robin (I think?  Well, it's one of those Batman movies)
8. Favorite Store: Meh.  No stores.
9. Favorite Feeling: Slight buzzing in my head
10. Favorite Shoe: Er... my red ones?
11. Favorite Scent: Aftershave
13. Which is more important, personality or looks?: Personality (incidentally, I think someone's afraid of the number 12 rather than 13  ^_^)
14. What kind of personality do you like in a guy/girl?: Funny, intelligent... good listener... and a nice voice is a great plus
15. Do you move fast or slow in a relationship?: ?
16. What is your idea of the perfect guy/girl?: Nobody's perfect
17. Would you ever ask someone out?: I have
18. Do you prefer blondes or brunettes?: Dunno

Love, life and friends
1. What is the first thing you notice about someone?: I'm not that observant
2. When's the last time you cried?: I don't keep track of such things O_o
3. What do you want to be when you grow up?: Wanderer
4. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?: No (and even when I was a little kid, I tried to, but they aren't that comforting and I'd always kick them off the bed by morning)
5. How far have you gotten?: In travel, around the world
6. Do you have a best friend?: I guess..?
7. How many people have you kissed?: Um...
8. Had oral sex with?: Never
9. Had sex with?: I'm a virgin
10. Gotten drunk with?: Never had anything remotely alcoholic

Within the last 24 hours, have you... 1. Had a serious talk?: No
2. Hugged someone?: No
3. Gotten along well with your parents?: Sure
4. Fought with a friend?: Have I really done that ever?
5. That's it?: Why not?

Do you like to... 1. Give hugs?: Not usually, but...
2. Give back rubs?: Never done that
3. Take walks in the rain?: Every school day that it rains!
4. You ever have that falling dream?: I used to have it a lot, hardly ever nowadays though
5. What is on the walls of your room?: Five anime wall scrolls, one anime poster, three bookshelves of anime videos / dvds, anime cds, graphic novels, manga magazines... video game magazines... you know you're jealous
7. Do you use chap stick?: Whenever I remember to

In the last month have/did you...
1. Drink?: No
2. Smoke?: No
3. Drugs?: No
4. Have Sex?: No
5. Make Out?: No
6. Go on a date?: No
8. Go to the mall?: No (hey look, 7's missing too, I thought I was the only one who thought it was a bad number)
9. Eaten an entire box of Oreos?: No
10. Eaten sushi?: No
11. Been on stage?: No
12. Been dumped?: No
13: Have someone be unfaithful to you?: No (or if yes, how would I even know?)
14. Watched The Smurfs?: No (never have!)
15. Hiked a mountain?: No
16. Made homemade cookies?: No, and I never will
17. Been in love?: Define the word again...

More stuff...
1. Are you popular?: Sorta well liked, I guess, but not everyone everywhere knows my name
2. Are you pretty?: In that I don't think of myself as ugly, then yes!
3. Disappeared?: What??
4. What is your favorite word to say: I don't say anything that much (do I?)
5. What is your favorite phrase to say?: "....."
6. What are you doing right now?: Shivering and chattering (it's so cold in here!)
7. What song are you listening to?: Nothing, I'm just hearing the keyboard clatter away
8. What are you wearing?: Blue t-shirt, RM gym shorts (they're comfortable!), oversized red and black faux-furry winter coat (hey, I said I was cold)

This section seems to lack a title, poor thing
1. Cold or hot?: Cold
2. Lace or satin?: Neither!
3. Blue or Red?: Red (but previously blue)
4. New or old?: New
5. Rain or snow?: Rain (unless we get an ever so rare Snow Day..)
6. Give or receive?: Give
7. Wool or cotton?: Neither
8. Rose or Daisy?: Neither!  Geez, such strange question choices...
9. Private school or public school?: Public magnet / IB
10. Chocolate milk or plain milk?: Soy milk
11. Celsius or Fahrenheit?: .....
12. Spring or Fall?: Fall
13. Inny or outty?: Inny (I never understood why this question is interesting...)
14. Now or then?: Now
15. How many fingers am I holding up?: Three.  Most definitly three.
16. Scent?: This was asked earlier... scroll up!
17. English or Math?: Math math math math math
18. Bath or shower?: Shower (do people who take baths do so because they're too lazy to stand up?)
19. Bedtime phrase?: G'night, sugary dreams!
21. Cursive or print?: Word processor-like print 23. Paranoid or Cautious?: Paranoid
24. Heights or Crowds?: Crowds (I love safe heights... like towers...)
25. Half-full or half-empty?: Broken glass is more fun
26. Top or bottom?: Huh?
27. Do you/Would you dye your hair?: Maybe someday, but black is a good color
28. Speeding or running red lights?: Don't drive yet
29. Gold or silver?: Neither (like I said, such bad questions...)
30. Bad habits?: Good question.  I really don't know.
31. Piercing?: Never!  o_o
33. "Maybe" or "Mebbe?": Mebbe is stupid
35. What do you wish you'd done?: Nothing in particular (but where's #34?  It's such a non-threatening number!)
36. Fetish?: Um...
37. Do you have one of THOSE voices?: Only within my mind
38. Jammies or naked?: Daytime clothes
39. Neurotic or psychotic?: Neurotic
40. Do you talk to yourself?: All the time

That took a full 21 minutes of my day.  My foot is numb now.
i spiral into oblivion on Friday, October 18, 2002, at 12:00 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

It's the Friday Five, TV edition!  As well as my first time answering... I think...

1. How many TVs do you have in your home?

*looks around and counts*  Four, but not all of them are hooked up to cable tv ^_^;;

Dave Barry's column was really depressing for me to read.  First of all, what kind of school was Crestville Middle School, anyway?  Based on the word choice and structure in the students' essay exerpts... one in dire need of new funding and / or instruction via brainwashing.  On Dave Barry's side, I like the article and it was well written, in the sense that I got the point and laughed in the process... but I hope he knows (since I cannot find a direct e-mail link, a very wise decision on the part of the web page designers) that not all students only care about current bands.  I personally think that the newspaper should definitely not be changed to entertain the youth of America, but rather, Americans (of all ages) simply need to take a greater interest in what is already said.  One student said, 'Don't use jokes that we don't understand.  In your article, you said, 'a much higher percentage than the general population voted for Stalin.'  Who is Stalin?  Put in jokes kids understand.'  Statements like these are why we need better history and current events education and educators in our schools; if my generation is going to be leading this dangerously strong country in a few decades, we really do need to know what happened before, so we don't make the same mistakes of our own country or of others.  However, since it's really, really difficult to change a mass of people's minds, I agree with another quoted suggestion: 'I think that one way you could improve newspaper sales to young people, would be making the paper look more appealing?  Maybe some blue and red ink?'  Er... well, as far as I know, the bigger budget newspapers do have color pictures.  And considering illiteracy rates, we do need those pictures, don't we?

*rereads this entry*  ...I think I need to start writing more.  Lousy word choice.  Lousy sentence structure.  Clumsy arguments.  Blah.
i spiral into oblivion on Friday, October 18, 2002, at 11:14 a.m... it's never too late to change the past

I'm brain dead.  Cannot follow a full sentence, by the last word I've forgotten how it started.  Placed the jar of peanut butter in the fridge and the cheese in the cupboard.  That sort of sleepiness.  I'm not usually this mentally inept, really, I'm not!  I'm just very, very tired right now.  Not only that I've been a bit more sleep deprived than usual this week, despite it only being Thursday... I'm feeling a bit ill, in ways that I don't care to explain in detail.  Suffice it to say that I'm a bit short of breath and dizzy, but not seriously sick, I'll be fine by tomorrow.  Trust me.  This happens.  And no, I haven't stopped eating or anything silly like that.

Somehow, I had a conversation just now that concluded that I am currently dead.  What?
i spiral into oblivion on Thursday, October 17, 2002, at 10:16 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

I reached 100 entries so quickly.  Aren't you proud of me?  I don't think I want to look over the old entries quite yet, but I flipped through a paper journal I kept during 8th grade... it's really sad.  I mean, not sad as in sad, but sad as in pitiful.  I guess I was more upbeat, but had less confidence.  No, I was really insecure.  And... well, I don't want to relive middle school.  This is much better.  I have a stronger grip on reality.  And I'd like to think that my mind is more resistant to my imagination nowadays.

On an irrelevant note, I think I may have gotten my customized comments to work.  Leave me a note and check it out.
i spiral into oblivion on Thursday, October 17, 2002, at 03:09 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

can't repeat the past?
why of course you can!

hosted by?
pitas.com

may answer to?
Sharon, Ronnie, Ron, Ron-Won, Spatula girl, Grill-gurl...

is not paid for?
Pretending to be cultured, Notes on "significant" past events, Pretending to be literate, Playing with fire and hydrochloric acid, Attending résumé padders / stuffing face with water, Probing numbers in painful ways, Using computers to probe numbers in less painful ways, Pretending to be bilingual.

addicted to?
Video games, comic books, print periodicals, lemon fanfics, real books, anime, manga, anything that seems to run on its own, electricity, fire, electrical fire, foods with no taste, running on my hamster wheel.

enamoured with?
bright flashing lights, anything relating to Rurouni Kenshin, anything with a sword, anything involving a sword metaphor, wolves, spiders, wolf spiders, things that remotely resemble a computer, things that involve a lot of seemingly mind-boggling text.

frightens?
bugs that move faster than I do, certain creepy hallways, school photos, any sort of photo id, AOL, msn, user-friendly interfaces.

i sold my soul to...
albhed NUCHI
A U R O N I S M
i want to be... Young Link (Super Smash Bros. Melee).
Frontpage?  SCREW IT!  Do it yourself!

i have yet to save the world of...
Final Fantasy VII, Final Fantasy VIII, Final Fantasy X, Chrono Trigger, EarthBound, Golden Sun, Tales of Phantasia, Chrono Cross, Final Fantasy VI, Dragon Warrior, Dragon Warrior II... and many unfortunate others.

stalker's tools?
e-mail
aim

religious texts?
8-bit theater
megatokyo
userfriendly
penny arcade
life in japan

those kooky people?
Yicy
Min
Ben

bishonen?
(in the order in which they come to mind) Himura Kenshin, Spike Spiegel, Tidus, Auron, Squall Leonhart, Irvine Kinneas, Link, Crono, Hajime Saitoh, Sephiroth, Seifer Almasy, Sagara Sanosuke, Magus, Cloud (heard his voice in Kingdom Hearts!!... mmm...)

guilty as charged?
otaku: 36% corrupt (I would've scored much higher a year ago)
feminist: 91.4% pure
geek: 24% corrupt
mental purity: 63.8% pure