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Friday Five

1. Did you vote in your last elections?

No, I did not vote in the recent elections.  My main reason is that I am not of voting age, but I'm not positive that I would have even if I were...
2. Do you know who your elected representatives are?
Only to the extent that we discussed it for 15 minutes in AP US History the day after the elections.
3. Have you ever contacted an elected representative?  If so, what was it about?
I have never done so in my entire life.  Oh, wait, does SGA count?  I briefly talked to Steven [S] after last year's SGA elections to congratulate him, I think that's it.
4. Have you ever participated in a demonstration?
Never have, and I'm not sure if I ever will.
5. Have you ever volunteered in an election? What was the result?
I have never volunteered in an election or helped any sort of campaign.  (This time, SGA does not count... it was elementary school, I was young and even moreso deluded then.)
I don't really like these recent Friday Fives.  I love those superficial ones that I can give my views on, like television or Halloween... see, that is what I think about most of the time.  I like the idea of politics, but only in a vacuum... I don't like any particular party or candidate (or even ideology...) that exists in my world today.  And the problem is, I'm underinformed to the point that I don't dislike them either.  Do I really have to talk when I don't yet have an opinion?  As for religion... I don't believe in anything that any organized religion has told me yet, but I don't disbelieve in anything.  To tell the truth, I would rather not know whether there is any greater being or afterlife.  And I would rather not think about it... too many wars have been fought over religious conflicts; so, if others want to continue devoting so much of their life to a divisive issue, that's fine, but I most certainly don't plan to do so.

See?  Leave me to myself and I will talk to myself.

currently listening to: Eminem - Without Me

i spiral into oblivion on Saturday, November 9, 2002, at 06:35 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


I think I will save my entries from now on.  Grrr.  Damn MSN Explorer and its obscure shortcuts to MSN pages that I really don't need and have a tendency to accidentally hit when typing something totally irrelevant.  I will save as I type from now on.

As I was saying, I had a very good time last night.  And by that, I mean watching Splendor in the Grass by a high school Drama Club... nothing more.  The actors were very decent, at least from what I could hear of what they were saying... but the plot of the play can perhaps be summed up best in John [H]'s words: "'Splendor in the Grass' means sex" and "parents suck".  No, really... that's what I got from the play.  This play certainly felt very long and very short; it was long because I was already very sleepy (after a tiring week), and it was short because I overestimated its runtime by about 30 minutes.  Not such a bad thing, since this presented the opportunity to stand aimlessly on the stage for 25 minutes.  I may have an unhealthy fear of home video camcorders, but standing on a stage without a real audience is great fun.  This also taught me that I really do not know very many people in Drama.  (And incidentally, I spontaneously remembered why I hate Drama... not for the people there, but because I absolutely hate it every time I try to do something related, I hate the environment... everything about it, I just can't stand it.)

*tries to calm down*

While on stage, we briefly said hi to... Jai, Sam, and Ersin.  Willie reassured Jai that he made the right decision in choosing the IB... and that yes, Blair is absolutely horrific; no, he needn't waste any more sleepless nights on the missed opportunity of the magnet program... and, et cetera.  Jai was watching us during a few scenes of the play (from up there in Lighting Crew) as well... from different parts of the auditorium.  Very very creepy.  Sam, in Lighting Crew as well, inquired as to what Jai meant when berating us for laughing during the play... and then agreed with Jai; Splendor in the Grass is tragic.  Maybe I should try to phrase this in Jai's words, complete with extraneous punctuation: "Splendor in the Grass is a tragic story!  It's sad, it's not funny!  You weren't supposed to laugh!  The man gets beat up and nearly dies... it's not funny!  If it were Splendor in the Ass, that would be funny.  This play is not!  And you didn't even laugh at any of the funny parts!  He says, 'I think I need another drink...' and it's funny!  Because he's obviously already drunk!"

Hn.  Talking with Ersin was easier, and afterwards I got the impression that Willie knew him a bit better than she was letting on, wink wink... no, really, that was elementary school, I don't mean anything.  We didn't go to the Silver Diner though, thanks mainly to the fact that both our parents (Willie's and mine) were waiting outside for us by this point.

I really don't want to repeat this, but I lack the vocabulary to express how much I hate every moment I have spent actually involved in Drama, even if it does total approximately two hours... it is hell, and if you care about me at all, you (the one reading this, if you attend my school) will not under any circumstances try to talk me into signing up next year.  I am very happy to sit back and watch their performances, but do not get me to pretend I'm involved ever again.

If things had been different I might have turned out a completely self-centered misogynist.  Though I'm not sure what I'm referring to when I say "things".

Nick [K] and Michael [C] are excellent real-time BS-ers, why didn't they make Mock Trial this year?

currently listening to: Eminem - Without Me

i spiral into oblivion on Saturday, November 9, 2002, at 05:01 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


This is a truly strange feeling that I haven't had since 8th grade or so...  *dramatic sounds*...  I don't have much to carry for school!  (Haha.  Were you expecting a different sort of feeling?)  My French book is in my locker, and my Chem book is with Ersin, so I don't have to carry much of anything.  And... hm.  I know this is a really, really stupid thing to write about, but I haven't done anything today!  Life's good but boring, eh?

First period I drew one ceiling corner of the Art room, but I added a disco ball of sorts... Second and Third period I almost fell asleep, except for Steven [L]'s rendition of James Earl Jones' character from Fences.  That was hilarious... very, er... fitting...  Fourth period I started to get that sleepy glazed over look again.  Hey, what can I say?  I was up till 11:20 because I didn't start my IB problem until around 11.  Uh oh.  Big scary homework grade in Math class.  During lunch I walked around the school more than my tired arms would have liked, and contemplated (with Humza, Han, and Nick) how to get the administration to allow Gaming Club (basically D&D) to be a school sponsored event... by Ms Edwards!  *evil cackle*  I think if this ever gets approved, she'll regret letting us meet in her room twice a week during lunch.  But that'd be great, wouldn't it?

Right now, I feel like I'm the only one who hasn't started a club.  Hmmm.  What am I good at that I don't mind making an ad for RMBC about?

.....

Nothing?  Mike [S] has Juggling Club, Rachel has Knitting Club... I think.  Nick has OGF, and Humza will have Gaming Club if it carries through.  Sheila has BLiSS over at MBHS...  Yes, I really need some club to form.  I also need to get better at It's Ac and Math Team, hopefully I'll have some significance in at least one of them by Junior year.

Things I still need to do:

  • ...buy some books.  Specifically, E-Tales 2 and E-Tales 3, as well as Peter Pan by J.M. Barrie.  And... hmm... miscellaneous other graphic novels... like Inu-Yasha 12 and Dragonball Z 6 - 9 or 10.  And Kodocha 1, and Chobits 2, and Love Hina 1 - 3... I don't think I have nearly enough money, do I?
  • ...attend more movies and plays.  First school play of the year is this Friday, which I'll hopefully be going to.  Splendor in the Grass.  I think that's quite possibly the best title for bad jokes.  Well, mainly pot jokes and sex jokes.  (Which led to a rather unpleasant occurrence at lunch the other day, ending with Jai thrusting a nearby locker repeatedly... erm, never mind that...)  Willie should be coming for that, I think.  Unless she gets lost on the school bus system.  Well, whatever... also, I must see Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets next Friday.  Hush!  I know it's a children's series, I like children's stuff.  I did read all the books so far.  And I own the books.  Sure, the first movie sucked, but lookie all those computer generated effects!  That, and I really need to go to the movies again.  It's been too long without anything I've got any interest whatsoever in.
Here's something very amusing, if you're familiar with some of the characters in Final Fantasy X, and the obsessive fanfiction authors surrounding that game.  Actually, I like it no matter what.  Go look at it.  It's short, I promise.

My fingers are so cold, I feel like I'm getting frostbite.  Indoors.

Uuur.  Dryd fyc gehty ihlusvundypma.  Cra fyc ceddehk vyenmo haynpo, nekrd?  Yht lryddehk fedr... yhudran bancuh ypuid cusadrehk un udran, bnupypmo ennamajyhd.  Cra cittahmo cyet, yvdan uha nasyng, "E zicd dumt **** ***** dryd."  "Oui tet?"  "Oayr.  E damm res ajanodrehk.  *csymm myikr*"

Fuf.  E bnaddo silr tnubbat so bahlem frah E raynt dryd hysa, yht zicd mecdahat.  Pid hudrehk suna.  Cu jano ihhanjehk, cu jano ihhanjehk... pid, ed'c ugyo.  Ed'c hu uha'c vyimd yht E tuh'd ghuf vun cina fryd E drehg.

Bmayca, *****... tuh'd vymm vun res?

currently listening to: Smile.dk - Butterfly

i spiral into oblivion on Thursday, November 7, 2002, at 02:48 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


Whoa.  My hands really, really hurt right now.  I've done way too much writing in the past 24 hours!  First, I arrived at school, sat around and did nothing for Period 1 except for using one of those 'matt cutters' (what a weird name for a 'machine') to put a 'frame' on my 'drawing'.  In Period 2, we briefly discussed the elections yesterday, making me realize it's very difficult to make myself care about these things.  Ehhh.  And we turned in those damned essays that I wrote late last night.  I feel so bad... I mean, one page handwritten?  That's pathetic.  But anyway, Period 3.  English class!  Hurray!  Aaaand, the minute I step into the classroom... the lights turn off.  What the fuck? is what my classmates looked like they were thinking, but it came out more like, "What was that?!"  Turns out yet another squirrel found its doom in a RMHS generator.  Hahaha.  Great flickering lighting for writing my in-class essay.  It's nice that Mr McKenna gave us another 10 minutes tomorrow to wrap it up though, because I really need it.  Period 4, I walk in and discover that we have a 'quiz', and by 'quiz' I mean a quiz that takes the entire class period and is worth 30-50 points, somewhere in the range.  Hmmm.  Why do I not know about these things beforehand, eh?  No matter, I'm sure I got a C+ or B- or something of the sort.  It's sort of my standard for English and Science classes since middle school.  Who knew I could suck at left-brain and right-brain classes?

Lunchtime is nice.  I sat and watched the interesting lunch bunch in the computer hallway, because anyone who would be at the media center should well have been at Debate Team, and Ben wasn't here-- I couldn't give the present I took the effort to find.  And no, it's not catgirl anime.  I tried, okay?!  After lunch was... Period 5?  Math class, we had a quiz.  Oooh.  I screwed up that quiz rather badly.  Perhaps not as badly as my Unit 3 (first trig unit) 38/50, but somewhere in the area of B-, I think.  Good god, I hope it's not lower than that.  Period 6 we are learning to write a card game program in Java using prewritten classes.  I don't completely see the point in this, but it's not very hard at all, considering I did the lab in 8 minutes and I consider myself slow at programming.  I like programming though.  Nice, easy class.  It's my highest grade, at a 94.5% or so.  Period 7 we had a 'quiz', and by 'quiz' I once again mean a 30 point-ish test.  Mostly about this movie, Rue Casse-Negres or something like that, I'm sure I've just mutilated the spelling of some classic movie.  Considering I suck at these IC (interlude culturel) tests, and I've been pulling an 88 in French, I'm not expecting a high grade.  Is that it?  Oh yeah, my Chem Honors Project topic got rejected.  What am I going to do now?

Math Team meet today went alright, I suppose.  Our infamous Barry was missing, because this brilliant pianist was busy with the Black Maskers, and so we did not have as many as points as we could have.  Of course, this means Pin-yi was on the A Team, which is good, because she fully deserves to be... more than I do?  I won't say, but she is good at Math Team.  (Speaking of which, I believe she's the only one in our Math class who knows what she's doing, and getting an A.  Look at the rest of us, we're getting B's... and those who are thoroughly confused, or at least claim to be, are getting A's.  Damn that Ostrowski!)  Anyway, RM's A Team scored 13, and since this is our first meet of the season, that's also our total score.  B Team did alright, I guess, but I don't remember what the number was.  We did whip Rockville HS pretty well though, didn't we?  I admit... we will never beat Blair.  And now that I think about it, didn't the sponsor say that everyone in A Team got at least 1 question right?  Ooohhh.  I have a bad feeling that I got only one right.  Well... I could have done a lot better, but at least I tried...?  Aw, I feel bad.  I've let RM down.  I'll do better next time, I promise.

currently listening to: Eminem - Without Me

i spiral into oblivion on Wednesday, November 6, 2002, at 06:20 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


Just because I can, here's a picture of my dream t-shirt.  (Don't order it for me, I wouldn't know until it arrives whether it fits or not...)  And of course, I also want this shirt, even though I do have the poster ^_^

currently listening to: Digitally Imported [online radio]

i spiral into oblivion on Tuesday, November 5, 2002, at 06:39 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


Today is Election Day, and lucky us in Maryland have no school today.  Yeah, sure.  Lucky.  All I'm doing today is sitting at home in front of the computer, contemplating how much I hate being at home, wishing I were at school... and staring at my "web sites".  Eww, they're so ugly.  I think I need professionally taught lessons in Photoshop.  Or I need some sort of injection into the right side of my brain, because my Art journal is even more painful to look at.  I know my teacher likes it, but I don't!  It's just so horrible!  It's so unbearably bad that I want to burn it... as for my web sites, I don't think I can burn it unless I track down brinkster.com and pitas.com's servers and torch those... and deleting my files isn't a lot of fun.  Ahhh.  I know I'm being overly angsty at the moment.  Hush, Min.

I'm having trouble talking to my dad right now.  I get along with him so well.  I do what he says, when he says "go to sleep earlier" or "exercise more" or "eat healthier", however vague each request is.  I don't understand why my brother can't just do the same, even if he's going to be in this house two years longer than I am.  But today, I keep squirming and wanting to run... not run in place, but run away.  (If I tried that now, I'd either freeze to death or get bored and just walk back home.  No thanks to both options.)  I keep getting grilled on this and that.  This and that, this and that.  I-- oh, hold on, the phone's ringing.

Okay, *** just called about a math problem from the homework.  #$%(*$!!!  I have no idea how to solve this.  *thoroughly annoyed at self*  Which brings me very smoothly to my next topic, I am terrified of the Math Team meet tomorrow.  And... oh, I've completely lost my train of thought.  Blehh.  I want to run away to a life of comfort, like those little kids in the book I read in 5th grade...

I'm starting to feel really tense and afraid.  My parents don't tell me that I need to get straight A's like other Asian parents supposedly do... no, my dad's worse than that.  He expects me to achieve things in the spotlight, and if I don't want to, it's because I've been influenced (negatively) by my mom, not because I don't want to.  I can't convey just how much I suck at It's Academic, but he wants me to make it onto one of those teams... I hate everything I've done art-related for the past 10 years or so, except for a few of those traced Ranma ½ pictures... I'm not the teenage genius he seems to think I am, and I don't want to be... why does he have to assume that when a classmate calls, I was the one doing the explaining, or that my classmates are bad in math, or... I don't know... I don't just feel like a failure, I'm convinced that I am.  All I want to do is curl up in the computer chair and read Kurama + Botan fics, but I can't do that either, stupid tv's on at a ridiculously high volume... *crumples up into a ball*

currently listening to: Blink 182 - Adam's Song

i spiral into oblivion on Tuesday, November 5, 2002, at 02:28 p.m... it's never too late to change the past



What type of Bishounen are you? Find out at artificial-soul.net by Rin.


No smart-ass comments about me taking a bishounen test, please.  Sooo.  I don't really agree with those results but, whatever, it's an online quiz.  And the dude in the picture's not very pretty for a bishounen.  Ha.

currently listening to: more keyboard clattering

i spiral into oblivion on Monday, November 4, 2002, at 03:58 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


Kingdom Hearts is fun!  I played for around 2 or 3 hours today, and I accomplished much.  I lost mightily to "Leon", laughed at the easy boss that my teammates pretty much beat for me (with the funny disjointed arms and legs), and stumbled through my first gummi ship level, which I've decided is kinda annoying and not really useful.  Maybe they could have just left it out of the game.  Upon arrival at the first stage, I found out that it's Alice in Wonderland.  Wonderland scares me, as does the Cheshire Cat and the Queen of Hearts.  I mean they really scare me, or at least they remind me of when I was terrified as a little kid.  >_<;;  I asked my brother to beat them for me.  He beat the entire stage pretty easily!  It's rather good at it.  Though he tells me I play very well for someone who's just picked it up.

Vilg res.  E ycgat res du bmyo y cdyka eh Gehktus Rayndc vun sa, dra cibbucat ayceacd uha, palyica E'ja kud y taab-caydat lremtruut vayn uv dra Lracrena Lyd.  Cu fryd ev ra saccac ib rana yht drana.  Ra kadc syt yht lincac sa uid, redc sa uh dra nekrd drekr dfela yht dra nekrd yns uhla, palyica E belgat dra cdnahkdrc yht fayghaccac uv dra mayt lrynyldan pytmo yd dra pakehhehk uv dra kysa.  E tuh'd lyna ev ra saccac ib, un dryd ra teat.  E lyh'd pa aqbaldat du tenald res drnuikr pyddmac dra fyo ra lyh tu vun sa.  E lyh'd bmyo dra kysa, dryd'c fro E ycgat res du. nbsp;Ra kadc syt duu aycemo.  Ra nayldc du drehkc pytmo frah ra'c syt.  Syopa ed'c so bnupmas.  E fyc dnaydehk res mega E tu y hunsym risyh paehk.  Ymsucd mega ra fyc y vneaht uv seha vnus clruum.  Cdibet sa.

Do I overreact when I write here?  I'm close to my 6th or so archive.  I don't get very many comments here.  I'd like comments, but it's not necessary.  I do write for myself.  Not that I'd call this writing.  But still.  I'm feeling like a bit of a failure.  I really, really want to go buy something... in an unrelated way.  Really.

I did not get along very well with everyone at Willie's house that night.  Why the hell not?  I haven't figured that out yet.  It really annoys me.  I also really hate busy signals on the phone.  I can't explain this, except maybe that I've had caller ID, call waiting, and various other phone frivolities since I was fairly young.

currently listening to: Hikaru Utada - Simple and Clean [extended] [English]

i spiral into oblivion on Sunday, November 3, 2002, at 04:22 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


I walked 1.5 miles at 3 mph today.  While reading Game Informer's November 2002 issue.  My current Winamp playlist:

1. DDR - Dynamite Rave (1:36)
2. DDR - Mr. Wonderful (3:13)
3. DDR - Shooting Star (4:13)
4. DDR - Moonlight Shadow (1:31)
Yeah.  Nice songs.  So, go download!

currently listening to: DDR songs

i spiral into oblivion on Saturday, November 2, 2002, at 09:22 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


I want to be at school, during 6th period, working on something that I know I can do.  Something that has inherent usefulness in this world I live in.  And something that I can get an A in.  (I guess that last one's just a fringe benefit.)

Min, just so you know, you linked my site title to Toastyfrog.com.  Toastyfrog.com is a great site, but it's not mine.  Stop giving me credit for it!

currently listening to: Hikaru Utada - Simple and Clean [remix] [English]

i spiral into oblivion on Saturday, November 2, 2002, at 01:38 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


Ra tuac hud vilgehk tacanja du meja.  Ev E teth'd ryja du funno ypuid yhodrehk mydan, yht E luimt, E fuimt kad net uv res fedr cusa hela, huh-sacco sykel cbamm... E fecr E luimt...

Ra oammat yd sa, "Oui yna cu yhhuoehk!  Tu oui ryja yho etay ruf yhhuoehk oui yna?!  E ryt du lunnald cu syho vmyfc!  E tuh'd sayh meddma vmyfc, E sayh pek uhac!  Yd maycd dfu...!"

"E lyh'd red y bemmuf.  Y bemmuf tuach'd cyo 'uf'."

E fecr E pameajat dryd ramm aqecdat.

Ra red so drekr, so cruimtan, so fnecd, so ibban yns.  Fyed yht caa, E tuh'd pnieca.

currently listening to: painful yelling

i spiral into oblivion on Friday, November 1, 2002, at 06:17 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


Oh, what fun with fortune cookies I've had yesterday and today.  As usual, .concat(" in bed"); for each fortune cookie.  Err... I mean... add the phrase "in bed" to the end of all your fortunes.  You'll see.  It's fun.

  • You participate in many competitive sports...
  • You will soon be reunited with old friends...
  • It's a good time to finish up old tasks...
  • Look with favor upon a bold beginning...
  • You have a friendly heart and are well admired...
Ain't it great?

currently listening to: insane laughter

i spiral into oblivion on Friday, November 1, 2002, at 03:24 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


Your past life diagnosis:


I don't know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.
You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Ireland around the year 850.
Your profession was that of a seaman, cook or carpenter.

Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Bohemian personality, mysterious, highly gifted, capable to understand ancient books.  With a magician's abilities, you could have been a servant of dark forces.

The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
Your task is to learn, to love and to trust the universe.  You are bound to think, study, reflect, and to develop inner wisdom.

Do you remember now?

Spiffy / nifty / [insert your word here].  You know, if I believed in reincarnation, I would believe that profile.  Wow.  That's so cool.  How'd it do that?  *goes off to test other people's birthdays in hopes that the program is very simple*

How about my adopted birthday?

Your past life diagnosis:
I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.
You were born somewhere in the territory of modern USA South-Center around the year 1450.
Your profession was that of a chemist, alchemist or poison manufacturer.

Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
You always liked to travel and to investigate.  You could have been a detective or a spy.
The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
You should develop self-love and ability to implant hope into hearts of people.  Ambition is not everything.  True wealth is buried in your soul.
Do you remember now?

currently listening to: spectral-sounding sounds

i spiral into oblivion on Friday, November 1, 2002, at 03:05 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


Friday Five

1. Were you raised in a particular religious faith?

No.  I was raised to believe that there is a God (only one), and although it's nice to go to church, it's not necessary.
2. Do you still practice that faith? Why or why not?
I'm now basically atheist / agnostic (whichever you like the definition of better, check ReligiousTolerance.org, they're neat; because, I don't see any need to have a religion, and I don't personally feel any higher force guiding us.  That's not to say I believe everything science has to say, of course, just that I can't explain everything (and don't really want to).
3. What do you think happens after death?
Nothing happens after death.  We simply lose conciousness.  Therefore... we wouldn't know that we're dead.  (Alternatively, there is the FFX story that dictates we go to another world, or we can remain here and appear just as alive as anyone else... wouldn't that be nice?)
4. What is your favorite religious ritual (participating in or just observing)?
I've never observed any religious rituals unless you count receiving those little crackers at a Catholic church, or splashing that holy water on one's face... I mean, touching the four points of the cross.  I think.  Anyway, they're not very interesting to watch.  When I was 6 or so and very, very bored during church, I would bring Nancy Drew books or Babysitters Little Sister books with me, and raed those.  Those books are way too short.
5. Do you believe people are basically good?
No.  People are good only because if they were bad, they cannot expect those around them to be good to them.  Most people can be trusted only while in a fairly rigid system, written or not, to guide their expectations and behavior.

currently listening to: ...huh?

i spiral into oblivion on Friday, November 1, 2002, at 02:51 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


I got some compliments on my costume.  Not a lot.  Some!

I don't have any pictures of myself, but take my word for it, this costume is wonderful.  Those trick or treating with me tonight will have an added benefit that those at my school do not: I'll actually be wearing my 3-foot spatula on my back.  ^_^  My wonderful grandma sewed this costume for me, and my extremely patient and generous mom hand-sewed me a sash to tie around for holding the spatula.  That's over 6 feet of stitching by hand... I love them!  I'd never be able to dress as Ukyo without them.  And of course, there's my dad, who made me this spatula... ^_^  It's a very famous spatula now, and even though it's a year old, it hasn't fallen apart... yet... hey, what do you expect?  It's made of aluminum foil and cardboard.  ^_^;

I'm sad for those who received poor grades today, and I feel sorry for myself for my own poor grades.  My math grade sucks, my French grade sucks!!  They're both 88%~ish, but if I'd done better on the 3rd Unit Test / Big Oral Exam, I could've gotten an A.  I do rather well in Math, and sorta okay in French.  Grr.  Neither is any fault of either teacher, this is aaaall my own fault.  I'm still so disappointed in myself.  Hmph.

I still think my brother is a Bad Person, but even if I ever compare any of you to him, you are not a Bad Person.  I'm simply a bit annoyed at something or other.

currently listening to: silent grumbling

i spiral into oblivion on Thursday, October 31, 2002, at 03:54 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


I hate this, I hate this!  It's maddening.  My math grade is fluctuating so violently that I'm about to get hurt.  Worst of all, I'm quite sure now that I have a B in Pre Calculus.  Urghh.  I got 38/50 on the 3rd unit test!  How did that happen?!?!

I'm so disappointed in myself.

currently listening to: flinging books against the wall

i spiral into oblivion on Thursday, October 31, 2002, at 12:58 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


Began 6:46 pm

BASICS
Name: Sharon (or online, "ronnie").
Sex: Female (though The Gender Test does not agree -_-).
Birthday: July 5 (upon reading this you are obligated to get me a present... yes, you).
Height: 66 inches or so (I'm a bit metric-impaired)
Hair Color: Did I ever mention I'm color impaired as well?  Not color blind, but... I'm not good with color names... okay, okay.  I'm told that 'tis black.
Eye Color: Brown (again, I'm taking "their" word for it...).
Eye Color of Choice: I don't really care... okay, I guess I'd like those blue-grey eyes that certain beautiful bishonen have...
Writing Hand: Right- regular, mirror imaged; Left- sloppy regular.

BODY ILLS AND SKILLS
Nervous Habits: Twitching, brushing back my hair, adjusting my glasses (yes I don't have contacts).
Do you bite your nails? Hell no... that's how they're overly long...
Are you double jointed? I don't even know anyone who is.
Can you roll your tongue? Possibly.  Does anyone care to demonstrate? Can you blow smoke rings? I've never smoked, so I've never tried.  But when it's cold, I can't see my breath in little rings.  I did manage a triangle shape, though.
Can you blow spit bubbles? I've never tried.
Can you cross your eyes? *tries*  Yes!

CLOTHES
On the average, how much money do you carry in your purse/wallet? .  By saying this, I am practically asking to be mugged...
What jewelry do you wear 24/7? Nothing, though I used to wear my yin-yang necklace a lot.
What's the sexiest article of clothing on a guy? Eh... plain black t-shirt?  I'm weird.
For a chick? I wouldn't know.  What are girls supposed to wear?
Favorite Piece of Clothing: Almost anything, as long as I am wearing some.
Pajamas: I dress exactly as I do during the daytime.  Don't call my bluff on that, I can attack you with my Giant Spatula in my sleep.

FOOD
Do you wind your spaghetti or cut it? I eat it cold, but that was irrelevant, wasn't it?
Have you ever eaten Spam? Yep.  Back when I ate real meat on a regular basis.  I'm not a vegetarian!  Really!  I don't give a shit about animals!  I just... don't get around to eating real meat...
How often do you brush your teeth? Ideally 3 times a day, more likely 1 or 2.
How often do you shower/bathe? Once or twice a day.
How long does your shower last? 15 minutes.
Hair drying method: I don't.  I go to sleep every night with my hair soaking wet.
What colors has your hair been? Black.  Black.  A different shade of black.  A lighter shade of black.
If that fountain of youth existed, would you drink from it? No, absolutely not.
Do you paint your nails? I have once or twice in my life, but nail polish and nail polish remover both contain chemicals that make me physically ill.  So no.

MANNERS
Do you swear? No.  I'm currently trying (pretty much futily...) to expand my SAT vocabulary.
Do you ever spit? I don't do it, but I may have... when I was a baby, maybe?

WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE...
Actor/Actress: Bleah.  Voice actor, I guess I could say... David Gallagher.  But this will change within the next few weeks.
Food: Belive it or not, I don't like food.  Really.  I eat it to stay alive, because I do like life.
Month: Anything cold.
Day: Mondays!  I'm so awake on Mondays...
Cartoon: Ehehehe... too many... I'll say Yu Yu Hakusho for now, because you didn't expect it, did you?!
Shoe Brand: I don't look at my shoes much...
Subject in school: Math or Computer Programming.  Depends which I'm currently worse at.
Color: Gray!  No, red!  Oops.  I forgot, I'm color impaired.  Guess I can't make an informed decision...
Person to talk to online: ^_^  ...no, I can't pick one, I'd offend pretty much everyone who reads this.
Sport: Sports?  Doesn't that require me to be physically fit and fairly coordinated at the same time?  Oh hell no.  The last time I cheered at a school-sponsored event was It's Academic (and before that was Debate Team).
Movie: Since I don't like that many movies, I'll just list what I actually remember seeing in the past year...: Spider-Man, The Bourne Identity, Princess Mononoke, The Lion King, Peter Pan.
Holiday: Halloween... it's the only one I didn't outgrow by the same I was 10 or so.
Magazine: Reader's Digest, if only because I actually read it sometimes.
Vacationing Spot: Damai Beach Resort in Malaysia.  Of course, I was 8 when I saw it, but still... actually, I don't like vacations.
Thing To Do In The Summer: I hate summer time and summer vacation.
Thing To Do In The Winter: Play on the computer.  Don't you just love it when your fingers freeze up and you can't type at all?
Perfume or Cologne: Ewww.  They all smell bad.  Except aftershave doesn't smell too bad ^_~...  On other people, that is.
TV Station: Cartoon Network!!

IN AND AROUND
The CD Player: My mix cd of A Combination Nobody Could Love But Me.  I love it!  But... around the cd player?  Clutter and dust.
Person you talk most on the phone with: In and around the phone?!  I'll ignore that.  Well... I don't talk on the phone much, so I'll pretend this question didn't exist...
Ever taken a cab? Yes, multiple times, mainly from the Metro station to the 5 star Washington, D.C. hotel.
Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors? Only to make sure I don't have any gum stuck to me.  Eww.  People who chew gum are evil!
What color is your bedroom? White, I guess.  Except 'tis colorful, thanks to the 5 anime wall scrolls.  And my brother's room has 8 scrolls, and my stairway has 4.  Aren't you proud of us?
Do you use an alarm clock? I love it.  Once, I woke up exactly 15 minutes before it, every day for one week.  Except I changed the time each day.  Isn't that neat?
Name one thing you are obsessed with: Kingdom Hearts.  *groans in the distance*
Ever sunbathed nude? I haven't done anything nude.  Except shower.
Window seat or aisle?: Window seat.  I like to press my face against the glass / plastic to make faces at poor, unsuspecting children.

LA LA LAND
What's your sleeping position? On my back.  What?  Stop looking at me like that!  I'm not giving any details!
Even in hot weather do you use a blanket? Oh yes.  You see, when the weather is above 60º, my house will be below 30º.
Do you snore? I'm told that I do, but if I were concious while I was asleep, wouldn't that be odd?  So, uh, I can't verify it.
Do you sleepwalk? Never... well, yes, when I was younger.  But if I tried that now, I'd get lost, I swear.
Do you talk in your sleep? Yes.  Actually, I do.  I speak in a monotone voice, seemingly random phrases.
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? I've tried it, because I felt that I was inadequate as a small child (of... being... a small child...) and so I tried.  But I can't, I always kick it off the bed and step on it by morning.
How about with the light on? I've never been able to.
Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on? I can't!

GIRL QUESTIONS - can I do this if the Gender Test doesn't agree?  Sure I can.
What is the nicest thing a guy could do for you? Er.  I can't answer that.  I don't know yet.
What is the first thing you notice when you look at a guy? If he's male or not.  Really.
What do you think of cheating? I don't know.  I imagine I'd forgive it.
Makeup.  Should we have to wear it or not? No!  ...But I'm sure I'd look better if I did wear it.  No matter.  It's not like I can get up an extra half hour early and scribble lines on my face when I'm half-concious.

Ended 7:27 pm

currently listening to: clattering keyboard

i spiral into oblivion on Wednesday, October 30, 2002, at 06:46 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


I need help with Math Team practice if anyone would like to offer it:

3-1. If A = loga(x) and B = logb(x), express logab(x) in terms of A and B.

3-2. Let Sa represent the set of all integers which differ from the integer a by a multiple of 1991.  How many such distinct sets exist?

3-3. Define the function f by f(a + bi) = a - bi, where a and b are real and i is the imaginary unit.  What is the complex number z for which (f(1 + 2i)(f(3 - i)) = f(z)?

3-4. What are all ordered pairs of real numbers (a,b) for which x4 - 4x3 + x2 + ax + b is divisible by x2 - x - 2?

3-5. Let z = cos(2pi/7) + i * sin(2pi/7).  What is the ordered pair of real numbers (a,b) for which z2 + az + b = 0?

currently listening to: wailing in my brain

i spiral into oblivion on Wednesday, October 30, 2002, at 03:48 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


My skin is like ice.  My fingers are a bit stiff.  I can see my breath while indoors.  When I swallow, my own saliva tastes cold.

What's going on in Maryland?!

Reminder to self: link image of Sailor "V" to http://www.geocities.com/michiru_kaioh_uk/.

currently listening to: cold wind blowing

i spiral into oblivion on Wednesday, October 30, 2002, at 01:28 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


Textnoting is hard when I've got a cold and am very busy with sneezing or coughing or choking every 4 minutes or so.  I want to sleep.

If you're reading this before October 31, and you live nearby me, let me know if you'd like to go trick or treating with some people whom you do not know.  I know, it's an offer you can't resist, right?!

currently listening to: my stuffy voice

i spiral into oblivion on Tuesday, October 29, 2002, at 09:55 p.m... it's never too late to change the past



Come get your fortune read!
Created by ptocheia


Why was that not unnerving?

currently listening to: absolutely nothing

i spiral into oblivion on Tuesday, October 29, 2002, at 05:54 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


I went to school on time this morning, fully knowing I'm sick (as in, with a cold).  However, sometimes you just can't hide these things.  My Art teacher asked me twice if I was feeling alright, and I got "Tired?" and "Feeling ok?" sympathy comments from a full 10 people.

"What's up?" means "Why are you talking to me?"  --helpful fact

currently listening to: my own warped voice

i spiral into oblivion on Tuesday, October 29, 2002, at 05:47 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


A reminder to self-- go to this site later on and try it out on my home computer.  Sounds mildly interesting for about 10 minutes, and why not?

"Give me that!"
"No."
"Give me that!"
"NO!"
"Did I tell you that you're my best friend?"
"Fuck off!"
pause
"I will if you give me that..."
"NO!!!"
"I'd do that for million and police amnesty.  No, actually, I'd do that for ."
I got stares for writing this stuff down, so you'd better laugh at it...

currently listening to: aimless laughter

i spiral into oblivion on Tuesday, October 29, 2002, at 02:32 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


There is a such thing as a Bad Person.  Don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise.

  • I've had blood spit at me, hitting my face
  • I've had a rubber band fired at my face, actually hitting it from a range of 3~ feet
  • I've had nasty 1-2 week bruises on my upper arms from certain incidents
  • I've had to run out of the building to avoid any further bruising or otherwise being injured
  • I've had my personal material possessions destroyed "as a result" of my running out of the building
  • I've been blamed for others' forgetfulness, and therefore "punished" for causing them to forget.  After all, there's nothing wrong with hitting me.  I'd brought it upon myself.
Done from a first-person perspective for the sake of simplicity.  Please do not panic or rush at me with faked or (worse...) genuine sympathy.

currently listening to: the sounds of death

i spiral into oblivion on Monday, October 28, 2002, at 08:46 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


Mmm.  I watched my brother beat Kingdom Hearts yesterday.  I can't say I completely understood it.  But man... those voices!  I idol-worship all of them.  I like their voices very, very much.  And as for the ending...

Me: *stares, wide-eyed*
Me: *screams* Rikuuuuuu!~
Yeahhh.  And I like those clips at the end.  But it totally set itself up for a sequel...

Don't blame me.  Didn't I always say I'd be getting / enjoying the game for the character voices, and the voices only?  Well, the character graphics, too.  Riku doesn't get nearly enough screentime.

currently listening to: Hikaru Utada - Simple and Clean [extended]

i spiral into oblivion on Monday, October 28, 2002, at 03:41 p.m... it's never too late to change the past


can't repeat the past?
why of course you can!

yi    er    san    si    wu    liu    chi    ba    jiu    shi

hosted by?
pitas.com

may answer to?
Sharon, Ronnie, Ron, Ron-Won, Spatula girl, Grill-gurl...

is not paid for?
Pretending to be cultured, Notes on "significant" past events, Pretending to be literate, Playing with fire and hydrochloric acid, Attending résumé padders / stuffing face with water, Probing numbers in painful ways, Using computers to probe numbers in less painful ways, Pretending to be bilingual.

addicted to?
Video games, comic books, print periodicals, lemon fanfics, real books, anime, manga, anything that seems to run on its own, electricity, fire, electrical fire, foods with no taste, running on my hamster wheel.

enamoured with?
bright flashing lights, anything relating to Rurouni Kenshin, anything with a sword, anything involving a sword metaphor, wolves, spiders, wolf spiders, things that remotely resemble a computer, things that involve a lot of seemingly mind-boggling text.

frightens?
bugs that move faster than I do, certain creepy hallways, school photos, any sort of photo id, AOL, msn, user-friendly interfaces.

i sold my soul to...
albhed NUCHI
A U R O N I S M
i want to be... Young Link (Super Smash Bros. Melee).
Frontpage?  SCREW IT!  Do it yourself!


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i have yet to save the world of...
Final Fantasy VII, Final Fantasy VIII, Final Fantasy X, Chrono Trigger, EarthBound, Golden Sun, Tales of Phantasia, Chrono Cross, Final Fantasy VI, Dragon Warrior, Dragon Warrior II, Kingdom Hearts... and many unfortunate others.

stalker's tools?
e-mail
aim

religious texts?
8-bit theater
megatokyo
userfriendly
penny arcade
life in japan

those kooky people?
Yicy
Min
Ben

bishonen?
(in the order in which they come to mind) Himura Kenshin, Spike Spiegel, Tidus, Auron, Squall Leonhart, Irvine Kinneas, Link, Crono, Hajime Saitoh, Sephiroth, Seifer Almasy, Sagara Sanosuke, Magus, Cloud (heard his voice in Kingdom Hearts!!... mmm...), Riku (from KH), Sora (obviously also from KH...), Yusuke, Kurama, Hiei, Li Syaoran, Yukishiro Enishi

guilty as charged?
otaku: 36% corrupt (I would've scored much higher a year ago)
feminist: 91.4% pure
geek: 24% corrupt
mental purity: 63.8% pure

for your reference?
Al Bhed Translator

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