This is getting a new layout, ah, soon.

For the three hours that I was at work, I cried most of the time.

[ Mer slayed the demon 07:46 p.m. ]

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Wheee o__O I haven't updated in a lonnnng time.

[ Mer slayed the demon 05:46 p.m. ]

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Ugh, livejournal is being fuckish. I didn't update yesterday in it because I never got around to it :: shrug :: 'nyways, Daryl and I got back together.. for *real* this time I think. He said that he's stable now, so that's a good thing. My life doesn't feel empty and pointless now. It's like after the Maclay XC meet when I got 21:51 .. I can just look at the clear blue sky and be happy. I think the three best feelings are love, happiness, and emotionless. If one can't be happy or in love, then they might as well close off their heart and block off everything so they don't get hurt more, y'know? I think that's what I was doing Sunday right after Daryl had talked to me.. and maybe that's what he was doing too. I dunno. I don't care about that anymore. At any rate, we are back together. Let's keep it that way ^^;

I have to go into work at like.. noon. Hopefully it will go by quickly. Yep.

[ Mer slayed the demon 09:38 a.m. ]

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WhOoOoOoOo.. xD

I haven't written in here for a while. Need to write more, y0! I'm all excited because of giving presents. I need to go home at lunch to get my friends' presents because I forgot them ;x Alyssa's candles and earrings from American Eagle, Katie's poster, and Luisa's ring + keychain. Layne's gonna burn one of my CDs for me to give to Lauren. And of course, I'll be mailing Ro-ren and Rufu's presents soon! *^^*

I have "Control" playing on my LJ. I need "Blurry" to play on this! ;-; Such a good song!

I've brought my camera with me today, so I can take pictures of my friends and co-workers. Get to go to work after school, and see "Hirokazu" xD

I guess Daryl and I are over forever ._. Or at least for a while.. see my LJ for that.

Ugh, my site looks like shit. I haven't updated in FOREVER and had to delete some files to make room on my account >.>;;

Hee.. bai! ^_^

[ Mer slayed the demon 10:18 a.m. ]

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[Copied from my LJ]

Yesterday at work was SO quiet! There's like no animals there anymore xD Seriously, it only took me 15 minutes to do my section.

Me and Lauren hung out last night. Alyssa had asked me in history what I was doing on the weekend. I told her working, and maybe doing something with Lauren. She got all mad over that. I don't know why. I don't freak out when she does something with Katie or anything. I was PLANNING just to rest at home last night, but Lauren asked me like on Thursday if I could do something, so I was like, surrrrre. I would have done something with Alyssa if she had really wanted me to, but I wasn't going to ask since I was tired. Besides, she asked me the day of. No, wait.. she asked me what I was DOING the day of, and then got mad about it.. well, if she had asked me earlier I would've. Eeesh. And she claims that I haven't done anything with her since October. Well that's true.. But hey! The first weekend of November she was out of town, not my fault. The next weekend was Region, so Friday night I rested up and then was GOING to go with her, but she went with Katie instead :: shrug :: The next weekend was State for crying out loud, so how COULD I do anything? And last week, ALL last week I was working. Let's face it, I have a busy life. School, work, running. I like running. And I have to work. Because Alyssa doesn't do a sport or have a job, I guess she expects me to have the same time schedule as she does, when I don't. Eh. I wish she wouldn't be mad at me.

'nyways, so I picked up Lauren and we were GOING to go to the movies, but my dad said I had to be home by 11, so we couldn't because all the good ones had already started. So we ate up at Steak & Shake. We planned to go to the Governor's Square Mall to shop and look around, so I could maybe get some X-mas shopping out of the way, but it was 8:30 by the time we left the restaurant, so we went to Wal-mart instead xD I got Layne + Zita's presents. Still need to get Alyssa and Lauren and Katie o.o And my family. I bought a new CD case too, it's spiffy. Lauren gave me a couple of blank CDs so I can burn her Linkin Park for me, and burn my Futchy mix [CD that my brother's friend Branden Futch gave to him, and then Andrew gave it to me] for Lauren. So yeh.

Work was quiet today too. I think I'm going to Market Days with my mom today. Hmmm. Need to shower.

I want an LFO poster for my room! ;-; They're my second favorite band/group and I neeeeed one y0! Linkin Park and Goo Goo Dolls and Puddle of Mudd and George Strait and P.O.D. and Jessica Simpson are good too.. ;-;

Out now :D

[ Mer slayed the demon 01:31 p.m. ]

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THE HELL? ;-;

Why does Rau think I still hate her? I never even did hate her! I wasn't even bothered that much by her angry entry in her blog a few days ago, just defensive on how I wasn't intentionally copying her. I didn't block you on MSN, Rau! I just haven't signed on lately because every time I tried to sign onto it, it would disconnect my internet connection. And as for AOL, I just haven't been getting on in the evenings this week much because I'm swamped with schoolwork, plus made a new screen name, Meredefu, but I had an away message on r u n n a a telling people to IM me on that. Anyways.. I'm not mad! I don't hate you! Please don't be sad ;-;

[ Mer slayed the demon 09:44 a.m. ]

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I felt it again last period. I felt the pain. That sharp, biting pain that resembles someone stabbing my leg with a knife. What the heck is wrong with my leg? The bone scan that they took a couple months ago showed no problems. But there *is* a problem.

The Phy-sicks test this morning was alright. Only five questions, so I missed one, I get a B, and if I missed two, I get a D, and if I missed more than that, I get an F, yay! But the first three questions were about Kepler's Laws of Planetary Motion, and I got those. Dang, I *really* need at least a C on that test. This afternoon I'm making up the chapter seven test with Ryan. Eh >__<;;

I talked with Daryl last night, but went to sleep much earlier. He didn't seem to want me to go, but I had to =/ School and all. I think he gets a snow day today, which isn't fair! I want to see snow! ;-; Layne called me last night and didn't get her teeth pulled because her blood pressure dropped when they put the IV in her, so she'll try it again next week. Heh. Why does Rau think I hate her? I don't hate her! I said in my LJ last night I didn't! I just didn't get to IM her yesterday as she wasn't on at 6:00 my time, and when I got back on at 9:30 my time, she was on, but I couldn't stay on long. Eeesh..

The Kitchen God's Wife keeps getting better and better. I really like it. I read it all last period in Spanish III instead of doing my work. I'm about halfway done with it, but I still think I need to miss school on Friday. Dad had better let me! I lent him this morning after all.. he didn't have any cash on him. 'nyways, the book *is* good, except for this certain part. See, now Pearl's mother is the narrator, and she is telling her daughter her whole "story," and there's this stuff about how her first husband was.. mean! ;-; He wanted her to say these dirty words, and she didn't want to, so he locked her outside of their room naked, and wouldn't let her come back until she promised she'd say them. Talk about sexual abuse. Makes me even more nervous about sex.. >__<;;

[ Mer slayed the demon 09:38 a.m. ]

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Oiii.. changed the layout.. @_@;;

[ Mer slayed the demon 04:56 p.m. ]

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Yeh, okay.. I just read Ro-ren's last blog post.

So I guess she wants me to die or whatever, gee, thanks.

Let's be really immature and freak out about it and not consult to me in private first, hmmm, kay then? I *said* if you thought I was ripping you off, I'd gladly change my layout. As for the scrollbar colors, I wasn't even going to play around with those 'til school tomorrow since I don't have IE 6 and can't see them with my IE 5.

So yeah, I'll change the layout, even though I believe I've let you borrow some of my ideas in the past. It's not like I went and took your red theme of it or anything, but whatever. If you want me to die, well fine, I will, eventually. All people die eventually. And if you want to end our friendship over this, then that's fine too, because it shows that we never were really friends at all if you let this bother you.

Yeh, so everyone's been jumping on my ass lately, and it's kind of annoying, you know? So I guess my "friends" really aren't my friends after all.

[ Mer slayed the demon 11:33 p.m. ]

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I just deleted my deadjournals and parajournals =/ It was all just too many journals..

I helped my mom decorate the Christmas tree like an hour ago and it looks pretty! *^^* Heh, she wrapped all of my presents in Powerpuff Girls wrapping paper. We're not getting a tree at Dad's though, because Maryann is going to Atlanta, Dad will have active duty and/or go hunting, and I'll be with Mom. Daaang, I wish it would snow! ;-; It snowed here in 1989, but not really. I don't count that as seeing snow. Therefore, I've never been in *REAL* snow. I'm so.. deprived ._.; Eh well.

:: smiles :: BE HAPPY! ^_~

[ Mer slayed the demon 01:11 p.m. ]

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Squeeee ^^;; Last night I went into a rp room with Daryl for a bit on my Kaori screen name. Though I didn't enter my character because I was scared =/ I haven't rp'ed in a while and didn't want to look stupid with a not-so-good entrance, and plus I had to go to bed since it was 2:00 and I needed to wake at 5:00. Only I ended up waking at 5:55 x___X; So I madly rushed and got ready and told Dawyl that I overslept, and I guess I'ma talk to him later today.

I have to be back at work at 2:00. Bah, and tomorrow I have school. Damn damn damn! ;-; Well, at least I won't have to wake up before 6:00, or even go to work until Friday.

Last night Daryl's friend IM'ed me, it was odd..


Hyblaean Ancient: Who are y0?
Hyblaean Ancient: you*
Kaori Goto: uhmm.. ^^;
Hyblaean Ancient: chelle..
Hyblaean Ancient: or?
Hyblaean Ancient: who?
Hyblaean Ancient: lol
Kaori Goto: Mer.
Hyblaean Ancient: mer?
Hyblaean Ancient: Nique?
Hyblaean Ancient: meriah?
Kaori Goto: MER. MEREDITH.
Kaori Goto: >_>;;;
Kaori Goto: :: sigh :: Georgians... xD
Hyblaean Ancient: 0.0
Kaori Goto: 0.0
Hyblaean Ancient: dun mean to be mean but... whats your screen name?
Hyblaean Ancient: lol
Hyblaean Ancient: other screen names?
Kaori Goto: My other screen names?
Hyblaean Ancient: yeah
Kaori Goto: Kawaii Yuuwaku, Runnaa, Backstreet Gaaru ^^;
Hyblaean Ancient: lol... who else?
Kaori Goto: Whaaa?
Hyblaean Ancient: what other names?
Hyblaean Ancient: any?
Kaori Goto: on AIM.. Rix Fangirl, Nivva Daisuke, Blonde Bishoujo o__o;
Hyblaean Ancient: what about aol?
Hyblaean Ancient: ::le' sigh::
Kaori Goto: The first ones I listed -WERE- my other AOLs.
Hyblaean Ancient: lol... then... dont take this the wrong way but... When did I talk to you? I dun remember..
Kaori Goto: I dunno, a while ago, three way with Daryl.
Hyblaean Ancient: Chelle?
Kaori Goto: NO.
Hyblaean Ancient: ohhh
Hyblaean Ancient: you are Daryls girlfriend?
Hyblaean Ancient: with the valley girl accent?
Kaori Goto: I *like* my accent, Dixie Boy! >D
Hyblaean Ancient: LoL.... I am not a Dixie boy...
Kaori Goto: Sure sure >_o;
Hyblaean Ancient: heh....

DIXIE BOY xD ..yeh. Okay, I'm really tired. I want to huggle Daryl right now ^^; But I'll have to settle with going to sleep.

[ Mer slayed the demon 08:33 a.m. ]

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Er.. hiye! ^^; Yuss, I'm in a good mood now. See, I was contemplating on whether to call Daryl or not. And so I finally did. We talked.. for like two hours. He read me some of his Johnny The Homicidal Maniac comics -- fun fun. I was sort of listening, and I didn't think the plot was very nice.. kind of violent. Mainly I was tuned in to his voice. Only two days had gone by and I had missed his voice =/ But I mean, it's so sexy. And then we talked about other things. He read my LJ, as well as my secret LJ too. I still find it hard to believe that the one entry was longer than any report I have ever written for school. Yeeeep. Oh, and he was the one who got me the paid LJ account =D ..but he didn't buy it, he hacked it xDDD That's so sweet, ne? Hee hee.

I dunno if we're still doing that "wait 'til January First" thing or not.. and he said that he wants to come for Christmas, but doesn't know if he can..

Oh, I hope~~!!! ;-; It would be the best Christmas in my life if he did.. Of course, if he really needs to do the waiting thing, then that's okay too.. u_u Not the most fun, but whatever he wants/needs, I want for him too.

[ Mer slayed the demon 12:56 a.m. ]

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Ooo.. kii.. I made the theme page. Ahh, the result of boredom.

I need to like, block myself from reading my secret LJ. I keep reading that last entry for some reason, and it's making me cry. Why? Because, all those times he was thrown temptations into his face. Did he give in? No, he didn't, which makes him stronger than me.. u__u; And the phone keeps haunting me. I need to find more things to keep myself busy. Well, this week should be busy enough with a test in physics to make up, another test to get study help, a nice set of online homework, and that paper [yes, ALL that just for physics]. Plus I need to go to the bookstore tomorrow and buy my book for AP Lang and start reading. On Tuesday I need to get my paycheck from work, cash it in, and sometime soon I need to get my car washed.. djsodjspdjsoidjso. Lots to do. Lots to keep me busy. And yet.. it's not enough. Argh. WHY. WAS. I. SO. STUPID. ;-;

[ Mer slayed the demon 08:06 p.m. ]

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Okay, so I made a new profile image thing. It looks much better I think, and it matches too. Yayyye. Though it took forever for me to update it because emote wouldn't let me log in. So I tried volare. Nope nope. 0catch? No.. Finally I went onto my old virtue.nu account, and sure enough I got it. So if anyone's having trouble uploading images, you can always try that.

Eh, my layout looks kinda like Ro-ren's ._. I'm sorry, I wasn't trying to copy you, I'm just trying to get the hang of this pitas thing. I'll change the whole thing if you want me to ;-;

My mom still isn't home yet, and I'm hungry! Geh. I wonder what's for dinner.

I wonder what you're doing,
I wonder where you are..

Those lines of "Blurry" *really* make me think of Daryl u_u; Well, the whole song does actually, but especially that part.

Eeep, my mom just came home and yelled at me to turn down my music. Well well --; At least she's fixing something for dinner.

[ Mer slayed the demon 05:50 p.m. ]

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Ohkay. So I've got the layout up and running. I might change the profile image thingery though.. looks kinda shitty.

I like my secret livejournal, but I mustn't post the linky here because it's secret. Eh well. I can't think of anything to type right now because I'm braindead from writing that long entry in my secret LJ. Later.

[ Mer slayed the demon 04:54 p.m. ]

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