Super super cute Gon!!!




Fergus Thomas Hannah

D.O.B.: 21/09/84
Age: 16
Gender: Male, but apparently i'm female
  • 31% gay (i.e. I'm not)
  • 20% bastard
  • 84% pure
  • 96% pure love
  • 4% greed/sex/lust

    Favourite things
    Actors/actress' : Ewan Mcgreggor, Hugh Jackman, Bill Murray, Brad Pitt, Johnny Depp

    Despised actors : John Travolta, Nicholas Cage.

    Films : Sleepy Hollow, Lock, Stock and 2 smoking barrels, Groundhog day

    Authors : David Eddings, J.K.Rowling, Enid Blyton, Terry Pratchett.


    Things me want :
  • A Laptop
  • A video Camera
  • A new camera
  • An overcoat exactly like Iori's ~_~
  • A Goban and some Moku
  • A rapping device like in Kodocha.
  • Cellphone, Nokia maybe
  • Another drawing pad
  • Lots of Naruto stuff

  • Pitas.com!

    Argh, bad headache....
    I think that's because I went to bed at 4:50am and woke up at 8:30am, and instead of sleeping in...started on my new pet project.....
    muwhahaha
    Will take a while to get it done, but it seem's like it will be fun.
    I just need the web space to put it online.....
    When I'm finished it'll all be 270mb or so..
    *insane laughter*

    ugh.....feel unwell...
    Birthday is only 27 days away.......for some reason i'm really looking forward to it this year...
    What's so important about being 17? I dunno, nothing probably..
    But when I think of 16, I think of silly, foolish, idiotic teenagers, god knows why, but I do....
    And I feel like I've gained much knowledge and wisdom since my last birthday...
    Well obviously really.....I've experianced much more of life than I have...well...ever, in the last year..
    16 just seems young to me.......17 although still young, seems to just stand out as not old and not young..
    in between those two stand out years of the teenage life, 16 and 18.
    17, the invisible year...muwhahahaha......well...maybe not.. I have 27 days to do lots of neat things that I can say I did when I was 16.
    But i'm so lazy I probably won't bother, heheh.
    Still though, it's been a good year....lots of fresh new experiances..
    And if I have my way, then this coming year (i'm judging the years by birthday, not by new years) will be just as interesting and teach me as much as this year has, if not more (i'm guessing much much more)
    I should really make a list of things to do in the upcoming year...
    life is interesting, it shall be good.
    hmm..I think I just got myself a slightly new outlook on things....hehe...funny

    Anyway, it's now time for me to start doing some work or something like that.
    Ja


    Fergus / 05:47 p.m. / Saturday, August 25, 2001

    *sgh* like I thought, no luck with Bennetts, though they may need someone when October comes by....
    Damn, damn, damn
    BUT it wasn't all bad.......the manager turned out to be extremely pretty, she wasn't very old either......early 20's most likely...*_*
    *off in la-la land* ...preeeetttyyyy......
    er...um...
    yes! So I need to look around some more for work...
    .....man, she was pretty......*_*
    ack! must stop thinking about that! O_o
    heheh, I would have a hard time working if she was around *_*
    ack! *slaps self silly*
    I can't help it......really.......I'm a male and I saw a really pretty lady....what else would you expect? ^_^


    Fergus / 04:11 p.m. / Friday, August 24, 2001

    Wah!
    I'm going to see the manager of Bennetts later today at around 2:30pm O_o
    Damn damn damn!
    I want to work there, but I know I wont be able to get a job there....
    I'm not so lucky as to be able to come out with a job after just one day of asking around.....
    But, damn.......I want to work there! please! please! please!

    *weak smile* Wish me luck, okay?


    And hmmm, depending what i'm downloading is like......I may have an interesting new way to spend time when I'm bored.... and of course legions of people all over the internet will be grateful to me .......muwhahahahahaha...
    but only maybe, but it could be possible..
    I can't believe someone hasn't thought of it before......O_o
    hehehe

    The Gamecube is looking to be an awesome game console, I'm very sure that I'll get it when it comes out....
    Nintendo is such a great company, hurrah! ^_^
    And the price won't be really high like that shoddy PS2.
    (PS2 being about $850 and the Gamecube being about $500 at most I expect (and the camecube is a way better system, cool, no?)
    Soul Calibur 2 will be on the GC! (as I shall now call it) Sonic Adventure 2 will be on GC!
    Zelda Returns will be on GC!
    Mario will be on GC!
    And then there is a slew of other great sounding games and a whole load of ones in development too, hurrah!

    *sigh* anyway, I want a job....I actually think it'd be fun O_o
    well whatever, I hope things go well today...
    but I'm sure they won't...
    ah well, I'll just ask around other places too...

    Anyway, even though I'm not going to bed till the download is finished, I'm ending the entry here...
    Ja.


    Fergus / 03:28 a.m. / Friday, August 24, 2001

    Well Ihug seems to be screwed over at the moment....
    It won't go to a single site...
    So for the last 2 or 3 hours I've been silently singing to lots of songs........but now I'm way exhausted of doing that...so yeah.
    (BTW I'm writing this in Notepad, and it's 2:48am)

    I feel pretty damn good at the moment, I've gone and looked for a job today (well yesterday now) and I worked out harder than ever before (yes, even harder than yesterday!).
    I keep pushing and pushing myself harder all the time now, I've no idea why...
    I enjoy it of course, it's heaps of fun...
    And it's also challenging, for instance I decided to aim to do 150 crunches (a harder sort of sit up, I've only ever been able to do 100 (I do them in sets of 50) but today I managed to do the first set of 50, then had 2min break to do some press ups and then resumed the cruches, though I somehow did a set of 100! O_o;;;
    So final count for my exercises :

    Crunches = 150
    Press ups = 30 (10 less than yesterday, also note I do them in sets of 10, then I collapse and do another exercise for a little while)
    Squats = 20 (legs feel like they're on fire after I've done 20, and then I can't walk too well for the next hour or so)
    Unknown = 20 (I have no idea what the name of this exercise is, but it's kinda like doing press ups but you're the other way round, facing the ceiling, and you're not allowed to use your legs to help push you up, so it's quite hard. My arms were nearly completely dead after doing the press ups, but I decided to try and do as many of these things as I could, and I somehow managed my usual amount of 20, which left me without the use of my arms for a while and when I could use them again, they were shaking a bit, muwhahahahaha, no pain no gain, no? ^_^


    All these exercises together, are working on my :
    a) legs
    b) chest
    c) stomach
    d) biceps and triceps (front and back part of the upper arm)
    e) shoulders
    f) back

    And it only takes me...like....20 minutes or so....with a complete recovery time of about 1 hour.
    So people, start exercising if you haven't already!
    Not only is it good for your health, it makes you look good, makes you feel good and in the end everyone is happy ^_^
    happy happy joy joy!
    (I dont know of a single person that would even bother listening to what I've told you to do, well whatever, your loss)

    Ihug seems to be working again now, and I want to go to bed.....
    so I'll just post this.
    Ja


    Fergus / 03:26 a.m. / Thursday, August 23, 2001

    Well well well, I just came back from my little expedition to West City in search of a job.
    I was a bit unsure really what to do at first, but I easily got the hang of it and ended up asking at Whittcouls, EB (electronic boutique), Bennetts (bookstore), and Books and more (interesting name for a place.....wish I didn't ask there though).
    I basically got the same reaction from the four places, saying that they are okay for the moment but will need more people closer to christmas (all of which I could have guessed anyway) but I gave them a copy of my CV and told them to keep me in mind if anything pops up sometime.
    The most promising place was Bennett's bookstore, which said they weren't too sure and that I should come back on friday or Saturday when the manager is there.
    They were pretty friendly and positive, so yeah *crosses fingers*
    Wish me luck for Friday, no? ^_^

    It was an interesting experiance, having to summon up enough courage to ask the people (I'm so unbelieveably shy sometimes ~_~) but yeah, It's all good ^_^
    Maybe I'll try Hallensteins and Farmers sometime soon...hmm...

    I'm pretty happy with myself, now that I've actually gone out there and made an effort to look for a job.
    Now I shall perform the dance of joy! *dances*
    muwhahahahaha
    but now school work awaits me!


    Fergus / 03:29 p.m. / Wednesday, August 22, 2001

    Well I've made my very own CV/resume....
    Of course it is only 1 page at the moment, but since I havent had any jobs yet, that's not suprising.
    Now I just need to actually go round some stores and ask about some work.
    *crosses fingers* I hope I can get a job at Whittcouls, please please please!
    I'm not too sure why I want to work there, but I think it'd be a good place for me to start off on my path to greatness ^_^
    Though the pay isn't very good last time I heard about it (back in 1996, so the pay may be better now..?) But I have about 12 copies of my CV, so I can give one to many places.
    hmm, I take back what I said about wanting to work at Whittcouls so much, I want a job with a semi-nice pay.

    I'm 17 in 31 days!
    September 21st is the day, which is a friday.
    I may try and arrange to do something on that day...though not sure what, maybe a group thing to a movie or something like that.
    (BTW if you're going to get me a gift of some sort, i'll just let you know now that you could get me nothing better than money ^_~)
    I hope all those invited will try their best to come, 'kay? ^_^

    Fark, I'm exhausted.....these last few days I've exercised harder than I ever have before.
    I feel so great, but I have to be careful when I'm doing press ups,I dont want a disc to slide out of place and have my spine causing me much pain, that would be bad ^_^
    I'm very proud of myself though, I've been doing it everyday and pushing myself harder, muwhahaha.

    Oh yeah, My current favourite song is 'this is how you remind me' by Nickleback, it's a great song, please try and get a hold of it.
    Also 'Here and now' by Letters to cleo.

    Hmm, I started writing this entry at about 2:30pm........O_o
    but as you can see by the time now, I've been delayed a bit.
    I apologise for the lack of entries lately.....I've been occupied with researching job-ish stuff ^_^
    So, at least I've been doing something useful.
    Anyway, I'm going to have an early night so I can be bright and refreshed for tomorrow (as I'm going to try and get me a job ^_^)

    Hey, Kunfei is online......hmm, his latest journal entry scares me a bit...
    ...
    I dont like where this conversation is heading......
    ...
    I really hope what I'm thinking is far from what he's meaning.
    *5 minutes later*

    .....
    fuck
    that is creepy shit..
    If there is a god, then let me be wrong...
    ...
    fuck fuck fuck


    Fergus / 01:41 a.m. / Wednesday, August 22, 2001

    I think I suceeded in doing nothing at all today.
    That's not too good, and I can't remember much of the early afternoon O_o
    I must really do more things each day, but at least I've been keeping to my exercise daily thingy for over two weeks now (before that I only exercised once ever couple of days).

    God I'm bored......
    I'll probably end up writing all the things I want to buy in my private little black book.
    Hmm...I think i'll make a resume....
    Ja


    Fergus / 02:10 a.m. / Monday, August 20, 2001

    NP: Rammstein - Mein herz brennt

    Back from Edwyns place...
    Lots of people that I expected would show up didnt.
    But was still cool nonetheless...
    We watched 4 eps of Samurai Pizza cats (which although I do like a lot, I can't watch more then 3 eps in a row without having a break) and about 5 eps of Nadia : secret of Blude water (good, though 5 may have been a little too much for me) and some Thunderbirds..........(DEAR GOD, NO!!!!!! That shit is so boring as hell!! >_<) a Pink Panther episode, which was not too bad......though I wasn't in the mood for american cartoons at the time..
    We (me, Josh, Matt, Edwyn, Chris, Michael) went down to the shopping place (which wasn;t Botany Downs) and we got some food (and I played on the playground on the way there)...
    I also spotted a Thundercats and Gummi Bears video I wanted from the video sstore, though I couldnt get them out for several reasons.
    (Kunfei arrived not long after we got back and ate some of our food.
    I had a go on the neat exercise machine in Edwyn's lounge, much fun indeed ^_^
    Also was shown a fair bit of Max Payne, which looks to be a pretty cool game, sadly my shite computer wont run it..(I dont think, at least)

    Anyway, am back now....
    I found that I missed my dear computer a fair bit.....(well when I was out I didn't think about it, but getting back home at 11:40pm and not having used the compuer once, I hoped nothing much had gone on while I was out)
    (I must be too attached to the computer, I know ~_~)

    NP: Godhead - The Reckoning

    Violent songs make me have violent thoughts.......that's not too good, ah well..

    Work, I must get a job, yes....job....job is good.... job means money........money means trip to japan.... trip to Japan means me happy ^_^

    Not much else for me to say right now, I'm off to read the latest slew of manga chapters og HxH, Naruto, Hikaru no Go, Bremen, a HxH doujinshi and some Angelic Layer....
    Maybe even Card captor Sakura if I have enough time...
    so Ja na! ^_^


    Fergus / 02:01 a.m. / Sunday, August 19, 2001

    Gotta have an early night so I can wake up early tomorrow.
    Am going to Eedwyn's place, it shall be good me hopes.

    My brother went to go see Planet of the Apes, when he came back it was about 12am..
    He came into my room and we talked til about 1am.
    Was quite interesting, can't quite remember why now though ^_^

    Ego's are such a cool thing, don't diss them unless the person acts like a bastard.
    It's good to feel good about yourself, I much prefer it to people feeling shit about themselves.
    If you don't get a job, it's not because you didn't have enough experiance or they didn't like you, it's cause you're too damn sexy to work there and you'd distract everyone because of that ^_^
    Hmm, I think I have a clearer idea of where I want to work now.......hmm must check round West City for what shops there are...

    Anyway, I should go to bed now.
    Ja


    Fergus / 01:38 a.m. / Saturday, August 18, 2001

    I think for the Kareoke thing I'll just bring my computer or something O_o
    Or if I can get hold of a CD writer before then, burn the songs on to CD and take them along for the cosplay....
    Screw actual Kareoke equipment, I never had that planned and it would be too much of a fuss trying to get hold of the stuff needed.
    I have no Kareoke songs at all, none what so ever.
    That's why I said it was more of a sing along thing (and it could just be offering background music for the cosplay) Though I'm sure I can get a hold of some Kareoke songs, I dont really think it matters...
    Plus it being a competition would be a bit hard...
    I guess we'd just have to judge who has the best singing voice?
    I dont know.
    I suppose we'd have to have male and female categories......since females tend to have much nicer voices than males (I'm willing to bet $20 on who'd win in the female category ^_^)
    I can't see anyone actually being able to compete with my voice except maybe Finn in the male group.
    So I just have to kill Finn before the cosplay, and I win!
    MUWHAHAHAHAHA

    A Prize I must still think of....two in fact.....
    Hmm, since it's music thing....the prize could be some anime music CD's...
    Though I dont know if it'll be possible to get hold of some before the cosplay....hmm
    Must think....

    Also, Clara, you've got to come dressed up ^_^
    This is only a once a year thing.....so just put in a little bit of effort, even if the costume for whoever isn't that fantastic, it'd still be great to see you've come dressed up.
    It'd be bad if you were the odd one out (*ahem* as a certain someone *glares at Zeb* was last year)

    I'll try and think of something simple for you to come as...
    *starts thhinking*
    I will think of something.....and there is a bit of time to think about it...so hmm

    *some ten minutes later*
    um......Yuriko Star from Captain Tylor? O_o
    hey, it's possible, would be pretty easy actually..... ^_^

    I will resume thinking later, but for now...work awaits!
    (school work sadly, if it was a job that would be cooler)
    Ja


    Fergus / 04:37 p.m. / Thursday, August 16, 2001

    Oh yeah, I would like to know what you think of the journal design and stuff, so feel free to use my guestbook (look, that damn thing is never getting used, when .....well it should be, and it only takes a minute or less to sign O_o)


    Fergus / 12:52 p.m. / Thursday, August 16, 2001

    Heheh
    I said there might be some changes to the journal, didn't I? ^_^
    And I woudlnt want to be a liar.

    The pic of Gon is from volume 3 of Hunter x Hunter, chapter 1 I think....
    Anyway, I used Adobe to colour it and stuff......I didnt bother with any dark or lighter shades of the colours as..well.....it would look kinda odd......and I wanted it to look simplistic.

    I missed Buffy tonight, was watching Initial D with my brother (I definitely now have him hooked on the series ^_^)
    Though we've gotten up to ep 15, which is the last one I have....So I'll have to get the rest before my brother goes insane.
    Apparently whenever he's driving to and from work, he's thinking about Initial D...
    oh dear....O_o
    Let's hope he doesnt want to become a speed racer and carry the slogan "racers don't need girls!" to heart ^_^

    I'm too tired to continue...
    Someone please fill me in on what happened in tonights Buffy episode, please, danke ^_^

    Oyasumi


    Fergus / 03:30 a.m. / Thursday, August 16, 2001

    Just finished reading Hunter x Hunter volume 5.
    It's SO SO cool...
    But I very much hope it doesn't become like some sort of fighting thing like DBZ or Yu Yu Hakusho (with all this training and fighting tournament type stuff that's been happening).
    I like DBZ and YYH, but those two series easily fill ones desire for that kind of stuff, any more and i'd be just plain bored.
    I like HxH's adventure-fantasy elements and would rather it stick with that than head off into "let's train with 100kg weights so we can fight that evil person!"

    And the characters are so cool too.
    Hanzo I probably like the most, Hisoka is pretty cool too (cutting people up with playing cards? you can't get much cooler than that ^_^)
    Killua is interesting, I like him alot cause he's really friendly and fun, but also am slightly put off of him in a way because of his....um....violent acts ^_^
    But that also makes him very cool as well, so it's weird.
    It's a very cool series, and I can draw many comparisons to it and Naruto....
    Naruto came after, so if any....um....copying went on it would have been on Naruto's side...
    Though i'm sure it's just a coincidence...yes.......yes of course O_o

    Anyway, I have some work to do, so I'll write something again later..........maybe...
    and maybe a slight change with the journal too...hmm..
    ja


    Fergus / 05:14 p.m. / Wednesday, August 15, 2001

    Anime night was good.
    Trigun has really gotten a lot better now that some actual story stuff has started happening.
    And if I had all the materials, I would SO come as Legato for the cosplay!
    He looks so damn cool.

    We had a brief little cosplay meeting after we stopped watching Trigun, but I only put forward one or two of my ideas.....was kinda uncomfortable with some of the new people there, so didnt say the rest.....rather stupid of me I guess, but ah well, I'm a stupid guy.

    Then we went to Denny's in New Lynn, was quite good..
    you actually have people come up and take an order ^_^
    wow
    I got a sodapop (ice cream and coke in a big glass) and ...coke ...
    Also got a coke for JP (cause I'm such an amazing super nice guy ^_^)
    Lots of money was spent on food by the group...
    Was a nice play, though I still like the look and feel of Open Late more.
    And the coke tasted weird too....hmm..

    Anyway, I wore my brothers overcoat tonight to keep me warm...
    And I'm so glad I did, it kept me very very warm.
    I really must get my own asap.

    Rang up a place about some data entry work......no real luck with them....nor real advice given either..
    oh well.
    I will work at the Warehouse if need be, 'cause I am not going to miss the chance to travel Japan next year....
    and it is actually possible to get enough money from working at the warehouse to go on this trip.....
    But a job with extra pay would be nice, 'cause then I have more spending money when I'm there...

    I have nothing else to say right now....
    (oh yeah, apparently i'm in charge of sorting out a kareoke thing for the cosplay (because it was my idea) well.....I dont want to be in charge....and it wouldnt be kareoke really......more like just 'sing along to the songs' type thing. ah well whatever)
    Ja


    Fergus / 01:21 a.m. / Wednesday, August 15, 2001

    I've just been completely put off of playing FF-IX for a fair while....
    I was fighting the boss Tiamat........and that stupid bastard blew Zidane and Steiner out of the battle!
    So I was left with Vivi and Garnet.....Things looked okay, 'I should still be able to win'....that's what I thought....
    But their magic attacks got weaker and weaker....until Vivi's flare only took of 100hp...O_o
    I ended up just attacking normally with them both, and using a Pheonix Down whenever one of them was killed....which was very often....

    It got to the point where I was happy enough to just turn the damn game off, but I decided against it...
    so after an hour (yes...an hour.......1 whole hour) of fighting that twit, I finally killed him.
    Saved my game, then got killed by Hades.
    I have extreme doubts that I will have it completed by the time of the anime night tomorrow...
    So yeah, should I just return it anyway?

    Finn, do you want it back yet?
    I'm very very sure it'll be completed within the next few days.....not that i'll be seeing you till the next anime night at this rate O_o


    shit, I'm behind in all the things I wanted to get done...
    I haven't drawn a picture for Zeb yet, I've only come up with a few ideas for the cosplay...
    And I havent been able to get the phone numbers for these places I want to ring up about a job...
    At least I have a good reason for that one..

    Hope the anime night is interesting, I'm not really looking forward to Trigun.
    It doesnt appeal much to me, though at this very moment, nothing does....I'm too tired to be interested in anime, friends and even girls...O_o
    actually i'm never really interested in girls....only slightly I guess...
    They just seem like a hassle to me currently....
    It's not my fault i'm so loved by the opposite sex, I dont even really try ^_^
    fu fu fu fu (ego is inflating)

    I'll probably have to get up earlier than nomral tomorrow (or later I should say) if I want to try and get all this stuff done before the anime night.

    well whatever, this is a pointless entry and I'm tired...
    I'm just listening to music now anyway....
    so Ja


    Fergus / 03:00 a.m. / Tuesday, August 14, 2001

    *ouch*
    I'm wasted, I did a lot of exercising today, I managed to do proper press ups (I could only ever seem to do those ones where you rest on your knees, as before now I havent been able to do proper ones cause of my bad toes (ingrowing toenails, which were cleared up after a 3rd operation (the previous two being unsuccessful) I managed to do 8 proper press ups....which suprised me as I've always found them pretty hard.
    And I did more than usual of everything.
    So yeah, I'm quite chuffed with myself.
    Although I did hear a *click* from my back when doing the press ups....and my back is rather sore.....oh well ^_^
    It's all good fun though.

    I think everyone should exercise, it's fun and good for you and afterwards you feel really pleased that you did it (well, at least I do O_o)

    I wrote a letter to Steve, so I can give it to EB on tuesday as well as my weird as 'Psychedelic Ocean' photo-card, and EB can send it with his stuff to Steve.
    Hurrah!

    bthough that was the only thing I really acomplished today...~_~
    I did watch the first 5 episodes of Initial D with my brother however.
    It got me in a very car-ish mood, so I wanted to have a little practice in my mum's car, but she was in a shitty mood.....so I have to wait till tomorrow.

    I have an even bigger reason to get a job now
    *determined look*

    I WILL go to Japan next year with Steve and Josh!!!


    Fergus / 11:25 p.m. / Sunday, August 12, 2001

    All Blacks played a horrible game of rugby today, shame on them!
    On the otherhand the Warriors kicked major ass, finishing their game of rugby league against the Sharks with 30 - nil. Hurrah for the Auckland warriors! ...uh *ahem*...I mean New Zealand Warriors ^_^;;
    (I remember the days when they were still the Auckland Warriors...(i.e. last year ^_^))
    But honestly, I was quite a rugby league nut when I was younger...
    I used to play it every lunch time at school, but nowadays I'm not interested in playing the game, just watching it will suit me fine...
    I guess you could take it as me being lazy.....but I've had experiance playing the game, and it's much more fun to watch than to play.
    Anyway, enough of sport related things, for they are boring! ^_^

    I really really need to get a lot of things done for tuesday night (the anime night).
    I must finish FF-IX so I can return it to Finn.
    I need to write a letter to Steve.
    I need to think of more ideas for the cosplay meeting that we may be having after the anime night.
    I must draw a picture of something for Zeb.
    I must get the phone numbers for a load of places so I can ring them about part time work.
    I must finish a bunch of school work for monday.

    Wah >_<;
    I'll be able to get it all done if I just sort myself out properly.....but still.

    And once again i'm feeling confused when it comes to my feelings on everything at the moment....
    Times like this I feel like saying "stuff it" to everything and wandering off to resume my loner status of my younger days.
    I have no idea what makes me feel like this, but it's happened several times lately.
    I wonder if it will happen again at the next anime night? It happened last time and I ended up feeling completely anti-social so went and sat away from where everyone else was..

    I need to do some serious thinking I think....
    But I'm not too sure what about..
    I really like Zeb's idea of going to Piha at night....
    That would be very wicked and would give me a nice chance to think about things (strolling the beach with the beautiful stars above me, what more could I ask for?)
    Ever since early this year things have been rather up and down for me, I've been feeling a lot of anger and depression and then an extra serving of anger..
    I've changed a lot and it's coming time for me to start working and to become an adult, not just a teenager.
    Things just seem to have rushed by me this year, in fact half the stuff I thought must have been a dream, 'cause I really couldn't believe it all....
    And as much as it was painful, I'm glad these things have happened to me.
    they're lessons that I couldn't have learnt any other way. And that's how you should think of things....
    No matter how bad something is at the time, always remember to look for the lesson in it all and at least look forward to learning from it if nothing else.
    When I told Steve this a while ago, he said he had always hoped I would look at things that way, and I'm glad I do too......It doesnt make things seem as bad and I feel like I've grown up a bit.
    But I'm still somewhat in a state of confusion, I tend to just put it aside and do other things and be lazy, but it's still there and I really should get it all sorted out in my head.

    Maybe it'd be best to talk to people about it (in real life too, not online ICQ or something) maybe my problem is I'm bottling stuff up?
    I dunno..

    hahaha, life is interesting, no matter how disgusting it can sometimes be, I would never commit suicide (just thinking of a conversation I had with Finn).
    Sure life can be bad, but I live for the good times...
    and if you dont like it? so what?
    there are no alternatives, once you're dead....you're dead....
    you don't sit up in heaven watching people down below, your brain is dead, you no longer think, ka-put, fini.
    The option is there for you, live or nothing...

    Of course though I know that people dont think about things the way I do, so their opinions are fine by me....
    It's like drinking alcohol for me...
    I dont like it and will avoid it, but I dont mind people that like it, because if that makes them happy, then I'm happy they're happy ^_^

    What a weird (and longer tha the normal) entry.....
    Anyway, I think it's time I do other things...
    Ja


    Fergus / 02:30 a.m. / Sunday, August 12, 2001

    Man, I had some odd dreams....
    in the first I seemed to be along the Great north rd shops in Henderson, and 3 guys were changing one of those big poster/billboard things up on a building....
    something happened and they all fell from the ropes they were hanging onto (ropes? hmm..odd way to do it) and they bounced off something below them and went flying in different directions....
    one landed on a little river bank, and as I went to go check on him, the ground started to crumble and fall away (like a corner of a cliff was falling away).
    I presumed he was dead (O_o) and went into a fit of rage and blamed these vampires (?????? how were they even involved with what happened?? O_o).
    So me and my brother went to where all these vampires were laying on the ground sleeping on some field (note that it was a cloudy day, but it was still day time, weird) my brother handed me some stakes (oh dear, I think i'm starting to become like Clara O_o) and I started stabbing those suckers in the heart ^_^
    I missed a few times and accidentally got them in the head (eewwwwww) but I think it did the job, as I just kept stabbing until I hit the heart are ^_^
    All seemed like it was going well, I had only one left to kill....but suprise! the nasty, ugly vampire leader type one attacked me!
    (looks like what the vampires in the Blood anime look like) But out of no where I suddenly had an extremely long (an very cool looking) sword made of bone O_o
    So we started fighting (where my brother was during this, I dunno) the dream cut off about there though....ah well...

    My second dream involved me and Bryn going past our old Primary school (Bryn is now form 1, so last year was his last at Primary) and we saw all these parents running around screaming about some kid with a gun shooting people.
    We examined one of the dead bodies and came to the conclusion that the cause of death was definitely by being shot (what the hell were we thinking??? of course he had been shot!!!!)
    We decided that although we would like to help out, it would not be worth risking our lives for people we didnt know ^_^
    I got home and walked past the All Blacks (who were sitting on my driveway eating breakfast cereal) and when I got inside my house (from this point on I look exactly like Iori O_o) I bumped into Andrew Mertons....
    Thinking this was a little weird I tried to go outside to talk to the other All Blacks, but found there was a force field preventing me from leaving the house! ^_^
    I knew things weren't right now, so I got out my whip and started whipping Andrew (die andrew! die!)
    It turned out that it was just a disguise, and it was actually Mel Meninga!!
    Argh! I had to escape those evil eyebrows of doom!
    So I somehow burt through the force field keeping me in the house, only to discover that I was now in some sort of snow field........which is the current stage for the latest game of Risk O_o
    Jon Bridges put me on a team and one of my team mates started coming onto me (her name was Kajika........the name of one of Toriyama's mangas (it's also a male name) )
    It ended about there, as I was trying to escape from the snow field...
    weird..

    I woke up then....so yeah....
    I read the first volume of Hunter x Hunter last night and it's very cool.
    more more more!
    Anyway, not much else to say right now.
    till later, Ja


    Fergus / 02:02 p.m. / Saturday, August 11, 2001

    um.......
    not sure what to say O_o

    I read up to Volume 3 of Ayashi no Ceres, it's pretty good, Tooya is extremely cool.
    Pity no one has translated anything after that.

    I must read more Hunter x Hunter tonight methinks, otherwise i'll never get started.

    I'm getting quite keen on getting a job!
    job = money
    money = stuff
    stuff = manga, mobile phone and other things I want, hurrah!

    hurrah!
    hurray!

    I'll also be able to afford to go to the movies ^_^
    Anyway, I forgot what I was going to put in this entry....
    oh...I remember now.....I've learnt a lot of lessons lately, I can't exactly remember what they are, but I know I learnt them, and that's the main thing.
    I should really write them down though, I'm well known for my bad memory ^_^;

    I want a job!!!!
    (i never thought I would say that O_o)
    I'm going to go listen to some music then start reading Hunter x Hunter (what a waste of an entry this was, oh well)
    Ja


    Fergus / 11:43 p.m. / Friday, August 10, 2001

    um.......
    not sure what to say O_o

    I read up to Volume 3 of Ayashi no Ceres, it's pretty good, Tooya is extremely cool.
    Pity no one has translated anything after that.

    I must read more Hunter x Hunter tonight methinks, otherwise i'll never get started.

    I'm getting quite keen on getting a job!
    job = money
    money = stuff
    stuff = manga, mobile phone and other things I want, hurrah!

    hurrah!
    hurray!

    I'll also be able to afford to go to the movies ^_^
    Anyway, I forgot what I was going to put in this entry....
    oh...I remember now.....I've learnt a lot of lessons lately, I can't exactly remember what they are, but I know I learnt them, and that's the main thing.
    I should really write them down though, I'm well known for my bad memory ^_^;

    I want a job!!!!
    (i never thought I would say that O_o)
    I'm going to go listen to some music then start reading Hunter x Hunter (what a waste of an entry this was, oh well)
    Ja


    Fergus / 11:43 p.m. / Friday, August 10, 2001

    wah!
    i'm buggered, I'm finding it hard to lift my arms and walk around, I've been exercising full out again.

    Something I forgot to say last night about the Buffy episode, the song played when Buffy and co were at the beach was 'finding me' by Vertical Horizon.

    I'm going to quickly blab some things about my day :
    Got two animerica issues that were waiting to be picked up, they had a poster in each, a Ayashi no Ceres one and an Akira one.
    They now are on my cupboard door.

    I drew a pic which is good I suppose, though I noticed a big mistake after I scanned it, I might sort it out then re-scan it.

    I want a job so I can get Steve to buy me manga ^_^

    I'm way way tired.

    I now have my very own key to our house, so I can be out late and get in whenever I want ^_^
    Hurrah!
    That's a very cool thing methinks.
    I have more freedom to go out and do stuff.....sorta..
    So yeah.

    hahahah
    Enough, I'm not in a blog-ish mood.....
    In fact I dont know what mood i'm in...ah well..
    Ja


    Fergus / 12:10 a.m. / Friday, August 10, 2001

    Ay curumba, Pitas has been down for a fair few hours O_o

    Anyway, I've had a very non-productive day....
    Did some school work, then read the first three volumes of Angelic Layer (I think Clamp is a little too keen on Angels and stuff though, the whole angel thing gets boring quickly I find O_o) was pretty good Icchan and his brother are pretty cool.

    And I downloaded the first 5 volumes of Hunter x Hunter which I found last night (thats about 40 chapters or so, each 2.4mb, so it took a fair while O_o) Still havent read anything more than the first chapter though.

    Another few chapters of Hikaru no Go, which is SO making me want to start playing Go, I've even asked Steve to look around for a Goban and some Moku in Japan and see how much it costs.

    Now I'm getting some of the Ayashi no Ceres manga, which is quite good.....but then again, I enjoy almost any anime/manga......
    the only ones I didnt like as of late and I still remember are 'Star Ocean ex' and...I think that's it...
    Though 'Photon' I found rather.....I dunno.....it had it's moments, but it's really not my type of anime.

    Thinking about it, I wouldnt mind watching Captain Tylor again, it was one of the first few anime shows I got.
    Hmm, does anyone have the OAV?
    I would like to see what happens after the tv series finishes ^_^

    My brothers guitar is mucho fun, I've already made a short tune which is quite nice ^_^
    It's seemed to have provided me with more enthusiasm to learn to play better.

    Buffy was on earlier, t'was good, but I wish I was able to see all the other seasons before season 5.
    ah well.
    Buffy looks much better when she has straight hair rather than curly-ish ends.
    Xander is funny and Giles is cool..
    Speaking of which, he's coming here for another Buffy Invitational thing.
    If I have the cash I'll get a ticket, why? I dunno, because it would be something to do I guess, though knowing me I'll just be lazy and not bother ^_^

    Anyway, I want to download more Ayashi no Ceres, and since they aren't zipped, I have to download it page by page, which is a hassle....
    oh well...
    Oyasumi


    Fergus / 03:13 a.m. / Thursday, August 9, 2001

    Just saw Planet of the Apes with Finn.
    Was a really good movie I thought.
    Met Steven (aka the Mac guy) there too.
    I would be quite happy if it wasnt for what my brother told me when I got home a few minutes ago.

    Lorenzo Music is dead ~_~
    He died of cancer.....

    I'm so sad, yet so angry......things like this shouldnt happen ~_~

    For those who dont know who he is, he is one of my favourite voice actors, he breathed life into Garfield, Tummy (Gummi bears), Peter Venkman (the Real Ghostbusters) and oh so many more.

    So many people fall to Cancer....
    Chris Latta, my favourite voice actor of all time (Cobra commander, StarScream, Cravex etc etc) also died of cancer back in 1994.

    My childhood heroes are all getting older and dying ~_~
    *sigh*
    I'm getting older too, and it's happening so quickly >_<

    shit.

    goodbye Lorenzo, have a safe journey.


    Fergus / 09:19 p.m. / Tuesday, August 7, 2001

    I won a free double pass to see the premiere of Planet of the Apes in New Zealand.
    Which is tomorrow.
    I was kinda hoping to go with someone in particular, but I sort of mucked that up.
    But anyway, I've decided to take Finn with me as he say's he really likes the original Planet of the apes stuff, and hey, I think it's fairer to go with someone who doesnt have much money like me ^_^

    So yeah, hopefully it'll be a good movie, though I wont have my hopes up.

    More manga for me to read, oh my! plenty more.
    The question is, will I ever actually get round to reading it all?

    Oh yeah, and I ended up talking to Steve for 7 hours on ICQ last night/this morning O_o
    that's pretty damn long.
    And again our conversation makes me realise how badly I want to travel the world ~_~
    If only I had the money.....

    And i've thought of more things I want to get too ~_~ :

  • A really good laptop
  • A video camera

    Expensive things aren't they? ~_~
    Please feel free to give me money.


    Fergus / 12:13 a.m. / Tuesday, August 7, 2001

    I've had a bit of an argument with my mum.
    That's not too mormal.....but the topic for the argument is not.
    It's always to do with me being behind in my school work. I recently slipped a bit more behind because of a history essay which took me about three days to write >_<
    It was like some sort of writers block, I honestly put effort into it, spending 9 hours on it one day, but I got very little done.
    Anyway, now my mum is complaining about the little amount of work I do each day, which is fair enough, but she doesnt know how much I do and how long it takes me.
    Lately it seems like I wake up, do school work, then go to bed, it's really annoying >_<
    wah, must post this now....will do another in a minute.


    Fergus / 11:38 p.m. / Monday, August 6, 2001

    Queensryche - Real World

    um...forgot what I was going to say..... ...Oh thats right, I watched 'Meet Joe Black', was a good movie as it was not the usual sort of film I watch.
    It was way too drawn out though and the ending I thought was pretty crap.
    Brad Pitt is so awesome though, he keeps going up in my book after every movie I see with him in.

    Anyway, I've been strumming a few notes on the guitar *crosses fingers* I hope I get my own ^_^
    T'would be mucho fun.

    Hmm, I was going to be trying to catch up on the large amount of Manga I have to read, but I've been talking to Steve for the last 5 hours or so and it's too distracting.
    and so is trying to write this entry.
    Ja


    Fergus / 02:40 a.m. / Monday, August 6, 2001

    um...Clara, The Pretender is on TV ^_^
    It's on TV2, Wednesdays at 11:30pm.......has been for quite a while ^_^;;

    Oh yeah, and while I think about it, if you're still thinking about coming as Haruko then you may be able to borrow my soon to be Electric guitar ^_^
    *evil cackle*
    BUWHAHAHAHAHA

    Though dont go hitting people on the head with it, a guitar isnt a play thing ^_^

    I suppose I better explain properly what's going on, well my brother went out earlier and got an electric guitar and an Amp, and he seems more than willing to get me one too next time he gets paid.
    so that's that cut short.
    buwhaha! YAY!

    I'm going to put lots of effort into learning to play properly!


    Fergus / 08:10 p.m. / Sunday, August 5, 2001

    'Lexx' is one seriously screwed up show O_o
    um...yes...weird....heheh..? @_@


    Seal - Kissed by a rose

    God this song is good, I can't stop singing to it ^_^
    Anyway, I actually should sleep...it's late..
    Oyasumi.


    Fergus / 04:11 a.m. / Sunday, August 5, 2001

    So I went out with my brother to the city, looked around lots of clothes shops etc etc
    Found a place that has an overcoat which is probably what I'll ned up getting when I have the cash.....but it still isn't good enough for me...
    It's not close enough to Iori's overcoat, but it's probably the closest thing i'll find >_<

    So ah well, guess I shouldn't complain, at least the colour is quite similar.
    Now I just need $130 O_o
    (heh, I wonder how much the whole 'going to the cosplay as Iori' will cost me? I dread to think)

    Anyway, after looking around more places for Overcoats (and failing to find anything good) we headed off to Broadway.... where we had just a little luck...
    Then back to Queen St after a guy pointed us to a shop there..........which I cant remember if we found or not....I dunno...O_o

    I had (and still have) a really bad headache, and it seems I cant remember much ~_~
    My brother wanted to go pick something up from work, but no one was there when we arrived, so we had to come back later....
    But to take up the time we went and saw a movie (which was sooooo not good for my head)
    We saw 'Animal'.....
    ...
    ......
    Please, do yourself a favour and stay far away from this movie......
    It is so shit, so so shit.
    There are only three things I like about it....

    A) The black guy (one of the star's friends) is really funny, he keeps talking about how all white people treat him really nice because he's black (trying to make up for what they did in the past to blacks) and wishes they'd treat him normally...
    He keeps proving his point throughout the movie and it's just plain funny (the end bit with him is especially funny ^_^)

    B) The love interest for the star is cute ^_^

    C) There is this funny guy in a mob of townspeople who keeps asking the police officer questions about hunting down the wild beast and lighting torches to make them look like a typical angry mob ^_^

    "I have a question, I know it's daylight, but can we still light torches?!"

    "I have another question, .....say I was to have already lit a torch, can I keep it lit??"

    "another question, Just in case the mob get's split up, can we have a meeting place for the two mobs to become one again??!?"

    "one more question, shouldn't this guy get a fair trial?"
    I quoted that pretty badly methinks, and I didnt included the police officers response to each, which I'm sure would have made it funnier....
    but it has to be seen to be fully appreciated, 'cause you can't see what he's doing....
    though I'm not saying go see the movie.....hell no... O_o
    Anyway......shitty movie, way way shit.

    After that my brother picked up his stuff from work and we came back home...
    I spent 6 hours out and about.....
    I suppose it isnt that long, but still longer than what I would have wanted.

    Ah well, I'm back now and have taken extra strength panadol.......which have yet to work on my headache it seems.
    No one is online ICQ either, damn...I'm bored now....
    Guess I might as well use this time to think of ideas for the Cosplay.
    so, Ja
    maybe write something else later.
    (oh yeah, it seems I'm getting quicker at writing journal entries, much much quicker)


    Fergus / 10:17 p.m. / Saturday, August 4, 2001

    ah, I see my entries wish to semi-avoid the top of the page.....O_o
    well the more entries I do, the more it'll be pushed toward the top..

    Also I know there is a gap between the 'links' bar and the table below it..
    my HTML abilities are to shite too be able to fix it up (I managed to get everything else together, but with this part it seems to want to stay apart O_o) So, feel free to try and sort it out for me ^_^
    Anyway, I'm going to write a proper entry in a sec, so I'll just post this one and start afresh ^_^


    Fergus / 09:40 p.m. / Saturday, August 4, 2001

    moooooo?


    Fergus / 09:35 p.m. / Saturday, August 4, 2001

    que?


    Fergus / 09:35 p.m. / Saturday, August 4, 2001

    I've archived the previous entries.


    Fergus / 09:24 p.m. / Saturday, August 4, 2001