Iori is so cool, ne?
Though that picture to the left is a little suspect on a guy's journal, but so what? ^_^
I like it, he looks super super cool.

SUPER SUPER FOAM GOOSE!

My brother is going into the city soon, I'm tagging along to have a look for an Iori overcoat for the Cosplay.
Hopefully I can find something.
It seems people are getting really into the whole cosplay thing, no?
Well that's good, more effort put into the costumes I hope.
Anyway, must shower and stuff now.
Ja

(p.s. that 'walking on the moon' is still making me feel rather sad O_o;;)

Oh my god!
Clara, you watched 'Walking on the moon' too???? O_o

It was so sad......
But it was really well done and stuff.
Though it didnt choke me up or anything, it just got me really angry...
'cause I saw that kind of stuff at Waitakere college.
It's unbelieveable how mean some people are.

I just wish I did more about it than I did back then But I was way different in 3rd form, nothing like I am today........so I was too weak minded to do something.

I'm not sure if people who watch it will truely understand what that kind of stuff is like, or even believe that it's as bad as that, but it really is.
And there's this whole feeling of hopelessness in a situation like that, you want to do something but you can't.

It's sad he didn't fight back, though with that many people against him there is not much he could do...
grrr.....damn...
I would soooooo beat them up....>_<
*sigh*

dammit!
I know it's only a TV program, but it really fucks me off....
That kind of shit is so frustrating.
And it's bringing back more damn memories from school, oh joy ~_~

It was a complete accident that I started watching it.....
I read about it in the listener earlier, though didnt plan on watching it, but I turned on TV and it had just started.

damn, I must breath, in ....out........in....out...
ah well.....It's pretty good if it can get me that pissed.

Reminded me a lot of the Hana Yori Dango anime (Clara, you must watch this!!!!!) except in HYD the star is female.
That damn anime site is taking it's time putting up eps 33-52, I want to see what happens!
Such a cliffhanger, a lot like the Gravitation episode 6 one.

Josh, I say we force the club to watch HYD!
or at least have some screenings of it somewhere!
It's so good!
wah!

I'm pissed but I'm also happy cause it was so good!
how's that possible?? wah! >_<

It's so sad!!!!
wah!

bleh, I just wasted the last four hours doing only a few things.......how annoying....

I'm feeling so BLEH!!!
BLEH
Godamnit!
I can't wait to go to bed, but I have things I want to do before I can do that.


I'll just say this now, I really really like the King of Fighters Zillion art style.....
in fact a lot of the other Hong Kong comics advertised have the same kind of art style......
It's very tempting to go to that little Osia bookstore and buy all the other comics....
If I get the cash I might actually do that.

I love listening to 'Garbage' their songs are really good and they make me feel I dunno.....like me.....
I dont suppose that makes sense....
My ability at the english language really sucks....I think the correspondence schooling has set me back a few years in a lot of things ~_~

And I have thought about maybe going back to do 7th form next year.....actually going back to school, as in non-correspondence.
The reasons for such is that I'm missing out on high-school......something everyone should experiance....but i'm obviously not by doing home schooling.
Josh and Finn have told me to go back and to 7th form next year...
But......no, I'm not going to.

I'm honestly sick to death of school stuff, I'm looking forward to the end of it all this year.
And it seems just thinking about school and going back makes me nervous and brings back memories that I never want to be reminded of again.
It was the most depressing time of my life back then...

And I feel ashamed just saying that....
I dont know who knows properly about back then, but everyone else who doesnt must be thinking i'm exagerating and being melodramatic or something.

Well whatever, the bottom line is I'm not going to school next year and that's that.
So no one start trying to get me to change my mind or i'll get pissy, and I dont want to do that.

Plus, I dont want anyone asking me about what happened back then.
If I tell you, then good for you, but I dont want to tell anyone at the moment.
And the people that do know, know because they are people I feel very close to and have reached a certain level of friendship with.

Anyway, I want to go to bed.
Ja

No doubt - Spiderwebs

This will be a very music related entry methinks.
Not sure why, but am feeling very music-ish......not sure what that means....but...uh...that's all I can think of to describe me at the moment O_o

'Cue' (the music program on Prime) played 'touchdown' by the New Zealand band 'The Stereo Bus' .......It was a good song, but what I found really suprising was that Jason Fa'afoi (the What Now presenter with glasses) is one of the guitarists! O_o
That's like.....so weird..... but also very cool, 'cause I think he is the best of the current What Now hosts.
Anyway, I'm having a really hard time trying to find the song...
damn music programs, why do they all have to be so sucky? >_<

(brief non-music related interlude here : Just a question to those journal writers/readers out there, when you're reading a journal, do you hear the journal writers voice to what's being said? (if you know them that is)
If that makes sense with the way I put it...O_o
I think it should at least.
hmm, I'm quite curious to find out what people think, so drop me a line sometime.
(----End interlude----)

I want to add a few things to that menu-ish thingy-me-bob to the left.
Like a 'favourite bands' type stuff...
I'm too lazy to do it right now though, so I'll just type it out for this entry then actually put it on the menu later.
*ahem*

Favourite bands : Feeder, Goo Goo Dolls, Garbage, Ultraspank, Vertical Horizon, The Superjesus, Tadpole.
(damn, I like way too many bands, I could go on forever O_o)

Heh, though a favourite-song question would be so much harder and there would be so many that I would refuse not to list it would be silly.....
Though I think I shall sometime....
Not that I mean there are only a few I like, all the songs on my computer I like a lot, that's why I have them, but there are some I've gone through phases with........and those are my more favourite ones....
I should guess I didnt really need to say that as it was obvious, but I just dont want to sound like I'm neglecting other songs...kinda ^_^;;;

Fur Patrol - Andrew

But enough of music....
I've been downloading lots more of the Card Captor Sakura manga (yes, I know it's been licensed, but I'm poor, so I accept fan-scanned/translated manga with open arms)
I havent read any of it yet, and I have the first 6 volumes sitting on D;/
I also need to read Great Teacher Onizuka, Time Stranger Kyoko, Ayashi no Ceres.
And after reading Zetman (by the guy who did 'I's' 'Video girl Ai' and 'DNA') I have a urging to get the rest of 'I's', even though it's fairly dodgy O_o

Oh yeah, I'm currently downloading the Angelic Layer manga, I've had chapter 1 of volume 1 sitting on D;/ for ages, but I only read it this morning and I really really enjoyed it.
So right now am downloading the rest of it..

Does anyone know if it finishes at Volume 3?
or is it still going or something?

Seems we've nearly caught up to Japan with Naruto...
The latest chapter translated and online is Volume 7 chapter 2, and Japan is probably halfway through Volume 8 or so at the moment....
Hikaru No Go has gotten me really interested in getting a Goban and some Moku.
That would be an awesome birthday present BTW ^_^
*hint* *hint*

'Wish' was quite good, I didnt like the ending too much though.....ah well.
An anime of it would be quite cool.

And it's a pity the guy scanning/translating 'One Piece' has called it quite after only a few chapters.
I was enjoying it a lot, it's really crazy and so's the art style ^_^

Must find more manga to download, it's mucho fun...
Hmm, I havent gotten any Rurouni Kenshin for a while...
I should go get some more tomorrow ^_^
*insane cackle*

Anyway, this entry is going to be a pain putting all the (br) things at the end of each line, heh.
And besides since Finn said I could probably waste the last Boss in FF-IX, I would like to go give it a shot...
so Ja

Wayhey, Steve has some new entries for his Japan trip up! ^_^
It serves to make me more jealous of the fact he's in Japan, ah well, heheh

Oh, and this parcel thing to Steve that EB is organising is very cool, It means I can finally get off my ass and write him a letter (although we do talk every few days on ICQ anyway...but still) and send some Photo-cards and maybe some of my daft poetry I wrote a while ago, heheheh ^_^

Anyway, I really cant write more right now as I have to write an essay (Which I've been trying to do for the last few days O_o) and I havent even started! ~_~

Ja

Wwwwweeeeiiiiirrrdddddd day.
I went into the city to meet Edwyn, as I previously stated in the last entry, but........he wasnt there......
It seem's he thought he told me to meet him at 2pm, when he actually said 3pm....
So I spent an hour waiting or so.....feeling slightly worried, yet very calm....if that makes sense....
(I was supposed to be catching a bus with he and EB to the theatre, and I didnt know when the bus was, or where it was)
I honestly wasnt sure what to do, I was thinking I could ring Edwyn on his cellphone....
that would have been a great idea if I actually knew his number....
Then I thought I could ring Clara and ask her for his or EB's cellphone number...
But I decided against it...cause....well....I didnt know where she could be....I mean if she was in a lecture or something.
So I ended up just ringing my dear mum and getting her to come pick me up and take me to the theatre.

But while I was still in the city I got some more Photo-cards done...
1 of 3 I like a lot, another one is the kind of thing I wouldnt mind giving to my grandparents...O_o
And the last one has potential to be very good, but I have a silly look on my face, so I'll have to try that one again sometime O_o

I'll probably put the one I like up sometime, maybe tomorrow.

I got to the theatre at 5:55pm or so, rather early really. Matt arived about the same time as me and we entered to find Zeb and Nadea watching Trigun.
more people came etc, etc.
Clara came, yay (so thats not very amazing, but I dont get to see her often, so get off my back)
Finn came, yay (sure, I talk to him a bit, but he's a very cool person, so it's great when he comes)
Josh didnt come! (now that's a first O_o)
Gemma didnt come either, neither did Amy.....or James....or Joe...O_o
In fact Joe hasn't come in ages.

Trigun is good, funny and stuff.....but a little boring....
Probably cause I've seen the episodes before several times ^_^
But half way through the anime night I felt really out of it and detached.....
very blank and thoughtless, wondering what i was doing there and everything....
It happens to me occasionally, but never before while with the AAC...

I was really keen to go home as soon as Trigun finished, I just felt really out of place..
But since I was getting a ride home with Matt, I had to go where he goes ^_^
And he was going to Open Late.
I'm glad he did, cause it really picked me up and I enjoyed it a lot.
Finn, Edwyn and Kunfei are really cool people to talk to, and I enjoyed talking to Zeb too.
I think I've learnt something tonight, I wont actually talk about it in my journal....'cause...well....i dunno, i just dont feel like it...

but yeah, the Open Late manager guy is such an asshole!
We weren't really getting anything to eat (though Zeb got a cuppa tea) and just sitting around talking for a little while.
So he told us that we shouldnt be in there if we aren't going to order anything..
Which is understandable, but as Kunfei said, it was the way he said it that was so annoying.
So we started getting things (well Kunfei did anyway) but he kept making snide remarks whenever we passed him by.
Goddamn I wanted to say something rude back to him...

It's not like we've been bad customers tonight, they earned money, and we often buy lots of stuff whenever we go.
Just not as much as usual tonight.
That twit..

Anyway, The night was young (well.....11:30pm-ish) I would have wanted to go out and do more stuff like Kunfei and Zeb wanted to do, but It's better if that kind of stuff is planned, so I can inform my mum and stuff.

Though I defintely want to go out and do some more stuff, especially at night....
I end up feeling lots better when it's dark O_o

Anyway, I got dropped off home by Matt, and I brushed my teeth and so on.

No more to say right now....
Ja

Hmm, I will have to have a shower in a minute and get all cleaned up to meet Edwyn in the city.
hmm, me need to scab some money off someone, probably my mum.... ~_~

Ah well, at least it seems I'll be looking after Bryn again (their plans to go to England majorly fell through) so that'll be some form of income, even if it is only a tiny bit.

Anyway, shower awaits!

Castlevania: Symphony of the night - Dance with the pales
Hey-llo
Decided I'd put Edwyn's and one of my photo-cards up...
So, here's Edwyn's and mine.
The one of me is okay, though I know it could be much better.....so I'm really wanting to go back and get some better ones ^_^;

Yay for Photo-cards!
I shall make everyone get some even if it's the last thing I do.
*evil cackle* ^_^

yay!
got it back!

okkayyyy, half my entry got cut off before >_< why!?!?! damn it... damn damn damn.....

boo?

Hmm, Doesnt look like I'll have those photo cards up for a few days...
no real reason, just thought I might wait till I get some more done....
though maybe I'll put Edwyn's one up, it's so funny ^_^

Anyway....I'm feeling really weird...
Having trouble breathing again...
I'm scared of heights, those escalators in the Imax building scare me a tiny bit, they kinda wobble more than they should, and well....I dunno....I'm generally okay with them, but I'm nearly thinking 'must grip rail!'.
I think I might also have a problem with enclosed spaces...
I'm not too sure...
Probably not, but I dont like being surrounded by things that limit my movement to practically zilch, then I have trouble breathing O_o
I'm also freaked of bugs, especially spiders.... >_<
I'm an odd person *sigh*..

I've been doing school work for ages today...tis really annoying.
But now I feel like re-designing my page or journal (......I know I just re-designed my journal, but ....I keep coming up with new designs in my head...or things I want to have in it etc)
So maybe I'll put something together..or maybe I wont....O_o
Sorry to those people that are getting fed up with me changing stuff so often ^_^;;

I REALLY want to watch Initial D again....the whole thing from the start.
Not too sure what's got me into it at the moment...
It most certainly wasnt Project D ^_^;;; (What are you girls doing those characters!! O_o)
LOL

Damn, I should have pretended to be a girl and chosen to play as Keisuke before whoever else got to him....^_^
ah well, would have been a laugh though, me secretly pretending to be a girl just to play an Initial D character...
hey....that seems kind of dodgy when I think about it O_o weird, oh well ^_^;

Oh yeah, before I go I'd just like to ask the people that read my journal to...if you could, please sign my guestbook.
I really want to know who actually reads it...
There are 6 I know of...I think, but there are a few more than just those 6 people reading it apparently.
So please sign my guestbook, might as well put it to good use too.
And dont be lazy and bugger off, imagine the joy on my super cute face as I see your message, surely it's worth it just for that ^_^

Anyway, I think I'm going to watch some Initial D now.
Ja

Wow, that really was one huge ass entry, wasn't it? O_o

Initial D - various

Pump up the music baby, 'cause I'm running on high octane fuel and am not gonna stop! ^_^
Or to quote my photo card which is bordering on engrish "The time is never stopped"

God I feel like going out, sure its nearly 3am, but who cares??
I'm psyched, I need to do something!
It's not good to waste such enthusiasm!
HAHA!

I feel so good! If only I was a boy racer, then I would be speeding along the roads at 120km (I dont want to push it any further), drinking a can of coke (alcohol is bad, baby) listening to Initial D music and drifting round corners at insane speeds which are theoretically impossible! ^_^

DAMMIT!
I feel Awesome!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Such a rush, buwhahaha

I am so goddamn cool, I can do anything! ^_^
(this is what happens when you have a good night out in town and come home to listen to Initial D music)

"no one sleep in tokyo!"


*deep breath* I guess I had better start talking about stuff instead of being all hyper....
but oh my god, I have to do this..........XXXXXDDDDDDDDDD

*ahem* .............................okay..

First things first, My brother drove me into town at speeds that cut my mum's in half...
coming from 30min down to 15min is quite something...
even if it was very illegal....^_^

BUT, I dont care.

Me and my brother (yes, he came along to see Final Fantasy :the spirits within) met up with EB, Edwyn, Amy, Michael, Chris and Kunfei outside borders...
Things seemed good, but....*shock, horror, gasp* all the showings were sold out till the 11pm one!!!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO

We had to make a choice, should we go to it, or try to find somewhere else with tckets still available..?
Thinking it would be a good idea to find out about other cinema's, we went to the nearest phone booth and Edwyn (with the help of my phone card ^_^) we discovered........nothing...
oh well....

So we decided to go to the 11pm screening.....even if it was nearly 6 hours away...
(yes.......that is a very long time, isnt it?)
But we were cool with it.

and besides, heheh, when my brother parked in the civic car park, there was this lady next to us who was about to leave...
and she said that she had an 'all day' parking ticket, and she very kindly gave it to us.
Thank you mysterious woman!!!!!!!
I grovel at your feet!

kinda....
(very coincidental that she gives us an all day parking ticket and we end up having to stay in the city a very long time, ne? ^_^)

So anyway, we had major time to kill..
Our plan was to head to Gameparidise, but we were detoured for quite a long time at Borders....
How we went off track so much, I just dont know....
But me, Kunfei, Michael and my brother ended up talking about 'Magic the gathering' cards.......
And now I SOOOOOO wish I hadnt sold mine.......It was heaps and heaps of fun...*sigh*

Also seems to be even more interest in a 'Mysterious Cities of Gold' showing than I thought there was, I really must try and sort something out.

We eventually made our way to Gameparidise......
heheh
This is where I planned to have my photo-cards done ^_^
After a brief run down of how to work those wonderous contraptions, I got me a photo-card done...
I look a little smug in it, but it's a lot better than I thought it would be.
I couldnt resist doing another...'the time is never stopped' one....
Quite good, I like it much more than the other, I think cause of the background and stuff...

Thanks to my beautiful pictures ( ^_^ ) Others decided to get in on the act.
EB did some seriously funny ones.
My brother did too, but he needs to smile more in the pics...otherwise he looks too grumpy.....but it was his fist time, so yeah.
Kunfei got one too.
As did Edwyn, and it is SO funny ^_^
I asked if I could borrow one of the copies of it so I could scan it, and he agreed.......maybe a little reluctantly though ^_^
I think that was about everyone....

But something I must mention before I move onto the next bit...
On the outside of the Photo-card machines, they display top 10 pictures and so on......
now....One of the pics had two asian girls close together... it all seemed normal at first........
if you are a crazy blind idiot, that is...

One of them had lifted up her shirt.......which is bad......but even worse is the fact she wasnt wearing a bra....
...
.......
..
.
yyeeeaahhhhh @_@
well..
That took us all by suprise..
Sadly Josh, Nick and Trevor (???? I cant remember his name) had bumped into us while about to play some DDR, but they missed it....
Despite them and us gathering around waiting for it to come back up (looking like a bunch of perverts to everyone else no doubt O_o) it didnt come back up, though it was briefly shown while the pics were turning on the screen...
...
..
.
.....but geez..........why? why did those girls do it? O_o And why did they register their picture to be shown on the outside of the machine?!?! O_o

ACK! another one of those questions that I'll probably never know the answer to ~_~

*phew* weird shit man.....oh well.......made the evening more interesting anyway (.......nothing dodgy or perverted meant of course O_o)

There was a very funny card display on the top 10 though.... had two guys, one unzipping his trousers, and the other kneeling down.........I dont think I have to say anymore about what they were doing....
but the writing said "Fuck! We're drunk!"
It was sooo funny, LOL ^_^

Anyway, our little group and Josh's co. split ways.
We headed to Wendy's cause we all seemed to be very hungry.
Stayed there for a fair while eating and chatting, EB left at around nine or so, can't honestly remember...

We then headed to Stages Time out for a little DDR action, but got none 'cause it was very packed with people O_o
First we stopped for a few drinks though, and .....also spilling drinks ... as so happened to Chris and his coffee (over him too, ouch) O_o
It's a damn sign I tell you!
Coffee is bad! bad! Bad I tell you!

I whipped some major ass on the Soul Calibur machine, had a go at Puzzle Bobble (my skills are rusty), failed miserably at a ninja shooting game thing ( O_o ), and watched others play that hand waving game and a DJ game (oh yeah, also a piano, keyboard type thing...but all of which looked really pathetic).

Finally we headed to the Imax cinema complex thing...
Waited in line for FF (we were the first ones there....well.....thats not to suprising considering we were 40min or so early)
Eventually got let into the actually cinema and got the best seats we could (us being the first and all).

There was a trailer for A.I. (I want to see that), and ..... Oh god...
......
A trailer for Spiderman.......
....
It looks SO TERRIBLE!
fark.....and people seemed to snicker when he appeared on screen...
I cant blame them, it looks so damn stupid ~_~

But then came Final Fantasy : the spirit's within...
I was trying my best not to dislike this movie....
I had been keeping my expectations low....

But I had no need to, It was a great movie...
Certainly not something to go ranting and raving about, but I really enjoyed it and liked the story, characters, and just the way everything turned out...
At times I was thinking 'oh god this is going to become so cheesy', but nope.....not at all...
A few stiff lines by some of the actors sometimes, but overall a pretty good performance from everyone.
I came out of the theatre thinking 'wow, they pulled it off........they made a good movie', and that they did.

I suggest that you go see it, dont expect it to be good just cause I say so though.....it's only my opinion and you may really dislike the movie...I dunno....
But I hope you enjoy it as much as I did.

The computer generation was pretty good, sometimes people were very realistic, other times not so much.
But it is still the best stuff out, no matter what.

We headed out of the cinema and into the civic carpark, but Amy realised she left her scarf back in the cinema, so back we went (and I got me a drink of Coke on the way)
After that we decided to call it a night and went our seperate ways (was 1:20am at the time ^_^;;;)

My brother's over the speed limit driving got us back home very quickly though ^_^
And now we come full circle with where I started writing the entry.
And what a monster of an entry it is, heheh.

I'll have those photo-cards scanned when I wake up and put them online as soon as possible.

Overall, A very fun day, even if we did have to wait a really long time to see the movie.
But i'm tired now......so I think I should sleep..
Ja

I love it when a scheme comes together, especially my own, MUWHAHAHAHAHAHA ^_^

Seem's like I'll be seeing Final Fantasy the movie tomorrow in the city..
that also means I can get some photo cards done, yay!

Way hey! nothing much else to say at the moment!

*sigh* no Tadpole concert for me ~_~
fine...so it's hardly a concert, but they're still playing at the moment down near the library and above the swimming pool place ~_~
My brother was going to take me, oh well....

Okay.......so I worded that Gravitation comment really badly ^_^;;;
What I mean is, it's good as far as a shounen ai thing goes with me, me not being a fnagirl or being gay.
I dont really think it's that good an anime, but I was expecting something much worse, so it was a nice suprise.

So, no.....I'm not a closet fangirl....though I can see that little line lingering over my head for awhile >_<

"look! it's Fergus! the closet fangirl!!"
*shudder*

Thank you for saying that, Josh, I shall remember this next time you make a slip of the tongue ^_^
And what's up with you and Setsuna and Yuki, eh? ^_^
Though I suppose it's as bad as I am with Iori, like I said once before...IF I was a member of the opposite sex, then I would be drooling over him so much ........anyway! Enough of that ...O_o

11 hits already, wow, not too bad......especially with 6 more hours till it's been up for a full day.
Buwhahaha.

Whoa O_o
I just woke up from a 3 hour sleep...
I feel quite refreshed, and it's good to see the song i've been trying to download for the last day or so is finally completed (I had to try getting it so many times O_o)

I added a counter at 12am NZ-time, if you hadnt noticed...
And even though it's 5am now, I've had two hits, which isnt bad....
I'm guessing one is Edwyn, as he seems to have been up until just recently....(he even decided to send me a very strange ICQ, message..........joy O_o)

This isnt really going to be much of an entry, cause even though I have had some sleep, I still need proper longer amount of sleep.

Letters to cleo - Here and now

'Cue' the mustic show on Prime is pretty damn good, they've played a lot of good songs in the last few days that I've been watching.
And they actually play more than 6 different songs each time! *gasp* unlike all the other music crappy shows.

I want to go see Final Fantasy the movie sometime soon, so if anyone is wanting to also see it, then let me know one way or another and maybe we can have a little group gathering to see it.
ICQ message me, or e-mail me, hell......you could even put my guestbook to good use and put something in there ^_^.

Also if we go out into the city to see it, I can get some of those photo cards done, maybe even force other people to get some done too ^_^

Anyway, I end here before I start getting too sleepy,
Ja

P.S. cause I was talking about it to Josh earlier over the phone,.....yes, Gravitation is good.....in..a..shounen ai way I guess.....O_o
Not nearly enough songs from the bands though, it gets rather tiring after hearing the same song several times in each episode ~_~;;
Hiero and Yuki rock! same with that blond guy from Litlle Gnaspers (or whatever they're called).
The bands have awesome names, like 'Ask' and 'Bad luck'.
Samurai Pizza Cats has the most wicked band name though, you cant top 'Rude Noise' ^_^
(If I had a band, I'd call it that, LOL)

I'm feeling rather lonely

My computer has been crashing wat too much this evening... I'm talking every 20min or so ~_~

Uh, had my haircut today......a fair bit more was taken off the front than I wanted....
Maybe that will please Josh, but it kinda pisses me off a bit ^_^
I spent quite a long time growing it to the length it was at...*sigh*
But at least it's been straightened now.

Oh yeah, I downloaded Gnutella today, I had the program once before...but it was way shit..
but it seems to have improved greatly, i'll be using it instead of Imesh and Limewire now (not to mention Napster, but that died ages ago) which slow down my computer too much.
Though I still cant find any of the Hunter X Hunter BGM, dammit! ~_~

I'm in a very 'sit in front of the computer and do nothing' mood right now........so it's hard to write....ah well.

P.S. NOOOOO!!! the 5th Harry Potter book comes out July next year!! ~_~
I have to wait another year!! ~_~

Wow, I was just about to say I was really really bored and was going to turn in for the night, but lo and behold!
Steve shows up on ICQ and thus makes me interested in staying awake ^_^

Violent Femmes 'blister in the sun' is really cool, too short though, but still good.
Very catchy and a neat tune, I imagine it wouldnt be too hard to play on an acoustic guitar.

I'm having my hair cut tomorrow, whee!
('but my hair is already very short' I hear you say? Well that's true, but I want the bit at the front straightened again, it's not sticking straight up anymore, just curling over)
So yeah, then sometime later this week I'll go into town and get these card photo things done.


Just thinking about next year...
It'll be tough on us..
No more D.P.B. for my mum....
She'll have to get a full time job or something....
I'll be giving board money, So I defintely need a full time job too.
So things will be rather tight around here...
We may even have to move somewhere cheaper to rent ~_~
I cant stress enough how much I dont want to move.
I love this place so much, just thinking about leaving makes me extremely sad.
And then if my brother leaves next year like he says he will, then...I dunno...~_~
That's even less money to help out.

...Maybe I should stay at school next year......? ~_~
I really dont want to, and as I said to my mum, it's only delaying the inevitable...

I really dont want my mum to have to go work some full time job......it doesnt feel right..
She shouldnt have to, it's just not fair ~_~

Though if my brother leaves we could always get a exchange student, that would be neat.
But still, doesnt really change the future from looking hard and slightly depressing. ~_~

Damn you fortunate people that dont have to worry about this kind of stuff ~_~
I hope you realise how lucky you are.

The Cure - Lullaby

Damn, my plans to go into the city and get some of those card-photo thingys done at the arcade has sorta fallen through.
I blame Edwyn, as he didn't get any sleep ^_^

I want to get some pictures of me done, because....well....I havent got any of me from the last 6 months or so.
And with those things I can actually see what I look like, whereas if I got my mum to take photo's of me, they may all be really crap (as is the case with most photo's).
Anyway, I was prompted to get some pictures of me by Steve, and who am I to disobey him? ^_^

My determination to get them was fueled some more by a dream I had this morning with Steve in it, and it just reminds me how much I'm looking forward to his return.

Violent Femmes - Blister in the Sun

Hmm, I feel stupid and embarassed whenever I talk about him....not too sure why.
I think it's all part of the me showing feelings thing..
Like i've said once before, I have trouble showing my feelings about a lot of things...
I have trouble hugging anyone, even my mum sometimes..
god knows why.
So when it comes to Steve, someone whom I admire more than anyone, I'm embarassed to say that to me I think he's the best person in the world.
He's on this little plain that I can never see myself being able to reach, but I dont mind because I dont need to be like him.

I'm still going to strive to be a great person and all that. But no one can be the same, so I wouldnt dream of trying ot be like him, and besides...thats just silly ^_^

I wonder if you're wondering why I admire him so much?
Well I dunno, I just do....^_^
But I think to anyone that knows him.. it's pretty obvious really.
Wah, I'm getting embarassed now O_o;;;
Better stop now.

Aww shit, my head hurts....
headaches suck, especially when you cant go to bed cause you have things to do..

My day has been boring, wow..
blah blah blah

I caught up with David, another old school friend on ICQ today.
Was good talking to him, reminds me how stupid I was to lose contact with them all.
He sent me some pictures of himself, his girlfriend (way to go!!), Stevie, Wybo and some of their other friends getting read for the school ball.
My god!!
To think my friends I had when I was a kid are now wearing posh suits to school balls O_o
Apparently Wybo cut his hair last week or something...

NOOOOO!!!!!!!
How could you do that!!??!?!

I'm sure he'll still look cool, but one of the pics that David sent was a group one, and in the corner sat Wybo looking extremely cool and pretty boy-like.
damn, he's cannon fodder for girls, no fair!
He must grow his hair long again though, otherwise he just wouldnt be a real life bishy.


I feel sick *sigh*
Final Fantasy IX is pissing me off at the moment...
I'm trying to get an item rom the auction house, but it's not coming up...
grrr....
I dont want to wait forever..
bleah.

Hmm....maybe I'll try and drag Wybo and David along to an anime night sometime...
Hell I asked Jordan as well about it before and he expressed some interest.
I think the only problem is how could they get there.?
I suppose they could get a lift with me, but returning may be a bit hard.

ah well, just an idea....I'll have to ask them about it.

Oh god, i'm having a hard time breathing at the moment...O_o;;;;
I think I need some sleep.....
I'm not so sure if I can have FF-IX finished for tuesday evening....i hope so though....

must sleep......Ja

Damn, that boss at Ispen castle in FF-IX was way too easy, I finished him in under a minute.
That's just wrong after the amount of time I spent building up my characters, but then again, if I built them up a lot then he should be easier to beat....right?
But still I wanted the thrill of fighting a boss, I have a harder time fighting those Tonberry things...

And then the Earth guardian...now....I thought it would be hard cause it was only going to be Zidane and Quina vs this boss....
but no.....I took him down quick as.. I guess it helped that Zidane went into Trance and did Grand Lethal doing 9999 damage, but I would have taken it down after about two more attacks anyway..
Zidane was armed with auto-haste and Angel Bless, as well as auto-potion and counter attack, so he was pretty safe...
Quina, being one of my weakest characters, was fortunate enough to not be attacked at all during the fight, his auto-float ability made sure the earthquake attacks didnt touch him.

Is it just me or is Eiko really annoying?
But ah well, I went and got my characters some nice shiny new weapons afterwards and now it's time to go complete some side quests methinks...

I was going to write this up last night, or this morning I should say...
But at 4am I thought I had better leave it till I wake up ^_^

oh yeah, Just when I decided to take thespark persoanlity test, they decide to take it down while they fix it up, damn them!!
I took the purity test though, last time I got 91% Pure, this time I got 84%, which is still pretty high I guess...
----people less pure than me (95%)
----people more pure than me (5%)

I'm a 20% bastard last time I checked, probably am slightly moreso now.
I will die on July 27, 2061 at the age of 76 years old, most likely cause being a heart attack.
I will have sex with 3 people in my life (???), one of which I'll actually love O_o
I have 71% chance of dying during sex.
And apparently I am a woman.....or am just like one with the way I think.........thank you thespark I 'll remember that...

God, I'm feeling kind of exhausted...
not tired or anything, but i just have that feeling...
like when you've been doing something for a while and you just want to say 'screw this! i want to do something else!'. that kind of feeling...
yeah..
or something...

I mean i'm just so 'aw, whatever' about everthing now...
I feel like I have too much weight over my head at the moment...
too many nagging things...
I just want a bloody good rest...
A few weeks of no school work, and i'd spend the time with my friends.
Hell, maybe go out and make new ones.
I dont want to worry about things like school work and the future...
I dont want to worry about my education and what kind of job I cab get..
dammit

I want to watch some movies...but i have no money to go to the cinema or rent any videos out...
aybe I feel better in the morning..

On a slightly better note, I managed to get my contact list and message history back on ICQ, though 99a refuses to work, so I have to use 2000b from now on...
I removed the ads, so it's not that bad.


I'm leveling up my characters in FF-IX as I type this...it's kinda hard to do that, but i can manage..
they (Zidane, Vivi, Steiner and Rapier(Garnet/Dagger, I thought Dagger sounded too silly, so I chose another bladed weapon for her name) are approaching level 50 now, well Zidane is already at level 50, but yeah.
As soon as Steiner reaches 40 I'm going to go fight the boss in castle Ispen.
And good god! Garnet/Dagger/Rapier looks super cute the way she is now!!
YAY for cute female characters who are actually cool! ^_^

Oh yeah, I want to take the personality test at Thespark, hmm, maybe after i've kicked the boss' tail all the way to Alexandria! ^_^

HAR HAR!
THAR SHE BLOWS!

...hmm, yes...okay
I might write another thing later, but I have stuff to do..
Ja

P.S. I watched the Invisible man again, Darian is very cool, me like.

Vertical Horizon - Shackled

I wrote a fair sized entry yesterday, but decided against posting it....
so if you would like to know what it was about, then icq/e-mail/ask me.

I can put the last bit of it up though, which is to do with this 'friends' stuff that everyones talking about ^_^
so here we go :

"But I guess it show's that my friends mean a lot to me. Which I seem to have realised in the past, but not fully understood.....'Cause I still seem to take them for granted.
Which brings us to this whole friends thing kinda being talked about at the moment.

You want to keep the friends you have, as they are a good thing, going out and making new friends is generally bad if you already have a lot (unlike me), that peanut butter theory makes a lot of sense (it's funny how common things that elude our minds make so much more sense when explained in a metaphorical fashion).
You want to be able to keep in touch with your friends, but you dont want it to become annoying having to do so.
So you need to find a nice little place in the middle.
This all depends on how busy you are, I suppose...
If you're really busy then aim for seeing your friends once a month and ringing them every so often.
It honestly doesnt take long to ring someone and catch up with them....
Especially considering how much a CERTAIN someone procratinates, ne? ^_^

So yeah, I mean it would only take about an hour and a half for me to ring all my school friends and catch up with them, and I could do that every few weeks, see?
Not much time is taken up and you've quenched your friends desire to eat your soul in the burning depths of hell. ^_^
Which is just their way of showing they care and that they are upset that you havent been in contact with them.
Gee, I wish I had more friends that want to eat my soul in hell, it's always nice to have people that care ^_^

Hopefully what i'm saying makes sense instead of just coming off as a endless amount of dribble."

I just cut off the last bit, didnt feel it was that important, so ah well.

I had a terrible day yesterday, I wasnt feeling too great about things for most of the day and when things started to look better, ICQ dies and wont connect again.
Forcing me to get ICQ 2000b, which I disliked a fair bit..
Then I tried the DBconverter to get my contact list onto 2000b....
...doesnt work....
I tried again and again, doesnt work...
So I spent the next 4 hours or so trying to fix things...... Didnt really fix anything...

I cant see my contact list, but they can all see me..
and I've lost all my message history...
(well thats not true....i backed up 99a before installing 2000b, so i still have the message history in a way..)
Josh! I command you to help me!!
wave your magic hand and fix things, for I am too dumb to obviously do it O_o

But thanks to Michael I managed to get a lot of my contact list back, but am still missing a few people.

So if you see me on ICQ, please message me!
Then make an offering of money to me for my frustrating evening last night ^_^
well...if you want to...anyway

I want my message history back, dammit! ~_~

ARGH!
Why the hell does Internet Explorer not fricken well register that a page has been updated?!?!
I've clicked refresh so many goddamn times it's stupid!
Netscape has no problem with it, but IE has to be all stupid and shitty!
I've even deleted the cash and it still doesnt show that Clara's journal has been updated!
how screwy is that??
argh!
argh!
(I'm starting to feel like Josh with all these 'argh!')

I was going to screw around with my site again, but I SOOOOOO cant be stuffed anymore, i'm getting too sick of it.

And I have this feeling that I need to be doing something, but I dont know what, dammit...
Maybe it's trying to tell me to play FF-IX..?
Bleh, whatever..
I need a job.
I need to drive the car more.
I need moonnneeeyyyyy
There are a ton of video's I want to rent out, dammit ~_~

Aw, screw this, this isnt productive, i'm just rambling about nothing.
I'm very displeased with IE, grrr
Ja

HEY! James Marsters is on Hollywood Squares O_o;; cool ^_^

Hey, I'm 31% gay ^_^
thats 5% less than average straight male, so yay!

I have had a guy hit on me before though ......~_~;;
damn high school was weird...

*phew*
Just finished sorting my new designed page out.
It looks better methinks, but I'm glad I still have the other one up just in case this one becomes annoying, which I expect it might.

800x600 users rejoice!
For I have made a special version to fit your screen!!
I think so anyway, let me know if it still doesnt fit, but it should, I've tested it myself.

People shouldnt be using 800x600 anyway, it looks terrible O_o
Of course the people I know that use it have their reasons, so that's okay.

LOL
I remember having a conversation with Clara over ICQ about 800x600 some time ago
I was supporting it so much, what a crazy fool I was, heheh ^_^;;
(but hey, back then I had never used 1024x768, and wasnt allowed to change it, so how was I to know..? ^_^)

I didnt get to drive the car today like I wanted.
Ah well, maybe tomorrow

I'm going to make it a mission to return all the stuff I borrowed from Finn to him at the next anime night on tuesday.
I better get my ass in gear in Final Fantasy IX then
Speaking of Final Fantasy, is it just me or does it look like the movie is going to be crap?
It look's pretty, but from what I've heard the story doesnt sound good and reviews have been generally bad.

Well I hope I'm wrong and that it turns out to be great, but I'm going to tread carefully as far as the movie is concerned, if I dont expect much....then it's easier for me to be suprised and enjoy it more.

Anyway, I'm kinda tired......well not really....I'm just saying that cause I'm going to stop writing this entry now ^_^
I'm off to listen to some music then go to bed.
Ja!

Wild Cherry - Play that funky music white boy

Hey hey, another new design, hopefully it looks better than before.
Obviously you cant see it yet, cause...well...the new design is part of my page, and you view the journal in that from now on (or you could just view it as it is right now...but....thats just no fun).
So go here my website design you have already seen or My new designed thingy
Though I find it a little.....cramped and everything....
So maybe I'll change it soon, but right now I have to get out of bed and do school work, I've spent the last few hours half asleep trying to put the new design together...
Hmm..I think I will definitely change it....yeah....

Also, I've archived my entries again, so if you missed a few from last night, then go take a looksee (the link is down in the menu)