Damn, seeing so many good designs for my friends journals is really pissing me off.
So I've started sketching several differnt designs for my own.

I refuse to have a journal that looks crap, dammit!

Oh my god! O_o

I just spent the last 30min or so driving my mum's car up and down the driveway.....O_o

OH MY GOD

I just drove a car...

oh my god

It moved

oh my god

and I only stalled 3 or so times...
not..bad....i guess.....O_o

My mum said I did pretty good, but there's not much else I can really learn until I get my learners licence and get out on the road or some empty parking lot.

but wow....oh my god.....

I'm bored as hell and also feeling shit about not having any money, great ~_~
I'll have to talk to my mum tomorrow about what I can do, maybe I'll actually make an effort to look for a job.

Also need to read more of the road code, god that thing takes a while to read *sigh*
My mum suggested I do a driving course with an instructor for $20, I declined...but maybe I should do it...?
I dont really want to, but I guess I ought to...
Knowing me I wont end up doing it though, ah well.

bwah, I hate being unhappy, for obvious reasons really...

I'm so bored I think I'm going to read the road code...
Am I bored or what?

Damn, I'm not feeling too happy...
Slightly because of the movie, but mainly because I have no money.
And apparently I have to be 18 to work in a video store ~_~

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*sigh* maybe thats not the case, I certainly hope not, as I cant really see myself working anywhere else at the moment ~_~

I need money.

I need to buy some blank tapes, I want to rent out as much Buffy as possible, I want to go see A.I. Final Fantasy and whatever else catches my eye.
damn

money sucks, damn money, damn damn damn
damn you people that get allowances

Just got back from seeing Shrek with EB, Chris and David...

...
hmm....

To the people who have seen Shrek, why do you like it so much?
It wasnt.....bad........but there is no way in hell it's good....

The humour was very very bland and typical...
I think the only time I laughed was at the end when the donkey sings to 'I'm a believer' by Neil Diamond..
And it's not like I dont have a sense of humour or anything, in fact i'm a very joke-ish person that loves to laugh, but it just wasnt funny...or enjoyable either...O_o

damn, I'm really disappointed, kinda pissed off actually.
*sigh*
Let me know why you enjoyed Shrek by leaving me a message in my guestbook or something (which is to the left on the menu, look! ^_^)


On a different note I took along my brothers cellphone, which was handy not only cause I had to call my mum to pick me up, but I could check the time as I didnt bring my watch.
I really want a cellphone now, a Nokia mainly, because I keep being told that it's the better or something O_o

So, I've seen three movies within the last week...
I wouldnt mind seeing A.I. as well.
maybe even that Cats & dogs thing.
Really disppointed with Shrek though, I had to borrow $11 to see it, which...well....I hate having to borrow money, so it would have been good if the movie had been better ~_~

First I'll start off this entry with a little plea ^_^
If you have Buffy on tape or something, can you PLEASEEEEEE lend it to me??? @_@
I'm getting very desperate to see it before the new season starts up on TV3/4 .

I may have to try and rent them out from the video store with my lovely non-existent money.
Dont you like non-existent money? It's so wonderful and light weight, isnt it?
Boy, I sure am lucky to have sooooo much non-existent money, HAHAHAHA I'm lucky ^_^
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

HAHAHA
*sigh*

Damn, this sucks having no money....
It really sucks.

And it's not like I get any allowance or anything, So I have no money till I get a job.

~_~
Guess I know what I gotta do.

I cant remember right now what I was going to write, I'm sure it'll come back to me soon, but I'll just post this now.

YO YO YO
hey hey hey
I'm feeling not too shabby, that's a good thing, yes it is.
HAHAHAHAHA

I went to my friends place a few houses down the road today, he's going back to australia tomorrow..
well..in a few hours actually.
But anyway, I went to see him as there was a little farewell party type thing going on.
Me and him went out into the huge back garden and raked up with the leaves and twigs to start a bonfire.
It started off quite well actually, the fire that is....
then it kinda died because Justin suffocated the fire with too many leaves.
anyway, we got it started again using primative methods as we lost the matches (we dumb, but we also boys of the land ^_^)
Went back inside briefly to help Bryn with Final Fantasy 7, he was stuck in the trainyard on disc 1, cant blame him though, I got stuck there when I first played it.

>>>>>>>>>>Interlude<<<<<<<<<<<<

just for a reference, I thought I would list down my friends......since the people that mainly read this dont know these other friends....*ahem*

Primary school friends - high school friends :

Wybo - Dutch kid, met him when I was about 5 and a half, best buddy while at school. lost contact after I started correspondence schooling. kinda a go with the flow type of person, was rather shy too.

Jordan - met him a few months after Wybo, very religous and short, but being religous was a cool thing about him.
It meant he never swore, was never nasty etc, a genuine pure kid. out of all my friends from school, he's the one that has changed the least and i've kept in contact with the most.

Stephen - A friend of Jordan's whom I met at about the same time as Jordan. He's extremely hyper and crazy, very computery and technical. He's changed a lot, is now a skateboard punker not interested in technical stuff.
I Havent really kept in contact with him cause after Primary he went to a different school from me.

Justin - the evil satanic boy. I met him in my last few years of primary, he was honestly the devils child..
You so much as looked at him and you were instantly the target for some bullying.
He was feared throughout the school, yet he somehow became my friend...weird...
the reason for that is that he lives just a few house's down the road, and once he ound out I lived near him he started hanging out with me ^_^;
It's quite nice to have such a potentially violent evil insane person as a friend, not only does it mean you wont get picked on, but if you ever need someone beaten up, then you have someone to do it ^_^
He had a little trouble at home...as...well...h's a trouble maker....and his mum couldnt handle him anymore so sent him off to aussie-land to live with his dad.
He comes back during the holidays to see his mum, bro and me etc.

Bryn - Justin's younger brother, I started babysitiing him when I was 10. He is extremely hyperactive and silly, but doesnt seem to be following in his brothers footsteps of mass destruction thanks to my guiding hand.
He's actually fairly smart currently (he's 11 at the moment), not as in he does well at school, but he can be serious and wise and stuff, if you know what I mean.

>>>>>>>>>>END Interlude<<<<<<<<<<

I think thats everyone.....

ANYWAY, we cooked marshmellow over the fire when it got dark and I put my shoddy swordfight skills to test by fighting Bryn and his friend Ross in the dark with sticks.
buwhahaha
I kicked ass....but only cause they were too foolish to realise their mistake in movements and reactions....
in fact if they just briefly studied the way I fought, they could have beaten me easily.
But no, I ended up looking extremely stylish and cool, hehe.
Also I can easily whup ass in tug of war, Bryn, Dom, Melissa, and two other kids couldnt beat just me!
MUWHAHAHAHAHAHA
I'm strong!
(okay, so i get my kicks out of being better than little kids, so what?)
Anyway, was generally a nice day.

Got back inside my house at about 8:45pm, then watched the X-men movie with my brother (which he rented out), which is still pretty good...
A few things I dislike, but there is always going to be something I dislike with every movie.

Oh, I found the episode of Speed racer I taped when cartoon network magically appeared on my tv one day, woohoo, I thought I had lost it.
Also found more episodes of Legend of Zorro which I didnt think I had, so maybe I do have them all...? O_o

Then I jumped online and talked to people, as well as mucking around more with my site.
I need to scan my recent artwork too...
The stuff I have up at the moment is rather appalling.
oh well..
anyway I'm fairly tired now and if this goes on any longer I may have to use 'anyway' once again ^_^

So Ja!

Oh btw, redesigned and relocated my website.
let me know what you think in the guestbook.
My new webpage

Saw Evolution, was good, not hilarious, but very funny.

Am feeling weird......thinking deeply

maybe talk more tomorrow about things.

Went to the anime night last night, saw Trigun which I've already seen the first half of.
Was good though, I felt the most comfortable at an anime night than I have for a really long time.
I dont think you can honestly understand how nice it was, nothing to worry about, no tense atmosphere, it was great.
I only wish it would be like that next time..
No chance of that I guess...

Got more Kodomo no omocha too!!!
YAY! it's awesome! Hayama is so cool! XXXXXDDDDEEEE
I was laughing out loud last night while everyone was asleep, whoops ^_^

And then today I went to see Swordfish with Wybo (ollldddddd school friend) at the Westcity cinema.
Which is pretty damn good, the cinema and the movie that is.
the seats are really nice and comfortable, and the screens are bigger than others i've seen.

The movie was pretty good, mainly cause of Hugh Jackman ^_^
he's now my favourite actor! haha
And the explosion at the start of the movie....wow!
Awesome!
I really dislike John Travolta though, but he isnt that bad as long as he plays a villian.
The scenes with nudity were a little too typically shoved in...
And plus I get incredibley embarassed at those kinda scenes in movies....
why? I just dont know O_o
weird that I'm like that, maybe i'm kinda childish in that respect..?
Was a good movie though, not great, but definitely good.
It was really cool to catch up with Wybo though, and wah!!
He is WAY taller than me!!!
he's 6'4! O_o
and he's younger than me! gah!
and he has long bishonen hair!!!
gah!
no fair no fair!
still skinny as ever though ^_^;
And I saw Remco too! still the same as well, heheh
He didnt know who I was for a little while, I've changed a lot in the last few years ^_^

Was a nice day in all, same with yesterday...
Now I must watch more Kodomo no omocha!
cause it's just too cool!
(I need to get a guestbook!)

God I'm feeling bad...
I'm guessing I know why, but it's SO not something to make me feel so shit.
Why, why why? why do I feel so bad and dirty and tainted? argh!
I hate this feeling....
I feel like i'm being drawn back into the damn past, I want the past to just lay down and die, but instead i feel as if i'm getting pulled back to it.

Can I really have fun with someone that seem's to be something I dont like?
Even so, it still reminds me of the past...
And i'll just say this now, I HATE the past.
My past that is.......
I wish I could cut those three years out of my life and never remember them.
blah.

I feel shit.

P.S. the Star Ocean EX anime is pretty damn crap...though Hunter x Hunter seems to keep getting better and better.

I forgot to mention last night that I added a link to Finn's blog, go there and do what he says, for the revoluion! ^_^

Here's four words to make you jealous of me....
White.....Chocolate......Toffee......Pops
My mouth is watering just thinking of them......oh what can this be..? three of them right next to me?
Well I had better eat them, buwhahaha ^_^
(and I thought normal toffee pops were good)

And hey!! West City is complete!!
My sweet sweet Henderson Square, how you've grown.
You now have a cinema, woohoo!
I'll have to check it out soon.

But now I must go scan something.
Ja

NP: Tadpole - (the entire album)

My brother went out and got the Tadpole album today, and I'm so glad he did, it's great!!
Tadpole is a very very high quality New Zealand band.
The ultimate attack, The Buddhafinger! ^_^

Kodomo no Omocha rocks!
Akito rocks!
It rocks!
Dammit, another cool as anime.
But that's a good thing ^_^
Must see more than the first 6 eps though.

Cant think well......music is distracting me....O_o
Ja

NP: Regurgitator - Fat cop

You know, I cant actually remember much of what I've done today, sad.
I think that's mainly cause I spent so much of today doing crappy school work.

I went over to my friends to help him out with FF7 and fix up MSN for him.
I love it when people dont know as much as me, they treat me like i'm super smart, hehe ^_^

On a slightly different, yet funny note, my cat Syndy followed me into the bathroom when I went to wash my face.
That would be normal-ish if it wasnt for the fact that she started licking my toes...
O_o;;
It tickled a lot, but she kept at it.
When I looked at her she just made a Meow and continued..
weird O_o
According to my mum Syndy likes licking toes.....okkkaaaayyy...I never knew that before...
I know that she likes to wear my mums shoes (yes, you heard right) but licking toes?

whatever, I have some FFIX to catch up on, but I felt I had better put up a entry....cause...well it's a habit now ^_^;

Too much car stuff for me today, I feel like i'm being smothered by it all...
and thats not good...
too much of anything makes me sick of it, and I want to try and keep this liking of cars for a fair while.

I'll stop reading the Road code for now, maybe resume looking at it before I go to bed.

To have a car is a handy thing, to be ale to drive is even handier ^_^
Maintaining a car is a bitch though, thats my only problem with cars.
Ah well, it's not like i'm going to get a car soon anyway.
I'm going to save up for one though, and I dont want some shoddy looking thing either, I want something that screams coolness ^_^
(hey, in this world today Image is everything *shrug*)

Which also makes me think of something else, What the hell do I want from life?
Right now I have no idea, so I just drown myself in books, videogames, anime and music.
I'm aware I should maybe do some productive things, like learning to drive, become more self-dependant and so on.
And I want to, but I'm just questioning why?
I'm a very reason type person, I need a reason to do something.
The reason to learn to drive and become less dependant on others is obvious, so I dont question that...
But for just about everything else nowadays, I do.
And if there isnt a satisfactory reason, then I probably wont do it.
gwah, I dont know..

HAHAHAHAHA, I just went and re-read some of my old journal I had on my webpage before, I was looking for one of the entries where I talked about what I wanted from life.
Anyway, I ended up reading a fair few entries....and oh my god...
It's so entertaining reading what I was like back then..
That's one of the cool things about having a journal.
It almost feels like a different person, like when I wrote those depressed entries near the end of the journals lifespan...
After re-reading them I felt like telling my previous self to shut the hell up and stop whining..
It's okay to be sad, but not to burble crap like that.
What a sniveling little wimp I was.......

Though it's nice to see I was such an idealistic dreamer..
I can definitely notice the difference between my past self and me currently.
I have more backbone, I'm more realistic than idealistic, I'm cooler (*ahem* well....it's true..O_o), I'm more carefree, I dont think lowly of myself (as I did often then), And I now seem to have anger problems ^_^ (well, only when I get really pissed off, then I feel like smashing things and punching people.....but I dont of course, so it's not that bad an anger problem....and plus it makes it sound bad, I prefer..uh....pissed off problem..? ^_^;)
I'm more boyish than I was before is the one that sticks in my mind the most..
Though I still retain some of my previous thoughts on things.....such as my opinion on alcohol, smoking, peer pressure and so forth.
My opinion on love has changed greatly, it's not so wishy-washy.
Like before I believed that there would be 'the one' for me, and I would only go out with the person that was 'the one'
blablablabla, typical idealistic bullshit.
I say dont overlook anyone!
Dont fart around waiting for 'the one', there is no such thing as the one....
The best person for you could be someone completely different in thoughts and likes.
The whole point of dating is to find out if you can like and see yourself with that person.

Dammit, my idealism made me stupid, it's nice in a way as it makes me seem like such a sweet boy, but christ!
Get with the program lad, the world isnt nice!
You are really nice and your idealism is something really cool about you, but you just can't survive in a world like this.
In a fairytale world, yes, but in the real world, no.

"Life sucks, get a f--king helmet" -- Dr.Dennis Leary ^_^

I said about a month ago that I wish I was like I was before, all idealistic and nice and everything, but I'm glad I'm not like that anymore.
I've finally realised what was wrong with myself, heheh.
Wow, I feel quite good about myself, neat ^_^;
Of course I should feel good, I mean i've got lots of things to entertain me, got good friends, I'm shockingly handsome.... (I am! you just dont want to admit it ^_^)

I think a bit of Steve's ego rubbed off on me, hehe
I've really lost track of what I was saying in the first place, oh well...
Something about what I want from life...?
well.....I dunno, and I'm tired, so I'll have to ponder that next time.
Ja

whoa, I'm in a very car-ish mood......
Did Initial D last night do that to me?? O_o
I mean I've spent most of my day so far reading about cars and finding out about the new Mazda RX-8 (Keisuke in Initial D has a FD3S RX-7)
Wish I had tons of money so I could buy it, of course that means I kinda need my drivers license, something tells me I had better finish reading the road code and go get my learner's license ^_^;

Back from Josh's anime night in which he showed Initial D : third stage (aka the movie).
I've already seen it, but I'm not one to miss out on a aac event.
I took my computer along and got there at about 1:50pm or something, apparently Edwyn had been there since 11:30am O_o
The three of us ended up listening to music, talking garbage (as per usual, but talking garbage is fun), and pushing each other around.

I got lots of anime and stuff to watch over the next few days, and even the Tokyo Breakfast 'nigga' skit, as they so call it O_o
It involves a japanese family calling eachother "nigga" like "whassup my nigga's" and so forth.
It sounds rather bad unless you actually see it, but the way it's used isnt really offencive, and although slightly lame, is extremely funny ^_^

We all headed down to Wendy's after Initial D, they are supposed to close at 10pm, but we got in the doors at 9:57pm ^_^
We were very inconsiderate and didnt leave till 10:20pm or so, lol.
I could see staff members looking at us, obviously wanting us to go, but hell they're making money, so they shouldnt complain.
Was funny though, and Finn unknowingly ate a bit of Amy's food....that she had taken out of he mouth! O_O
The expression on his face when he was told, classic ^_^
hehe

Lot's of talk about school days when we got back to Josh's, lasted a while, but anyway I'm back now..
And I hear Doumyoji calling my name! ^_^

Shopping for clothes is fun, but in saying that I feel very girly O_o
To hell with it, I like shopping for clothes, buwhahahahaha!
I'm girly! and there's nothing you can do about it!

I've archived the previous entries, the link is on the sidebar, the next time I archive they will be listed under archive-entries 2 and so forth.

*yawn*
looks like i'll have to get another early night tonight, not only am I tired I have a headache too >_<

But besides from that, I've had a good day.
Let me say this, Hallensteins good!
They're having a sale at the moment, so me and my mum popped down to West city and checked it out.
I got me the trousers I've been wanting for a while (i think, they look pretty similar at least).
And I also got a red long sleaved top, not the one I was wanting (mainly cause the one I want isnt at Hallensteins, but somewhere else).
It's all good though..
I'll show them off tomorrow when I go to Josh's for the anime night thing ^_^


WAH!! Grandpa get better soon!
My grandpa had a stroke about a year ago, and ever since he's been having problems with memory and has to be kept an eye on most of the time.
Unfortunatly he had to be left at home for a few hours and decided to do some gardening (he's really keen on building and gardening and stuff, but he shouldnt, he looks really frail and old now)
anyway, he must have forgotten there was a wheelbarrow behind him and he tripped and smashed his face on the concrete >_<
>_< >_< >_<
His face is very bruised, and my garndma got a hell of a shock when she got back O_o
Wah! please get better, I'll come to see you soon >_<

I'm not sure what to type after that, it's so sad ~_~
I talked to Steve-dono a fair bit today, was good.
I want Steve to come back soon, or maybe I should say I hope time passes quickly till whne he comes back or something O_o