Bidding Goodbye..
Tuesday, December 7, 2004

Im goin away for the Singapore-Malaysia Youth Camp organised by National Youth Council on this wed(8-14th dec).. Im not really mentally and financially prepared for this camp..but tawakal je lah.. Mentally because there's alot of things which I haven settle with(4PM stuffs,Get A Job)*Roll Eyes*..

And I know that due to my tight schedule..im born to disappoint some ppl lately.Esp those who are reluctant to let me go for this camp..This shall be my last..Hopefully.. Like the song sung by Hoobastank-The Reason.."Im not a perfect person..."

I noe many will miss me..wahhaa..like real..Actually,Im the one who will miss everybody,anybody..For my loved ones who have been anticipating for soo long for me to get a "GOOD" job..Im sorry,bt I really have to go for this camp.."Im sorry that I hurt you..Its sometin I muz mend wiv everyday..And all the pain I put you thru..I wish I could take it all away..and be the one who catches all your tears.."

And so I shall pack my bags and leave for the camp representing the Youths of Singapore...step ambasador over there.. Hish..Duit tak ada..Tapi hati mau kawin..Apa dayaku..Oh,Kawan!

roll down and laugh @ 12:22 a.m.

Wooo.. The Singapore Idol Grand Finals was a blast..Extremely good performance by the two finalists,Sly and Taufik...Still,I dun find the results announcement dat happenin enough..maybe becoz these two finalists kept on singing and singing like professionals before the results were announced.So its like dun matter anymore who's the Singapore Idol.

Well,but I do admit now that im touched listening to Sly's song..An jing..soo the romantic..Hahaha..And ooh I find dat his versions of "I dream" is much better than Taufik's. Its not dat I dislike Taufik..its the matter of who I prefer more..Taufik do have a smooth voice,i admit..Sly,you are still the Singapore's "Clay Aiken",from wildcard to the final two..although u dun get the Singapore Idol title..doesnt matter..u surely will go far..I'll buy your first album,rest assure..wahahhaha..

roll down and laugh @ 11:59 a.m.

Halooo..been veri the veri lazy to update my blog these days..Tonite shall be the Singapore Idol Finals..Finally,I hate the sight of those fans that goes googoo n gaagaas over these people.And I hate to debate wiv my frenz on who's better and who's not.Who do I choose..and such..I choose SLY, of coz!And I noe im outbeaten by the numbers of my MALAY frens who support Taufik.So wat?Its good that my frens have ME who is against Taufik..Atleast we have sometin to debate on rather than we kept agreein wiv each other all the time..BORING!!!

Oooh..Talkin abt IDOLS.Last nite was a fun nite for me n my good frens from secondary school,Amirah,Izwah and Hannah. We went jalan raya to our houses at 8PM and left Izwah's house at 3AM.Wahahahaa..smangat beraya sey sampai pagi buta! Apa taknye..its like ages since we last met.Alot of nonsence things to catchup.And we were busy posing for pics.(using Izwah's camera)..Very funny poses.I cant wait for Izwah to finish uploading those pics and passed them to me..The best part was..since I was the only SLY supporter among them,and they kept sayin that even my hairdo looks like him *roll eyes*..they even told me to do the Sly-alike pose,u noe wiv the hand and eyes thingy...wahahaa..dats fun.I cant wait for that..really

Wooo...ok actually,Im alone in da house.Nobody's home.My parents n brader had left for KL..and my sis bz werkin (mcm betul)..so here Im left alone wiv my pc n tv.Nana n her bf juz left my house..smangat beraya..I noe they must be starvin..(me too)so I fried some rice for them.Yummy!Ok enough of my bullshittin for today..Im lookin forward for tonite.Hope SLY wins..but if he dun..its ok,still no big deal.I still support him..wahahhaa

roll down and laugh @ 03:15 p.m.

I never left my house today..except for helpin out at the 4PM kindy graduation at Singapore Post auditorium.I was told to wear baju melayu..so I ended up wearin it glamourously..wahahhaa..i tink glamourer than the G.O.H, Halimah Yacob.Hey,Mariah was wearin glamourously too but i guess i win her.

Im actually kinda pissed off juz now by how I tink,how I feel..and pissed off wiv wat my family tink of me..tryin hard to make them understand my feelings and myself..but I kept gettin the same negative remarks abt me..WHY eh?How am I to please everyone all the time?I wish Im dat noble..but im nt.I do have my own commitments and responsibilities although I noe im jobless..but cant I be spared dis once,for goodness sake??!!HELP ME!

Ok but im cool now..coz I managed to let out my feelings to someone who's far more younger than me but can be a gd listener..Thanks Nuriah..I cant sleep now coz Im tinkin of ways to improve myself.Im guilty abt myself nw..they made me..I felt as though Ive sinned!And ooh..im feelin disorganised too!Jumbling up my volunteerin works between VDD and NYC..they are all piling up and I have not much time..Dun feel like going out tomorrow..

roll down and laugh @ 02:16 a.m.

At this hour,I juz woke up.Im sure many envy me..for my carefree life..hidup senang,tak byk masalah..takyah keja..apa takyah keja..tak dapat2 keja ah.Boring!My bills are piling up!Damnit..I juz received the new ones somemore.

Im damn tired today..chattin at Msn last nite till 4am..woke up ard 6plus coz visiting to my cousin's place.My auntie had juz passed away..and she's my dad's only sibling..My dad is older than her..well death has no age boundaries.Its sad to see my cousins,my uncle and my dad cryin dis mornin.My late auntie died in ICU SGH last nite.I was there wen it happened,together wiv my cousins,uncle and my parents.Its frightening and sad..TAKUUUUT!!!But kepergian arwah kita redha..sebab dia mmg sudah sakit bertahun..she's paralysed..got kidney probs,diabetes..Semoga Tuhan mencucuri rahmatnyer..Al-Fatiha..

After dat my family headed home..Abg Ez hantar..singgah kat Alfiah coffeeshop nearby his house for lunch..LAPAR GILER SEY!Wen we reached home..my dear grandma,Nek Timah,came to our house..then with the other elders includin my mum..we went house-visitin nearby to my flat..OOhh umah Nuriah pun dapatlah..kata sedara kan *wink*!Best pulak skali skala jalan..dapat duit raya.. pulak tu..kenyanng air!Jgn jeles teman2..

Oh I cant leave this one out..Dis mornin wen my mum woke me up nak suruh kita mandi..She shouted,"Falah,nyanyi..Falah,nyanyi!!!"I was very damn sleepy...but I felt fresh and laughin to tears wen I heard she shouted dat..She wanted to say "mandi" tapi melalut gi "nyanyi"..Still,pikir2 balik abt my parents..they are gettin old and weak..I always felt sorry and guilty towards them whenever I look at them.How I wish miracle can happen to me now and I can put more smiles to their wrinkled faces..God,Help Me!

roll down and laugh @ 12:36 a.m.

I cant take it...there's noone I can find rite nw... I juz felt like shouting..... Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im juz pissed off..

roll down and laugh @ 02:08 a.m.

Yoo..im quite pissed off wiv all these virus dat has been hauntin my laptop nwadays..esp thru my msn..wen i finally decided to reformat my pc when i cant get into windows.Urghh!And there goes all those pics of me,my frens n whoever watsoever..damnit!

Ok so wat shall I speak today..lets talk about the Singapore Idol craze..the results was wat I expected!Hey..im not into Taufik Batisah ok..I vote two times for Sylvester Sim..Sorry Olinda,Im ur fan too but I tink ur 3rd placin is wat u deserved..And I hope Taufik gets 2nd.. Im willin to stay at home on Dec 1st juz to watch the finals..Hope Sylvester do well..I will vote more for him..caiyoo!!

Ok next..eversince there's no more of me in Bazaar geylang..im kinda stuck at home.I dun like to jalan raya so always felt like spendin my time n money to bowling and pool..its juz dat find it difficult to get someone to accompany my woes..Uweek!I spent my weekends wiv my family goin house-visitin to my relatives' house..like I told u guys dat life has got its give and take..I lost 50 bucks and I gained more than dat..wahaha..One house I can earned 25 bucks..One day I earned 60 bucks..and i spent some of it on weekend movie after the jalan raya.haha..I watched Taxi..very damn funny sia..highly recommended..

Ok..tml i gotta collect my passport at ICA..who can accompany me??!!and now I gotta change for 4PM..hish

roll down and laugh @ 03:03 p.m.

great news..i juz lost 50 bucks..and Im nw declared BROKE!dat money is meant for my new passport..damn..how am I to go for dat NYC camp now??Pathetic..pathetic..pathetic..I felt like backin out from the camp.Somemore the date of the camp has been postponed to 8th-14th dec..damnit!I told Barney abt me wantin to back out,but he gave me a pathetic look..hish

I cant understand myself..like my frens told me..in life,there's give n take..I guess gettin money from helpin out at Geylang n losin 50 bucks,are the give n take in my life nw..haiz..dahlah tak dpt duit raya lagik..pathetic..pathetic..pathetic!!

roll down and laugh @ 02:25 a.m.

wowowoooo..at last,finally..all the Smangat kemelayuan of everyday Geylang is OVER!!I reached home around 6am in the pagi raye seh!!Smangat org melayu kiter nak gi jln geylang sampai taknak giveup..ingatkan kitorang nak lelong abis ke barang2 kite??

Ok..my eyes cant stand it as soon as I reached home..gitu gini..i slept till 9am..then got changed coz my siblings will be comin over to my house...wahaha..This year's raya like simple to me..maybe becoz I dun feel the puasa time as Im always at Geylang...hmm,I miss all the frenz i made there anw..Oh Im very glad dat my parents are still here wiv me celebratin Hari Raya,esp my mum..her condition's improved,though not 100%,and so my parents still have to stay at home while me n my siblings went jalan raya to our relatives house the 2nd day..

Oh..my dear sis in-law's dad had passed away 2 days before raya..My condolonces to Kak Ayu and family..I admire Kak Ayu for how compose she looks..deep inside,im sure she's tormenting..Im glad she's married to my brader..Im sure my brader makes a gd husband and dad..he will take care of Kak Ayu and her mum very well..and apart from that he has a wonderful sister like me who will always be there wenever they need help..hehe

Fuuuh..first day raya..i spent my time stealin some sleep before the guests came to my house..and oh..some lovely pics my family took..One thing I love about Hari Raya..Its wen I can really see how strong the bond among my family members..ooh,if u noticed,me n my siblings,hw different we looked from one another..

From left: My eldest sis,Kak Lin..my adik,Asilah..my beloved mum and myself

Kak Lin's family and my parents

Me and my sisters plus nieces

My brader,Abg Ez..and his family,Kak Ayu n Baby Nazif

I like this pic..coz it shows the smiling face of my dad wiv his baby grandson!

My eldest brader,Abg An,wiv my cute nephew..wonder why Nazif scared of my brader..

Finally..a must..me n my darling!

roll down and laugh @ 01:04 a.m.