Split mind??Split Personality??
Saturday, August 14, 2004

My mind is now confused abt myself.. wat im lookin for i still dunno.A job??yeah..but wat type ofjob??dunno..A life??yeah..but wat type of life??dunno..There's this time Im happy wiv wat Im doin and at a point of time I felt lost.Nt sure whether wat im doin is rite or wrong..

Hmmmph..yesterday was tiring.Early mornin graduation day..very happy to see some of my classmates..kept laughin n laughin takin all the photos we can..Yah I njoy dat moment esp wen me,murne n helzie took "cute" photos together..

Well dat was the early part of the day..then I headed to 4PM earlier to be prepared for dat nite meetin..Strezz myself wiv all the pressure.I forgot dat I was ONLY a VOLUNTEER..bt still Im willin to take more n more responsibilities.Well..I chaired the meetin though..went well esp my Project Challenge.Thanked Hashim for his support.He kept encouragin me n advised me nt to stress myself out.Yah,I remember dat.But dat was not it for d day..I dunno wats wrong wiv me..dat I gt irritated easily..I offended my buddy..he was msgin me soo happily but I replied him soo inconsiderately..Sorry boy..urghh

Today my parents went to Batam.My siblings went out..all out left me ALONE!dun feel like goin out..although there were 3 offers..I cancelled my meetup wiv Barney,Pika,Hamzah..I postponed my date wiv HIM..n I still haven dcided to go for the National Day Dinner which 4PM sent for me.Abg Jali persuaded me..then I go..but fortunately,I managed to bring Nadiah from Al-Maarif along..since she's online n somemore she nw 4PM volunteer..so y not..at least got company..yah the dinner was boring...n i dun enjoyed the food..YUCKS!tapi habis jugak.. Abg Jali fetched me..we talked about myself.He said I've changed alot..matured but dunno in wat sense..and he told me i got alot of hidden potential but it juz dat I dun have the confidence to bring it out..hmm..true..he made me thinkin now..WAT I WANT NOW??He asked me..but I cant answer..N dat sets me tinkin..

twist legs and laugh @ 11:17 p.m.

Today I used up my free movie ticket which 4PM gave me watched "Catwoman" movie at Suntec wiv Taufik.The movie can be interesting to those who loves comic superheroes. Well,I enjoyed the show anyway.I love Halle Berry..she really lost weight for this movie juz to fit into dat tight leather costume..uuh sexy anyway.

Btw,before dat movie I went to 4PM to meet the staffs since we are going to racky ITE Bedok for our Integration camp.hmm..meet the new staff,Maria..haha..tink we can click well..YAY!(clap..clap!!)ITE Bedok..hmm..the liasion officer very helpful..willin 2get the facilities I wanted but still.. hmm..I juz tinkin abt the sleepin area..hmm..nvm.Tml meetin can discuss.

twist legs and laugh @ 11:30 p.m.

YoYoYO.. Hows the new makeover?Haha..national day finish wat..so dats y this change..Btw,I finished my temporary work at Hangten already!! (Clap..Clap) Hmm..i tink im gonna miss the frenz i made there..from Hougang Mall( Marrie,Madeline,Adrian,Aaron,Jade,Andy n GuangRong) n from Orchard (Maya n Irene).Although short term,I find dat the teamwork dat we had esp the time we spent gossiping together is sooo soo soo FUN! YUUUHAAAA!!

Btw..I got offered to continue as permanent staff but I dun tink I want. Feel like all my hard work studyin during ITE n poly times like gone to waste.Somemore I also tink of the upcoming Integration camp..cant bear to 'bo cap' n wash hands..Im d vice-chairman afterall.Now Im gonna spent my further unemployed days tinkin abt this camp..HAIZ..yennadei..

Oh n at d same time tink abt findin suitable job for me..afterall,money is important too..

twist legs and laugh @ 11:56 p.m.

Haloo frenz.. like long time nvr write entry like dat.. wahhaha. Been bzlah. I started working temporary at Hangten atrium sales since last saturday..hehe.. but sadly juz for 10 days only.so should end by this tues. Anyway, Im posted to Hougang Mall so if u guys miss me soo much can look for me at the middle of Hougang Mall.

hehe U can surely recognise me one.. coz Im the only Malay girl workin there and somemore wiv the "MERLION" hairstyle.. hehe..smangat jual t-shirt Singapore lagik!! Wey,laku tau kita jual.. lagik2 muka poster macam kiter nie.. mesti laris nye..

my new frens told me dat anywhere im stationed to there must be someone who will chitchat wiv me..Hehe.. yalah..very funny xperience sia from first day. The auntie,uncle security guards there..like me alot i guess.. everytime see me..talked to me..abt family,children,work..wahhaa..I pulak pantang kena ajak bebual sikit..mesti nak layan.. then got one security guard "MIANG" I now trying to avoid eye contact wiv him. GATAL NAK MAMPOS!!!Asal nampak me..muka mesti nak tersengih2..abeh dari jauh batuk2 bedek.. abeh if i balas his smile..he will like try to flirt like dat. first day aje dah tanye wat time i go back..then wen i replied him..he asked whether I want him to wait or not..he can send me home..I juz answered takpelah..kawan2 saya ni ramai tinggal kat Tampines.. DaMn ScaRY man..his face..mcm bapak budak..suami orang..kalau muka macam RAJINIKANTH takpelah..leh layan..wahhahaha..
My work very d fun leh..walaupun penat berdiri dan bebual.. tapi gerek u.. ramai kawan.. ramai peminat..wahahhaa

P.S: I MISS BER-MSN esp dgn HASEENA LE JAYENGI

twist legs and laugh @ 01:13 a.m.

Haiz..I strezz liao..kena rush thru the Integration project proposal wiv Hasni. Here's sometin fun to share wiv..wahahahaa.

F	Famous
A	Amazing
L	Lively
A	Astonishing
H	Handy

twist legs and laugh @ 01:39 a.m.

Hey..juz got back from HMV citylink.Got this Avril Lavigne's new album.Worth da money!!

twist legs and laugh @ 10:35 p.m.

Been lookin for jobs these few days.I find its better to walk-in interview rather than u sit at home n sent ur resumes without knowin the results...Suddenly I felt sooo moody in my room yesterday..like noone to chat wiv at MSN.Luckily,my sis-in law,Kak Ayu,called me.She n Abg Ez wanted to belanja me n my sis,Asilah,go out makan together wiv them as to celebrate the four of us JULY Birthdays...hahaha..Fun sey..We ate at MAK's place.I really favourite dat place becoz of its Kway Teow Kerang n western food.So last nite the four of us ordered western food..but I cannot finish leh..my stomach like bloated like dat..wahaaha these few days ppl blanja me makan..cannot help it..wohok

wooo.. today like suddenly i like very bz in my room.. I did all the last minute preparations for tonite's Integration Meeting.. like project challenge proposal n also things to bring up later..then halfway,my big bro n sista asked me along to TM.They want to buy new handphone.. haha..so muz bring me coz i like expert like dat..haha..My bro bought Nokia 6230 sey..canggih!But I still prefer mine Zoom Thailand Hp!!

K then I rushed home get changed bla bla..then headed to 4PM.Meeting@730pm but I reached there earlier..discuss few things wiv Hasni.. The meeting went well today..although there's some commotion..wahaha..standardlah kata meetin melayu!! Im really happy wiv my committee.Everyone did their job well.. Im suprised to see Zaidie being more matured n working professionally wiv us.Yalah dah nak jadi suami org dok.. N Hasyim too..He suprised me too wiv his creative designs wiv the tshirts..He's the best I've ever seen..He n Zaidie even volunteered to help me with the project challenge details..FUUuuH!!(*Hit Hasni on the chest*).The rest of the committee like Masrina,Adlina,Hafizah,Lydiana,Masuri..Thanks eh for ur support!!With the power of the 3 great staffs,Kak Saadah,Abg Hamid n Kak Nor..The Integration camp will run well..InsyaAllah

twist legs and laugh @ 11:22 p.m.

Guys..Its only the startin of the week but Im already feeling BORED!!I tink my temper is getting out of control eversince finish school. 4PM no activities dis days..boring..juz looking forward for the Integration meeting this thurs.Alot of things I haven settle.. the project challenge proposal,the commitee.. urrgh!! But I dun seems to have the mood to do them.

I seems to be waking up soo early this week..ard 6am.. then sleep earlier..Early bird catches d worm.Hope Im dat early bird.Actually,I really dunno wat type of life do I want..Wat type of job am I looking for..uurrgh!!U noe wat Im tinking now? Im tinkin of goin away.. but dunno where.. maybe alone will be good..somewhere far perhaps..where I can have a peace of mind for a while..Hmmm.

twist legs and laugh @ 03:45 p.m.

ELITE TEAM-->Pika,Barney,Abg Melhan,Faizah n ME (HAMZAH pic nt included wahaha)

Wokey..juz got back from meeting those good frenz of mine. It was a BLAST!! I really njoyed myself.Thanks guys.. u make my week..Laughing2 all da way.. we went to LauPaSat.. then they ordered for me satays(mutton n chicken),drinks,my fav. kway teow kerang for me.. and best of all, they brought a small chocolate cake along..weehee..soo sweeet!!They sang bday song for me as I cut the cake and they gave me a present.
I was like wwooo..a present from them??and u noe wats inside?? A MICKEY MOUSE!! hehehehe.. IM 22 n they gimme a MICKEY MOUSE.. but i really find this mickey real cute.. Faizah said she choosed the stuff specially for me as it reminded her of me.. Yah..I like it!!becoz the mickey is like giggling away..n the way it giggles like mine!! woohook.. thanks guys..U noe me the best!!LOVE U!!!

Ive attached along pics of gifts I got..even the street directory..waahhahaha..scared I always lost my way ah??!

ALL MY BDAY GIFTS!!

twist legs and laugh @ 12:53 a.m.