Finali!
Yeah i did it! 4days of werk r finali over, im freakin tired, its as though ive werk for a bloody whole wk.. smtimes i wonder hw d hell i managed to survived tis past 18mths? i tink.. juz take each day at a time i guess, oh well, we'l c hw much more longer i can hold on...
& since im so tired y am i stil up writin tis, i shd b snorin away by nw, well, tats me i'l feel my time r wasted if i go 2 bed earli, aniwae its off day tmr, dnt hav 2 wory abt nt enuf sleep watsoever, orite..
by d way 4 those hu r concern abt me, tk u so much, im fine nw, strong & healthy, yea, in a way..
Wed 30/11/05 11:23 p.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Im reali sick!
MANCHESTER C 0 LIVERPOOL 1
Risse '61
no i didnt catch d game by tat time im oredi veri unconscious, i'l tel u y.. b4 tat yes liv gd job, love u risse..
Damn i shdnt had taken a mc last wk due to my tiredness, cuz rite nw im reali nt feelin well.. it all started yest evenin, frm nowher keep sneezin & mucus flowin, throat veri pain loh.. plus my rite side of d mouth gt 1 damn big ulcer, its swollen, d veins swollen too, smhw its causin my gum & teeth 2 ache, nt a veri gd feelin..
last wk medicine came in handy, im so weak i wen 2 bed like 8.30 yest.. im takin d medicine faithfully 2 prevent d fever frm comin up, pls make my pain go away, i cant even smile it hurts.. i wana go hm & sleep!
Sun 27/11/05 12:42 p.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Fri morn
i hav a new fav plc & tats d market.. i buy groceries ther & blend in like any other mak cik.. & ive found a new plc 2 shop, tats d market too.. i can get nice tshirts & blouse juz like those tat can b found in fareast below d price of .. am i beginnin 2 become like aunties, i guess nt, ive becum smarter lookin gd & nt burnin a hole in my pocket.. nyak nyak nyak..
im in serius need of gettin a vacumm cleaner, juz cleaned up my rabbits hutch, ey r sheddin & d fur is al over, its drivin me mad.. ive tolerated 4 d past mths & i cant stand it no more.. vacumm vacumm here i cum.. spend money again..
& im in need of sm sleep nw, slept at 6am woke up at 8.30am, need to get eldila up 4 werk.. yea gona catch sm sleep nw, i look like a fuckin zombie.. gdnite...
Fri 25/11/05 01:06 p.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Thur nite out

yup ive caught tis movie wif semut & wan.. frankly speakin im nt a big fan of harry potter as i fell asleep watchin d veri 1st sorcerer's stone aft tat i juz anti it.. til i hapen 2 catched the prisoner of azkaban on cable & i adsolutely love it..
back to d movie it was great but nt tat great la, juz love d effects & d brinin in of new characters, i stil prefer the previous prisoner of azkaban better..
Movie review 3.5/5
b4 tat we wen to expo d sitex fair, nothin much la juz felt veri tempted 2 get a ipod nano & new com, as u noe if ur readin my previous entries, i juz cant stand it animore.. but i didnt i had 2 prioritise my money & spent on wat its reali impt 1st..
& after d show back 2 pasir ris again pick up eldila & shes sleepin nw on my bed while im starin at my com.. hey gerls we shd do tis more often, get 2gether & do sm sleep over, wan or nt?
Fri 25/11/05 04:55 a.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
F* my com again
i juz wana say i wanted to surf d net as usual log in at ard 11pm & i culdnt.. bloody pages loadin so bloody slow like wat 5mins or even more, mostly cant even load.. d connection smt wrong i guess.. so i called d helpdesk, bloody guy wastin my time & fon bills.. talked so much but didnt even help me troubleshoot juz ask me do redundant thins make it sound like hes damn smart, my ass.. & so for d nxt couple of hrs i still cant get in even aft i scan my pc & thers no virus watsoever.. i give up off it.. aft d match den i try again.. & its werkin fine nw..
so can anione tel me wats gg on here, pls help me cuz its reali frustratin, shit.. it might juz hapen again.. & i wont cal d helpdesk ever, ey dnt noe shit..
Thur 24/11/05 07:04 a.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Liverpool liverpool
LIVERPOOL 0 REAL BETIS 0
uh huh uh huh.. yeah yeah its fine la d match its nt a win cuz aniwae we'r top in tat grp & nw we oredi gt a place in the last 16 of the Champions League.. things seems to b gg gd..
though i was haf like asleep watchin d match, i tink ey did a pretty gd job, missed alot of chances scorin but oh well.. it ended nicely as well..
aniwae been 2 d liverpool merchandise store wif ali cheesy at ue square, i excepted d plc 2 b small but den nt tat smal la, its like 1/4 of my bedroom, nt much stuf oso juz jerseys & polo t, nice ones but i cannt wear leh, wasted.. but ok la at least i went 2 check it out..
aft tat bb, relek, relek til fall asleep, & mak's mee was soooo nice rite guys, eatin wif so much noise, sedap, i must ask her 2 teach me, yum yum..
Thur 24/11/05 06:52 a.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Do u miss me
i cant sleep.. ive been awake for more den 24hrs.. im here by myself, no one can help me xecpt 4 myself.. smtimes d tears juz cant stop, i reali miss u, do u noe & do u miss me too...
Wed 23/11/05 07:26 a.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Abt raya outin
ok ok im updatin my blog & had uploaded d pics orite, d long awaitin wait is over nw, pls click here for d pics:
cliCk mE

jun d organiser

d outin was such a success tks to jun who intiaite for tis & took time 2 organise it, & of course to everyone else hu make it possible.. though tis yr many of em couldnt make it but i had 2 admit tat it was 1 of d best, smhw we manage 2 laugh & njoyed ourselves al d wat thru, it was a blessins indeed, i wuld definately remember tis one great day..
our 1st stop was 2 arwah new hm, im was kinda surprised wen ey wanted 2 go ther but of course hapi tat though ey were nt close ey do care & i believe or hope tat he do received all our dua 4 him..
we went frm west to east to north to west again, in total 9 hses, time well spent & of course tired so tired tat i took mc d nxt day & skip werk ahaha... ive become d mc queen abt 2 clear all my medical leave.. ok side track done back 2 d pt.. d bottom line is i love all my frens! i hope we'l make it nxt yr too.. peace out
Wed 23/11/05 05:25 a.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Fri nite out
My fri was nt wasted, time well spent, ok la..
1st stop ck tang wana buy smt, hapi tat i gt it, but juz realise nw tat thers a defect, tis a gift so cannt leave it must go back chg, which i dnt noe wen, later raya, den sun werk liao.. hmmmm.. shit..
2nd stop bugis, jumpa jun ernie & alip, makan dinner, rite after tat 3rd stop, back 2 bt panjang, wana c my nephew performed, indian dance, supose 2 take photos but cannt make it thers no plc its all filled up by d kiasu parents.. d kids were so cute, shakin their butt wif their smiles, so innocent, dnt we all juz love tat pure faces..
4th stop, bez, conicidently met eldila & arin, faces tat i havent c 4 ages, den gt wan b, fiq join later wif his ahem2, must b a hapi man nw, finali get wat he wanted? wish u al d best la brudder..
tks 2 ali bein my chauffeur of d day, who i tink gt a prob wif pillan-in me, dnt wan pillan me juz say la, must b iklas hor.. & lan 4 bein my escort..
after bez all send me hm 1st, shd i b honour, hehe no la.. cuz ey wana continue lepak.. tats all la.. i must force myself go sleep, later meetin 10am@boon lay, face sure like haf dead later.. oh well.. gdnite & gdbye...
2nd nephew - Glenn in his indian dance costume

long lost arin gerl gerl

babe of d day
Sat 19/11/05 02:34 a.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
aftermath of raya bez
okeyzz ive re-updated & complied d pics.. tks 2 sources frm yan, madi & wan.. bob share ive given up waitin, its orite i guess d shots r abt d same.. so go take a look k can hav a laugh at d same time..
cliCk mE
Fri 18/11/05 03:27 a.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Another wk gone by
Ority, 4 werkin nite shift had been passed by peacefully.. systems r fine no major issue, give me more den enuf time 2 slack.. i guess its d best wk ever, dnt noe y, juz felt relexin.. so after d fair share of gd time wil cum d nt so gd time, nxt wk day shift, even nothin 2 do oso must step bz, cuz loads of xtra pple ard, wat 2 do, am used 2 it..
so hws it feel like w/o yan ard, bascially nt much diff, juz tat 1 less crazy person ard, lesser nonsense, tk god i get along juz as well as d rest, stil havin as much fun & laugter...
below is d pic taken on her last day of werk
ok la tats it 4 nw, i tink i shd get sm sleep.. gdnite!
Thur 17/11/05 11:24 a.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Take a break
Me nw at werk, yea, at werk but nt werkin, take a break & do sm bloggin.. yest nw 12+am break time, folo dean go changi airport, he wanted 2 send his fren off & i feel like eatin burger king! so i kaypoh & folo loh, aniwae u noe la my job damn borin, go out jln2 & take sm fresh air.. juz wana say his bike is d most comfortable i ever taken loh, wat can i say its a fjr, powerful k, cornerin so low, stil can brin up to 160 loh.. wif d big & heavy helmet i feel like my neck's gona break & if by anitime i relex my body & release my hand i'l definately fly away.. by d way if ur tinkin my hand r grippin d bar behind, holdin on 4 my dear life, no ctc wif him k, cuz d bike is big gt alot of space, i like.. & so we wen out sightly longer, ok la cum back werk oso continue 2 slack.. must chg job soon...
Mon 14/11/05 03:33 a.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
The song
I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind, pretend that i am weightless and in this moment i am happy, happy
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I lay my head onto the sand
The sky resembles a backlit canopy with holes punched in it
I'm counting ufo's
I signal them with my lighter
and in this moment i am happy, happy
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
The world's a roller coaster and I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care,but my hands are busy in the air
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
Wish you were here - Incubus
Sun 13/11/05 04:20 a.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Ari Raya
Alhamdullilah we managed to get a car so jln raya here we come.. 6 of us mananged to squeeze in d car (mahadi d driver, fiq, ali, bob, yan & me).. there were oso wan begok, wan slow, wan ayam, lan & bart...
we wen 2 6 hses i tink, which haf of em i dnt noe, it was their kranjirians sch mates, but doesnt matter, we all njoy & had fun.. i dnt noe wat else 2 say, mayb visit ali blog he sure gt thins 2 say.. so tats it ciao!
mayb d pics wil tel u all, but i was lazy & didnt take much photos wif my cam, so hav 2 wait 4 d rest 2 mail me their share, wil update again..
last thin i wana say is - i love u guys, i love ur company, ur tok kok sessions, ur humour, ur nonsense, i juz love u guys ok, nv failed 2 put a smile on my face, juz wana let u guys noe tat.. Muackssss...
Sun 13/11/05 03:07 a.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Dreamin of u
i slept ard 7am & was awoken frm 10am onwards by mahadi & lan cals & smses.. but after each disturbances i wen back to sleep.. & in d midst of these, i dreamt of him...
i dreamt tat he was stil ard, layin in d hospital was in a coma, & tat i visited him evrytime d feelin was like i gg 2 d kubor.. & as usual i visited him tis time & miracously he was sittin up & talkin 2 his visitors.. & later we wen 4 a walk, i culd feel d closeness of us talkin so comfortin so warmth, i can reali felt it, it was so real...
& den i was awoken up again, d dream so short yet means so much.. i reali miss him...
Sun 13/11/05 02:52 a.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Creative shits again
Ok continuation of d mp3 story..
i wen down yest to collect, which i hav no intention of agreedin 2 accept d silver one, i was tinkin wat can ey offer me..
so wen she pas me d silver player tinkin im juz any other nice customer, i said i didnt wan tat, i wan it in my color, & so she said she'l check.. after ard 10mins, she said d shipment juz arrived & their guy is especially deliverin here 4 me but i hav 2 wait 4 30mins.. waah so conicidence meh, if i juz stupidly accept d silver one wuld ey call me & tel me my color is in nw.. bloddy shit.. & am i suppose 2 b touched deliverin 'juz 4 me', like real.. i told her i didnt wana wait, ive oredi waited 4 3gd damn wks, i mean wat am i suppose 2 do 4 haf an hr in tat ulu place
finalli she said she'l make arrangments 2 despatch 2 my hm 2day.. she better do.. damnit.. in d 1st plac since ey culdnt replace a new one on d spot, ey expect us 2 cum down again, d quality of product & service nt gd enuf 4 me.. psssssst..
ok despite my complaints, im sellin my purple 5Gb zen micro,its brand new, & al accessories, @0(negioatable), d market price is ard 0, stil hav warranty.. my frens pls spread d msg 4 me k.. peace out..
Fri 11/1105 04:45 p.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
A poem
i received a cal frm a fren out of nowhere & all she wan was 4 me 2 listen 2 d poem she compose 4 me.. here it goes..
'I wish i cld read ur tears..
I wish i cld understand ur fears..
But those tears might grip weak hearts..
I love u so its tearing me apart..'
put aside d meanin of tis poem, may it b a hapi or sad one..
well its probably no big deal 2 her but tks babe im kinda touched seriously, no one had written anitin 4 me b4 & i noe its a simple short one frm u but tis small gesture is juz so sweet of u..
i mean its reali nice 2 received smt like tis smtimes wen ur caught surprised & unaware..
d bottom line is tks sweetie.. love ya muacks & big hugs..
p/s:can i reveal ur name? or u prefer 2 remain anonymous?
Tue 08/11/05 03:14 a.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Reds are Best in the World

Liverpudlians have sung about it for years but now it's official -
Liverpool Football Club is the best in the world and we have the stats to prove it!
Following the publication of the latest World Club Rankings by the International Federation of Football History and Statistics the Reds are today sitting proud as the top team in world football.
~extracted frm liv site~
Actuali liverpool had been d top for the past 43mths, no joke k ey do had a formula used to determine these rankings..
click on the link 2 check it out
IFFHS
Once again i had 2 say: i Love LiV!! Im so proud of u.. yeA...
Tue 08/11/05 02:51 a.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
One True Diva
Cant help it hav 2 post tis pics, latest ones tat i hapen 2 found.. i juz loved her.. hw can u nt..

she gt one new song, visit d link 2 check it out, tats if ur interested
Makin'it last all nite
Ciao!
Sun 06/11/05 12:49 a.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Keep it up Liv!
ASTON VILLA 0 LIVERPOOL 2
Steven Gerrard (pen 85)
Xabi Alonso (89)
ok ok of course im hapi, its nt tat great of a match but its way better den d previous ones of course.. gt me havin heart attack bcuz villas nearly scored shd b d other way isnt it, oh wel lucky it was oli short lived.. liv gt most of d possession.. we finali scored on d 85min by gerrard penalty kick, tks to crouchie crouch, seriously i tink it shd nt b a penalty la, cuz crouch oso did pulled ridgewell but hey no complaints, im hapi.. hehe..
d best & fav part was d late late goal by alonso my man, i juz love it wen he does tis, juz wen we tink its over we miz d chance, he'l came frm nowher & shot a brillant goal.. Whoohoo!!
once again i love LIV! come on move it, we can stil move up d table.. up up we go...
Sat 05/11/05 10:53 p.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Bunnies of mine
Juz bored, nw nothin 2 do so decided to add tis entry:
Look tats hw my bunnies hm look like, its called a play pen which i made myself, so lucky arent ey, hehe
& look again tats hw ey treat it, bite it all up.. sheesh..

Did i say tat ey r such a loving couple, so envious u noe..
eddie will alwayz lick her so sweet, & alwayz lie down on each other

tats my cute bunnies, i love em!
for photos go to my gallery k.. peace out!
Sat 05/11/05 05:30 p.m.::..Fadeblack..::
Selamat Hari Raya
ok ok despite of my previous entry.. i wuld stil love to wish evryone 'Selamat Hari Raya'!!

Maaf Zahir dan Batin
To all my frens pls forgive me for wateva wrongs tat ive done, if i had hurt u in any ways intentionally or unintentionally, my actions or my words, i noe im a straight talker so i might hav offended anione, & my weird attitude tat might cuz any unpleasantness, so pls do forgive me.. im apologisin sincerely.. Do accept my apologis...
& hav a gd time my frens celebratin, once again Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!!
Wed 02/11/05 09:57 p.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Goodbye Ramadhan
Ramadhan is over, Raya is here..
To many pple out ther, its such a big celebration full of excitement & joy..
Like ive said b4 i hav alwayz love ramadhan, i hope it'l last juz a little longer, d warmth of it bringin frens, family, colleagues, even strangers juz all brothers & sistas 2gether, tis kind of feelin which i felt oli durin ramadhan, after tat evrythin wil resume to coldness.. another thin is pple r so eager 4 raya 2 come, & celebrate like so grand but in order 2 celebrate hav ey tot of wat had ey done durin ramadhan.. bcuz if u havent done anitin do u reali deserve to b so hapi & celebrate.. i mean of course evryone of us fast, but is tat enuf? juz by nt drinkin & eatin, is tat reali a big deal? had we all reali fasted in terms of our minds, wat we tink, our actions, our words & behaviour.. Did we do our terawih prayers or even daily prayers.. Did we reali seek forgiveness frm HIM, hw many of us actuali reali did sit down & tink of our sins & ask forgiveness or even cry?.. frankly speakin i did nt tink im forgiven cuz wat i did was so little.. tats y i hope it'l last longer & d peaceful feelin wil stay.. we all deserve 2 celebrate of course but hav u, hav u tot of tis b4..
& to all pple hu noe me, u do noe tat im a convert rite, u do noe tat im livin wif my parents hu r non muslim, & u do noe tat my oli possible bf was no longer around.. so wats gg on ur mind wen u ask these qns: hws ur preparations? wat color tis yr? gt ur stuff ready? r u excited? u been 2 geylang? etc.. i mean does it occured to u tat im nt like u, i do nt hav a family tat i need 2 go out wif 4 visitin, pple do not come my hse 4 raya instead 4 cny.. so y do i need 2 prepare so much thins for.. & for my baju, i wuld get 2 wear oli if my frens organise & we go jalan2, cuz if ey dnt i dnt tink i'l get 2 wear either.. all my previous baju ive wore like oli once or twice, so i c no pt in gettin new ones.. & wats up wif geylang, i tink it has been such a custom oredi rite, u noe i tink by rite d bazzaar shd b held b4 ramadhan so pple wuld nt hav d temptations of skippin ther prayers & go shoppin instead * spendin so much money durin tis mth.. ok ok i shd nt go into tat.. well aniwae no offence im nt angry at anione or pin pointin hu, juz wana let u noe i cant pretend tat im all so excited like u, & wen im nt excited dnt treat it as a big wonder y.. im nt like u guys, im diff, in case uve 4gotten...
Evry yr 1st day i'l join one of my fren family, but smhow frankly speakin it wasnt much of an enjoyment, d whole time i wuld tink of Arwah, & wen wil i get 2 celebrate wif him & his family, i tot mayb tis yr or nxt he'l b ready 2 brin me but of course it did nt hapen & wil nt hapen.. ironically it did hapen i can celebrate wif em tis yr, as much as ive alwayz hope to & wan to & love to & wuld nv reject celebratin wif his family, i did choose not to.. i mean its nt d same animore he's nt around.. ive decided to stay at hm & chill.. i figured if i go wif em it'l b full of emotions, so chillin at hm wuld b gd 4 me as i do like 2 b left alone & do wateva i wan.. im fine in case u guys r worried.. im nt tat hapi but im nt tat sad either.. juz normal monotonous mood ority...
Wed 02/11/05 08:41 p.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Creative my ass
2wks ago i mention my mp3 player was faulty so i wen 2 d headquarters, ey said ey'l do a 1 to 1 exchange but ey did nt hav ani stock at d moment so i had to wait.. fine..
yest my fren who oso wen down wif me d other day, had received notification tat he can go collect his player but i did nt receive ani.. so i called 2dae, she said its nt ready & she'l kol & check & get back 2 me later.. fine..
& yes she did kol me back within an 1hr, gd.. but... ey did nt hav tat colour, mine was purple, in fact ey did nt hav ani colors xcept 4 silver.. yucks.. & tats it im so pissed, & she culdnt seem 2 ans my qns, haf way thru d conversation another guy cut thru & take over, i tink shes probably stil a trainee, wateva..
seriously im stil veri pissed, in d 1st place d f*ing player shdnt hav b spoilt within less den haf a yr, 2ndly i shd hav gt a replacement on d spot w/o f*ing waitin, 3rdly after 2wks w/o d f*ing mp3, ey told me i had 2 settled for a f*ing silver one, which in d 1st place i wuldnt hav bought it if its in tat f*ing color.. & ey r nt sure wen & wat color will b comin in.. & he stil can said bcuz d products r so popular & well demandin, tats y its out of stock.. blah blah blah.. smt abt creative is such a big buildin, like its so great.. blah blah.. popular & great my ass! cant even give me 1 simple damn f*ing purple zen.. Fuck it..
Wed 02/11/05 07:48 p.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
Happy Deepavali
Happy Deepavali to all the hindus out there!!
& for the rest happy holiday, njoy tis beautiful day
i am njoyin too, at werk nw slackin, ahakz..
Tue 01/11/05 12:00 p.m.::..FadetoBlack..::
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