Didn't blog yesterday as I was out the whole night at a small BBQ party with friends and had to send Samantha and Phang home.

This time, I won't really tell the tale on how I spent the last day of the year and the first day of the new year. Instead I will reflect on the year that has past us by and my thoughts of the new year.

The year 2001
My last year of college life. Entered my 5th semester and am expected to do well for my studies. As I recall, everyone considers me to be one of the top scorers of the class. Even though I always insist that I just do reasonably well only. I had faint hopes of getting 1st class honours, but after thinking about it (and for my own protection) I reset my target to 2nd Upper. That's lucky for me too because I never scored really well in my final papers. Managed to maintain a B+ as my lowest grade too. All except for my honours project. I proposed a really difficult topic to do. Over confident I guess. I planned to create a helicopter simulator. My research was well done, got all the facts and calculations. However, due to really bad management and the fact that no one I know could have possibly helped me out, my actual prototype was a FLOP. And thus..... the worst result I have ever gotten in my INTI life... B- (equivalent to 2 B-'s). However, grade average still in the B+ category.
I figure that I don't do well in tests and exams because of my memory difficulties. Common sense I can do, but when I'm supposed to remember all the facts, I can remember some...never all. My project work has always been quite good (overall). In groups, I seem to be nominated leader all the time (single guy in group syndrome). My groupmates have mostly been the same. This year, Cindy (from the beginning of college), Yean Fang and Mira. Pei Ser replaced Cindy for the Internet Applications class because we took different subjects. We were labelled the top student group because....well, we all emerged top in the class more often than not. Yes, we probably were very unfair due to the members. Had good group members this year.

Next, my last trickle of energy contributed to the Student Activities held in INTI. I started the year still as the Editor of Intimalink. Retired 4 months after. That ends my editorial board life. I love Editorial Board. Met so many wonderful people there. When I was editor-in-chief the year before, I was at my best. I didn't mind all those late night meetings. Yu San proved to be a reliable companion-in-arms in council meetings. Remember Mersing camp? She and I were in the same winning group. V! Although kept in touch with the club, I eventually stopped contributing anything due to my workload. Also stopped attending all the college functions save the final INTIBALL. For the first time, I sat down and not have to go on stage to perform.

After I got my results, I lazed around for a while before looking for a job. Then the worst happened. IT sector took a beating, leaving me looking for work, going for interviews, but never touched any job. Almost got conned too.

Now, my love life. The year was the worst for me. My relationship with Cheng was actually going well at the beginning of the year. She was then out of college and looking for part time work before going to UK (didn't know when she'll fly at that time). She did get a job, for a while. Anyway, things went downhill just like the year before. But last year was sparked off by the Mersing Camp. This time I guess it was because I couldn't spend time with her other than Saturdays. So things were strained again. In public we never really showed it, even those closest to us only knew because they were told (by either party). For me, Cheng was getting more and more impulsive and unreasonable and we would argue a lot over the same topics, over and over and over again. After watching Final Fantasy, I made up my mind and decided that it was better if we ended it. Thus ended "The Relationship" of INTI College. It still pains me to think about it. We parted on good terms and we still keep in contact. But I feel that I'm at fault for raising her hopes and then dashing it.

On the friends curb, made new friends, such as the A levels people. Friends also left. Sandra started working, Lilian went to UK, Lyndal went to the US. On the overall, the college gang shrunk.....and I mean REALLY shrunk. However, due to this, Yu San and I have become very good friends. Also got to know Hani, Nina and the other YCCians better this year.

Oh yes. I started blogging this year too.

New years day had a bad impact on me I guess. I'm not at all optimistic about the year. Felt bad about alot of things about the past year, my decision of the past, my actions. Regrets aplenty. I hate analysing myself. Can only find the bad parts, not the good.

Oooppsss very long.....heheh.... I'll stop now or else I'll start getting depressed.