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Wednesday, December 4, 2002
FIRST SNOW OF THE SEASON! Well, technically, second, but it's the first snow that has stuck. ^_^ And it's been constantly falling all day. It's still falling! ^_^ WAI!
Today was okay. I think I did okay on my Japanese test, but Oikawa yelled at me for not turning in my complete skit. She said it was rude that I didn't tell her I was turning it in. *fumes* She emailed me last week and told me and the rest of my group to bring it in on Sunday. Okay, I was in Atlanta. I wasn't coming back till then. So they turned theirs in and she said it was fine. Considering we were a group and they vouched for me and she didn't SAY anything to them about me turning it in, I thought we were okay.
Apparently not.
So she catches me out of class and tells me that I need to turn in act three. Okay, so I turn it in after my final class and she lays into me that it was rude that I turned it in so late when she gave us a second chance, and she was disappointed that I didn't rewrite the whole thing. *growls* SPECIFY WOMAN! She DIDN'T specify that I had to turn one in, I TALKED to the others specifically about that. She DIDN'T talk to me about it! ARGH! I'm going to stop talking about this right now. I don't fucking care anymore.
It's a good thing I caught some of my friends coming out of the English building and they were sledding. ^_^ They let me tag along! That took up a good two hours of my time and I felt a lot better. Came back with some good battle scars and totally soaked too. *grins* God I love snow.
It's still coming down. And everything is totally white. *smiles* A second chance. I'm determined to be on top of things at the end of the semester. And hopefully I'll keep that going. ^_^; *sigh* Here we go..
Exie broke her brain @ 06:45 p.m.
Monday, November 18, 2002
Lol, it's been exactly a month since I blogged...I guess I should do it today ne?
Well, I've been busy as hell, so that's the explanation for the leave of absence. This week's gonna be a busy one too. Got to work on my current vid. I have to get more than thirty seconds. Learning some cool clip manipulations, so hopefully I can generate a really nice looking video and do the character that it's focused around some justice. I've also taken captive of the anime club for a night. I've roped in a friend of mine to help me. We're gonna have a full-blown AMV night and he and I are going to teach the basics of adobe premier so people can work on their own vids! ^_^ Lol, it's going to be so much fun. Gotta work on getting that prepared tomorrow afternoon.
Call me crazy, but I've started a novel. You're gonna say it's stupid, but it's the Fairest and Fallen story. Snicks and I decided that since we can't put all the little quirky moments that we want in the comic, that a novel should be written to cover them. It's going to be a little different from the strip though. ^_^ It's gonna be a co-write, since we both write pretty good. I got the jump on it though. Lol, don't know how we're gonna manage this. Our last co-write....never got finished ^_^;;
I'm determined though. I really, really like this story and some of you might even think 'obsessed'. Well, maybe I am. I just can't believe that this whole thing came out of the minds of her and I. It's really amazing when you think about it. These characters are apart of us and it shows.
I'd really like to work on getting either the novel or the strip published one day. I belive that if Snickers and I love and belive in it so much to go through so much trouble, we should find a way to share our love for these characters with others. The story shouldn't be kept totally to the both of us, and generally to two others (^_~ You two dorks know who you are). I really belive that and I hope to act on it someday.
*pokes the two other dorks* We need to get working on the spring break thing. *laughs evilly* Chaos will descend upon unsuspecting people when the great four meet! ....*ahems* Er...forget I said that. It's 3:30 in the morning and sleepiness is talking...yeah...that's it...*shifty eyes*
FaF is now in color! ^_^ *is happy* I know right now it kinda looks like crap, but I'll work on my CG skillz. It'll get better.
....Halo, dear, we need to work on those Christmas gifts...we're running out of time. *poke* Go to the infirmary and get yourself well, or I'm coming over there and shoving chicken soup down your throat. It's not fun when you're sick. Trust me, I know.
Wow...I wonder if I can ever escape rant length. I dunno...but I take it a good sign that I haven't found anymore dead ladybugs in my bed...
Exie broke her brain @ 03:08 a.m.
Friday, October 18, 2002
*cues Mr. Roger's music* And now boys and girls, it's time for another segment of "Exie depresses herself" -_-;;
Okay? Okay. Here's the disclaimer: It's 3:30 in the morning, I'm so tired I really can't see straight, and I've more or less had a shitty couple of days. Read at your own risk.
I was sitting here reading when I got bombarded with a thought. I'm 20 and getting independent. I know what you're going to say....that's a good thing. Well, to an extent, it is. I'm learning a lot, my life has a sort of academic focus, school is going good, and I've met friends at school and friends through them that I know I'm going to have for the rest of my life. These guys are honestly the best people ever. You guys know who you are. There were a select few from high school and old friends from when I was little too that I still keep in touch with and will continue to keep up with. And even a few friends that I've met online that I've known for... what...close to three years now? They're as close to me as any RL friend that I've got. Lol, a couple of you even know a couple of my RL friends. Lol, you guys are it. My true friends. Now, don't you feel special?
But I digress........and maybe it's not the best thing for MXPX's "Responsibility" to be playing....
To get to the point, I realized something tonight that scared the shit out of me. It's possible that in a couple of years I won't be living under the same roof as my own family. Sure I'm in college, but that's different. Home is home. School is like...er..camp? Maybe that's a bad analogy, but you know what I'm trying to get at.
I already feel bad that I'm not at home. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE school, but I'm also a real home-body. I'm really close to my family, so I kinda feel left out when I'm at school. One of the things that really gets me is that I've got a ten year old brother and I kinda feel like I'm missing him growing up. I miss the little things that go on around the house that you take for granted when you live there, and it really gets to me. I feel like I'm losing touch with my family. I think my sister is the worst. My brother and I talk all the time, but right now my relationship with my sister can only be discribed as rocky at best. I don't know what she's interested in or what she likes anymore...what she and her friends do for fun. I feel out of the loop when she and my mom talk about her friends, because I don't know who she's talking about. *sighs* And I feel awful for it. I really do.
So, with recent goings on over the past two days (don't ask, I've ranted enough and I don't want to touch it now) I kinda feel uncomfortable with my 'independence'. I realized that after college I'll be on my own, completely away from my family and parents...maybe living far away from them. And that thought really does scare me. I mean, if I feel like I'm missing out on things now, what if I'm totally gone from that, instead of various on and off time at school over nine months? And then I get to thinking how it was when I was younger and how I won't ever have that again.
*sighs* What brings this on you ask? A lot of things. Mainly a couple of arguments that ended in my mom yelling at me and my sister and her saying that I was lucky that my mom kept my room when I went to school. And now my dad informs me that the time really has come to get rid of my car. He's got his car and mom has hers. Sis drives the one that she and I supposedly are supposed to share (we'll see how that goes when it actually comes up) so there is no need for mine. The rents say it's taking up space and insurence money, though to cover the cost of my car is pennies compared to what they're paying on the others. *sighs* Another change. We've had this car forever....I learned to drive on this car and have been driving it ever since. Hell, I can remember the first car accident I was in (that I can remember) vividly and it was in that car. Mom was amazed that I could remember in detail and minute specifics what happened.
We probably wouldn't be getting rid of it if it could make it up to school and I could drive it around there. Mom claims that it's not reliable enough (I'm biased to this point, but I think it's fine). I prefer driving this car (it's older than me) rather than taking either of my parents cars or the other one. I don't know why it's upsetting me so much. I guess it's the fact that I've had it so long and it's almost like an extension of myself. And getting rid of it is another sign that life is moving on, even when I'm not ready to.
*Sighs* I have to stop. I've been writing for the last half-hour and I've filled up a screen in MS note pad. I'm too tired to continue ranting and I really don't wanna try. I think I need to talk stuff over with my mom. See if we can't get any of these feelings straight. I don't get this bad when I have stuff to do, but when it does hit me. But when it does, it hits hard. *rubs eyes* Night ya'll.
Exie thought too much and broke her brain @ 04:10 a.m.
Wednesday, October 16, 2002
Wee, I love my laptop. I'm actually typing this in the car on my way home for Fall Break. ^_^ Yay fall break!
Lol, why are birthdays not a totally big deal anymore like it was when you were a kid? *shrug* Don't ask me. But I had fun yesterday! Lol, besides the fact that my mom calls me and wakes me up, and wishes me happy birthday, you're not a teenager anymore. ^_^;; I was feeling old to begin with, I didn't need to hear it from my mom, lol. But I love her to death. She and my dad left me hilarious messages on my cell phone (I'm almost glad that I didn't catch my dad's phone call in time to answer it.) I had an exam in CIS (that I didn't study for at all. Oh well.) and I had to go to Observational Astronomy, but that was no big deal. I went and visited my friends that I haven't seen in a while for about an hour and then went back to my room to veg. ^_^ G Gundam: the plot thinkens, but why am I reminded of Outlaw star now?
Mel's dad came and we went to Black Cat to eat dinner. I will never pass up free food. And it was delicious! (If you know what place I'm talking about, try the Tokyo BLT wrap) Then we got some ice cream and made milk shakes back at their room. ^_^ It was fun.
And I had a theme song yesterday! MXPX - Responsibity. You don't have it? GET IT. It's the funniest freaking song EVER and the lyrics fit me really well yesterday. Lol, I'm 20 now, so I found it really amusing. I was singing it during my classes yesterday. Got weird looks from the guy sitting next to me ^_^ Hehehehe...
*gets glomped by Snickers* OOF! @_@ Sorry I didn't tell you...lol, but don't let me stop you from making something anyway :P Hehe. *glomps* *makes face* *spits out confetti* Eww...that has an...interesting....taste...
That brings me to my next topic: Webcomics. ^_^ For those of you who are interested and actually following FaF (Fairest and Fallen) THANK YOU! ^_^ I've not aquired Dreamweaver 3 for my computer, and I'm going through my files this weekend to find all the pics, so I can work a little more on the website. Hopefully it'll be up next week, and Snickers and my email will be up there, so you can actually email us. And Please DO. We'd really like to know who's reading. Give us a boost to our semi-deflating egos *grabs an air pump*
And Just because this is my blog and I can do whatever I want, I'm gonna shamelessly plug another webcomic. ^_^ Everyone, READ KELLY'S ARCANA. The artwork is gorgeous! Lol, Snicks and I are both seeing green at the moment. *bows to Kelly-san*
Apparently my brain likes it too, because the Arcana crew was ganked and thrown into a dream of mine Monday night. (which I'm not complaing) And it decided that it needed additional charas as well. Apparently Kek (halo's vamp chara) and Kas (my FaF chara) Jumped in the lil Vincent fight.
Well, aparently they won, because Vinny and Adonis weren't anywere to be seen, everyone was outside, and the club was vitually destroyed (trademark of Kas' handiwork). Well, needless to say I'd think that the arcana group would be a little edgy around Kek, him being a vamp and all.
Kas: "No! Really, he's okay! See?" *sticks her arm in Kek's mouth like a lion tamer would stick his head in a lion's mouth to prove he was tame.*
Kek: -_-;;...lol, yeah, so that was my dream. Halo laughed her ass off. Kelly-san, if you ever read this, lol, I'm sorry for the ueber ganking. My brain's not conscious of that sometimes. ^_^;;
Well, that's it for me! *takes a step off her soap box, trips on her foot and goes flying* Weeeeeee!
Exie broke her brain @ 10:01 p.m.
Sunday, September 29, 2002
Woohoo!! We're back from the wonderfull Anime Weekend Atlanta! And now that I've stated as such, here's my con report. ^_^It kicked ass! Lol, not only did we find plenty of good stuffs (YST artbooks, yay! Not to mention Inuyasha volumes 25 and 26, Generator Gawl volume 2...which have hiragana translations for the kanji, so I can read it. I also got YST DVDs volumes 5 and 6, a decal that says "Anime, crack is cheaper", the Fushigi Yuugi Eikou Den OST, a cool peach drink, a Shippou pin and a Dragon Knights poster!) but we got some kick ass pictures too! The costume fashion show was fantastic! Lol, expect some good pictures you guys (if we can figure out where to put them).
Only bummer is that we didn't get there in time Friday for the first showing of the Expo AMVs. I found out later, that they had played my Mononoke-Hime AMV on Friday. Damn. I didn't win any prizes this time, so I didn't get to see my vids on the big screen or see how the audience reacted to them (which was the point of entering them in the first place). Ah well, there's always the con in May, if not, AWA next year.
EEEEE! They played Spirited Away!! Too bad Halo and I had to leave about 20 mins into the movie. *whines* I wanna see the rest! And I don't wanna see it dubbed! The sub was good!
Hehe, Halo and I went to a Manga Workshop panel before lunch on Saturday and I have to say, it was really beneficial. It started me back in my sketching and overloaded me with ideas. I can't wait to open up my sketchbook again (and I did several times during the day). Lol, Halo and I also came up with a few ideas, so we might have a few surprises in store. But it's going to be fun and fucking hilarious if I say so for myself. So we'll see what develops.
We came back Saturday night in just enough time to watch Yu Yu Hakusho. Wee! The ep with Kurama's past! Hehe. Dad's upstairs drinking a beer. From Friday morning and to Saturday night, he's driven a total of 558.7 miles ^_^;; It didn't help that the con was on the other side of Atlanta from where we were staying. Hehehehe....-_-;;; Sorry dad.
I'm working on the pages for FaF FINALLY. I've been meaning to do it for some time, but I've been really busy with school and having to move next week. It's a pain in the ass. BUT! Halo's been taking web development as a class and she's learning HTML, so now she knows enough to help me flesh out my ideas for a site. Good things come to those who wait, ne? *grins* Maybe we'll finally get the comic up and running on a regular schedule now. Yay!
So that's all I can think of for this instalation of Exie's Incredible Life. ^_^ I think I'm going to go listen to my Eikou Den CD now. YAAAAAAAY Fushigi Yuugi! YAAAAY for Tasuki's new hair style!!
*grins* And remember this....you don't need to know this for right now...but it will all make sense in time....maybe.....if we choose to clue you in *evil grin*
Priceless info on life number one: Halo and I are crazy.
Priceless info on life number two: Vash is the target bishie.
*grins* Make sense? No? Good. Mwahahahahhahahahaaa!!!
Exie broke her brain @ 07:11 p.m.
Thursday, September 19, 2002
I'm being threatened again by Snicks, so here we are again! Lol, thought it wouldn't happen for a while, ne?
Well, here it goes.
First of all it's been a shitty week. Like, really shitty. And not just for me. Apparently for a bunch of people as well. Monday I didn't get back in town in time for class and I missed two out of three. Mom and Dad are on my case to do stuff that I KNOW I have to do, so they started yelling at me to do it. It pisses me off. I'm an adult and I KNOW I have to do this shit. Anyway, so I'm looking for a new place to live, because I hate where I am now. The dorm is on the other side of campus than my classes and the schedules between me and my roomate right now are too different. It's not fair to either of us and I can feel myself getting depressed. I've fallen behind in my work for this week because I've been looking for a new place to live. So I've been rushing to catch up. So yeah...this week has sucked big.
On the freaky side, some interesting things have happened over the last couple of weeks. Most of ya'll know that I went to the beach a couple of weeks ago. Well, a freaky thing happened that Friday we left. Me and Mel had gone to get food so we didn't have to stop, so we got hot dogs at the union and ate in the room. I had just declared that I wasn't beinging my school books because we were going to the beach and I just knew that I wasn't going to get anything done. I looked around for my Sobe green tea that I bought and glanced at the cap. Now, for you that don't drink Sobe, each cap has something wrtten on the inside, mostly pretaining to lizards. Guess what my cap said when I picked it up and looked at it?
"Do your homework."
..........
Yeah. Halo and Mel laughed their asses off.
Okay, number two. Today. I put an away msg up that said "Shower....peek and I sic Halo on you..."
Someone walked in on me in the shower.
Those two are gonna kill me one day....and Halo gets my DVDs if I die. Yeah, so this isn't good :P
In other news, I've got my first radio show tomorrow! *is doing a japanese format radio show with a friend of hers* Well, with my luck this week the circut board will explode. ^_^;;;;
Exie broke her brain @ 06:09 p.m.
Friday, September 6, 2002
WHO THE HELL LITES A CORK BOARD ON FIRE AT 4 IN THE MORNING?!!?!?
Someone in our fucking building! That's who! The fucking fire alarm went off at five minutes to four!! And to make matters worse, we had to stand out in the cold of dead morning while the fire department and police took their sweet ass time in coming. (Now, I don't know how far away either dept. is, but 25 mins? Come on people..)
So we had to go into the dorm next to us and stand in the lobby because we're all out there in pj's, tanks, and shorts. Some of the guys were shirtless.
It's a good thing I wasn't asleep yet. I've been up studying for a test and working on a new layout for my blog. But if I had been asleep I would have been more pissed than I am right now.
Shit...that link just erased my winamp's playlist. *fumes*
Today is not going to be a very good day...
Exie was pissed and broke her brain @ 04:37 a.m.
Thursday, August 29, 2002
*clears throat and steps on soap-box* AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THEY PUT INUYASHA ON CARTOON NETWORK!! THEY PUT INUYASHA ON CARTOON NETWORK!!
I'm SO excited! This has to be one of my favorite animes EVER! They put it in the 11pm time slot, so my VCR is permanently set to record then. ^_^ I didn't know it was lisenced for America, let alone already dubbed!!
IT's going to take them a long time to get through this series. I haven't finished watching it yet...they haven't even finished fansubbing it yet. Right now it's on episode 84 I think. And it looks like it might be wrapping up a bit. I really wanna see what happens. I'm totally hooked on this series.
And I'm slightly curious of the dub. I want to know what the charas are going to sound like. Especially Shippo. ^_^ I hope he gets a really kawaii voice. He disserves one for being a kawaii chibi youkai ^_^
YAAAAAAAAAYY! INUYASHA!!!
Exie broke her brain @ 09:17 p.m.
Wednesday, August 28, 2002
Blah. School is crap. Classes are fine ^_^ And the chaotic trio has been reunited, but there are just some things that suck. I.E. living with someone that NEVER LEAVES THE ROOM. Seriously! She doesn't! Our schedules are totally different. My classes start at 11am, hers start at 8. She goes to bed at 10:30!! I don't even get HOME until after that!
I swear to the GODS (whatever ones that be up there) that this will not work unless something gives. I come home and it's totally dark. TOTALLY. And it's already hard for me to adjust to a new place after being in one place for a long period of time. It was hard for me to adjust to living at home after last year.
So yeah, I'm going to bitch if you haven't figured it out yet. Feel free to stop. I've fucking wound myself up so tight that I can't sleep at night, my stomach continuously hurts and I can't eat a full meal. Yeah, great. I'm trying to keep out of the room so that I can keep myself busy and not thinking about this. But then I have to sleep there at night.
And night is the worst part. The hours where I'm up and no one else is. It's boring and I can't stand it sometimes.
Lol, Halo is watching over my shoulder....I think she wants her computer back.
ANYWAY, yeah, I've even gone as far as to take meds that have codine in it or stuff that'll put me to sleep so I can function. It's not really healthy, and I know that. But there really is no other way around this. I'm trying to work it all out, but it serves to wind me up nonetheless.
I can't explain it, I jsut don't like going back to my room. I try to stay out whenever I can. We're nice to each other and we get along, but there's an air of almost mistrust that I can't explain and I don't know what it is. That's probably why I haven't built up the courage to confront this yet. I think that I might have to live with this person the rest of the semester anyway since App is so pressed for room (and even if it weren't it would take weeks to find me a new place) and I don't want to live in a hellhole for that long. It's a pain in the ass and I'm tired of it. Luckily this weekend is a long one and Halo, Mel and I are goin to my house to catch a concert in town on Sat night (JLC! JLC!!)
So that's my bitch fest for the night. Snicks, you wanted to know what's going on, and that's it. I'm sorry I couldn't tell you before, but I don't like talking about someone while they're in the room...and it's hard to type it out into words. So I might not have said everything that needs to be said. And don't you dare worry about me (though I know you probably will anyway :P *HUG*) I'll hopefully sort this out soon.
Lol, yeah, I need to give Halo back her comp now so she can kill it. More updates as they come...
Exie broke her brain @ 08:36 p.m.
Friday, August 23, 2002
I can't tell you how much I crave intellegent conversation.
Lol, I know what you're going to say, but it's actually hard to find someone to have a good talk with. I talk with Halo and peeps online everyday (or try at least) and you can have meaningful, deep conversations there, but it's not the same as looking someone in the eye and hearing their voice. That's what I mean.
And I like it when the convo goes deep, like life or religion. I don't know, I guess it makes me feel smart. Oh well, that thought just hit me. Random, yes.
I had soooo much fun tonight. A good friend of mine from high school and I got the chance to go out for the first time since graduation and it was GREAT. I've missed her a lot. ^_^;; And I think I might have talked her ears off. But we had a good dinner and then went and got coffee and dessert downtown. It was really nice sitting outside (some of the locals were even attempting to play zydeco music, but you need a washboard, dammnit! not a cow bell. :P amatuers.) And I don't think we stopped talking at all. And she's changed a lot, all for the better. And she looks great too!
It just blows my mind how much we've grown as people in one year. The jolt into life on your own makes you grow. I know I've become a little more confident in myself as a desicion maker and I'm not second-guessing myself as much. D seems so much wiser. I've always looked up to her, and now I think I do a little more. Hell, even Lesley's grown. She's spent the last year in a foriegn country and then stayed longer to backpack through Ireland and England.
We're all a little older, and a little wiser, and we still can't believe we went to that crap high school. D agreed with me when I said you kinda look at it and go "ugh..." There are so much more benefits in college than in high school. Better teachers, better equipment, and computers that are actually state of the art instead of two levels above running on DOS (that's right! Our HS had ONE internet connection and model 386 computers! -_-; oi.). But that transitional step between total reliance on your parentals and social independance (minus the financial independance yet, of course ^_^). Ah, yes, the teenage years, learning how to drive, voting, and the four years of your life referred to as hell. But given the chance, I'd do it again. Because I walked away from that accursed place with friendships that I can only hope will last the rest of my life.
^_^ Anyway, ranting (well, actually, that wasn't a rant, more of an insight on my life....there's quite a few of them...) aside, I start school on Tuesday, which means moving in on Sunday! Whoo! It's gonna be hell. But instead of getting into an argument with my roomate like she did last year, my mom said she's just gonna sit in the lobby and drink memosas. I told her she'd better save one for me. But it looks like my roomie this semester is going to be a blast, so I'm not worried. And I'm going to be reunited with the infamous Halo. ^_^ So you know all chaos is going to break loose.
And I'm comming home next weekend. ^_^ Jump Little Children is coming to town! WEEEEEEEE!! JLC! JLC!! SUSHI AND JLC! ^_^ Hehe, dragging Halo down with me for the fun and we're taking along D for the riiiiiide. ^_^ It's gonna be great.
Lol, it's almost 4:15 am. As great as this night has been, I think it's time to put a cap on it. I need to be functional tomorrow (clothes and supplies shopping, eeee...) Goodnight, and......I think I need to talk less...it's spilled over into typing!! @_@
Exie had too much caffine and broke her brain @ 03:23 a.m.
Tuesday, August 20, 2002
Oh god help me....
Me being bored is a seriously BAD thing. I've locked myself in my room the past few days in order to get everything cleaned out and my stuff packed for school. It's a pain in the ass. But after a while, I get bored. It's not helping right now that I don't have anyone to talk to to keep me preoccupied with an rp or something like that.
Anyway, the reason it's bad to leave me by myself for long periods of time is that my mind starts to wander. I spent last summer working at a plant nursery watering plants and moving plant material (fancy name for dirt and fertilizer) on an 8 hour shift. Well, of course you're going to get bored. I had music to listen to, but there's only so much looking at plants you can take. My mind wandered sufficiantly enough that I came up with a plausible way to take over the world. Freaky, huh? Too bad I forgot it.
So, yeah, my mind is wandering now. Lol, that's probably what begins my angsting. And sometimes (lol, like now) it flies right to relationships and *ahem* ^-^;; Yeeaaahh. So I'm not going to delve into that anymore. You get the picture. (jesus, how embarrassing. Forgive me while I turn a nice shade of kurenai (deep red, tomato))
It's like mindless wondering too. So it sucks. Especially with the relationship thing. And I'm going to stop that too before I start angsting over it. I got yelled at about that entry.
Probably a good thing I'm going back to school on Sunday, ne? I didn't worry about this stuff during the school year too much. I was busy and hanging out with my friends. This year I've got a full cart too. I'm gonna help a friend and play side-kick (aka, the bitchy co-host) to him on his Japanese format radio show for the school's station, and I'm gonna do a lot more outdoors stuff like Spelunking and seeing if I can't weasel my way into the school's horse riding club without being on the competetive team. I want it as a relaxer, and I don't want to have to buy the show outfit (hunter/jumper show equipment costs you out the ass). That, accompanied with friend time, Astronomy night lab, and fooling around shouldn't leave me too much time for my mind to wander, thank god.
So, now that I've bitched, I'm going to go finish cleaning my room and listen to A LOT of Nickleback. Later...
Exie broke her brain @ 08:38 p.m.
Friday, August 16, 2002
You'll never believe what I've found. It's completly stormy outside today; perfect time to start cleaning out my room in order to pack my things for school. There it was, folded in a pile of bedding stuff and stuffed animals against the wall in my room. The object of my affections in my young childhood only referred to as 'blankie'.
You don't know how much I loved this thing as a kid. It went everywhere with me and I slept with it at night as well. It's a simple yellow weave (I'm not sure if it's cotten or some other material) with a yellow satin trim. About 2 feet by 3 feet. It's in utterly perfect condition for how much abuse it took over the years.
So what you say? I'm 20. And yes, I'll admit it, I'm a packrat. But this thing should have been gona a long time ago. Too old for stuff like this, right?
Wrong.
It's strange. True it's spent the last six years in that pile from when I unpacked it and put it there when we moved into this house, but still.
I was surprised to find it. And even more surprised that it's still like this. (lol, I remember some of my friends didn't fair very well. One of my friend's was in shreads. And Halo told me hers is vacumm sealed to protect it.)
So I took a break and curled up in bed, throwing it over my shoulders. Can't explain why I did it, guess I'm a sucker for nostalgia.
I don't think I've felt that safe since I was a little kid. It might be worn and a bit thread bare from washings, but it made me feel like a little kid again. I felt warm (even though it only covers my torso now) and I dozed off in a matter of about three minutes.
Like I said, it's strange, but the good kind of strange. They say that the human mind identifies certain things with certain memories. Well, it's true. I got flooded with a bunch of memories that I haven't thought about in a long time (like the time I used it as a cape or watching my aunt use her sewing machine to sew a new satin boarder to the side of it). Just fingering the cloth brings it back.
It just goes to show how lucky I am. How much I have to be thankful for. Both my parents are still together, something that is a rarity in today's society, and I've got nothing but good memories of my childhood. I remember how much I love them, how I never really liked spending the night at other people's houses because I was apart from my family and home, the things that mattered most. And how it was so hard to adjust not living at home last year. One little rectangle piece of cloth brought forth memories and emotions that one casually overlooks in their life.
Too old for it? Maybe. But it's a treasure nonetheless.
Lol, yeah, I know it's probably pointless, maybe even childish to go into detail about it, but oh well. ^_^ You're reading it, so there.
Exie broke her brain @ 01:34 p.m.
Saturday, July 27, 2002
Well, since I've been threatened to blog, I guess I will. I'm not really up to watching my muses go at it. And believe it or not, Ushio is the one pushing me to do this. I think he's scared of Halo. Then again...who wouldn't be?
I'm kind of in a sulky mood. Don't know why...I had a good night. Saw better than ezra and it kicked ass, not to mention I caught one of the bass player's guitar picks. I dunno...sometimes I just get like this..
I guess it's lonliness. I mean, yeah, I've got friends *sigh* I don't know. I've been hanging out with my friends from high school...but I guess none of them were really confidants. I've really only entrusted that job to three people. Snickers, Halo, and my best friend in High school, Lesley. Cool, ne?
Yeah, well, there's a problem with that. Snickers lives far away, I only get to see Halo at school, and Lesley's been in Germany for the past year. So this summer I've kinda been stuck. Sure, I've talked to Snickers and Halo just about everyday this summer, but it's not the same as actually talking...you have to think about what you're typing...
I really am appreciative for these three though. Lol, I can remember each time that I met them and things just clicked. For Lesley it was sophomore year of highschool. We spent the next two years attached to the hip. Our fridge became her second home ^^ And she and I pushed each other through AP Biology. I don't think I could have asked for a better best friend to get me through the hell that was high school. For Halo it was just fall semester. That study group for Oikawa-sensei's first exam. I was late, we got NOTHING done. The two guys we were studying started talking about Magic the game and Halo and I discovered that we both liked anime...and we had both watched Ronin Warriors. Well, life really hasn't been normal since :P but I wouldn't have it any other way. We have so much fun, even though she found my weak spot (my hair) and it caused me to fall asleep studying for an exam...right BEFORE the exam. And I always had a place to crash if I decided to skip classes, her carpet. ^^ And dear, sometimes pillows chucked at your head DO hurt. Snickers and I met on RWML, a mailing list that we both belonged to, and since have both let go. God, how long ago was that? Two years? Three years? They blur. But we've always been friends. And I always looking forward to talking to her everytime I get on. She maybe four years younger than me, but I'm still convinced she's the smarter one. She's definately the better artist, hence the reason she illustrates Fairest and Fallen. And she's always been there for me. Even in funks like I am right now. All of them have.
Like I said, it's probably just me being lonley. Times like this make me wish I had a boyfriend. But then I kick myself, because while flirting is okay with me, anything more serious produces a deer-in-headlights effect. I've had ONE relationship, and it didn't end well in my opinion. It's really a blow, and I'm neurotic about it now. I'm not sure if that's a recoverable scar or not. *sighs* I guess that's where I'm really jealous of Snickers. She's got someone who really cares about her and as far as I can tell it's probably serious. And she cares back. Lol, I just wish someone cared that much about me...
*beats herself for sounding pathetic like this*
*sighs* I think I'm school-sick. I really miss my school friends. I'm bored, nothing really happens that much here, and I'd rather be in class than cleaning out 6+ years of memories and more paper than I've ever seen in my life.
Maybe this trip will do me some good. Get out and do stuff so I won't be able to think of this. I'm going with Lesley's family to pick her up from the airport. I haven't spoken to her since Christmas, which has been really hard (we started crying over the phone when I called her. It was one of my Christmas presents). She doesn't know that I'm coming, so hopefully she'll like her surprise. And while it'll be fun to go to a wedding and see all my family and party, it just serves to remind me that I really don't have anyone like that.
*sigh* I need to get out of this funk. I'm really depressing myself. *wipes her eyes* Hopefully Snicks and Halo'll read this AFTER we leave so I don't have to explain myself over IM...I really don't know how to. *hugs* I love you guys, and you know what email to write to in order to reach me. I'll be able to answer mail at Lesley's when I can steal the computer from her mom. So please mail me. Ja ne for now.
Exie broke her brain @ 03:14 a.m.
Friday, July 12, 2002
Well, Halo went byebye today for ten whole days. *sniff* Lol, to tell you the truth, I don't think we've gone that long without talking...*pokes Halo* Have we?
And the muses are on the rampage. Haven't heard much from Kas and Ushio today. Maybe cause Halo's muses aren't around to get em into trouble. Yue's in hiding from Snickers and Yuki's calmly staying out of the way reading. Yeiji's ALSO hiding from Snicks because she threatened to make him impotent (DON'T ASK!). But he pissed her off by nailing her between the eyes with a cross. Rin's still laughing his ass off...someone should check if he's still breathing.
And then there's the newbie. Don't ask me how he came to live in my head, but he hasn't left, so I think he's staying. He's the Dark Magician from the anime Yu gi oh. *shrugs* Say hi.
DM: Um. *waves*
*sweatdrop* Umm, yeah. Anyway, that's what-
Kas: *comes through chasing the DM* STOP CALLING ME AHN!
DM: Stop chasing me and I fucking WILL!
Kas: Not until I kick your ass!
Ex: *squished*Exie had too much time and broke her brain @ 11:07 p.m.
Tuesday, July 2, 2002
o.o I've got a tan line. Went outside to read in my bathing suit and lo and behold, two chapters later, I've got a tan line.
Kas: It'll probably fade by tonight.
Shut up you. That and now I'm partially blind. See, I can't read too well without my reading glasses (I can, but then I get a headache) so I took them outside with me when I went to read. Only problem was, it was sunny...and with my aunt's white walkway, BLINDING. I couldn't see the book straight. So I decided on the lesser of two evils (headache, or blindness) and went in for my sunglasses. *sighs* I really should get a pair of prescription sun glasses for the beach and stuff (doesn't go in the water...much, but I breeze through books). Oh well.
Hehe, Yue deffinately doesn't like the pool *points to moon angel over in the corner grumbling and brushing out two very white, very poofy wings* Who knew the dryer effect would happen? *shrugs*
But then again, Yuzuriha's having trouble keeping Inuki still so she can brush his poofiness out. -_-;; Apparently the inugumo thought Yue's hair was a toy to be pounced. Oi.
exie broke her brain @ 02:14 p.m.
Monday, July 1, 2002
I think I've now got a Yue fetish. ^_^ Heh. (Yue=wings=Exie in puddle on the floor) Seriously, just mop me in a bucket and stick me in the fridge for a while. It works on muses...
Speaking of muses..how can they easily take control of my life and I can't write a fic for shit! I swear they see it coming and go on vacation right when I need them. *sighs* And sometimes they scare me. Like this happened yesterday:
Me: *walking down the hall with my nose in a book and reading glasses on* *hair wet cause I just got outta the shower a little while ago*
Yuki: *coming down the hall with a towel around his waist adjusting his glasses (which are a bit steamy from his shower)
Me: *pauses to look at Yuki*
Yuki: Eh? *looks back, glasses sliding down his nose a bit*
Me: *glasses slide down a bit too*
Both: *push glasses up at the same time* *glance at wet hair* *glance at book* AAAAAHHHH!!!! *run in opposite directions*-_-;; Yeah. So, that's what's going on in my messed up mind. The muses are taking over. *huggles Yue and whines*
Yue: Do you mind? *tries to pry her off*
Not at all. *burries face in wings* Mmmmwiiiiiiiings...
Yue: *SWEATDROP*
Lol, wow, am I constructive, or what?
Exie broke her brain @ 11:40 p.m.
Sunday, June 30, 2002
Okay, I retract my offer for you to hit me Snicks, since you weren't on tonight
Kas: Dammnit.
Hush you. Well, Yuki seems to be in control, either that or Kamui's really hitting the books, because I've been reading for the past 5 hours or so. Not that I'm complaining, I love to read. I just wish they'd take turns.
Thanks to Snicks, I re-watched my favorite parts of Earthian tonight (I carry around my DVDs ^_^; ). Hehe, Chihaya really is girly. I can't help it. And the bed scene...and the cold shower..PRICELESS. And Kagetsuya looked so hurt(put out?) when Chihaya said he'd been rough in the way he ate, talked, and behaved in bed. ^_~ Way to go and put him in his place Chi-chan.
So I've officially gotten back into that fanbase. *needs to go search ebay for the complete manga* I want to fill in the gaps. And I want to know what the fuck happened to Taki. It all points that he blew himself up. But his kids and wife are okay...so who was that girl he was with? Was that Elvira? *makes note to go back and look*
Oh, and Snicks, I've made a note to make you a version of the sub. Too side notes though: Messiah's japanese voice is Hikaru Midorikawa (Heero Yuy, Tamahome) *giggles* And Kagetsuya's english voice is "Sexy Ed" *shakes head* He was Halo's intro to theatre teacher....That's what got me into Earthian...she told me about how he brought in tapes and explained the cold shower scene. ^_~ thought you might appriciate that.
*TACKLES* Snickers, it's sunday, where is the bloody strip?! :P~~
Exie, listening to angsty Bush songs, broke her brain @ 02:04 a.m.
Saturday, June 29, 2002
*whines* Tired....Snickers, I apologize for not being on tonight. Feel free to hit me with Shelby.
Kas: I'll hold you to that. I'm a witness.
Too tired, don't fluckin care at the moment. Went with rents and we just got back...AT 4 AM. Sheesh, I'm still on home time, where the SUN WOULD BE COMING UP.
*whines* Tired....be on tonight, I PROMISE....zzzzzzzzzzzzz *drools on the keyboard**ZZZZAP*
Exie broke her brain @ 04:34 a.m.
Wednesday, June 26, 2002
Cookies and anime and a Yue plushie goes to Krys-sama. ^_^ She did the GORGEOUS layout that you see here and I LOVE IT! ^_^ *huggles Krys*
I want a book. I'm currently in the middle of reading the 1st Harry Potter book (which I skipped over the first time around) and The Great Divorce by CS Lewis. But I want a different book. I think the Yuki-muse is in control....and I think someone gave him crack last night. I have this sudden desire to bury my nose in a book and learn about HTML, which I guess is a good thing considering I need to learn the damn code eventually.
Terribly giddy last night...I think I freaked out a few people. Hehe, layout, fairest and fallen, and a round of rpg posting wars set me off. I'm still kinda hyper today. ^_^;;
Kamui muse is angsting to sad piano music...which I don't mind at all. But he's wearing his little goth clubbing outfit and that's just breeding art bunnies. *sighs* It's frustrating when you can't draw either. *ducks another bunny*
...........there's an ant crawling around on the wall....
exie broke her brain @ 03:36 p.m.
Tuesday, June 25, 2002
Hey Exie, I got everything up and running. Give me a holler if you need me to make any changes. ^_^ Make sure you put your name where it says "pagename" when you make an entry. Glomp me when you see me next, and we'll get that collumn over to the right of the page started for you. ^_^ (of course you can delete this post after you read it ^_^)
Jessi broke her brain @ 05:06 p.m.
Sunday, June 23, 2002
wow, this layout kinda sucks....^_^;; *glomps onto Krys for she's going to help with this problem* hehehe!
Sunday, June 23, 2002
Mwahaha, finally up. Well, this won't be written in everyday, just when I have a nice bit of info to share with people or so I don't forget it. I've been misplacing my "life" (aka, little notebook I write EVERYTHING in) lately and this might help a little bit.
The Great Divide broke her brain @ 03:33 p.m.