Thursday, November 22, 2001 03:41 a.m.
Got up after 13 hours of sleep. Nyo. Ate spicy instant noodles..20 hours after my last meal. Hope I don't get an upset stomach.... -_-
Learning about personality disorders. I'm kinda... schizoid. So that personality disorder test I've done few month ago kinda works...to some degree. That means I'm more asocial than antisocial. Antisocial people do bad things to others' cause they don't understand that other people have rights as well. Asocial people just don't like people...and happily stay away from them... most of the time...
Coanteen. I'm working on another Gravitation douji. -_-;;; Come and shoot me. Why aren't I studying? It's all your fault somehow......T_T
Thoughts. Simple. And fragmented.
Shamelessly ignoring all stimulus from the environment. About to implode.
I am a rabis virus. -_-;;; Fitting, no?
I check the blog WAAAAY too often, every time when I don't feel like studying... which is about a dozen times a night. T_T And of course, no one updates aat 5 in the morning when I really really need a *good* distraction from studying... Ahh.... Feeling restless and frustrated. But that could be my 2nd cup of coffee talking....
Made one phone call and wrote emails about school stuff. Makes me feel kinda semi-productive.
I was feeling so good too... and then the Korean boy called. And for some reason, it made me depressed. I know I whine about studying all the time. But I can't stand it when he does it to me. -_-;; It's perfectly find when Coanteen or Meta or anyone else does it. But the whine in his voice just.... uuuuughhh... I can't stand it. -_-;;;
Meteor shower!!! ^___^ Went out for about 10 minutes...saw about five of them~! That's probably more than I've seen my whole entire life! (I don't look up very often...as can be attested by my hunched back...-_-) Made a few wishes....
I was bored...so I made a blog layout. -_-;;;; I went to the some of the links Meta has to learn some HTML since I have no formal training in computer stuff. I learned to make tables with absolute position from this site. ^^ I'll put up the new layout later since this one is fairly new...
Still procrastinating... I guess I should do some work if I want to watch the meteor shower in a couple of hours... However, Coanteen's curse on me has finally lifted and I've made *some* progress with studying. ^___^
My head hurts. I'm probably sleeping too much.. or so that seems to be Coanteen's opinion anyway. She thinks I have lazititis? lazysitis? something like that...-_-;;; An infection that takes over your pre-frontal lobes and deminishes your motivation... yeah....
I want.............
Will turn off this computer after blogging. Yes. No more procrastinating......
Get put put my finger up some poor guy's butt next week. -_-;;; We all learn to feel for prostate even though the digital rectal exam was proven to be completely useless in detecting prostate cancer..mostly because it's always been done and patients almost expect you to do it.
I need... cookies. I don't even like cookies... but I need them. Now. Badly......
Fingers no longer hurt...except when I move them.... like... when typing. But here I am like the masochistic idiot that I am.
Did colorgenic test.... ^^;;; Still procrastinating....
At this particular time,- you are feeling that you are/or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams.....You feel that everything is against you...But look on the bright side...for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor....
You are willing to try anything once. You "need to be needed" and what is perhaps more important .. you "need to need." You can only feel close to a person or persons when you feel you can trust them ... but this trust needs to be proven to you..
It is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influence ... and there is no one to rely on. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you'll have to make the best of things as they are.
You are presently experiencing excessive stress as a result of self-restraint. You act and think differently from the common herd and you want to be liked and admired for yourself and to associate with people who feel and act as you do...Because of this need to be self-reliant and to break away from mediocrity, you are finding this situation most uncomfortable and you are experiencing considerable anxiety ... perhaps even more than you feel the capacity to cope with. You need to find a "soul mate". Someone whose standards are as high as your own. But where? Keep on searching... The situation is uncomfortable and you would like to break away from it, but you refuse to compromise with your opinions. You are unable to resolve the situation because you are continually postponing the making of necessary decisions. You are stubborn... but this is no deterrent to a happy life ...So why drop your standards ... Think positively ... everything will work out.. It has worked out successfully for you in the past ... and it will again in the future.
You seem to be always on the defensive and that is because you have failed to establish yourself in a manner consistent with your own high opinion of yourself. You are trying to prove yourself with inadequate resources, and this has resulted in considerable stress. You are trying to escape from these excessive demands on your reserves by adopting a defensive attitude in which you refuse to be committed or to be involved in further unpleasantness.
I've burned two of my fingers making coffee...2nd degree, I think. It's starting to blister. I broke the coffee pot. So after all this, still no coffee.. I'm trying to resist the urge to put my fingers in cold water.....
Currently burning CD as I am using internet. Probably not wise to do both at the same time... but I have too much faith in my spiffy new computer. ^^;;;;
Drank 2 cans of coke and had a kitkat...on top of the meals. Mmmm.... calories~~~! Scrubbed floors. Scrubbed bathroom. Scrubbed.. well... washed dishes.
What contentless blog. Still procrastinating.....
Re-read my Shaman King doujinshi after watching 7 eps of the anime. Amidamaru reminds me of Kenshin. All the -gozaru yo and -dono stuff. ^^;;
Still procrastinating.....
WAI!!! WAI!!!! MY SCANNER WORKS!!! WAI!!!!
Still *productively* procrastinating.....^^;;;;;;
Worked on Coanteen's blog today. I had severe doubts about the picture...but it turned out okay. Procrastination has entered the advanced stage. Aside from working on the layout, watched 6 hours of anime in the last couple of days. Done about 15 minutes of studying.
Got some One Piece. 6 episodes and a movie. And some Fruits Basket. And some Shaman King..... Ahhh... all those things I didn't really know about until I went to Korea and encountered their doujinshi's... ^___^
Meta. I'll burn them for you as soon as I finish downloading them... Tell me which ones you want. And of course, Coanteen, you want all of them, right? ^__^
It is nearly 5:30 in the morning and I know that if I sleep now, I'll never make it to class in 3 hours. So I stay awake with my fried brain, knowing that I will *again* doze off during the class. *sigh*
Four empty coffee cups on my computer desk. Two empty coffee cups on my study desk. One empty coffee cup on bedroom table. How the hell have I been managing to sleep 12 hours a day?
Going out tonight. Tomorrow night. Day-after-tomorrow night. Not happy.
Bitched at the computer people. They still haven't sent me my CD's. Can't use word program yet. I've only nagged them four times in the last three weeks. Morons.
They're ALL asking my forgiveness. Of course, it never occurred to them to treat me with respect BEFORE i start bitchying. MORONS!!!!!!!
Note to self:
What are you doing???!!! STUDY~~!!!!!!
Had a dinner party yesterday. Damn. It seems like all my blog entries are a day late. -_-;;; Invited about 4 people...and...made too much food. So I've been eating the leftovers all day today. It's actually good food but I'm kinda getting sick of it.
Went to potluck yesterday. With the Evil boy. Kinda left him there... around 10:30. He icq'ed later. Told him that I didn't feel like treating him with basic politeness 'cause I don't consider him to be a decent human being. ^___^ He's been really depressed the past few months. Plus no one really hangs out with him (as the girls he used to hang with all know what he's like now...) Don't feel sorry for him at all. He said that there's nothing he can do except ask for my forgiveness. Told him he's becoming boring in his repetiveness.
I'm being petty and vindictive. It feels really good.
Went to a potluck. Hmmm... I seem to be doing that very often. The food was very yummy.
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