Saturday, December 1, 2001 02:15 p.m.

Coanteen. T_T You don't like my Inu? T_T Oooh. I am heartbroken. How I feel rejected. T_T And I am *not* torturing him. -_-;; He doesn't look too unhappy..does he? Just thought that an upside down inu would be more interesting than a right side up one. Like... upside down soup.

Archive your page sometime in the near future.. So I can put up the new layout, yes?

Meta. You blogged!!!! You blogged!!! Oh, now I can die happy. T_T I even read your long ranting about fandoms. ^^ And I know Sasuke turned out disproportionate... Reconstructive surgery...sometime in the future? Ah.. I am very lazy.

Saturday, December 1, 2001 03:39 a.m.

Oi. Coanteen. Here is the Inu pic you wanted. Or not wanted. I dunno. it's probably not quite what you expected...-_-;; but I'm not gonna draw you another one. And I swear... I'm not gonna draw more pics until exams are over. T_T

Saturday, December 1, 2001 01:07 a.m.

I should have chosen another career. This is too boring. T_T

Friday, November 30, 2001 05:04 p.m.

Pokey.

I miss the Jekki fans. T_T Even more so now that I've been listening to Jekki every day while studying. It's like... relapse of an addiction. I was off it for months, and now I have it again. T_T

Pokey.. if Pokey is reading this, "if not, i'm just talking to myself. O_o" Yeah. It's strange to write non-Jekki fanfics. It's different too. I used to write... like... one part/day when I was into Jekki. But with anime, it's more like 1 part/year. -_-;;;; I like drawing though...

I've never written GW fanfics. Mostly because I've watched only parts of the series and I don't really understand it. -_-;;; And there's too many fics out there anyway.. Surprisingly, there aren't that many RK yaoi fics.

And I'm sure Kara loves Pokey. Ask for password!!!! ^____^

On another note, Coanteen!!! Why aren't you blogging?!!! Is it because I've been neglecting you and leaving you for coffee?!?! Blog, damn you!

Friday, November 30, 2001 03:02 a.m.

On the fourth coffee of the day. Oh, great. I can feel the calcium in my bones melting. T_T Studying very unsuccessfuly. But it *is* making progress...very very very slooooowwlyyyyyyyyyy........

Yesterday, I read.. most of Naruto. And yes, it's all your fault, Meta!!!! T_T It was good though. Oooohhh... And of course, it made me wanna do a Naruto fanart. Ah. the everlasting debate. To draw nipples or not to draw nipples. -_-;;;;; Not to draw nipples...out of pure laziness. It seems like I draw at least one pic a day. Ah. It must be the coffee.. This one took me about 2 hours to draw... T_T And I gave him a few plastic surgeries while coloring... and now he looks kinda weird. But I've been staring at the thing too long that I can't really figure out what to do with it. Maybe I'll give him reconstructive surgeries later....

Wednesday, November 28, 2001 04:46 p.m.

Procratinating. So what else is new? -_-;;; I'll be better after an iced cappuccino..after writing this blog.

A little picture for Meta. Mmm... This is what I do when I procrastinate. T_T Also put up a couple of gravitation doujinshi on my fuck site. Major, major procrastination.

Tuesday, November 27, 2001 11:29 a.m.

Shamelessly skipping classes. But have to go get eval this afternoon...from the scary tutor. It sux, sux, sux~!!!! T_T I'm so scared. He's gonna fail me, I swear. Gaaah!!!!

Monday, November 26, 2001 05:36 p.m.

Started listening to Sechskies again. ^^;;;; It kinda...reminds me of undergrad. Which is good, I guess...since I did *almost* nothing but study in undergrad. Which is what I need now...

Listening to... 'Bi'. And 'A+' on repeat. Kinda depressing/angry songs. But I like them. ^^ Sechskies is like... all I remember of my undergrad days. Hours and hours of studying listening to Sechskies. I got into them during orientation of my first year undergrad. And they retired a couple of weeks after my last exam as an undergrad. And I've listened to their songs while studying to...probably every test/exam I've had in between. ^___^

My hair's getting too long. They pull on my scalp and it hurts. Doesn't help that I already have headaches from all the coffee and studying. T_T Ooooowww... Head hurts.



Monday, November 26, 2001 11:08 a.m.

Have to see a doctor about applications for research project in 2 hours and 22 minutes. I hate these things. And the stupid video viewing tomorrow. Hate them. I'll be so happy tomorrow afternoon when all the unpleasantness is over...at least for a week.

Monday, November 26, 2001 08:30 a.m.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY META!!!! ^____^ You're now in your twenties... Mmmm... My little Meta's all grown up. ^^;;;

Studying... slowly. I've decided to skip all classes except the ones I *have* to go to. Going to classes gives me the false sense of being productive so I goof off for the rest of the day. I will just stay home and study...

Just got up. Need coffee....

Sunday, November 25, 2001 05:09 p.m.

Watched Inu up to 46. Did not watch 47...'cause it seemed like it was more of Naraku. ^^;;; Aaaah. Lots of Fluffy-sama in the 40's episodes. Yum~~!!!!!! I want to be Jaken!!!!! Rin will take some attention away, but she's a lowly mortal...so she'll die soon and doesn't count. ^___^

Studying's going...like shit. -_-

Saturday, November 24, 2001 05:24 p.m.

I have an urge to change my blog layout. But this one hasn't even been here a week... and I like this layout. But I wanna change it. And so to resist the urge, I'm writing another pointless blog. T_T

Saturday, November 24, 2001 04:51 p.m.

Checked blog for the...nth time in the last two days. Of course, neither Coanteen nor Meta wrote anything. Don't you guys know that checking you guys' blogs is the only joy in my life? T_T Blog, damn you!!!!

On another note, I've become convinced that I am an idiot. I forgot to put Hunter x Huter in the packages I've sent to Meta and Coanteen. -_-;;; I have eps up to 9. Will send later, yes?

Meta. I've updated my Fuck site (My Fukagawa... that's what Coanteen calls it...-_-;;;;). Go see it if you're not too busy. Crosswinds is slow as hell and it drives me nuts. I'm thinking of moving that site when I have more content on it...to make it worth my while....

Mmmm.... Instead of studying, or doing anything semi productive like drawing...I've watched Inu up to eps 37. T_T FLUFFY-SAMA!!!!!! PLEASE LET ME BE YOUR LITTLE GREEN TOADIE!!!!! I SHALL WORSHIP YOU AND SERVE YOU JUST AS WELL AS JAKEN!!!!! Gahhh... This is all Coanteen's fault for sending me those CD's. Not that I don't appreciate them. T_T But...T_T Flufffyyyy-saaammmaaa~!!! T_T And... my studying... ooohh. there it goes...down the toilet...T_T

Also went to anime meeting at school today. They were having an 8 hour marathon but I just went to see Houshin Engi for 1 1/2 hours... I really liked it! ^___^ Gaahhh.. Another anime to obsess about...as if I didn't have enough already. Coanteen, dear. How about we dress up as Houshin Engi charas for the next anime con? *ducks from knives coming from Coanteen's direction*.

I don't like the anime club so much this year. First, there's no Prototype...the ever great genius/anime man. The execs this year kinda...suck. Mmmm... So I only go when they're playing things I like. They're showing Cowboy Bebop movie later though... I don't know if I'll go.

Called parents. Dad was like..."I've been sick recently and I've realized how important doctors are. You must study hard thinking that this is for the humanity, blah blah blah blah..." -_-;;;;; He is a very idealistic man. Believes in things too much. The kind that would be a religious fanatic, *if* he was religious. Thank god he isn't.

One of the reasons he has a temper and treated me like shit sometimes is probably 'cause he feels so strongly about everything. There is no compromise for him. It feels strange when he seems to religious-fy doctors (and thus me) and then still treats me like shit when I make him angry. He reminds me of those... people who are fanatical about Christinanity, get into some unfortunate accident, feel that God has betrayed them, and then become fantical about Buddism or other religions.

But enough about my father. Mommy was nice. She told me to get vitamins. Ever practical advice... And told me to drink lots of coffee and study.. Maybe a little too practical. T_T



Friday, November 23, 2001 04:55 a.m.

Slept for 11 hours. I feel... numb. It's not a bad feeling. I should be stressed about exams. But I'm not. ^___^ I used to feel so overwhelmingly unhappy. Now I just feel mildly disgusted at everything and everyone...including myself. It's not such a bad feeling. I'll go and study. Yes.

Thursday, November 22, 2001 04:12 p.m.

Sent some stuff off on mail today. One package for Coanteen and two for Meta. Expect them soon... ^___^

Thursday, November 22, 2001 01:40 p.m.

Skipped 2 hours of group sessions. Going to skip another 3 hours this afternoon... But they take so looong and they're not very useful and they *thankfully* don't check attendance. Rather, they do check attendance but it doesn't contribute to your marks so it doesn't matter. ^___^

So what have I been doing the last 4 hours? Nothing, really. I've tried using photoshop instead of paintshop and I love it!!!!! ^___^ But I should probably get off my ass and start studying seriously...

A couple of days ago, I pushed my finger up a man's butt. -_-;;; It was an interesting experience... but not all that awkward. I think it was more awkward when our group practiced on a plastic ass beforehand...-_-;; I have fairly small hands..and the patient told me to push my finger in deeper...saying that my knuckles will stop me if I go too far.

We also did male genital examination....-_-;;;

I met one of my classmates on the way home (not from our group)...and we were talking about it on the way home... He's a funny person. -_-;;; He was voted as something like... the most likely person to be sued... 'cause he's very outspoken...

Classmate: Did you see that demonstration video beforehand?

Me: Yeah.

Classmate: You know..on the video... the doctor moves the penis to the side...and then it slowy moves across the screen to the center by itself....

Me: Yeah. I think I saw something like that...

Classmate: When I was watching that, I was like.."Oh, my God. If that ever happens to me, I'm gonna take a 5 minute coffee break and leave the patient alone."

Me: Why? O_o

Classmate: Well. He's getting an erection, basically.

Me: Oh? O_O You mean you can't voluntarily move the penis?

Classmate: No. -_-;;;;;;

Me: -_-;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

Classmate: So...how was it?

Me: I was trying to check for hernia...and it was so hard. There was so much loose skins...so I couldn't really see anything...

Classmate: ^^;;; Hahaha. I think the patient would be insulted if you said that. "You have too much loose skin so I can't see anything. Why don't we talk about how you've lost your penis?"

Me: -_-;;;;;;;;; That's *not* what I meant, but I guess that could be insulting.

Ah, well... I'm sure I'll be doing this thingie very very often in a couple of years or so. No biggie, I guess. (Although saying *that* might be insulting to patients as well...) -_-;;;;;

Thursday, November 22, 2001 11:39 a.m.

I made yet another blog layout. -_-;;; So I've decided to archive the current page.... Gotta use up these layouts~!