[ Wednesday, April 30, 2003 -X- 04:29 p.m. ]
Hidden Meaning: I will die either by stress... or maybe ran over by a silver stratus car
Today was nice! I get to have time today... well just a little so I will draw through most of the day and if my mother leaves the house I will call who I promised n_n! Yay, I just don't like to be around my mother when I am with friends or talk on the phone... unless they call me or something. Anyways, I put up a little art section like everyone else has... xD I am like the last one to do stuff. So I posted some random pics for the meantime. Just 3 new arts. Two of them are on The Gaia site, the Arcana ones since she is like Athena's 'clone'. And the other one is Rashad! N___N I like drawing him. Rashad is Saiyo's apprentince, but she omitted the legendary curse on him. He gets to be a mage without their freakuuuu characteristics.
I think sometime I will make a layout of Rusell Crowe as John Nash. Since I recorded 'A Beautiful Mind' not so long ago, I got into it. I really like that movie so much because they portrayed schezioprenia as an actual tormenting problem, and not as an idiotic comical subject. I thought that was good, and Russell Crowe did a good job playing Mr. Nash; he even walks and talks the same! Awr, that movie makes me cry. Especially when the shock teraphy is applied to him, makes me so mad ;___; You just don't shock schezio-patients... that is for severe depression... but they did not know that back then. I will buy the DVD of the movie sometime, and maybe I will buy the book very soon.
I got money to buy some things, like catch up on my mangas and dvds, but I rather save up for a new PS2. Yay! I am actually getting rid of my compulsive-obssession means of buying things as soon as I have money! I am happy since I am doing it with only my will. Hopefully I can keep up with my no-compulsive-spending behaivor.
So I need to draw Nefadus and Deus. I need to think on how to dress pretty nefadus, I thought about something goth, but I figured it would be more ironic if Satan is dressing in a more colorful manner. So Nefadus shall be dressed in some sort of kinky style... maybe just 'bad'. I also need to come up with designs for that one girl who is always stalking crossdressing Satan, I think I will make Nefadus actually like her back, but not in a loving way. Just not getting annoyed by her since God is the one that is supposed to have it bad xD! Poor kitty Deus stalked by the psycho-kid of doom. So yeah, I need to remember to do stuff for Kelly-sama.
I think I will make another site for Saiyo's story. And maybe another one for that God and Satan manga... Err, what is that story gonna be called, Kelly? I don't think we ever put up a name. Anyways, I have so much to do in my art world x__x;; I need to get a job too. I wanna work at Hastings or maybe a Rental place. I really do not care (unless is a food place e__e -bad experiences; trauma-), I just want money.
I need to buy Cynthia a present since her B-day is coming up. And Surge's too! Wonder what I could get Cynthia? I was thinking of an artbook, because I am sure that between Ricky and me, we could afford to buy her that one X/Zero artbook that I have... she really liked it, but she never bought it because she always had something else to buy. Hmm... if we order it this week it will come before May 11 I am sure.
Ramble! I think that is all out of my crappy memory system.
P.S. Oh yeah, about a the title. xD I had this funky blur of visage, suddenly I had the premunition that I am going to get hit by a car and that is how I will die o_o;; kinda freaky, but it was odd. I mean it doesn't mean that it will happen tomorrow, but it is a precognition or something... I was like talking about my story and suddenly I just say: "I think I am gonna die by getting ran over" xD! It was kinda funky since it was random, but is a sign!!! This is a pretty morbid subject e__e;;; Anyways, yeah... kinda like a real DAYdream, ne?
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Wow... I just read some of my old posts and... I have changed so much! xDD I used to be so very... untactable and way more uncaring for others. So I am still kinda psycho, but not half as cold as before. I used to be like a man-hater before going out with Rick... I remember just aboring men e_e;;; Anyways, also in my old posts I am all excited about going to visit Monterrey, Mexico and now I am either too lazy to do it. Or I just don't feel like even bother going over anymore. xD! I also went through lots of stuff. Anyways, it is good to look into back posts... it is sorta interesting.
I think sometime I will make a layout of Rusell Crowe as John Nash. Since I recorded 'A Beautiful Mind' not so long ago, I got into it. I really like that movie so much because they portrayed schezioprenia as an actual tormenting problem, and not as an idiotic comical subject. I thought that was good, and Russell Crowe did a good job playing Mr. Nash; he even walks and talks the same! Awr, that movie makes me cry. Especially when the shock teraphy is applied to him, makes me so mad ;___; You just don't shock schezio-patients... that is for severe depression... but they did not know that back then. I will buy the DVD of the movie sometime, and maybe I will buy the book very soon.
I got money to buy some things, like catch up on my mangas and dvds, but I rather save up for a new PS2. Yay! I am actually getting rid of my compulsive-obssession means of buying things as soon as I have money! I am happy since I am doing it with only my will. Hopefully I can keep up with my no-compulsive-spending behaivor.
So I need to draw Nefadus and Deus. I need to think on how to dress pretty nefadus, I thought about something goth, but I figured it would be more ironic if Satan is dressing in a more colorful manner. So Nefadus shall be dressed in some sort of kinky style... maybe just 'bad'. I also need to come up with designs for that one girl who is always stalking crossdressing Satan, I think I will make Nefadus actually like her back, but not in a loving way. Just not getting annoyed by her since God is the one that is supposed to have it bad xD! Poor kitty Deus stalked by the psycho-kid of doom. So yeah, I need to remember to do stuff for Kelly-sama.
I think I will make another site for Saiyo's story. And maybe another one for that God and Satan manga... Err, what is that story gonna be called, Kelly? I don't think we ever put up a name. Anyways, I have so much to do in my art world x__x;; I need to get a job too. I wanna work at Hastings or maybe a Rental place. I really do not care (unless is a food place e__e -bad experiences; trauma-), I just want money.
I need to buy Cynthia a present since her B-day is coming up. And Surge's too! Wonder what I could get Cynthia? I was thinking of an artbook, because I am sure that between Ricky and me, we could afford to buy her that one X/Zero artbook that I have... she really liked it, but she never bought it because she always had something else to buy. Hmm... if we order it this week it will come before May 11 I am sure.
Ramble! I think that is all out of my crappy memory system.
P.S. Oh yeah, about a the title. xD I had this funky blur of visage, suddenly I had the premunition that I am going to get hit by a car and that is how I will die o_o;; kinda freaky, but it was odd. I mean it doesn't mean that it will happen tomorrow, but it is a precognition or something... I was like talking about my story and suddenly I just say: "I think I am gonna die by getting ran over" xD! It was kinda funky since it was random, but is a sign!!! This is a pretty morbid subject e__e;;; Anyways, yeah... kinda like a real DAYdream, ne?
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Wow... I just read some of my old posts and... I have changed so much! xDD I used to be so very... untactable and way more uncaring for others. So I am still kinda psycho, but not half as cold as before. I used to be like a man-hater before going out with Rick... I remember just aboring men e_e;;; Anyways, also in my old posts I am all excited about going to visit Monterrey, Mexico and now I am either too lazy to do it. Or I just don't feel like even bother going over anymore. xD! I also went through lots of stuff. Anyways, it is good to look into back posts... it is sorta interesting.
[ Tuesday, April 29, 2003 -X- 05:02 p.m. ]
Hidden Meaning: Of course you don't care! No one ever does anymore
I cannot wait until my birthday! n__n!! I am so anxious. Also, it is almost 1 year ever since Ricky asked me out, I am thinking on a surprise, but not really... more like a gift or something. Just about a month to go. And also I cannot wait until summer break comes! I want to get a job and get money! (moneymoneymoneymoney =D)
Lina I colored your pretty picture n_n! I think it came out pretty. The way I did Konoko's hair reminds me of how my chara Maverich's hair looks like. Anyways, I sure hope you likee :D I spend times in this one since I wanted it to be very clean and pretty. I will send the original copy to you with your letter, oneesan.
Today was a very fine day, I think I did very well in my art test! It seemed easy, and it was about drawing and coloring so I was able to memorize those things fast. I feel like drawing and coloring right now, but I don't get to go home until 9. It sucks to have a night class... and for two hours listening to this random blabber about computers who everyone should already be born with that knowledge now-a-days e_e;; I am being a little self-centered, but... it is just an exageration.
Erm. In the Arcana Chronicle maybe Ricky will rp Rashad! :D! I sure hope he does since he is Saiyo's uncursed apprentice. He is special and very, very pretty. I really like to draw him, since his personality reflects a lot on his physical self and he has pretty hair too =9! Anyways, I was planning on maybe also play Maverich so that would make things even more interesting since he is kinda psycho. He is Saiyo's mentor and also the one who passed the curse on to her... it is kinda like the Mage rule for my story. I will draw some random manga pages for that story since I like the relationship of the characters, kinda suspensive and confusing. So Kelly, I can draw some more Nefadus and Deus for you when you come :D! Maybe I will draw something today during the computer class. I feel like drawing Nefadus, our crossdressing Satan. yummy =D and poor Deus, our kitten God. That story we should really make into an online manga n__n maybe we should rent like a studio and buy lots of graphic arts stuff and make our own little company! It would be worth it.
Oh! Andy, I have an idea for a blog layout I can make you. How about a pretty Final Fantasy XI layout of a Male Elveen? But you have to promise me you will actually use your blog because it takes effort v_v;;; And you also need to give me your pswd. So call me sometime, ok? Also, Nathan your layout could be some resident evil thing? Maybe I can find some good pictures. Well, you guys can just tell me later about that. Sure hope we can all get together in the weekend! Friday would be fantastic because I do not think I have anything to do.
So maybe on Friday we can also come up with what should we roleplay next e_e I refuse to be storyteller anymore. I wanna be a character now. I feel like rping Vampire: The Masquerade since I have a good Malkavian character xD!! DEMENTED VAMPIRE heehee. Well, whatever it is I will do a character, we should just vote on who will be storyteller and then that person will decide what to play. We also need to continue watching El-Hazard TV, we are almost done with that series, and then I can show you all Betterman.
Well, about an hour and a half until my class starts... maybe I will download AOL and see if anyone is online. I wanna call Lina and Kiko :D! I will hopefully have time tomorrow or maybe on Thursday. But I really feel like talking to them. Btw, you people should take a look to Kiko's layout, it is pretty and it has Gambit and Rogue! N____n;; You like Xmen GO SEE IT NOW.
Lina I colored your pretty picture n_n! I think it came out pretty. The way I did Konoko's hair reminds me of how my chara Maverich's hair looks like. Anyways, I sure hope you likee :D I spend times in this one since I wanted it to be very clean and pretty. I will send the original copy to you with your letter, oneesan.
Today was a very fine day, I think I did very well in my art test! It seemed easy, and it was about drawing and coloring so I was able to memorize those things fast. I feel like drawing and coloring right now, but I don't get to go home until 9. It sucks to have a night class... and for two hours listening to this random blabber about computers who everyone should already be born with that knowledge now-a-days e_e;; I am being a little self-centered, but... it is just an exageration.
Erm. In the Arcana Chronicle maybe Ricky will rp Rashad! :D! I sure hope he does since he is Saiyo's uncursed apprentice. He is special and very, very pretty. I really like to draw him, since his personality reflects a lot on his physical self and he has pretty hair too =9! Anyways, I was planning on maybe also play Maverich so that would make things even more interesting since he is kinda psycho. He is Saiyo's mentor and also the one who passed the curse on to her... it is kinda like the Mage rule for my story. I will draw some random manga pages for that story since I like the relationship of the characters, kinda suspensive and confusing. So Kelly, I can draw some more Nefadus and Deus for you when you come :D! Maybe I will draw something today during the computer class. I feel like drawing Nefadus, our crossdressing Satan. yummy =D and poor Deus, our kitten God. That story we should really make into an online manga n__n maybe we should rent like a studio and buy lots of graphic arts stuff and make our own little company! It would be worth it.
Oh! Andy, I have an idea for a blog layout I can make you. How about a pretty Final Fantasy XI layout of a Male Elveen? But you have to promise me you will actually use your blog because it takes effort v_v;;; And you also need to give me your pswd. So call me sometime, ok? Also, Nathan your layout could be some resident evil thing? Maybe I can find some good pictures. Well, you guys can just tell me later about that. Sure hope we can all get together in the weekend! Friday would be fantastic because I do not think I have anything to do.
So maybe on Friday we can also come up with what should we roleplay next e_e I refuse to be storyteller anymore. I wanna be a character now. I feel like rping Vampire: The Masquerade since I have a good Malkavian character xD!! DEMENTED VAMPIRE heehee. Well, whatever it is I will do a character, we should just vote on who will be storyteller and then that person will decide what to play. We also need to continue watching El-Hazard TV, we are almost done with that series, and then I can show you all Betterman.
Well, about an hour and a half until my class starts... maybe I will download AOL and see if anyone is online. I wanna call Lina and Kiko :D! I will hopefully have time tomorrow or maybe on Thursday. But I really feel like talking to them. Btw, you people should take a look to Kiko's layout, it is pretty and it has Gambit and Rogue! N____n;; You like Xmen GO SEE IT NOW.
[ Monday, April 28, 2003 -X- 11:43 a.m. ]
Hidden Meaning: Why live something without emotions?
My weekend was interestingly troubling. I bought Jade Cocoon 2 and I sure like it. It will keep me entratained while the 'normal' Final Fantasies come back. I was very depressed during Saturday and Sunday tho. It was to an alarming extreme so I called some people so I could talk about it, but people do not seem to get it. I was finally able to talk to Andy and that was great. He seems to be the one person who knows exactly what to say to stop my depressive/maniatic moments. I was very happy to talk to him that I was almost crying.
Well, when I hung up I went to H-E-B and guess what? I found ANDY!! :D!! That was so impossible, I was just talking on the phone with him. We were speechless, but that had to be a path of destiny because it was highly impossible to find him there. Err... I guess H-E-B is like the center of the universe where everything and everyone collides xD!
My mother called from Mexico on Sunday and got pretty pissed at me because I did something stupid. Well, I know I did something very stupid and that I am pretty useless myself towards my family, but she did not have to rub it in my face. E_e I mean, I already felt abandoned and uncared for by my friends, I really did not need her to tell me that I am all alone in the world with no way out of my looser life! She makes me mad. I do not think it is healthy either, maybe I should just ignore her stupid words... maybe I should just find a job and get the hell out of the house.
Ricky is not going to be able to take a summer class and that means I cannot either since he was gonna be my ride. I guess it is a good thing that way I can get that job at the Wal-Mart near my house as I had planned. I really want money badly! I wanna buy so many things and I need to buy presents too. Oh yeah, Nathan helped me create a character in Achea o_o;; or something and I guess I could try it out every now and then when I am all bored at school. I really want a computer. Wonder if my mom will allow my dad to buy me one? Hmm... But nevermind that, I rather have a laser surgery on my eyes for my birthday because my sight has been getting really desesperating. I cannot even see like a foot and a half away from me. It really sucks. When I cannot find my glasses I really get very frustrated and desesperated because it is like I am looking at a whole different world. Bleh, anyways, maybe I can talk to my dad about it and let see how it goes. E__e being blurry blind sucks.
Well, when I hung up I went to H-E-B and guess what? I found ANDY!! :D!! That was so impossible, I was just talking on the phone with him. We were speechless, but that had to be a path of destiny because it was highly impossible to find him there. Err... I guess H-E-B is like the center of the universe where everything and everyone collides xD!
My mother called from Mexico on Sunday and got pretty pissed at me because I did something stupid. Well, I know I did something very stupid and that I am pretty useless myself towards my family, but she did not have to rub it in my face. E_e I mean, I already felt abandoned and uncared for by my friends, I really did not need her to tell me that I am all alone in the world with no way out of my looser life! She makes me mad. I do not think it is healthy either, maybe I should just ignore her stupid words... maybe I should just find a job and get the hell out of the house.
Ricky is not going to be able to take a summer class and that means I cannot either since he was gonna be my ride. I guess it is a good thing that way I can get that job at the Wal-Mart near my house as I had planned. I really want money badly! I wanna buy so many things and I need to buy presents too. Oh yeah, Nathan helped me create a character in Achea o_o;; or something and I guess I could try it out every now and then when I am all bored at school. I really want a computer. Wonder if my mom will allow my dad to buy me one? Hmm... But nevermind that, I rather have a laser surgery on my eyes for my birthday because my sight has been getting really desesperating. I cannot even see like a foot and a half away from me. It really sucks. When I cannot find my glasses I really get very frustrated and desesperated because it is like I am looking at a whole different world. Bleh, anyways, maybe I can talk to my dad about it and let see how it goes. E__e being blurry blind sucks.
[ Thursday, April 24, 2003 -X- 02:58 p.m. ]
Hidden Meaning: Morning sunshine means another day life puts you in its game
Today was a pretty boring day since my art class was just about looking at this stupid video and spanish was canceled. Though I still have some homework to do, but maybe I will work on that later. I finished watching Bubblegum Crisis and it was fantastic! :D! I really, really like it, but the ending was kind of out of subject. I really hated Galatea e_e she 'kills' Mackey!! Well, not really, but at that part it got me mad and sad ;__;!! Mackey-chan... he is so cute. Him and Sylia are so alike so I guess that is why I like them both, they kinda have the same expressions and features.
I drew some stuff. A picture of Saiyo with creepy wings and some art for my page, but I cannot post if up since the scanner is being used. I will draw something for Lina soon since I plan to draw Kei for my art homework n__n! the teacher told us to draw anything, so that is what I will do. I was expecting Kelly to show up, but I guess he was busy. Hope you can come sometime later before school finishes. But don't worry I am taking good care of the dvds. Oh, I will also draw Nefadus sometime, I promise!
And, um. I need to get some drawing and coloring done today. It is kinda like becoming a job rather than a hobby x_x damn time! There is never enough time to fit my drawing, hobbies, school, and sleeping. To little time. The day should have like 24 hrs or something. That would be fantastic. Anyways, I finished making my new layout and I sure like it! It has to do with Jade Cocoon -shh- Amazing, since I have not played that game, but I have decided to buy it. Jade Coccon 2 will be fun to play meanwhile a worth Final Fantasy game shows up. I cannot wait to put my next layout up, but I don't want to archive now.
Here I am able to put this up since I have it saved here. This is a present for you, Lina n__n;;
It is not finished yet tho! This is pretty much just like the skeleton sketch :D I will finish it and color it too. Also I needed that sketchy one for my art class. hee. But it is like a sneak peeku! I sure hope you like the style anyways, I tried to keep in my own style. I don't think it looks bad or so much different. Well, as long as you likee makes me okay with it.
I drew some stuff. A picture of Saiyo with creepy wings and some art for my page, but I cannot post if up since the scanner is being used. I will draw something for Lina soon since I plan to draw Kei for my art homework n__n! the teacher told us to draw anything, so that is what I will do. I was expecting Kelly to show up, but I guess he was busy. Hope you can come sometime later before school finishes. But don't worry I am taking good care of the dvds. Oh, I will also draw Nefadus sometime, I promise!
And, um. I need to get some drawing and coloring done today. It is kinda like becoming a job rather than a hobby x_x damn time! There is never enough time to fit my drawing, hobbies, school, and sleeping. To little time. The day should have like 24 hrs or something. That would be fantastic. Anyways, I finished making my new layout and I sure like it! It has to do with Jade Cocoon -shh- Amazing, since I have not played that game, but I have decided to buy it. Jade Coccon 2 will be fun to play meanwhile a worth Final Fantasy game shows up. I cannot wait to put my next layout up, but I don't want to archive now.
Here I am able to put this up since I have it saved here. This is a present for you, Lina n__n;;
It is not finished yet tho! This is pretty much just like the skeleton sketch :D I will finish it and color it too. Also I needed that sketchy one for my art class. hee. But it is like a sneak peeku! I sure hope you like the style anyways, I tried to keep in my own style. I don't think it looks bad or so much different. Well, as long as you likee makes me okay with it.
[ Wednesday, April 23, 2003 -X- 12:33 p.m. ]
Hidden Meaning: Nothing more to say, but just babble
Ohayo guys! n__n!! I am quite content today. I guess I am just happy since I did some doodles of my mage characters. I decided to scan them even if they are only 'concept' sketches since I figured you guys would like to take a look anyways:
I like how the group sketch came out n__n maverick looks better there with his sane face. And I love Rashad! :D!! The attitude I gave him is so cute towards Saiyo so I will keep it that way. I got to go to class now! Eep!
And guys, you have to take a look at this old picture I found in my ftp space xD!! I totally forgot about it. I did it ever so long ago when my laptop worked and I had Photoshop. But it is VERY crappy. I used nothing special... I think maybe just the gleaming for here and there. I remember when I used to think that was an amazing drawing... now it is just junk x__x;;; It kinda looks like a little kids drawing! I really need to go look for maybe some tutorials so maybe when I do get a new computer I will be able to color something worth in Photoshop or Paintpro.
I like how the group sketch came out n__n maverick looks better there with his sane face. And I love Rashad! :D!! The attitude I gave him is so cute towards Saiyo so I will keep it that way. I got to go to class now! Eep!
And guys, you have to take a look at this old picture I found in my ftp space xD!! I totally forgot about it. I did it ever so long ago when my laptop worked and I had Photoshop. But it is VERY crappy. I used nothing special... I think maybe just the gleaming for here and there. I remember when I used to think that was an amazing drawing... now it is just junk x__x;;; It kinda looks like a little kids drawing! I really need to go look for maybe some tutorials so maybe when I do get a new computer I will be able to color something worth in Photoshop or Paintpro.
[ Tuesday, April 22, 2003 -X- 05:11 p.m. ]
Hidden Meaning: Ever such the long wait... ever such a boring time
WOW! I forgot to blog about going to the movies on Saturday!! I cannot believe that. Anyways, I watched 'The Core' and I LOVE that movie. It is great!! Mother Gaia was in danger... because of stupid people. But I sure recommend you guys to go and see that movie. The special effects are very nicely done and the plot is not stupid or even totally insensible... the whole thing is put together really nice. And it is not that exagerated science fiction crap. When the Roman buldings get destroyed it's amazing! So go see it.
I also got 'Spirited Away' o__o;; My mom bought it for me. That is a surprise, she is the kind of person who would not buy me anime. But I sure appreciate that since I really wanted to see this movie! I am sure it is going to be good, since I really liked 'Mononoke-Hime' and it is kinda the same deal. I want to get a Moro plushie... wonder if I can find a San statue or figure anywhere? I think they sell this San statue with Moro or the cubs somewhere... gotta look for it.
Oh yeah. I finally did the 3rd page of my manga xD!! FINALLY! So I will post it as soon as I can use the scanner. I also posted on the White Wolf Rp.
One of my classes was canceled today and so I just had the morning class and now I have to wait here at school until 7pm for my next class. I have been here for like 6 hrs without doing nothing. Well, I did draw some stuff and updated my page a little while I played with my neopets. Err... I ate with Ricky, but my order was confused so I ended up eating tacos with cream! X__x I dun like cream so I kinda did not enjoy the flavor, but I was very hungry. Complaning was not in my mind since I did not felt like it, I just ate. I still have my onion-sourcream fries on my bag in case I get hungry again, but doubtful since I am quite full.
I feel like drawing some new art. I feel like drawing Donovan lately v_v I have also being in the mood to draw characters from my Saiyo story. I have been drawing Lydia lately and she keeps looking more and more creepy-cool everytime xD! I inspired from Lydia from the beetlejuice cartoon. I like those drawings. So yeah... I have to draw a pic of Lydia getting choked by Saiyo since they are rivals. I should scan some sketches of my Saiyo, mage story sometime soon.
I also got 'Spirited Away' o__o;; My mom bought it for me. That is a surprise, she is the kind of person who would not buy me anime. But I sure appreciate that since I really wanted to see this movie! I am sure it is going to be good, since I really liked 'Mononoke-Hime' and it is kinda the same deal. I want to get a Moro plushie... wonder if I can find a San statue or figure anywhere? I think they sell this San statue with Moro or the cubs somewhere... gotta look for it.
Oh yeah. I finally did the 3rd page of my manga xD!! FINALLY! So I will post it as soon as I can use the scanner. I also posted on the White Wolf Rp.
One of my classes was canceled today and so I just had the morning class and now I have to wait here at school until 7pm for my next class. I have been here for like 6 hrs without doing nothing. Well, I did draw some stuff and updated my page a little while I played with my neopets. Err... I ate with Ricky, but my order was confused so I ended up eating tacos with cream! X__x I dun like cream so I kinda did not enjoy the flavor, but I was very hungry. Complaning was not in my mind since I did not felt like it, I just ate. I still have my onion-sourcream fries on my bag in case I get hungry again, but doubtful since I am quite full.
I feel like drawing some new art. I feel like drawing Donovan lately v_v I have also being in the mood to draw characters from my Saiyo story. I have been drawing Lydia lately and she keeps looking more and more creepy-cool everytime xD! I inspired from Lydia from the beetlejuice cartoon. I like those drawings. So yeah... I have to draw a pic of Lydia getting choked by Saiyo since they are rivals. I should scan some sketches of my Saiyo, mage story sometime soon.
[ Monday, April 21, 2003 -X- 02:29 p.m. ]
Hidden Meaning: What the fuck are friends supposed to be?
Before I forget to blog about this today x_x! Kelly! I am done with your last 2 Bubblegum Crisis dvds... actually for a while now, but I just kept forgetting to metion it here. You have not come in a while to visit o_o! You should come to school, let me know pleasie so I can bring the dvds too. Btw, can you draw settings in a manga e_e I sure need inspiration to do that. I find it very hard to draw a big space... I was not meant to draw enviorments and stuff.
Now, Happy Easter people :D! Can't blog on Sunday so this will do. I am not much of an easter person, but for those who are, have a nice day and week and stuff. Well, I got some candy from my friends! It was yummy today, although I need to eat something heathly x_x! Blargh... I have not eaten anything of real food since early in the morning. I will go home until five so that is a long wait.
I have not done anything this past weekends because I am actually expecting my so called friends to call me. But they never do. My best friend totally ignores my existance or something and it is not fun. I want my friends. I used to have so many! It is not fair. You guys really suck. But I think is just me e_e maybe I am the one who is a pest... since I am sure that they call each other more often that what they call me. Makes me kinda sad, not like crying sad, but just dissapointing sad.
And to make things worst about how lonely I feel, My PS2, Valgaav, kinda got all screwed and it will hardly read ANY disc. Bleh. I doubt I can sell it anywhere now so I am just going to take it to the backyard and smash it around. n_n I will take all my anger out on that STUPID PIECE OF... stuff. But I will have fun since that PS2 has been giving me serious problems and nothing better than to get a hammer and hit it with it. Yeah. So I just need a little money to buy a newer version of the PS2 and then I will trash and dismantle the other one into pieces. Can't wait for my anger management session xD!! RICKY! V__v you took my Breath of Fire 2 again!!!! ajfienaisd!! What am I supposed to play ;__; damn you...
Well, I got the last Betterman dvd, and it was great! I love Betterman, especially Lamia, he is so cool looking and his monster forms too. And I got the 4th X dvd, but I have not watched it yet... really does not matter since it is EXACTLY like the manga e_e;; Well, I ended up owing my brother 15 dllrs still, but he is not rushing me so that is fine. He does have a little niceness inside of him! And thank Dulce for burning those tapes for me! :D!! Now I can watch Bubblegum Crisis complete. Noir was burned too, but I was told it was not that good, and Yami No Matsue =9!!! I really like that anime, even though is very innuendic yaoi, but of course I like it.
Now, Happy Easter people :D! Can't blog on Sunday so this will do. I am not much of an easter person, but for those who are, have a nice day and week and stuff. Well, I got some candy from my friends! It was yummy today, although I need to eat something heathly x_x! Blargh... I have not eaten anything of real food since early in the morning. I will go home until five so that is a long wait.
I have not done anything this past weekends because I am actually expecting my so called friends to call me. But they never do. My best friend totally ignores my existance or something and it is not fun. I want my friends. I used to have so many! It is not fair. You guys really suck. But I think is just me e_e maybe I am the one who is a pest... since I am sure that they call each other more often that what they call me. Makes me kinda sad, not like crying sad, but just dissapointing sad.
And to make things worst about how lonely I feel, My PS2, Valgaav, kinda got all screwed and it will hardly read ANY disc. Bleh. I doubt I can sell it anywhere now so I am just going to take it to the backyard and smash it around. n_n I will take all my anger out on that STUPID PIECE OF... stuff. But I will have fun since that PS2 has been giving me serious problems and nothing better than to get a hammer and hit it with it. Yeah. So I just need a little money to buy a newer version of the PS2 and then I will trash and dismantle the other one into pieces. Can't wait for my anger management session xD!! RICKY! V__v you took my Breath of Fire 2 again!!!! ajfienaisd!! What am I supposed to play ;__; damn you...
Well, I got the last Betterman dvd, and it was great! I love Betterman, especially Lamia, he is so cool looking and his monster forms too. And I got the 4th X dvd, but I have not watched it yet... really does not matter since it is EXACTLY like the manga e_e;; Well, I ended up owing my brother 15 dllrs still, but he is not rushing me so that is fine. He does have a little niceness inside of him! And thank Dulce for burning those tapes for me! :D!! Now I can watch Bubblegum Crisis complete. Noir was burned too, but I was told it was not that good, and Yami No Matsue =9!!! I really like that anime, even though is very innuendic yaoi, but of course I like it.
[ Thursday, April 17, 2003 -X- 01:37 p.m. ]
Hidden Meaning: I have problems of my own to have time to think about yours
Today is a great day. We took a test in my Art Appreciation class and I had forgotten, but it was short and I do not think it was that hard. I think I can make it through that test. So we were dissmissed way early thanks to that and it gave me time to fix more stuff from my page. I think I am going to buy a big posterboard to make a pretty big art of The Gaia n__n!! Then maybe I can take a picture and that way scan it... I just feel like I should have something of my story hanging from my wall. I also want to make several either wallscrolls or posters, just a little amount, maybe I can sell them to the anime club. I should copyright the things first though. No stealing around, hee!
In spanish class my teacher finally came back! He was gone for like 2 past classes v_v it was fine that way though xD! The class is pretty boring, although the teacher is really good at his job and he is a nice guy. Anyways, I sorta feel sorry for him since he is sick and he won't be able to cover most of the lessons. I mean, it is kind of cool that half the lesson will not appear in the final so it is nifty x3 But poor proffessor, I hope he gets well soon.
And now I am here, but I do get a 3 day weekend this time! I wonder if my dad is going to come visit me this time v_v he said he was busy, but that he may find time to come over! I sure hope he can since I have not seen him in the longest time. I would go to Mexico, but I also have some stuff to do during the weekend, like biology and spanish studies x_x;; Oh! I have money! I got a lil' bit of money! I can probably afford the last Betterman DvD! I am so happy about that since I really want to see what happens... I have been in suspense for like 1 and a half month. I can also pay my bro back the money he lent me for the Vincent Valentine statue ;9 I sure appreciated that loan! Danke.
I should go and post at both the rpg's now.
In spanish class my teacher finally came back! He was gone for like 2 past classes v_v it was fine that way though xD! The class is pretty boring, although the teacher is really good at his job and he is a nice guy. Anyways, I sorta feel sorry for him since he is sick and he won't be able to cover most of the lessons. I mean, it is kind of cool that half the lesson will not appear in the final so it is nifty x3 But poor proffessor, I hope he gets well soon.
And now I am here, but I do get a 3 day weekend this time! I wonder if my dad is going to come visit me this time v_v he said he was busy, but that he may find time to come over! I sure hope he can since I have not seen him in the longest time. I would go to Mexico, but I also have some stuff to do during the weekend, like biology and spanish studies x_x;; Oh! I have money! I got a lil' bit of money! I can probably afford the last Betterman DvD! I am so happy about that since I really want to see what happens... I have been in suspense for like 1 and a half month. I can also pay my bro back the money he lent me for the Vincent Valentine statue ;9 I sure appreciated that loan! Danke.
I should go and post at both the rpg's now.
[ Wednesday, April 16, 2003 -X- 02:42 p.m. ]
Hidden Meaning: Never better
I updated my site :D! I did a better layout I think. I mean it still looks kinda simple, but I like it better n__n looks cleaner and a lot more organized! So please go take a look! The adress changed a bit too... I added the html again just in case. and err... yeah I need to find where to rename a site address. Anyways, just click here to go to the pagie. Please let me know it there is any broken links or something like that x__x;; I might have left some since I did it all today in the morning. Well take care! Bye bye!
Oh, and Andy... has your phone being killed? You changed number again did you not xF?! Evil! And you have not even bothered to call me, you sure miss us.
Oh, and Andy... has your phone being killed? You changed number again did you not xF?! Evil! And you have not even bothered to call me, you sure miss us.
[ Monday, April 14, 2003 -X- 02:23 p.m. ]
Hidden Meaning: Care a little more for me, why don't you?
The truth is that this was a really boring weekend althogether e_e but it is kinda my fault since I was being lazy about doing stuff. I think is because I am feeling kinda depressed... more like a feeling, I just feel down, but no reason for it tho. You know? When it like happens suddenly? Well anyways, that does not mean I am sad. I am actually doing just fine. I recorded the movie of 'Panic Room' and I also drew some more stuff, but I am unable to scan right now since there is another person at the scanner.
What else? I don't think I did much besides watch TV and listen to soundtrack music. I need to do my schedule for summer and fall x_X what a pain. I really do not like school at all. I really need some money! I think I will recieve some soon so I can pay my brother and then maybe buy the last Betterman DVD. About bad news... well, I might be failing two of my classes! ;__; If my mother figures out I am going to be SOOOO dead... maybe I can like keep it a secret or something. I sure hope I do not get suspended... I need to go live on my own, or with someone, but not my mother.
Matt, Lina, and Kid :D! I sent you guys your magical info about the rpg. So know you guys know what specific powers you got. And... um... I think I am drowsing badly so I better stop blogging. Hopefully I can be online tomorrow around 5 - 7pm my time. Maybe I can chat with some of you guys. I sure miss having AOL, miss you all guys -hug- . I updated my Catch'em linkie so now you can actually see the pictures of the Bisshies I have caught. A friend got me into this... and sadly the Bishonen pagie was closed for the meantime so I am not able to catch any guys. That bites. Guess meanwhile I will go catch some more stuff and check around my neopets.
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I was able to scan after that waster person left e__e! He was not even using the scanner! xFF! But I got hold of it and so I put like 5 new arts in my pagie, some of them are from new characters. Nathan, you should go take a peek :D! I drew Seth! And he came out to look pretty cool! Hee. He does not look geeko or anything like that... just intellectual since in the manga he will be less jester and more philodox e__e not how you played it... But anyways. My manga sure changed the story lots since it will be a bit more gory and graphic +___+;;; Since Byron has this Oedipus complex about Mother Gaia who is technichally Athena, then there is a little sick and morbid mess there.
Either way, I did a render of Riptide for Ricky! So now there is a semipic of his chara. X__x I will draw a way better one later on. For the meantime this will have to do as the profile pic... At least the pic does give that concept that he is young:
What else? I don't think I did much besides watch TV and listen to soundtrack music. I need to do my schedule for summer and fall x_X what a pain. I really do not like school at all. I really need some money! I think I will recieve some soon so I can pay my brother and then maybe buy the last Betterman DVD. About bad news... well, I might be failing two of my classes! ;__; If my mother figures out I am going to be SOOOO dead... maybe I can like keep it a secret or something. I sure hope I do not get suspended... I need to go live on my own, or with someone, but not my mother.
Matt, Lina, and Kid :D! I sent you guys your magical info about the rpg. So know you guys know what specific powers you got. And... um... I think I am drowsing badly so I better stop blogging. Hopefully I can be online tomorrow around 5 - 7pm my time. Maybe I can chat with some of you guys. I sure miss having AOL, miss you all guys -hug- . I updated my Catch'em linkie so now you can actually see the pictures of the Bisshies I have caught. A friend got me into this... and sadly the Bishonen pagie was closed for the meantime so I am not able to catch any guys. That bites. Guess meanwhile I will go catch some more stuff and check around my neopets.
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I was able to scan after that waster person left e__e! He was not even using the scanner! xFF! But I got hold of it and so I put like 5 new arts in my pagie, some of them are from new characters. Nathan, you should go take a peek :D! I drew Seth! And he came out to look pretty cool! Hee. He does not look geeko or anything like that... just intellectual since in the manga he will be less jester and more philodox e__e not how you played it... But anyways. My manga sure changed the story lots since it will be a bit more gory and graphic +___+;;; Since Byron has this Oedipus complex about Mother Gaia who is technichally Athena, then there is a little sick and morbid mess there.
Either way, I did a render of Riptide for Ricky! So now there is a semipic of his chara. X__x I will draw a way better one later on. For the meantime this will have to do as the profile pic... At least the pic does give that concept that he is young:
[ Friday, April 11, 2003 -X- 08:27 a.m. ]
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Hidden Meaning: your heavy breathing besides me makes me remember all those times
Whoo! Everything was fine until my mother told me I could not go to Nathan's house today e_e that really sucks. But I will still go anyways. Does she really think I care what she says? Either way, I have some nifty pictures to scan and put them up in my website, and also, since I discovered how to make pretty layouts now I wanna change the layout in my pagie. I also drew and colored a sketch for Luna's pretty demon character :D! I will scan that one later. It has one representational wing and his hair is tied in a ponytail x__X Btw, if you do not want him to have long hair we could just say he cut it and tata!
Err... It is early in the morning so I cannot recall much of what happened yesterday. I did play Final Fantasy X and saw Lizzie Maguire xD The episode was pretty funny. They like beat the doodoo out of their dad thinking he is a thief. I think Lizzie's dad is so cute n__n! He has this nifty personality and he is... cute! xDD! Anyways, I saw more bubblegum crisis 2040 ; that was great! Sylia's brother, Mackey, is so cool!! :DDDDD! He has the same face as Sylia, so he has officially become my other favorite character. I think he might end up being a boomer or something... there seems to be something wierd about him.
I did a new layout for Ricky and I think it looks cool. 9_9 It has Ken in it and I think the picture looks nice... so hopefully he will fill insipired to blog now. I put a little of my part so people put a little of their own part. I will edit this later so I can post some stuff.
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There, I scanned the stuff so please stop by The Gaia so you can take a look for the new art and maybe even some art you missed from before. And I also scanned Luna's sketchy character :D!!
I actually make him have this ponytail v__v You see, having long silver hair has this specific divine reflection onto him. The owl wing is just a mirage... and yeah. Well... I like how he looks, don't make fun of me ;__; even if it is just a sketchy thing. So Luna, if you want him with short hair, once again, we can just say he cut it or something 9_9;; Hope you like the clothes too... he is actually wearing this robe since I imagine being a demon with charm will lead him to be sorta high class. That explains the little cape too.
I gave the picture a little Amanoish style of look e__e I kinda wanted it to look mysterious. Oh, and those colors around him is pretty much his 'aura' and power.
Err... It is early in the morning so I cannot recall much of what happened yesterday. I did play Final Fantasy X and saw Lizzie Maguire xD The episode was pretty funny. They like beat the doodoo out of their dad thinking he is a thief. I think Lizzie's dad is so cute n__n! He has this nifty personality and he is... cute! xDD! Anyways, I saw more bubblegum crisis 2040 ; that was great! Sylia's brother, Mackey, is so cool!! :DDDDD! He has the same face as Sylia, so he has officially become my other favorite character. I think he might end up being a boomer or something... there seems to be something wierd about him.
I did a new layout for Ricky and I think it looks cool. 9_9 It has Ken in it and I think the picture looks nice... so hopefully he will fill insipired to blog now. I put a little of my part so people put a little of their own part. I will edit this later so I can post some stuff.
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There, I scanned the stuff so please stop by The Gaia so you can take a look for the new art and maybe even some art you missed from before. And I also scanned Luna's sketchy character :D!!
I actually make him have this ponytail v__v You see, having long silver hair has this specific divine reflection onto him. The owl wing is just a mirage... and yeah. Well... I like how he looks, don't make fun of me ;__; even if it is just a sketchy thing. So Luna, if you want him with short hair, once again, we can just say he cut it or something 9_9;; Hope you like the clothes too... he is actually wearing this robe since I imagine being a demon with charm will lead him to be sorta high class. That explains the little cape too.
I gave the picture a little Amanoish style of look e__e I kinda wanted it to look mysterious. Oh, and those colors around him is pretty much his 'aura' and power.
[ Wednesday, April 9, 2003 -X- 05:44 p.m. ]
Hidden Meaning: Heaven is falling on top of me, while Hell enfulfs me
Well, I did this layout by myself... I am even surprised. I know it is still somewhat crappy and plain, but I had never tried this style myself... so it looks spiffy for me. Besides, I really like Sylia! She is the coolest since she reminds me of Athena n_n;; Anyways, I did not post much on the other layout, but it was up for quite a while and I have been watching BubbleGum Crisis 2040 so I just got inspired and randomly came up with that picture.
Enough about the happy layout stuff. Time to let it all go out v_V! -blasphemes for a while- Now, I shall try to put this into sentences that to not contain corrosive language. My mother! She is such a pain in the arse... I really, really hate her. At first I thought it was just like a thing about parent /child, but now I know that I really hate her. And she hates me back just as bad. She threatens me with the stuppidest things ever! If I was insane enough to go berserk I would probably grasp her neck and squeeze it so hard that it would snap, I would take her guts out and hang her intestines up in my wall! She drives me so freakin' nauseus and mad! But no. I am sane and I will never do that... why waste my time with my mother. I sure hope she just leaves me alone. She treats me as if she owned me rather... or she owns my feelings or something. She is selfish too. Maybe I can give her candy... ... ... with syonide... like Andy said. xD That was kinda funny when he said that, but anyways... I just needed to let my anger towards my mother out. I hope she gets eaten by hungry hyenas or something e_e
So I broke my promise of not crying today too... it is hard to keep that up after they keep nagging and nagging at your face. Bleh... I wish I could just not go home today. I wanna run away, this really sucks... I mean, this is childish, but I am just... afraid. I have no one to depend on, people just tell me support, but it is not true. If I leave my house, where in the world am I going to go, what to do? I am such a looser, I am gonna end up picking up trashbags [not that is a bad thing, but it is not what I was expecting for me]. -sigh- Oh, man. I sure hate this... -point- I hate you Mr. Life, you should like stop making people's space a martyr xF
I guess I could keep going on, but I really better stop. I might end up getting more horrid ideas in my little head. So let me explain what happened to half the other blogs links. People, today is not a good day, or probably for the rest of my lifetime will not be a good day, so please do not take it wrong. The people I unlinked was either because they would never blog or also could have been because they never talk to me at all. So it is a good explanation, right? Apart from it being my blog we talk about. So please do not get offended, I love you dearly my friends, but when you start blogging or let me get to know you can let me know. I am really picky about that... takes me some time to sorta trust, so bare with me since some of those people who I unlinked seemed to have my trust wobbling.
So it seems like today nothing really good happened x_x and that is okay... it has always been worst. And there is probably more to come. So I figured I live in the pits of Hell. I have food and housing, but... living with that ogre that suffers some sort of scheziophrenia and psychosis it is all the same. So yeah. I dunno if you all guys got to see the other pictures from the last post I did on the other layout? If you wanna you can go to the old entries so you can take a peek. I blogged a lot. Dawr ;__; Koibito did not come to say bye bye today, maybe it got late for him to come all the way to the computer lab. Oh well, I wonder if my mother is even gonna pick me up today after all that damnable argument? .__. I am so screwed when I get home.
Enough about the happy layout stuff. Time to let it all go out v_V! -blasphemes for a while- Now, I shall try to put this into sentences that to not contain corrosive language. My mother! She is such a pain in the arse... I really, really hate her. At first I thought it was just like a thing about parent /child, but now I know that I really hate her. And she hates me back just as bad. She threatens me with the stuppidest things ever! If I was insane enough to go berserk I would probably grasp her neck and squeeze it so hard that it would snap, I would take her guts out and hang her intestines up in my wall! She drives me so freakin' nauseus and mad! But no. I am sane and I will never do that... why waste my time with my mother. I sure hope she just leaves me alone. She treats me as if she owned me rather... or she owns my feelings or something. She is selfish too. Maybe I can give her candy... ... ... with syonide... like Andy said. xD That was kinda funny when he said that, but anyways... I just needed to let my anger towards my mother out. I hope she gets eaten by hungry hyenas or something e_e
So I broke my promise of not crying today too... it is hard to keep that up after they keep nagging and nagging at your face. Bleh... I wish I could just not go home today. I wanna run away, this really sucks... I mean, this is childish, but I am just... afraid. I have no one to depend on, people just tell me support, but it is not true. If I leave my house, where in the world am I going to go, what to do? I am such a looser, I am gonna end up picking up trashbags [not that is a bad thing, but it is not what I was expecting for me]. -sigh- Oh, man. I sure hate this... -point- I hate you Mr. Life, you should like stop making people's space a martyr xF
I guess I could keep going on, but I really better stop. I might end up getting more horrid ideas in my little head. So let me explain what happened to half the other blogs links. People, today is not a good day, or probably for the rest of my lifetime will not be a good day, so please do not take it wrong. The people I unlinked was either because they would never blog or also could have been because they never talk to me at all. So it is a good explanation, right? Apart from it being my blog we talk about. So please do not get offended, I love you dearly my friends, but when you start blogging or let me get to know you can let me know. I am really picky about that... takes me some time to sorta trust, so bare with me since some of those people who I unlinked seemed to have my trust wobbling.
So it seems like today nothing really good happened x_x and that is okay... it has always been worst. And there is probably more to come. So I figured I live in the pits of Hell. I have food and housing, but... living with that ogre that suffers some sort of scheziophrenia and psychosis it is all the same. So yeah. I dunno if you all guys got to see the other pictures from the last post I did on the other layout? If you wanna you can go to the old entries so you can take a peek. I blogged a lot. Dawr ;__; Koibito did not come to say bye bye today, maybe it got late for him to come all the way to the computer lab. Oh well, I wonder if my mother is even gonna pick me up today after all that damnable argument? .__. I am so screwed when I get home.
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Feature: Sylia Stingray
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