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[ Monday, September 13, 2004 @ 12:09 a.m. ]
I have chosen my way of survival.
I have chosen my way of survival.
My sister called me and told me that my dad was in McAllen ;-; but he never called me. By the time I found out where to locate him, he was not there anymore.
He seems to be in a lot of problems at the moment but apparently he does not want to worry me. -sigh- I think he left to SanAntonio today, but I could be wrong. I really wanted to see him ._.; and he had promised me he would visit me soon.
What else? =/ my mom's b-day is tomorrow and she is going to celebrate it in Mexico. At least she will have more fun over there.
AND! I watched Resident Evil: Apocalypse. Eric was kind enough to take me ^^; sadly enough I have to say that I liked the first movie better and I sure hope they do not make a 3rd one... The movie has real spiffy action scenes and the characters remain pretty cool, but there was several things here and there that just did not fit. It was all cool until they conbined like the 6 RE games into the last 25 minutes of the movie >8F and we all know that never works out for the best.
I still recommend it if you like RE ^^; Nemesis was so cool looking! And Jill was not much like the profile says on the RE game booklet, but she kicked ass even with like just 2 or 3 spoken lines throughout the whole movie! Hee.
The original plan was to go as a whole group to watch the movie, but some people had to work. Others just sorta... abandoned the plan. And apparently that became the perfect example of what I posted last time. Cynthia and Sergio were not willing to wait for me to get out of class, when I would have done it for them. So they left to watch the movie earlier... Am I the only stupid, er, I mean, nice person out there?! Yaata yatta, long story, short... it was an experience to never make plans again. I never do such plans of 'hanging out' and now I will most definetily stay away from them since they get brushed away anyways.
My art skills are kinda rusty not psycho bad, but just rusty. Anyways! I wanna scan so much stuff, but my scanner is not working still. Maybe I can ask someone from school to help me out =3 Jehuty feels like it's missing a lung or something... -comfort-
I need a new layout. If my will allows me... I might work on it tomorrow. At least construct it.
Oh! And I applied for Waldenbooks. I need to keep nagging at them so I can get a job there! I really need one for no special reason, but so I can have some money and less time e_e; Yay for retarded humanity and society. But it should not affect me, its not like I get out often anyways.
Well, goodnight!
He seems to be in a lot of problems at the moment but apparently he does not want to worry me. -sigh- I think he left to SanAntonio today, but I could be wrong. I really wanted to see him ._.; and he had promised me he would visit me soon.
What else? =/ my mom's b-day is tomorrow and she is going to celebrate it in Mexico. At least she will have more fun over there.
AND! I watched Resident Evil: Apocalypse. Eric was kind enough to take me ^^; sadly enough I have to say that I liked the first movie better and I sure hope they do not make a 3rd one... The movie has real spiffy action scenes and the characters remain pretty cool, but there was several things here and there that just did not fit. It was all cool until they conbined like the 6 RE games into the last 25 minutes of the movie >8F and we all know that never works out for the best.
I still recommend it if you like RE ^^; Nemesis was so cool looking! And Jill was not much like the profile says on the RE game booklet, but she kicked ass even with like just 2 or 3 spoken lines throughout the whole movie! Hee.
The original plan was to go as a whole group to watch the movie, but some people had to work. Others just sorta... abandoned the plan. And apparently that became the perfect example of what I posted last time. Cynthia and Sergio were not willing to wait for me to get out of class, when I would have done it for them. So they left to watch the movie earlier... Am I the only stupid, er, I mean, nice person out there?! Yaata yatta, long story, short... it was an experience to never make plans again. I never do such plans of 'hanging out' and now I will most definetily stay away from them since they get brushed away anyways.
My art skills are kinda rusty not psycho bad, but just rusty. Anyways! I wanna scan so much stuff, but my scanner is not working still. Maybe I can ask someone from school to help me out =3 Jehuty feels like it's missing a lung or something... -comfort-
I need a new layout. If my will allows me... I might work on it tomorrow. At least construct it.
Oh! And I applied for Waldenbooks. I need to keep nagging at them so I can get a job there! I really need one for no special reason, but so I can have some money and less time e_e; Yay for retarded humanity and society. But it should not affect me, its not like I get out often anyways.
Well, goodnight!
[ Thursday, September 9, 2004 @ 06:21 p.m. ]
Life is a whore house ran by several demented demons.
Life is a whore house ran by several demented demons.
First, let me start by saying: Lina! I have finished your letter, but I got no stamps due to lack of money and the envelope is not done yet ;-; I want it to look pretty! I shall send your letter asap. Sorry for such delay, gomen!
And now for the posting. Um. Well I am feeling alright, kinda. I am job hunting and I sure hope Waldenbooks calls me! ^^ it will be so cool to work there. The manager says he might have interviews either tomorrow or next week! =D!! I feel closer to getting a job.
Well, I also started to practice my driving so I can start heading off on my own. One step at a time, I suppose. =/ kinda hard to do all things at the same time when everything has been given to you in a silver platter...
And the bad news is that I think I am beginning a bit of depression again. Feeling like the world is out there to get me because it seems to me that I am being very submissive about many things to many people. I used to be so strong and now... the only thing I do is depend on other's happiness to be happy myself. Pleasing people seems the easy way out, but I started to realize that people are not kind enough to be thankful for it. No more.
I have had enough of so many persons. This time I am gonna be a bit more selfish because that is the way everyone seems to be! I mean. Hardly ever do I get anything back anyways, so I might as well not give details or gifts. Makes me kinda dissapointed and crushed, but it seems that being a nice person just does not cut it.
x_O; Being stepped on kinda sucks. It happens all too often to me. I mean, I do everything I can to make people happy, so why do I not get some of the same in return? Is it really that hard to be nice and think of people? Why does no one [RL] think of me back? Blargh! I cast a horrid curse upon you all minions of selfishness! e_e;
Let's see. What else? I am planning on going to watch Resident Evil: Apocalypse tomorrow! =D but knowing my shitty luck, it is more than likely that the job interview will land on me tomorrow also. So maybe I can watch it at night ^^! I am not planning on missing this movie! No more movie missing. rawr. Even if it means heading off solo. [cause I am still regreting not going to watch Scooby Doo 2 -cry-]
I need to stop depending on company.
Oh! I reserved the expansion pack for Final Fantasy XI and paid it all off. And that was then end of my money. Hee. But it was worth it all... my brother my take a while to get it for the Ps2 since its more expensive... Sadness.
So. that wraps up what I wanted to talk about for today. I am feeling good and all, but just needed to mention that... As for the solution to my problem, I believe is best that I do not give everything of myself so I do not feel the way I do ._.;
And now for the posting. Um. Well I am feeling alright, kinda. I am job hunting and I sure hope Waldenbooks calls me! ^^ it will be so cool to work there. The manager says he might have interviews either tomorrow or next week! =D!! I feel closer to getting a job.
Well, I also started to practice my driving so I can start heading off on my own. One step at a time, I suppose. =/ kinda hard to do all things at the same time when everything has been given to you in a silver platter...
And the bad news is that I think I am beginning a bit of depression again. Feeling like the world is out there to get me because it seems to me that I am being very submissive about many things to many people. I used to be so strong and now... the only thing I do is depend on other's happiness to be happy myself. Pleasing people seems the easy way out, but I started to realize that people are not kind enough to be thankful for it. No more.
I have had enough of so many persons. This time I am gonna be a bit more selfish because that is the way everyone seems to be! I mean. Hardly ever do I get anything back anyways, so I might as well not give details or gifts. Makes me kinda dissapointed and crushed, but it seems that being a nice person just does not cut it.
x_O; Being stepped on kinda sucks. It happens all too often to me. I mean, I do everything I can to make people happy, so why do I not get some of the same in return? Is it really that hard to be nice and think of people? Why does no one [RL] think of me back? Blargh! I cast a horrid curse upon you all minions of selfishness! e_e;
Let's see. What else? I am planning on going to watch Resident Evil: Apocalypse tomorrow! =D but knowing my shitty luck, it is more than likely that the job interview will land on me tomorrow also. So maybe I can watch it at night ^^! I am not planning on missing this movie! No more movie missing. rawr. Even if it means heading off solo. [cause I am still regreting not going to watch Scooby Doo 2 -cry-]
I need to stop depending on company.
Oh! I reserved the expansion pack for Final Fantasy XI and paid it all off. And that was then end of my money. Hee. But it was worth it all... my brother my take a while to get it for the Ps2 since its more expensive... Sadness.
So. that wraps up what I wanted to talk about for today. I am feeling good and all, but just needed to mention that... As for the solution to my problem, I believe is best that I do not give everything of myself so I do not feel the way I do ._.;
[ Friday, September 3, 2004 @ 10:12 p.m. ]
I am loosing myself. I am loosing my soul.
I am loosing myself. I am loosing my soul.
First off.
Happy Birthday, Eric! ^^;
I really hope today was a good day for you and that you enjoyed it. I had a good time hanging out with all the gang and my silly bear.
But. I have this thing in my mind nagging at my head... it has nothing to do with the past situation, just... with myself =/
I have been feeling real nice and happy lately, don't get me wrong. Except I have been feeling like I am not enough of a person to satisfy people. I mean, no one really tells me anything, but when I see myself in the mirror, I just see this 'secure' poser person who is not very attractive nor sympathetic. Sometimes I feel like maybe people would like me to be someone else... or I feel like annoy. I have no idea why I get this ideal, but I just do.
Maybe it's just a thing I am feeling today. It might just dissipate in sometime. Lets hope for that. =3
Hrm. Well, about my day? School is going pretty good. Me and Eric went to Serge's house for a while and then to eat pizza and cake at Eric's house! ^^; It was yummy. His mom was surprised to see me for some odd reason, but it felt nice to be welcomed somewhere.
I was invited to go to Kingsville with them ;_; but sadly my mother was not going to allow me to go. I am also 'sick' so that was not gonna help with going to the beach at Corpus. Maybe another time. I might have felt strange so far away from home with technically strangers... It might have been a lot of fun tho.
Well. off I go =D!
I really hope today was a good day for you and that you enjoyed it. I had a good time hanging out with all the gang and my silly bear.
But. I have this thing in my mind nagging at my head... it has nothing to do with the past situation, just... with myself =/
I have been feeling real nice and happy lately, don't get me wrong. Except I have been feeling like I am not enough of a person to satisfy people. I mean, no one really tells me anything, but when I see myself in the mirror, I just see this 'secure' poser person who is not very attractive nor sympathetic. Sometimes I feel like maybe people would like me to be someone else... or I feel like annoy. I have no idea why I get this ideal, but I just do.
Maybe it's just a thing I am feeling today. It might just dissipate in sometime. Lets hope for that. =3
Hrm. Well, about my day? School is going pretty good. Me and Eric went to Serge's house for a while and then to eat pizza and cake at Eric's house! ^^; It was yummy. His mom was surprised to see me for some odd reason, but it felt nice to be welcomed somewhere.
I was invited to go to Kingsville with them ;_; but sadly my mother was not going to allow me to go. I am also 'sick' so that was not gonna help with going to the beach at Corpus. Maybe another time. I might have felt strange so far away from home with technically strangers... It might have been a lot of fun tho.
Well. off I go =D!
[ Wednesday, September 1, 2004 @ 07:21 a.m. ]
I was confused. Is it over yet?
I was confused. Is it over yet?
Yeah. Yesterday I discovered how unprepared I was to confront Eric because love is a tricky thing. Apparently I am not as strong as everyone thought I was... I just can hold it in longer.
I broke down again, but I did not showed Eric this. Bob though, saw me and gave me company walking around school. He gave me some advice as well... Eric is his best friend and so I guess it helped.
It did. I confronted Eric and he said he was sorry. I am not sure if I completely forgave him, but... we are back. I am sure that at some point in time he will make up that grave mistake of his. Or. We can start over as new people to never be reminded of that heinous act again. I mean, no offense, but men can do the stupidest things sometimes...
So we are together again x_O; such undesicions. But I feel happy and my heart does too. Eric does not look like a walking shambling corpse anymore. So I think the right choise was to stay together.
And... I am writing Lina's letter! ^^ I shall get it done soon enough.
I broke down again, but I did not showed Eric this. Bob though, saw me and gave me company walking around school. He gave me some advice as well... Eric is his best friend and so I guess it helped.
It did. I confronted Eric and he said he was sorry. I am not sure if I completely forgave him, but... we are back. I am sure that at some point in time he will make up that grave mistake of his. Or. We can start over as new people to never be reminded of that heinous act again. I mean, no offense, but men can do the stupidest things sometimes...
So we are together again x_O; such undesicions. But I feel happy and my heart does too. Eric does not look like a walking shambling corpse anymore. So I think the right choise was to stay together.
And... I am writing Lina's letter! ^^ I shall get it done soon enough.
[ Monday, August 30, 2004 @ 03:09 p.m. ]
Chosing to eat is wanting to live, and I am not hungry anymore.
Chosing to eat is wanting to live, and I am not hungry anymore.
I want to die. Well. no. More like I want to shut down, or stop my life. I do not want to move forward anymore. Today, my curse came to me and did a good job at haunting me.
Eric and me split I believe. I can tell because I feel empty, devastated, and amazingly ... hurt. It is not his fault, at least not in my book. Eric had his reasons and I guess seeing him happy makes me happy. But why do I still feel so trampled and with the need to shed tears as soon as possible?
I am perplexed and confused. I have no idea what happened. I really will not go into detail because the important part is that I am alone. And what hurts my heart is that I am still foundly in love. I want to be with Eric. To hug him and kiss him, but it is still unbelievable that I will not be able to do that anymore.
I have cried today. Not enough tho. I did do it with Eric, but I did not mean it. I do not want him to feel guilt. Because even tho he was the one who wanted to split... I do not believe it was faulty. Maybe I was just not the right person.
I am still in love, but I wish this horrid feeling leaves me soon because it makes me hurt and feel anxious. I want to cry right now, but I do not want them to worry. They want to see me smile.
Smiling helps, but I cannot keep it up for too long. I am going to explode. And there is no one I can go to because I am truly alone now. Cynthia was nice, but I was fighting very hard not to break out in front of her. I almost yelled in need. Well. I suppose things must happen for a reason. I do not like life. It played a horrid charade on me today.
How sad, that this update is a bad news. But I had to let it out. Sorry.
I just wish things were more simple... I want Eric back. And I would plead, but I know that it is best to let him go if he so desires. If he is happy then I will be happy in time. But I just can help the way I feel, so I am sorry about that.
---EDIT---
Some 45 minutes later. After a talk with my mother...
I realized a lot of things. I am quickly getting over this thing. I am still not mad about it, but a little disillutioned. Still in love, but! Love does suck! xD muaha!
I am better than this. And my dignity will not be taken to shame ^^; I can survive. I assure you, decisions made from now on will be with the brain and then let the heart sink in. Maybe I am better of this way. Why? Because I am a special and unique human being who has morals and values.
And no. I am not gonna plead. Enough of that. I will stop my crying and hope.
I can do better! >D
Eric and me split I believe. I can tell because I feel empty, devastated, and amazingly ... hurt. It is not his fault, at least not in my book. Eric had his reasons and I guess seeing him happy makes me happy. But why do I still feel so trampled and with the need to shed tears as soon as possible?
I am perplexed and confused. I have no idea what happened. I really will not go into detail because the important part is that I am alone. And what hurts my heart is that I am still foundly in love. I want to be with Eric. To hug him and kiss him, but it is still unbelievable that I will not be able to do that anymore.
I have cried today. Not enough tho. I did do it with Eric, but I did not mean it. I do not want him to feel guilt. Because even tho he was the one who wanted to split... I do not believe it was faulty. Maybe I was just not the right person.
I am still in love, but I wish this horrid feeling leaves me soon because it makes me hurt and feel anxious. I want to cry right now, but I do not want them to worry. They want to see me smile.
Smiling helps, but I cannot keep it up for too long. I am going to explode. And there is no one I can go to because I am truly alone now. Cynthia was nice, but I was fighting very hard not to break out in front of her. I almost yelled in need. Well. I suppose things must happen for a reason. I do not like life. It played a horrid charade on me today.
How sad, that this update is a bad news. But I had to let it out. Sorry.
I just wish things were more simple... I want Eric back. And I would plead, but I know that it is best to let him go if he so desires. If he is happy then I will be happy in time. But I just can help the way I feel, so I am sorry about that.
Some 45 minutes later. After a talk with my mother...
I realized a lot of things. I am quickly getting over this thing. I am still not mad about it, but a little disillutioned. Still in love, but! Love does suck! xD muaha!
I am better than this. And my dignity will not be taken to shame ^^; I can survive. I assure you, decisions made from now on will be with the brain and then let the heart sink in. Maybe I am better of this way. Why? Because I am a special and unique human being who has morals and values.
And no. I am not gonna plead. Enough of that. I will stop my crying and hope.
I can do better! >D
[ Monday, August 23, 2004 @ 02:57 p.m. ]
Life is but a fantasy that we have created for our minds.
Life is but a fantasy that we have created for our minds.
Okay, it has been a while indeed ^^; but it is all good. I have spent a whole lot of time on Final Fantasy XI, but once school starts that will stop =/ gonna miss it. Oh well. At least so far I got my Red Mage to lvl42 and got to Rank5. I achieved a lot of things considering I did not seriously started playing until 2 months ago.
I got Lina's letter! And I am gonna reply real soon ^^; I am so happy we get to be penpals again. I need to fix the link for Lina's blog too =3
Hrm. I need a new layout, but I have not felt to inspired to get it done. Guess I will do it later. I have drawn some new things, but hardly colored any =/ I wanna buy those pretty markers set, but it's 0 so I need to save up money after I get my hair cut. Yeah, I might get my hair chopped sometime this week! I really need one ;_; and I hope this time they do not mess up. I kinda want it spiky so I can wear some hair glue ^^; We'll see how that goes. Hee.
=D! I cannot wait for school to start. I am not fond of studying, but it has been enough summer for me. Bleh. I need to become more active too e_e; I was gonna take Badminton next semester, but it all went down when some of my classes were dropped and taken. Made kittens cry.
Apparently Andy wants to come to McAllen for a week or something! That would be great! I really miss him a lot, he is one of my very best friends =3 kinda like a brother. So maybe he can stay over.
I think that is all I have to talk about. It would be nice if we could start another online rpg again! Ciao.
I got Lina's letter! And I am gonna reply real soon ^^; I am so happy we get to be penpals again. I need to fix the link for Lina's blog too =3
Hrm. I need a new layout, but I have not felt to inspired to get it done. Guess I will do it later. I have drawn some new things, but hardly colored any =/ I wanna buy those pretty markers set, but it's 0 so I need to save up money after I get my hair cut. Yeah, I might get my hair chopped sometime this week! I really need one ;_; and I hope this time they do not mess up. I kinda want it spiky so I can wear some hair glue ^^; We'll see how that goes. Hee.
=D! I cannot wait for school to start. I am not fond of studying, but it has been enough summer for me. Bleh. I need to become more active too e_e; I was gonna take Badminton next semester, but it all went down when some of my classes were dropped and taken. Made kittens cry.
Apparently Andy wants to come to McAllen for a week or something! That would be great! I really miss him a lot, he is one of my very best friends =3 kinda like a brother. So maybe he can stay over.
I think that is all I have to talk about. It would be nice if we could start another online rpg again! Ciao.
[ Thursday, July 29, 2004 @ 06:47 p.m. ]
The time seems to keep moving, but it is always in the same position.
The time seems to keep moving, but it is always in the same position.
It sure has been a while since I posted something xD; well. I had done nothing much other than play FFXI. At any rate. My go-gaia account got frozen because apparently someone was trying to get into it ._. and now go-gaia is not responding to my emails so they send me a password! Blah. that bites.
I watched Catwoman last Friday and that movie was so fun! ^^ All the jumping and cat deal going on was great. Yet I am confused why her name was Patience and not Seline... Omitting whatever her story in her own comics is, the movie was worth watching =3!!!
I started reading the XxXHolic manga and it is so adorable and funny. I really like it. I hope it is not too long. It is very interesting since it crosses over every other Clamp series and that makes me kinda glad I have read almost all of their works. hee. Also, I finished reading Suki. That was so cute and realistic. Since it is one of Clamp's first works it is different from what they do lately.
Eric was feeling a bit sad yesterday ;-; but today he seemed a lot better! He came by some moments ago to bring me this comic he bought for me! o_o! He gave me this real pretty Devil May Cry comic and I very much appreciate it. It was very unexpected. I am very happy to see that he is a lot better today ^^ made me kinda sad when I saw him a little distant, but he is much better now. So that makes me happy today as well.
Okay. So what has been keeping me away? Final Fantasy XI. yes. I have accomplished so much and suddenly got addicted. I found very many ways to get money and to level up. I discovered that Phalanx is the most expensive spell ever and also that Red Mages are the only ones can solo almost anything at level 75. So I feel very happy indeed.
Well. I need to reinstall windows and do random stuff so. yeah. bai bai.
I watched Catwoman last Friday and that movie was so fun! ^^ All the jumping and cat deal going on was great. Yet I am confused why her name was Patience and not Seline... Omitting whatever her story in her own comics is, the movie was worth watching =3!!!
I started reading the XxXHolic manga and it is so adorable and funny. I really like it. I hope it is not too long. It is very interesting since it crosses over every other Clamp series and that makes me kinda glad I have read almost all of their works. hee. Also, I finished reading Suki. That was so cute and realistic. Since it is one of Clamp's first works it is different from what they do lately.
Eric was feeling a bit sad yesterday ;-; but today he seemed a lot better! He came by some moments ago to bring me this comic he bought for me! o_o! He gave me this real pretty Devil May Cry comic and I very much appreciate it. It was very unexpected. I am very happy to see that he is a lot better today ^^ made me kinda sad when I saw him a little distant, but he is much better now. So that makes me happy today as well.
Okay. So what has been keeping me away? Final Fantasy XI. yes. I have accomplished so much and suddenly got addicted. I found very many ways to get money and to level up. I discovered that Phalanx is the most expensive spell ever and also that Red Mages are the only ones can solo almost anything at level 75. So I feel very happy indeed.
Well. I need to reinstall windows and do random stuff so. yeah. bai bai.
[ Monday, July 5, 2004 @ 01:17 a.m. ]
My computer is in a coma, feels like a lost a close relative...
My computer is in a coma, feels like a lost a close relative...
The Week. Well. Everything was just fine until Thursday >.<; I was playing FFXI and suddenly my computer logged me out and restarded. It would not show the log in screen to windows and to my dissapointment... a virus had corrupted the D drive somehow. So... I lost absolutely all the files and programs I had installed and downloaded on it. Makes me angry and very sad. It is like my baby just went kaploot! Such event makes kittens cry.
Now I got my computer back, but since the IP Address was changed to re-install windows back... I cannot use my broadband connection until I get a new IP address setup or... my old one back. Which is kinda lost. Um. So I re-installed FFXI, but since for the meantime I am using dial-up the files are taking their time to update my version.
Tiff bought me a world pass for FFXI so I can play with Lina and him xD!!! I am so happy! I made a Galka character because they are so cute with their stubby tails ^^; hee. My Galka character is huge tho. Lol. I will play with you guys as soon as my broadband connection gets fixed! =3 so bare with me. At least my files and stats where not corrupted, lucky me and all the info of my PlayOnline account was still there. Me and my brother are putting our money together to buy the FFXI for the Ps2 and that way we never have to worry about the comp crashing on us again and we can also play together. Wee!
Nathan is gonna sell me his Ps2 modem for =D; so that is one less thing. Tomorrow maybe I can go to the mall to buy a switch, some cables, and the GS keyboard. FFXI has to wait for next month tho.
My parents left us alone for the past week since they left to Las Vegas and that was fun! It was nice not to hear their nagging, but I did miss getting out of the house some... considering my computer crashed, I really felt like doing nothing else due to my sadness for Jehuty's [my comp] coma ._.; now it is back. A little unfixed, but back nonetheless.
Well, gotta call RoadRunner tomorrow and see what they can do about my IP Adress. -sigh-
Tomorrow. Maybe tomorrow I also get to go out with Eric =D! We are probably gonna watch Spiderman 2 since he is all excited about it. I am okay for it so it is just fine, truly, I am not a huge fan of Spiderman... he is my lease favorite Marvel hero, but I do not hate him. Anyways. After the movie we could go to the mall or something, maybe come home to get in the pool =3;
My B-Day. Yeah I had fun. Um. In fact, it was real nice to have some friends over and chat, play video games, and some cards. Last B-day was a little bit lonely. My mom was not home for most of the day so that also made it wonderful xD; I got some presents too! I was sorta not expecting any, but it was a nice thought. Eric got me .hack// Outbreak and Darkstalkers 3!!! That was nice of him :3 he really surprised me since I thought he was broke. Nice trick. My mom had given me to buy my Gameboy SP some days ago so that works too. I liked this b-day. I really enjoyed it a whole bunch. And thanks for the hurrays for me guys =D!!
My dad actually came to visit me the day before my B-day! I was rather happy for that. Even so much that every now and then I felt like crying somewhat of how happy I was for him alone to remember my birthday. That tends to be rare. He gave me some presents too. The Slayers DVD box set. Yeep! I have been wanting that for a while now. And Ivone [his girlfriend] gave me a medium Scooby Doo plush!! =D that is great! Adds to my collection of Scoobylicious things.
Eric's mom and aunt also got me something! o_O; that was sorta scary and real suprising altogether... His mom got me some purse set and it is all pretty-like. hee. His aunt gave me a bracelet that she made, I believe =3 that one is real nice too. It was a good gift getting day. Ha! Oh. And I bought myself a present too! Found the movie Addicted to Love and could not help myself xD; It has become one of my favorites.
P.S. I am not gonna be rping for just a couple of days guys until I fix my internet server IP Addy, alright? So just bare a little with me .___. I miss all this online life too. It should not take long anyways. Can someone go to my go-gaia store and post that I am away due to technical difficulties for some time? I would appreciate it guys ^^ thanks!
Now I got my computer back, but since the IP Address was changed to re-install windows back... I cannot use my broadband connection until I get a new IP address setup or... my old one back. Which is kinda lost. Um. So I re-installed FFXI, but since for the meantime I am using dial-up the files are taking their time to update my version.
Tiff bought me a world pass for FFXI so I can play with Lina and him xD!!! I am so happy! I made a Galka character because they are so cute with their stubby tails ^^; hee. My Galka character is huge tho. Lol. I will play with you guys as soon as my broadband connection gets fixed! =3 so bare with me. At least my files and stats where not corrupted, lucky me and all the info of my PlayOnline account was still there. Me and my brother are putting our money together to buy the FFXI for the Ps2 and that way we never have to worry about the comp crashing on us again and we can also play together. Wee!
Nathan is gonna sell me his Ps2 modem for =D; so that is one less thing. Tomorrow maybe I can go to the mall to buy a switch, some cables, and the GS keyboard. FFXI has to wait for next month tho.
My parents left us alone for the past week since they left to Las Vegas and that was fun! It was nice not to hear their nagging, but I did miss getting out of the house some... considering my computer crashed, I really felt like doing nothing else due to my sadness for Jehuty's [my comp] coma ._.; now it is back. A little unfixed, but back nonetheless.
Well, gotta call RoadRunner tomorrow and see what they can do about my IP Adress. -sigh-
Tomorrow. Maybe tomorrow I also get to go out with Eric =D! We are probably gonna watch Spiderman 2 since he is all excited about it. I am okay for it so it is just fine, truly, I am not a huge fan of Spiderman... he is my lease favorite Marvel hero, but I do not hate him. Anyways. After the movie we could go to the mall or something, maybe come home to get in the pool =3;
My B-Day. Yeah I had fun. Um. In fact, it was real nice to have some friends over and chat, play video games, and some cards. Last B-day was a little bit lonely. My mom was not home for most of the day so that also made it wonderful xD; I got some presents too! I was sorta not expecting any, but it was a nice thought. Eric got me .hack// Outbreak and Darkstalkers 3!!! That was nice of him :3 he really surprised me since I thought he was broke. Nice trick. My mom had given me to buy my Gameboy SP some days ago so that works too. I liked this b-day. I really enjoyed it a whole bunch. And thanks for the hurrays for me guys =D!!
My dad actually came to visit me the day before my B-day! I was rather happy for that. Even so much that every now and then I felt like crying somewhat of how happy I was for him alone to remember my birthday. That tends to be rare. He gave me some presents too. The Slayers DVD box set. Yeep! I have been wanting that for a while now. And Ivone [his girlfriend] gave me a medium Scooby Doo plush!! =D that is great! Adds to my collection of Scoobylicious things.
Eric's mom and aunt also got me something! o_O; that was sorta scary and real suprising altogether... His mom got me some purse set and it is all pretty-like. hee. His aunt gave me a bracelet that she made, I believe =3 that one is real nice too. It was a good gift getting day. Ha! Oh. And I bought myself a present too! Found the movie Addicted to Love and could not help myself xD; It has become one of my favorites.
P.S. I am not gonna be rping for just a couple of days guys until I fix my internet server IP Addy, alright? So just bare a little with me .___. I miss all this online life too. It should not take long anyways. Can someone go to my go-gaia store and post that I am away due to technical difficulties for some time? I would appreciate it guys ^^ thanks!
[ Wednesday, June 23, 2004 @ 09:44 p.m. ]
I found a friend on the sink.
I found a friend on the sink.
I did a good deed today n_n; There was this baby spider in the shower since yesterday and I did not move it because I figured it would find a way on its own. Well, I guess it was scared and today it was still there trying to climb around away from the water. So I sorta gave it a home in a random thing I found. Hee! I am happy and I will name it Ananasi. I placed its 'home' in my room so it can go out anytime it feels safe to do so, I hope my mom does not come to kill it like she accidentally did with Charlotte >.>;
Um. Yeah. It has been a while since I adopted a spider in my roon and now I want a fuzzy and big one as a true pet. I am gonna save money for maybe a red tarantula 9_9; and somehow hide it from my mother because I know she will freak out. She does not hate or fear spiders, but she is prejudist against them since she sees how ugly they are... -sigh- They are clever animals, dammit. And artistic too!
For now, Ananasi is welcomed to my room =3! It can eat the mosquitos that fly inside every now and then.
Well, that is about all of my day xD; lol. Time for more Final Fantasy XI! Since I have finally achieved to buy scrolls and level up.
As for yesterday tho. I had my share of fun and anger. Eric came over and everything was nice, but I had that feeling in my gut about my mother... and sadly I was right. She was being a real dick all day! I really hate that about her, she can never just not bitch about something. It is part of her routine! And it makes me mad. In a way she was being rude to Eric behind his back and that angered me so much. She tells me all this things and drowns me in a tub of insults that just makes me explode. And people wonder why I wish she just shut up? Gotta live in my shoes to understand. It could be worst... but it could be better too...
But best for last. I did have fun yesterday as I ignored my mother's requests. I will probably not invite Eric over for his own good, if we hang out it shall be away from my place... I do not want my mother to someday treat him bad because I will seriously snap back! Just one more time in my birthday party and I will try to evade my house the most.
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I drew this sketches of Giza Meji, my new mage character:
Giza Meji ; Her back ; Her right eye
Um. Yeah. It has been a while since I adopted a spider in my roon and now I want a fuzzy and big one as a true pet. I am gonna save money for maybe a red tarantula 9_9; and somehow hide it from my mother because I know she will freak out. She does not hate or fear spiders, but she is prejudist against them since she sees how ugly they are... -sigh- They are clever animals, dammit. And artistic too!
For now, Ananasi is welcomed to my room =3! It can eat the mosquitos that fly inside every now and then.
Well, that is about all of my day xD; lol. Time for more Final Fantasy XI! Since I have finally achieved to buy scrolls and level up.
As for yesterday tho. I had my share of fun and anger. Eric came over and everything was nice, but I had that feeling in my gut about my mother... and sadly I was right. She was being a real dick all day! I really hate that about her, she can never just not bitch about something. It is part of her routine! And it makes me mad. In a way she was being rude to Eric behind his back and that angered me so much. She tells me all this things and drowns me in a tub of insults that just makes me explode. And people wonder why I wish she just shut up? Gotta live in my shoes to understand. It could be worst... but it could be better too...
But best for last. I did have fun yesterday as I ignored my mother's requests. I will probably not invite Eric over for his own good, if we hang out it shall be away from my place... I do not want my mother to someday treat him bad because I will seriously snap back! Just one more time in my birthday party and I will try to evade my house the most.
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I drew this sketches of Giza Meji, my new mage character:
Giza Meji ; Her back ; Her right eye
[ Monday, June 21, 2004 @ 09:15 p.m. ]
The truth about life lies within one's heart.
The truth about life lies within one's heart.
Yahoo! I finally got some pictures to post! Yay! And here they are.
+ Cosplayers
+ Cosplayers 1
+ Cosplayers 2
+ Cosplayers 3
+ Cosplayers 4
+ Cosplayers 5
Akon was of course wonderful! What better way to show evidence than to take pictures of as many pretty cosplayers as possible! x9!! They looked adorable, especially the children dressed as Naruto peoples. I tried to infiltrate in as many pics as possible. Hee. There was an amazing amount of Rikku's... made me wanna vomit of the fact that there was a Rikku for every dressphere x_O;!
+ Infiltrators
[Me = holding plushie, Carl = White Guy, Blue = wearing... blue, Gus = 'hobo looking', Maggie = wearing Kyo beanie, Lucian = long hair, Serge = dark glasses, Cynthia = way back, Alonso = besides blue, but not hobo, Becky = closest to the camera]
Hope the coding works xD; and that would be the gang of doom! xD; it is amazing how in the whole Akon we were actually a minority on being hispanic or desendents of one... Where I live we are a great majority. It has a different feel to it, but as you can see we all had fun... except for Carl... because he was working at Akon and God does not love him =P Lol.
+ Bear and Entei
A picture of Eric and Me! xD; My mom took it at school one day. Dun even remember when, but that is just me because I am absent minded... like hardcore. Anyways, I need a haircut, but this time I won't try new styles... dun want the same thing the happened last time to curse me again! Rawr. Well, we came out cute. So Tada!
And that is all. Besides the picking up of the pictures, I deposited money on my account today so I can pay the car.
+ Cosplayers
+ Cosplayers 1
+ Cosplayers 2
+ Cosplayers 3
+ Cosplayers 4
+ Cosplayers 5
Akon was of course wonderful! What better way to show evidence than to take pictures of as many pretty cosplayers as possible! x9!! They looked adorable, especially the children dressed as Naruto peoples. I tried to infiltrate in as many pics as possible. Hee. There was an amazing amount of Rikku's... made me wanna vomit of the fact that there was a Rikku for every dressphere x_O;!
+ Infiltrators
[Me = holding plushie, Carl = White Guy, Blue = wearing... blue, Gus = 'hobo looking', Maggie = wearing Kyo beanie, Lucian = long hair, Serge = dark glasses, Cynthia = way back, Alonso = besides blue, but not hobo, Becky = closest to the camera]
Hope the coding works xD; and that would be the gang of doom! xD; it is amazing how in the whole Akon we were actually a minority on being hispanic or desendents of one... Where I live we are a great majority. It has a different feel to it, but as you can see we all had fun... except for Carl... because he was working at Akon and God does not love him =P Lol.
+ Bear and Entei
A picture of Eric and Me! xD; My mom took it at school one day. Dun even remember when, but that is just me because I am absent minded... like hardcore. Anyways, I need a haircut, but this time I won't try new styles... dun want the same thing the happened last time to curse me again! Rawr. Well, we came out cute. So Tada!
And that is all. Besides the picking up of the pictures, I deposited money on my account today so I can pay the car.
[ Monday, June 21, 2004 @ 03:54 a.m. ]
I have come back... with candy!
I have come back... with candy!
I went to Mexico this weekend. It was indeed dreadful, but I did have my share of fun. I went because I believe yesterday was Father's Day and... I spent it with my dad. He liked the gifts I gave him and that is always good. I got to talk to his girlfriend a bit more and I came to the realization that she is really not a bad person ._.; she is senselessly young for him, but... she is a very clever and nice woman nonetheless. I am starting to open a bit more to her though sometimes is hard n_x; dunno what to talk about when she is around...
At any rate, it was good. I went to the mall and bought a HUGE book of Mafalda comic strips!! It has all of them n_n; I know my sister will get a heart attack if she sees it since it is her favorite thing in the world. I will give it to her when i finish reading it =D; I been wanted to buy it for her for a while now.
Lets see, what else. They opened an R&B's in my hometown! That was a good highlight and kept me entretained! I won over 700 tickets in less than 1 hour! lol! I was having a blast... that is what the place I live in needs... arcades... big ones... like R&B's style. I did not trade any of the tickets tho, I wanted a scooby-doo plushie ._.; but they had none. The guy said that maybe later they should get some. They better. Or they will get mauled by hyenas. muaha... ha.
I shall go to sleep now n_n; so I can wake up in the morning and call Eric to see if he will be able to come over so we can jump in the pool. Yay. I also need to check on the Auction House in Final Fantasy XI early tomorrow... before my mother wakes up because she might just be bitchy about the game.
Well, good night =D!
At any rate, it was good. I went to the mall and bought a HUGE book of Mafalda comic strips!! It has all of them n_n; I know my sister will get a heart attack if she sees it since it is her favorite thing in the world. I will give it to her when i finish reading it =D; I been wanted to buy it for her for a while now.
Lets see, what else. They opened an R&B's in my hometown! That was a good highlight and kept me entretained! I won over 700 tickets in less than 1 hour! lol! I was having a blast... that is what the place I live in needs... arcades... big ones... like R&B's style. I did not trade any of the tickets tho, I wanted a scooby-doo plushie ._.; but they had none. The guy said that maybe later they should get some. They better. Or they will get mauled by hyenas. muaha... ha.
I shall go to sleep now n_n; so I can wake up in the morning and call Eric to see if he will be able to come over so we can jump in the pool. Yay. I also need to check on the Auction House in Final Fantasy XI early tomorrow... before my mother wakes up because she might just be bitchy about the game.
Well, good night =D!
[ Tuesday, June 15, 2004 @ 12:24 a.m. ]
A whole new place to be in called Life
A whole new place to be in called Life
Yay! New Dante Layout =D Because he is sexy and badass. And... I proclaim him as mine! Muaha. So yeah.
Um. I spent pretty much all day with Eric! We went to Panam to fill out the FAFSA form and hang out with some buddies. Then we came over to my place and jumped in the pool along with my brother's company xD; we sure had some fun! The beach balls we had flew to the neighbor's backyard several times... it was... indeed a funny experience.
And we ate some chocolate cake =9! Whoot.
I also played some Xenosaga last night and I have been having more fun leveling up than watching the cinematics. Gawd, that game has an overload of cinematics it makes me want to vomit x_O; But I play for KOS-MOS... because she is just so kickass.
I also read some more of my Magic The Gathering book: Legions. It actually grew more interesting! Soon I will finish that one so I can start on volume 3. Yay. I also need to finish reading my X-treme X-men vol.6 comic books x_x; so much things to catch up on! [like FFXI...] Yeah, and I want to start reading The Divine Comedy because the character names from Devil May Cry and the whole 'hellish and demons' things were portrayed from that old book. =D!! So what better thing to know more about DMC, than to read the inspiration of it.
Yesterday I got to watch the movie Addicted to Love and I adore it!! =3 I really liked that movie so much so I am going to buy it as soon as I get some money. Mathew Broderick is the coolest and cutest [not as in... pretty... but I mean... as in like... cuddly???] xD!! Of course Meg Ryan also made the movie that much better. I will probably order it online because that movie is nowhere to be found thus far!!! Rawr. It is only 7 years old... ... ...
Well, time to see if go-gaia is workin' now, since it was acting up a for a little earlier.
Um. I spent pretty much all day with Eric! We went to Panam to fill out the FAFSA form and hang out with some buddies. Then we came over to my place and jumped in the pool along with my brother's company xD; we sure had some fun! The beach balls we had flew to the neighbor's backyard several times... it was... indeed a funny experience.
And we ate some chocolate cake =9! Whoot.
I also played some Xenosaga last night and I have been having more fun leveling up than watching the cinematics. Gawd, that game has an overload of cinematics it makes me want to vomit x_O; But I play for KOS-MOS... because she is just so kickass.
I also read some more of my Magic The Gathering book: Legions. It actually grew more interesting! Soon I will finish that one so I can start on volume 3. Yay. I also need to finish reading my X-treme X-men vol.6 comic books x_x; so much things to catch up on! [like FFXI...] Yeah, and I want to start reading The Divine Comedy because the character names from Devil May Cry and the whole 'hellish and demons' things were portrayed from that old book. =D!! So what better thing to know more about DMC, than to read the inspiration of it.
Yesterday I got to watch the movie Addicted to Love and I adore it!! =3 I really liked that movie so much so I am going to buy it as soon as I get some money. Mathew Broderick is the coolest and cutest [not as in... pretty... but I mean... as in like... cuddly???] xD!! Of course Meg Ryan also made the movie that much better. I will probably order it online because that movie is nowhere to be found thus far!!! Rawr. It is only 7 years old... ... ...
Well, time to see if go-gaia is workin' now, since it was acting up a for a little earlier.