Yay! :D That is a picture of Anabel-san and Xacha-san o.O; It took me a while, but at least I am getting better at photoshop ._.; it takes freakin' patience and I don't have a lot of that shit. Anwyays, since it had been a long time since I drew some Differences characters x.o; i decided to practice with those two. Hope ya like it!

Today was a pretty calm day at school n.n; we did nothing, just in Govt. and BCIS, but it wasn't much. I am almost done with left behind just a couple of pages. WEeEeeeE! It is really good o.O; I must admit that as far as description goes it is not good at that, but... with such a storyline who the hell needs description! xD I mean, doesn't take a genius how to use imagination. Anyways, now I must buy Tribulation Force xF but I have no money and it's 10 bucks. Besides I do have a few dollars but I am saving for FFX, Jak and Daxter, and ONI videogames E_E; I am really paranoid.

Too bad the XBOX is not gonna have any Japanese games xD that is so fucked up! They are just gonna have cheapO games like Spyro (E_E; YEAH It is cheap but i still buy 'em! They are boredomkillers!) and also some Sonic ones xDD pretty sad. The Downfall of NCube is that the fuckin' thing doesnt even have a CD player x.O; what the hell?! Is supposed to be superior, what happened to the DVD or CD player, nintendo?! xDDD Yeah I hate that company E_E; they rip people off way easily. I was a victim v.v

In other news! I went to Mr. Gattis today and ended up eating at jackInTheBox xD We almost ran outta money, but then Sara's sis came and drop off more money o.O; that was a good coincidence! xDD We finally came back home and I played SuperSmashBros. with my brother E_____E; he keeps insisting dammit. I wasn't able to see the Street Fighter Alpha movie Jimmy lent me xF But I will tommorrow. I wish the day had like more hours X.X; But... not really...

Well I took two tests of colorgenics thing or whatever N_n; the second one is more accurate, but they are sorta the same thing in different words I guess.

Everyone feels despondent at times ... and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. [Sometimes... ._.;] So like the proverbial ostrich - you are trying to bury your head in the sand ... But that won't work. You have to face reality .....[Not... really.]

You need an atmosphere of peace and quiet and you would like to share a bond of understanding with the "right person" ... you have the belief that with the right person, your stress and anxiety could be minimised ... [yeah, right...]

You are not an argumentative sort of person and "rather than fight - you'd switch" (an old cigarette ad cliche). [true. very.] But when you try to assert yourself - as sometimes you may try to do - you meet with so much resistance and effrontery that manifests itself so obviously that you become hurt, indignant and resentful. So in order to have peace and quiet ... you tend to become inhibited You keep it all to yourself ...but deep down-you 'feel' and 'hurt' a lot [Another fact. But it doesn't heart anymore.]

You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely [Fuck you.] and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity... and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. [E_E this part is fiction...] You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are.. but no.. you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself make you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest ... beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others. [ Yay! I am a sore looser!]

The need for admiration and to be regarded as "someone special" is perhaps one of the foremost aims in your life at this time. You would like to perhaps do something outrageous or anything that will give you the chance to be recognised as someone special.. This desire has now almost become an obsession and in your own way you are trying to fulfil this "complex" by ensuring you are the centre of attention, both at work or play ... or in the home. Stop trying so hard... and you will find that people will like you for who you are ... not for who you are pretending to be.... [I stopped pretending to be someone else a way back.]

The Second one:

At this particular time,- you are feeling that you are/or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams.....You feel that everything is against you... [Well isn't it?] But look on the bright side...for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor.... [Oh yeah sure v.V;]

You are looking for excitement and stimulation and you are ready to try anything .... but be careful not to take too many risks. [ Too late ]

It's the old old story ... I am misunderstood ... my partner, (be it in your private life or in business) just doesn't understand me and YOU also believe at this time that you are being completely MISUNDERSTOOD by one and all. It then obviously follows that you naturally feel inhibited and not appreciated... It is perhaps because of this belief that you feel compelled to stand back and let the rest of the world go by.......As for developing a firm relationship ... Inwardly, deep down in your subconscious mind you are wary of even trying to get close to another person because you feel that, if you open up your heart and feelings ... you are sure to get hurt. [That's how the story goes, yeah.] But since you are living in a society where close relationships are the norm ... you feel that there is that need to conform.. but any close relationships of any magnitude that you may have tried in the past have unfortunately left you without any sense of emotional involvement. [o.O; that's darn straight. I started throwing my emotions/feelings away not long ago...]

You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you .. that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you - they simply flow off you as water flows of a ducks back... You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. [Mebbe. xF So who cares if I insist I don't need nobody?] In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can "Let your hair down" and share your hopes, dreams and high standards... You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry. [Of course, to the others that "don't care"! E_E; AssTest.]

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. [When I am wrinkly or something?] All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray .. and you are fearful of planning further for the future. [I hate the future.] Disappointment at the non fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have result in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. [yeap, I am a hermit.] But that is not the answer .... You have the power to succeed. Believe in yourself... All is possible to him who believes .... [Who? x.X; believes in me? whatever...]

At least I can tell that the colors are talking about me. E_E; So that is the real me. There you go peeps, now you know me. A happylooking, yet deep inside unhappy person. v.V; So I do have a problem with life and that connects to the religion issues of why I despise it. Well bleh. I don't wanna ramble about it, that would mean talking about myself and I don't like that xB Goodnight.