"What is this?," -
Barry [ Resident Evil ]
This weekend I actually had time and I spent it all on watching all of BoogiePop Phantom e_e; and to my own amazement I fell in deep love with the series!! Yes, people who created Lain are so genious in creating this series too. I love the character design and their EYES! Um. Either way, the series really does not get very interesting until the 3rd DVD and that starts the actual follow-plot. Though I am still confused about the whole philosophy behind this one series [ Just like in Lain there was that whole Deus Ex Machina complex ], I really liked it. I will watch it again so I can get the point more clear.
And that is about all I did. I added some 'new' arts to my Deviant account, but I won't put them here because they are kinda old. I mean, I have never scanned them before so if you feel interested you can go and visit.
I also played Knights of the Old Republic more since Jason was kind enough to lend it to me. I finally got real far in the plot and then got killed several times e_e;; But it is just fine. My brother got farther with his character and he is a dark sided Jedi. It is crazy! He already got to his max because it is so freakin' easy to get dark points. Evil game.
So yeah. That is about all.
P.S. Go visit Blood Curse site. It feels lonely.
[ Monday, October 6, 2003 @ 08:16 a.m. ]
"Can you feel that? My heartbeat?"
- Hamil [ Black Heaven ]
And that is about all I did. I added some 'new' arts to my Deviant account, but I won't put them here because they are kinda old. I mean, I have never scanned them before so if you feel interested you can go and visit.
I also played Knights of the Old Republic more since Jason was kind enough to lend it to me. I finally got real far in the plot and then got killed several times e_e;; But it is just fine. My brother got farther with his character and he is a dark sided Jedi. It is crazy! He already got to his max because it is so freakin' easy to get dark points. Evil game.
So yeah. That is about all.
P.S. Go visit Blood Curse site. It feels lonely.
[ Monday, October 6, 2003 @ 08:16 a.m. ]
"Can you feel that? My heartbeat?"
- Hamil [ Black Heaven ]
I think I am going to get a minor! I actually will. I want to minor in Philosophy because I love it and I think it is very interesting. I consider myself a philosopher sometimes since I think I am openminded and I love to discuss conflicting subjects without having someone who thinks you insulted their belief or stuff like that. And that is all that is worth reading in this post.
Read at your own disgression:
I have not felt very good mentally, but I am living through it although sometimes I wish I could just fall asleep and never wake up. I mean, I don't want to have my life taken from me, but if I sleep I might have dreams and nightmares forever... It is a better deal than how I feel right now. Either way, I have not done ANYTHING and that frustrates me.
Hrm. I feel so useless and unimportant lately that is not even humorous at all. I mean I know I am important to lots of people, but it sure does not feel like I am to the one and only person I want to be important with. And it all fucking started with a jokingly question that made me think of myself... something I had not really done in a long time. My future too. I think that my dreams will never come true... I also have the feeling that I am gonna get shattered to pieces at some point during my life.
I wonder if I have made mistakes that have covered up and appeared to be good things. I feel so empty and lonely, like I am drifting away and eating myself. I don't feel sad or bad or anything to be felt pity for, but I just hate life itself; not MY life, but Life in general. It is idiotic.
I think I am craving for attention that I have not recieved from just one person in particular. I feel so anxiously depressive, and I want to throw myself out my window... [ My window is 2ft from the ground, please do not worry ].
[ Friday, October 3, 2003 @ 01:45 p.m. ]
"No cloud of squall shall hinder us!"
- Zidane [ Final Fantasy IX ]
Read at your own disgression:
I have not felt very good mentally, but I am living through it although sometimes I wish I could just fall asleep and never wake up. I mean, I don't want to have my life taken from me, but if I sleep I might have dreams and nightmares forever... It is a better deal than how I feel right now. Either way, I have not done ANYTHING and that frustrates me.
Hrm. I feel so useless and unimportant lately that is not even humorous at all. I mean I know I am important to lots of people, but it sure does not feel like I am to the one and only person I want to be important with. And it all fucking started with a jokingly question that made me think of myself... something I had not really done in a long time. My future too. I think that my dreams will never come true... I also have the feeling that I am gonna get shattered to pieces at some point during my life.
I wonder if I have made mistakes that have covered up and appeared to be good things. I feel so empty and lonely, like I am drifting away and eating myself. I don't feel sad or bad or anything to be felt pity for, but I just hate life itself; not MY life, but Life in general. It is idiotic.
I think I am craving for attention that I have not recieved from just one person in particular. I feel so anxiously depressive, and I want to throw myself out my window... [ My window is 2ft from the ground, please do not worry ].
[ Friday, October 3, 2003 @ 01:45 p.m. ]
"No cloud of squall shall hinder us!"
- Zidane [ Final Fantasy IX ]
So I decided to keep my art here since I figured out a little shortcut to post it here. Yay! Also for the commodity of my viewers who I love so much n_n! And I scanned some pictures too! Yay! People get to see how I look now.
x You Know Me? - When my hair was chopped.
x Pup & Kat - It is me [now] and Lassie :D!
x Happily with Rain - I like rain...
x Enter My World - My psycho room of doom.
Yay for pictures! They always make the life of someone seem so perfect and nice... Anyways, I have not been feeling okay, but I can live with it. I feel kinda sickly, but I mostly think is because I have not gotten over my last depression blast x_x;; I hope it is over soon because I dun like it. That is about all. I needed to do some bitching, but I will just omit that in this bloggie.
Anyways! Let me explain my art! Lydia and Valencia look a little odd, but I just wanted this art for the profile art n_n; Um. A little unproportioned. Giovanni is one sexy mofo if I say so myself because he has the most awesome eyes and hair. So be it. Eliah & Saiyo look real cute with a hint of smile with them. Eliah adores Saiyo very, very much, but he is just a 'child'. dawr! Taichi and Gureimon was the result of my last Digimon frenzy mood I have been in o_o;; I became all obsessed with Digimon again for no reason whatsoever... I sorta drew them in my style. And last, Maverich and Saiyo who look spiffy. It has this whole melancholic effect to it and the flesh beast is as creepy as always. Yay! I hope you like my art because lately I have felt that my art is just a bunch of crap E__e;; I really do not think my art looks that great when I come to look everyone else's art. Blargh, maybe it is part of my depression. Awr.
I have been a little confused about my life also. Just kinda wondering if the choices I made were correct 9_9; I mean... just some simple stuff because I have been thinking that some things in my path made me weak. Was I better of cold and lonely? I used never to mind being alone and now I crave for comepany... so I wonder... I feel once again a little unimportant, but not a big deal, x_o; not like real bad or anything. It is just that I started thinking and that is never good since I tend to wonder about the future and how I might never really be with that someone "just for me" o_o? I am not sure what to do, but it is something I must think about on my own I suppose.
[ Monday, September 29, 2003 @ 11:36 a.m. ]
"That is the way the cookie crumbles,"
- Bruce [ Bruce Almighty ]
x You Know Me? - When my hair was chopped.
x Pup & Kat - It is me [now] and Lassie :D!
x Happily with Rain - I like rain...
x Enter My World - My psycho room of doom.
Yay for pictures! They always make the life of someone seem so perfect and nice... Anyways, I have not been feeling okay, but I can live with it. I feel kinda sickly, but I mostly think is because I have not gotten over my last depression blast x_x;; I hope it is over soon because I dun like it. That is about all. I needed to do some bitching, but I will just omit that in this bloggie.
Anyways! Let me explain my art! Lydia and Valencia look a little odd, but I just wanted this art for the profile art n_n; Um. A little unproportioned. Giovanni is one sexy mofo if I say so myself because he has the most awesome eyes and hair. So be it. Eliah & Saiyo look real cute with a hint of smile with them. Eliah adores Saiyo very, very much, but he is just a 'child'. dawr! Taichi and Gureimon was the result of my last Digimon frenzy mood I have been in o_o;; I became all obsessed with Digimon again for no reason whatsoever... I sorta drew them in my style. And last, Maverich and Saiyo who look spiffy. It has this whole melancholic effect to it and the flesh beast is as creepy as always. Yay! I hope you like my art because lately I have felt that my art is just a bunch of crap E__e;; I really do not think my art looks that great when I come to look everyone else's art. Blargh, maybe it is part of my depression. Awr.
I have been a little confused about my life also. Just kinda wondering if the choices I made were correct 9_9; I mean... just some simple stuff because I have been thinking that some things in my path made me weak. Was I better of cold and lonely? I used never to mind being alone and now I crave for comepany... so I wonder... I feel once again a little unimportant, but not a big deal, x_o; not like real bad or anything. It is just that I started thinking and that is never good since I tend to wonder about the future and how I might never really be with that someone "just for me" o_o? I am not sure what to do, but it is something I must think about on my own I suppose.
[ Monday, September 29, 2003 @ 11:36 a.m. ]
"That is the way the cookie crumbles,"
- Bruce [ Bruce Almighty ]
I am finally done with all those presuring assignments, but now I will have a Philosophy test on Tuesday e__e how fun is that? Well, I actually like that class a lot even though I have no idea what I am supposed to learn from there. People in the old times really had the need for television sets or at least radios... xD! I suppose I am just a philosopher up to a certain extent and then I don't question the universe too much.
I don't think I will post my art in the blog anymore. I will just post it at my Deviant account because is too much hassle uploading the art here and there and over there. So yeah. Go take a look at it right now because I finally created Giovanni's character design :D! You can reply to me here and tell me about him. Yay! Btw, those squares at the top are links and the second one takes you to my deviant account e_e;;
Um. I want to go to the Mall today. I wonder if Ricky wants to go or if he is busy? I made a vampire character today since I will be roleplaying in my own storyline O__o;; I mean Ricky will storytell for the vampires and I will do so for the Werebeasts so I could not be a werecoyote ;__; Anyways, mah vampire's name is Mariee and she is a very fast one. Nyah! She can like kill a person in one turn. I was gonna make her a child, but I am not feeling in the mood to play a kid-looking vampire. She has this merit: Blush of Health and that makes her look and smell just like a human and she has a spirit mentor. Psycho.
Jason did not show up to class today v__v I wonder were he is? He and I have become good friends actually. He tells me his troubles and he also told me his crush. Awr. I sure hopes he gets to ask her out sometime because he is a real nice guy and I know his crush real well too. I am sure they would both make a real pretty couple. I had brought some sweet bread for Ricky and Jason today, but they did not come so I had to eat it =9!
[ Thursday, September 25, 2003 @ 01:46 p.m. ]
"For me it was no dream,"
- Layla Uki [ Black Heaven ]
I don't think I will post my art in the blog anymore. I will just post it at my Deviant account because is too much hassle uploading the art here and there and over there. So yeah. Go take a look at it right now because I finally created Giovanni's character design :D! You can reply to me here and tell me about him. Yay! Btw, those squares at the top are links and the second one takes you to my deviant account e_e;;
Um. I want to go to the Mall today. I wonder if Ricky wants to go or if he is busy? I made a vampire character today since I will be roleplaying in my own storyline O__o;; I mean Ricky will storytell for the vampires and I will do so for the Werebeasts so I could not be a werecoyote ;__; Anyways, mah vampire's name is Mariee and she is a very fast one. Nyah! She can like kill a person in one turn. I was gonna make her a child, but I am not feeling in the mood to play a kid-looking vampire. She has this merit: Blush of Health and that makes her look and smell just like a human and she has a spirit mentor. Psycho.
Jason did not show up to class today v__v I wonder were he is? He and I have become good friends actually. He tells me his troubles and he also told me his crush. Awr. I sure hopes he gets to ask her out sometime because he is a real nice guy and I know his crush real well too. I am sure they would both make a real pretty couple. I had brought some sweet bread for Ricky and Jason today, but they did not come so I had to eat it =9!
[ Thursday, September 25, 2003 @ 01:46 p.m. ]
"For me it was no dream,"
- Layla Uki [ Black Heaven ]
Yesterday was a fabulous day! My Biology test was postponed for tomorrow and my speech is due tomorrow n_n;; Not so bad. Um. I also got to finally color that one pretty Valencia art I did. Night time Valencia came out okay, I think she still looks cute and I decided to give her St.Valentine's colors because they seemed to add to the sekushii effect 9_9;; I hope you guys get to see and like the artee.
I got a new [used e_x;] GBA game! It is Zone of the Enders: The Fist of Mars and that game is so much fun! It reminds me of Advance Wars, but with a little bit more action n__n;; I like the story so far tho. Besides that I really have not done much.
I went to Monterrey on Sunday to see my dad and I got a credit card! xD!! Yay! I can actually pay my car on time now. My dad liked his present and that is great! I was supposed to call him, but I just had a busy day working on my speech and art and stuff. Bleh. I think I am stressed out and that is why I have been getting sleepy so early and tired. Um. I need to go back to my meditations, need to make time for that v_v; it is important. I think I can get some yummy scented inscense sometime soon.
[ Tuesday, September 23, 2003 @ 08:24 a.m. ]
"She is the original,"
- detective [ Blood: The Last Vampire ]
I got a new [used e_x;] GBA game! It is Zone of the Enders: The Fist of Mars and that game is so much fun! It reminds me of Advance Wars, but with a little bit more action n__n;; I like the story so far tho. Besides that I really have not done much.
I went to Monterrey on Sunday to see my dad and I got a credit card! xD!! Yay! I can actually pay my car on time now. My dad liked his present and that is great! I was supposed to call him, but I just had a busy day working on my speech and art and stuff. Bleh. I think I am stressed out and that is why I have been getting sleepy so early and tired. Um. I need to go back to my meditations, need to make time for that v_v; it is important. I think I can get some yummy scented inscense sometime soon.
[ Tuesday, September 23, 2003 @ 08:24 a.m. ]
"She is the original,"
- detective [ Blood: The Last Vampire ]
I watched Underworld yesterday and it was sooo good! I suppose I liked it a lot because I was expecting it to be real crappy e_e;; But I loved it. I want it. I was rooting for the werewolves all along because it is kind of based in the White Wolf storyline and there is no way in hell vampires could have ever managed to kill one lycan. The vampires had such nifty characters and there was this one guy that was the coolest! Either way, thanks Ricky fer taking me to the movies in all that horrid rain and almost flooding streets x_x;;
In the movies they finally showed the 'preview' for the next Resident Evil movie! Resident Evil: Apocalypse. I can't wait for, I think it is going to come out on summer of 2004, but not sure. The preview is so awesome! It is not really a preview, but a hinting commercial type of thing offering this new product created by the Umbrella corporation xD real creative.
Hm. I added some new stuff to the deviant account. And it has rained a lot here O_o;; half the streets are closed... I had never seen this kind of situation since long, long time ago. I like the weather though, but it got my chanclas messed up and useless v_v I need new sandals now. Ricky and me practically had to swim to get to his car! Evilness.
I made this Demon character for Andy's rp and she is so cool xB She is a Fiend that can teleport and even create portals from room to room. Her demon form makes her so powerful!! Rawr! I like and can't wait to start playing... she is a scholar though instead of a psycho brawler, but I made her a Luciferian (of course) because I like Sammael 9_9;; What else? I got some magic cards and a lot of new drakes!! That made my day even better. I also got this cool Pokemon promo card of Groudonex for like =9 nifty.
I joined this too.
[ Saturday, September 20, 2003 @ 12:02 p.m. ]
"Not because I cannot see means that I am blind,"
- Don't remember.
In the movies they finally showed the 'preview' for the next Resident Evil movie! Resident Evil: Apocalypse. I can't wait for, I think it is going to come out on summer of 2004, but not sure. The preview is so awesome! It is not really a preview, but a hinting commercial type of thing offering this new product created by the Umbrella corporation xD real creative.
Hm. I added some new stuff to the deviant account. And it has rained a lot here O_o;; half the streets are closed... I had never seen this kind of situation since long, long time ago. I like the weather though, but it got my chanclas messed up and useless v_v I need new sandals now. Ricky and me practically had to swim to get to his car! Evilness.
I made this Demon character for Andy's rp and she is so cool xB She is a Fiend that can teleport and even create portals from room to room. Her demon form makes her so powerful!! Rawr! I like and can't wait to start playing... she is a scholar though instead of a psycho brawler, but I made her a Luciferian (of course) because I like Sammael 9_9;; What else? I got some magic cards and a lot of new drakes!! That made my day even better. I also got this cool Pokemon promo card of Groudonex for like =9 nifty.
I joined this too.
[ Saturday, September 20, 2003 @ 12:02 p.m. ]
"Not because I cannot see means that I am blind,"
- Don't remember.
Yay! Well, you know I added that colored Caelum art. I hope you like it v_v;; I did. Anyways, today I joined another clique! Woo!
I got all into Digimon lately and I actually won the bid on the movies! :D!! That is so nifty. I like imported stuff that is cheap. Hee. I got Luna's letter yesterday and she drew some nifty stuff n__N!!! I do believe she has talent because her art was actually pretty good for having not much practice! I would scan it, but the scanner is occupied right now. Now I must reply to both Lina's and Luna's letter!
I have a speech due today... well kinda. I don't speak until next week so that means I get a lot more time to work on everything xD!! I finished my English essay though. It was a debate essay about 'animal testing'. I am against it because it makes me want to cry when I think of the animals since they are sensible. Um. But the one only reason for animal testing makes up for all the against ones I suppose. So I is a good argument for the essay. I ended up writting a lot more than what I had in mind xD! No da.
I used the Blood Curse Rp layout for the story layout. I hope you have no mind Lina ;__; it is just that I have no photo editor and I did not want the layout to waste. It makes the story blog look a lot better too! I am actually still writting. Little by little, but when I manage a big piece of writting then I suppose I will announce it here. xD I write a paragraph a day or something... I just don't want the intention to go away. So I rather stall that let it die.
I must go to class now! Bai bai.
After class. On Friday the anime club claimed Pirate Day! :D!! And it is official in the university. I hope lots of people dress up or at least talk like pirates! I am not sure what I want to wear... I sorta wanted to dress like a captian because I like being elegant best xD I guess I just dun wanna be like perhaps the rest of the people are gonna go. Typical pirate stuff. I will figure something out by tomorrow maybe.
And I sorta changed the Blood Curse story addy. Not really, but just added a splash because I figured it would look pretty that way :D Now it is [ http://bloodcurse.pitas.com ] instead of [ http://blood_curse.pitas.com ]. Like I said. Just a splash page so please change the links if you are being nice enough to link the story n__N! Thanks!
[ Wednesday, September 17, 2003 @ 08:15 a.m. ]
"I guess I really did screw you, huh?"
- Maurice [ Shallow Hal ]
I got all into Digimon lately and I actually won the bid on the movies! :D!! That is so nifty. I like imported stuff that is cheap. Hee. I got Luna's letter yesterday and she drew some nifty stuff n__N!!! I do believe she has talent because her art was actually pretty good for having not much practice! I would scan it, but the scanner is occupied right now. Now I must reply to both Lina's and Luna's letter!
I have a speech due today... well kinda. I don't speak until next week so that means I get a lot more time to work on everything xD!! I finished my English essay though. It was a debate essay about 'animal testing'. I am against it because it makes me want to cry when I think of the animals since they are sensible. Um. But the one only reason for animal testing makes up for all the against ones I suppose. So I is a good argument for the essay. I ended up writting a lot more than what I had in mind xD! No da.
I used the Blood Curse Rp layout for the story layout. I hope you have no mind Lina ;__; it is just that I have no photo editor and I did not want the layout to waste. It makes the story blog look a lot better too! I am actually still writting. Little by little, but when I manage a big piece of writting then I suppose I will announce it here. xD I write a paragraph a day or something... I just don't want the intention to go away. So I rather stall that let it die.
I must go to class now! Bai bai.
After class. On Friday the anime club claimed Pirate Day! :D!! And it is official in the university. I hope lots of people dress up or at least talk like pirates! I am not sure what I want to wear... I sorta wanted to dress like a captian because I like being elegant best xD I guess I just dun wanna be like perhaps the rest of the people are gonna go. Typical pirate stuff. I will figure something out by tomorrow maybe.
And I sorta changed the Blood Curse story addy. Not really, but just added a splash because I figured it would look pretty that way :D Now it is [ http://bloodcurse.pitas.com ] instead of [ http://blood_curse.pitas.com ]. Like I said. Just a splash page so please change the links if you are being nice enough to link the story n__N! Thanks!
[ Wednesday, September 17, 2003 @ 08:15 a.m. ]
"I guess I really did screw you, huh?"
- Maurice [ Shallow Hal ]
Whew! The beach was great this weekend! xD!! Yesterday it started raining while we were in the beach and that was so much fun. The waves were real nifty and I had lots of fun with my family. Now that is a surprise! Well, I had a good time and my mom's b-day was nifty. She liked my gift! I had bought her this Givenchy perfume and cream because I know she adores that brand e__e no shit she does, it was fraggin' expensive.
And new art! More like a new sketch that I did yesterday in result of a small mood swing of doom. Psychotic, ne? It looks crazy and I actually titled it 'Are you in My Hitlist?' xD I was real mad when I drew this, can you tell? Yeah, it is Entei, who is my alterego or rather myself. It came out pretty good for not being in the mood of art... I put all my anger into the paper and it resulted in grave chaos.
I still need to reply to Lina! o__o I need time! I wish the day had like more hours. I have not been able to color some stuff or write on my BloodCurse thing or anything! I need to make time which means even less sleep! I already sleep only like 5 to 4 hours because I hate sleeping... it makes me feel like I am wasting time. I see what I can do about the remaining hours. Except sometimes I do sleep for a long time and then I feel all queezy and groggy... I think I am sick somehow. I have been real tired lately for no reason. I need to check that.
I bought Pokemon: Sapphire Version even though I was not in need of a new GBA game. I am sorta dissapointed, some of the animals look so degradingly STUPID. period. I will buy the guide to the game today since I have no idea what the new pokemon evolve into or even their retard names. Why couldn't they just make the old pokemon better looking and kept them? Anyways. I might also buy Shallow Hal and Moulin Rouge this week since they have become my favorite movies along with Jurassic Park. I have to own them e_e and they had an offert on them so yeah.
-next day edit-
I finally colored Caelum and I think he looks cool. I originally stated that Andromeda's color was red and green and black or something, but I figured the pieces of the orbital frames can be changed. I wanted both of them to have matching colors 9_9;; It does not look too shabby. Don't hit me x_x;
[ Monday, September 15, 2003 @ 01:36 p.m. ]
"Rawr! Burrito! Burrito!"
- Entei [ Alternate Ego ]
And new art! More like a new sketch that I did yesterday in result of a small mood swing of doom. Psychotic, ne? It looks crazy and I actually titled it 'Are you in My Hitlist?' xD I was real mad when I drew this, can you tell? Yeah, it is Entei, who is my alterego or rather myself. It came out pretty good for not being in the mood of art... I put all my anger into the paper and it resulted in grave chaos.
I still need to reply to Lina! o__o I need time! I wish the day had like more hours. I have not been able to color some stuff or write on my BloodCurse thing or anything! I need to make time which means even less sleep! I already sleep only like 5 to 4 hours because I hate sleeping... it makes me feel like I am wasting time. I see what I can do about the remaining hours. Except sometimes I do sleep for a long time and then I feel all queezy and groggy... I think I am sick somehow. I have been real tired lately for no reason. I need to check that.
I bought Pokemon: Sapphire Version even though I was not in need of a new GBA game. I am sorta dissapointed, some of the animals look so degradingly STUPID. period. I will buy the guide to the game today since I have no idea what the new pokemon evolve into or even their retard names. Why couldn't they just make the old pokemon better looking and kept them? Anyways. I might also buy Shallow Hal and Moulin Rouge this week since they have become my favorite movies along with Jurassic Park. I have to own them e_e and they had an offert on them so yeah.
-next day edit-
I finally colored Caelum and I think he looks cool. I originally stated that Andromeda's color was red and green and black or something, but I figured the pieces of the orbital frames can be changed. I wanted both of them to have matching colors 9_9;; It does not look too shabby. Don't hit me x_x;
[ Monday, September 15, 2003 @ 01:36 p.m. ]
"Rawr! Burrito! Burrito!"
- Entei [ Alternate Ego ]
Blah. I am so tired and I think today I am gonna sleep all day after school. I have not colored because I have had no time and I have not sketched because I am so sleepy and that takes my creativity away. But I did go to watch The Medallion yesterday and to be sincere I thought it was kinda stupid, but funny. I really just recommend to rent it when it comes out e_e;; I had also never seen any Jackie Chan movie before. At all. I think he is a nice man that has quite a childish sense of humor.
Today I am going to the beach for three days! My mother's b-day is tomorrow and she wants to spend it over there. I think half my family is gonna come for ther day. I sorta don't feel like going, but it will sound real cold and evil if I just say no and stay home alone. Um. Besides I wanna give her the present that I bought for her tomorrow.
I bought some online things. I ordered my Metal Gear Solid 2 artbook and my Amano Yoshitaka illustrated tarot cards :D!! I am so excited about getting those. I also placed a bid on Ebay for this pack of all the 7 Digimon movies imported! That is nifty because the only way I will ever buy editted anime is imported and that way it won't be uncut e_e;; Digimon suffered a whole lot of editting sadly. Finally I bought some things from IllWillPress.com, a shirt and 2 VCDs with some psycho toons of doom. Wee!
Today is a great day. So far so good because it is so mellow and cloudy outside n__n I just love it. Somewhat cold, but I can deal with that. Now I must go to get rid of body necesities.
[ Friday, September 12, 2003 @ 02:17 p.m. ]
"Then go talk to the wall,"
- Squall [ Final Fantasy VIII ]
Today I am going to the beach for three days! My mother's b-day is tomorrow and she wants to spend it over there. I think half my family is gonna come for ther day. I sorta don't feel like going, but it will sound real cold and evil if I just say no and stay home alone. Um. Besides I wanna give her the present that I bought for her tomorrow.
I bought some online things. I ordered my Metal Gear Solid 2 artbook and my Amano Yoshitaka illustrated tarot cards :D!! I am so excited about getting those. I also placed a bid on Ebay for this pack of all the 7 Digimon movies imported! That is nifty because the only way I will ever buy editted anime is imported and that way it won't be uncut e_e;; Digimon suffered a whole lot of editting sadly. Finally I bought some things from IllWillPress.com, a shirt and 2 VCDs with some psycho toons of doom. Wee!
Today is a great day. So far so good because it is so mellow and cloudy outside n__n I just love it. Somewhat cold, but I can deal with that. Now I must go to get rid of body necesities.
[ Friday, September 12, 2003 @ 02:17 p.m. ]
"Then go talk to the wall,"
- Squall [ Final Fantasy VIII ]
I added another art! My Toon World is the title and really like how it came out. I was only gonna color half of it yesterday, but once I started I could not stop and it took me about an hour and a half to finish. It is hard to try and immitate Yu-Gi-Oh style and coloring x_x!! A challenge I must say yet real worth it. I just love toon monsters because they remind me of myself, kinda freaked and psycho!! Woo! I mean just look at them.
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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xD Nyah. This is interesting, but I guess being tomboyish proves good and I am rare!
Maki - "Truly Rare" People of your personality type should visit: www.life-blood.cjb.net
What would your Japanese name be? (female)
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And again I am rare xD! Call me Maki muaha!
-next day eduuutt-
I did not felt like blogging so I just figured I could mention that I put a new art. It is Caelum Aquila and the mighty Andromeda that I felt like drawing since I have been reading K-chan's story n__n!! Makes me happy she actually liked Caelum to keep him in her story. Yush! I am gonna color him prehaps, but not Andromeda in the back because I am afraid I will ruin it or something e_e;; Hm. I sorta updated his face a little, but not a big difference, just making him look older since in my first art he looks real young.
I was gonna draw Eruda, but my inspiration was leaving me with trash. I kinda know how I want to draw her as, but I am not sure if it will fit the story. I kinda picture her with the Dark Magician Girl's physique and hair... for some reason. I miss rping Caelum ;_; I think I will start a Z.O.E. tabletop Rp at school.
[ Tuesday, September 9, 2003 @ 03:29 p.m. ]
"Yon Cassuis has a lean and hungry look; such men are dangerous."
- Shakespeare [ Julius Caesar ]
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
xD Nyah. This is interesting, but I guess being tomboyish proves good and I am rare!
Maki - "Truly Rare" People of your personality type should visit: www.life-blood.cjb.net
What would your Japanese name be? (female)
brought to you by Quizilla
And again I am rare xD! Call me Maki muaha!
-next day eduuutt-
I did not felt like blogging so I just figured I could mention that I put a new art. It is Caelum Aquila and the mighty Andromeda that I felt like drawing since I have been reading K-chan's story n__n!! Makes me happy she actually liked Caelum to keep him in her story. Yush! I am gonna color him prehaps, but not Andromeda in the back because I am afraid I will ruin it or something e_e;; Hm. I sorta updated his face a little, but not a big difference, just making him look older since in my first art he looks real young.
I was gonna draw Eruda, but my inspiration was leaving me with trash. I kinda know how I want to draw her as, but I am not sure if it will fit the story. I kinda picture her with the Dark Magician Girl's physique and hair... for some reason. I miss rping Caelum ;_; I think I will start a Z.O.E. tabletop Rp at school.
[ Tuesday, September 9, 2003 @ 03:29 p.m. ]
"Yon Cassuis has a lean and hungry look; such men are dangerous."
- Shakespeare [ Julius Caesar ]
Whoot! It is amazing how just a little thing can change a person's life. I feel grand and happy today as a matter of fact, I promised myself several things too. But either way! I added a new art: Valencia with a different outfit that the usual. Not really a new art. More like garble and stuff, but I was doing it to show how Valencia's wings change pattern and color depending on what she wears.
Well, my weekend would have been boring if it was not for my dear brother. He rented an awesome game for the X-box!! He got Knights of the Old Republic and that was just so cool! I made my character that is a scout and I got to be a Jedi with a cool double-bladed lightsaber!! It is a fun game once you get the hang of it... I was trying to lean my character to dark side, but after her apperance was changing because of that. It was not a pretty sight e_e;; so I gave up and now I shall go back to the light side.
And I got a speech assingment due on Monday! Just a week, but I already know what to talk about. I shall talk about how important art is in a person's life. No one in the class is cultural enough to think about that subject v_v so I got an original. I think I will start working on it today since I am actually excited about giving a speech! Positive nerviousness ;D Maybe I will have time to go out this week and hopefully Ricky is not so busy.
[ Monday, September 8, 2003 @ 02:01 p.m. ]
"I need a miracle and not so much charity,"
- I Want Love [ Silent Hill 3 OST ]
Well, my weekend would have been boring if it was not for my dear brother. He rented an awesome game for the X-box!! He got Knights of the Old Republic and that was just so cool! I made my character that is a scout and I got to be a Jedi with a cool double-bladed lightsaber!! It is a fun game once you get the hang of it... I was trying to lean my character to dark side, but after her apperance was changing because of that. It was not a pretty sight e_e;; so I gave up and now I shall go back to the light side.
And I got a speech assingment due on Monday! Just a week, but I already know what to talk about. I shall talk about how important art is in a person's life. No one in the class is cultural enough to think about that subject v_v so I got an original. I think I will start working on it today since I am actually excited about giving a speech! Positive nerviousness ;D Maybe I will have time to go out this week and hopefully Ricky is not so busy.
[ Monday, September 8, 2003 @ 02:01 p.m. ]
"I need a miracle and not so much charity,"
- I Want Love [ Silent Hill 3 OST ]
Okay, the past three days were real bad. I felt like crap, but I do thank that hopefully this kind of thing never ever happens again. I was scared and depressed and unhappy and it was such a horrible state of mind. Well, I should say that everything is going fine now and nothing evil happened in conclusion. I am still a little touchy about things because I got hurt real bad, so I think I have a tiny scar somewhere in my heart.
Hm. I talked about some stuff I felt dissapointed and hopefully my subject will be understood. Sometimes I feel like I am not getting the attention I need and that I am being rejected. Maybe it is just me, but that is why I had the need to ask... I need to get all the bad stuff out of my system once and for all to be chipper again. At least I feel very much alive now!
I think I am gonna change the layout o_o;; Another one that I took from the Magitek Designs because I had seen it so long ago and I love it. It is Card Captor Sakura and it is PURPLE! Nothing beats that xD! Either way.
School is rather boring lately. I really despise my classes, but I promised myself that I would not skip no matter what! Even if I am sick or dying E_e; No more. I really need to get my GPA up so I do not get suspended and so I will put a lot of time into my studies and assignments.
Ricky's birthday is this Sunday and that is great! Except I might not get to see him since he is always so busy on Sundays v_v; and that makes me feel sad because I don't get to see him on his birthday. And I won't have a ride to go to his place or anything... I will probably just give him his gift on Monday of something. As long as he is having a good time then that is all that matters :D It is his special day.
Well that is about all. Let me go Rp x_x;; I am real happy that in the vampire Rp you guys find ways of deal with my lagginess xD!! That way I don't stop the whole rping. I will introduce and new character, may I, Lina??
[ Friday, September 5, 2003 @ 01:44 p.m. ]
"Let me die. You do not understand,"
- Saiyo [ Blood Curse ]
Hm. I talked about some stuff I felt dissapointed and hopefully my subject will be understood. Sometimes I feel like I am not getting the attention I need and that I am being rejected. Maybe it is just me, but that is why I had the need to ask... I need to get all the bad stuff out of my system once and for all to be chipper again. At least I feel very much alive now!
I think I am gonna change the layout o_o;; Another one that I took from the Magitek Designs because I had seen it so long ago and I love it. It is Card Captor Sakura and it is PURPLE! Nothing beats that xD! Either way.
School is rather boring lately. I really despise my classes, but I promised myself that I would not skip no matter what! Even if I am sick or dying E_e; No more. I really need to get my GPA up so I do not get suspended and so I will put a lot of time into my studies and assignments.
Ricky's birthday is this Sunday and that is great! Except I might not get to see him since he is always so busy on Sundays v_v; and that makes me feel sad because I don't get to see him on his birthday. And I won't have a ride to go to his place or anything... I will probably just give him his gift on Monday of something. As long as he is having a good time then that is all that matters :D It is his special day.
Well that is about all. Let me go Rp x_x;; I am real happy that in the vampire Rp you guys find ways of deal with my lagginess xD!! That way I don't stop the whole rping. I will introduce and new character, may I, Lina??
[ Friday, September 5, 2003 @ 01:44 p.m. ]
"Let me die. You do not understand,"
- Saiyo [ Blood Curse ]
Man. Yesteday was such a horrible day. All the things I had planned I did nothing about them. I just stayed home and cried away. I also slept most of the day, maybe to try and escape... I was kinda hoping not to wake back up.
When I read this certain statement it felt so horrible. I never really thought that your heart actually hurt, but it does. It hurt real bad yesterday. I was so upset and scared that I felt like throwing up several times during the day. I feel real devastated and I am so scared of what might happen with this situation. I am mainly afraid.
I don't know what to do. I talk to people and surely they try to help me out, but can they really do something? No. I really appreciate the concern, but it is okay... I just wonder what is gonna happen? I see myself alone, and that is something I have always feared, but always saw in my future. It is really not fair. How come my feelings do not come on account?!
Did I do something wrong? I am gonna start crying again... I think it is going to be the same as yesterday for the next days. I am sorry though, whatever I did, I am sorry! My head hurts and my tummy does too and my heart feels like it is getting twisted. I feel so sickly. A true unhappy feeling, it is horrible.
Blargh! I don't even know how to explain myself or where to start!! I never felt like this before.
Oh. I archived...
[ Thursday, September 4, 2003 @ 12:45 p.m. ]
When I read this certain statement it felt so horrible. I never really thought that your heart actually hurt, but it does. It hurt real bad yesterday. I was so upset and scared that I felt like throwing up several times during the day. I feel real devastated and I am so scared of what might happen with this situation. I am mainly afraid.
I don't know what to do. I talk to people and surely they try to help me out, but can they really do something? No. I really appreciate the concern, but it is okay... I just wonder what is gonna happen? I see myself alone, and that is something I have always feared, but always saw in my future. It is really not fair. How come my feelings do not come on account?!
Did I do something wrong? I am gonna start crying again... I think it is going to be the same as yesterday for the next days. I am sorry though, whatever I did, I am sorry! My head hurts and my tummy does too and my heart feels like it is getting twisted. I feel so sickly. A true unhappy feeling, it is horrible.
Blargh! I don't even know how to explain myself or where to start!! I never felt like this before.
Oh. I archived...
[ Thursday, September 4, 2003 @ 12:45 p.m. ]
