Monday, March 17, 2003/10:53 a.m.
I am shaping into a butterfly meaning now my death comes near. I feel I actually just feel a little down because of what my mother says to me... not that it really does affect me anyways, but... I wish I could just prove her wrong someday and then laugh in her face and make her eat her own stupid words. Well, I am not mad, and in fact my spring break was okay since I did not deal with my mother for most of those days. I recieved 4 of the artbooks and they are still pending in sending me the complete works of FFVII through X one v___V;;;
So I got a little time to post today before I start getting my butt to work on some homework. All I have to say is that I finished Kiko's and Meru's letter, I just need the envelopes and that is about it. I am sorry I have been such a lagger, I am a real bum sometimes x___x;;; Oh! I got 'Zone Of The Enders: The 2nd Runner' game and it is a very good sequel! :DD!!! I actually got to fight the Anubis Mecha... but I cannot beat him yet e_e Not the time. Maybe later in the game I get to actually fight him for reals and beat him bad! xD! I am glad ADA is there still, but who knows if she is going to self-destruct after all or not... I hope not ;___; Jehuty is nifty! I really like that game, but my PS2 is really fuckin' over and so I need to buy a newer version of it x_x;; one that is like 30001 R since it seems to be the best one. So probably I can just sell my PS2 to GameStop and then just use my income to complete the payment for a new one. Yessum. I finally got to play Dead of Alive BEACH VOLLEYBALL! xD!!! I think is sorta funny how they game is all like "REPLAY!" And the play done is not even worth looking at... it is just to like see the girls different angles. LOL. Very much the 'guy's game' hee. But it was fun... not much of strategy really... And that is about it. Hopefully when I have lots of more time in hands I can put up the layout Lina did for me and also upload some more art and fanart to The Gaia n_n! Bye bye fer now! + EDIT + Oh! :D! I have added some new pretty fanart and 2 new pics to the gallery in case you wanna see it at The Gaia and could I ask of a favor of you all? Can you please leave your tiny mark on the tagboard there :D! Kinda letting me know you have swooshed by xD! Hee. Please comment... 
-"Can You Feel My Hurting?"-
Wednesday, March 5, 2003/05:28 p.m.
Give me some time to think about it. I feel I got out of my lab a few minutes ago and now Ricky just left x_x;; At least I got to finish those Sephiroth reviews over there in the side column below my stats and all that. I put up about Sephiroth's name too... and it is sorta close and ironic at the same time. It says that his good intentions might be misunderstood [ I think that is right since he was doing something good... just very drastically e_e ] and it also mentions how people with that name can be good in sales for their friendly personality [ xD I just thought that was funny since he was not very friendly even before he found out about Jenova and his experimented self and clones ]. Anyways, it was interesting... I might add more about the name sometime soon, since I know it does come from the 13 Sephiroth's mapping, get how there was only 13 clones of Sephiroth himself plus No.0 [Cloud]. N____n;; I am good at figuring this out.
Well after our brief Sephirotian class I must say that I have done NOTHING! Yesterday, I just got home and slept... I did color some stuff, but the scanner at school would not work. Ricky did give me more fanart! He drew Nathan's chara [ Seth ], but it actually looks more... like... no one really x_x;;; The way I drew Seth is very much different so... yeah. I wanna scan that one sketch of Donovan daydreaming that Athena is praising him xD that one is comical. I think Ricky has it in one of his binders so I should ask him. I need to figure what layout should I put on Cynthia's bloggie. She likes ALL guy anime and video game charas so that is a though choice v___v;;; Maybe I shall make a layout of... Riku or Sora or Squall! Yeah! :D Squall should be sexy for her... he has... a scar e___e;;; so I guess I can do that. I wanna buy a few games now since I got some money left after I buy my artbooks. So I shall remind myself of which ones I chose as my options: + Metal Gear Solid 2 Substance PS2 + Zone of the Enders: The 2nd Runner PS2 + Zone of the Enders: Mars... something GBA + Final Fantasy XI PS2 + The Sims PS2 + Final Fantasy Origins PSOne + Ergheiz PSOne + Golden Sun: The New Era... or something GBA As for DVDs I need to finish the collections x_x + Betterman Vol.6 + The Wanderers Vol.4 + X/Four + Zenki Saga 4 This is more like a note to myself now... I need this manga: + Chobits 5 + Angelic Layer 5 + Ayashi No Ceres 4 + Inu Yasha 4 ...how about the artbooks? + Devil May Cry + Betterman + Metal Gear Solid 1 + Clamp North Side + Clamp South Side And I have concluded that I also need: + MONEY! + And a JOB. I do not even think I have enough money to even buy more that one PS2 game and one PSOne game x_x;; but they say that if you write out your dreams and goals, you are reaching them already! xD Ha... ha... bleh...
-"Can You Feel My Hurting?"-
Tuesday, March 4, 2003/12:37 p.m.
I want one of those misty kisses that are planted upon my soul I feel I decided to blog, but I have nothing to talk about. I do have a test in a few minutes, but hopefully I shall pass it and it should not take me that long since it is Spanish. Some friends are playing PS2 and they are playing Guilty Gear X2, but I really do not like the game very much v__v so I decided to stop playing. I guess I will keep studying a bit more for the test so I do not understimate it. Hee.
Cynthia-oneesama told me that it would be fine to make her a bloggie, but I wonder if she will use it as much? She seems busy lots of time x_x I guess I will do it even if it is just for kicks since it is fun either way. I put up some other things in The Gaia site if you guys wanna go check it out. And I have been playing Koudelka lately. I got the bad ending in Shadow Hearts, but Surge is gonna let me copy his unfinished filed so I can get the good ending :D!! Wee! Koudelka is a pretty name n__n I am gonna name my daugther that if I ever have one. Anyways, I feel sorta sleepy, but I shall get off the computer and study well.
-"Can You Feel My Hurting?"-
Thursday, February 27, 2003/11:27 a.m.
Never had been falling apart before... literally. I feel XD! LOL. I went to that slogan thing that Lina has a link to and I got this stuff:
Katya Things Go Better with Katya. Tough on Dirt, Gentle on Katya. Designed for Katya. Double the Pleasure, Double the Katya. I put up some other pics in the gallery of my site and I shall send you that Shiva sprite in a little bit after I am done blogging n_n! And I have no idea what I am even gonna blog about... I guess I can tell you all I have been sick and I have been sleeping most of the time e_e;; And I really wanna go see the eye doctor since I feel so uncomfty now... I really need more gradation in my glasses and that way I can get new contacts. I want them clear this time though, no more colored.
-"Can You Feel My Hurting?"-
Tuesday, February 25, 2003/04:48 p.m.
Let me kiss your tears, let me take your pain away I feel To start of, I joined many more cliques x_x;;; I could not help myself. And I also got more sprites, but I am not gonna upload them since there are som many... I need a computer just to save my sprite collection O_________o;; I really have many of those little things. Well then, I updated my site a little, and I did a new drawing, but I have not scanned it yet. I shall color it first since I think it would look better. Anyways, I have been playing Final Fantasy VI (U.S. FF3) in the anime club's computer emulator :D! Since my FFVI from Anthologies does not wanna work I get to see what happens after where I am stuck n___n;; so I hope I can beat the game before the semester finishes. I really wanna see the whole FFVI ending... although with the emulator it won't be the CGI e_e
And I saw Koudelka's ending! Both the bad and good. It was nifty... I really cannot tell from the good or bad one x__x;; they are both the same as depressing and sorta... a tiny bit happy. And I get to see Koudelka just with her top thingy! :D!! She is so nifty looking... WeeEEee, I want a layout of her sometime. I skipped spanish today since Ricky and me were hungry, I hope it does not affect us. I still have might night class to go and it sucks since it is ultra-cold outside! ;____; and I have a sore throat and I think I am gonna get a fever soon. Anyways, I need to find something to keep me busy! Ja! Wait. I found this nifty pictures of this doushinji manga from Final Fantasy VII e__e;; they are mostly yaoi... not to extremes, but it does not bother me v__v;;; it is not like they are all over each other... I just like innuendo yaoi... either way, I chose the safe to look pics and they look so nifty!. Here, don't mind... +Sephiroth & Cloud+ e__e it is a kiss... err... it is not so bad... REALLY! X__x;; +Sephiroth+ Just him n__n without his trenchcoat. He is cynically looking at the sun. +Zack+ He has a chocker O_o;; and a chain... xD! +Zack Again+ And I always thought he was stupid looking :D! Now I get the idea he is nifty! Who would think Zack was this gorgeous xD! +Cloud & Sephiroth+ Woo! HUG! All Cloud wanted was to prove that he was not a failure O_o;; this pic is actually really pretty. Makes me feel all gooey and mellow when I see it.
-"Can You Feel My Hurting?"-
Friday, February 21, 2003/03:48 p.m.
Hurt me more! I feel :D! YEAH! I am very happy and trippy and hyper. Dunno why really n__n;; but I have been working like crazy little by little in that site of mine. WeeEE! I finally got the first page of the manga done, I have the story and all, but starting off is the hardest thing x__x I did not know how to start. Guys, go check it out... In fact I would recommend you to go check the page as often as you come to my bloggie :D!! I should update it every once in a while. And also, I added a taggie! So leave your mark there of comments n_n;; Btw! I have the fanart section and I would love if you all guys would draw something from my story so I can put it up! I like fanart of my stories. Hee. I wanna see my characters in you all's style.
-"Can You Feel My Hurting?"-
Thursday, February 20, 2003/10:46 a.m.
My self becomes more and more miserable everytime he is near me I feel I feel many different emotions right now. Every single one of them rounds in between angry and frustated. -growl- I feel ignored and unwated and NOT paid attention to... not by my friends online, but rather the people who should be close to me physically. I feel like crying, but I refuse to do it since there are several people here.
To start off, I am mad because there is this one person who angers me just by looking at him! Argh! I get so mad when I am near him that I feel like bursting out in tears of how mad I am and shouting at him how much he pisses me of. The person is here now e_e;; And I am not gonna mention his name, since half the people who read this don't know him. The fact is that his attitude pisses me off so fuckin' much!! Argh, I am so angry. -snort- You see this guy used to be nice and all, but his actions towards someone close to me REALLY, REALLY, REALLY GET ME SO ENRAGED!!! I wish I could just claw at him and leave a big mark accross his face! I better stop talking about that dumb person because I am going to end up crying. I think I feel jelous of this person... the worst thing is that I am jelous of a guy? X__x;; Grr... I never felt like this before, but it sure makes me mad! Anyways, people, have you guys checked out that one 'site' of mine? The link is in the last entry. I hope you all are having a better day than me... Really no physically here seems to be interested on what I am or anything I do v_v;; That is not fair. I need someone here to have a little more interest on the things I can talk about. People just seem to drift away from me since I do not seem to be interesting at all. I am a looser x__e; I sure feel like one right now.
-"Can You Feel My Hurting?"-
Tuesday, February 18, 2003/06:25 p.m.
Being busy all day long yet nothing seems productive I feel HURRAY ME! I finally did a page for one of my stories x__x it is all gay looking and crappy but at least I can keep my stuff there :D!!! I mailed myself the story and some character designs and soon I shall really call the Copyright x_x;; I mean is halfway done, but meanwhile I have no money I shall go to a notary! :D!! WeeEEE! Anyways, here it is The Gaia. That link should take you there n__n;;; and if anyone is kind enough to like edit my banner pics maybe I could even use 'em for the page instead. I have no photo editor so everything is... natural? xD! I guess...
Whoo! At least I am happy about, but of course half the things are under construction for the meantime, except the home and the gallery E___e;;; and I liked to Lina's site since it is also about her manga and art stuff. Btw, don't you have an art site Kiko??? :D? In other things, I played this VERY boring Yu-gi-oh duel with double team x_x;;; Me and Rick vs. Bryan and Eddie... -cringe- yeah, it was damn boring. And then the opponent's bragging personalities really gets to my nerves, I really felt like clawing them both V___V! Grr... Well, besides that, my class is gonna start soon so I better do some more stuff in my so called 'web site'.
-"Can You Feel My Hurting?"-
Monday, February 17, 2003/11:13 a.m.
Able to enjoy all the time in the world doing nothing I feel :D! Heya everybody! I am actually quite cheerful today, but the enviorment around me really does not help e_e;;; half the people look so gloomy today, but I suppose I understand since I have had does nasty bad feeling days. My weekend was alright if I say so myself, hee! I went to Nath's house on Saturday and Sunday and we basically just played tons of video games x_x;; I know, we are loosers, but the world keeps moving. Either way :D! Nathan got me the best weapon for Yuri in Shadow Hearts and that is a good thing. He also got me farther in Resident Evil Code Veronica o_O;;; and I borrowed his comic book too since it has such a pretty picture of Alexia... Alfred actually, but it is still real pretty x__x ;; (is not that disgusting?) Oh well.
As I said before :D! I got to scan and upload pictures today so here goes fer you all! + Yorda + This one is very odd x_x;; I was inspired in my Art Appreciation class to draw Yorda-sama from the game ICO, just a very simple sketch. + Spectrum + Wee! :D! Pretty Experiment 0749 mostly known by Spectrum came out really nifty n__n;;; And this drawing started as a big messup until I colored it. Yay! + Liato + Oh! A rather high ranked vampire x_x;; it has been a while since I do not draw my old, old vampires. Liato-sama is like about a 4th generation one O__o;;; that is actually pretty scary. He looks younger that his real permanent age in this picture though xD! + Sephiroth + That one collage thing I was talking about a few posts ago :D!! It came out so much better than what I thought I could even do! Hurray, there is the meteor, Safer Sephiroth, the wing (one winged angel), and sephiroth himself n__n hope my teacher likes this. + Sephiroth Again + this is the same picture, except that I scanned the corner so you guys could see the wing coming out of the paper x_x that would not fit whole in the scanner. So that is all fer today! Hope you guys really like. I am still working on the letters since I really wanna make pretty drawings for them v_v I will set my mind to concentrate! And well, I shall start an account in angelfire so I can do that one site I was talking about before, about Athena and her story and all that junk. So maybe I can even use FrontPage for that :D! It should work actually. Anyways, take care people, bye bye!
-"Can You Feel My Hurting?"-
Friday, February 14, 2003/08:53 a.m.
Full of joy I am today that I cannot put words to it I feel I sure hope everyone is having a nice time today, I can tell you I am. N____n;;; Ricky-koibito made my day greatly since he gave me all this pretty stuff for Valentine's and that is really nice of him. I got flowers! :D! I like recieving flowers a lot, and some other nifty and pretty stuff. Ricky sure thought of everything! But the most important part is that I get to spend lots and lots of time with him today! :D!! So we are starting of early so we can enjoy ourselves most of the day n__n;; WeeEEee! -happy- I got Kiko's letter yesterday and that was good :D! I was expecting it and I gave my bro his Valentine card thingy xD He said it was cool. Now, my replies to the letters might take some time since I have been sorta busy and I have to write to 3 people now o__O;; so please be patient and bare with college time. I am planning on making this Angelfire site of one of my stories. Hopefully I can make a good setup and figure out how to make different pages in the same site x_x;;; it sounds so freakin' hard already. Wonder if virtue can do that still since I just went to this virtue page o_o;; thought it was dead, but obviously it is still up somehow. Anyways, nothing to scan today, but I am sure that on Monday I can show you all these new drawings and stuff to scan.
-"Can You Feel My Hurting?"-
Wednesday, February 12, 2003/04:06 p.m.
I have hopes that perhaps someday I will escape my steel cage I feel I just finished taking my 3rd Test in a row for this week v_v; I skipped a few times this week too... Anyways, the classes are boring and they really do not help me e_e;; I still got good grades except Biology. ARGH! Anyways, I hope that I will improve that. Either way, I finally got Surge to order me something from ebay! Wee! It is this pretty Solid Snake figure from Metal Gear Solid 2. I sure hope I win the bid so I can get it as soon as possble. Yeap.
I get to draw anything I want for my Art Appreciation class n_n;; So I choose to draw Sephiroth... again. xD! I guess this is like my Memorial Sephiroth Month of Katya or something since I have been really emotional about him and really touchy about comments people come up with about the One Winged Angel o_o;; I have a great idea for a 'collage' for the sketchbook since she just wanted it colored and what not. I shall put an abstract looking Meteor behind Sephiroth and then put an abstract wing besides him. Maybe I can get to fit the lyrics of his theme song too. I shall scan it when I am done! n__n;; that way you all can see. I need to write those reviews of Sephiroth in those different games since I have decided that whenever I make a layout I shall always do that about that certain character or... whatever it is I am doing the layout in. Guess I will do that now meanwhile I wait for Koibito-sama... maybe I have to end up going to the anime club to look for him x_x;; Darn.
-"Can You Feel My Hurting?"-
Tuesday, February 11, 2003/07:56 p.m.
One more thing done in this small space I feel Well I have archived. This time it was actually faster than I usually do o_O;; but I had an urge to express Sephiroth's feelings so there! Hee. Anyways, I like how it came out and I better hurry since I just have some time before I need to go to class again.
-"Can You Feel My Hurting?"-
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