my pitas page

So you can't see me, no, not at all.
In another dimension, with voyeuristic intention,
Well secluded, I see all.
With a bit of a mind flip

You're into the time slip.
And nothing can ever be the same.
You're spaced out on sensation.
Like you're under sedation.
Let's do the time-warp again.

trips home really do my head in. it's like i am trapped in the past but forced to face head-on the looking-glass of the future. i love seeing my family, and even though they drive me to insanity, i miss them daily.

...it's always hard saying goodbye to my grandparents. i am very lucky to still have both my baba's + zeida's. i have always been very close with them. we used to drive in from the suburbs every weekend on either saturday and sunday afternoon to visit with them. being forced to accept cookies, grapes and sweets. i love them each very much.

i am starting to lay down more bricks... figure out which path i want to follow. i get lost sometimes, or fall behind but i know i can catchup. it's amazing how throughout my life i've reached various points where i can't remember where i'm going or how i got there. i figure out the next step every time - still, i sometimes panic and forget that the only way out is know that it all works out in the end, and to keep taking deep breaths.

fall is on it's way. it's always been one of my favourite seasons. i always try to set new goals and to reflect on the past year in the spirit of rosh hashana and yom kippur. i generally make mental lists, but sometimes i write them down. this year i will abide the current popular corporate capitalist slogan and DO MORE WITH LESS:
listen more, say less
dream more, question less
exercise more, eat less
read books more, watch tv less
laugh more
love more...

i am sweating the ganges down my forehead. my sideburns are plastered to my slickened face. it's frickin' hot in here, so take off all your clothes...

i am in a crappy mood today. feeling exhausted by the heat. last night i passed out at about 9:30 p.m. woke up even more tired. ugh.

just got home from irie with the jude. it was yummy as usual but i am too busy sweating the big stuff to enjoy the little things.. don't want to get into it but it's not worth the headache i am sure. anyhooo.. we are off to montreal on friday. not looking forward to it. much as i miss my grandparent and am excited to catch up with les (he's been travelling europe since may!) - i know my folks are going to give me hell. i am too old for lectures, yo.

alright. i need to go submerge myself in the coolness of the basement... which is probably lukewarm today. hurrah.

millions of thoughts, ideas, to-do's flying around inside my head. so much i want to say, try and be. not even sure how to put it all into words.. at least not publicly. i think i need more time out. the cottage got me relaxed, but now i seek a spot for quiet thinking... the web is not the place to get introspective.

i have the hic!cups. doh. i am back in town, chilled out relaxed and very much in love after a week of sun n' fun in the country with the dude.

while i was away i finished reading fast food nation. it was a tough read, and while slanted, it will force me to think twice before putting anything processed into my mouth. i've always been suspicious of mcfood and am now even more turned off. in fact, i plan on avoiding meat and chicken for the next little while. i've never been the activist-type but i do care for all living beings and the way the animals are treated disgusts me. in fact - that's one of my criticisms of the book, it does not really address the animals' rights.

for those of you cheez whiz types who don't give a shit about any of this, you might be more interested in even faster food. chicken mcnutty!