Specs

Name: Sharky
Interests: art, fencing, comics, opera, video games
Religion: Christian (Mennonite with a touch of Buddhist)
Philosophers: Camus, Plato, Ayn Rand, Milton
Musicians: Aqua, Elgar, Jared Hudson, Nirvana, OLP, Soad, Wagner
Anime: Cowboy Bebop, Spirited Away, Naruto, Cyborg 009, Ghost in the Shell: SAC
Manga: Naruto, Houshin Engi, Get Backers
Games: Old skool Square, Soul Caliber, MGS, GGX

Designer Notes

T3 he ain't, but Bender Bending Rodrigues is the coolest beer-swilling, shop-lifting, human-hating robot out there. Viva Futurama...because the Japanese aren't the only ones who can do cartoons ^^. Pictures taken from everywhere and layout designed and htmled by WhiteCat. Thank you~~!!!! ^o^

Earlier Versions

11/30/02-1/16/03
1/17/03-3/08/03
3/08/03-7/01/03
7/02/03-8/07/03

Violating Parole At

Blue Waters
The Westlakean
Catfish
Life as a man

Programmers

WhiteCat : world walking
Tomo : The Magic Quarter
Ricky : Youko Ricky's Den
Lilisin : Manga Project
Wedge
Lyssie
Steffie
DCB
Chris
Yo-tan
Abe
Bridgette
Cy-kun
Shinkako
Nexy
Raven

Beating Small Children At

Pitas
Penny Arcade : comic
Sinfest : comic
8-bit Theatre : comic
The Onion : gag-news
PlanetFargo : game commentary
Rum and Monkey : political/peegs
Toriyama's World : scanslations
Overclocked Remix : game remixes



Why not?
p0z0wnd

Oh wow, I have so much to talk about. While this was my first Thanksgiving away from home, it was pretty damn sweet. My brother's spending tonight with relatives in Boston and leaving early tomorrow morning, but I enjoyed his (and their visit). Besides that, my floormates rock my world as does my aunt who just mailed me this care package full of sugary-sweet things XD. Hmm...other fun schtuff...the bus ride into Boston yesterday got into an accident and I've seen, like, a thousand movies in the past two days including Matrix Revolutions. Right, I ought to comment on Matrix...

I genuinely liked the third one. Bet you didn't see that coming ^_~. Yes, I'm a traitor, but I don't care what anyone says. Maybe it's because I went in there expecting crap, but I thought it had the same artsy-ness of the first, it wasn't bogged down by the quasi-original philosophy or frenetic action of the second, I could follow the plot (kinda had the whole "Return of the King" thing going on), and the ending...okay, maybe it's because of my personal belief, but, to me, that was the only acceptable ending the trilogy could have. It was a good ending, dammit, and you can say it's full of Hollywood cheese (and it is), but that doesn't make it any less good. So there ^^.

Now I ought to keep plugging away at my writing paper and Russian studying but I'm all distracted o.@. I vaguely want to watch either Ronin or TTT extended edition, which some girls are watching in the common room XD.

Bender last got smashed at 09:54 p.m. on Saturday, November 29, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

It's a chopper, baby XD

Nyah...the hall is so empty ^^. There's four people besides myself on the floor and today we went shopping for Thanksgiving dinner. A lady in the parking lot was nice enough to drive us and our groceries back to campus, but Adriana and I walked so we could stop by Sam Goody, whose store is going out of business. This means huge discounts, and I have my eye on FF Tactics and Virtua Fighter ^^;;;.

Anyway, besides the whole dorm giving off "The Shining" vibes and me just finishing "28 Days Later" (pretty good, although I'd have liked to see the "idea" developed a little more), I'm content...so content that I don't feel like doing my papers ^_^. Sometimes I can't decide whether I'm an easy going person or just horrendously selfish and apathetic, but sometimes I don't worry about that.

Hmm...the more I type the more maudlin and introspective I seem to be getting so we'll stop this right now ^_~. There's an Inner Cynic two parter which aren't entirely true...I do accept waffles as a substitute. And a third seperate one. Now that my pens have had a long awaited cleaning, I ought to work on things that need finishing ^^***.

Bender last got smashed at 09:50 p.m. on Wednesday, November 26, 2003,
He was whistling Flower of Carnage, Kill Bill

Kill Bill

Bwah. Melissa is completely addicted to Naruto and it makes me very happy ^^. After finishing up the Zabuza arc, I dragged her into Boston to see "Kill Bill." If you've heard that it contains extremely graphic violence, you've heard right. Still, it's an excellent blend of western and eastern influences with quirky, visual-oriented humor, and I'd even say contains an idea beyond the copious spurting of blood and flying of limbs. If that sentence had far too many big words (hell, I couldn't understand it o.@), what I'm getting at is, if you've a strong stomach, definitely check it out ^^.

Bender last got smashed at 11:55 p.m. on Sunday, November 23, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

Tricksey! False!

d00dd00d00d00d~~~!!!! I just got through watching the extended edition of "The Two Towers." omgomgomgomgomg....it's so fucking sweeet. Holy shit, they added in some of my favorite moments from the book and Faramir is cool and Boromir appears and Gollum is fucking awesome and Eowyn is my hero and Theoden is badass and Gimli rocks them all XDXDXDXD. I miss yooooouuuu~~~!!! We're going to talk when we get back, yes? XDXDXDXD.

Bender last got smashed at 08:40 p.m. on Thursday, November 20, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

They all made in Taiwan

*grins* Today was gooooood...well, more specifically this evening. It was Hodge's annual Thanksgiving dinner for Russian 101 students at his house. He's an amazing cook and there was so much stuff. Caviar, pickled mushrooms, smoked salmon, brown bread, soups, dumplings, chocolates, cake...the works. And alcohol...teehee ^o^. Quite nice Russian red wines, amazing Russian beer; I'm talking excellent. The only kind of beer I like is the stuff from Bavaria, and I thought this was damn good. Did I mention the vodka? It was yummy =9. I'd been under the impression that vodka was like axle grease, but this stuff was very smooth and had a wonderful aftertaste....I'm seriously considering taking Leslie up on her liquor-run offer. Hmmm, I better stop talking before you people think I'm lush ^^***.

Right, and in other news, here's a picture of Vimes and Sybil because they are far too cute and squishy together (although VetinarixVimes is still my guilty pleasure ^^***).

Bender last got smashed at 10:02 p.m. on Wednesday, November 19, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

Did you say nerd?

I'd just like to point out that I've completed Snake's skateboarding mission and I feel like dumbshit for not figuring out how to trigger the semtexes earlier >o>. That said, apparently my neighbors have designs on my PS2 for Thanksgiving break. I really ought to give in and buy SC II before then so we can play party games as opposed to only RPGs which I brought along.

And my brudda's coming up for the break and he's a pretty big fan of the fighter. There's a mixture of anticipation and nervousness at seeing my brother for almost a week straight. I really do want to see him but I'm still generally worried for reasons that are hard to explain. Meh. You need to relax. *pets kitty* It's really okay...I promise ^^;;;.

Anyway, I was going to see Matrix III with Melissa on the weekend, but I think I'm going to try to convince her to see Kill Bill instead. That movie looks so badass XD. Two Towers extended edition came out today...two days until it should arrive *crosses fingers*.

Bender last got smashed at 08:16 p.m. on Tuesday, November 18, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

Change....you've got to change the world...

Damn, I have a lot I could talk about...but I don't feel like it! Instead I'm going to talk gaming. I want PoP and Amplitude >o>. Also, I'd like to see the whole of the Xenosaga II TGS trailer, but there's only one place where I can find it, and the stoopid site keeps cutting me off before I can finish downloading ;o;. Damn French >_<. But yeah, and everyone should watch the MGS3 TGS teaser, not because it's Snake or MGS, but because...just watch it! I want someone who understands!! *lonely wind whistles*

And on that note, instead of reading Victorian comedy, I've been playing the MGS skateboarding game, which is surprisingly addictive. I played it when I first got Substance then proceeded to ignore it due to the extensive amount of other goodies in that game. Anyway, for Snake's mission, I've managed to do everything (although not necessarily in the same run ^^**) except blowing the plant up. I've found and triggered two of the semtexes, but I think there are two more and I have no clue where they are. It makes me sad ;.;.

Mah, I'm sorry if my rants fail to amuse or inform you. I realize this blog is yet another waste of space on the Internet, but it's my waste, goddammit, so you'll just have to deal ^^;;;. Sorry, I'm a wee bit giddy o_@.

Hmmm...I should probably archive soon....hey, what's up?

Bender last got smashed at 12:39 a.m. on Tuesday, November 18, 2003,
He was whistling Butterflies and Hurricanes, Muse

How did it come to this?

So I really love the band "Muse." No, I really love them. It started when I saw the music video for "Time is running out" and I decided to look around for some of their stuff (God bless the Internet). Amazing vocals, amazing guitars, really badass hair ^^;;;.....I don't know if they'll be a long standing obsession, but they're waaaaay up there on the current list of "Sharky's favorite things."

And in other news, I found out I'm not the only one who's in love with the Russian prof. One of my floormates and I decided that, since he's married and we're ten years too young, we're going to start a school where he can teach boys to become "The Perfect Man" (tm). I think it's a rather brilliant plan myself ^^;;;.

Bender last got smashed at 12:23 a.m. on Thursday, November 13, 2003,
He was whistling Time is running out, Muse

Cool kids never have the time

I was going to tell you about cool happenings in my life, and also have a rant about online art theft and how effing stupid it is, but then I had a shit load of art to post, so we'll skip straight to that ^^.

First, two new Inner Cynics, which I've been meaning to do for, like, a month, and now that I am absolutely caught up with my work, I have no excuse ^^. They're...mostly...true, but I don't think the store turned off the machine because of me. And, yes, that's a stapler. Moving on, several new pages of the unnamed Lazarus Child comic and a manga-esque piccy of Vimes, who gets progressively prettier each time I draw him. At this rate, he'll soon be a girl >_>.

Bender last got smashed at 10:36 p.m. on Sunday, November 9, 2003,
He was whistling 1979, Smashing Pumpkins

Look at my mad time-wasting skillz...

I'm so damn capricious. This'll probably be an on and off thing, since I really need to get back to work on Triple Strike (not to mention midterms >_>). So don't expect anything...you should know by now not to ^^.

Bender last got smashed at 12:24 a.m. on Thursday, November 6, 2003,
He was whistling Wanderer Flayer Diablo II remix, Bart Klepka

Rakugaki~~!!

Art update. Woo. First, reading Monstrous Regiment, the image of "Vimes the Butcher" cracked me up so much, I had to draw this. And today at the Sci-fi club meeting, we had a doodling session, so I did an actiony pic of BoB. I admit it is nothing when compared to Jack's pic of "Spaceplant vs Cat" in a game of Go. Talk about works of art XD.

Bender last got smashed at 12:52 a.m. on Wednesday, November 5, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

Vaguely philosophical entry

Almost a year ago, I posted my first pita entry making a promise not to "use this as a way to gossip about my friends or tell them things/try to get attention without going through the trouble of actually mentioning it in a conversation." So I really should be writing a personal e-mail, but I'm enough of an ego maniac to believe what I say is worth everyone's time. So here it goes...

Cy-kun, I don't think anyone would argue that you don't have the right to post something in your blog, or that you should simply ignore an issue about which you feel strongly. But with the right to speak your opinions comes the responsibility to treat others with respect. You may not consider it a personal attack, and that's great for you, but not everyone feels that way. Some people do take it personally, and it is the speaker's responsibility, before he/she tries to communicate, to ask the question, "Will what I'm about to say cause more harm than good?" It's a hard line to walk, but I don't believe hurting another, whether through malice or just misunderstanding, is ever right or justifiable. I think I know you well enough to believe that you'd agree with me.

You're not a stupid or cruel person, so you probably know this. I don't know how you feel, but I write this in the hopes that it will prevent any misunderstandings/hurt feelings. It might be presumptuous, since I'm not really directly involved in the issue, but maybe that makes my thoughts less biased or emotion tinged.

In any case, if I'm making an issue out of something that is not there or completely misrepresenting somebody/something, perhaps this idea can still be applied to other situations. See how self-absorbed I am? ^^**

Bender last got smashed at 09:02 p.m. on Tuesday, November 4, 2003,
He was whistling The Whole World, Outkast

*twitches* I don't know if it's good or bad....

Geeeh?! Movie?!....Snake?!....my brain hurts >_> Gwaaah???!!! This quarter in Japan?! Usually these online game-news thangs are full of crap, but one can hope o.o. Citaaaaann-Seennseeeiii~~~ Please come to meeeee~~~~......

Bender last got smashed at 12:09 a.m. on Monday, November 3, 2003,
He was whistling Pacman Ghost mix, Aphex

I am a consumer whore

Bwah, my spork 0wnz j00 ^_~. And molodetz to you for joining NaNoWriMo. Hell, kudos to everyone who has what it takes to write that much. I would do it myself, except I'm too lazy to succumb to peer pressure ^^***. But I did write something, however poor, and I'm posting it as per requested by a certain brain-devouring kitty. Oh, and I like the new layout better than the old one, simply because this one is more easy to navigate/read through. And Loki doesn't hurt...

Anyway, I present to you an x-over of MGS and SG-1 in the form of Metal Gate Solid (part 1?). It's gen and falls this short of being truly funny. Geezum, since when did I become such a shameless hussy? >_>

Oh, and I uploaded the Mac software you need to my software section on the ftp server. It's fairly self-explanatory, but feel free to drop me an e-mail if you are confused about how to use them ^^.

Bender last got smashed at 11:29 p.m. on Sunday, November 2, 2003,
He was whistling Live from the Yggdrasil Xenogears remix, JigginJon T

Lalala

First things first. The 'rents are coming tomorrow for parents weekend, and Saturday, I'll be at a fencing tournament. Sunday, I'll probably be scrambling like mad to finish up my homework, so yeah ^^. Anyway!

I just got back from dinner celebrating Bx's birthday. Because we divided a few dishes between the group, the cost wasn't bad, and it was a pretty nice place. The butternut squash ravioli was so amazing gooooood *flutters*. Yes, I'm a whore to my stomach ^_~. And we saw the northern lights. Yeah, I'm talking the goddamned Aurora Borealis o.@. It's so crazy. Very beautiful, but definitely crazy ^^.

Bender last got smashed at 08:38 p.m. on Thursday, October 30, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

I would give anything

So yesterday was the first snow of the fall. On a rational level, I can deal with that, but the Texan in me is like "wtf??!!" It didn't help that Irena mocked my pain >.>. Ignoring the weather, the day started pretty miserably, and I still had a touch of post-Russian depression. I've decided my relationship with the Russian language is a form of Stockholm Syndrome. The more it hurts me, the more I love it and the more I want to throw myself off the top of Jewett ^^.

But! While I was moping, I ran into Vicky (a fencing-mate and Russian native-speaker), so we sat around conversing in Russian, then went to her room to eat Russian candy and watch a French movie dubbed in Russian. And then I worked on my biology report, which I misunderstood and did it on the wrong topic, but our lab instructor is so nice that she's giving me an extension. She complete rocks ^^. So it's all around good times on the "school" front ^o^.

Vimes!
Discworld: Which Ankh-Morpork City Watch Character are YOU?

brought to you by Quizilla

Bwah. Yanno, my plan was to take the quiz honestly then tinker with the results until I got Vimes, but I got him on my first try. Excellent XD. He's so badass!!! *squeaks* I really hope to get into Boston tomorrow and buy the new Discworld book among other things >_<. Anyway, I don't see myself as generally badass like Vimesy-dear, nor "tightly wound" in the remotest sense of the word but, then again, the reason I try to be laid back is because the rest of my family is emotionally hyperactive, so maybe I'm subconsciously crazy....*trails off* Yeah, I'm good. Now if I could stop staying up till 3 am sitting in the kitchen talking to people o.@.

Bender last got smashed at 12:02 p.m. on Friday, October 24, 2003,
He was whistling Be Like That, 3 Doors Down

>_> Geh.

Urrrg...st00pid pitas >_>. Fortunately, I still have my last post:

All right! To make it up to y'all for that big long ego-centric entry, today is dundundun...social blogging!

Lyssie, I know what you mean ;.;. Amano-Sensei is...Amano-Sensei, and that's all that can be said ;o;. But do you know about "1602?" It's the Marvel 'verse set in the 1600s, written by Neil Gaiman. I'm waiting for the graphic novel to come out, because collecting comics is time consuming and rather futile, but it looks pretty badass *o*. Ah, here we go...

You people make me cry...although it's just as well I didn't meet Pratchett, because no doubt I would melt into a blubbering pile of goo and scare the poor guy ;.;.

And Raven, my roommate from L.A. had James Marsters come in to teach a seminar on something or other in school. I hadn't realized he wasn't British, although he apparently does keep his hair bleached ^^. Yum =9.

Anyway, I know exactly what you're talking about. I've got a lot of work to do, but there's so much free time that I slack off far too much >_>. Such as sitting around until 2 o' clock in the morning drinking Coke through a Twizler, laughing at excerpts from fashion magazines....or just spending too much time on the 'net >_<;;;.

Shinkako~~!!! Don't worry. I think we all do things we recognize as bad or hypocritical. I finally figured me despising myself wasn't actually helping, so now I'm kinda "meh." Which probably isn't much better, but at least I enjoy my own company ^_~. And, I'm sure you've seen this, but what do you think? The problem is, I have such I huge Mega Man (and more specifically MMX) bias, that Capcom could put shit in a dvd container, label it Mega Man 5000, and I'd think it's the greatest thing since the SNES. ^^** Why yes, I'm sad.

And finally...j00...*huggles* very belated happy birthday...I am t3h suck o.@.

Bender last got smashed at 08:14 p.m. on Tuesday, October 21, 2003,
He was whistling One who bares his fangs at God, Xenogears

Buffy and Angel: Not OSHA Certified

My name is Sharky. I'm a recovering Buffy-addict. Now that I've been almost a year without any Buffy whatsoever, I can finally admit to my addiction. In highschool, like clockwork, I'd run home to catch the Buffy reruns showing on FX, then I'd watch the new episodes on WB or UPN or whatever station-of-the-week owned Buffy. I didn't talk to my family. I didn't do my homework. After all, Buffy didn't need to do her homework, and Willow was doing just fine in school exclusively studying occult rituals. Why should I waste my precious Buffy-watching time doing inconsequential things like physics and English? I lived Buffy. I breathed it. I had Giles and Oz and Spike. They were all I needed.

And then "Angel" came along, and I became an Angel-addict. It's hard to imagine how I accomplished anything at the height of my addiction. It got so bad, I stopped discussing Final Fantasy games with John and we'd only. talk. about. Angel. I lived Angel. I breathed it. And I pretended it was only because of Doyle, but when he left, I still watched. I was an Angel-watching fiend. I even stopped wondering why Angel kept on standing in the light without pulling the whole "snap, crackle, pop" routine other vampires did.

It wasn't until the sixth season of Buffy and the fourth, kind of third, season of Angel that I began to break free of my dependancy, and didn't have to see every episode of either show. Just most of them. Okay, so all of them, but at least I could admit they were kinda crappy. Kinda. It took several weeks in bed and large quantities of methadone and hot cocoa before I could, at last, emerge Buffy and Angel-free.

My name is Sharky. I was a Buffy-addict. I'm not anymore. It's just...it's just my fencing captain is a Buffy-addict, and she owns all the seasons, and I have a dvd burner, and she's willing to lend them to me and what's the harm in seeing just a few of the old episodes, right? Afterall, it's just a tv show; they're not that addictive...

Bender last got smashed at 12:07 p.m. on Tuesday, October 7, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

Oh, we are smitten...

Wow, I have been so amazingly unproductive ^o^. w007~~! I did, however, make this, which is a cover to a cd I made for my writing class. Yes, I'm a dork and a loser, but I think it's funny, so there ;P. Anyway, this is the reason I asked all those questions about dvd ripping on the forum, if anyone is curious ^^. Now I will actually do schtuff I'm getting graded for ^^**.

Bender last got smashed at 10:27 p.m. on Monday, October 6, 2003,
He was whistling We Are Smitten, Frogs

I'm a knave...but I'm brave! XD

Huh. Apparently I have a ganglian cyst on my left wrist, which explains why I've been having on and off pain for...er...as long as I have ^^. It's kinda nice to actually know the reason, although it kinda sucks 'cuz there isn't anything I can do about it >_>.

Anyway! I'm posting more for the sake of posting than anything else. I showed a friend around Cambridge and she took me to this Japanese market thing, so now I have pocky and some red-bean paste sweets ^o^.

Riiight...not much else to say...I finally got around to playing a demo of Amplitude and I must say it really really rocks ^^. I'd heard it was pretty cool, but I also hear how badass DDR is and I have very little love for that game ;p. But Amplitude...yeah. You feel so badass as you blow shit up making muzack XD.

Hmmm...what else...? Right. I should do homework o.@.

Bender last got smashed at 07:51 p.m. on Sunday, October 5, 2003,
He was whistling Xanthias the Bold, Frogs

Welcome to a world of pain ^^

d00d! Leslie gave me sushi! *flutters* Apparently it's as a "thank you" for lending her my PS2, since I'd mentioned I was planning on either watching a movie or playing something and she felt guilty ^^. I had homework to do anyways, so hey ^o^.

Now...I know I'm gonna come off sounding like a flightly fangirl, but Oh. My. God. I want to see "Return of the King" bad. Of course, considering I was sniffling throughout the trailer, I know I'm going to be bawling through the entire movie. Theoden!!! ;o; Durnhelm!!! *o* <3<3<3<3 Shelob alone looks so fucking badass and everything else....*twitches*. Guwaaaahhhh~~~~!!! I wanna do shit like that when I grow up...wait I am grown up. Damn >o<.

Oh, this is something I threw together in fifteen minutes to pin on my wall. It's nothing spectacular, but it was fun using the ol' markers again and emulating Mignola's...*tries to think of adjective that won't sound obscene or gothic*...lush...style ^^. In any case, I've been wanting to do a piccy of Hellboy for awhile now. He's just so...cutely badass ^_^.

Bender last got smashed at 10:09 p.m. on Monday, September 29, 2003,
He was whistling Nocturn in B flat Minor, Chopin

Must cut back on "Something in the Way"

The good news is the sunflower amputee-victim I rescued from Bio is blooming. It's really pretty despite lacking all its leaves (just don't ask). It balances out all the Nirvana I've been listening to recently. The bad news is I have a splitting headache, a lot of studying to do for Russian, a lot of reading for Bio and if I see any more articles on Somalia, I'm going to go cry myself to sleep and lose all faith in...everything. Sometimes it would be nice if when you ask, "God, why?" somebody would actually come down and explain. Yeah, I know that's not how it works. I'm just sayin'...

Bender last got smashed at 09:35 p.m. on Sunday, September 28, 2003,
He was whistling Don't speak, No Doubt

I am the queen of France

What does it mean when you write the rough equivalent of "I live in a giant bucket" for one of your Russian sentences and the prof puts a smiley face next to that when grading? Then again, this is the guy who quotes Monty Python on a regular basis, discusses Klingon, and says "You are the shit" to illustrate a point about articles. I just never would have thought anyone over the age of 30 watched the "Rejected" videos ^_^;;;.

Anyway! Oh goody! Someone to share my pain XD. Geesh, but he's hot when he bounces off missles *o*.

Anyway, besides studying like mad, 'cuz midterms are coming up and struggling sentence by painful sentence on a paper, I watched an ep of Naruto and HikaGo. Hikaru no Go is really cute and I like it. Usually pilot episodes are kinda slow and dull, so I was thoroughly impressed that it wasn't ^^**. The Naruto didn't jive with me so much, mostly because they spend half the episode talking and/or extending one page of manga into 10 minutes by adding extraneous stuff, and the animation bugged me. I was disappointed >.>. But they're getting into a good arc, and it's nobody's fault that I love the manga so much that I have really high standards for the anime, so *shrugs* nyeh.

Well damn. I've oekaki-ed and I've blogged so I really have no excuse for procrastinating more >_>. Back to paper..

Bender last got smashed at 12:11 a.m. on Sunday, September 28, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

*grooves* Insomnia *grooves some more*

Whoa o.@. I very rarely go to The Magic Box, so I have no idea about the legitamacy, but those pictures sure look real o.@. Strange how I don't really care one way or another if it is. I mean, yeah, I'd buy it, but I don't feel particularly "in touch" with the FF series these days. Now if it were FFVI, that would be a different story. I wanna see Gau CGed all purdy ;o;.

Anyway, I realize it's been awhile, but the only thing I'm going to mention is that Samdhong Rimpoche, Tibet's prime minister in exile spoke at Wellesley about Tibet's situation and also his personal beliefs. Not only did I gain a renewed sense of hope about the world and humanity, but I had an epiphany, which I'd love to share with y'all, but there are some things one can put on the Internet and some things that one shouldn't...and I'm not talking about, like, mp3s or pr0n or low-quality .avis ^_~.

And I realize I shouldn't do shameless plugs, but on the ftp server, check out "Ninja of the Night" under my videos. Is really fucking funny XD. And while your at it, check out the "Twin Snakes" trailer. I mean JEEZUZ. It's so goddamn drool-worthy on so many levels. Snake...Snake with Stinger...Ninja...Hind-D...Rex...=9. I wouldn't buy a GameCube just for it, but damn ;.;. Just damn.

Bender last got smashed at 02:00 a.m. on Saturday, September 27, 2003,
He was whistling Insomnia, ATB

So much for productivity....

I found a 7+ minute Tetris remix...my life is now complete.

Bender last got smashed at 09:08 p.m. on Sunday, September 21, 2003,
He was whistling Tetris remix, fast idio

Dududu da da da da-dada~~~ XD


Which Survivor of the Impending Nuclear Apocalypse Are You?
A Rum and Monkey joint.

Is that not the greatest thing 3v4r? XDXDXDXDXD~~~

Today actually turned out quite nice. I got up late (woo! XD) and plotted with Julia about starting a Pirate-Club (and part-time Viking-Club), which the campus is sorely lacking. This would entail, besides dressing up and saying "arr" and watching pirate movies and occasionally wearing horned helmets, pranking other campuses in creative, non-violent ways, 'cuz I'm like a pacifist and stuff, yo ^_~. So if anyone has ideas for creative, non-violent, non-hurtful pranks, lemme know. All would be greatly appreciated.

And since I spent the evening procrastinating and watching this amazing one-woman act, I ought to try to do something productive.

Bender last got smashed at 08:56 p.m. on Sunday, September 21, 2003,
He was whistling Final Fantasy VII Battle Theme, Nobuo Uematsu

Long arse entry

First, a disclaimer. Okay, to be perfectly honest, I usually just skim through your entries 'cuz they're really long and I have the attention span of a chinchilla on crack. And so are yours for that matter o.@. So here's my really long-ass entry. Booyah~!

A story is never completely written nor a picture completely painted until someone sees it, because it all comes down to communication. A story (in whichever medium) is a way for one person to give something or to speak to an audience, whether that be about an idea or ethic or just plain food for thought. You can't jealously guard a character because the character isn't "alive" until someone other than yourself perceives that character.

You may not like how others perceive a character, but that's part of the bargain. It makes the character deeper and more real than what the artist (I'm including writers in that category) could create otherwise. Without an audience, characters are flatter and more allegorical. Tolkien, father of the fantasy genre, hated allegory with good reason. It simplifies things and eliminates answers to what should be an open-ended question.

This is the part where I get to be a hypocrite. See, I despised what our English class was forced to do to Jane Eyre. We read symbolisim and meaning into Every. God-forsaken. Thing. It annoyed me, ESPECIALLY how the teacher pronounced "Eyre." But I understand where she was coming from. Because Jane Eyre is really just an over-cliched love-story until the audience looks more closely at the characters and perceives them with the reader's own particular lenses, thus giving them new layers and depth.

I think that's the most interesting part of a story (and the creation process) for the artist. You give characters motivation with the understanding that not everyone will see it the same way. That's what makes it fun and exicting. If they're your characters, there's no point writing shit down or what not, because the point of that goes back to the communication thing. Just keep them running around in your head, like BoB does with me. I haven't tweaked him or his universe into a satisfactory conglomerate, so I jealously keep him locked away until I'm sure he's just right.

Anyway, there's my rant. Now, onto life. Friday was good (arr,shiver me timbers), because I not only got to say "Zdravstvititye, mateys!" but I got to play pool. With cute guys. Only problem was I 5ux0red to the m4x and that was very sad/humiliating ^^. Jiayang and I made a pact to practice billards rather than fencing because obviously impressing cute boyz is more important ^.~. And today I visited my aunt. Which is a long story, not necessarily all bad, but nyeh. Not gonna get into it ^^.

Bender last got smashed at 10:10 p.m. on Saturday, September 20, 2003,
He was whistling Seether, Veruca Salt

I forgot!

I almost forgot! Tomorrow is National "Talk Like A Pirate" Day, so, me hearties, talk like pirates, yo. XD

Bender last got smashed at 10:51 p.m. on Thursday, September 18, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

And we all know the same way home

Today was my four class day, but that's okay. It was very, extremely good. I had a head ache when I woke up, but Russian class always makes me feel better (yes, I'm a loser ;P). And and the professor agreed to be my first year advisor! w007 with a seven! He's on leave next semester which is t3h sad, but hopefully my bio lab instructor (this really cool French lady) will agree to do it then. And in any case, Professor Hodge is so cool~~!! I'm so happy XD.

I'm also really tired o.@. Fortunately, all I have is Russian and bio lab tomorrow, and after that the fencing team is going to go play pool at an +18 bar. It's strange to think I'm allowed into those places now. And I can vote. And gamble, and smoke and buy pornography. But the first two are just plain stupid and if I really want to see gratuitous sex, there's something called the "Internet."

Speaking of (the Internet, not necessarily gratuitous sex), I (finally!) finished transcribing the Shanks interview. 'Twas a labor of love, typos and procrastinating. Spoilers are hidden, but sadly, this includes some of the best parts ;.;. But in any case, enjoy.

Bender last got smashed at 10:16 p.m. on Thursday, September 18, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

home, home where I wanted to go

I'd like to point out that I am, in fact, not yet a lesbian. I know! I know! I'm working on it (if just for you), but these things take time, yanno? The real problem is, I've decided to marry my Russian professor in a carefully devised, nefarious plot.

Um, yeah. Anyway! I bonded with the fencing team captain over how EVIL and STUPID the RIAA is. It was great. At least for me, as a child of open-source, I have a lot of repressed rage when it comes to this issue, and when Irena and I started going at it ^^...let's just say there was an equal number of decibels to curse words XD.

I feel much better on a number of different levels. For almost everything here, I pretty much just jumped in and felt right at home. Really the only thing that took time to get acclimated to was the fencing team. I dunno. It's hard to explain how I missed the interaction between myself and Mike and Ray and my teammates. It was...comfortable, in a way that it isn't here, even now. But after two weeks of working out two hours a day with these people, I think I'm finally being accepted...or accepting. I dunno. I ramble ^^***.

And back to the previous topic, because Macs have music sharing through iTunes (I apologize, kay?), I can now boycott buying music cds and still get what I want. Booyah ;P.

Oh, and have I mentioned how much I love you for the Vimesy-goodness snippet? I think I forgot, and I apologize ;_;. <3 Kitty.

Bender last got smashed at 12:19 a.m. on Tuesday, September 16, 2003,
He was whistling Clocks, Coldplay

I've got all my life to live~~ ^o^

Today was rather nice. It was "Flower Sunday" meaning our big sisters took us to an "inter-denominational service for worship and reflection." Yes, I scoff, but damn, they weren't kidding. Besides the Judaic traditions (Judaism, Islam and both branches of Christianity), there was a spiel from the buddhists, hindus, pagans, siddha yogas, sikhs and unitarians as well as a Yanvalou dance routine. They take their diversity seriously at Wellesley o.@. So now I have a big sister and flowers ^^.

My roommates are kinda insane. They want to decorate everything with lights and posters and I'm far too lazy and cheap to actually buy/put up posters. I might eventually be guilted into putting up more schtuff, but as of now, the only thing on my wall is Bob the dinoflagellate, who I took a picture of in bio ^^.

The not-so-good news is that I can't draw worth shit. I guess it's artist's block or something, but nothing I attempt turns out well. Add the fact that I'm still not comfortable with Photoshop versus Gimp, I can't figure out how to change the shortcuts and it's lagging more than fucking Diablo II (and I'm giving it over half my RAM!!), and I'm extremely not amused. It's frustrating to the point of tears, and I haven't felt like that since physics ^^**. But since it's not so good pychologically to trash five or six drawings without accomplishing anything, here's a really fucking lame three-quarters head shot of Raiden, because I suck too much to draw anything of interest.

Sorry for the bitch-fest. I thought it might make me feel better to "get it all out" but it really doesn't. Phe. I think I'll go cry myself to sleep.

Oh yeah, the last statement was complete sarcasm so don't worry about me, kay? ^_~

Bender last got smashed at 11:13 p.m. on Sunday, September 14, 2003,
He was whistling I will survive, Cake

There! New entry!

Gwaaa...it's been awhile, no? My day(s) have been rather long (but good!). The following are things that make me happy. Russian (despite me sucking mightily XD), eating ice cream made with liquid nitrogen, Full Metal Panic (it's pretty fucking funny ^^), getting offically accepted into my writing class one day before the deadline, using the men's bathroom in Barnes and Noble when I really have to pee then watching the expressions on the people's faces when I come out, having a conversation that consists of nothing but quoting Strongbad, Gir and the Rejected videos, meeting gamers, forcing my friend from Russia to listen to my garbled attempts at the language, and Daniel <3~~!!

Not so good things include...well...that's a long story I'd rather not go into, just think about the fact that I'm writing this Saturday night instead of watching Ed Norton with Hannah ;.;. Oh well, you win some, you lose some. I'm going to go back to trying to draw something worth keeping and being antisocial ^^.

Bender last got smashed at 10:58 p.m. on Saturday, September 13, 2003,
He was whistling the drunken carousing of teens

I wanna rage against the machines...

Social blogging! Woo! First off, I don't know what you're talking about! The thing I dislike about iTunes the most is the fade in/out crap. Quite a few of my songs literally go till the last second, so I don't appreciate, say, Metro by Soad fading away before its time (so to speak). And I love skins. ^^** Teehee.

And I can only hope pictures of me being eaten by luggage bring light and joy to all your lives ^^.

For those who care, the interview with Michael Shanks came from SFX August 2003 issue, but it's actually a British magazine (which I found in the used section) so I have no idea how commonplace it is over here. I'm actually considering transcribing the article (although it is FULL of spoilers) for anyone who asks, but lemme know ^^. Just spreading the Daniel-love...it's all good XD.

Lyssie, the main reason I am completely out of tune with most fandoms and especially game fandoms (FF6, MGS and the Chrono series come immediately to mind) are simply the large amount of rubbish and ill characterization plaguing the fanfics. I'm far too lazy to go out and search for the "good shit," so instead I wait for people like you to do good work so I can read it ^^. Although, I have this one doujinshi I picked up kinda by accident with EdgarxSetzer. Edgar being pushy seme and Setzer the flustered uke. Actually, check this out. I posted it ages ago for Rareslash, and never bothered to take it down ^^.

And, now, I'd just like to say that, while I hero-worship Gabe of Penny-Arcade for being such an amazingly badass artist, Tycho is funny as..er..really funny shit. "You dab your eyes at the end and wonder what is so wrong about the love of a lesbian for a dinosaur." *cackles* XD

Bender last got smashed at 08:12 p.m. on Monday, September 8, 2003,
He was whistling Paranoia, Greenday

Yes, I'm a consumer-whore...

Well, I went into Boston with Dahlia today. I discovered the most horrible, evil place on the face of the earth. It's called "The Garage." It has a game dealer (with very reasonable prices), an anime store (featuring, among other things, a 12 inch Solid Snake figurine ;o;), a sci-fi book store, and a place called Newbury comics (imagine the unholy love-child of Hot Topic and Sam Goody with very good prices and you're there). It's also right next door to a Radio Shack. God help me.

I bought SG-1 S3 because he was looking at me with his big blue eyes and how could I possibly say no? So no Soul Caliber 2 for me >_>. Oh, but I picked up a magazine containing an interview with Michael Shanks (because, it's my inalienable right to have at least one school-girl crush). My Stargate Buddies (tm), you so have to see this. It's funny. He's funny. He addresses the issue of slashers, which amuses me to no end, and did I mention he's hot?

Oh, and apparently Neil Gaiman, Dave McKean and Henson Pictures are making a movie called MirrorMask. Badass, no? And and and...Hellboy! *squeaks* The costuming did such a good job of transferring that lush, dark style of the original art into flesh-and-blood. It's amazing, and it's Hellboy. What's not to like?

And finally, here're pics from Wellesley. I am Batman.

Bender last got smashed at 07:23 p.m. on Saturday, September 6, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

Huzzah

*Reads through various rants* Meep. And here I was going to go on and on about how much my Russian prof rocks and how, to quote, I want to marry him ^^. "And this part of the letter is what we linguists refer to as a 'doohickey.'" He's one of those people that make you want to do well so that they have a good opinion of you.

Ah, today was good, if tiring. I did some [H]ardcore bonding with my floormates...I'll explain more tomorrow. I ought to run and finish memorizing the numbers so that said-professor will have a good opinion of me ^^**. Good luck all~!!

Bender last got smashed at 11:06 p.m. on Wednesday, September 3, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

Is happiness really a fish you can't catch?

Interesting fact of the day: the Russian department at Wellesley was founded by Vladimir Nobokov, who gained a great deal of fame from his novel, Lolita. I've been assured the book is in no way autobiographical ^_^***.

Tower Court kinda sucked. The kind of men I want to meet are not going to go to that sort of thing. I want guy friends, not boy friends or a good lay. And the muzack >_<. Wannabe ghetto-licious stuff you only hear at dances composed mostly of upper-middle class white kids.

But Russian kicks ass! It's such a pretty language and the professor rocks ^_^. And now I can read all this, although, I still don't have any idea what they're talking about.

Ah, random note. PS3 is almost definitely going to be backwards compatible with PS2 games, although I've heard rumors both ways about PSOne. My thoughts are that Sony is too business savy to screw up by not including PSOne emulation, but then, up until the N64, I would have called Nintendo business savy as well, so there you go. Not that it really matters. I'll probably be a Republican cranky old woman before they actually start selling the buggers >_>.

Bender last got smashed at 11:46 p.m. on Tuesday, September 2, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

Woo for screencaps ^^**

I have discovered the joy of screencaps. With my lack of tablet, I had to find something to fill the void in my life. And, so, this is really for you (whenever you get back online), but maybe others can enjoy it as well. Now off to meet drunk people. Woo.

Bender last got smashed at 07:25 p.m. on Monday, September 1, 2003,
He was whistling loud, obnoxious music

I'm hungry for lunch...and Snake =9

I'm sorry about your dvd. It's such a good movie too ;.;. No doubt you'll buy a new copy and the old one will mysteriously show up, but c'est la vie.

Characters I like...hmmm...I guess the easiest way to classify most of my favorite characters are imperfect characters with issues that they proceed to work through and deal with. Snake, Vimes, Auron, Elly, Kakashi, Terra, Aoshi, Kid, Genji etc. If I call a character "badass," they're probably part of this group.

After that, I'm quite partial to "trickster" characters, such as Citan, Akabane, Harle and Magus, who act as "wild cards." Nobody is quite sure what they're thinking, so while one might understand why they act in a certain way, one is not sure how this came to be their motivation. Does that make any sense? These characters also qualify as "badass."

The third (and let's say final) category are the characters that are such sweethearts or cuties, my maternal instinct just cries to cuddle them...or, in the case of playable characters, they're just too damn powerful that I can't overlook them ^^***. These include Daniel, Emishi, Norris, Glenn, Lucca, Naruto, Maria etc. They may or may not be "badass." Of course, some categories overlap, but this is just mah general "breakdown."

Ah, so there be my thoughts. Now give me pennies so I can go do some laundry ^_~.

Bender last got smashed at 11:16 a.m. on Saturday, August 30, 2003,
He was whistling roomie's music

Oh God, when I'm a bitter old lady, I'm going to get a job at a coffee shop just so I can do some of these things XD. Am reading A Clockwork Orange. Feel strangely...not dirty...perhaps just confused. o.@.

Bender last got smashed at 05:31 p.m. on Friday, August 29, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

Oh, I forgot...drabble...

"So...I push this button here?"

"Nonono! Push triangle! Tri-an-gle! How does a circle look anything remotely like a triangle?!"

"Okay...uh...now what?"

"Right. Hold R-One...R-One. One. Not two. One!"

"Geez, will you sit down? You're pissier than Meryl that time I used her panties to clean my PSG-1. So what do I do now?"

"I don't know. Maybe kill the people that are shooting at you??!!"

"Uh...why isn't it responding?"

"Because you're dead. You died. God, Rose got farther than you did. I can't believe how much you suck."

Otacon stalked away disgustedly, looking mortally offended. Snake remained on the couch, controller held awkwardly in his hands. He watched Hal's retreating form before turning his attention back to the television. It was asking him if he wanted to continue. After three tries and an excessive amount of swearing, he pushed the right button to say 'no.'

Who the hell played these shitty games anyway?

Bender last got smashed at 08:43 p.m. on Thursday, August 28, 2003,
He was whistling whatever the roomie is playing

I am not your autumn moon; I am the night

First off, I send all my luff to those starting up at UT and other places as well~!! And what's this "sarcasm" you speak of? I'm perfectly honest; I just say it in a way that doesn't offend people ^_~.

But seriously, I'm having so much fun up here. I went on an adventure into Wellesley town with several people and they're all such cool people. I'm going to have to pick up some cd-rs and show them a bit of anime schtuff ^^. Friday night, Daliah, Julia and I are going to see "Sheer Madness" in Boston (woo! Boston!). On Monday or something there's the infamous "Tower Court" mixer where all the college guys come to Wellesley looking to score. Oh joy ^^. And yes, I have been warned about those MIT boys. If I do date a nerd, he better be homegrown in Austin, none of these Yankee upstarts ^_~.

On the school front, I've met all of my potential professors and they all seem really nice. If all goes as planned, I'll be taking Russian, Bio (either celluar or organismal, though I'm leaning to organismal), Art History (prehistoric to medieval) and a writing course on the influence of Greek and Roman comedy through the ages. I may not get into that one, but the professor was absolutely thrilled when he learned that I had already studied Plautus in the original and told me to e-mail him if I didn't get in, and maybe something could be worked out ^^. I'm holding off on Japanese, since I don't know if I really want to be taking two languages at introductory level at the same time with a lab course. Bio is going to make me its bitch, I can already tell >_>.

Gwah...I need Photoshop, Flash MX and Adobe Premiere like a heroine addict needs a hit x.X. The computers in the lab (iMac, hee ^^) have all three and it burns us, preciouuusss. *sobs*. Anyway, I'm off to say goodbye to the parents, since they're driving back to Austin, and then mooch ice cream from a "shiding" at Schnieder. Weee, good times.

Bender last got smashed at 08:32 p.m. on Thursday, August 28, 2003,
He was whistling I am the Highway, Audioslave

Art Update

I've got quite a bit o' schtuff scanned. For some reason, I keep associating Vimes (more specifically Nightwatch!Vimes) with the song, "What's Left of the Flag" by Flogging Molly ^^. And I was tempting fate by inking this in the car. Vimes ^o^.

Also, I really really wanna do a Stargate doujinshi. Like a published, on paper doujinshi. Now, of course, I've wanted to do this many a time before, but always, I was low-key about the projects because I was never sure if I'd actually finish. I realize now that that was a mistake, and the only way I ever accomplish anything is if people are nagging me and kicking my arse to do so.

So on that note, here's the cover, this is the back, and this is a sample page.

Ah, and the inner cynic saga continues.

Bender last got smashed at 11:47 p.m. on Wednesday, August 27, 2003,
He was whistling Eleanor Rigby, Beatles

Yo

Okay, I lied. I have access to my Road Runner e-mail account. Ahhh...all is well in the world. Will post art tonight...although this scanner I got (my other wasn't compatible with Mac) is kinda fugly *glares*.

Oh! And I just saw the coloration you did. Very nice. I like Gambit's hair ^^. *pets*

Bender last got smashed at 05:02 p.m. on Wednesday, August 27, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

I live (redux)

Uwah...highspeed Internet connection *purrs* Dial up is on a pain level somewhere between a Britney Spears concert and gnawing off one's own arm and beating one's self to death with it. Anyway, I was gonna do some social blogging, but it's rather overwhelming since so much has happened since I left so I'll stick to a "me and my ego" entry.

I've pretty much settled into Wellesley. I'm so proud of my desk setup. I mean, I seriously want to take pictures of it and waste even more space on the web, that's how infatuated I am with it ^^. It's bitchin', yo.

As for the campus itself, it's exquisitely gorgeous, and so far it's been a lot of fun just getting to know everyone and seeing the sights. We've had our wild lesbian orgy initiation ceremony into the college, so at least that's over with...kidding. Mostly ^.~. Anyway, I can't wait for classes to start...hell, I can't wait to sign up for shit ^^. We'll see if I crash and burn or not, I'm rather optimistic about the "not." ^^

I won't be able to access my e-mail until Thursday-ish, so if you really need to reach me, give a byte to sabraham@wellesley.edu. I'm making friends *gaspshock* so if I randomly start talking about peeps, just nod and smile ^^. Although, as always, each and every last one of you holds a piece of my heart...just don't make too much of a mess with it ^^.

Bender last got smashed at 10:45 p.m. on Tuesday, August 26, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

I live~~~

Will talk more when I get something better than dial-up ^^***. Dial up = t3h b10wz0r.

Bender last got smashed at 11:38 p.m. on Friday, August 22, 2003,
He was whistling Stargate Summer Finale ^^

Online quizzes...I'm such a sell out >_>

You like Whumped Daniel! Oh, the angst...
You like Whumped Daniel!

How do you like your Daniel Jackson?
brought to you by Quizilla

Well, damn. What does this say about me? Actually, I was this close to getting Ascended!Daniel (notice the quiz results below ^^), but Whumped!Daniel is also good. Hell, is there any Daniel that isn't?

Abyss
"You are pointless Daniel episode 'Abyss'. You
don't really do anything helpful, you just
stand there and offer glow-jobs. Unfortunately,
he's not biting."

What pointless Daniel episode are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Yanno, I love the episode "Abyss" to death, but it's kinda true ^^**. Although I maintain it was Daniel pulling some strings to help out Jack >_>. Also, be warned of potential spoilers for some of the results on the "Pointless Daniel Episode" quiz. Funny as hell though XD.

Anyway, muninn is behaving nicely. I think we've worked out most of our differences with this help of this and my dad's sys-admin. Fink is kinda like a god among the Mac-heathens, bringing light and protection to all that will serve it...kinda ^^. I can't use my tablet until I get Photoshop, and my dad is very hard-core against pirating software, even if the cost for a student is still over two-hundred bucks >.>. My tablet is sitting here, unplugged, looking so very lonely and sad...or maybe that's me...taaaaableeeeetttt~~~ ;o;.

This'll probably be my last entry for a while, because on Sunday evening, my family's taking a three-day road trip up to Boston. We'll visit one of my dad's colleagues (whom I'm quite fond of) and my bruda, which'll be interesting. I apologize to everyone whom I've neglected in the e-mail department, and I swear I'll catch up when I get settled in the dorm. I love you people...but then...you already know that ^^.

Bender last got smashed at 01:10 a.m. on Sunday, August 17, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

0wnz0r<\

d00d...*a red exclamation mark shoots above Sharky's head*...WTF?! If I'm slow and everyone else has known about this for a long time, I'm sorry, but otherwise...this is the coolest thing 3v4r XD.

Bender last got smashed at 01:35 p.m. on Tuesday, August 12, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

You can't have pudding if you don't eat your meat

Woo...I <3 people ^^. I can't believe I'm leaving in like...a week exactly o.@. I would say "I have no concept of time other than it is flying" but then I'd be a plagarist in addition to a generally bad person ^^.

However, now at least some peeps understand why Daniel Jackson of "Stargate" is the most squishable, huggable, lovable, hot, pritty puppy-dog boy in the whole of Canada. And on that note, here's an SG-1 fanfic. No couplings, very minimal plot, it's entitled "Even Goa'uld Need to Pee" and is, obviously, humor.

Fuwah. Now I'm going to go back to reading that Batman comic which really does r0x0r my s0x0rz. I mean, wow. It's unbelievably cool *.*.

Bender last got smashed at 12:17 a.m. on Tuesday, August 12, 2003,
He was whistling nothing

1999-2003

Futurama is dead; long live Futurama.

You rekindled viewers' faith in network television...which was then brutally extinguished by network television, but hey, thanks for trying.

Bender last got smashed at 09:28 p.m. on Sunday, August 10, 2003,
He was whistling nothing