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| Monday, March 5, 2001 | 08:21 p.m. |
Into the night..mah new blog :P
Wow! Hoshiko posts! *pose*Ya know..I have no idea why AdultFilter blocked this before..the word "D#mn" shouldn't matter...unless it does, of course :P But not that I've ever noticed ^^; Aaaaie! Survivor on Thursday! XD The tribes are meeeeerging! XP I can't wait!
-Hoshiko
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| Monday, March 5, 2001 | 11:03 a.m. |
I have noticed lately that situations like this, the people that are for the cause (whatever it may be - I will use hentai as an example) are hypocrites. HentaiFREEfree bashes (well, used to bash, before HF closed down) HentaiFREE for their disapproval of hentai. I don't know if HFF specifically claims this, but I have seen tons of people say "you should respect my opinion" when they are not respecting theirs. I know HFF feels this way, because why else would they create the page? People that are more umm... 'advanced' on the web and have opened there mind more are the ones that roll their eyes at the 'naive' surfers who are anti-hentai. Shouldn't everyone just shut up about it and live their own lives with their beliefs? I guess they're free to express them to the world, but seriously... I just find a lot of hypocricy when this happens. Am I the only one?
Onto the specific article. My first gripe was when she says this: "Why not? Because God doesn't." This girl, I think, is one of the many that has been brainwashed by Christianity (this is probably because her father is a preacher). JUST because God doesn't, she doesn't. Personally I think that people should make their OWN decisions in life and not let things be decided by "God".
Point #2: "God knows this. And because he loves us, and hates to see us hurt, he hates sin." Like Yuki put so well.. God? Hates?
Point #3: This kind of goes along with Point #2 ^^ "Then God says that we should hate sin." If I recall, God hates to see us hurt? Pushing aside the whole 'God hates' situation, isn't hating a sin in itself? So .. if we hate sin... we're just in a HUGE pickle now aren't we? And.. if we are supposed to HATE sin, what if we like it? It's in our friggin nature! If God wanted us to HATE it, shouldn't he have created us to hate it?! Why would he give us the natural accepting to something like homosexuality and tell us to hate it?! That's just stupid.
This girl's entire freaking life is run by God. You can tell by the way that she does something JUST because God says so. I am starting to wonder if she is really enjoying her life, or if she has to think about what God will think before doing something. Then again, her father IS a priest. Brainwash city. There is so much hypocricy in the Bible and with Christianity and so many unanswered questions about it that I just flat out don't believe it. The basic rule on my beliefs is that a person should run their OWN life how THEY want to. I've run into some Christians that don't believe in Heaven or Hell. I always ask them "Why do you follow God's rules if you will not be punished for breaking them?" and they can never answer me without saying something about how they are a morally good person. Who gives a flying fack? They believe that after this life there is no more! Why don't they just enjoy it?! Ahh, I don't like people like that. They think that they are such a wonderful amazing person to say no to sin, but then they are not fully enjoying their life. If 'sin' presents itself and I want it, most likely I will take it. This doesn't mean that I have absolutely no moral values. I'm not going to go out and kill another being because it makes my life joyous to see that person die. If it effects another person, most of the time I will no do it. This is because I don't want to hurt someone else simply for my pleasure. And I'm not saying that I've never done that, because I have, but there are just some cases when people really and truly deserve it.
Oh here I go getting into my little religion speech again :P I think you get the main point that I'm trying to make. I'll shut up now! *hears screams of joy* ¬¬
~Kelly! a.k.a. beannnn!!! ^^
P.S. Speaking of hypocricy, how much did I totally just contradict my little "Shut up and live your own lives with your own beliefs"? hahaha ^^;;;;;;
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| Sunday, March 4, 2001 | 09:34 p.m. |
and a little reply of yukinol...
... in my 'journal', that used to be ... private. I never kept it private anyway. I just didn't 'announce' it anywhere. XP
Life is such a precious thing... Especially when you have a headache. -.-; But ahwell, i'll keep smiling. XD ... Have anyone noticed any changes in my attitude? I hope so. ¬_¬;
Yukino went to the movies today. Rejoice. Yukino watched The Cell. She expected more. But the movie was okay. All the effects, and everything. I won't comment on actor's job. How can i coment on things i know almost nothing about? I'm just a person, who amuses herself by acting different characters, but i don't know whether i'm good at it... However, i still believe actors could've done a better job. Okay, enough. I'm not very good at descriptions. -.-;
HIKA! XD *hugs you* No one has the right to judge you. You are what you are, and it's your full right to be so. *hugs you dozen times, until you turn blue* Err... Whoops... Hehe... ^^;; Be yourself mah friend! :D ... Although... Yukinon has no right to say such words... ¬_¬; *cough*
Sasha and Alexandra, they both are real. Alexandra is more official. Sasha is not official. It's like... Alexandra-chan, but not yet so... -.-; Parents call me Sasha. Teachers sometimes call me Sasha. People i know well enough call me Sasha. o.o; Anyway. -.-;
I shall part now. My head still hurts. -.-; I wanted to say something else... And forgot what it was... My, what a good memory Yukino has. -_-;
GAH~! So many things, so little time! Homework-uu, sites, and some job-making-money! O.o;
Well, yea, i guess i wanted to rant about the lack of time. Perfect time to do that, especially when you don't have the time to rant about time... How many times have i mentioned time in the previous sentences? ¬_¬; I never make any sense. -.-
Yukinol, the best medicine around.
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| Sunday, March 4, 2001 | 03:19 p.m. |
Really short.
I'm going off tonight to get my heart broken for the umpteenth time... why do I continue, you ask?
Because I'm a twit.
Ciao...
...HeldDown (The Twit)
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| Saturday, March 3, 2001 | 04:07 p.m. |
So, yeah, after a looooong time of hiatus, here I am, sick with stuck AND running nose, along with a headache _-_;;; Can't think, can't write, can't type..... gah
Tired tired tired... Studied for a chinese exam for nothing, studied the wrong page. Haw haw haw.
Here I am, with a mirror in front of me. "I'm kinda pretty", I thought, but how am I supposed to know? I should not judge my own self. Other people should. I mean, how can you NOT like your own face when you look at yourself every friggin day? You get used to it, then eventually learn to like it... What I see in the mirror.... is a girl, long hair with some orange-ish parts, right eye (left eye IRL) without the 'folding', making it smaller than the left one. Other than that, a nose... gah, don't know if it's pretty or not... then the mouth, a bit too big, and some lips rather pink-ish white and dry.... I just look at this girl, looking pathetic and sad, which reminds my own brain of some Japanese singer with long hair like these.... Namie Amuro, if I remember right. But of course, my hair isn't golden like hers.
I really wonder sometimes, what do people who see me for the first time think of me?
In photos I look so ugly, yet in the mirror I look so... different. It's like if I'm two different persons.... perhaps the camera is just fucked up, I don't know. My dad 'shows off' me to some customers, and they are like, 'yeah, yeah, she's pretty', but would I know if they're being honest? My brother keeps repeating I'm ugly, and perhaps he is right. But hey, I find HIM ugly, while everyone else thinks that he's cute. I guess we can't judge our family... since we look at THEM every friggin day as well...
Looks. Who cares about my looks anyway. One day I look like a cool, popular girl, and the other day I look like a geek, wearing glasses, with hair all over her face, without any kind of jewelry or make-ups. I wonder if people can even RECOGNIZE me. Because a lot of people tell me that they really can't recognize me.
Gawd, what the hell happened to my 'supposed-to-be-happy' post? I am to psycho, I tell you! Too many brain-twisting stuff.... Eva... Matrix... Lain... KareKano... gaaah.....
=dies=
Weird, now that I look at the mirror again, my mouth seems to have suddently become wider.... freakyyyy.....
Gah, freaky and long, long post. I get on hiatus for a few months, then POOF! So many things get out at once x_o I guess I'm not even making any sense. I think I am really psycho. Or perhaps everyone thinks about those stuff.... who knows =P But hey, I realize that I'm psycho! I guess it's a good sign =P Sorry to make you guys/girls go through my 'ranting', but hey, Adam forced me =P I wanted to post this in my own journal, but... =pokes Adam-poo= Or should I call him Rigel? Gah, too many names... =pokes Zeynep, Kelly, Maggie, Jordan/Veronica(still don't know why Kelly calls him like that x_o) and Sasha/Alexandra(GAH, which one is the real one? ;_;)=
=cough and sniffles= Hmm, a few people urging me to go get some sleep... I guess I will, since I was forced to stay up late by my stalker thursday.... and yesterday night I had to study for Chinese exam [the wrong page, though >_<], hm.... hm.....
-Hikaru, who is a bit psycho today... not just a bit, A LOT. I need some Yukinooool....... =bites Yuki who's I-dunno-where=
PS: hmmm I wonder what Yuki is doing right now... I wonder how different our lives are... perhaps she's sleeping? Haw haw haw yeah right ¬¬;;; I wonder I wonder... Do you know what I wonder? =whooshes to bed=
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| Thursday, March 1, 2001 | 11:34 p.m. |
Vertical Horizon - Everything You Want - what is it with me and this song... o.o;
You know you are bored as 'F' word, when you count how many pages are left in your notebook, and you get 69 ¬_¬; And you know you are slowly going insane when you keep abusing your own nick. -_-x And you know that the best thing you can do now is ruin someone's fun for the unindentified period of time, therefor, i'ma going on irc. XP This is life kids. Too bad i really won't be there on weekend. Just today. ;.;
Snow-no. ¬_¬;
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| Thursday, March 1, 2001 | 11:12 p.m. |
Smashing Pumpkins - Eye
Okay, i think Zorg is against me today. The layout doesn't want to stay the way i want it to stay. Ebiru. >_< And while i'm on the topic of layouts, i forgot to tell Rigel, that i love the current Egads!'s one. XD *pokes Rig* ^_^; I was working on GW wallpaper, a~nd baka Zorg froze when i was almost finished. It's okay though. I only broke a couple of things... ¬_¬;;;
I talk too much. Where is my concentration... 0.0;
Yu{c}kino. -___-;
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| Thursday, March 1, 2001 | 10:26 p.m. |
I told myself not to blog in my very own personal place until i get the new layout up, so now i shall have to post here. Not that it's a bad thing. Just felt the need to generously provide you with such important information... ¬_¬;;;
I wonder what's wrong with mailmd. I need two, TWO freakin' passwords, and they won't let me in. So sad. -.-;
Vacation is coming for Yukinon, but she isn't sure if she is very happy with that. I'll probably get some rest, and i'll probably finally get over that flu *achoo*, but... i don't think i need 10 days for that. o.O; Ahwell, watch me begging for yet another week of vacation the moment this one will be over... ¬_¬;
Mhhmm... So... Anything new? ^^;;; I am oh so not very sure i'll be on IRC this weekend... -_-; Not that it's something noticeable. XD Have fun kids. Before it's not too late, for i'll come one day, and ruin it. XP
Yukishiroku / notice my developing SKU obsession... _-_;
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| Wednesday, February 28, 2001 | 03:38 p.m. |
I'm sitting here in the booth of D5 at school. We have a superfast internet connection in here... hehe, I probably shouldn't be posting from a school computer. ^^;; They're practicing for the performance we're sending to the Sears Drama Festival this year - it's called P.S., I'm Okay. It's about crazy people. I don't like it. ¬¬
When you're really ga-ga for someone, you begin to question your sanity. Hmm... ah well. I'm trying the formula that's worked for me in the past - pick out all the person's bad qualites, and focus on them. Makes not thinking about them easier. -_-;;
Hmmm... I wonder what I'll tell the person who walks in and sees me writing this? It's an assignment? It's a medical report? It's vanilla pudding? Because I know someone's going to walk in on me writing it. They can all see me through the glass in the booth. I'm tempted to turn the mics on and record them, and post an mp3. Hehe...
So, yah. That's about it. I'll talk to you all when I get home... assuming you're home...
*shrug*
...HeldDown (The Phantom of D5)
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| Monday, February 26, 2001 | 12:00 p.m. |
this entry is going to be rather stupid, bizarre, whatever, but i'm going to post it anyway, because i have a headache, and can't really study Physics right now. :P
so, anyway. i didn't go to school today. it's been snowing for two days non-stop, and mother told me and my bro to stay home. yesterday i stayed home too, but because i'm sick. o_x my sentences are all so grammatically correct. ¬_¬;; a~nyway. it was nearly nine in the morning, but i woke up, because one of my cats was playing with my hair. o.O;;; i hate when someone touches it, so i threw the cat away {don't worry, it's okay. i'm not that psycho...}, and got up. not knowing what to do, i went to my room. i was sleeping in a different one, because here, it's too cold in mine. plus... i have yet to sort all the stuff, that lies on the floor... ¬_¬;;; whatever. so i wake Zorg up, and decide to watch KKNJ. again. XD so i watched it. then i went to the kitchen, and discovered that there is no tomato juice. evilness {is not a word}. i have yet to make myself some tea. -.-;
a little while after, i decide to work on the preview layout for one of my sites. i was working with a picture of Yukinon. :p and as i work, father comes in.
papa: *gives me a 'friendly' morning pat on the back, almost breaking me in two*
me: GAH! x_x;;; hallo papa. how's life?
papa: perfect. that's the picture of...?
me: *zooms out, so dad can see it*
papa: yukino. from kknj. mhmm... hmm... you know, you resemble her.
me: -__-x oh really... actually, you told me that already...
papa: well, it is true. dye your hair back red! :D
me: ... o_o;;; why would i need to do such a thing...
papa: so you can resemble her even more. XD
me: ... what for... why would i need to resemble her even more...
papa: i like her! XD
me: .... O.O;;; _-_;;; *not sure that what she is going to say is grammatically correct, and makes any sense, but says it anyway* chichi wa hen da yo... ¬_¬;;;
papa: ... and that means...?
me: well, i was planning to say 'papa is a weirdo', but i'm not sure, that i said it corr...
papa: BWAHAHAHAA!!! how truthful!!! bwahahaha!!! XD *jumps away*
me: ... no sh|t.... -_-x
i have a bizarre family. -.- but anyway. the preview layout will never see the light of days though. i didn't like it. -.-; it was too... too... too busy. no structure, no gamma, no nothing. just a basic image, and a bunch of filters. *sigh* like i can make a normal layout anyway, it always turns out to be the image with a bunch of filters, nothing more. ¬_¬;;; whatever. -.-;
i have piano exam in a week, and that... scares me? o_o; i'm not sure if i'll be able to get a high mark. -.-; and i want to beat my cousin! *_* i must get a higher mark!! mustmsutmsutsmtusmtst!!!! {cut out the weird looks, it's a healthy competitive spirit} she got 9 though. that's... that's an A-. *sobsob* so i need 10. the highest. XD
Yukinohuacan. the ancient city. ¬_¬;;;
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| Monday, February 26, 2001 | 10:47 p.m. |
Hmmmmmm...
Hmmmmmmmmm...
Aaanyways, math isn't as confusing as it was 10 hours ago. I went to get help after classes, and I think I'm ready for the tests tomorrow and Thursday.
I have a photography assignment and test tomorrow, which I haven't studied for or completed, respectively.
*shrug*
Muahaha! The end!
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...HeldDown (Who Fixed the Coffee House Lights - Who Da Man?)
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| Monday, February 26, 2001 | 07:49 p.m. |
I think I'm going to like posting what songs I am listening too, it.. takes up space. *cough I'm a copycat cough* ^^;;;;;;;.
Yes, I shall now have to resort to small symbols to say my dͺmned word XP!
It's Monday....... -_-;; And that means school has yet againg sucked my week x_X! I still haven't gotten my history test or my physical science test results back. It's been so long... I need them dammit! And geometry has turned from those...... things, to reducing fractions and ratios o.O;;. It's incredibly easy, but I can learn some later I need to pull that grade up!
I want my dͺmn manga... how long can manga be backordered?! ;_; I need my ccs manga and more fushigi yuugi! I just love that duo image :Q, gawd he's so shexy XD!
* Winamp is currently playing: Sailormoon Dub - Only A Memory Away
Hmm... I must remember, Re-enrollment money and School Trip deposit is due thursday! I just hope they will either change that CRAP about half a day cruise to 2 days, or just get rid of the whole thing. What IDIOT comes up with a ½ day cruise?! -_-;; I liked it better when it was a fooking 4 day cruise +_+;;. Things just have to make life difficult.
You guys need to POSTTTTTT! Held posts, I post, Yuki posts..... why can't you all post alot too ;_;
* Winamp is currently playing: Bangles - Walk Like An Egyptain
This song is so cool XD! But I have a report I HAVE to do tomorrow night. I was planning on doing it today, but this headache + sore throat + congested head + runny nose have all interfered with my plans. So I slept from 4 to 7 >D!
*sigh* I need to read this short story called "The Necklace" tonight (it sounds so stupid x_X) and finish the daily work and the self test (basically a quiz, except they are already in our books and we can... study for them :P I have it so easy, but all that matters is that I am learning.... right? >P BWAH HAHAHAHA!)
* Winamp is currently playing: Shinseki Evangelion - Cruel Angel's Thesis
That song is something I can sing XD!.... not well mind you x.x;;, but I know all the words ^^;;;;. Well it is time to go and do my homework. I shall be back tomorrow with yet another entry *gasps of horror are heard*. Bye!
- Rigel
That's all there is, there isn't anymore.
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| Monday, February 26, 2001 | 12:56 a.m. |
My gosh it's late. (We must all be careful about our language, so that Filter thing doesn't block Hoshi again.)
Ack! My office is flooding! Again! Nooo! It took 2 weeks to dry last time... help me... ;.;
It's wrong to want to get revenge on your friends, right?
Lillith is lost
Lillith is afraid
Lillith is so, so lost...
That's the chorus to my new song. I'm either going to call it simply Lillith, or maybe Rome... hmm...
Wow, that's all I can think of. Oyasumi, all...
...HeldDown (Mad At Coffee House Screwing Up His Lights)
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| Sunday, February 25, 2001 | 09:32 p.m. |
I'm getting sick and I don't want to go to school tomorrow. My nose is very runny and my throat is sore. *scavenges for some.... yukinol*. I've finally gotten what 'yukinol' was >P!
Space Fillerrrrr! LA LA LAAAAAAAA!
Anyways... Bye!
- Rigel
That's all there is, there isn't anymore.
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| Sunday, February 25, 2001 | 09:27 p.m. |
Wooooo! It's Friday XD XD! And I am so very happy :D! I finally get to sleep in and have free time *_*!
Tomorrow I am going to try and go to the store, my mother just does NOT want to drive to the store -_-;;. I need to exchange my cd burner and get another one. then I shall be able to burn audio cds XD!
Today at school, I think I made someone mad. I wiped this glue glitter all over the back of his jacket :P BUT! He had put it on the straps of my backpack first! and then he wiped it down my cd player ¬¬;;;. So I really can't care less, he deserved it. I took a test and quiz today. The test in science I think I did good (93+), and I think I made a 96 or 97 on my civics quiz. So I need to keep this up :P And we are into a new chapter in geometry, thank god! Today's classwork was SOOOOOOOOOOO easy +_+. All we did was reduce fractions x_X;;. But I need some easy grades in math :P
Also today in U.S. History, we watched Batman (don't ask me why, I have no idea why o.o;;). And this is the Batman from the 60's. So every 5 minutes Robin is saying something like "Holy Helicopters", it was so corney -_-;;. My friend Brian asked if there was going to be a love affair in it (yeah, he's a perv :P). I asked him what he thought, "Batman keeps a little boy down in a cave for most of the day, what do you think." I almost died laughing XP, you really justy had to be there.
I am ripping a cd right now. Have ripped one other and plan to rip more. I have ripped the Christina Aguilera cd, am ripping Pink's "Can't Take Me Home" cd. And I plan on ripping 2 Savage Garden cds (affirmation and the first one), and 4 Mariah Carey cds x_X;;. (Daydream, Butterfly, Rainbow, and the #1's cds). I want them to get done fastah!
I have 681 mp3s without the ripped cds, so I hope I can hit 730 at least. 8 cds will at least have 50 songs x.X;.
I don't have anything else to say, I want to work on my bssm site this weekend. I think I actually work on something very small, once every 2 weeks #_#;;. Well....... bye!
- Rigel
That's all there is, there isn't anymore.
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| HeldDown | Hikaru | Hoshiko | ||
| Kellifred | Niomi | Rigel | ||
| Serika | Yukino | Ziggy |
| Hoshiko | @ | Shinju |
| Serika | @ | Quantum Leap |
| Yukino | @ | Unstable |
| Ziggy | @ | Deep Blue |
11/18/00 - 11/25/00 | 11/25/00 - 12/02/00
12/02/00 - 12/12/00 | 12/12/00 - 12/16/00
12/16/00 - 12/26/00 | 12/26/00 - 01/13/01
01/13/01 - 01/20/01 | 01/20/01 - 02/25/01