Get It On
I just uploaded an adult video to Get It On.
I was introduced to Get It On by Adult Friend Finder. Although I still have a profile at Nerve.com I can't upload naked pictures or look at them. Used to be able to at Nerve. You could build your own little page and although it was difficult with dial-up you could put anything you wanted up on that page. Having bought a web cam I took a lot of shots of my genitalia and posted that up. That was years ago. Now I have a real video camera.
Why ETrade?
Well, it's been quite a while since I've been here.
I spend a lot of time at Facebook.
Lately, I've been watching Mad Money with Jim Cramer and I've decided to invest a bit. I bought 5 shares of AMZN, Amazon and 5 shares of PCL, PLUM CREEK TIMBER CO INC COM.
Just mentioned on Democracy Now! was the Mumbai terrorist act. I saw a documentary on that. Woe, boy, was that gruesome. They just arrested an American involved.
At the end of my Cramer recording there was the Kudlow report and he thought Obama took a cheap shot at the banking CEOs when he called them Fat Cat Bankers.
I get suspicious of Cramer when he invests in Disney and Exxon, not Exxon but a gas company that Exxon bought and maybe the companies involved in the Afghanistan war. I just think he is maybe bending to the right.
I didn't appreciate his joy at the Eagles victory either. We'll be arguing about that fumble of Eli's for a millenium, I think he was down on the play. I felt like killing Collinsworth and his bullshit about what Manning "intended" to do.
Mr. Rebel boy. Can't you tell he's a Reb? He played at Florida before they ever had a black QB. Doesn't matter. It's just Tebow and his Christian bullshit and Collinsworth who is obviously so CHURCHY. Yogananda used to call what they believe in Churchianity because they are only christians in church, on Sunday.
There you go, a current post at Pitas.
Gary Gordon Productions
Here is the former Mayor of Gainesville who became a big writing star.
I was told at school that there is no money in poetry. I guess Mayor Gordon didn't write that.
Krugman on Obama's Health Care Plan
I supported Hillary Clinton for president. I didn't support her because she was the former president's wife, the last democratic president we had, I supported her because she had keen ideas. Her best idea was on health care. Maybe her being a woman got in the way of that. Some would never vote for a woman and some would vote for her only because she was a woman. Certainly, if Elizabeth Dole became a Democrat I wouldn't vote for her. I'm sure there are many women in the Democratic Party I wouldn't vote for.
Hillary Clinton's health care plan was excellent. She devoted a big part of her life to getting a national health care plan and the one she promoted in her campaign was the best. Hillary had some Jane Fonda type problems that the Democratic Left actually exploited to nominate its first Black candidate for President. Mr. Obama won. Yes, Mr. Obama won, but I say if Mr. Obama goes forward with this oreo typ health care program who might have a challenge in 2012 and sitting presidents never like challenges.
Since my Yahoo 360 is moving I may be using this site more. My only problem is having to write these html breaks all the time.
Today I was reflecting on my loss of a sense of purpose. We have cell phones. Have we thought about the purpose of a phone? I never call anybody and nobody ever calls me unless it is for business purposes like getting the pest control people out here or calling a plumber.
I think the Back to Nature movement may have impacted us in a way that is not good for our souls. I know the Krsna Consciousness devotees still say come to the farm and let your soul unfold but going back to nature I think we missed a lot of social satisfaction. Then again we weren't rich people. We tended not to want to spend on the latest technology. Maybe it's the technology itself that gets in our way. Then again I was thinking of all the stuff on my computer now that an insensitive eye could raise hell with and I realized we need sensitive eyes on these things. Just yesterday I was thinking of how Gurumayi doesn't like computers and maybe I am suffering the karma for being such a computer fan. But then today, thinking of the insensitive I thought of the need for the sensitive being, the angel of justice instead of the angel of greed and hatred looking at the things in our Documents folder or wherever else.
You know I had plans to study forensics and SFC put it in real nice terms on their website, helping people keep crooks out of their accounts and so forth but I am quite sure a lot of it could be keeping employees from viewing porn or some other such bullshit as that. I'm sure there are many other crimes beside viewing porn that companies have to look out for, some legitimate some not so.
Well, I thought I would fill in what happened to the disciplinary committee. They deccided I was unworthy of their fine institution.
Truthbook - God Within
God lives within us.
I saw some television show, King of Queens, where a girl was asking her husband didn't he want to know the truth? Whether you call God Krishna, Shiva, Jesus or Allah he is still inside of you. I hear all the time about getting REAL, but usually this real thing has nothing to do with true reality, just what can make us richer or get us more sex. I'm not against money or sex but please, give me a break. Ram Dass talks about his Guru's eyes acquiring nothing more than a little twinkle when he gave him enough acid to blow any ordinary man's mind. Let's have a look at what kind of experience THAT is!
AskMen.com
I really find those Chevy Silverado Truck commercials offensive.
Want to be a real trucker, be a homophobe! Manicures and high voices mock any other concept of being male than "Howies!" No fag he, though I doubt he would have much luck attracting women in the same room as Rock Hudson.
Mate1
I've been spending some time at this new singles place I've found, Mate1. Two good girls from America, AZ and ME.
I wonder if I should reply to the women from outside of the U.S. Anyway, I haven't been blogging too much because the Firefox browser is having problems with my Vista machine.
I was going to post this at my usual 360 but the links aren't set up the way they are in the Firefox and I don't have the 360 bookmarked.
Gay leaders furious with Obama
What is love?
I hear the fellow who is going to give the invocation loves everyone, Muslims, Hindus, Jews, Gays, Democrats, Republicans, but what is love. What do you mean by love.
Is love ignoring people?
I have so many friends and family members who love me, but they never make an attempt to understand Siddha Yoga. In fact they do all they can to not understand. I find Rev. Warren to be just the same. And do you know about playing stupid? It sometimes takes a great deal of audacity to state that you don't know Baba Muktananda or about mantras, but the good people claiming to believe in Jesus or Jehovah or Allah or in the philosophy of Plato or Camus or Alexis DeTocqueville, they can do that.
Jerzy Kosinski in Wikipedia
I was just thinking today how I feel like the painted bird.
It's a book by Jerzy Kosinski. The painted bird is unlike all the other birds and shunned for its painted feathers.
The rest of the flock is obviously too dense to see beyond a little paint. Had never really thought about that as much as the symbolism of one who is different. I feel very different from others in that if they follow a Guru they follow only that Guru and nothing else. Ask any one of them and you will find that report. So, I am confused that I have an interest in Da and buy some of his things, and an interest in Krsna and buy some of their things and an interest in Maharaj and receive knowledge, have an interest in Siddha Yoga and take intensives.
Maharaj often speaks of things in Siddha Yoga like this principle that God is in you as you. Maharaj believes God is in you but he can't agree that God is you as the statement seems to say.
It's a big disagreement in Krsna Consciousness. They of course hate Maharaj often suggesting he calls himself God which he claims he does not. I hear them say, "He is not God." Of course, Krsna is God to the Krsna devotee, which is something to keep in mind when you talk with them, I guess. It's just that you are wondering what Krsna can do for you when you speak with them and their answer is of course, what can you do for Krsna.
The Krsna devotees call it mayavada philosophy. The Krsna devotees hate the mayavada philosophy or the philosophy of the impersonal absolute but I have heard it praised by as great a devotee as Tukaram who is also hallowed by Krsna devotees. He believed in a partial absolutism as you may have heard it called. He was not a complete monist as the philosophy is referred to.
Some do vaunt the philosophy of monism. In Siddha Yoga they say the Self is covered. The covering is called a kosha. It is a covering of maya I presume because I have read the Krsna devotee Bhaktivedanta Prabhupada say that the Krsna cannot be covered. Maya cannot hold the Supreme Lord but it can hold you.
That way I guess you don't think of yourself as the Self or the Supreme Lord. The Supreme Lord is within you but not as you.
And of course, neither is the Guru the Supreme. Here the Krsna devotees and Maharaj will find agreement with the Urantia Book which finds fault with Indian Holy men who claim such a distinction. God is our Father to the Urantia Book writers, the finest concept of God in the Seven Superuniverses and the Central Universe of Havona which contains the Paradise Isle where He Himself Lives.
Still you have to think large if you are going to get any real meditation done, I think. Thinking of the Guru as this immortal inner self, beyond personality and mind, is reallly better than thinking she/he is some mundane person. Why did you decide to follow a Guru in the first place. What idea or ideas attracted you?
When I read of the Buddhas, especially such a Buddha as Milarepa, Yogi Milarepa, I needed no concept such as a deity. In Buddhism all the deities have been turned to powers. You will find the word hari in Buddhist texts just as you see it in Hindu.
What a wonderful story Tibet's Great Yogi Milarepa is. It's a book you must read. What a fascinating trial Milarepa was put through.
And here's a little more from India.
Todd Palin subpoenaed in Troopergate
There was a trooper gate in the Clinton administration, wasn't there?
Don't get them confused. Troopers lied about Clinton in that trooper gate. It was part of the hit job that David Brock did on the Clintons. I wish I had his book, "The Republican Noise Machine" but I just checked it out of the library - back in '04.
Gov. Palin wanted her sister's ex fired and the fellow in charge of the ex wouldn't do it so she fired him. Said it was about budget cuts.
Haha. lol. Nepotism in American Government.
He probably got the job because he was the Governor's in-law, when he divorced the Governor's sister then his days were numbered. But they call that crooked government. We are supposed to be hired according to our qualifications not according to who we know. Neither should we be fired because we don't know the Who's Who!
I'M TELLING! Doesn't it irritate you when you are filling out your lists of favorites and somebody interrupts telling you what's good and what isn't. I guess they don't care about lists or they don't have their own computer or their own Yahoo! 360 page. They remind me of the Taxman. There's one for you 19 for me!
Does that start with Let me tell you how it will be? I think so.
I haven't read through the comments, there are 270 at this point, I think, but I believe there is a typo in the post.
A blowout with Hillary on the ticket in Ohio and Pennsylvania, no, no, no, it should be a blowout without her on the ticket, shouldn't it?
I think the reason you see less people willing to vote for Obama in November is because there is very little favor for Hillary on the ticket.
I like seeing the pics and posts you've made on Hillary campaigning with Obama. It lets me think about it. You know, how he puts his hand on her back, his decorum and perhaps what he says. I'm just looking out for the boyish self-consciousness. I want an honest respect without a look of embarrassment like he has to say some things he wouldn't ordinarily say were a more agreeable senator present.
He doesn't appear sexist in his pat on her back. It doesn't look sexual as all professionals look out for when dealing with other genders.
When Gerri Ferraro ran with Fritz Mondale she had an uphill battle in the first place running against Reagan, but then she had problems with her husband's finances and the fact that she was only a congresswoman, I think always was a bit difficult althouhg many mention Harry Truman often when talking about a congressperson as a running mate.
Hillary brings an awesome influence to the ticket. Any candidate would have loved having such a name candidate offering their self for the number 2. Wouldn't have McGovern loved to have Ted running with him? And I think Kerry wanted Hillary last time but she had given her word to the state of N.Y., a word I believe in.
I do hope Sen. Obama chooses Ms. Clinton to be his running mate. That would be reflective of a new kind of politics in Washington.
Esoteric Meaning of Lucifer
Now here's some stuff I never heard of, but I never read Helena Blavatsky, author of the Secret Doctrine.
I saw many footnotes referencing the work though in the Alice A. Bailey books I read and in the Wikipedia entry on the Lucis Trust I read that Lucifer was the original name of the Lucis Trust.
Myself, I'm not so big on Lucifer, Satan or the Devil, who are three separate identities according to the Urantia Book.
Henry A. Wallace
This is from an entry about Vice President Henry Wallace. I learned something here - what an evil thing it is for an American to believe in eastern philosophy.
Vice President
During the 1940 presidential election, a series of letters that Wallace had written in the 1930s to Nicholas Roerich was uncovered by the Republicans. Wallace addressed Roerich as "Dear Guru" and signed all of the letters as "G" for Galahad, the name Roerich had assigned him. Wallace assured Roerich that he awaited "the breaking of the New Day" when the people of "Northern Shambhalla" - a Buddhist term roughly equivalent to the kingdom of heaven - would create an era of peace and plenty. When asked about the letters, Wallace lied and dismissed them as forgeries. According to Ruth Abrams Drayer's book, Nicholas & Helena Roerich, The Spiritual Journey of Two Great Artists & Peacemakers, Wallace had been a devoted supporter of N. Roerich and his work from the middle 1920s. With the nod from F.D. Roosevelt, Wallace had lobbied Congress to support Roerich's Banner and Pact of Peace which was signed in Washington, D.C. by delegates from 22 Latin American countries in 1935. However, when Roerich and his son George were in Central Asia (sent on expedition by the U.S. Department of Agriculture to search for drought resistant grasses to prevent another Dust Bowl situation), Roerich so severely embarrassed the U.S. government politically that Wallace dismissed him and even in Wallace's memoirs, attempted to conceal the fact that the two men had ever been associated. When the Republicans threatened to reveal his "eccentric" religious beliefs to the public, the Democrats countered by threatening to release information about Republican candidate Wendell Willkie's rumored extramarital affair with the writer Irita Van Doren.[2][1] The Republicans subsequently agreed to not publicize the "Guru" letters.
Destroying Hillary Clinton
My nephew says he sees a lot of my posts at HuffPo. He's gotta be kidding me. He also says his father doesn't know how to scan a document into his computer and send it so it cam be seen on a screen or printed. Oh, well. His father John was trying to send him something Masonic and "Grandpa." Today I was thinking of the Big G in between the compass and the level that represents the Freemasons to the world. The nephew is a professor of education. His father recently entered the Scottish Rite, one of the degrees on the way up to the 32nd degree that our father was. I'm a Master Mason myself. They call that the Blue Lodge. I joined during a difficult time in my life, no work, no school and no friends. I was also having difficulty with the spiritual blindness that I saw reflected at me. That's my "rationalization"now, I guess, "reflection." I was very alone and so I joined.
The Endless One
Here's a page I found when looking up the three malas, anava, mayiya and karma mala. The three limiting forces, I guess you would say, that keep us from realizing we are divine.
UF
I wonder if a crappy university could have been the reason life has been so shitty. We do place a lot of emphasis on going to the right university. The best for journalism, or the best for psyche or the best for philosophy. Of course the subjects in my day were more like history, math and science.
But it didn't seem so relevant for my parent(s). Since I didn't make the excellent grades that make guidance counselors think of better schools they just sent me to the local university. I gave little thought to it myself and in the end preferred going to the community college. After the community college though I had to go to a university and after all the partying I was in no condition to think of better schools, better situations, etc. I was so in earnest to get laid I really didn't think about school at all. In the old days boys/men used to need school to avoid the draft. I didn't need that. I got a high number in the lottery in 1971 so I didn't need to go, it was just my privilege. My home had changed a lot since I had gone to high school. I lived in Florida and many of the influences I enjoyed growing were no longer available to me. My brother Billy was in N.Y., married, my aunt and uncle whom my mom and I used to visit also stayed in N.Y., my sister who would move to Denver and Kentucky and back to Denver was then in N.J. and of course all my friends of that age could not come with me to Florida. My parent(s) retirement had changed everything for me and while when we started out the money was good in 2 years it was reduced. I knew little about investments and so forth back then. I'm not sure things like certificates of deposit even existed back then. Had I been more money conscious and perhaps if my middle class parents hadn't been so status conscious I might have gotten a loan and grant to go to Santa Fe Community College. Instead I soaked their bank accounts for that privilege. It was an inexpensive school was my logic. I didn't even think about financial aid. That was embarrassing. I could feel the eyes on me, a white middle class boy not being able to afford community college. Would there be an investigation? I don't know, but was mom that poor that she couldn't send me to SFCC? I knew we needed a grant and loan to go to the university. In fact I had gone to the university at the beginning. Being interested in classes at SFCC I had sat in on some while going to UF. I was definitely going there in the next semester so I let my UF classes go. I got a 1.2 at UF and I was put on academic probation. My worst error was missing 4 classes of physical education. That was an automatic failure though I missed even more of a math class that gave me a C. A physical science class that met at 8:00 A.M. gave me a mysterious X. An X is mysterious because they don't give them at UF just at SFCC where an X does not count against your G.P.A and you may retake the class in which you earned it. That was a divine thing to me and why I transferred to SFCC the next semester.
I don't really know how I blew it at UF. There were so many things. Getting off probation, finding a major I could believe in. My philosophy teacher at SFCC suggested I major in philosophy but I never saw any interesting classes offered. I took one called Knowledge of the Self and I failed it. There were just a few students and some of the philosophers we would read were Sidney Shoemaker, John Locke and David Hume. It really sucked.
At the time the poet John Ciardi, a big name, had come to teach at UF and you would have thought I would register for that class if I could have, but I didn't. I had taken a poetry class by the time. My teacher's name was John Frederick Nims and to my shame I never even bought his book, required for the course, Westward Wind. I took French and failed it, not appearing at the final exam. I had been a the philosophy teacher's party the night before and I was too tired to even go. Sometimes I think I was surrounded by too many ne'er do wells who had damned the education process in their minds and were going no further with it. They acted like they knew a lot already. School was just bullshit no matter which one it was. I knew more than one fellow like that and some of them might have been girls. I had never had a dorm room since my parents built a house just 20 miles from the school. Still, it might have been good to get away from them and learn how to do my own laundry which of course was the last thing on my conscious mind. I had lost my virginity at 17 and I was interested in furthering myself in that respect. I would prefer the apartment. I can't even remember my first apartment dwelling experience. My brother Bill had had an apartment in Brooklyn before he got married and I used to get to visit. It was small but it sufficed for him. We had good times there especially after he met his bride to be. I moved in with some guys going to Santa Fe. I'm not quite sure I was going to Santa Fe as well at the time. It might have been my first semester when I decided I would go to SFCC mid-semester and kind of dropped all the subjects I was studying at UF. Yeah, that might have been the case. Why does it seem like it was summertime?
Legal Alert Reminder
Hey, you know if you have a job that gives tips in Florida they can pay you as low a wage as $3.02 an hour. Otherwise the minimum wage is $6.79.
FISA Compromise Contains Immunity for Telecom
They want me to call my congress "person" and tell them to vote no.
My congress "person" is Clifford Stearns.
No way on God's Green Earth is he going to vote no.
I wish they wouldn't use words like telecom. That just means telephone companies, like my own dear Verizon in which I used to hold stock through my mother's financial virtue. That's all gone now. Wasn't much really. $7,000 was what I got when I cashed it in. And it was falling.
These fucking bullshit artists after my vote really perturb me. It's as if they are the God Damned Messiah. Only they fucking know what is wrong with the country and if you don't vote for them we are going to Hell. They don't give a shit about YOU!
Taylor Marsh posted about her Broadway dance career. She's a cheerleader for Axelrod and Olbermann now. There's a difference between the Muslims and the Japs. Yeah, fine, I know and it's OLD NEWS. You know? Can you give me something fresh? She meditates she says. I heard her mention the Tao. What positive reinforcement they give this old dishwasher. My peak? My heat? Maybe when I scored the 431 on the Florida Senior Placement test in 1970. Heavy shit, huh? But no Broadway.
Archived Pages
The sicko Eddie Bryan has archived his pages.
I did see that movie by the way but you know I doubt that Michael Moore endorsed Hillary and her superior health care program. He stays out of all sorts of things like that. Supported Wes Clarke in '04. Does he do that so he has an out? I mean, a General? And the General from the war in Kosovo which he did a good job of putting down in Bowling for Columbine. Bill Clinton gets all the credit for the violence over there. But never mind, I'm a sicko of a different order. I saw this quote at Taylor Marsh about Ms. Clinton trying to get her donors to give to the general campaign which will be Obama's to run and I saw this line about the victor and the vanquished and I thought it was so sexist that I interpreted it in the comments as the rapist and the rape victim. Perhaps I should have mentioned I was talking about that quote but I didn't. I was upset at the time having had to look at Rachel Maddow on the tube at AlterEgo, my new gym. Jesus, I hated the other because they insisted on putting FOX on their screens, but now I have CNN and MSNBC that piss me off.
