I don't really mind people with strong opinion. What I cannot stand is people who dismiss other people's ideas and ideals because they disagree. I read (at least try to read) everthing I can on a certain issues. Left wing, right wing, it makes no difference to me. It's not about who they are. It's what they say. The ideas, opinion and experience that people have. When I read Healing Iraq today, I would have liked to walk up to that man and slap him square across the face.
How dare he presume that the demonstrators are pro-Saddam. What? Because he is to lazy to make a real difference to Iraq by actually doing something instead of whining, someone else has to save him. At what cost? Doesn't he understand that he should be doing something instead of expecting other people to die for the freedom of his country. People protest against the Iraq war because people are dying. Soldiers who have no stake in the country that they are 'fighting for'.
I suggest that Zayed quit his current job and join the local forces to fight terrorism. No, he whines instead. I'd guess that he is a middle class Iraqi then. Who doesn't have to face children dying of starvation and sickness. Look at his blog, because his house lacks electricity he whines. What about the people in the countryside who has to survive without clean water, food and medication? Is he doing anything except being the critic of the world. I don't know how he could look at his face in the mirror every morning and not hate himself. Everything is me, me and more me. If you are honest about a democratic Iraq, do something.
Be grateful for the things that you have. Not everyone has what you have. A lot others had to survive on less. As far as I'm concerned, you are a selfish brat. What gives you the right to critic Riverbend? Because she's compassionate to other people's suffering. Unlike you who keep on asking for more but not giving anything back. I guess it's nice to have cheerleaders and pom-pom 'girls' who back up your whinyself. Take your last entry and shove it where the sun doesn't shine, sucker!
Iraq and Terrorism
One thing that people should understand about terrorism is that they feel that their attacks are justified. There's nothing worse then people who are wronged and has nothing to lose. Do you honestly think people want to die for fun?? The war in Iraq just gave another cause for these terrorist. When the US brought out the 'Iron Hammer' they made matters worse. I'll repeat myself, "You do not fight fire with fire." Why not send out the agents to infiltrate the enemy camp(terrorist)? This is begining to sound old but information is power, remember?
What I couldn't understand is why wasn't there been any attemps to remove Saddam in a less traumatising way. Like have him assasinated. I know about the US law that disallow that, but surely its better than breaking the International Law. Now they are targeting Iran with the nuclear accusation. Friend, the world hasn't forgottened that you still haven't found weapon of mass destruction in Iraq.
I don't think I should talk about Iraq anymore. I've said it all in the past few entries.
As Syawal draws close, I hope that all the Muslims remember that Eid is a celebration that celebrates our triumph over the control that we have on ourselves during the whole of Ramadhan. Fasting symbolicly reminds us of the deprived and needy. It reminds us about how much we have and to share our blessings with the less fortunate.
I hope that for all those who is driving back to their home town to drive safely. The statistics are scary. Enjoy the rendang, ketupat and lemang. I ask for forgiveness from all who were traumatised after reading my blog, for my strong opinion and if I had inadvently insult anyone who visited this site. Lastly,
Love,
Julie.
I confess. I today can't seem to think of anything specific. My entry yesterday disturbed me. I hope I didn't come across sounding like a bible/quran/torah/holy book thumping fool. Cause there's nothing worse than a rightous fool:( I didn't quite like imposing my will upon others.
I feel very sad when I saw the news yesterday about the Turkish bombing. When will the blood shed cease. When will we stop avanging ourselves? An eye for an eye, this word is beginning to bother me. But the wound will not heal. To avange one's family might give slight solace to one's heart. But to what end? Ghandi must be spinning in his grave. I understand the need to return the compliment. I have occasion imagined the pleasure of plunging a dull knife into the person who destroyed my life before it even begin(confusing as hell isn't it). But I've accepted that my demons are mine to carry for the rest of my life. Nothing is going to change that. Not even if I killed that person. Not even if I to torture that loser to death. The pain remains. I understand this Iraqi's ranting. His November, 18 entry. The answer is never simple. Its intricate and a delicate balance between emotion and rasional.
PS : After reading some of these blogs you'd seriously think that what these Iraqis really need is not democracy but the spirit of nationalism. Living in different clans and groups and hating each other is not helpful when it comes to rebuilding Iraq.
The problem with terrorist just becomes worse and worse. BTW just for clarification sake, I didn't think that invading Iraq was the answer to ending terrorist attacks. Correct me if I'm wrong but before the occupation started, I don't think I've heard any terrorist bombing in Iraq. Saddam Hussein holds that country in iron fist. Now that the border is open, and Ali, Ahmed and Abu terrorist can cross the border and freely escape capture. Can you just imagine :
"Hey, wanna bomb ppl and get the civilian in trouble? Go to Iraq. We bomb and run. They'll never catch us. They'll think its the Iraqis resisting." Too simplistic example and oxymoronic one too, I know but you get the drift.
And to think that they would have learned by now. If the allegations the the Iraqis are resisting is true, don't you just get the messege? Minority did you say? Then why aren't the Iraqis turning these 'minority' resistor over? That to my 'not too intellectual' mind is passive resistance. *sigh* It will never end will it??
As for the allegations that the US is not invading Iraq for oil is pure horse manure. Didn't Bush confess that the US is pumping almost US$2 billion a month worth of oil from Iraq. His lame brain excuse was, "It's for the Iraqis people." What....?! The hospitals are still barely surviving. They are running out of medication. What? Instead of using the money to 'heal Iraq', you bought more weapon. Yeah, make the Americans weapon maker rich, why don't you. (Okay, I'm getting emotional.)
As for the ppl who thinks that the soldiers in Iraq should be shot/boil in hot oil/etc. maybe this link might just change your mind. An Open Letter to GIs in Iraq Again, just to clear things up, I am NOT against the soldiers in Iraq, my arguments are only targeted to the policymakers *cough*a$$holes*cough*. As one of the ex-army man pointed out, when they enlisted (join) the army, they sort of agreed to fight for the country. The problem arises when the government *cough*Bush/Blair*cough* uses the US/UK army as their personal mercenary troops for their personal agenda. That bothers me. We are not here to moralize what a soldier has to do to survive. That's his battle with his conscience.
Last but not least, one ponders over the fact on why is it that Bush never truly define terrorism. BTW I wonder will Bush and Blair ever be tried in an international court for attacking a foreign country against UN resolutions. They entered the Iraq borders without the Iraqis making a formal invitation for them to do so. Gee... war criminals. What a sight. How the mighty has fallen.
Work calls... later..
PS: You might find this article hopeful.
Love,
Julie.
UPDATES!
Remember my reference to some obsecure HARDtalk show on BBC. You can watch it all here. There you go. Here's a short introduction to the people on the show.
In a Hardtalk interview on 19 November, Tim Sebastian speaks to Republican Congressman Mark Green and Labour backbencher Alice Mahon, two politicians with very different views about George Bush's state visit to Britain.
Funny how he tried to talk down Alice Mahon. Trying to imply that she never been to Iraq and that she doesn't know how terrible Saddam was.
There are several topics that's been running through my mind this couple of days and I decided to blog about it now. So this is going to be a long entry.
Boycott
One of my friend brought up the topic when we were discussing about ppl faults and how to handle it. She asked, "Do you realise that so and so has been avoiding direct contact with me?" Being the typical blur person that I am, (I never quite learned how to read between the lines) my answer was negative. My friend said that a mutual friend has been boycotting her for some obsecure reason that nobody was willing to shed light on.
I don't know...I mean, I pretty righteous myself so that didn't sound right somehow. Since we all have been such good friends for so long, I couldn't quite contain my disbelieve. I thought that since we are friends, we could talk to each other. Express our likes and dislikes and talk it over. If I did someting wrong, I'd like to know about it and discuss it so we can see both point of views. Talking behind my back will not resolve the issue will it. You'll end up resenting me and I can't change for the better when there's nobody there to tell me that I said/did something wrong. Nobody else wanted to be the bad guy/girl and tell the boycotted person that he/she is treated such by a certain person because.....
Last but not least, I think is wrong to be someone's judge and jury based on what you think about them, without a fair trial. God forbid, that someone disagree with you. It's your way or the highway. I ask you adults to think about it. Put yourself into this boycott person's shoe. Cause you are not being fair. If I were to start such a campaign, the least I could do is tell the poor fellow, why and when, she/he is being boycott. It's not a pleasant suprise to just recieve a cold shoulder out of the blue. There, Julie just preached again.
Delusional People
Yesterday, I was glued to the TV watching BBC news. The show HARDtalk was on. My dad saw the list of people that was going to be interviewed and scoffed. One was a representative of the British Labor party and another was a representative of Bush's party (I can't their respective names sorry.) Dad thought, bah.., they will repeat the same ole same ole lines. I got pleasantly suprised.
The British Labor party representative said it straight out that Iraq is a mess and they need to bring in the International bodies into the problems. She was amazing since she laid out the problems in Iraq and she suggested solutions. She said that soldiers that came back told of the terrible things that's happening in Iraq.
Bush's representative instead said, "I've been to Iraq and I see a lot of improvements etc." I have something to ask this man. Did he or did he not stayed only in Baghdad? When he was in Baghdad did he try to walk in the streets? Nice, nice you fly to Iraq, got heavily escorted to a guarded hotel and than? Did you go to the countryside? Meet other than rich and upper middle-class Iraq citizens. Let's not talk about the recently returned prodigial sons and daughters of Iraq. They don't have a stake in the country. If anything happens, they can always fly out again.
Then the gall of that man when he justified the suicide bombing by saying, "The reason why there's so many suicide bombing is because we are sucessful. The terrorist is feeling threatened." Beg your pardon? Did I hear that correctly? Succesful in taking over Iraq and getting rid of Saddam, maybe. But in rebuilding Iraq? That's debatable. So what success are we talking about. Did this man just said something asinine here? Is he for real? I don't know, maybe I'm not as educated as he is. I mean, it could by my logic thats flawed. Dearie, if you were successful, then you'd be able to catch all these terrorist without resorting to the 'Iron Hammer'.
Iraq Broken to Bits
Which brings me to my next point. Is occupying other people's country, uninvited, legal? Now that you've occupied other people's country, is it legal to destroy civilian's homes and infrastructures? My friend, let me share some bits of common wisdom, the key to capturing this terrorist, is by winning the trust of the people that can tell you where they are. Right now, you look like the bad guys. The terrorist dare to show the bombing video clips now because you are running free advertisment that confirms what people hear from the terrorist recruiters, "The invading army are bad ppl. Join us to destroy them." Maybe that's my twisted logic at work but that's my impression by watching what goes on in Iraq. I think you should read an Iraqi's point of view. She is right there in the middle of it. You can doubt me but I don't know how ur going to doubt her.
I'm not the most smartest person on earth. And maybe what I'm saying is wrong but can someone tell the policymakers for Iraq to open their eyes wide and take a good look. The path that they are currently treding is shaky at best. If you persist on fighting fire with fire, then we'll really see a big bonfire in Iraq.
Attitude problem
Some say I have attitude problem. I concure. I do have attitude problems when ppl try to dictate or boss me around. As far as I know, I'd listen and think about what people say but I might disagree. Which means, there are times when I bluntly say, "Lets agree to disagree." It saves both of our energy. I'm not out to convert people, I'm out to make people think. Some friends say, "Julie, you think/care too much." Why shouldn't I? It's one thing to listen to my enemies spouting nonsense and ignorant thoughts, but it bothers me when my friend do so. Very high minded of me, snobbish even but it bothers me. What is the future of our country when the next generation is easily influenced without a mind of their own. The ability to think makes a big difference.
Once at a camp, the supervisor wrote me off as a rebel. I was passionate in my arguments. Then I was struggling to accept that a close friend tried to commit suicide. I was angry and very much in pain. Two days after the attempt, I was shipped away to a camp. I barely had time to come to terms with what happen but I kept on going. Some arguments were pretty straight forward. There's black and white but the tricky one was when we were given a hostage situation and had to make decisions. I was totally against (rethorically) bombing the whole compound. Are you nuts? slipped out of my mouth when the opposition team presented their solution. Then I was labled a rebel. They notice the undercurrnets of rage in my debates and actions.
I know the situation is rethorical but it doesn't mean that it reasonable to bomb the whole compound and write off the innocent civilians as casualty of war. But I also learned patience and how to listen to people. I understood blind faith in a leader because I can see them in all the teams existed. I also understood me, who I am and where I'm going.
Being different, then labled rebel and whiner, cause its easier to dismiss my thoughts as rantings when you have me firmly slotted. How amusing..., and very sad. But my friend is right, I like to whine. About life and how unfair it is. Lucky for me I also take a look around. Otherwise, I would have thought that my life is miserable. It's not. Others gets it worse.
Boss
For clarification sake lets get this straight. I like my boss and at the same time dislike him. There are parts about him that makes me respect him. Like his vision, patience and humor. The things I don't like about him is the way he sways like tall grasses according to the way the wind blows. That bothers me. The fact that he gives me non-stop project, one after another is not a big deal. I might *itch about it but if he doesn't keep it that way, I go nuts. I like projects cause it gives me the opportunity to grow and learn faster.
He makes me want to scream sometimes with things I figured too stupid beyond words but he's the boss. On the other hand, I appriciate the fact that he's patient enough to explain and re-explain things/ideas/projects that I need to handle. I appreciate that he doesn't mind my *dry* wit and sarcasm. Plus he defends me to the BIG boss. Now, that's a problem. The BIG boss has issues with me and I with him. Maybe its because he expects me to kow tow to him and I never happen to do so. Plus, I'm not stoic enough for him. I have the bad habit of being constantly cheerful. I can't seem to change, I tried but I just can't seem to develop the bad-ass look ^_^V
Well that's all today I hope. Have tons of work and deadlines. Later!!!
Love,
Julie PS: Everything I've wrote so far are merely my thoughts, I do not profess to be Miss Know-It-All. Form your own opinion ^_^
Well, I would have liked to say that I wouldn't be ranting today but that wouldn't be the case. The problem with a boss behaving as a Godfather to stupid people is that in the end, the company get screwed. And the worse senario case is when everthing crumbles into a pile of dust, the project overseer gets royally $crewed. Especially when the project 'manager' decideds that his position is more important than getting results from the vendor. *shh...* The boss likes therefore we kiss his a$$. Otherwise we'll be jobless and go begging in the streets. I hate that moron and it's mutual since he hates me as well.
I get to work through lunch hour just because Princess e-mailed and said that the form cannot be done. Excuse me??? If I had thought that I have to design the whole thing and pass the work to you, I would have hired a programmer la! Damm sight cheaper too you bandits! You do realise that I'm not hiring you to sit around on you fat a$$ telling me that work cannot be done. The last time I checked, you claim to be the expert at creating the database and web-page. What happen?
Did the clock striked 12 when the boss signed the dotted lines?? Lemme guess. You professionals turn into pumpkins and rats as soon as the contract is signed. I am beginning to hate you, and let me tell you I have NOTHING to lose. As a minion, I do not get blamed for sloppy work, you do.
END OF RANT. THANK YOU
Well that went well. Now to the more important part of the day. I spent the whole morning surfing then net. Reading, researching. Gosh I never realised that US was a facist country. I honestly thought that the US of A is the epitome of democracy. I mean, otherwise why would they liberate Iraq from Saddam Hussein? or why would the bother with the world police attitude when they critic other countries on their democracy system. Seriously, (stop laughing Nina, you'll burst if you don't stop soon). I read a good article by George Paine. At least we know that there are people who are aware of the US govenment foreign policy. (*smirks* So thats what they call it now.) Althought according to one of the 230 commenter that 70% of the US public is contented with the current administration. Ehm... I mean 700+ people to represent the whole US of A. U..huh... Sure I'm convinced. Sure, and you have a palace to sell me in Sahara. Made of ice you say???
What's the world come to? Lies are politely called misunderstanding. Proof created from assumptions. BTW I completely agree that WMD is out there. Somewhere..... Let's see.... who has the nuclear weapons? Okay, too lazy to list out all of them... So yes, the US was telling the truth. The weapon of mass destruction is out there somewhere.
I rest my case.
PS: For the ppl who want to see the Westerners defend Dr. M's speech in the OIC meeting should go here Read the Comment Box.
Love,
Julie
I am a very angry person. I am easily angered. I get pi$$ed of when I meet arrogant ppl. I get angrier still when I hear their one dimensionl ideas and rethoric. It makes me want to smash their faces and drag them to the gutter to make them see how the others live. I don't care if you have unlimited money in the bank. That doesn't give you the right to pretend as if everyone live the privilaged life as yourself. So $crew you.
Then there are these supposed pious ppl who try to preach about religion. Hello?! What does the religion has to do with politics? I really hate people who listen to the media and other ppl and regugitate what they hear like parrots. God did not give you brains to memorise, other wise he's make you a parrot. Think dammit, think! Use that thing between the ear to make a difference.
Why is is that ever word that comes out from your mouth is about YOU?! If you don't want to read my WHINE than $od off and don't come back. I find that ppl are so used to listening and reading my whining that they learn to tune out my other messages. I am NOT perfect damm you but I'm trying. That's more than what I can say about you.
So what I like to whine? If you don't want to hear than walk away. If I could I don't see why you can't.
I get so pi$$ed off when I read about people talking about Anti-Semantic-ism. What, I don't like some things about the Jew and when I comment, I'm automatically against all Jews?? WTF?? That didn't happen when I critisized the Muslim or the Christians. What's going on here??
I am sick and tired of Americans who think that they are superior to the whole world. I might enjoy America but the reality is that some of the 'writer' who belives that they have the right to critisize about everthing except themselves. Excuse me, does it make you feel better to look down on others??
As far as I'm concerned, most of what you say is ONE dimensionl point of view. You are UNFAIR and there's no bigger sin to me than people who are not fair to others. Does that mean that I am the Lady Equality herself? No, but I make an effort of make sure that there's justice for all.
This is a good reason why I hate ppl.
I'm too angry to write a good entry. Later.
Julie.
This week is my not so blogging week. I was sick 2 weeks ago and now, I'm sick again. The last time it was flu, this time its cold. My voice which was still slowly recovering (I can't sing, if I try there's no sound), is attacked by another bug. This time I feel a constant lump in my throat and when the doctor took a look, she shook her head and said, "Bad, bad." So I am silenced and it took 2+ days to get over the cold with fever and all. I hate getting sick. Now doctor ordered me to drink vegetable juice. No not the canned one, the home made one. It taste icky, and I'm still trying to figure out how to make it taste better. I tried adding a little suger, adding sparkling grape juice, even lime. It still taste terrible. Hate celery juice:(
I remember someone told me that getting sick means that God loves you. Suffering from an illness is a way to pay for your sins. If this is true, I have a feeling that when I die, I'd go stright to heaven. I get sick so often, I wonder if it's easier to just die. At least you go through the pain only once. *sigh* I'm not making any sense am I? I'm tired. Tired of getting sick and recovering and getting sick again. I'm not depressed, honest, just wonder why I get to suffer illness most of my life.
The strange part is that I get used to falling sick that I no longer run to the clinic at the first sniffle or cough. I can actually be productive despite the pain. Okay, I'm getting morbid.
Other than that, I have a friend who needs calming down. She needs to learn that not having a man in her life is not a disaster. You can learn to feel comfortable alone. I'm not against having a boyfriend/girlfriend. I'm all for it. There's nothing like feeling loved. But I ask that she learn to be comfortable in her skin before seeking for a significant others. It's easier to fall for the wrong person when you feel that you NEED to have someone in your life. I've been there and I've done that. If you expect someone to fill in the empty spaces in your life, there will come a time when that person no longer fits that space.
Maybe its true, I fear committment. This is only because I know all the responsibility of being committed. Maybe the last time, it's the wrong person. But it doesn't change the responsibility that comes with it. It's one thing to want someone to be there, regardless. But its another to want that same person to save you.
Okay, I'm rambling nonsense. Later.
Julie
