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PoP - Time Only Knows
(Friday, June 24, 2005, 09:15 a.m.)

Dedicated to a friend who has many questions on his mind. Good luck :)

Time Only Knows
Prince of Persia

Time, oh only by the time
Never will we know if our love is true
At night I sleep and dream of you
Only to awake in my empty room

Chorus:
You give me power
You give me reason
So will you love me?
Time only knows
Time only knows
(Repeat twice)

Carol King - You Got A Friend
(Thursday, June 23, 2005, 07:38 a.m.)

When you're down and troubled
And you need some loving care
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there you've got a friend

If the sky above you grows dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind begins to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud
Soon you'll hear me knocking at your door

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running, running yeah yeah
To see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there yes I will

Now ain't it good to know
That you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you, yes, and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh but don't you let them

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running, running, yeah yeah yeah
To see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there yes I will
You've got a friend
You've got a friend
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend
Ain't it good to know
Ain't it good to know
Ain't it good to know
You've got a friend
Oh yeah, now, you've got a friend
Yeah baby, you've got a friend
Oh yeah, you've got a friend

Confused
(Thursday, June 23, 2005, 02:22 a.m.)

Dear ppl,

I am scared of what tomorrow will bring. But I don't want that fear to hold me back. I realise that I can easily absorb other ppls worry. And make it mine. Very illogical I know. These are jumbled thoughts in my mind. Makes me wonder what else is hiding in the deep recess of my mind.

I don't know what is causing this chaotic thoughts and emotions. Or maybe I refuse to acknowladge it. I hide from it hoping that it will pass. Like a big white elephant in a middle of the living room.

LOL. I am very tired and I have talked to plenty of ppl today. I need rest.

Stress + Worry + Fear = System Overload
(Tuesday, June 21, 2005, 01:36 p.m.)

Dear ppl,

Yesterday must be the cumulation of all the stress, worry, anger, tiredness etc which rolls into all sort of blast. I rarely express anger as I was taught that anger is a bad thing. So everytime someone or some situation angers me, I'd just take a deep breath and try to calm down. In other word, supress it. What was bugging me for the past week or so.

Mercs who crosses lines
Anyone in SOL can tell you that I am a friendly cheerful fellow out to help out when I can. But there is one thing that I do not allow amongs my friends. A line that I draw on how far our jokes can go to. And that is about sex. I am brought up to respect it.

I don't mind jokes and things like that. I might share one too. But don't you dare try to show me anything funny. The result of such thing will not be good. You are not my friend, you are a new member to a Clan. I am your Team Leader but I don't know you from Adam. If you want to be sleazy then you can go and do that elsewhere. I maintain that I am first and foremost a lady. You shall respect me as such or got to hell.

I was so shocked when a n00b mercs flashed me. We were talking about stuff and about the country. I went WTF??? After that I had another conversation, and let me say this, "I have lost my perspective." I don't like ppl who wants to play mind games. God, I wanted to kick the @#$%% outta him!

Work
Busy. What else can I say? Oh, lots of power struggle with moi stuck in the middle.

Studies
Progressing way to slow. Need to buck up.

Leo
He is not well :( That worries me to no end.

What happened? Yesterday I logged on to my FFA account. I was spied upon 22 times and was hit with a land grab of 1000+ acres. I saw red. That particular clan which hit me had it coming. They were doing this way too often on us the untagged. So what I did?

I committed suicide!

I looked at both countries, the one who spied on me and the one who grabbed me. The spy had a chink in his armor. So I missled him with everything that I got. He lost land, his ppl died and his troops died as well. I sent him a nice note explaining everything and basically said, "You caught me at the wrong moment dude." Usually I can tolerate land grabs. It' Earth after all, you tend to expect it. But last night was not a good night for me.

Moral of the story: Never mess with an angry woman who is ready to kick some tush.

Bottomline. It was a long week and too short a weekend. Later ppl.

Love,
Julie

Toss me around will ya?
(Monday, June 20, 2005, 09:36 p.m.)

Dear ppl,

I am... tired, sad and confused. The past week or so has been a very trying time for me. I get tossed around at work, attending meetings as a pawn in power games, updating the websites that is technically not my problems and trying to get my office pc to download, install and run some programs.

My office pc, curse its stubborn hide, is refusing to cooperate. If they don't get me a new pc, I am tempted to buy me a new home pc and taking this one to work. It will run things better then the current one. *sighs*

I am venting, yes? Enough then, I am too tired to say anyting anymore.

Love,
Julie

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I committed suicide!