Today started out as a good day for me. I was cheeful. Tomorrow is Eid's celebration. Why shouldn't I be cheeful? Then an e-mail came to my inbox asking about some work related stuff, to which I cheerfully replied to. *shrugs* I have no reason to feel defensive about anything. I did do what I shouldn't and I stopped when I was asked to. When they needed a detail explaination, I gladly gave it. I didn't do anything wrong, I had nothing to worry about. The thing was, the problem had been a long standing one. Thinking of maybe one reason for that problem, I suggested it to the person in charge. Only to get yelled at.
*taps fingers*
Did I miss something here? I merely passing on information in a friendly manner only to be told off that way? Hmmm.... methinks I have to stop helping ppl. Very well, I shall keep my hands off and let them rot. *shrugs* Its not like I am getting paid to do it.
Which brings me to my second point. Does blaming everything on me solves your problem? If it does either fire me for being an incompetent jackass or cut off my access. It saves the both of us the trouble of arguing over this. I am sick and tired of ppl blaming me for things that I didn't do. As it is I am at minimal access *shrugs* What kind of magic or wizardry do you think I can perform? Grow up and face up to your problems like a man.
It simply enrages me to get blamed for things that I didn't do. I mean... wth? If you want a scrapegoat then find some lower intelligence being to be it. I will not take this crap standing down. This is nonsense. I friggin didn't do it. This is the sort of thing that makes me want to quit my job. I am not paid enough to be tortured this way.
*sighs*
Now days, everytime I blog, its a rant :( Can't ppl just let me live in peace? I am not getting in your face, kindly dun get in mine!
It's Eid's eve and I am upset and sad. Even my poor darling got it from me :( I don't like that. It wasn't his fault. He shouldn't have to pay for it. Knowing him, he just say its ok :) Sometimes, I just need to count my blessings.
Love,
Julie
I confess, I am so caught up in my gaming and significant other :) For most of the part, I have learned to delegate the things that need to be done to someone else. *coughs*elf*coughs* This set, the war is pretty lame too -_-' I get enough ppl to kill 1 country when back then I could do 2-3 of them.
It's the fasting month ergo lack of sleep. Sometimes I sleep early (my bf makes me do it :P) and sometimes I sleep late (if I distract him enough). I wake up at 4.45 a.m. for sahur or pre-fasting breakfast. Lately I've been a lil on the edge and short tempered. Lack of sleep will do that to you.
I rarely blog nowdays. I only LJ and that too only for the viewing of my close friends. Other then that, I am fine :) I would like to wish everyone 'Happy Fasting' and 'Happy Eid'.
Love,
Julie
Last Monday I went out for break fasting at KLCC with 3 friends, a couple and a single male friend. As usual, the couple were behaving very affectionate :) Something that I enjoy watching. And as usual, the male partner will courteously fetch simple things like drinks for his girlfriend. Something that I really approve of.
Then the male friend whispered to me, "Oh God, this is why I like being single. I never want to be pussy whipped like that." And for about 10 seconds, I was speechless. Obviously I find his statement very offensive. Looking back, I understand now, why I cannot date most Malay men I know. They lack manners and they treat their woman like a slave. *sighs* I am not saying all of them are. Only the ones that I know with the exceptions of few.
The Malay men of my acquaintance are a rather unpolished men. They were brought up in families where the father dominates over the household. The women are quiet and meek. They differ to their husbands. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing. But its always bad when you know that your husband treat you like one of his chattles. Yes, I know that I am being bitter.
Thus, these males take their father as a role model and does exectly the same thing to their girlfriends. And the girls watches their mother and does exactly the same. So when they meet, they become perfect match and live happily ever after.
I degress.
Since when does love have to be about power play? Sure, sometimes my boyfriend cater to my lil whims and fancy. But there are times when I do the same too. What? Just because he likes to baby me, he is less then a 'man'? How so? It's not like I don't return the favor. Of course I do. I love this man!
Thinking about this obviously makes me angry. I am not your typical docile Malay girl. If I disagree with my boyfriend, they by God lets have it out and talk about it. I am not about to pacify him for no good reason! He is man enough to take both my opinion and my intelligence standing. I don't need to cradle his ego because its not delicate. He is self assured to actually like a woman with brains.
So there :P To you my single male friend. I seriously pity you. If that is your opinion, then you are damn sad.
Speaking of which, heh, got me a boyfriend ;) LOL. So neh neh. He is sweet :) and I love him very much. Heee.... *squees*
Love,
Julie.
The day the child realizes that all adults are imperfect, he becomes an adolescent; the day he forgives them, he becomes an adult; the day he forgives himself, he becomes wise.
Alden Nowlan, 1933-1983
Canadian Poet
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