Occasionally, you get pushed up the wall and give up. Now, I look at life in a very ironic manner. Life is screwed up that way. Anger is a waste of energy and time. Time to forget about what you feel and concentrate on what needs to be done. Life happens and you know what? There is nothing that you do to change it.
This time, I say, "Fuck it."
My department had separated to form its own company. Today, we are offically working in a new company. Yey! I don't know why I'm happy but yey!
I have exams staring at my face. I am still happy. It's strange ^_^; It's like the song in The Sound of Music - My Favorite Thing. Evertime I feel almost sad, I think about my favorite think and I go, Wheeeeee......! *with a stupid grins on my face*
What is my favorite thing?? SOL is. You see when I started 2025, I had no idea how to play that game. But typical me, I just jump in and played anyway. I was in the primary server. Once day, I receive an insite msg recruiting me into an alliance. It was from one of those alliance that exist in the alliance server.
I was really interested so I tried to join. Unfortunately it needed me to be a US citizen. Which I have no way of being at such short notice. So later I had a nice and friendly insite msg from Apollyon, one of the SOLers. He was pretty nice. He introduced himself as a member of The Sons Of Liberty and he invited me to join them. He said that I could contact him or his friend Darkmere anytime for any statergy help. So I did :) And joined them soon after.
My moment as a merc wasn't as wonderful as a fairy tale would be. I was mostly busy with work and couldn't log on to internet at home (since its slow I rarely bother) and at work I can't access mIRC. But a wonderful thing happened. Streamyx arrived to my house :) I started logging on and meeting all the members online. The rest they say is history.
Very recently, I learned to war. To kill other ppl who were hitting on SOLers. And heck I enjoyed it. I sneered at the pc displaying the name of the pank. And even though I learned warring at the last part of the set, I spent turns warring since my networth sucks anyway. I 'finished' off 2 countries. Yey! Die pank! You probably have figured by now that I kill them to let go of pent up frustrations and anger. Now I am all sunny and cheerful. I couldn't even gather enough anger to fume when my boss did what he typically did best.
This blog? I haven't seen it since the last time I posted :D Everytime I go on internet, I'd be logging on to the SOLer's site. I even forgot to run my Yahoo messenger untill one day I missed meeting my brother online. BTW he's in Penang now so its essential that I meet him online when I can. So tra...lalalalala... The new set is beginning. I will be running a new strat this set. Someone told me that I should ask to be transfered to the Executioner Force (VERY tempting) but I wanted to learn to play all the strats before becoming a profesional pank killer. Heh! But I definitly will want to join the EF one day :)
Maz, I'm depending on you now. To join 'us' and show them ur special abilities in killing panks. I am so going to make sure you graduate into the EF. *hugs Mazzie*
Before I go, anyone want to join the game and join me :) It's lots of fun.
I've been busy and I'm mostly tired. So the short (not really) rundown on how things has been.
For a long long time, I've always known that I had problems remembering things. But lately, things have been getting worse.
For example, I'd walk upstairs with a file in hand. A few minutes later, I'd be downstairs without one. So as soon as I realise this, I'd start file hunting. And to make it worse, things has been deteriorating. Today I had a mug of coffee in hand when I left the office pantry. When I arrive to my table, my hands are empty. Worse, I'd only remember after someone found my missing mug on their table or just sitting on a table somewhere. *weeps* I cannot live like this.
Today, I had a mix up on which country I logged on when. *cries* It's essential to max my turns. I'm tired. I wanna sleep. I want MC. I want to go for a holiday.
On the bright side, I will be off to Penang this weekend. Time to relex and breath. GTG, later ppl.
Love,
Julie
I work. However, due to my ambition/down right arrogance, I wanted to study too. And recently thanks to Nina, I've discovered Earth 2025 and I am addicted. So my live right now revolves around all three. All have an almost equal priority.
At work, I have projects upon projects. I have people at work giving me nightmares. I have ppl who refuse to understand that I only have a pair of hands and one body. I cannot be supervising a vendor and writing a report at the same time. Nor could I write report while I created databases. I really wish I could. That I have enough smarts to do 2-3 types of work at the same time. That I could partition my brains and have each section solve different problems at one go. But I am very much human.
As evening classes, is the place I have a lot of fun. I enjoy my classes (as peverse as that sounds). I am glad I went ahead and self-sponsored to go to this class. This is my indulgence that I can afford. Something that helps me deal with my day to day work.
Online gaming with Earth 2025. Bliss..... I swear, I can even poke and prod fellow clansmen to wake up and chat to me occasionally :) I met some really nice ppl there. They are kind and fun. Plus they don't mind that I fumble and make mistakes. Nor do they harp over it. You get my drift right *hint*hint* Plus they don't mind my grousing over life, unlike some ppl I think ;)
Yes, it hurts to be told by your friends that you complain too much. You tend to end up saying away from them. Even when you meet them or talk to them, you tend to have that part of your mind constatly saying, "Shut up, Julie. That's your problem to deal with." It's annoying but hey that's life. Kinda sad but it's part of growing up.
So now I complain only on my blog. It did say that this is my spot to gripe. About life, about stuff, about ppl. But tell me, does it make you happy to block unplesant things out? It makes me unhappy to keep my problems to myself. But I have learned to only talk to some ppl. Who understand that I just need a sounding board. Look I am a somewhat intelligent person. I can solve my own problems, but I need to vent so that I can think clearly afterwards. I guess, I'm different that way.
But there is no point in beating a dead horse isn't it? I no longer call ppl to talk about stuff. So please leave off the name calling. I find it somewhat annoying. Don't talk about me behind my back. Cause right now you barely know me anymore. But the fact that you can still hurt me is strange isn't it? Probably because I expect you to treat me the way I treat you. Foolish girl.
Another chapter in my life is closed now. Good bye. It was nice meeting you. It was nice knowing you. Now get the heck out of my life. It's time to stop clinging to the past and move on. Sayonara..!
Love,
Julie.
